Ani Ledodi #2 Likutei Torah - Timing is Everything - Anger Pride lacks Pnimius

we're we already crossed over to paige um you did the myma nila day d of the altitude if you look with the tater page llama base 32 and the safer we're using um it's on page test now the last thing we learned is the reason why we address hashem as the king hamelech from rosh hashanah through yom kippur is because the emphasis at that time is god's awesomeness his his the word in in hebrew and we say it every day right what does knight mean awesome i just remind you that you know in the british in the um when you take the torah out he says right we change during shabbos and the truth we say kaddish van irshman normally we say holy is his name here we say holy and awesome because the emphasis during that time is the awesomeness so the altar explained to us here that the the process of truth of gives us the ability to identify to relate to the period in which we're in in other words whether we make preparation during evil or we don't rosh hashanah yom kippur circus and custard are happening and it's a time of revelation the question is whether we are going to feel the revelation you see it's not that what if someone decides to go to hawaii and spend all of his time on the beach for 30 days and wasting time okay are you gonna and then he comes and he says i'm going to shoot him and he cries and he does did he not die from rosh hashanah absolutely however however whether he will from his perspective and his issues will he identify and feel the the the gift of rasharyam kippur the answer is no the answer is no but if that doesn't take away the fact that shermany and kipper bring to the world god's awesomeness so these are two and this idea by the way is very important not only here but in all of throughout the year we've spoken about this before but it's worth mentioning again when assad gives you abraha and you see that the bracha in your mind has not been fulfilled you you you could walk away saying hey the tsadik is a faker the tardic is not real the tardis doesn't have the power to make the bracha be actualized that's one attitude the other attitude is that sadiq is real the braco is very real the problem is i'm grub i'm not a vessel i did not make myself a vessel the frida karebo always said abraha is like rain if you plow the earth the rain will make the crop grow if you don't if um if you don't dig and you don't ever plow the earth the rain can come but it's wasted that's what a brook was like so especially philosophy this is if this is the ethos of chabad versus other hasidic movements right let's go back to basic 101 what's the difference he will make you live so the question is now like this this has is it adequate to just rely on that sadiq for you to become alive or do you yourself need to do much to make that sadik's be alive in you says you have to work on your own and if not that sadiq and the brother is a bracha but it will not be actualized other hasidic group says no go to the tsadik sing dance get some shrayam speak with him and that is adequate and that's why the other hasidic movements i'm making the general statement i'm not and so they do not emphasize the idea of understanding godliness with the with the with the das they say that's not necessary it's enough just to dance at the tzadik's table it's enough just to listen to the tsaddik's words that's adequate and that will take you along for the ride chabad says no doubt that ever says no if you yourself don't experience it and work on it make it part of you it won't be actualized the topic is exotic the brochures so we're saying the same thing over here regarding elo if a person doesn't do millionaires in any avoided throughout elo is there anything lacking in rosh hashanah yom kippur as far as the revelation of god no but it's not it will it it's not it's not part of me so you'll go to shul and you'll and you'll dive in intently you know it's all good and and you should do that even someone who's not involved in that void of hell but if you really wanted to make a change in yourself you have to work you have to do avoid of elo that's it so in other words sometimes my share hashem decides i'm going to give this guy a gift although he didn't really work for it during yellow i'm still going to give him a gift okay and we hope for that you know but that's not what we should plan for a smart person makes a reckoning an accounting fish so this is what the alternative says now but hashem's kingship is the kingship not only for our world velvet but also for all the spiritual rules pedus let's doubt that everyone when you see much of the word peters you have to say what's bothering him that he says penis means the explanation is well what's difficult that he needs to explain what's difficult is you would think that our world the world of gosh means a material matter and materialism that's the world which has issues and to feel god's presence god's awesomeness is a lot of work so i can understand that you need help but the angels the celestial beings measure the holy rollers they're in tune with god why do they need to have this hamelich that's his question here don't they feel god's they will also have the fear and awe of god what's his answer his answer is holy rollers here holy rollers there angels here souls here it's not god emanations of god and as long as you're not god the essence there is something lacking that's what he's saying and that's why when it comes to hashem kipper listen to this motion could you tell me who thinks about on rosh hashanah kippur that that the heavens and the angels are are are or scared of god or in all of god that they're we don't think about that even though we say those verses by the way throughout the uh the the the yom kippur and this is the christmas chef race and those took him right we talked a lot about the angels you know how the angels were during the torah and different things but the average person going to schule he doesn't you know he reflects about himself and his friend next to him and his wife and his kitchen and his panosa and his children says the altar but my dear friends