Ani Ledodi #1 Likutei Torah - Who are You? Find your Soul and you'll be successful in yr Teshuva

uh we're going to learn the mymer liquidity torah anila deity and we're using this uh as a text uh uh if you have that it would be wonderful if you could use it if not just get a lakota torah and in the section that's under davorin page lamid base 32 but i want to give an introduction to the mimer this is the um the famous mimer of the altareba known as anila deity and the lakota okay the thing is that the um the mimer of the toyota is an important one because it sets the the agenda for for the month of ello what do i mean so i'm going to say it orally and and ask you when on your own to read a page of through the top of page zion the sikha this is a very very good secret to read it inside and to explain it will just take a long time and therefore i'm just going to repeat briefly what it says there but on your own i encourage you to read it line by line and basically let me begin with uh with with a saying in brisk you've heard of brisk grab high and brisker velvela prisca they call them the brisket of brisk they would say that during the month of ello even the fish and the pond tremble that was the saying of the brisker right that the fear that they say rosh hashanah yom kippur is coming you have to be scared you have to tremble and the the fear is so much that even the fish the fish are impacted in liquidity which is a collection of the previously rebels for brendan's he says there that in lubavitch one can tell a difference in the air as hell was approaching edinburgh dish so in in lakota de buren he doesn't say that the fish are trembling he says you can feel different in the air that ever once explained this and i'm going to leave that maybe for another time what what the symbolism of the air the the atmosphere the environment was different but for our purposes now this is the point i'd like to share based on this introduction the alternative does something here that's very very unusual unconventional and very different to the way torah liturgy has looked has looked at at the at l one second i'm learning now i can't i can't so until until the alternate ever [Music] the the when l came people became very scared now we're talking about you know even the commoner or the simple person on the street because most people were not alberta learning yeshivas okay let's let's let's remember what we're talking about nevertheless when elo came you know they they started to think about yomadin the day of judgment and they got very scared in the first chapter of this mimer anila deity he talks about revelation he talks about um ability to connect to something deeper in yourself and to experience something greater within the weekday in other words the altera explores and finds in the month of elul the greatest way of connecting to hashem which is more in the line of simcha joy and love and that's a a very different approach than the attitude to going to to ello as the fear uh that we that we that will we should have because of the madin and i want i want to make it very clear so we don't make any mistakes and people listen to this shirum they should also understand this the alternate doesn't say you don't have to have fear that's not what he says he's saying that the way to articulate your fear your era is through knowing who you are and if you want the experience of fear for god to be truthful you need to know who you are you see and only after knowing who you are who you are spiritually and who and what and what's what's going on with your soul then your your your concern about your transgressions and the day of judgment is real otherwise it's not real it's imaginary or fantasy and lots of people live with fantasies and imagine imaginations and wannabe and this is the whole approach of the altered man and this answers another question why does hasidis delve into the spiritual mystical concepts that seem to be so far from reality of of of the of regular man and the answer is because when you explore yourself and you explore your neshama yourself meaning your soul your neshama then your whole attitude towards life towards toyota towards family towards community is a very different one and then and then the the feelings of judgment and fear are real otherwise they're like dalton says in in at the end of chapter three of tanya you know it's a dunyan you know you know so this this now now again i'm not saying that the the brisker attitude of ello that the fish are trembling in the water even that's how fearful we have to be on ello is not a mahalis it's not an approach it is an approach it's it's it's it's it's that approach that that they and and others chose to to take and color covert you know it's it's tighter and it's holy i'm not claustrosine but at the same time dalton and that's why we learned this on nila deity and we share it with everyone is that we begin with knowing who you are and guess what every single year is special there's no such a thing that he eat is not special even a yid who's a sinner and a transgressor is special why because he has on the shrama but you say has lots of dirt okay so find your the shrum and the rabbit talks about that later in chapter um in chapter three will be search over there yes there is a time when we're not just in a in a city and we're not in a field we're in a desert in a mid bar and it's arua he quotes the verse and the literal meaning is a land it's earth that doesn't give plantation right mush it's it's it's the desert dalton has a different cretch a different emphasis on eretz lazarus not only does it not give vegetation it's against visitation and it's loyal you know what's planted in a desert zarua light negativity so it's not only that i didn't yet get a chance to learn i know what learning is and i know what the happening is and i'm against it that's that's much worse says the altar ebba even there will be some you have to go there and find your neshama there and we'll talk about that later so what do we see we see clearly the altareb is not you know pretending that he doesn't know that we have our issues of course he knows but he says the healthy way is to know yourself and as we discussed so many times that if this is our approach we'll have more success in