Atem Nitzavim Likutei Torah #5 - Is yr relationship one of convenience or necessity? G-d transcends.

the fourth chapter and what we're learning what we learned yesterday is about the is about the idea of hashem we say this in the psalm that's added from rosh hashanah through yen keeper and out of the depths of the milk says out of the depths hashem i call you to hashem and the alter ebba gave his interpretation of why it says because here we're referring to a quote that comes from previous alive the inner aspect of the heart which is beyond and much greater than just a call that's you know uh things are not great not rosy i need help this is where you cannot you cannot exist without god in your life i get i said yesterday they simply when a person is hungry very hungry and hasn't eaten a long time or tired they don't meditate they don't make an assessment should i eat now what should i eat when should i eat and the same is true for for sleep but they automatically go to the food and they automatically collapse on the bed or on the couch in other words it's so deep in the nephesh in the soul that it's one with the person and that's what we're talking about here is says hashem from out of the depths i call to you hashem that's where i'm feeling i need you and dalton explained yesterday a phenomenal thought that needs medita reflection from the distance god appears to me so literally it means that hashem helps us even from the distance but the altar interpretation of the verses specifically when one finds himself or feels himself distant distant from god and that really bothers him that itself is the springboard for seeing god so this is a very important idea that when a person is is feeling down he's feeling lonely he's feeling hurt you know that itself is an opportunity to feel the greatest love and connection to god because you feel so distant and but this does this requires seriousness reflection in other words and what's the reflection we know that hashem loves us we know that hashem cares for us there's not even a question about it if we find ourselves in in we're distant and everyone is distant in one area in their life from god in a certain area rather than dwelling on the negativity how bad it is how distant we take the distance itself and transform it for positive in other words the distance brings to man the greatest longing for hashem the deepest longing and that's what's meant by the possible hashem specific david miller felt very distant ask yourself a question martial how did governor miller feel distant david malek was king david and he did what god wants the answer is that that he had enemies many of them and they were looking to kill him he also had other issues that were perceived and i used the word perceived precisely as sinful the story of batsheva and other such things so there was there was there was reason for david to feel that he's distant in other words even though he was justified with it with baksheva and even though he was justified here and there as the commentaries explained in many places and as the gemara shabbat says whoever says dovah sinned the the is making a mistake that's a good morning not a piece of zohar it's not a piece of musa it's a gemura uh open my faith explicitly shabbos called misha madova [Music] is making a mistake but nevertheless nevertheless david felt distant because david felt the fact that someone can think that i am a sinner and the fact that someone can think that i am not doing what god wants it irked him and bothered him so deep that he calls out to hashem hashem forgive me and help me and bless me and protect me everything you have until them and it's all encapsulated in those few words hashem so come the 10 days of repentance you may choose when these aren't just ordinary days but we know because i'll say that what a congregation can accomplish uh at seaboard can accomplish throughout the year a yoket an individual can accomplish the same during the assassination that's a ghazal right so during these 10 days each individual as an individual not just not only as a congregation as a community as an individual is able to accomplish if they call from the depths of their heart to god this is what we learned yesterday with a little more elaboration now let's learn top of page noon verve pedicle v hallelujah until him we say it every day praises god praise is the holy god hallelujah by the kiosa praise him in the in the heaven the mighty heavens hallelujah praise him in his might his strength hallelujah goodly halloween praise him with the abundance of greatness hell and praise he be praised beside of what he's praised when you blow when the chauffeur is blown seeks to explain now what does it say here because the second of the hallelu hallelujah in this sentence peter's because they showed the meaning of the word in holiness because god is praised not only by us here below on earth but hashem is praised in supernal holiness in other words who what does the praise consist of hillary of hashem that he is exalted and holy move though separated the prince levade in a next in a level an experience called alone without any association and to to uh to hashball just for a brief moment there is the way hashem your innocent is already as a mashbiya that's that part of god that takes into consideration the recipients that need influence hashpaul but that's not the essence of hashem there is the way hashem is to himself pre in concept pre hashball the pure god that's ever says here that this level of hallelujah because praises hashem in holiness it refers to