Face to Face with G-d

or volume two of my mother mulu cut him his father's miso young kipper this was a fabregan that the frida keraba had in nineteen and also young kipper 1938 which in the hebrews tough static tests and where will you get this purity with hashem before hashem so on yom kippur we are we are experiencing lefnayashem on this day your sins are atoned and it doesn't say what day it is i'm sorry no the question is not on the day we know it's yom kippur because it follows the verses but it doesn't say who is the one who atones it says on this day it will be forgiven for you upon you who who me that's question one [Music] did you say page volume base of the look at him i said the page 34 of of of volume base of my moral muslim 34 got it okay and then the truth what is the answer the question is right who is the one who forgives us so there's a verse in israelia it's not in the torah it's not your sins so although over there it doesn't say explicitly who the i is the gangster eve right direct and there's indirect we call that lashinister so although that's los angeles that ever says but we do see an interesting thing in that position it doesn't just say one time i forgive it says so that itself is telling again remember the way a mimer works he sets up the questions and the structure in the beginning and then he gets into the heart of the issue the the divine discussion about whatever he wants to discuss and at the end he'll he'll answer the questions uh directly or indirectly so he sets up the position right now that the verse organized and judgmental meaning everything is a b follows a and c everything has an order a say there the normal ways of speaking is i will forgive you you don't say i i will forgive you if you say aye aye you think either the person you know has a speech impediment or or there's something wrong so the rebel says that this anointing denotes an experience he calls it not that it's derogatory rather it's positive in what way is it positive that it's a transcendental experience and that's why since it's transcendental it doesn't conform to the rules and the rules is you say once and now you don't say twice but i'll tell you now what does this mean even if you sinned against a certain law in the toyota god forbid me comma that's why there's an additional word on because it's saying whoever i am whoever i am in my very essence and core can even forgive a sin because seemingly how can a sin be forgiven fashem says i don't want you to do this and you breach god's will sorry you know that he tells you imagine uh your employer tells you don't do this and you do it you there's grounds for being fired i'm sorry you know you didn't mean it you didn't this the bottom line is you broke the rule if you broke the rule you get a punishment and here we say no i broke the rule and there's still place in the person not the person in hashem who set the rule to forgive that's unbelievable says that abby you're right it is unbelievable because it's not coming from a place that's believable it's coming from a place that we call unbelievable what is that place that place is transcendence that place in hebrew is let's say the words again so that's what we're looking for we're coming we're going now towards him kippur we're going to read of a lot of our hates and let's let's call a spade a spade we're guilty in many ways okay so how is it that you expect hashem to forgive you the answer is i want to tap into that aspect of god that transcends sin now this does not mean by the way that i'll sin during the year i'll wait for yom kippur and say i'll reach with nayashem te toru and i have a clean slate the mother says some of the things that way doesn't get an opportunity although the mother says also if he pushes himself in he gets in delta ever explains that already in tanya but i'm not going into that uh that whole suggest that whole discussion we're talking very simple so what are we looking at what are we looking for hillel on yom kippur we're we're looking to reach a place of on [Music] the rapper said all this he said over there in yeshaya although it doesn't say clearly but at least we see that it says something strange there's no indication of something unusual yoni this verse is a is a is a straightforward on this day you will be forgiven purified from all your sins before god you're purified straightforward the problem is it doesn't say who is yakha alechem so what the rebbe's question is that the the the answer and explanation that we give for the possibility won't work over here because you shine as possible is indicative of something different and greater twice a nike here it only says once a night so it makes sense but nevertheless it doesn't say who why not that's the question he goes further and what is the content of this capara it is litarescrim it's to purify you now which level is purifying us it says it'll purify again what is this question motion what's this question avi the question the question is since we don't know who is the one forgiving and normally when you break a rule you get punished and you're not forgiven and nevertheless here it says you are forgiven where is that coming from where is it coming from and that the average person or the average godly experience is tit for that here you say no so there must be something of different about this that's able to accomplish let's continue the earth yes i'm having a hard time even in the havamina stage of this not presenting in kurdish parochial as being uh having every every rafamanus on us because these are he's those are all fine um not just slogans fine realities but here we want to understand in a second you have to logically understand it so yes he's heard talk to him but but that's an emotional it's an emotional he has but why you broke the rule you broke the rules you shouldn't have rachmann but even in hashem's uh paradigm that's that calls for extra well it's not as impossible okay okay so fine so that's the question where in the verse here do we see this concept alluded to you're telling me if you're asking after the fact that we know we go to we know everything but you know we know about yom kippur we know about us you're asking but the rebels says you got to take the verse as it is and look at the verse and see where in this torah verse do we find this concept this is this is this is this this is the khabad way of of of learning aposic is to you have to you have to find it in the posit you