Atem Nitzavim Likutei Torah #3- Two different types of Unity - Are you truly connected?

so uh we're learning that meimer attended itself in my own in liquidity but we're using the volume mercedes-benz and we are on page noon gimbal gimbal and to briefly recap the altar explained to us that there is a type of argus he brought the passage by hebrew melissa to gather together alma de pruder the sparks that are in the world of separation and from that you bring you make them into echad and that's when you have melech the melech in its pride and glory and shooting from the word ashrae lucky and fortunate and shoot him from the meaning of the word yashar like hillary mentioned yesterday will take place when you're able to take disappear disparate points and ideas and personalities and make of them i remember fabregan once the rebbe said that when the israeli knesset sits to talk about serious issues they shouldn't and they want to get somewhere they should focus less on their differences and talk about things they have in common and it's it's true this way also when it comes to relationships that if you create an environment of aftos many times the issues that separate us will either completely go away and if not they'll be they'll be under control you see and that's a very important way of negotiating and building bridges and building communities to focus on the things we have in common not the things that we that we disagree with um because usually usually the average person or the average community or the average employer an employee in situation if you if you deal right with the the the things that we're different and then we disagree with it becomes a balagan that's that's the way it is that that's that's very cutting through chase and getting right to the point so the best way is to begin with the actus one and and in other words you know you have someone here or disagrees with you you know that nevertheless you you work and you struggle towards finding things that you agree to and you make that the focus and once there's a relationship and a respect and a trust between the two then many of the issues other issues are are irrelevant and i'm sure everyone here has seen that in their life and dr dalton says this is what's happening the day of chuva we spoke about the paradigm shift juventus not just a specific cuba for a particular away or that's on your kipper so rosh hashanah when we crown hashem as king what work what we're doing is we're bringing together the the opposites the the disagreements and we're bringing them all together as one because we recognize that hashem is the melody the king over all of us the example given is you have a king you have a president who has the minister of education the minister of transportation the minister of culture etc etc each one wants more funds for his department than his community in his organization so amongst each other they're fighting like cats and dogs when the king calls them in and he says hey fellas and and they recognize that he's the king he's the one that appointed each of them they lose their outer position that i am this and i am that and they're subservient to the the one who appointed them and at that time they don't fight as soon as they walk out of the king's palace and room they're fighting again like cats and dogs because this is what we call this there's two concepts obliteration of self and obliteration of entity of existence is obliteration of self meaning the self the outer um the the conscious is obliterated but not your very essence not your entity you might see it so therefore the example given that i mentioned before your bottle because the king is before you right but it's not that you yourself on your own our bottle no you're only buckled because you're standing before the king or you hear the king's presence you feel his presence but as soon as you remove the king from your consciousness you're back to your old ugly self fighting and and and debating and arguing so that's why we say we call this own only bit layers and halaway we should have the bit like yes but that's a bit like yes moshe is a much more profound bittle it's that the entire idea of i and you as two separate i as two separate individuals who come before with each other to each other in front of each other doesn't exist the whole realm of two doesn't exist in the world of bitter mitsubi macias yoni you're here only in the level of yes does the the existence exist the entity exists and it's only a question of one putting themselves a way aside for the other so i i say that first of all it's good to know these two concepts is very important when you learn how to say this and also it explains many things why for example my you say he was my good friend he was my trusted and all that and at the end of the day he messes me up how could that be where is loyalty right and the answer is the friendship was only the most it was bit like yeah she wasn't bitten but years he wasn't really one with you you both were not one you both for certain conveniences and niceties made a life together and worked together and on and on but to say that there were that that the two of you didn't exist as independent of existence existences and beings absolutely not so that's why when that when it gets when it gets hot in the kitchen all of a sudden you're melting you run out then and you go your other ways and you become enemies and it's problems or problems but