Essence of Chasidus #28- Modeh Ani according to Chasidus is Yechida of every Jew - only pure & good

so um i'd like to see if we can finish the countries by our break which is uh tish above hopefully it will be celebrating with shiite yerushalayim uh but um one way or the other i mean one way or the other we'll uh i'd like to finish it so let's go right to the text page um page 50 page 61 chapter 11. so now okay thank you there you go okay so let's go to page 61 chapter you alef now after the rebbe explained to us the four different interpretations of maidani based on shot remiss and said he comes now to explain what is the what is hasidis's explanation let's read inside learn insight now the previous explanation shall be done that they're based on the four sections of trader had to understand taylor the simple the hint the the homiletic the drush sermon say the esoteric the kabbalistic which correspond to the four levels within each first jew's soul nephesh ruach this explains specifics if you compare it if it's compared to ha cloud to the general rule in comparison to the general rule of modality which is going to say in a moment all these four are specifics what is the general rule of of maidani it's not about the resurrection it's not about and it's not about other the other interpret the kabbalistic about malchus in your side and all that it's very simple give thanks oh you don't be thankful god returned restored to the shaman you be thankful comes along i see this which we already established earlier in this essay is called chapter udalif first paragraph of the new chapter page which is called see this gives us a general interpretation a general explanation not a specific one and what does to this explain see this explains the essential point and here it is in the beginning of each day who been made our needs with more danny minimize your diet we say it before we wash our hands as we discussed at length which means i feel it be a diamond tomatoes even if you have spiritually contaminated hands because you didn't wash necklace yet how could it be that we say made our knee with these with with the spiritual impurity on our body we shall call out because all the impurities of the world ain't in the tamils yehudi cannot defile the mighty with of any and every year it doesn't impact it it can't touch it f share the third it's page 63 it's possible that's a jew is missing this issue or that issue but the maidani within every jew nisha thomas is always pristine and complete and this is everyone knows the basic idea one second is that this is the basic idea that the neshama in its pure pristine state is flawless is exceptional it's beyond the whole category of tumantara when we say tumantara when we say purity laws are purity and laws of impurity we're already talking about a specific place within the soul within the design what we're learning now is that khasiddha says that the maida ani of a jew transcends all of those specific places it is what we call the jew the yehudi that's why markham is called in the beginning ish yehudi even though he was from the tribe of benjamin binyamin why because he represents yehudi yes yes sir so the ani even if he doesn't know it correct correct let me ask you if you don't know that um during the day you won the lottery did you still win the lottery yes you yet don't know it hopefully you'll find out sooner than later another the fact that we don't know or more so the fact that there are schmutz on we messed up that ebba says yes i understand you messed up but that's a particular part of your being your essence doesn't have any schmutz and and and if you think about this thought this isn't you know it is but it isn't in other words this is the essence of truva how can you do chuva how can you do truva if you made damage and the answer is this part of ourselves that never has damage on it and it's from there that you're doing truva and dalton explains this by the way and you get us a true at length there is that part of true will for this sin and that's in karus you know this and that and it's all important and it's all true but then if a yi reaches a part right what is the word in the moment that's brought the biggest sinner on earth to gomorrah says you know la havedo the will chamberlain the famous basketball star bragged about excuse the expression sleeping around with a thousand women right and i belong what it says was the biggest sinner so he whatever he probably didn't even even worse than will chamberlain have though right and nevertheless what does the mother say that bashar shaytan in one moment god he cried he said i and in that oi was his trooper and he died the truth and what does let me say someone who can buy can acquire the world to come in one moment that doesn't mean in one hour but xiaomi is in one turn in one notion in one movement in one oy he's a people have to work all life to get into islam and allah this this this grub young this this boar that lived his life like such a bore says the gemura this isn't see this isn't kabbalah is a muslim it's gemara and maura says that he was kindness because in that one show he expressed i see that i made a bad mistake and i'm with you god and no more that where does that come from but it just is made up what happened a person is living a lifestyle that is terrible spiritually bereft of god and worse and all of a sudden he gives a shray he gives a scream oi i realize my mistake and that he gets layla first of all it's not fair here we are every day we learn we die when we do mitchells we raise our children we pay tuition and everything else and you know we make a husband and here's someone who lives like a boar and a heathen