Do we exist? How do we exist? When do we exist? Rabbi Chaim Dalfin #1

So today we're beginning chapter 43 in Tanya it's on page 122 and before we we begin the text just uh brief overie overview this chapter 43 concludes talking about y or fear which he began in 41 and 42 so a page or so is dedicated to y and then on page s Bas he starts talking about AA and he continues for six chapters level upon level upon level so if you ever wanted to know what it means to love God and what love is all about these six chapters is the recipe that kabad gives for AA but we're still at Y and the premise that the balatan gave in chapter 41 when he actually began is that without having basic Y which he calls later in chapter 42 the lower level of Y implying there's a higher level which we're going to learn about today which is called without having your a your your Avid is lacking and even more so you're not Anem and the the the ingredient for avoid because when you say aod you're talking about aod to work to slave to exert and if you don't if you if you if you're not in that frame of mind and you're not going through that experience you haven't begun to serve God and this is this is phenomenal because that means there could be someone who has a great head a great heart and naturally they they they understand they get everything or they feel and they're emotional very easily and all that and guess what they're not an way with AEM it doesn't mean to say that they're in a bad place they you know they're in a better place than being in a bad place but as far as You Shall Serve God your God you haven't begun because it's natural to you and remember what the Al said in chapter 15 he quotes the gamar that in the days of the gamar the custom was to learn every piece of gamar everything you learned 100 times says the gar that if you learned it 100 times and you didn't learn it 101 times one extra time you're called This is the gar it's not it's 2,000 years before right whatever you're not a servant why aren't you a servant because it's natural it's natural everyone was doing it then 100 times you didn't want to be an outcast you didn't want to be a parah you want to part of the community When in Rome follow the Romans when learning a 100 times follow 100 times you didn't want to be stigmatized we have the same issue today nothing has changed when in burrow Park in Williamsburg when you go on the kopa put your stal on even if you're not sh shabas where you could you imagine there are people under we it's hard to imagine it exists what why cuz the parents say you want a nice you want a 10piece band you have to wear stral and guess what I'll buy you a $10,000 stral if they could afford it you know but you got to put on that stral and it's not only I'm not saying this just single out it's the same in in with the Capas you know there are people going under the the with rings men wearing Rings now you could find a heter but I'm asking you is it traditional is the Mah for a a Jewish man who a a right wing from man a whatever you call them to wear a ring under the the and they wear kotas so it's not and the L should have their thing and the father should have their thing and this is not this is called convenience Judaism now you might say well for them it's because they don't want to wear the and they don't want to wear the uh you know the capot and all that and they're doing it CU their parents is that that's not that's superficial so the whole idea of that the talks about quotes early in chapter 15 to learn one more time means to break yourself to break your habit whatever your habit is go one step further and that's the litness test people always ask how do I know I'm being I'm Anem how do I know I'm really serving God maybe I'm just serving myself the answer in a nutshell is do one thing that's hard for you to do because and you need to break your habit it it's that one thing that is that shows that you are doing the that you're doing the Because of God not because of yourself and your parents and your community and every and every other excuse so along the these lines in 41 and 42 and now in 43 talks about various aspects of this year this awe that we must have in order to accomplish more so he explained to us another very important principle that even the things that we do that are good I say if they're done because we become habituated to them it's also lacking in other words in the ter in in the in the ideology of the AL itself must be predicated on Sur every I'm doing something good I'm visiting someone in a nursing home I'm helping someone cross the street right it feels good if it feels feels good and it doesn't have the element of a it's lacking because today it feels good and tomorrow when it doesn't feel good you're not going to go out and do it it's too hot outside so the you know someone says that the AL gives you you've heard these lines I've heard it it gives you a an easy way out they haven't begun to study this when you say when you study seriously this you know that he is very demanding of Us Al is very demanding and but but what's demanding he's bringing out the our best potential I the the best potential comes out of this type of behavior and activity and he uses the mind as the channel to bring out all of these things in a person I.E his bonness meditation reflection contemplation and this is what he said in 41 and 42 he gave us a many many different types of thoughts to make it easier to access intellectually the or the which will lead to an AA to a love that's a recap of 4142 and now now let's just continue 43 in which he's going to talk primarily about the comparison the beginning part as it said of to and with that he's going to reconcile the M says oh make up your mind which one is it if there's no fear there's no wisdom if there's no wisdom there's no fear make up your mind the has an answer to it coming up right now stay tuned regarding this lower level of a fear its primary purpose is so that one should fulfill the Mitzvah of God Almighty whether it be preventing yourself from doing bad or and doing good it's