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Ani Ledodi #9 Likutei Torah - What to do if your heart is jaded and you feel no love or awe for G-d
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uh if we finish it this week then next
week we can maybe learn a minor
preparation for rosh hashanah
so the altered now is is dealing with an
issue that's very important
the issue is
if a person
uses
we learned at the end of the last
chapter
on page
there's a time when there's a positive
that says a verse that says yaakov that
redeems avraham
avraham is kindness is khasit
why does hesset need redemption because
at times you use hesed
and you can't motivate yourself to feel
the issue of
not feeling
what we're learning and what we're doing
is is a is a real problem
for the greatest
of of servants of hashem
it's not just for someone who
never had the experience
who doesn't have a feeling towards it
even those that had the experience
to actually feel heart palpitations of
love for god and all for hashem
is a very lofty
uh
level
and in fact in khabad someone who was
quick to say that they have ava yira
they were usually dismissed very quickly
and they were shown very quickly by
mashfiem and hasidim
that they that they fool themselves
because as i told you numerous times in
the in the terminology of the richey
name the early philosophers jewish
philosophers
this world and the world to come they
don't go together
in other words the the english cliche
the best of both worlds
from a jewish perspective
it's not
the case it's not jewish
it's not
now you might be wondering well why not
why can't i have lavish material matter
lavish material matter gosh mias
and rukhnis
isn't that the whole approach of the
boshemtov
and the answer is
it is but that's not what the balchemt
of meant the bashamtive meant
that use all of gashmiya's four rookies
transformed gas measures
so of course the the musser approach
pre-balchamptov
was to sean gosmius
the balshamp's approach was oz of tazzo
when you see your enemies donkey with a
great load
rather than
leaving him aside and just going on
he might help him what does that mean
to take the donkey
and help the donkey
become
that the weight the the load should be
lighter make it easier for the donkey in
other words transform the donkey the
donkey is no longer a donkey
the donkey representing
homer
material
this is the teaching of the balsham
tooth
so someone says look
i want to um
i want to ex i want to have
taiva
indulgence
i want to i want to have that good piece
of steak and really really
uh enjoy it
and so too with other bodily pleasures
this is not belcento don't convince
yourself it is it's not
rare is it for the individual
to be able to take a pleasure and
transform it it's a very hard thing
it's a very hard thing
but the objective is to
we try to transform it
he took this idea and he said
if this is the teaching of my teacher my
teacher's teacher and this is the
philosophy of hasidism
this applies also to the mind to the
moach
that the moa which is such a valuable
tool in development of man
should not be excluded from the jewish
experience from the holy experience but
included and transformed
and that is why
the altarebe
put an emphasis on
that not only should your middays your
emotions
be
involved in judaism in godliness in tata
but your mind which normally is
car called there's a famous hyundai
that the mind
is the coldest thing
and it's so cold that it's it's a it's
an inch away from heresy
and we see and we know throughout
history people who use their mind and
they became heretics
agnostics
etc
so the mind can easily
go from
uh
being
legitimate
connected to god to being god forbid
just the opposite
so the alternative says so there was
one school of thought or
there were schools of thought that
believed
don't involve the mind
and in fact
a colleague of the altered
colleague he was actually older and
maybe even he was a a good friend of the
altar ebba's rebbe
mendel vittepsk
and this is abramov kalisk and they both
made aliyah
in 1788
tetheria
and
they were very good friends and then in
1798 approximately
decided to come out against the altar
ebba's
approach
called
he didn't feel that this approach
is for the populous
in other words he argued that the use of
mind in understanding god
will lead people astray
and the altareba
said contrary
and in fact when obnoxious breslif in
honest way back for merit israel
i told you this before
he he came to his this house but he he
went in for a very short while and he
and he went 400 miles further to meet
with the altar ebba
on the mission that he was given by the
broncos
was to convince the altar ever that he
should stop teaching hasidis in a way of
chabad
lo and behold what happened is the altar
ever
and he showed him how not only is this
important but no one has
become a heretic from learning
citizen away of chabad and that it's
absolutely necessary
and
you know i don't know if this the
following what i'm going to say is
correct but it is possible
that
the altar ebba helped ramnachman develop
his
approach which is called blessed hasidis
which if you look at blessed hasidis
it's it's uh
it's it's definitely not
hagas
in a way of just emotional there's a lot
of
also intellectual ideas that need to be
understood different than chabad but
definitely not the emotional approach
and
