Health Concerns can also be form of Ego

because this online page 245 the kits are in the bottom of page hagueus the rapper in this past paragraph explained that guyva gales is conceit is foolishness when that when one comprehends understands and comprehends tajira study of tata and the clef that one gets to serve hashem whom he is from god himself and this is why man was created so if so what are you bragging with it's it doesn't equal it's not logical you could kind of brag to show off with something that you weren't made for and you created it and you acquired it and then you speak about it you say you know even there it's not proper but at least i can understand the logical way of getting to uh to to speaking that way and feeling that way but but if this is why we were here created it does it doesn't it's a non uh it's nonsensical to to even think that i'm doing you i'm so great because i'm doing your favor my friend you're not doing your favor you wouldn't be here otherwise that's what it says in page and nevertheless this type of person including the ben tater as the rapper said holds himself great masik toyota nika it's recognizable he has not yet reached the ultimate reason why it was created with all his learning and all this darkening and all this knowledge the icker is missing and that ever said also towards the end that someone who has guyva also causes which is terrible let's continue pedic base top of 247 so do you think that a lot of people that you know are brilliant in toro i mean you mentioned a lot of people brilliant torah but not necessarily they you know it didn't pay all the dividends necessarily as to being you know men that's what the rep was saying the guy aspect like you can learn all the torah you could do all the mitzvahs and everything but if you don't if you still have gaiba you're you're not going to felt you're not going to feel you know fulfill the potential absolutely you see speaking to yeah but is it he's speaking to everyone but he does highlight the ben but they tell it as we discussed yesterday yes the answer is yes to your your point okay good morning hila let's learn page 247 pedic bass this is now the difference between the foolishness of of of having diverse to say of feeling good about yourself this means the foolishness of justification right all of these different types of foolishness that rabbit spoke about in the last few chapters so now he's kind of you know delineating every single one comp so he says if you put those three types of stusem on one scale and you compare them with to say average to the stools of doing an actual average they are not they don't have the same content as doing a hardcore sin a hardcore scene is not veda kaiva it it's a disgusting meter and maybe the result is even worse and all of that but bottom line you haven't done an average if you want if you if you ask have you violated one of the 613 commandments without perusing without interpretations the answer is no now of course there are commentators that say that are included in this mitzvah and that mitzvah and i'm not discounting that but the rep is making this comparison if you put the two on a scale and you way justification considering yourself great and and and um and hardcore guyver on one side of the scale yoni compared to the other side of the scale which is hardcore available not putting on filling and eating etc etc seemingly there's no comparison this is an aveda what does the word aveda mean you've desecrated you severed you've passed over the domain of holiness to the domain of clip of of of no good but let's see what he says when you talk about alveros sins you're talking about hard stringent strict issue and prohibitions the whole zen nevertheless to say i started [Music] on the chart of the checks check check xx on that chart on that what we call the legalistic ch chart a hardcore of era is the big x a guy over here a justification here it's made a small x a question mark but when it comes to when it comes to look what he says here the damage caused goetheme hazakis yo you said island it causes greater damage to individual mystery aveda and you know why the aveda and we've all gone through this and aveda is a one-time fake you didn't have hater you wake up he's saying what did i do such as i'm so stupid i'm so foolish i have to do truva and you do truth and you wipe it away okay this is my sin because but justification you can't wipe away easily because you think you're always right so that's why he said and that's why he pointed out yakov the benay tater because the more you're bent tighter in a way the more you come up leak with legalistic arguments i mean you know i i sit and write and research all day this is what my mind is full of everyone's coming up with justifications for their positions you know i i'll give you just one small example and i'm not going to go into it because it's it's for a future book but just in 1980 two rabbinim in the new york area decided to make an organization that opposed the agoda bond which was led by moisha feinstein the president and represent the acting secretary and you know activist and i'm i'm now involved in digging to find out what really was going on here i mean how can like to me it's like initially like how can one go against february feinstein the man besides that he was the place that got there he was such a humble person such exotic his personality he was one second you know he was so humble who did he bother who who did he start up