have to explain and not just say it feels good and it's right and that's true it does feel good and it's right and hashem is rahmanis but show it to me in the verse so you know you have to what what i said it sounds like fish to me this is the way we learn lit fish and not lit fish it's it's it's learning cities it's um yes that ever ashab writes since you mentioned it and i want to get caught up so we got to go that you should learn see there's the way you learn tomorrow so the word the way the way they learn that's the exact same way you have to learn a mimer and that's what you see let's go further very good thank you you're welcome [Music] a third question god will purify us and forgive us for all of our sins before hashem be purified what what's what's wrong with this part of the verse look how he says [Music] i still don't understand what the rubber says but granted that's what it says in the process moshe right so the first section stop on this day you are forgiven and purified oh great then comes along it implies there's something else that's still left over that needs with hashem to taro jonas and you follow if there would not be anything left then what what are you saying with now it's repetitious he really said in the first look could the possible ended with the words period no more yes it'll be very clear what do you mean you already told me that i've been cleansed obviously there's something still and those hatred that's left granted purification only if that's before god what does that mean that's his question now let's continue it's a twofold question what is left over that needs purity that needs forgiveness and number two what does it mean that the forgiveness comes only if it's before god well of course it's before god our entire dialogue here and our is before hashem okay finished now we get to the meat and potatoes of the miners [Music] whatever says that you have to turn your clocks in your head and he says you got to understand that the entire i experience of yay makipurim is one thing with hashem you face to face with hashem in other words this is where it begins and and and you have to understand what does it mean i'm face to face with hashem the rapper says why have hazal organized that the reading of yom kippur is impossible is deceived by him what does it say the children of ireland were very close before god and they were too close and they died the zeal aliyah below they had an aliyah without a retreat right jonason i love hashem i all i want is hashem no wife no children no work nothing just god we call that yearning longing without retreat or in his words here aliyah fellowship right i just want i just want to be i'm going there to stroll i'm dropping everything forgetting about family and there were some people who did that very nice but are you taking them along are you going to raise or or you're going to raise money there to somehow bring bring them over i mean like you're forgetting about everybody like what's going on here aliyah bolaji well the banayaram they were so in love with hashem they had an experience that was so big awesome kierba they were in god's eye in apple's eye he was mamish with hashem that all they wanted was to be with hashem what happened vaya musu they had close hannah fish excision of the soul they died they expired because of love for god that is not the intent and therefore that ever says howard they were the children of aaron he says yeah but they did this before the torah was given so things were kind of on your own whatever you decide is the way to love god you were entitled well they they they said the way we love god is just to flip out and just be with god and we don't want to have anything to do with the physical world wait wait give me give me one second give me one second after this this verse these verses and passages comes the verses about says that this teaches us that yom kippur you have an opportunity to face god and to have that god experience so so what he's saying is like this although the beneath at the end of the day were incorrect in in their chukka bapol but where they were coming from and since it was before before the toyota therefore they were they were they were correct where they were coming from but the but at the end the objective is not that that was their mistake but but they were there is an experience with hashem when during the year do we have the one day a year where you're allowed to have kind of claims on that fish young keeper and not only are you allowed to have clothes on that fish we don't mean god forbid dying we mean you know just being with hashem which we are is true all day right and everything's you know knows none of the you know how to smear yourself you know a lot of the pleasure you're not allowed to wear leather shoes you know whatever in other words all of this is to point to one thing god you have to be with hashem or just be with god this day so that's the meaning of hashem with hashem is an experience just like the binet arun had when they when they when they approached god yes hello to go back and understand this phrase is he kind of evoking is he's kind of evoking that that there was like a tradition among seekers of hashem before the coming of avar mabino uh and so on that that this would uh and and like you see in mankind the this um uh you know this sort of recurring theme in many cultures of some people who who really want to have a close decision but by renouncing everything so i'm wondering if they sort of um there's a kind of indirect or a bleak reference to that fact and whether the terrorists are hints of that and the personalities outside outside of like the path of abraham i'm thinking specifically of malkit and so on so is that was that the path that they follow well yes but but but first we have to know and and he doesn't give a reference here maybe maybe someone knows yaakov maybe when when did historically when did this did the story with the binet iron take place before mountain torah or after mountain tour the fact that it's written later aimed but does anyone know when was it i think it only makes sense to me that it would have been after because because um it's by the the erection of the mishkan right and the mishkan right so and therefore what i don't understand i didn't want to get into it because it just takes more time what i don't understand is what does it mean here vaginas that called them should it not say there be ignore so what does that mean