a bohemian and all that and he and and and he merits and what's the answer because sh shaw because he made a an immediate about face to his very core and when you touch your core that's true yes yay okay so so your last kasha so i have a cash on your last caution no problem i remember learning this very long ago but there was a gemara about a big sadiq whose whole life was a big sonic and the day that he died he became notradic he became a russia so adaraba how do we how does this fall in i mean if this guy can do all sins and then the last day of his life all of a sudden duchumba this guy his whole life was a huge sonic and he impacted many people did a lot of good things and then he lost it all you know in the ninth inning the bottom of the night and you know and and good that you mentioned that and and the i believe you're referring to can i i have every moment matters every single moment yes the the what are you referring to is that the mr gemara says that he went into the kaido shakadoshi and he was a client right there right right 20 minutes for you you should like the cut you cut you he went in for years and you know the mishna yuma talks about how they tied a string around the korean girdle because they were fearful they wouldn't come out because if you had one martial one outside thought while bringing the tyrus and during the ceremony in the in the in the kaido shankar darshan you died on the spot no monkey busy dropped there that's that's what the mission says so they were fearful and then what would be the problem a regular person is not allowed to go into the craters of conduction including the clean stamp so how do you get him out he's dead on the floor in the crate of sakadoshi the answer is that's why they tied a string around them and they would pull them out what it says was such a taddick that he went in for many years and he came out then what it says i don't know if it's right there or else we're in the gamut that at the end of the line his life like the last he became a stuki he bought in into the philosophy of the shadow seas that's looking which is they don't accept hatership on pet the oral law and that's heresy so what do we see we see that this is what you're referring to i believe so what's the answer so the question again is asking is he hears that sadiq all these years he went into the kardashians so holy how is it that at the end in one moment he he goes up so the israel says it says confirming that that's the case the question is how does that work so the pastors you say well the person should never trust himself and that's that's the basic answer even someone who's so holy so righteous should not trust himself and this is very important and frankly has been repeated they repeated to us in the last five ten years in our community with people who were so-called righteous and did many things and then you see that either they were a scam or they fell into that into uh bad situations and they they lost it so you can't trust a person should never trust themselves and that's a basic talent in yiddish kite a person who says i can trust myself is is wrong and about but what is the the spiritual idea and psychological idea of european clinton is the following the fact that on the last day he can become an epic that his entire avoided till then was not 100 pure it's not that it in other words there was something missing and in a very refined way one second if a person lives with this that we were talking about now in the summer this level of the summer this level of the shaman's beyond impurity because it's it's god are you gonna see it's like saying god you can screw up no god can't screw up if anyone believes god screws up that that god i don't want he's not god it's not god she's not god hashem is all good only good i oh the way we perceive it the way it comes into the world all kinds of explanations but the exam of hashem is that is his godliness is a lycos and because it's gavantic sweet beautiful it's i who have the problem it's the situation on the ground that can't relate to this or that so living with when we say living with yehida it means living with god you are a stick of god you are a god and if you are a god the whole idea of messing up and not messing up is not god that's already a condition that's already a manifestation that's already a description we're talking about beyond description so when someone lives a certain way and then they mess up it shows that the entire time they weren't living with god they were living with self a refined self a behavioral self but it's impossible to be god and screw up in other words can you be god and then become not god that's an oxymoron that's a contradiction if you're god you're always god and if you're not god you're never god so siddhis teaches that the hashem inserted in the yid on that's god and that's why dr ebba's work in chapter 2 and tanya is so amazing and important you have a we have a piece of god in us that means we are a stick god now if you live with that then your god god in the form of a human being to serve god to serve yes my because i just want to go back for a second about you he wasn't like 100 pure what well first of all there is nobody who is 100 pure so i don't i'm not i'm we have to i guess answer that question statement there's no one that's a hundred percent pure that statement contradicts the idea that there's a sadiq especially according to the alternative and tanya but even not according to the alternate the way you ask any jew that learned in a piece of mother what's the basic belief that a sadiq when he becomes a sadiq either he's always been inside who comes in the state of being is that the sadiq doesn't