i want you to understand that the awe of rosh hashanah makes an impact even on those angels and why is that important because when you know that your father and your mother and your grandfather your grandmother are also in awe of a certain person or certain situation or in this case hashem you say to yourself if they who are better than i are this way feel this way surely i should feel this way and that's why you're innocent every day during davening why do we read you know after you start with the birkheitzer the blessing before what do we have what do we have in common with angels that are burning up in god's radiation dancing with god getting excited i mean why we why are we wasting the time reading about the angels every morning 365 days a year one of the explanations is because when you realize that the angels are your spiritual parents and your parents are in awe of hashem then a humble rational person says i should surely be you humble before god if my father who i consider greater than me better than me is in awe of god surely i should be you know that's why we read it every day because we're working towards finding unity shemages god's unity in this world so we we look for meditations vis-a-vis the words of davening how we can penetrate our material matter our gosh mia's so that we have this humility because after all we're course it doesn't mean to say that you know we're not mentally okay but the fact is the gospels is a disruption now tereb it says in chapter 23 of tanya the more you use gashmias the more you become comfortable even if you don't abuse gash mia's just by using it his language is in chapter 23 from the abundance of you using it it becomes second nature now you have to break that pattern because otherwise you conclude and you walk around your entire life believing this is the way it should be and this is by the way just to parenthetically what that ever brought to the world that this is not the way it should be we need mashiach what did he do what did he do that ebba was working towards changing the attitude of the jewish person in benebrach and yerushalayim and in brooklyn it's good to learn you must learn but remember my friends that that the world needs mashiach to correct the world to bring tikkun to the world and as long as we don't have that we can't sit on our loins we have to continue storming to get mashiach to come i told you once right i was at the shabbat table in shabbos table in rehabilitation and my daughter was there with friends from different seminaries and i asked that one of the girls who went to a basiaco seminary i said so what do they teach you tell me so she said you do terry mitzvahs tara mitsus i said what about they teach anything about moshiach says no they said how do they look at mashiach has an afterthought it's not part of our real consciousness it's not relevant to the average from jew what's relevant is learn and do mitzvahs you ask the chabad girl the seminary girl girl they say no the whole purpose is to bring mashiach how through mitzvos it's two totally opposite ways of thinking thereby spent so much time on teaching this approach the altareb is doing the same thing 200 years before how by teaching us that even the supernal worlds which he calls here velvet all of us the hidden worlds you would think they're they're they're they're in the comfort zone as we say today they're in the zone with hashem the answer is no they're in the zone but they're not in the zone on one hand they're further from the zone than we are because we are in the goshens and god desires gospels so therefore it's easier for us to adopt and and and find god versus them why because their finding of god is limited just to the spiritual god what's an angel's idea of god moshe a holy god a removed god from gashmius in other words the angel the angel the mallach his comfort zone is luchnius can a malach relate to gash mia's no amalek sees gasmius as antithetical to god about us no to us spirituality and physicality are all the same because we're far from both so that we can understand and relate that god is in us is as much as it is and even more so but going back to to the words in the mind that ever says here that therefore even to the celestial beings and the what he calls the concealed worlds their fe the oar of god falls upon them um second line um this moisture has an impact not only on them but also on us [Music] to accept hashem kabbalah doesn't only me on their face when you look at the face you see that they have off washing you know alpine means you're interested in this context panemias what did we say this morning and this afternoon we're going to say it in the in the what's it called in the s what does that mean my search for god's face [Music] your face god i look for what is punin the punishment of a person tells you about the person people study the poems i think hassidus would say study the face study the face of a person if you really look at the face you can tell much about the person people speak about that evan's beautiful blue eyes remember you heard that oh his eyes were so you know blue and awesome and it made such an indelible impression on me when i met him in his room you know his eyes the eyes of a person is is very powerful the face of a person is so powerful that's why a person who walks around with saying it means morbid [Music] you know even if the person inside's not that way it leaves a sour a sour face you have a shine a brightness a smile even if inside you're hurting it's a whole different it's a whole different relationship it's a whole different experience what does doubt that ever say here that the the acceptance of hashem on rosh hashanah through yom kippur when god shines his essence to us creates within us the the year could be but anemias throughout the year look at the next words because god's fe all and his love are not made and not planted in the heart of man on your own i'll explain a moment ki m rather only mikoyaka it happens when there is a reflection and emanation hanimshi or love that is drawn to him mill milo from above the ace us at the time when it's revealed this is an advertisement