Ani Ledodi #8 Likutei Torah - Searching in the right place when desiring change

rampage you test in the hasidus muveres version of anila deity the miner of the altareba which appears in the kuti toyota page lamid bays the heart of the quti toyota that everyone said is this mimer anila deity just like chapter 32 and tanya is the heart of tanya chapter um chapter uh this my manila deity being that it's on page islamic base that ever said it's the heart of the quti okay so we discussed yesterday and the day before the the altareb introduces in chapter three patrick shilishi which begins on page utress the concept that there's not only a field mindset the mindset of a person who finds himself in the field which is analogous to the month of ello and i encourage those that didn't get a chance that missed some of this urum to really listen to this urum they're online on youtube and it'll bring you up today to what we're at but in this uh third chapter that ebba also the altered introduced there's also a midbar mindset within the person so a yid a jew every jew has in the shrama and that's the real jew however because of a jew's behavior in thought speech in action there are various different mindsets one is field meaning neutrality they're not bad they're not evil but they don't that they're neutral and the other is midbar midbar hazal and it's lozarua it's a plan a place where it it vegetation is not possible in a desert by the way there's another touch to hell that's lazy i think dalton ever might bring it later it's a land of negativity zarua that's what's planted here right that's not the simple meaning and it's we read ernest a desert it's a place where that has no growth no no vegetation another type is addis this piece of earth this symbolism of someone who is a desert-minded person is light negativity against god antithetical to god transgressing not just neutral right this type is heterozygous is adult that alludes to it earlier titus scissor is midbar taibus hector is southern so the alternate is going to say guess what there's even an opportunity and a chance for a midbar minded person to get on the boat on the wagon and to reconnect let's see how he does that if he ate so how you uh [Music] so here the altar but doesn't only say v8 v8s this might even be a quote from a a part of a positive but it's definitely the idea being the eights are you it's uh why repeat twice the answer for eighteen is uh the advice when do you use the phrase for eight sahayatsu means when the situation is really dire and bad you really have to come up with a good answer right so yay since we're talking about now someone who is a midbar-like person he's he's antithetical to hashem he's involved in type of soy surim indulgences that are forbidden here doubt that ever says i have to really scratch my head and find some advice that can slap him out of the tsara and what is that he next see if he brings the passage in the title you shall search from there as hashem god your god pedus the light that was so good hashem said i have to hide it you know because it's too good for this world when meshiach will come i'll reveal it but right now this light that was that didn't exist during the bria during creation hashem says that's all it did i needed it to get the ball rolling once the ball is rolling i'm hiding it in his body we discussed earlier that light of god is an emanation of god's inner will and we said earlier yaakov there's no difference in the quality between the light the ray of the sun to the sun itself the only difference is in the quantity so too an emanation of hashem qualitatively speaking is like hashem himself in the language of hasidis i want you to remember this or the or which is the emanation the reflection main it is similar to hama or the illuminary the source of which the er comes from and why is that how could you say that because the quality and objective of light is the same be it in the source or be it in its ray the difference is only in the amount of light that each gives and the amount and and the accomplishment and which what each accomplishes but i swallow as far as the quality and objective it's the same so the alt treble says now since light in general is an emanation of gods yes which every single yid has this level remember moshe israel you'd sar kale we learned very important it's constant what does an israelite mean and i pointed out to someone else when you think of the word israel yaakov what do you think of i'm asking you hey someone who changed the show yes you think of what it says in paris you wrangled with men and angels and you succeeded and therefore and that's the time when hashem gave yako the name israel that's judaism 101 right especially puts a great emphasis on the inner meaning of the word and altered says that the reason why yaakov succeeded over the angel is because yaakov is a jew and a jew has one up on an angel and what does he have that's one up he has kale sar kale he's a master of kale and you'd you'd sarcale it's constant what is the youth the light he said whatever i'm not going into the details which of the 13 attributes it is but it's associated with god's light this light of hashem taught us earlier is the panemius of hashem it's the inner inner essence of god and god says i'm putting this into you and that's why yaakov he was able to overcome the angel until then yaakov did not have the youth sarkeel and therefore there was no difference in a sense between himself and the angel when hashem gave him the youth sarcas vis-a-vis his struggle