mess up yeah but yeah we know that okay yeah okay what you quoted is sir what my is is is egg beating and back biting i hear i hear it's hard on his chest it's not coming and it's not i'm not saying this to as a put down it's a western way of thinking it's not a year that's your way of thinking i'm not even talking about the citizen way of thinking the yiddish way of thinking is the gamut go back to the mother before see this the mother says things come about in shabbos the commander says call me whoever thinks that who did a sin is making a mistake that is a gomorrah comes along my shirt and instead says wait a second he goes and takes a woman but ever puts her husband on the front so he should get killed so he can go and have and marry her isn't that a real a real russia good question right and you can look at their commentaries how they answer it but how does that chive with the gemara that called me sha ahmed that mush david is making a mistake that's the mother says so in other words there is a what's the explanation there is a level of david which is nishama and over there there's no hate and that's what we're learning this is all consistent that level of sadiq and that level of david and that level of of every jew is beyond hate that's the verb that we're learning here that there's a part of a heat or medicine the real yeah the the jew the yohudi is beyond sin even governor melith when he allowed himself into a second stage that's where sin begins and that's what in that so you can understand the good that you can understand with bachelor and everything else so if so you'll ask a question so what's the difference and and us in us the answer is whether it this this this idea this reality permeates every aspect of our life more aspects or less aspects and that's what the balacania is teaching in tanya chapter 14 that every jew is shy to be a sadiq and his sonic his version of sadiq not the the gemara is version of sadiq meaning that every jew is shy to perfection by the way if you have my book to behave i wrote at length about this years ago the concept about this idea because this is what you what you brought up much is it's very important i'm not making light of it because it's a very fundamental issue and i wrote a whole a whole chapter on this idea of perfection what is is the idea of perfection within the jewish experience and what is the idea of perfection so this is a topic that needs to be you know thought about learned about and thought about and i'm giving it here just because because it's this level of the shaman so that sadik lives yeshida so moshe when you when you when you ask about uh you know that like you made the statement you know ev every person you know goofs up the answer every person goofs up when when he or she is not living and that's the verb here that when you get up in the morning and you say my name is so when you begin your day you're living with truth the issue is what happens throughout the day where you you put this truth into the background then you go on with your day and the day is the way with the day is but that's the verdict that in the morning when you get up you have a yakita experience now it's up to us every day to take that experience which is in us and actualize it and bring it throughout the day let's continue inside anyway it needs a lot of thought more thought but this is part of the discussion so this was good let's continue and he says now on page 63 the indians said the concept of a blemish or even spiritual contamination of ram is possible from from the perspective of yakida within the soul is the word means it's united constantly for the essence of god and shaykh look at the words here a shark means it's not possible you're innocent not that it doesn't happen it's not possible any kind of blemish and spiritual contamination has [Applause] why is it that in the maidani we don't say one of god's names one of the seven names that you're not allowed to erase and the explanation is since that the essence of the soul has for god is for the essence of god the light to be shamed that cannot be grasped in any name yankov hillary very nice it's all names that's only a name an important name that's something that's beyond the name is right you and i to call each other there's something beyond the name the essence you know what learning over here is even the names of hashem the seven names of god which ain't in the hook him and halal raised them they're holy nevertheless it's still a shame i told you the story of mental foot of us comes out of chernovitz after nine years in in in hard labor in siberia he's now in england he go they you know he goes on the street he says that you yeah he says uh trillion he doesn't speak a word of english the guy looks at him like i wasn't when someone saw him the other day there was a cleaner person who helps clean the house didn't understand spanish didn't understand a word just looks at me and looks and looks and i look at her and i'm trying a bit right so medley shows the man the children and the guys looking so he knew one english word you know you says you you you trillion i trillion he roses arm up i push through nothing needs to be said nothing needs to be said anything that would have been said would have would have messed up the situation because he wasn't interested in feeling you know about phil and then all that he touches the heart he touches the shaman this issue of the essence the essence being beyond the name yeah so obviously the name is composed of letters yeah so is this connected to the idea of a negan is like beyond it is those beyond constraints yes yeah same idea the same idea but you know that that a niggin without