if you feel that you're really one you never were to you're one like what does it say about the a husband and wife according to the zoey rakadesh it's not two holes coming together it's two halves desires lotion is pau get the goofer the husband is a half of a goof and the wife is a half of a goof meaning that without each other there's no goof now you say what do you mean i'm here we're not talking we're talking about the consciousness the subconscious the the personality the deeper you don't really exist without your other half your other half makes you into a say it again i'm having a hard time hearing you say it again like two people really really being about themselves to come together to create one entity what where else do see this teaches that this is this is what we're this is what we really are going working towards when we talk about actus hashem because we realize that to begin with there's nothing outside of god the belt of thought doesn't mean there's something here and this thing here has to be mavato itself to hashem to begin with there's nothing here now what do you mean of course means that it's godliness so there is god the way god is pre-creation and there's the way god is after creation as we say in the morning the correct if you look at the language it says after who like this and after who like that so what what does see this teach and different my murder [Music] taught me that the way you sing the song is you emphasize the chao mastatin you god you are hidden would sing sing the song in in in meditating in meditation when they would long for hashem you know so but the emphasis was if you sing the song normally is kale must stop there how god is hidden and remember saying it another way the way he said the right way should sing it we should sing it is not put the fetch the dough and the kale mestata but put the fetch and the doggies the emphasis on otto the same four words and the same the question is what are you madges so moshe so you're right in saying that you know it it's um it's like kind of not not real but it is real because if you work and you work and you work and you want first you understand and you work and you think you a person will will will empty out that gyver and that ego and realize that to begin with it's all about atta yeah there's atta pre-creation and after after creation there is the i as at one second as i am before marriage and then there's the eye after marriage but it's the same mind because the eye is a part of god it's not i it's hashem in the form of an eye and now hashem says time for you to marry bring in your other half to make you complete yes motion yeah it's interesting you brought that you're bringing this to me because you mentioned yesterday about when you bumped into a friend that you hadn't seen in you know 40 plus years 46 years yeah it's interesting that many times you see that the relationships that we have with with people from our youth our dear friends and our youth we haven't seen in a long time there's a there's something there that we there's a connection there often that we have that it's hard to replicate that with people that we meet later in life that's right i'm just bringing that up because you know you you know you you're mentioning it connected to that what tells us let's say would be the the what to strive for right um right just mentioning to bring up maybe just another example i i don't know why exactly that is i'll tell you why i don't know who who am i do i know but i believe i think i know it's very simple because i talk to my friends about it most people are occupied with themselves and they're busy kids wives work rabbinics everyone's busy everyone's busy and especially today it's such a fast-moving world only if you if you just you have to put aside and make room for someone else and that's it i'm telling you what i keep a friend of mine writes me from california a good friend child another child's friend wow i can't believe you met this like he writes he's writing to me wow that you are even thinking about some of them 46 years ago now my question and i didn't say anything but like why aren't you thinking about him why because i'm putting on feeling with jews on on on on wilshire boulevard in los angeles crazy you're doing good things and customers show them but it's it's it's a mindset so you know i happen to to to really enjoy nostalgia you know i i love going into a show that's old i don't like neutrals i mean i like it because it's nice and bright and air conditioned you know but as far as the taking the token of a shoe a shoe from 70 years ago to me with the old brown walls and the dark dingy lights talks to me it touches it it tickles me deep you know that's me that's me every one of us is different some people can't stand that it reminds them i have a relative who i i years ago i want to talk about his youth he says i can't talk about it it's too painful can't talk about it i i've tried i've forgotten i i i don't want to talk about it i don't want to bring it to mind so and i respect that you know some people that that really uh triggers negativity and and upset and it's not good you know so so but but when you're saying why why do people not not relish that is because they're occupied and um and you you have to make room you have to make room and you have to pursue it you have to pursue it if that if that's an interest and a lot of people are not interested whether they