with okay you didn't like his biscuit dinner right yeah there's something like that satmarov and rab marcus they were upon them that had a big issue with some of his pesky did him and i've gotta discuss that too in the book and mr shem but but but but i'm just saying and you go and make an opposing and i i don't want to say right now who the people that that started the organization but one of them was like his best friend or seemingly his best friend and what's the answer what's the answer the answer is justifying something that you think is right and maybe it is maybe it isn't but that's how you can come to do all kinds of things so please don't don't take what i'm saying that someone didn't average i'm not saying that you're entitled to open up another organization it's a free world you understand but all i'm saying is that this whole idea of histos creeps in to the best of the best hillary's your turn i just wanted to say that reminded me of a story that i once heard from uh that one of the sakura rebels that's the earlier cigarette or something like that told his son that he remembered being in the mid bar in a previous gilgal during the rebellion of kara and he told his and the son said some new who what'd you do who'd you follow uh uh motion he said i stayed neutral and the sun said you stayed neutral how could you stay neutral moshe obey no the leader of the jewish people and the father answered him he says if you could ask that question then you don't understand who karak was okay powerful yeah very powerful and and i could see the software rubber i don't know about the sea get there but the satan rebel was very sharp and his he was very witty you know but anyway let's go back to what we're learning here yoni is the whole idea so of course uh you didn't have vader hey vey calm down calm down do chuva get it out of your system and that's it but justification and gyver it it it grinds you it goes on you and you wake up i always say over the story which you've heard many times because it's but it's it's life that that that that you know the the the swasti um this um knew the is laying on his deathbed and he says what are they going to say about me after i die i mean what what what do you need more than that the man is dying he is the koski rebel he's exotic but he's honest and he says what am i thinking about what they're going to say about management of cuts after he passes away do you understand so guys creeps very deep into the psyche you know i don't know if freud did a study on the issue of guyvez isn't the subconscious but if it didn't would be a very interesting type of uh thing to look at what that element of there is so what the rep is saying here and this is not the only place you can find there's another swarm as well is that the damage gurimim let's continue the only reason why one does a sin is because the spirit of folly enters he this silliness and foolishness in many ways china means moshe different or machinima means strange you're innocent straight different and strange okay with feet have opened them based on man's nature you know every person has their quirk no two people are alike so uh you can't say this has to be exactly this way when you study human human nature you study psychology you know these these type of topics it always amazes me how you thought you saw every kind of stupidity and and then you find a new one you say wow how is it possible that there's even a new one and the answer is it's never ending because everyone has their little twist that little mark that's unique to them ava your deohash over available in the gallery the rabbit says when you do when you're doing aveda because of you do it because you did the aveira and you know this is the aveira that i did you know clearly what it is you identify with it he knows that he did what he was not supposed to do means and this bothers him [Music] this thing that touches him have its newer the chuva you hear that heavier that itself is a tool of truth that it should bother you you haven't yet done truth but the fact that you say to yourself why did i do this how did i do this you know that's already the beginning of truth like i just said even though it's not yet true truth um nevertheless you regret what you did in the past and through the arousal of hashem from heaven who has mercy on us a time of auspicious time so there are times when davis has mercy on us and he says i'm going to give you a a whammy of of of excitedness of get up wake up it's quite the shovel come on you know so the abuse that has mercy on us right so that would that would be in the level in the tanya that the tanya calls the russia vetovlo that's right that's correct very good very good we got some thinking uh students of siddhis yes ma shane kane and if i asked you hillary what chapter and tanya is that would you be able to tell me i think it's 11 right wow wow wow boy do we have here you're right okay that's that's because that's that's where baroque and i are holding in the let's see the smooth awareness it's all right i can't do that for a minute in the other place that's all right you did that's all right let's go further great my shane came conversely on the other hand conversely when it comes to the stupidity of justification in elaine not only doesn't he agree to his transgression and sin in the eight zoids more so who taylor but he blames others we've been saying this all along jacob it's my community how are you doing yakuzan i see you my friend i met