it seems to me that the altareba's
impact on him
was was tremendous again i'm saying
partially because rab nachman started
with hishita before
but i believe
it
might have not been crystallized and
finalized till after meeting with the
olive altered
and this is something that uh i don't
know if anyone can prove you know we
could argue it this way or that way
based on dates and experiences and i've
written about this extensively in my
book on chabad and breslif i've tackled
that issue there and sharing some of it
with you going back to the text here
so the altered epidiol chapter four of
this mimer
wants to wants to see
how a person
who has a jaded heart
who doesn't feel he can't get himself to
feel god
to be emotional about god to shed a tear
to laugh with a smile to really become
happy
when he hears the midst of of schaefer
blowing
for
together with being serious and and and
and you know realizing hey this is a
court case
this isn't a joke
if i'm found guilty khas vashallah it's
big problems
you know
and at the same time i just did a
mitzvah
i just did a mitzvah i heard the
schaefer
i'm the happiest person on the on earth
i might not have much to eat
and much to pay and
much money and all that but i have a
mitzvah a mitzvah is connecting me with
the ain't self with god with abrasion
with hashem
what more do you need
[Music]
so so to feel this you need a heart
so what if you your heart is jaded
it's stuck
you can't un
it's it's clogged
and yet it's the word is it's far
stopped
far stopped
says
and as the verse says there are times
when yaakov of the yakov asher podes
avrom
beseeching god with mercy and saying
hashem have mercy on me i want to feel
you i want to experience you in my kiss
oh hashem says
if that's the case
i'm going to open up your heart
but where does that come from velvet
that doesn't come from the mind it
doesn't come from the heart it comes
from rahmanis
you know
a friend of mine wanted to get his
daughter into a
bad seminary narcissist role and they
were packed and they couldn't and they
said they didn't have room
and he argued this way in that way so he
called the story of rabbi khan still
continuing to say stories and and invert
their sayings the teachings that he
taught me
so the story is so that he went it up
yoild because this administrator
of the seminary is a student develop
yours they thought if he contacts that
you are you'll call him and through
protects you he'll get his daughter
written
says sure i'll i'll call i'll put a
caller if i can help i'll help
but he says tell me what argument do you
have
what position the the the the the
director says there's no place what's
your argument
so he explained them that his older
daughter went there and she was very
successful and this girl is a very good
girl and then he gave whatever the uh
you know and up y'all discursed him he
says
uh that argument is not gonna win him
over i know him and and i know
it's not
so my friend
my friend
uh
looks at rabbi
and rabbi says that give me give me a
better argument
give me a better reason that i convinced
the direct that i can convince the
director
so he says
my friend says
let him simply have rachmanis on me
[Music]
this is a good argument
what what what rationale is there and
here's up y'all kind of genius of mind
and it's oh
now you hit the
nail on its head
we're learning about this right here
is so
powerful that when employed and used
right because you
feel
that it's a real rahmanus on you
that you're jaded and clogged
and you don't feel
and therefore all you could do now is
you scream out shout out to god help me
have mercy
and you feel lost
and your only answer is hashem
that's that's because beseeching god's
mercy
that's going to work and abile called
and it worked
i don't know i don't know the their
conversation but the point is how
important rahmanis is
comes along the altar eben now this
coming up upcoming chapter
and says moishe
and what if
doesn't either work
listen to how he says it okay let's look
at the alternate words let's continue
page huff base 22 pedigree
what if the person checked his deeds
and yet he's not able to arouse mercy on
himself seeing how far he is from hashem
from god
villa yes
and his heart
is not
regretful remorseful
although he deepens his mind into his
situation
he realizes how far has my godly spark
fallen to exile between
my soul is so in exile
and nevertheless
he's not able to evoke
mercy
feeling that mercy
so what should he do says the altar
episode
this is what he should do
he should make his heart attentive and
knows all about moshe
and says the alternate but let him at
this time use the following muscle so if
dalton says that this is what we need to
do
when we feel jaded and clogged and we've
tried everything and we still feel like
a stone
and then we use rahmanis and it's still
not going says the altar but use the
following mushroom let's see what this
mushroom is
since it's nature of man
that when his nail on his foot is in
pain
because
it that he it damaged his
nail he tripped over something he heard
his the nail on his foot
the evan
threw a stone he tripped and hurt
himself
um
where is the pain felt in the mind um
it's tired and he has tsar yes
this is true yaakov
as long as the damaged nail is still
connected
to the foot
before it's been amputated cut off
but if god forbid we have to