they don't have good childhood memories whether um they're too busy and they say what am i gonna get out of it or you know how does it accomplish to uh to help toe rem bring mashiach everyone has their argument that they feel they're legitimate but the only way that i see that it's possible if that's something that interests a person is to make room for someone else and to pursue it yes hillary you want to say something hilal i can't hear you hello oh sorry uh i was gonna say one of the distinctions for me moving from america to israel is like in america something was old but it was 50 100 years old and moving around to thrill like you know the whole jewel the definition is you know 500 000 years old you know i i i visited the aura hayam shul in the old city on the rover yeah i visited the i visited there probably 20 20 25 years ago long time ago and it was still the old walls and they they told me was it was from the time of their for 500 years you know and um and then there was even you could see part of the mikvan old mikvah and then they had on the walls the signs from the early 1900s when when fr uh frank what's his name the german kaiser came he marched through the gates anyway it was great i went back about 10 years ago i used to take people there and talk to them because the arizona was born in that basement you know that i'm sorry um yeah he was born in the basement and he had his brisk there there's a whole story about that so anyway so it was a piece of history that i thought was fascinating uh so i brought the and ten years ago they already they redid the whole thing and there's hardly anything left there they have a window where you can look down to see some of the old mikva you know the whatever it it to me it lost its you know its uniqueness but you we know this is this shoe is the area but anyway if if anybody wants it to have a little gem like old world gem when they're in the old city i used to be close to rabbi brand wine and his family was some of the early families from the old city and he has a little gem of us sprinting or steeple on the grounds of the shul really turbo was destroyed but this is still was still there it's been there for who knows how long it's still the way it was i remember i just walk in there for just a little taste of the old okay okay thank you i would like to see it absolutely you know i visited over there also uh not to daven of course because i don't know if you're allowed to the the the um the school of the upper cursin the uh they don't believe in perishable pet the karo rights parrots you know there is it's somewhere on the road i don't know i i was there i was there i was there i s i looked that down from the upstairs you could see um and and they say that that's a very old uh piece of property again and and they and the last i knew the terrorites were were in charge of that of that building okay let's listen to this a good conversation and going back so we're up to the point where we want to get to get we want to create this unity rosh hashanah of taking the disparate parts of making of it one page [Music] we say and we said today in the in psalm 27 to you my heart says boxing i searched the paneemius anemia salaf we're looking for the nimi's how will i bring my own paneers to be experienced by looking for hashem's benemias here it is my shirt if you look for gods you get your own ears if you look for a face paninis it will draw out more of your opinions there is a level called after hashem shall you walk this is the level called maisha akhiri the backside the hindsight this is only an emanation of god ms when you experience that leo ishaq it causes you to scream like a lion you know what screaming psychiatrist screaming comes from the externality of the heart this is not a put down class of shalom like you might hear in the body but these guys they scream and they really don't really mean it i'm not talking about that but we're talking about when a person screams normally normally uh ka'arya yishak he says this is touches only the external part of the heart when it hurts you you scream but that's that's that's like the it hurts the outer there's deeper much deeper look further yes what we're talking about here to search and look very well for the panemias hatsaika we're looking for a type of a scream that comes from panimia salev which by the way is the call of the chauffeur the chauffeur comes from deep inside so the pain and the scream is not just from the outer self but from the inner self when does that come when we have when we have focused and search for the anemias of god then it will trigger a pneumonia the relationship that we have towards them means that we're looking and identifying and relating to god himself not only to an emanation of god but we have three things with all your heart with the inner core of the heart is expressed through the third overhaul of the homo deca [Music] the most that you could give beyond what you're normally accustomed to do you go beyond that as we say in the darkening from out of the depths i call to you hashem moshe watch this language from the arab from out of the depths may mk hallelujah from the depth of my heart hilo what is that the panini is there that's why we say this capital by sarah she made shiva now moshe what i want you to do if you're brave enough is during that series you make super ask a few people nate kodesh why do we say kapit and karasikha in the 10 days of