and fight with the angel he became greater than angels he manifested at the time what we call neshama's soul light light of hashem kale and that's why he was able to beat the angel says the altar going back to our text over here that every jew yes every jew is israel we call them israel israel ellen let's continue the texts [Music] it's very concealed one second it's very concealed in his nature his natural self what he does every day conceals this yellow kale yes jacob just going back on what you said before clarifying the means present continuous not he did he's doing and there's a few other sukim that the youth represent shows dr rebecca's lesson is continue continue continuity of the behavior the action continuity of what again of of that that this idea of kale is not something god put into person but because he behaves in an ugly way it gets lost it's always there is constant you'd sar kale that the truth is that the kale that every jew has is a tsar as a master and it's constant that's youth youth sartail so again as the smartest ones the the of the of of the kale of the kale is constant within the jew he's never lost that a beautiful thing since the every jew has the kale but at the same time you're saying that it's hester vegem it's concealed because the natural stuff gets in the way and hides it says dalton but that's why you have to be mad you have to reveal the treasure of yiddish ramayana in other words what's a treasure a treasure is something that you all have it's there but if you don't open up the treasure it never comes to fruition the treasure of having fear and all for god in other words that every year has a treasure that deep down one wants to have that yiddish mayan but it's like a treasure yakov you have to be megalith you have to reveal it yes says the altered before we were discussing an individual who whose kale is hidden between because of his nature you know he you know some people are very very uh we spoke about it before exact and precise and if something's a little different they can't relate to it you know what i'm saying so nature you know the way you you were raised the way you were born into which parents in which community all those things as we learned to the countries we learned how all of those make a difference on who the student is and how the teacher should apply himself to the student accordingly so what do we see that we are not to underestimate teva is very powerful nevertheless teva can only conceal in other words if hashem says for example this this is a far out example it's heir of shabbos shabba is about to begin the arizona comes out and he tells the student and swas he says come who's ready to go to yerushalayim to greet mashiach wow oh they all want to go but they say rebbe we need to check with our wives first they come back and they say our wives gave us permissions as the arizona forget it you missed the opportunity and by the way it was this way with the rubbish moisture you're gonna like to hear this it's very important especially in the early years the first 10 20 years of the rebels leadership if rabbi khadikat was the closest secretary and dealt with these issues for the reb about sending people out on all over the world if if if he asked and everyone know if he's asking if they're asking through him someone about going to schliches and you and you and you you know you were unsure i have to ask i have to talk you didn't get a second you didn't get a second chance why the hesitancy yeah in other words no you yourself are ready ready to jump in but there's a wife there's a mother there's a father there's a shoe there's a rabbi and they're all holy and they're all good but you gotta capitalize sometimes on the moment you gotta seize the moment it's in that moment so so too diarizal was was hoping that they would seize the moment they wouldn't ask any questions now why am i telling you these two stories because that's teva they didn't do anything wrong is it natural to ask your wife should you ask your wife yes but there's a time where you have to go beyond teva and either you get it or you don't there's another yakov a maiden came with pinchas no pinterest got up and he slews him me right if he would have asked her shyla if he would have asked the shiner by me she would have told him you know how to do it so he didn't have it's a halal but we don't give that instruction he did what he had to so during the kuda the point is that dalton here is saying like this look what he's saying he's saying that for one person the reason why the kale is hit is not apparent is because batively that's his nature his nature is to be so organized and so limited or somewhat called narrow minded whatever whatever whatever but that's not bad it's just the way it is nevertheless it doesn't allow the kale to flow through now doubt that ever says there's another individual who by him the kale isn't only concealed because of nature but the kale is actually lost look what he says there's another individual that the kale is lost by him and we call that ghost where you can't do what you want like we're going through a nous you have to put a mask on and do this and do that otherwise you can i've been wanting to come to see my grandchildren archie serol and all the michigan with the quarantine and tests and all that drives me nuts i haven't gotten on the plane it's ghosts is not sitting on your loins and eating popcorn watching the super bowl oh because what which to play yeah but a right to plea because really i really please help me i need it says