hashem in his pure state of holiness already one step removed from god in his purity and altered says this is what we referred to earlier that god is an all-consuming fire what level of hashem does that refer to this level hillel that that we say hallelu the kadushoi hashem in his holiness not in the way we understand his holiness because in the way we understand his holiness is what he does for us creates the world sustains us everything else that's already the way hashem is kind of mitsumtsam is already limited and contracted for bria for creation and creatures there is the essence of god that transcends that and that's what we're doing says that's what the verse says praise hashem in his holiness in his pure holiness in his own in his exaltedness the way is completely removed from any creature and creations let's continue um and from that supernal god as we discussed he continues after you have to follow the line emotion even though you're driving pay attention because you say this every day after it says hallelujah the next few few words is hallelujah pray praise be he with the mightiness of his heavens says the altar this praise hallelujah is the way hashem already is being mashipia so we have hallelujah the way god is in his culture in his exalted state of holiness pre-hashball and then from there comes about another and lower one-step removed experience of god which is called the mightiness of his heavens shaheem next let's continue inside the text they are the many [Music] the many veils which conceal god god's revelation and concealment after concealment right there a kia there's one one out of seven heavens and each one is another layer what does that mean each one hillel dims the light more the first to the key i never see the first rakia is closest to the god head the second another key has two steps below third is three until seven seven steps below the godhead so what's the shot that each rokia is an additional hell of concealment top of paige moonzion overgrowth now he continues to the third hallelujah avi hallelujah right we're following the the the text over here but referring to the verse that he started with this chapter praise be he big with his strength what is that mean says the altar on page simpson you know what simpson you're innocent you're innocent why is simpson called gavura you know why because in order to be with some same you have to control yourself you have to limit yourself and that's very hard you want to see you want to say something yeah i'd like a typical example of that fear once you want to explain something to him to his people so he had to stop from the stakehold in order to my spiritual earth to take self-control that's right that's right and that self-control is very hard so we praise hashem you hear this hillary look at this tights this is this is this is elation itself tainook it is if you think about it it makes me happy that that hashem had to control himself i mean anthropomorphically speaking what do you mean he had to control himself hashem wanted to be my spear hashem wanted to give but he knew if he gave too much it would blow us away would be too heavy so he had to make a symptom on himself just like johnny said he learned yeshiva the rav the teacher has so much information and he has to be something his cycle he has to limit and contract and control his his logic and his knowledge and just communicate what the students can can hear putting within that little amount information that he shares all the the um the he puts into it the he teaches it in a way that if they were to open up and explore what he teaches them they will come to the depths of his uses the example of onig and it says veintov lamalameone so you were talking and what's uh and odeg is like the highest uh contact so to speak that we can have to with any of you know god's presence in the world like the the very beginning of symptoms exactly uh and and then he and then says and similarly barack i sort of the example of the whole beginning of the letters that the universe is created from and similarly the same letters make up the word nega and the seyfriend syria says that it goes to that's the very lowest point and and uh so um i was also thinking as we were saying this but that's also how you strengthen a muscle by contracting it and then expanding it contracting it and expanding it so very good it operates on the physical level too very good very good okay let's continue [Music] with after god conceals and invests his infinite light in many garments in different levels worlds and the lower worlds each to be able to receive the vitality he has to give a certain limited amount to each he continues now from the verse good luck hallelujah praise be hashem the abundance good lovers greatness heroes this means after the veils and the contractions nisavu venezuela venezuela those are three words to create is created is is made and it's created it's all means created but it's different levels laying cats with doctors we have adam from item a mount and within each world there's no you cannot count it's it's it's it's ranks it's it's it's individuals it's ex and within one one one battalion one group elephant often there's so many thousands and thousands an abundance of his greatness and that the greatness of his greatness stealth it ever says because kirov implies not only a quantitative amount but also a i'm sorry not only a qualitative point but also a quantitative point to tell you that there is an abundance in quantity two of levels that experience hashem in different ways the whole sir now