truth and they'll tell you because it's about shuva and then you'll have a chance to inspire them with the emphasis of the altered it's not just that it's about true because the capital begins with it's a type of trooper that goes to the depth there is truth and there's juva the ordinary trooper throughout the year is not minamamaki and that's why we don't say that psalms throughout the year the ten days from roshana three on kipp because here we're looking for the premiums and the paneemius is alluded to in the word me which means from the depths from the premiums clear okay and then they'll ask you how do you know they said you learned the name of the altered and that's all you have to say you don't have to prostrate and you don't have to say the babbage and lit fish and spartak and yenim alert yes so um when he's talking about the three uh three um levels of the heart of these uh the three depths how does that correspond to the other teaching of the alto rabbi about the ten levels of the heart well okay two things one he doesn't speak about the first two levels there i just paraphrased and here he just talks about one level because usually there's there's there is discussion about because i just just clarified it a little bit but when you talk no no but i didn't when you're saying about the ten ten levels of the heart what what do you mean is that what you're referring to well i've seen brought in many places um that the the altareb is teaching of that the the heart has ten levels what that means is a lot what yeah but but but what that what that means is that the heart can express itself through the intellect faculties the motive faculties or the practical factors which is all within the heart now all of those three can be expressed either in a manner of bacholo in other words one is more of a noun and one is an adjective the the the gossip of the noun in other words the items used for expression when and how to express them it depends are you acting with so the answer to your question is a good question excuse me the answer is that there's 10 within each three okay so that place is when a person is serving hashem with panemius with their very deep self inner self which we call depth i'm and he says this is what we would call behold in other words we say love god with all your heart with all your soul and with all your might what what does it mean to love what's the difference we know what rashi says the difference is with all your money not talking about talking about premiums we're not talking about now you know the and talmudic interpretation talking about the hasidic interpretation the muslim interpretation the the premise so he says that refers to amec depth which is which and and and and there and there you are to experience all ten in him but but in a manner of peneus in other words in your question you were thinking i think that each of these ten corresponds kind of three three three no it's not that the all ten are within every manner of serving god and we have three manners of serving god okay let's continue maybe maybe maybe once we'll well maybe i'll try to find a mimer that embellishes this because it's a good thing to learn about it's i'm glad you brought it up okay next page because when a person does chuva which we call supernal truth emotion from the depth of their heart was and why does he do that because he realized how bad and bitter it is to leave god and he realizes i've gone so far wow it's terrible i can't stand it anymore and he realized how distant he is from the light of god i shall no god and this feeling of distance touches him to the core of his soul because within man the late amok and depth of heart this feeling of of distance and and how how he is so lost and so far arouses in heaven above leo's crossing hashem i called hashem right so let's go back to the passing motion from out of the depths that how is it that i get to call you god and i want to be back with you it's specifically because it's coming from imam amakim if it wouldn't be coming from the depths from deep inside you would there wouldn't be a true call it would be what we call a shallow call you know it wouldn't be you know the the essence it would be just cutaneous it's also a call i want to do truva but it wouldn't be deep like i said earlier the difference is whether it's everlasting the inspiration that we learned about in the previous mimer does the inspiration last okay it's hello it's t-shirt and kipper did you make a kaley for it to last you didn't make a kaylee you can be inspired and turned on and once judgment comes you're back to yourself if you made a kaylee you made ah and you broke it down you coming to see this to learn every day you have a sheer niggler you give to duck or you help a person you go once a week to visit someone who's homebound etc etc then you've actually concretized the feeling that comes from the depth of the heart in other words the depth of the heart it's like you eat and sleep without when you get hungry you gravitate towards the food and when you sleep you gravitate towards the bed that's the same feeling you hate you've developed for your catcher talk of this bar home in other words i haven't learned today i haven't done i haven't helped another year did you understand it's like i'm starving i'm starving i told you the story rabbi rabbi hershberg the great buckinghamshire uh the stallman of khashoblin it's it's it's uh mozart is above