regarding this particular year that K say quote if there is there's no means here right right in other words if you don't have the rudimentary is lacking it's an expression of self not an expression of God therefore you need to have basic however um and within this now he says a new point there is within this itself small called God and large and great and he explained what does that mean in other words we got now two well that's already he he's he's going deeper he's delving deeper it's not enough to talk about he says there's two aspects to and he explains when a person deres this through meditating on the on the greatness of God God pervades all worlds and the distance from the Earth to the heaven is 500 years ETC number three between heaven to Heaven There are is a distance the feet of the Angel group that's called corresponds to the the other group of angels and these are the type of meditative thoughts how God is Awesome how God is so so so exalted on and on and on and so one meditates on God's chain of of of of of events in the sense that with the light the energy of God comes and goes through called it comes from above above very high to the highest of all levels and from there it comes into the to the person to the world says nevertheless this type of is called an external and a why because it comes from meditation on the existence of the worlds the worlds are the garments of the king God Almighty three words meaning God conceals and hides and invests himself in the world to enen them to sustain them they should be in from nothing they become something ex Neo all that the only thing is that this is the Gateway and the opening for fulfillment ofz what did we learn now we learned very simple when we meditate on the greatness of God from the world we're in that means we're giving credence to the world we're giving Credence to the existence we call this Ines the Nullification of the yesh when you say h yes you're automatically saying there is a yesh and the yesh is important however this yeses sees something greater and has B for something that's greater B but B does not mean that there's non-existence there's existence and existence is nullified to something that's greater there is a world there is a sun there are planets there's all these things there are angels everything he enumerated earlier and all of these things how are they how how do they come to be and how are they sustained through God but you're accepting that the the yesh exists meaning and and and and from that what what comes about that you have respect for God why because God made the world that we live in God gives us life God gives us sustenance and all of that so the meditation the most it can accomplish is a year an or fear for go for God that has that has existence at as its root and therefore it's not the ultimate in y it cannot create the ultimate y it's a y That's always predicated on yes on existence that's why he says look at the language towards the end of the the few last words that we learned p is like a an afterthought yeah the only thing it's it's good the only thing that's good for is for MIT that we do it you know I mean that's a big thing but nevertheless remember he's not making a comparison this is what the balat calls here katus katus of Europe let's go further and you'll see for a moment what goles is and he says I'm sorry no he he jumps to Y but before y so what is God he says here there is someone's not muted please mute yourself he says here that there's two levels within and God and he explains only one he explains the level of that's called so the explanation is it's he doesn't write it or verbalize it but there's called that's the terminology inab nullification of existence there's no existence now what does it mean there no existence like theb marash they say said if there's no existence lay down at a table and I'll give you malus you'll jump up from the pain and we'll see how there's no existence no existence we mean a concept how much did the B pervade you how much how how how uh egoless are you in not just the existence is nullified the the existence is becomes so nullified that it becomes non-existent in other words The Entity the notion of existence is non-existence why is the why is the notion of of existence non-existent because because you come to a point where you realize that it's all including existence you see the first M the first idea of is it's not it's there's two things by the way there's and there's it doesn't say explained in at length the difference between Andoid and and briefly anoid is much deeper than anoid M because when we say you know what we're saying that with him there is something but if but with him there is something when you say a the implication is there's no so this is the question the consciousness of the person through his meditation what point does it come to so the AL says that in itself in this level of one sensation is existence exists but it gives it gives itself over to something greater the higher level of of not that we're getting to in a moment the higher level of is I hope I explained it you know well if you have an example to express this you you could tell me you'll tell us at some point but this is the idea yes H H go ahead it seems like a o is is a pairing of two opposites is a what an O something and an a provides nothing of course it's two opposites existence and non-existence are opposites yeah but what we're saying is what's the maximum feeling that can come about from an anoid mid versus an anoid and I'm I'm saying the difference is like the difference between what we call in comparison to is is is the idea an idea but it's submerged by something greater or is the idea itself a non idea because it it it loses existence Now talks about what we call the higher level of Y that we call that the upper level of this he doesn't he calls or coming from busha and we also have another name for this inner why this does not come from the outer aspect of God's God but the inner that are within the worlds and upon and it's regarding this level of so when the says and he