he continues and all of these praises that we give to hashem and this parrot in this paragraph of hallelujah because hallelujah is laham schaefer all of this we should draw down through the blind of the schweifer supreme it's the inner essential essence of every year and it's expressed through coil partial to no breaks in the sound coyote police calculus without a division of letters leaves penis deeper canal right dibor is already icy ice icios they reveal when you hear me speak you hear ideas based at ica is very nice but nevertheless nevertheless it's not possuted tequila is possible simple straightforward sound what is that represents the depth of the heart the depth of the heart transcends divisions uh differences details it's sincerity and simplicity in its best form conversely he refers back when you scream out to hashem and it comes from up here you realize how terrible it is and and you dwell on that and that makes you call out to god that will lead to prayer but it will lead to calling out with words and which is automatically distinct a distinction between the letters and words one person uses and the other person uses key next page letters words are carved out from logic ki the father is is the source of the daughter you know the of the son the the the idea is like this that that oceans which are represented by prata uh which is meaning the the daughter so the father which is the source for the boss the macabre so in other words how does someone benefit when wisdom when intelligence has a way of expressing itself in words says dalton i understand and that's necessary too but that's not the coil portion in other words moisture when the baltokaya blows the schaefer he always begins and ends with a kia it's explained elsewhere say this why not to get lost avi in the true and swarm the true and swara maybe make you cry more uh-huh in other words it's more detailed oriented and therefore you cry but guess what it loses the efficacy of sincerity and purity and that's why we have a kia before the shwarim and the true and kia after to remind us this is one reason to remind us don't lose the sincerity and call out to hashem because if you limit your call to the chariman trua yes you feel better and you might relate to it more right and you have words that can express it but you should know that's not touching the core essence the core essence doesn't have words it doesn't have words right so that's why the for the kia co-portrayed and that's why we say what's the last hallelu hallelujah but take us chauffeur so beautiful delta rivers ribbon doesn't mean just blowing the takia specifically the tequila sound of the chauffeur is where all of these hallelujahs are concretized beautiful beautiful beautiful next paragraph page what causes that the hashpaw should come from this experience called consuming fire penis control elliott and the level we called earlier god's holiness and princess kelly how is it that jews are able to tap in and arouse god's innermost drive to being our king as we mentioned earlier from the very core essence who all these greatness about hashem and these levels at the inner and the outer without subjects the king is not a king [Music] i've been saying for the last 35 years 40 years of my hafoza outreach years in various ways i am not scared of funds not having enough money i am scared and fearful of not having enough people how many people have big buildings and barely can get a million how many people have big institutions in the share is called and only five people show up people we need people ain't melissa i'm a big king really where are your people you don't have people you know big king you're a big fool and melaka there is no king without a nation so hashem you're majestic and you're royal and you're panemius and we want to tap into that but it's we the people you don't have people you have nothing let's continue you know what am i means a [Music] in hebrew without men it doesn't say below it says picks up on this language we're talking about people that are like god we're talking about people that somehow and somewhat associate and relate to hashem they are the lowest they are of the lowest of levels for who you are and the king the melech is above them that's why it's called a king over them that means we're not just talking about the intellects the sophisticates we're talking about any person identifying with this nation be it someone who is a bore someone who's a low life is considered an arm and god is a king over him conversely the essence of god not as god as a king it's a very important point when we talk about god as a king we're talking about the way god already has put himself into a description called king when he's in that description he must if he wants to be king reckon with everyone even the commoners but then there is the way god is in his very pure essence that god transcends everything look further commercial elu neymar it would be similar if we would say shameless god is a king over stones rocks and and stones with people they aren't of the category and domain that you would say he's a king over trees it doesn't make sense [Music] himself on us to be our beloved loyal god even though logically this is not a good business deal why would moshe shem want to be with us when he is god and we are we who we are but that's what hashem did because in his essence he loves everyone so speaking god kind of forced himself with kasha enough by his body to connect his soul to us israel that that to the point that we are sending god's thought and god thinks about us