cut behavior amputate
the brain doesn't feel any longer the
pain
because there's been a complete cut off
and suscision
between the limb
and the brain
so once you amputate the pain is not
there you have other issues but not this
issue that he's talking about this pain
this is there is a
there is a uh
a certain condition that's called
phantom limb pain that people who have
amputations often suffer from
where they will feel
like the brain doesn't quite catch up
with the new reality or they will feel
pain
even in
when there's no longer a limb there
okay but
i i would assume that isn't that a a new
pain in other words
it's pain and it's pain from
but
i'm saying isn't the exact pain that
they had when the when the nail was
still hanging on and the foot was still
con
you know
connected
uh well i don't
that that i don't know but uh i mean it
is just it's a fascinating uh right it's
a fascinating uh alternative that
sometimes happens that i mean i i would
imagine that under ordinary circumstance
sort of adapts to the new reality
and that's why we don't have pain
when we've had an amputation but but
that doesn't happen for everybody right
well we have dr velva what do you say
about this your experience in medicine
that's
very uncomfortable because
people receive have pain and they feel
their amputated black and
they have
they feel like they would
even
do something to the with the like
so that's
very uncomfortable that they can kill
the same pain or similar the similar
pain like before that before
okay well okay yeah but that's the cold
war
that's what
the cold blade
right
thank you
now let's look at the nimsho the morrow
we are avi by nature connected and with
dubai and glued
that we blemished and we descended our
soul the golus nitsu kushi's butterhower
our spark of god through our sins
nevertheless
even though
the quality of this is a half of a quote
it is ava
although he sent israel who
is jewish
contrary to people's around this
neighborhood that i live in in the in
some neighborhoods near me
that they call people who
are not from
which is the the greatest and and most
ridiculous
uh
comment because aydah is a yi he's not a
guy
and and a is not a bad thing but you
know but they mean he's not jewish he's
not jewish he is jewish he's not
observant
anyway so the quote
although
they sinned
israel
nevertheless nevertheless
that does not diminish the fact
that when you
sin
you descend you lower
your godly spark
into schmutz
into a place of filth
the yes like penis needs to select
it never leaves him elisha who because
rather it's begolis
in exile
el shaddai
a few chapters before
that every year there's israel yet you'd
sar kale
taltarev says even a jew whose godly
spark falls into exile is still a tsar
he's a latent tsar he hasn't lost his
tsar quality
he's lost his sour behavior
you can't compare
a minister
a king
a deputy
sitting in captivity
to a plain person sitting in captivity
both in captivity yaakov but one is a
siren captivity
and one is a hadith a simpleton
maisha are you with me
yeah thank you
because
the you the jew who is asar
still recognizes via they and my loser
he knows that the advantage the virtue
of shall
and look at although's language you
won't find this anywhere except by the
altar um
and in one moment
one notion
one movement
yoho
underline that
he can change
instantly
from one extreme to the other extreme
locks of the cut
to return to his previous state of being
an open
observant
tsar
so now the question is
if that's the case
then why doesn't he feel says the
altered
the fact that it doesn't feel
the pain and the blemish caused by the
transgression
hyena
it's because he became so accustomed to
this blemish actually
until he's become cut off completely
from the source
so this is like this is the muscle and
the nymphs
just like in the muscle
as long as the nail is connected to the
foot
you can the brain feels the pain but if
the foot is amputated there's no that
that pain is not felt any longer says
the altar
as long as you're not disconnected
completely cut off
from your source
you'll feel pain spiritual pain it'll
bother you
but
if you've done it so many times
you become jaded and you feel not that
nothing
it's like
you lose
feeling
and this is so true
it's true
people
who were religious
from
and and we're going through this now in
our communities all over the world
you know we have a different belchuva
movement than the 60s and 70s and 80s
today's belgium movement is of the
frummies
really
i'm telling you percentage-wise i'm
convinced there are more ex-rumi's doing
chuva or needing truva
than people who were totally not
religious needing truva which
there is
tremendous assimilation we know that but
unfortunately and i wrote about this in
my book on baltimore's
we're not we're not reaching them
there's a there's a there's a great
crisis in that area and no one really
talks about it because now we're all
more concerned about in reach
about our own families and communities
and what's going on to the kids and
grandkids and and the guy a lake with
the russia shiva's son and the the
mashpeas kids you know
everyone is dealing with their own
situation it's kind of you know coming
from uh
that that era of the 60s and 70s and
growing up in chabad seeing
the the weekends with the college
students and in morristown with the
the balchu yeshiva with the the real