the alternate but then when the toilet says will be kashmisham you shall search for god mishom because i'll say when you have a lost object an aveda just a cursory search won't do it you have to do like badika's comments you have to do a real hypos when something of the kale is lost in one particular area it's gotten lost to the point where it's an exile then you need to apply the costume we learned earlier that every year has a spark of godliness vis-a-vis which referred to as the kale and sometimes this is very lost in man says vikas search from that rests within every single yid to enliven the godly soul so in other words what what do we mean the nephew shall it is the godly soul that dalton rabbit taught us every jew has is what gives animation to the neshama to be holy and do the good what hashem wants and if what triggers and what triggers that that what we call the need so it's the spark that this is really key and over here dalton ever saying that by some people because of their own stuff and and issues they have caused their needs to tell a key to be lost so that says you have to search very well and plead to get it back now he's going to look at the word michonne let's look just as it's impossible to search for a lost object and to find it unless you look in at the place where you lost it if you look elsewhere you'll never find it [Music] a person won't comprehend god the face of god the inner aspect of god and that he should make his love be towards the god villa say upon them and have fear on his face from the from that inspiration first this jew has to really really search where they the place which he identifies where he lost it temporarily i'll i'll i'll get it we will check our ways and from and by checking our ways we will do true for to you hashem says the altar you have to check in your ways in the in those ways that were inappropriate over there you have to go and find oh what was wrong and do trouble from that place because just as an object that's lost you'll never find it if you're looking at the wrong place so too if you really want to accomplish that the hypos that the searching should have an impact you have to get down and dirty and if you fantasize and do other things it's all nice and it's all real in a way even if it's not a fantasy but you're still not getting to the very core to get to the very core it's uncomfortable you have to deal with some very very uncomfortable issues that might have never been resolved and now this ello you want to do trouba for that so you have to deal with that shiite fascists but myself practically this means one should look at their deeds with the buddha in their speech and their thoughts that have gone by from the day he was created i shall i tell even those that were no good it's a very heavy trip because who wants to go back and look and right doesn't the hill is not on but modern psychology you know tells you don't look to the past because it might um i mean even i'm saying fraud psychoanalysis does talk about that but the modern psychology of behavioral therapy and cognitive therapy they go a different route which has been the more accepted approach today in psychology than the good old psychoanalysis psychoanalysis might be more similar to this idea of looking at your past which is very uncomfortable you know and especially i mean what's the point of looking at things that i did that was so wrong how's it going to make me better the answer is that first of all you have to we have to be sure a yid has to be sure that he's got his gu he he now that he's done true but he disagrees with it a hundred percent and and and it's as ugly to him as the worst thing that he just discussed that he hates that that's terrible to him that's number one number two when you realize that you were once in that position and now you are on this position it helps you with your happiness that you were able to leave such a terrible state and if you had the kayak to do chuva years ago when you were becoming about the shoe every one of us in our own way this should be a impetus for us to do truva today in the setting we are today because anyone that feels that the setting they are today they're doing just fine they're not you know doing uh things that are against hashem they're doing things that maybe are you know neutral and not always uh with a godly slant but they're not doing dvarama story so why revisit and dalton says here something that's uncomfortable but he says search god if you want to find god real god whole god essence of god you have to plea search with a with a with a with a candle like you do thickest comets misham you have to go to the right place where the negativity happened we're now on page huff fourth line fourth word from the end of the line value days there acronym his heart will become very bitter and frustrated you see there's a time you can't handle that and then there's a time you could handle it and this is really you know if you've ever wondered how do i know i've graduated the bt state and i'm now an ffb state you all know it bt right teshuva and f b is from from birth clash to sheldon but i'm saying you know because i people you know we're people we mean to say the answer is if you can reflect back on the stake you were before and not lose your excuse excuse this expression not lose your pants not get all frazzled not get all bent out of shape that shows that you really you you really are a different person you really made a change in your life so looking back doesn't doesn't make you in any way less than