which is gallaudet and that god's essence should reveal itself to us the zelda goes back to the verse to go through a priest to have a breeze although this is similar to what it's written until god god passes over the hainu lava madrigal madrigal for to go from level to the devil from below to above me this is only possible because hashem makes a covenant with us islam because hashem says you know i'm making the covenant with you because i want you as my nation peter's this means he but because you guys some of you know many of you are you're very simple and worse so hashem says i have to force myself and i want to force myself and i make an agreement that i'm yours you hear that in other words hello if we were all goody goodies and great guys and everything's going smoothly we wouldn't need a bris he makes a bris because he says i have to bind myself unison to these people and they're armed they're dim and dark they're problematic many times i really don't like these people i have to then put something on myself and make a a promise to myself they're my people and he says if lee is metaphorically speaking lowered himself with the holy kim to be a god for you um and this level connects us with the abstinence i i there is a heavenly judgment me yes who will merit to be in this level where god says i accept you and want you liaison is brother so god for for god to be revealed to the person that she is and binding his soul the question with a very tight connection uh basham and god in other words dr evans says my dear friends he says it's very nice but who merits to this look what he says next that is what we need to arouse on rosh hashanah we need to arouse our rosh hashanah by god that he should want to be makusha connected to us at all times and at all costs and this is powerful and this is why it's rosh hashanah because we know that during the year we're going to have difficulties so the alternative says what do you need to focus on rosh hashanah that god is your king god is your father we're crowning god as king and at the same time we're causing hashem to say i'm going to stick with you guys for another year it's you know i i know i'm making this like a business deal i'm gonna keep the contract going for one more year it's true but it needs to be looked at not in a simplistic way okay when you learn citizens you have to have what we call a psychology expanded consciousness you got to open up your head and your brain and and the the first thing that you see them hated most i heard this from islamic brother elijah that he was taught this when he left lake when he came to khabar in 1944 to the yeshiva and he heard from the old hasid of the rashabs talmidah he said we hate fools fight ashayta as a fool in other words open your brains open your horizon not by becoming progressive and modern be as hasidic and as from as you need to be and should be but up here look at the broader picture the altitude says here the broader picture is not that god needs needs us because god transcends being a king velvel being a king is a great thing but it's not all of god it's only part of him or if you want to say it differently it's not god if someone were to say god is a king my is that correct or not correct it's wrong he transcends being a king he also has kingship virtues that's correct but is hashem limited to king avi no so when we say listen to this when we say god kind of forces himself to stick with us for another year in english in the way i say i'm saying it sounds very bad it sounds very petty and such a judaism i wouldn't want to be part of it's like rabbi zalman posnell the show them told over repeated in the name of his father shalom posner of pittsburgh also a student of the rashad where someone said i'm agnostic and i don't believe in and posner turned to him and he said if my understanding of god would be like yours i would also not believe you understand and it's not just about hashem it's about life if our understanding of life is about tit for tat good and bad you know reward and punishment and what do i do for you and what do you do for me i wouldn't want that either but if our understanding is that hashem is pure in essence and the experience rosh hashanah means to find a place within ourselves and a place in hashem that we see that were really one as we learned in the mind and not to coming together as one but we are inseparable from the beginning and the fact that the separation is only an external thing and this goes back to the point you spoke about friends yesterday right i told you about the my friend the 46 years ago i met them and then moshe hill someone mentioned about friends and an attorney i learned with he also i mentioned this mention he says you know i barely keep up with one person from high school the question is when you form a friend what is how did you form the friend and what do you want from that friendship and what and what is that friendship consist of and if it's only about i like you because you have a good head i like you because you have good character i like you because i like your nose or whatever else yeah that friendship is not going to last because soon as you find someone with a nicer nose you like them as soon as you find someone who's more intelligent the next professor oh i thought that my professor at princeton was great and when i went to harvard to oxford oh my gosh they put into their pocket these princeton professors you understand so what type of relationship did he have to begin with with that princeton professor it was not one of essence it was one of