thinkers and the arguments and is there
god and how god and torah's you know i
mean it was it was it was unbelievable
that's what i grew up with and you know
and looking now is who cares just give
me a car and a nice girl and a lot of
money and let me go on and have good
chicken soup
i'm happy no one cares about god anymore
you know
so what's the what what has become the
kind of the occupation
of the of the fruit of movements and and
and and chabad movements of
of reaching out
dealing with with people
so you you'll find yeshivas now without
saying names that have really downsized
their balchuva
divisions and started like high school
programs for froome kids who are not
interested in yeshiva anymore
and they're not making little of it
belittling it we need that
but it's a real shift in the in the
whole belchuva movement and and the way
it was it's it's a it's a very big shift
now why am i saying this because the
altered says here
that as long as you're connected you're
not
totally cut off from the gamrey look at
the word top of the first line and
gimbal
completely
as long as you're still connected that
the nail still connected to the leg then
the brain feels something
and there's hope
but if kasper show him it's amputated
it's amputated it's finished it's cut
off
comes along the altar
and he says
no
even a jew who's gone so far
who's disconnected himself completely
from the source
there's hope for him look what the altar
never says let's continue
um
i'm sorry this paragraph is still about
the previous thought um
[Music]
but this itself should awake within you
greater mercy to reach out to god and
say hashem
i'm cut off i don't want to be cut off
although he doesn't feel okay so
remember we're talking about someone who
doesn't have the heritage the feeling
that it's such a
pity state that he's in
with an abundance of mercy you have
mercy upon us penis meaning
since we with our poor state of
intellect do not comprehend the great
mercy it is on our souls that have been
been have been
lost to sin
this
medicine and why is that why is there
still hope because the attribute of
mercy which is the attribute of yaakov
like we explained earlier is mavriah
melakotsa
goes through from one end to the other
end you know the gun the way they
carried they had the two rods up in the
lower the torah says there was the
middle
the middle rod which went miraculously
around the entire michigan he was able
to
carry it
right
yaakov goes from aleph
from the beginning the aleph through the
mem to the it's one continuous cycle
the altarep is arguing here
that although you don't feel the mercy
but as long as you're connected there's
a chance
the aim let's continue i want to fight
what yes hillary
i think chapter 12 and tanya
very good
what i just want you to know i remember
that hashem i i'm i'm i'm very happy
very good
now about that says what i was saying
towards the end earlier
what if this doesn't get you to to move
in other words so we have this motion we
have three stages one is i know i don't
feel in my heart
but i know
what what a sad situation that i'm so
jaded
so you ask god have mercy on me number
two is number two
is
i don't feel that but i'm still
connected
and he's still connected god
can have mercy on you
number three is god forbid you're so
disconnected
completely
so what do you do then says the altar
yes
and if this it doesn't get you
to evoke
the media of mercy
so it's aliyud so this is the advice
that i give you in exceed it says
the verse in
who pastures
with the roses
shashana
oh peter's bizarre comes along desire
cut there's the holy zoa and he says
ma
no is happen just as a rose
[Applause]
it changes from the color
from the from from from the color to the
color white through fire i guess this is
the process of photosynthesis
whatever there's the way that the flower
changes from one color to the rose from
one color to another color
right if it'll be like red you know what
i'm saying it'll be like very bad
it it it will be washed out
like white snow cashelic
when used inappropriately and in a
sinful way nikolai nerdham they're
called the red
if you say hey mama boys
because they are thoughts of the evil
inclination and it's in its ploys and
deception
so you stop it this will be transformed
the government to the color white
supremacist
this is the level of the the purity the
albino the you you'll be washed in a way
that'll become white and pure
are you they penises what's it gonna
take
fire
changes the color
says
he says there's two types of fire
there's heavenly fire and earthly fire
myla
[Applause]
very very true
not everyone merits that god
causes a spiritual fire to permeate
their lives
changing their
red sins
to white
deeds good deeds
so what do you have to do ah
mata
there's also the the earthly fire who
indians see goof in the tiny oh he's
this is torture
and
fast
done on one's body the maya trailboy to
reduce
your
fat
and your blood
sutra
which are associated to the side of the
negative side known as clippers
which means basically my friends the
whole avoid the fasting
or not or not sleeping comfortably and
not eating much you know where you
actually kind of
torture your body
this is in classical moosa
very much discussed
in the early muslim writings of
and shot and and and racist
a lot a lot of conversation there
and we're talking about unheavy heavy