words touches deeper in the soul that are negan with words because the with words is limited to the words correct good good example that's why this explanation that we just said that modal need transcends definitions and conditions and touches the essence which is pure says that but that's why this explanation about maudani is specifically exidus not in kabbalah speak about the four levels that already describe descriptive action spirit intellect and will aina mevarim in bold they do not truly explain in the concept of oneness you say them is we find even more so bizarre what more could you have than the side the kabbalistic the esoteric nevertheless a madrigal ship in the sharma the zoa enumerates the levels of the soul and this nephesh that's the way the zohar says it look what the rabbit says the zora does not mention as one of the four levels of the soul yakida but rather the fourth one is called why this because the zoar is limited to what it is and it's it's only kabbalah it's only mysticism so mr simpson only talks about a soul-to-soul experience in other words like this there is nephesh there's ruach there's the summer and what is kabbalah the fourth level sold the shaman to the shama whatever but the point being why doesn't the zara use the word the answer is not just a matter of names and words it's because the zohar can't use you go tell this you go tell this that someone is learning zara can smack you in the face yes hillary so where do we get the terminal from it says and no and the note here it's not explained and elaborated in eight's kind but is it introduced there i mean where do we get that term from it's introduced in apostic that's it's called i don't have right now the reference have to look it up here we'll find it here you guys can find it but there is there is there is a reference to it but what what we're learning right now is that see this kind of was the first to introduce it as a with a name with a name you have to we're saying that you read this beyond name but in order to talk about something beyond name i have to have what to talk about so we call that thing that's beyond name yeshida oneness yeah i used to say the only one the only one exactly the only one great affection you know what yeah of course okay fine but but again the affection is already a twist i'm saying the only one is pure you can say look great affection you could say whatever cold the nakuda of oneness is is is pure everything else is an adjunct so sometimes it's with great affection sometimes it's with tears in other words the fifth filler yom kippur right is yeshida we all know you know when the gates are closing we're all standing there sitting beside us we're very moved right i mean it's it's not a joke if you believe in in hashem and you believe in terror you believe in feeling you believe in in the system and you know that this is countdown the gates being closed either you're getting you know you're getting you know god forbid not it's not it's not a joke it's not a joke it's very serious so what's the expression of yahida then for many people it's tears it's it's it's it's it's you know so it's a it's a a serious time you come out with a schritz that's why you know you know i don't know but to me you know i think you know everywhere the connie the really the the most intense time is is the ila that's really where the thriller should be devoured as ripped like would say right devout but really convoluted in comparison to cole nidre in comparison to music in comparison to the son of daiki and unfortunately sometimes we're so tired and we're so well we can barely move that the ila is like schwa so that's why i think someone here told me one of you guys said that rabbit twister was showing david and the elect one or two years before he passed on at the the shul next door you know why did he push himself to darwin because he understood because where because he came from a background that he knew that the ela is where it's at the closing prayer so when you say hillel with great affection that's one description and expression of how you of of taking the yakida but you keep this pure so for someone to say if you don't have great affection you don't have yahida that's nonsense for someone to say if you don't cry during the it's not you don't have your feet it's not true yahida doesn't have any form and it colors it is what it is and you can't legislate to say it has to be this way you have to cry that's why chabad about you know kind of laughs at can't like you know we put up a sign in front of the of the uh ahmed shivisi summit like it's a little funny you know like you you you need you need a sign to remind you if you need a sign to remind you if you're it's bad you're in trouble we do it because that's the way it's done but like okay now now i want you i want you all to cry i want you now to rise and we do this we do this because we need instruction and the arts grow in the habits i understand because people don't know but we're talking about when you reach a certain point yahweh is hashem if anyone needs to tell you here you have to laugh and here you have to cry uh it's you're still not there let's put it down you're still not there this is spontaneous this is not oh it's rosh hashanah if i don't shed a tear today maybe i can make up with it on your keeper it's like that's not the way it works if you're in the mode of research on the yom kippur it's going to touch you that's all and and so it's not about get get to the essence of the of the experience you're not going to get an extra brownie point because you force yourself to tear i told you they'll was something that would say that's called crocodile crocodile