you're right so that's that's in a certain sense is my question meaning our we're not even a view kind of uh kind of rejecting this new path uh and trying to go back to an old bath i i i i don't know if i would say the word rejecting but not even a view wanted to experience the independence of of being with hashem without any uh restrictions and uh and law and order yeah so i don't know if it was a rejection i don't think it was a rejection but they felt that the best way to experience hashem is to be with ashram now what the rep is doing in the mimer here if i'm understanding it correctly is an amazing thing the rep is saying that on yom kippur you have the right to be with the hashem not only the right that's what you have to reach in other words to me it's like he's saying yom kippur is the day of the year where you get your independence to experience cloisonne and that's a very uh and not quite an effort again literally god forbid died but we're talking about where a person can say to himself i just want you i i don't let me have the experience of being with you what how does it feel to be with you i want to feel that and when and when you and when you go towards that through the 24 25 hours of yom kippur 26 hours whatever then then the whole idea of sin doesn't begin sin begins when you make laws and rules and regulations that means it's the way hashem and maybe this address is yaakov's point it's the way hashem avi has put himself into rules and regulations but it's hashem who puts himself into rules and regulations so since it's hashem there's a transcendence of god which is beyond rules and regulations when he chooses not to be in rules and regulations and that's whom kipper and therefore that's room keeper i want to touch that place i want to experience that place and if that's what i'm experiencing sin is meaningless meaningless meaning let me let me explain sin is meaningless meaning that a jew is beyond sin the fact that he sinned is only once rules and regulations became important yesterday you want to say something um but in order to gain atonement you need to go according to the regulations as well because you are in [Music] if i implied otherwise god forbid of course of course yeah listen but the question is why do why are rules and regulations important is it because it's coming from a rules and regulations perspective or it's coming from a transcendental perspective that's the analysis so the hashem is that rules and regulations as you say is important but not because of because rules of regulation themselves are important is because god wants them to be important so it's all about god it's all if they are shrimp the toru so what should be your experience young kipper hashem of course i'm agreeing with you i'm agreeing with you i'm agreeing with you i'm not disagreeing but i'm saying what's the what's the mindset where am i coming from where am i coming from because because johnny said otherwise you have we have a problem if we didn't have veda and hashem says this is the punishment it's an oxymoron that the same god can forgive you yaakov says god had rahmanis that's not a logical answer what what what mercy are your rules rules are your rules not rules if your rules are rules you broke the rules you get punished i'm sorry right did you know i know i know but even though there's a rule but i was like [Music] so so the rules of atonement what we're learning what what see this introduces us to and by the way this is from the alta river you know and and let's nail it's the master let me ask you someone who's staying there in the summer with all kinds of schmutz throughout the year with all kinds of nonsense with all kinds of ego and all that he comes from keep it to show me take a shower get dressed get clean no no you're here the way you are if you express your inner shaman you have a regret deep inside you're pure why because your essence is always pure what became stained is only the rules and regulations level the essence is never is never been stained never it's covered up that's what we're talking about listening to and and and you should know that this is not just a fantasy this is the true idea of truva and it's the only way that a person can can truly find solace in their avoid this hashem because otherwise we we have so many issues a whole year's worth of packages on our backs that even if i could solve this area i can't solve this area comes your kipper and your keeper says i if you connect with neyashem it's all solved you have a clean slate what so you have to ask yourself what's going on over here our our religion is not a religion of voodoo and a religion of you know nonsense this is a religion of of what did hashem have in mind and how is he suggesting the the way we find this this clean slate and the answer is is a kickback as hello maybe said a kickback to the corvasim lesnaya listen i always say once a year a person has to do something where they go back to their they do something that might be so unstylish unnormal and and it's like but it's it's an expression of breaking the boundaries and and and and being free and and really being with the hakodesh baruch the paradigm shift you know that once a year every night you go to sleep what about if you decide one night you're not going to sleep you're going to learn you're going to die you're going to have a brain and you're doing it because you want to break the habit of sleeping every night and we know how hard that is as we get older gets harder and harder you know and i'm not talking about you know the schwa's night and your shauna rabbit night he should be shopping i'm not talking about talking about a regular monday tuesday wednesday and you say i i have to give you one example everyone has you know i'm gonna go on a 10 mile walk and i'm gonna shreds and i'm gonna but i've done something that i have haven't been able to do because i'm limited and you break your boundary that's the left nay hashem the left empty taro is please give me these 24 to 26 hours i just want to be with hashem nothing nothing and that's what and that's why we don't eat then we minimize sleep and everything else because everything else is a rule and regulation and we're looking to experience lesnay hashem and trust me you can everyone can in their own way and when you and and but you have to be very focused and you have to be very honest and you have to be willing to express your heart and and double kavanagh and and when you do