him at burkbrook how are you hi bazoo lassie or his friend what do you want from me it's not me who is the troublemaker i got a group of friends and they make me and they slapped me into the doos or you know i grew up in a little farm town somewhere and there was hillybillies what do you want i didn't come from a yeshiva environment in a big community it was mostly familiar as we were saying yeah this was lucifer from malays right yoni you heard that expression was vilster from aladdin what do you want of my life it's either expression how do you listen [Music] i have to yoni i have to i have to keep the brooklyn within you going so not only does his justification not allow him to think about doing true foreign he's doing something worse he's blaming his community and and his friends so not only will he get out of the rut but his justification is schlepping in others into his stupidity because this very fact that he chose such an environment because and such friends had i argue he says that the the the stupidity of justification is worse than the justification than than this than the stoos of a hardcore of era a hardcore evader is your own thing you know what you did and it's limited it's contained but the justification argument and position goes in many different directions to the point where you actually you actually allow others to you stop blaming others [Music] we've spoken now about the again destructive justification he says let's go to the one that's a little a little above it ah circus david leotson in other words a little worse a little worse is i feel good about myself it's even worse bizarre next page the indian top of 249. the the justification our argument only applies to the cause for his folly i will exam hadover but he recognizes the act itself is wrong and needs tickle it's only that he justifies himself the zamasu that's why the fact that it's not good it's not because of myself like by someone who doesn't have veda you know why i did it because of my friend i will be examining who might just relate to it he knows that what was done is not a good thing he just says i blaming my friends my but sort of thicken and he knows that the thing that wasn't good needs tickle table but the second type of guy which is feeling good he comes to the conclusion without i'm good i'm good at whatever i do i didn't do any the in justification you know something bad was done but it's not my fault this this the other the second position which is worse in character is that he says what do you want i'm great the laser will vaccinate not only does does he feel that he doesn't need correction [Music] i'm great in other words i'm a great guy what do you want i'm a great guy there can't be any better than me so you know and i'm telling and we all know that these type of thoughts and arguments we see with different types of people and ourselves at different times and it continues number three well the my name is what's even higher it means even worse as far as character is concerned so here you see the third one yaakov he touches into betray someone who brags with his tear of avoidance so it seems like one and two is not about your learning and your daughtering one and two is about characteristics justification i'm the best you know but number three in other words number two hillel why am i the best because i'm god's gift to humanity whether i'ma learn it or not learn it you know who i am i'm albert einstein the the third thing is oh you know what to tell you this so maybe yoni what you asked me before this is specific to the third the person who concludes how much tight i've learned how schmackaid how great i chuckle how much cuckoo i ate her shop is and said usain kidusa shabbos right the music someone who holds himself thinking he's the best guy hasn't come to the ultimate understanding of he thinks that he was created for this world for him for himself he doesn't understand he was created to serve hashem which is idea of bitter now maybe here is going to answer yaakov's question yaakov asked a good question why does it say that guy that touches and makes a blemish in the only in the in the first two letters of the tetragrammaton the name of utk wolfgang the shame hashem the shame hashem the great he doesn't say it doesn't say i'm sorry the greatest man this idea of of making a blemish in the uk causes a deep blemish and it causes him to lose his talents and his and who he is and you know sometimes you see people everyone talents and and there are times you see some has talents and the talents are not used or you know maybe it has to do with this idea i don't know in other words the rabbit when certain rabbis and people wanted to make aliyah and they were they were rabbis and leaders in communities in the united states or canada whatever kutzler's so the rapper baklava wasn't pro wasn't a big pro aliyah man you know just like robert sullivan wasn't but i'm not talking about that but he um he said to them so where you're gonna settle you know shaliah iraq kaisel the rebbe says if you want to last inherit your throat go find just go to tel aviv or go to a moshav and go out in the kibbutz and be a rabbi there there you'll make a difference irish lion they don't need you they have a dime a dozen and you know i spent quite a bit of time the last time they saw you guys remember somebody visited me in in in rehabilitate okay so i was in the heart of the lion and the oldest used to live there in you know and i could tell you that it's