tears and worse which i don't want to say on being recorded you know it's like come on you're a crutch fetch somewhere else you don't crash when you're dabbing daphne is not about catching that thing is about sharma davening his soul and if the soul comes to the realization that where am i i'm so far and i want to be closer it has a a yearning it has a longing it has a difference a different experience let me just conclude here thank you for bringing that up because that was a good point you made i will say this and see this which is explained that the idea of the other four levels comes so the idea of insidis which explains the quintessential point of maidani it enlivens and illuminates all the other four explanations that we mentioned earlier in chapters 10 etc as we will see later on how see this illuminates each of the four levels so what we learned today is not yet how see this illuminates the other four we didn't learn that yet that's we're going to start with tomorrow what we learned today is what is the mighty so and what and what is that that you can't contaminate it and that's why it's beyond contamination that's why you say it before you wash knucklebuster and if you think about it velvet's a very it's it's it's um what we say enigmatic why is enigmatic surprising because since when do we say it feel up before we we're purely wash our hands throughout the day we're always washing our hands right ocd watching the hands for this and watching the answer this washing the hands and here is the one time that we'd say a a a a prayer without hashem's name but it's still a prayer before we wash our hands and that's what we learned today because it's specifically done that way to show that even if you didn't wash your hands you know it's even if you're not pure outwardly you're going to sham the inside's pure and that's what my dad and that's how you begin your day so practically what does that mean the way we need to look at ourselves and our other eden and family included is pure and this is not easy to find to look till that deep down everyone is pure and to and to believe it and to live it and and when you do that and i and i keep on reading but different than ever how people came over to him and they said this is no good that's not good he's no good or she's no good and then ever bounces always back like hey like first of all he doesn't say this but like you think i don't know you know what was the expression that brooklyn bridge wasn't created over the night right come on but that's not the way to look at a situation we know we have problems we know we have difficulties find the the good look for the good and if that would be your attitude things will be so good because you change your way you think and you know all of us growing up in different homes and different communities and different cultures and living now different places the impact from the community and the family and the culture many times convolutes things it makes you believe that it's bad he's bad she's bad this show's no good and this is a training where you literally said this and that's why it's it's never learning never ends like the same camp yoni right learning never ends learning never ends when it's time to finish learning and go play sports see this never ends since never ends see this never ends why because this idea of looking upon yourself with with good and others is a daily activity a daily activity i told you i'm kind of sholam dyche from yerushalayim who was in my spirit of thousands of people right and you would think that it's all rosie he comes to bet chemistry i heard this at a fabric of dollar chem davis at the shul in the other area it was a packed room and he said to everybody guys if i get up in the morning and i think about myself and my family and my situation it's not it's not great you know and i'm telling you he's really a a cut above i'm telling you besides a massive talmud he's really refined himself he dies for hours he's really a refined person and he says about himself if i start thinking about the situation i get very morbid you know this grandkid doesn't have parnosa this grandkid has a divorce whatever i'm not saying i'm just saying but he says when i think about what can i do for someone else and i take away thinking about myself and focus i become very happy this he'd learned another moment another piece of kamoda put on trill and gave to dhaka and i was able to facilitate and help in that way from there you have simcha and everyone here could has that and should make that a point and this needs to be shared with children and grandchild family to to think positive and the famous words that ebb always says to the biggest rabbi some biggest he said i just read yesterday he says when will already be the time that you will draft good with zion good and he's writing this to to one of you one of his boys one of his emissaries one of his soldiers but he complained a little bit about this or that and the devil said stop when will you start thinking positive you know i'm talking to myself i'm talking to myself and we're it's it's not easy see anyone says that's easy they're a liar they're re you have an individual here there that by them it's easy but for the average person it's not easy because we see the black hole we see the darkness we see the problem we see we see the negativity we don't see daily kus we don't see it in the summer shabbos i was learning on my mother the previous lab but he says when when you live and you experience the summer he says that it's all good that's all you so we have to rise to live with neshama chevra have a great day i'll see everyone tomorrow mr shem said soon bye-bye yeah thank you