his wife comes in and says pinterest pinterest pinterest you have to go home to eat so he turns to her and he said and he was learning your murder because you're not allowed to learn until so he had every day a quote of the murder so he couldn't learn it so he says i'm making up for the lost time that i didn't learn and one doesn't have a right to eat till he finishes his quote of gomorrah so for rabbi hershberg eating was learning your mother he wasn't hungry and she she's a regular you know it's an hour an hour and a half after the fast everyone's run home to eat and you're still learning what are you what do you mean i'm not hungry i got i got my food from the gemara but his point was even more you're not allowed to eat you hear you're not allowed to eat so that's premiums that's in premiums meaning in his learning of gemara you see how how it touched him to the core that if he's not learning if he wasn't able to learn his sheer during the day food is is secondary so that's the idea of hashem says you bring a feeling that's very deep that's concealed hell em el ha guillory to a revealed state she what you is the gods reign over the world should be not only from the externality of god but from the inwardness of god eleno upon us in other words moshe hashem should we should create the feeling hashem says i love being your king i want to be your king i want to give i want to help not you forcing a twisting metaphorically speaking god's hand give me this and give me that and you must give me and if not this that's all chinese there's no bargaining here there's no bargaining here because you're coming from a deep inside call where you realize that you're so distant you know in whatever area then you say to yours and that draws out the call i need you hashem feels that paninius and he reciprocates with anemias from distance from distance god appears to me so normally the interpretation of the verse is that god is far uh and and and and he appears to in he pierced and he appears right here hillary looked at his stage specifically specifically when you the jew are distant will god appear to you in the in the deepest way because when you realize how distant you are you call you you you you beg you you you you you you say i must have you i want you so the distance doesn't create a barrier rather the distance creates the fondness of the heart abstinence makes the heart grow fonder the same idea the same idea baruch is only more so deeper and that's why the whole idea of taras and space is phenomenal that hazal made thorough maintenance not to make a person struggle to make a person come to a point where the relationship is deeper through tara it's the best kept secret for humanity the half deal if non-jews would follow tarzan and they have no obligation to but maybe we the therapists and the social workers should start recommend recommending the concept how do we institute you know a concept of guitarist exactly is fantastic it's perfect but you know abstinence makes the heart go far go go grow fonder how do we have a separation we're not supposed let's suppose they have a separation from a british and that's supposed to have uh a reason but the the the rehook is reality a because we've we've transgressed we've sinned we've goofed up so that's a fact on the ground that you can't argue with right i forgot to dab on a mirror where i didn't dive with a minion one day i was tired that's very nice but in that in that instance your rehook okay the call of spade is bait stop covering it up you know yes you were tired and exhausted you just came back from a long trip and you didn't have any curve to go to the show you're diving at home you have a good excuse but you didn't download dominion that's the bottom line so in that detail you're a rehook and in that detail you need to do truth and in that detail it should bother you that i didn't get to mind if so much so that the next night when you're diving mighty if you're diving with twice as much kavanaugh so it's the issue so that's you just said what i think what i was trying to ask about was that it should bother us that's right the bother but it has to bother us that's right yeah of course it has to bother us so hashem and and what we're saying is the bothering should be it should come from a deep place you know you know when you took a look at at eden all kinds of eden and he saw them showing the kip i'm going to talk about this and share my clip for the for the you know this week when you took a look at them and you saw the way they darvened with such cavuna and many of them cried and and he said wait a second they have what to eat they have a bed and if they didn't have a bed or what to eat in russia or in poland they didn't really care for a bed they were type of jews that didn't care whether they slept on a comfortable a comfortable mattress or straw they were they were really you know so they weren't crying for the cow that doesn't give them milk it's a famous story you know um the famous story that i tell over is that rabbi axelrod in baltimore you've heard of rabbi axelrod melia axela the great hassan of who now i understand hillel that uh many many eden lit facts including come here of rosh it's become like a shrine and they know that it was in the bavaria but it was a very a very very holy person a legitimate person what uh i want to say i want to say about that um my uh my family was very close to a clavade family in baltimore