what you are today on the contrary you're looking back to to improve that's what delta is saying here look at the words by your desert by looking back you smile merrily boy your heart will be frustrated bikini boy yo and you'll only do more true shiva vida and god will have more mercy on you so the results of this bikush mesham is to make you stronger and for hashem to have more mercy on you part of the thinking process of this type of truth is that you work to awakening abundance of mercy i'll need to tell you over the godly sparks that's within you in other words you're saying to hashem and to yourself i have a godly spark a nitsuits a kale and it's in ghost i'm pained by it i won't i don't want it to be any more ghosts just like i was able to release myself from ghosts by doing for years ago i am now thinking about doing trufa and now given who i am yes hilo you want to say something hilo okay and this is the verse says like this motion to yakov who was redeemed by avraham how is that avraham yani is it kindness yaakov is rahmani's mercy [Music] when you awaken god's mercy it can also redeem the alva that's within you that you cannot get yourself to love god you're like a stone and you're asking yourself why don't i have a love to god like i like at least like i love other people and other things and for me it's all lip service do this do that bow down don't bow down i want to feel your ava is in captivity comes along the proposition says i understand and there's an eight solution for it awakened mercy yaakov lyakov go back to the puzzle look li it's in that time that yaakov arousing god's mercy will actually redeem your love so that it should be mekubal accepted by god it can release it releases ava from its exile he made us shall abraham avinu all over australia next page this is the meet of abraham avinu which therefore therefore avraham avenue is called avinu because every single jew has the meter of hassan of abba inside himself and since a son is the foot of the father he broughtably call it chinese but to be included and and and nullifies observing to god's will meaning when we understand that we are bro the son which is the foot of the father we are that's why we say avinu avrama vinu what connection do we have to avinu like the famous story the meshula comes to the faisal of lebline and he asks for a donation and he gives him a certain amount and then the mashup finds out that really the quesad gives his relatives double the amount so he says that's not fair i'm a relative of the crazer so he goes back to him and he says give me and he says i'm sorry you're a fourth cousins brothers aunts uh mothers uh yeah i'm talking about a real relative you're so distant you get like everyone else you don't get double then it was time the shoe the face is in front with his holiness this year this mushroom screams out in yiddish which means oh really he's also a relative the god of abram the god of giza we are governing right and we're calling upon them as though they're our fathers come on and the crazer broke out with a smile and after mingling gave him double the amount if it's good for hashem it's good for the heiser here we're learning that avraham is abramovino the ava that we have is because we are sons of gods avraham is our forefather our ancestor safran represents christ it says the altered at times has it gets stuck the love you just are jaded and and you don't have feelings and this is very important as we dive and we'll come to the yemen it's a time to awake feelings not just to be mechanical okay we've been mechanical 50 years 60 years 30 years each and every one of us in our life we've been mechanical now it's time to feel something to give a little crutch to give a little tear to give a little love to god and it doesn't go so you need to do is you have to ask one of our ancestors is yaakov and yaakov represents mercy have mercy and release my avram my ava that i should feel love to you god says the altar but this is part of the video very beautiful point that when a person does truth and he does truth in the right way and in the right place he has the power of even releasing a jaded feeling a heart of a stone that it should become a heart of gold so that's also included in the vikasta mission any questions thoughts is it clear i mean i want to make sure is it clear what we learned yes hilo i just want to say it's also a theme that really is echoed in this week's parsha and he said emphasize it that this needs to be our strategy in dealing with things that are in our issues as opposed to a surim as you said so it's uh it's a really parallel idea thank you thank you and since you mentioned the altered says must know he's always above the enemy never think of yourself i'm under the enemy the enemy you know has gotten to me and i'm s and i no aid in his very essence is alive temporarily he slipped stays the previous rep his father got married today and his his uh son the frida krabba's uh anniversary is shabbos you'd gimmel two days later you'd gimble yeah 1897. so um it's an opportunity an opportunity as we continue making the fresh banana fish and working so that we have a shana tavern and goodness that's a parent and that we that we're we're not scared to deal with issues that need to be looked at because we'll only become better and healthier but you have to have be in the right frame of mind in other words what we're learning here yaakov about this would be kashta misham you know like i think i told you i once spoke at the large school in miami in the bell harbor