saturated with gemara and hasidis whatever you want okay i found the niche that hashem you know i i had a crowd but i'm just saying it it's not as though people are coming oh they need a shoe what do you mean if you you want you rub a barrel wine shoe if you want english you know and if you want history uh you want breast lift there's a breast liver steeple uh you want khaba this chabad i mean like come on there's the there's there's the the basic necessary if you want a great cousin to make to make a a a dent in yerushalayim is an avoided crusher a difficult avoider and frankly i'm not going to go into this but i believe that many israeli rabbanim understand that they understand it very well and that's why they parked themselves outside of jerusalem because they wouldn't be able to accomplish the same jerusalem because they're they're the new man on the totem pole and and and there and there's a hundred years plus of of of hidden tomb of jewishness and scholarship and yours and your xiaomi's boy are they scholars and boy are they witty and boy are they gonna give it to you if you make yourself you know you make a mistake you're gonna hear it because with these guys and i know these guys i spent a lot of time in knockload in but iran and i spoke a lot to these people and and i know them from america too these guys are sharp really sharp you can't pull anything over them okay so here here comes an american rabbi from indiana or or chicago or new york new york and tries to make a difference in jerusalem says the la babachireba you're going to strike out you're going to ready you're making aliyah you want to be a rabbi you know find yourself a local where they need you now why do i say that because the rapper says you have an interesting verb that i didn't see before he says the blemish yakov in the uk causes one to lose their kishurain they say their talents that's a very very uh heavy heavy statement i have a talent god gave me a talent and through my guyver because by the way it's guy that too i'm going to resurrect him you know they're going to come to me because you know i had a congregation of 500 members in america so everyone's going to come to me oh really and you start a shoe or you let know besides they put up something bowler ear right everyone comes flocking and then he comes with a lecture and there's 20 people in the shul [Music] the point is that guyver ruins your talents because then you get depressed and upset and guess what many people return they leave because they came with one husband and they're very disappointed now again if you come in englishman and you want the duchess here to throw whether you get the job and be the big macho and all that or not makes no difference that's a different story you're coming for kedusha what's the difference you know what i'm saying but if you're just coming because you want an extension of your career in yerushalayim i mean i heard this i have a relative you know he's always wishing me you should be here to be mayfit's traitor in eric's israel you know and we've spoken about it a little bit you know and i could see and and he's actually an american boy but he's you know he was raised pretty much in eric's role he's the day almost a seven year 70 year old man and and i could see the way the thinking how the thinking is that if you can be mafix taylor narrative's role you've made it you know you and that is not the rebels approach the khabar approach and the balsamic approach if you're going to slow because of kedusha it doesn't make a difference whether of course in other words you need pannosa you want to teach you want to you want to inspire that's wonderful but you then park yourself in a locale that needs such people not in a saturated area where you have hundreds of such people so this is what this reminded me of i don't know if it means anything else but this is what it reminded me of let's continue [Music] why do you have to exert so much your mind in the study of theta have a classical chord you got broad brains you got a big mind and whatever you learn is great enough i should be missing a cane says that but truthfully it's not this way try to lawyer guide you what's also your time in the commander says if you didn't exert effort and you say i understand and i found the answer the gomorrah says out time in don't believe you will build the avoid without effort and exertion you cannot ultimately understand really the torah in its pure understanding we're not talking about hamuna now in understanding unless you harvest however it means you apply effort and diligence i feel a classic way even if you have a broad mind the column the oven and it's easy for you to to to understand the comment nevertheless you have to apply effort so he says and if indeed you're right you have great brain you know you have a sharp head and and it's easy for you to get grasp things so the more you exert yourself and tell you the more you'll understand my shane can't conversely because you know if you only spend a little time on learning and hurting my gear you won't you won't and i saw this in yeshiva i saw guys who had their heads it was so so much faster than mine and many of others but they knew less at the end why because they they right away they opened the camaro they one two three the question is how often they open the camaro right because they because they hop it right away they get it right away they don't exert themselves all of this this type of thinking is because of the