if you if i may say so for the importance of of being in shul and david and rashford are ten days of truth the ten days of truva is the time when hashem's hashem's awesomeness is real in the world in other words you know we say location location location this is about timing timing and timing the timing is here this is possible if we prepare ourselves an elo then we will inculcate hashem's awesomeness in a previous and why is that necessary why is it necessary to have pneumous be the end result why is it not enough to just live with the fluff and the bluff and it's obvious because if you live in the fluff and the bluff it doesn't change you it only changes your outer self and when a situation rises which touches upon something deeper you lose yourself you fall apart there's a meltdown and that's why people have meltdowns because they have meltdowns because they haven't inculcated the experience implements so that's what dr rebecca says here yes what when you're talking about meltdowns you're talking about people that lose their temper they lose their cool yeah and and that need yes yeah that too that too dr ebba says in nigeria if he speaks about david when shimmy bengara who was a former friend cursed over the melee david didn't lose his school because he realized it's from god you see in other words anger and things that upset you and bring you to anger and rage or whatever the case it's only if you are not yet one with hashem meaning in the sense that you don't yet believe or you don't yet understand and believe that this is from hashem not right like what did i i always said since there ever passed on gimbal thomas what was the hardest thing for the barbecues to accept god what do you mean the religious jews are considered to accept god i accept god until here how could he have taken the laboratory back oh he was only 92 years old and you know barack hashem that's long life and that if you're not happy talk to god or ask yourself do you really believe in god and the same is true when rahman islam a child passes away or a holocaust all of these difficult situations if you're not one with hashem then you're gonna have a question i shouldn't say a question you'll have a question but you're gonna the question is gonna bother you and disturb you but if you come to plenius paninius means that you are in sync with hashem and therefore why are you upset why are you getting angry because it touched your fancy because it it because it doesn't go your way who are you who are you who am i you see and this is and this is this is not easy trust me it's easier to say it in words but this is so difficult so what is that that i've been saying now that ever is saying that when you realize that the ascension shiva from young kipper is the time when hashem's kingship hamelech is prominent and we changed the darwining from hokkaido to hamelich and everything is about hamelech the king we we have an opportunity to identify with that melech and that melon should become part of us but when will that happen only if you exerted yourself during evil because if you didn't work and plow the earth you could scream hamelich and sheikh khamelech and it's nada it doesn't mean you shouldn't you shouldn't do that and it doesn't mean if hashem decides to be nice to you and give you give you that that special thing fine but it's not enough and then the altitude says here another important message and that is he says here throughout the year a person cannot you hear this you're innocent a person cannot create the panemius experience of ava and jira love and all for god unless it was planted within him on rosh hashanah through yom kippur and the question is why here we are today is l the second available or any other month if you decide to doven and to learn and to to really right can't you have the the greatest experience of love and all for god and the answer is no you know why because we are limited so what is my perspective of love to god the way i love myself the way i understand love that's the way it i reflected on god well that's very limited a lover and a loved the relationship is the perception of the lover is expressed to the loved no the lover is limited in their mind in their heart so sometimes i love the person or i like i love the thing because it it it's exciting it's intellectual it's emotional it's merciful wonderful wonderful feelings but that's a limitation talking about it in the marriage relationship the story with the semester that i've told you but i didn't tell you in a long time it's worth mentioning again a great husset his name was lebsmulbasalo raj bots the previous letter writes about him in his in his writings rashbots first he was a snagit he became a hussain he got beaten by them snagged them at the time and he said to become a hostage sometimes you need to be beaten you gotta go through you gotta you know yeah beaten means not just physically humiliated huh you want to grow your beard and they laugh at you you look like a santa claus i've been called a santa claus sometimes with my beard you know humiliation whether it's a beard whether it's this a garter a baby should have a hustle whatever it is so this guy this sort of shmoop masala acronym being rajbats he would daven for many hours he got married he's insured with his talos over his head his wife comes running in one day and says come home it's late it's three o'clock in the afternoon you have to make kiddish i'm hungry come home he doesn't say anything because he's still dabbling so she runs over to him and she pulls his towels off his head come already stop already enough davening you're diving there any plenty of hours there was another house of david nick name was barista from a city called barissa mulberry another famous customer at san mateo he notices the way shimon batalla's wife takes the talos off and has this anger while he's still governing after she walks out and he's about to go home he goes over to him and he says i think you made a mistake you married the wrong woman i think you should divorce her if she doesn't appreciate you darving shabbos for hours and that's who you are you made a