that you'll walk out of your kipper as the word is in english with like um a catharsis you know it's very cathartic you know very i'm like i'm new i'm new um the next day and that's why the four days between yom kippur and sukkos are the connected the shame hashem yud kevke four days for each of the letters right you'd kevke and chabad we say good job and and for matsuyam kipper what are you a good jumpth yeah because you're experiencing the youth of the shame hashem isn't that a young tiff it's a great jumpthis well i mean how do you experience that because hashem to taru let's continue a few a few more minutes a few moments let's continue and he says [Music] you're lacking something next page 35. when you commit a transgression of sin you reduce and you're lacking the energy of caducer that should have been in the world vis-a-vis keeping what you're not supposed to do and you didn't so you create a uh whole for you shall clean the house over there by your terrace the tear game and the titan says purify the house that's the meaning of cleansing cleaning okay he's even involved in the service of the heart meaning he gives himself a good fetch when he dabbles and he feels something and he sheds a tear you know what i'm saying he gets into his daughternick and also his character hey malpia are generally speaking positive he's careful with what he says and he memorizes words of torah that are engraved in his in his mind in his head and he reviews them the whole is matzah he's going to the chicago chicago beers football game if they're still playing football and he's standing there and saying kanye west is he's sitting in the grandstands and he's insane reviewing tatum was walking down you know um the fifth avenue manhattan and he's saying toyota show you they calls through all of this behavior that he just mentioned who knock you behind the arts in his own eyes he's very pure very clean [Music] this type of cleansing if you think you're a holy roller because of all this it's considered for you a hate a [Music] oh you have to do two but wait a minute i was considering tanya and mishaniya's watching the football game or walking around yeah the problem is you think you you think you're so special because of that your ego is there that's why the politics says there's still a little remnant left over yay and it has to be cleansed before hashem it's over any and all types of iniquities in yiddish [Music] who are you who are we but what do you mean i dive in three times a day i have she wouldn't but what's going on inside do you have some pride left do you have some yeshs do you have you know do you feel yourself better because you died three times a day with a minion or a shoe and you learn and you have sued him and you review torah and you remember all those things and your friend doesn't how do you look at him i'm better than him you're better than him you got to be true for your kipper and again here you honestly you might say well there's rules and regulations he didn't do it and i did do it so i get more a greater piece of of the level of giant thing moshe right i'll get a bigger piece of meat with my shirt comes a bigger bigger shawarma i remember the first time i met yoni was at the shawarma shop in in in i got a bigger piece of shawarma or here in baruch the more kegel kegel and trolling kishka like are you out of your mind are you out of your mind is that is that what hashem wants where are we where are we you know and this is what you have to think about so it's not that you should stop learning and dabbing and and and doing all the good things but what is the same picky of us basic piercings and the altered edmond chapter 27 elaborates we will create it for this purpose if we wouldn't do this god doesn't need us go back you know that go back you put here for a purpose the cockpits aren't the picky of us it's it's basic judaism so that ever says here that this idea he asked the question hilo what does him come to add so the answer is it comes to add even to someone who can justify his existence because he learns in davans and everything else nevertheless it's all he it's his yeshs it's his ego on some level so he needs to do tuva and for that you have to be directly before god because why because for that law and order i'm in law and order what do you want you told me to go to shoe i go to sleep tell me that your timeline governing learning learn i'm doing what you want in other words what we're addressing here we conclude with this what we're addressing is that the if someone asks you a question can you point to one of the 613 mitzvahs where it says you're not allowed to be about geyser could you find it for me the answer is no you can't you can derive from this verse and that verse right so the reb is saying the fact that i can't point to 1-6-13 it's not because it's not important it's because it's the essence of older 6-13 and that's nash toru and as i conclude with the famous vert of the carliner saddik the holy the bar not google i believe either him or the flame of carlina i'm writing about the carolina now so he said it doesn't there's no availa in the torah there's no sin the torah to be melancholy to be depressed to be your boss to be sad you can't find one of the 6 13. and there's no mitzvah for a man to go to the mithra in the torah we're not talking about bonnie but fila chiles ezra talking about like a woman has an obligation etc and the kalina said just as being oxford sad can lead a person to the worst things although it itself is not a sin but it can lead to the worst sins because you give up and you don't care so too going to the mikveh is no mitzvah but what going to the mikvah can lead a person to is as the greatest mitzvous the idea that there's there is part of our experience is beyond rules and regulations that's what this mimer is tackling and that's why such an important insight when we come to shul and to shem and yom kippur and we ask hashem to forgive us and give us a clean slate and give us another year of opportunities we need to focus on the in between the lines what's written you know i'm not of course like jonathan said what's written is we say but state it's obvious i know i know i'm saying it's obvious but yet we we we goof up we understand that but it's the things that are in between the lines that i really want to clean up everyone have a great day zait maxliach and we'll learn tomorrow take care 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