convenience and that's what we're looking for if you had to sum it up maisha velvel what are we hoping to accomplish rosh hashanah is that it's not about convenience it's about essence i can't be without hashem i can't breathe without god that's what we're looking for not god i like you and you like me and it's convenient so when it's convenient i do it when it's not convenient i shall get back to you and that's the way most of our relationships are you know if i like you i pick up the phone if i don't like you i don't pick up the phone if i like you i respond to your whatsapp or your email or your text or whatever right if not i'll push it off for two for two weeks is that a relationship it's a relationship of convenience rajashana is not about a relationship of convenience it's not it's a mistake it's a big mistake rosh hashanah is about finding essential relationship and that's why it's a heart avoider it takes two days it's not easy it's not it takes a lot of work and you have two days we have two days to pound away to think away to cry away to laugh away to to be elated to get into that void and look into ourselves and not to rush your governing let the congregation rush and flush and go further and you take your time under your dallas and if your rabbi asks you why you're not having a minion say rabbi dolphin gave me permission on our daily classes that's it enough already we've been rushing 60 years 70 years 50 years of a life it's time to stop rushing anyway let me continue i want to finish the paragraph that's why the day to arouse and awaken this bond is rosh hashanah which is the beginning of all of god's actions for his back hello to the pussac and it was beshooting melech when the king is called and renowned as beshooting which has different meanings but means the glory index brightness etc now remember mercia asked me about the [Applause] these verses so i should and simultaneously the memories will be brought before me in about you that you guys are great in a good way yes that it will be remembered and it will be aroused prince habrez the covenant that i made with you the hakesha the sri israel of makshava that you jews ascended in my thought and you are my people and i want you [Music] i'm very distant from you in different aspects of my life while when they say him of dealing and transgressions separate us from god nevertheless [Music] through the arousal and awakening from below from our heart inside we awaken hashem from above uh velveo what tool is used the chauffeur the hainu what's the schaefer are you the panini 11 now so remember the schaefer is the kia the schaefer is the essence of the heart that's what he's supposed to think about when you hear the chauffeur sound the thought is i'm connecting i want to connect from my very core essence to your core god and i want our relationship to be that if then it's not a relationship but convenience it's a relationship of essence and this schaefer experience arouses from the depth of my heart this heartache that i have regret your innocence by removing my will in which of what my will that i did because we do things willingly okay let's not convince ourselves that it's my wife forcing me and my kids forcing me and my community forcing me and my country forcing me it's your own will so you have to strip and remove removing the will mini kuda amity shabalev and that comes when you arouse the true essential quintessential essence of this within the heart for azaleas and then the panemius is revealed so what would they say call it in in modern psychology the aha moment and then you'll say well i didn't have that aha moment on rosh hashanah guess what if you are thinking and looking for the aha moment you didn't begin to contract you didn't begin connecting to the essence because again it's convenience you're looking for aha the aha either comes or it doesn't and it does it shouldn't make a difference to you like i told you the word or the question right with the rabbit lords him and praises him in the title rabbi so-and-so god-fearing person and he says to the baby that's not me that's not me i know who i am and he says to the rebbe i don't feel it he says in the yiddish listen to the yiddish feel i don't feel it four simple yiddish words answers to the but went through stalin and gave his time in years and he brought hashem in the early 70s you know what he says the rabbit says to him after he responds that ebb says to him feeling is knit kane moose he asks the rabbit with four words and the never gives him a response feeling is knit kane moose for five words feeling is not necessary we live in a world of all feelings feelings i don't feel the love i don't feel the fear i don't feel this i don't feel who cares about your feelings in yeshiva used to say feelings is a boy means stomach they talk means pains it's a stomachache a bellyache feelings okay live with that i gave you some good good material to brain within your head maisha feelings is nit kane moose because feelings are only a boy take a stomach ache so if god wants you to have feelings you're gonna have feelings if god wants you to have the aha you're gonna have the aha but don't look for it because if you're looking for it you'll be disappointed and when you're disappointed you say that's god fool it's you ask yourself that's you that's you it's really that really you you egomaniac looking for feelings just do what you need to and go on and you'll be a happier camper we had a sticker fabregan i hope we could finish the mimer tomorrow zeitgeist everyone take care of thank you thank you