mistake so listen to his answer he says logically you're right i should divorce her because we're on two different pay wavelength pages but what should i do that that our rabbit the holy tsam ascetic he made the bracha under the hooper and when he made the bracha he sanctified the marriage and that means god says we belong together that's a geval degenerate i think to explain this idea that the relationship with hashem goes way beyond the rationale a lover and a beloved a loved can only go so far and when something happens that doesn't make sense or upsets you you want to check out then there's another attitude we are soul mates we come from the same branch on the tree of life according to the cabola maybe with two different branches on the tree both the same tree so the fact that we have differences new new we all have differences that samadhi sanctifying the marriage means that from on high because we believe that that sadiq saw that these two people that shmuel and his wife needed to be together because they were really together because they were two half so half souls they were a zevog that's the word in hebrew the zevog therefore he makes the bracha he expresses what god wants the fact that logically it doesn't make sense because she doesn't appreciate you diving to three o'clock in the afternoon shabbos and this is and for you this is your life it's a great calculation it's a correct calculation but it's still a human rational calculation says going back to the altitude and the moment here what does he say over here he says that to have love and offer hashem in the purest way in the pneumous way right in those penious way it requires god to give it to us in the sense that the timing is right and it's available in other words through rosh hashanah through yom kippur what does hashem do he plants in the world ava and era it's here now now it's up to us to inculcate it to to internalize it to live with it fine but it's here but if you don't capitalize on the opportunity that it's here these 10 days and later in three months from now you want to experience love and all for hashem you will but not the same kind it's a human love and fear and guess what that can have a season that can have an end and i think my friends that this is a very very important the kuda you know because i i mean i i brought this topic not to show and pain anyone god forbid but it's it's a perspective on all issues it's like would you uh would you ostracize a child a son a daughter who rebels against you would we do that now on one hand there's certain things you know you you wouldn't allow if it wants to smoke on shabbos in your house at the shabbos table you're not going to allow that but that's not what i'm talking about in your very essence do you not consider him your son you not consider her your daughter they're your children the practicality of that needs needs you know needs work needs cycle don't don't you know but the the nakuta of the panemius the panini is hanefish that's what i'm getting at the inner soul the inner souls what we can experience rosh hashanah yom kippur when when we have elo as you know plantings the earth not planting uh digging the earth right preparing the earth and from that we have the rosh hashanah the high no last line i want to finish the paragraph please the heinous and my beloveds to me so which what is the deity what is without elim my beloved is to me says thou to that but that's hashem responding to us hashanah yom kippur my beloved hashem leads to me top of page youth there's only one thing that makes it sound like it's the small change you just have to arouse the love and fear of the eater through the arousal below and if you don't if you don't you're innocent if you don't you can't you won't have the panemias so again can you have a love and fear for god that's external and superficial and practical yes right again something i told you a long time ago we finished with this there's a hungry person he comes to uh he's invited to a table he hasn't eaten and there's a wealthy person who's traveling and hasn't eaten but but you know he always has food and and and and the wife or the butler whoever puts the food down a plate who eats the food with more intensity the poor person because he hasn't eaten in a long time who's more attached to the food the poor person or the wealthy person that normally has food the wealthy person the proof is take away the plate for each who's going to go more ballistic who's going to be more angry how dare you take away my food the poor person or the wealthy person the wealthy person because he feels it belongs to him what's the word in english he feels what's the word that word come on he's entitled thank you thank you entitlement the poor person feels no entitlement and you know if we think about this rosh hashanah no elo it will help us cleanse ourselves stop feeling entitled you know we live in a world of entitlement because we have so much for hashem everyone and everyone i'm not talking about now how big the smaller bank account is just we have a place to live and we have food and we have we have electric right talk to some of the europeans my father's birthday bar hashem you know grew up in romania and you hear what he went through my father-in-law i mean they didn't have what to eat they died of typhus my father was on his death bed as a two three-year-old my grandmother called the hedre katisha figuring he's dying any moment they should please take him and bury him and all of a sudden he gets up from his straw little mattress straw and he walks around and he's alive because god decided he wants to save him you know and we're entitled what kind of betcha how thick should a mattress be upward downwards soft hard you know entitlement so elo is a month you know this doesn't have to bring morbidity that's to bring just honesty honesty to yourself it's like you know and that's how that ever says that when you do this elo you arouse yourself and you wake up from your slumber dreams of entitlement and then you're achillea vessel for the energy of hashem we'll see everyone tomorrow mr shame have a good day bye-bye thank you