avoider to to to
wash away
the the the problems
now
it's interesting that the bala tanya
who is a student of the market a student
of the of the balchemtrov
would
entertain this thought
but my friends this is coming
as a
third attempt
three strikes and you're out
the first attempt out that ever says
is
to awake to awaken your your your jaded
heart
second and one is not to be completely
cut off so god still can have mercy this
is the third one if nothing helps
you need the covet
shot you need something
sorry no no politics intended
you need you need a drastic measure
says
god gives it to you from on high and i
don't know what it means and i don't
want to know what it means
i think the implication is that if god
forbid a person has a sarah
that comes from one high
it's
it's a it's a way of cleansing you know
that like the khazal say
that someone who experiences
such pain and and torture and torture
pain
in the process of dying is cleansed and
he goes into shamayim
healthy and he doesn't need cleansing
anymore what
there's
there's a problem there's a modern
theory that uh
most illness uh is really uh byproduct
of inflammation we could say a machine
of age
so anyway
anyway this a shilla myla
you know is is
if i'm if i'm learning right shout out
it says
call them
not every person marries to it what it's
a merit
to god for so i don't know maybe i'm not
learning right shot but
it could be that
in in other words if you learn chapter
26 in tanya dalton says that that issues
of cha and zainab problems with children
health and paranosa
severe issues are coming from the uk the
higher higher two letters of god name
god's name
and and and and god's taking you into
the apple's eye
you know but we're not we don't want to
we don't wish ourselves this and dalton
every here uses the word caller
not every person merits implying it's a
merit to get that so i i have to look a
little more to see if i if there's
anything if i'm learning right the shot
but what but what i want to emphasize is
that then he says there's the ancilla
mata so yes
there is a time to fast
and there is a time not to allow your
body to to to to saturate itself in the
pleasures and that is when you're so
carried away and you're so magusha
corporeal
you know we've discussed this many times
an addiction
you're addicted to the point where
talking anything it doesn't go in
and even and even saying it's such a
mercy
you know
i mean there was a kid here you know in
the shul and and he haven't seen him i
hope he's all right but he was never so
addicted to drugs and you know and it
was
it was it tore the heart out a russia
shiva's son
he just couldn't stop
you know it was very very painful
so so
there is a situation
where when you're so sick spiritually
sick
that that
for your neshama to get a cleansing to
get back to
to normalcy it needs to go from the
tiniest yakov one sec i just want to
finish the line
for us
and then
when you will employ this extreme method
god's light will be able to illuminate
you
so
always said because we asked him we
asked him this question how does the
outfit ever in a mimeran elo
following the sheet of the valshantov
say this
bring this
teach it and i will always point out
that this is
a third
approach
when there's no alternative
so in other words the norm of hasidis
is the first two
the exception
is the extreme
which is also
used if there's nothing else that helps
yaakov what did you want to say
you mentioned the concept of
let me tell you something i don't know
about you i can just talk about myself i
just know that i have a difficulty
fasting i mean now it's associated with
my health but even in the in my better
health years
you know i wasn't able to concentrate
well and i could so i don't know
i don't know but people who you know who
who use fasting as a means of chuva god
bless them you know
maybe i'm just so corporeal that for me
it's a it's it's a big black hole and
this i i don't it's hard to see
that the sigufem antinos that the altar
you know uses which basically is
classical mustard this is not a
by the way this is classical muscle 101
and and
okay there's no kiddish of the altar
he's just inserting it in the mimer in
in the context of his discussion
but
i i it's hard you know and frankly in
the ghetto trouba of the altar river
that where he says our generation he's
talking about in his time 200 years ago
250 years ago he says is not
uh equipped
to use this as a method of truva because
we're gonna fail and the rebel the
rapper who fasted much
our rabbit you should know did a lot of
fasting
and his father was critical of of his
fast in letters that he pre wrote to him
you'll see
please what are you eating you know and
and that ever was polite but the rapper
was very serious and believe me the
rapper was not sinning you know but for
his level whatever i don't you know and
rabbi salavaitchik the rev
he attested to it it's online you can
listen to it then available he said
you're reading now my book raven rebbe i
put it in there as well
but the rev said to to to to
some chabadnicks
i want to tell you you you don't know
your rabbit i know him from berlin
and i'm telling you that he fasted every
monday and thursday when we read the
toyota the river fasted
not because he didn't have the food
and and and he said
actually robert hutner said this i'm
sorry rabbi hooked her so it's not in