the eagles uh david and i know them i know i saw david this sunday and and their daughter is buried next to rabbi axelrod that's exact that's what i was gonna say she was my daughter's best friend wow and uh and uh so that and we we live we lived through that you know that uh real challenging time together and yeah so yeah yeah i i in fact yes david brought me one yard site i think the second yard side or so to fabric in rabbi elizabeth schultz a memory of his daughter and he told me that she was better yeah yeah yeah anyway so you know it was it was the 1940s he was the the love of the uh of the summertime which today is you know down by near john hopkins and it's a regenta fried whatever anyway the building still stands so so um so uh they didn't have they paid him a meager salary when america went to war and we were producing the you know the ships and then and the submarines and we were making a lot of money in the scrap metal industry and all that so quite a few of them over there in the shule did very well and the president comes one day to the house of rabbi axelrod and i heard that his door was always unlocked for any jew to come in and he would always have a stender by at the window facing out and he would have a gomorrah during the day learning and he would face the window and the president sees he's not there so he he knocks on a door and he waits a minute of humor waits and he's still not there he probably went out of it so he puts down an envelope on the rabbi's stender and he leaves a half an hour later rabbi axelrod knocks on the door of the president he walks from his house over and he says i see you about my house and you left me an envelope he says yes rabbi you're not happy with he says he says um we increased your salary because we're doing much better the treasury has more funds and he said to him i don't want this and he tore up the check in front of him and he said i came from lubavitch and we had nothing to eat and sleep and we survived and we were thrown and i didn't have i have other typhus you can imagine rabbi axelrod he says but there was one time i never had money and now you want to give me the type of money because you're doubling my salary it should feel good zeiss you know i tell the story and with trepidation in a way because like who who today is at this level no one okay it's a rare commodity okay but nevertheless that what there's what to learn from that yid's attitude so when we talk about uh you know the distance and becoming closer to hashem it comes from a lot of you know a lot of avoider where you you you you feel what you know the concern that you're it bothers you you use the word bothers you you know the that's exactly what hashem wants hashem wants a person a person it should bother him the situation and the more it bothers you the more you're connected do we have two minutes just to finish where you have to go the zeldinian there looks i just want to say to people in the neighborhood it looks like some kind of a terrible fire or something a terrible black smoke coming out of something right below mishka fine so everybody should be safe amen let me just finish the next few lines reselling is it great nice this is the idea of the rhinestones moisture you asked yesterday about the verses of memory of uh the the terms when do you say do you remember something that's distant therefore you say do you remember one of the verses one of the verses of the zecharian is one of the ten verses each of the each of them have ten verses you remember the acts of the world the act of creation in a way they're distant from god so we arouse god's memory of love from the essence through blowing the schaefer when we blow the schaefer it's a it's a call to a memory do you remember that's what that's what the coil of the shaffer does do you remember in addition to schreifer's being the chauffeur it's also do you remember the author concludes this paragraph by saying fellow on page noon hey the end of the page under the paragraph this coil of the chauffeur is is connecting to the polymers so we have a very interesting um set of uh conditions here you blow the shaffer it comes from the depth of the person it touches the depth of god and at the same time it reminds god that we were distant and we want to come back and because we were distant you kind of forgot about us wouldn't you forgot about us the distance creates the memory in other words if if if i had seen my friend every every year i wouldn't have the same feelings towards into the way i felt for him when i saw him after 46 years because there was a distance so the distance creates the the recollection and the appreciation of the memory so what are we saying hashem you create the world and you did creation six days of creation do you remember that meaning to say of course i remember when god doesn't forget he's recreating the world every day like we say in berkeley or but it's the concept the concept is that that i hashem the the there's a distance that i i created in my own life unfortunately and i want to come back so i want you to remember our relationship and how important it is for us to be with you and you with us we'll learn tomorrow more have a good day thank you bye-bye valve good to see you good to see you valvo hey thank you good to see you all sorry you have you're saving lives velvet whenever you're not here i know you're saving lives so don't feel at all bad zygosens take care