folly sham hasson and one blesses himself in his heart and justifies and says man i only needs a little time over mata gear and without with a little effort it i will come to the same conclusion this is a very very important point because there's a lot of people out there like this why do i have to spend time harving and taylor and you should know the real benay tayden the real good daily terror yakov those that were even though they had great heads but the hass mother they talked about a small baron bomb of mir right who i wrote about in my book mir i spoke to his talmida he was a great masmit a masmid batoyara is a whole different level so although he had a great head and all that but that's not that's not the icker of that person this was his mother and that's what the rep is saying here that that you have to harven taylor so then the good brain you have will will produce so much more in kane the included even if i accept your argument that you don't need a lot of time to understand because you get it right away because you have a great a great mind no he says so how much more would you know if you spent time learning well there miss game toy senseless shout out to your guide to matrices that episode this is really a mistake mr gamora says next page 251 i want to conclude please the paragraph that ever says that the gomorrah says lawyer guide so what do you mean you no because compared to what you can understand what you know now is nothing even though you have a great brain a great head yes [Music] oh boy i'm telling you that abra shop took us for a ride here it's so if you know if you learn is my moral and you compare to what we're learning you say is this the same river because it's my murmural scholar deep hasidic thoughts and here is like going into character personality so here he talks about now on top of 251 someone who is impacted his distresses he says health because of health uh in other words i can't exert myself too much i gotta sleep seven eight hours i have a friend when i call me i have to go to sleep i say why do you have to go to sleep now because the walk says i have to go to sleep are you tired now i'm not tired but it's it it's this if you're not tired you don't need to go to sleep learn daven read there was a cluster that betrayal brooke used to get up in the middle of night he would say and say in a clean way he would say what did i get up for to go to the bathroom he was an old man he wouldn't have to go to the bathroom i got up and he took some sleep and he started learning some safer you learned the rest of the night he fell asleep he fell asleep but why would i get up just go to the bathroom let me just finish the paragraph wow he says i have a difficulty straining my mind or my eyesight now we're not talking about someone who has an issue with the eyesight you know i have sleep apnea many times i could be at the computer or reading something and i just fall asleep like that or not or a problem with night driving you know there are physical issues with with eyesight right we're talking about someone doesn't have a condition you know and all of a sudden he says i can't strain my mind i can't look into the safer you know again if indeed he's having issues from the eyesight and the safer so he either needs better glasses or he needs something else we're not talking about that our shop is not addressing that he's talking about a a a a condition that one convinced himself of i have a problem i didn't sleep enough i didn't i you know i strained my eyes you know that type of argument and he says and he says it's a mukhlet very very strong words it's an absolute lie [Music] he quotes gamora you have a headache yanny yasik but i'm sure you've heard this in crying berlin many times if your body is all messed up and shaking and hurting yasic but good morning aravind we just finished air venus oh my flesh marpe will be healed in canaan's ice cream all this comes from that that leads him in a bad way actually until he does contrary to his understanding in addition to being contrary to god's will to the cocktails that you could create lots of potatoes avoid them you created to to exert effort and study of training instead of this instead of this you find excuses including health excuses this is very unusual you don't find it usually you see this for them to identify health excuses and again you know such a paragraph needs to be looked at carefully okay the rashaba is not it's not telling you you know to abuse your body okay but at the same time you know sometimes we go a little overboard and we in the name of health we we you know we so it's it's a balance it's a true balance you know and and those that try to argue well this guy smoked till he was 85 and he and he dropped that only at that 90. so i can smoke till 90 and i'll die then why can't i enjoy the cigarette or drink alcohol it doesn't work that way oh smarter what do you guys want to say anything yeah i wanted to say that uh i have sometimes quipped that if i have if i have trouble sleeping that uh my my sigula for is is to open a safer huh yeah because then i'll go right to sleep right and and the vert they say is if if you're middle of the day you're at your studio mo show and the phone isn't ringing and you don't have a job start learning and all of a sudden the hr is going to send your phone call motion i want to commission you for this job because he doesn't want you to learn that's a okay trevor have a great day we'll see everyone tomorrow bye