that book maybe i did put it in any
rabbit hutner who also was in berlin for
a short time met the rebbe they knew
each other from berlin and he said
you guys don't know you're happy i know
him he was fasting every monday and
thursday
was that fasting fast i'm just curious
fasting let's say half a day or fast in
the whole like all day i imagine a half
a day but i i wasn't there and and and
no one you know i i don't i don't think
anyone would really know
half a day i mean like morning so just
like the morning well
fasting the morning first thing the
morning is brought in in what's it
called in the garage
velvet you were saying something
i just wanted to say that i thought the
rubber was
he was what i didn't hear anyone heard
he was
it was fascinating
but i believe i believe rabbi hutner
said i believe if they checked i think
he said monday and thursday the point
the let's let's not get caught up you
know the nakuda
is that
that happened his own life
faster yet
yet when rabzalman garraria hussain here
who passed away
was fasting quite a bit that ever wrote
him stop stop
in other words in other words the
general message this is the way i
understand the general message for us
for our generation is fasting is not the
way to do your true form do your true
for by giving a lot of tadaka one second
hillary give a lot of tadaka
have a lot of obvious israel you know
you know
we're just not equipped is there
exception yes there are exceptions and
if someone personally feels that color
covert
one thing i want to store and then i'll
let you
a friend of mine was in on business in
eritrea's role um about 15 years ago
uh and he's a very successful business
person and very bright and he met with
an executive of teva pharmaceutical you
know that has a
advertiser
and they were having breakfast at one of
the uh hotels the kosher hotels
it was quite a shallow
and they sit down
and my friend you know starts eating and
and and and and he says to to the
representative who was a misrachi
belonged to mizrahi and didn't wear
black he bought us
and they did yamaka and it was
and he says he's not eating
and he says to him
you're not eating you're fasting
like you know please i feel embarrassed
i'm eating and you're my host that
you're not eating
and he says no i'm not eating today the
altar ever says in tanya that you need
to do a certain amount of fast and it's
quite the shallow roshan is coming and
i'm i'm fasting
and this laboratory is blown away
and there was no there was no like he
didn't make any stick about it this this
this hebrew it was just natural
what's says in italian it's quite a
shallow i'm i'm i want to do children
i'm trusting
please eat and i'm not eating anything
neat
you understand
so a person who takes it seriously and
and and he's equipped and he really is
strong i mean that's that's that's a
very it's valdic but overall
the message was always
from the altitudes time through the
rabbit and i i i said i see i think i
see i see it in my life i see it in the
generation that being proactive through
mitsubishi and alba's israel
it's it's just the same quality of chuva
but here in lakota
the altered has to has to say this says
it because we're talking about someone
who is
so jaded so clogged and he can't uh
uh it can't loosen up
so he needs excuse the expression a good
kick in the pants the doctor ever says
well if you need a good kick in the
pants to move you this is a kick in the
pants yes hello
when i first read this line the thing i
thought of was sort of the it was sort
of the opposite i think you're reading
shot
right and that's what
raviol says here as well like you're
saying but what i first thought of was
when the ultimate rabbit talks about
uh having the experience in davening
and it seems to that that that quality
so i'm just curious whether you'd say
that that when the altir rabbit
emphasizes that
is is that rashfa asia he's talking
about is that
uh is that like
de la ela or de la tata or a mixture or
what what do you think that is well that
kalish bayes is all positive this age
no no i understand that i understand
that but and uh but uh but uh i i that's
what it but i thought of
that one could say uh uh about that
local adam zilkel is that
and certainly
yeah
yes yes so that's curiosity
that could be said lo called them to
have the rich bias
uh that you know during davening
absolutely absolutely but it's not the
same so it's not the same no no no no no
i know it's not the same but i but i
also
but i wonder now
if you think of that like is that a is
that a gift is that is that a
uh is that something that you know we're
able to generate
uh
from below through hashem sees how how
you're you're trying your best he gifts
you with something that's very special
yes
but then it's a gift finally in the end
it's a gift that that the age itself is
a gift yeah but but but
it's a gift based on your avoider
it's not it's not reward and punishment
i did so much and i'm getting that no it
doesn't work that way but if you did if
you if you if you did nothing you're not
getting that gift if you're
if you're making yourself a vessel for
godliness
so hashem will say i want to help this
fellow in this way because i see he
really is trying his best
have a great day everyone good
discussion go ahead and we'll see
everyone tomorrow zai gaza bye bye take
care