next to serve side whenever the buildings fell uh rabbi lipska and i was learning at that time the the kiss fear diesel on reincarnation which i believe hillary learned with the havarusa you know shout out to gulen so i was really very excited and i was at that time teaching classes on the on those topics so i was invited to give a share so i spoke about different things one was marriage spouse is a marriage so that is our rights that if a person is in a situation if if that he has a second wife for whatever reason whether it be the first one passed away or they divorced et cetera says the ids and and it seems to that person it not seems the person feels the second marriage is better than the first says the arizon that's because on the tree the eight's higher where the nusramas come from there are branches and it could be that the second one came from the same branch as as the as the husband in other words there's two separate concepts there's something called a zivak and there's something called bashert now we put them all together in one basket the truth is it's two separate things bashar means it's destined it's from heaven to be that doesn't yet mean that you come from the same branch for whatever reason for a certain amount of years these two people had to be with each with each other married to each other then for whatever reason that bashar it finishes zeevook is a different idea zebuk means you're a pear from from the the source and for some reason you're probably wondering and asking if so why didn't i meet her to begin with because it wasn't my shirt oh wow very good you understand it wasn't bashed that's why you didn't meet her and at the right time when it will be by shared you will meet you you you can't by the way it's not a must you can go through your entire life in other words it could be many people are married not to their zivak we use the word zebuk but it doesn't mean you're from the same branch and that's why there can be opposites why the two people husband and wife centers are totally opposite they're not necessarily from the same branch a tree has many branches anyway this is a whole posture it needs a lot more conversations and i just want to say uh since you mentioned uh sharokina gulen this week i was at a sim club i was sitting next to someone and the band started playing a tune that we recognized as an old pop tune with with updated uh fruit lyrics i said we call this sheer hug anyway i didn't finish this and if there's a story so okay i was discussing this issue in the shul thinking it's it's a frum shule you know all kinds of you know in the middle of the sheer i saw a young man tall handsome nice and he walks out and i sensed that i said something that really rubbed him the wrong way you know he didn't storm out but you know like everyone was sitting you know listening attentively so after after minutes i went over to him and i said um you know i noticed you walked out and uh you know there's something i said that upset you i apologize but i'd like to know you know did i say he says yes you did i said what did i say he says i got married last week and i'm listening to talk about a second marriage and and gilgulum and the branches i believe this is my sugar and my shirt and my z book and that's all i want to know about now i'm using that as an example you can't you know be customizable sometimes if you overload someone it's too much for them you have to be very careful so that's why this avoid of vikash de mesa oil explained to us it comes as a [Music] a a last resort in other words the the normally a person should be able to to reveal their love for god without having to awaken mercy work on yourself study learn meditate and develop a feeling for god dalton is saying here that if that doesn't work and you feel hopeless and you feel like what am i accomplishing if i don't have any feeling i'm just being a robot i'm doing the act so dalton ebba says then you need to awaken and ask god please have mercy and open my heart up you understand so it's important as much as we spend time explaining what he's saying it's important to know what he doesn't say which is self understood or at least it should be that you got to be careful just like you know i mean listen i was speaking to everyone so most everyone enjoyed it and appreciate hearing it the fact that one person didn't you know so but to me you know it's a lesson to be more sensitive and somehow you know be more careful how i you know delivered those ideas at a public share but the nakuda is that you have to be careful so if you're going to say someone i want you to think about the sins you did when you were 25 or 20 or 15 as a teenager college student you know the girls you ran around with the trey few eight and all that on and on and on and and the person is just struggling they're beginning and then and then they even if they're you know they have to have the character the kayak the makeup to be able to to deal with these things and if they can't they shouldn't go there so i want to be very clear that message is only if you could go there if you can't go there you're right it's a lost object and it one day you'll ask mercy of hashem and i'll give you the kayak and you'll be able to go there and to elevate it but if you know you're not ready to go there don't go there so i i just want to make sure that i'm clear okay have a great shoppers we'll learn monday mitchell sham said look i'll send you the clip for this week look at the clip look at the clip i'm sending you zeitgeist bye bye thanks bye