all relationships and every relationship with our kids and grandkids and rabbis and employers and friends because you look at the summer so this is just a brief introduction to the mimer on illidarity now let's learn the mimer inside the video it says the song of songs of kings i am to my beloved videos and my beloved is to me you all know that the shira shirim was written like a love story a love of like a like um a poem of love love who is the the deity it really refers to god almighty he is our beloved the jewish people's beloved so the schwein says there is an experience called ani the jew who begins their relationship to the beloved one to god and the reciprocal reflect is and my beloved is to me mind you there is another verse in in in which begins my beloved is to me and i am to him so it's explained when it so which is it make up your mind velvet which is an either deity or deity the answer is it's two different time periods during nissan when god took us out of mitzrayim we were sunk immersed in 40 sharitouma join us and who began the the the process of healing hashem boom zap i don't care how dirty and how bad you are and what juice you're into i'm taking you out of there i'm taking you out nicola in the classical jewish term neglect god revealed himself and he redeemed us so did we earn it no did we work for it no on the contrary we were messed up and god said i want to do a nice thing for you guys and he zaps us out and he sends us out and out you go so what's that experience that begins with deity the beloved hashem begins the process that's the month of nisan now we're coming upon the month of tishrei what is the process of the month of tishrei anila d you have to begin the relationship but when is that is that tishrei and elo because this mimer is russia davis right look at the next words russia tavis ello in other words aleph lamid lamit the first four letters of those four hebrew words the acronym is russia davis ello so it's not tishrei and in classical jewish thought nissan is deity lee and tishrei is anila deity but dalton ever doesn't say that that ebba says here russia davis elul so right here we need to explore and we need to understand in other words what we're saying is that that tishrei which begins with our avodah literally dabbing and asking for a good year on rosh hashanah and the seal being annum keeper begins a month earlier by the way does anyone know what the word elo means did you ever ask yourself that question well i didn't ask myself the question for 60 years but this year hashem gave me the question what does the word elo mean now you know that the names of the months of our hebrew months began in buzzer when we were sent out when we said we when we were chased out and exiled from eric's israel into bubble that's when the name of the months became the name of the month so the word elo and there's one place in tanakh i forget now where i looked it up but i forget now and evil means to search so the month of ello means to search however i believe that the name of months some of them were given if you can believe this associated with some say that was associated with avodah zarah and we took the avodah zara name and we transformed it like the name thomas i believe the word thomas the name thomas was the name of an avodah zarah and the jewish people who were you know forced uh and and pressured by the babylonians took that very same name and used it for a devastation for a holy item we find this concept in in judaism for example in the 1600s you know the late 1600s or so going to the 1700s the the polish the polish government they forced the jews to wear tails just like you know the the nazis imagine forced us to wear yellow stars so a way of identifying jews in in a disgraceful way was through tales tales of of you know animal animal hides so what did we do we made a strimal out of it and they started to wear what's called today the stream of the fur hat right that's one of the explanations so we find that when we were forced and oppressed we took the negativity and we turned it into something holy and so too it's with the names of the monks but the word evil means to search so we know that russia is about searching and it begins with us searching so therefore that's in line with what it says that the activity avodah of tishrei is begins with man with us not with god anila deity so that's the altar explanation not only is rosh hashanah no keeper about our asking hashem and davening and we begin the process to get a good year from god we ask him to respond with a good year for us but it begins a month earlier the indian what is the concept arrow begins the experience prince literally means the level but now for our purposes we'll call the experience of i am to my beloved this means the experience called the arousal of below is aramaic for his root dilemmata the awakening the arousal of below meaning we generate the relationship we look into ourselves we see what needs improvement and in simple classical jewish terms we make a husband we make an accounting a reckoning what did i do in the month of the other last year on the third day does anyone remember that i don't but that's what we have to do you have to start thinking about so yoni you may be your member on this and this day your father wasn't feeling well and you think about that day that's what we mean so you need to think what happened this day what happened this month what happened this week what did i do how did i behave that's the aveda of this year of this month and you all know that a good businessman if he doesn't make uh a husband a reckoning of his stock at the end you get a balagam as we say in hebrew right you get a mishmash you don't know if you're coming or you're going you don't know where your head is and where your tail is but i made so much money yeah well how much did you make maybe you're spending more and maybe you gave out too much or i made too little how am i going to make more all of that is through a husband and the same is true available in your field in every field everyone has to look at themselves and what they did that's the avoider of vanilla deity this is the month we have 30 days today is the first of the month continue back in the text ah which we call the awakening the arousal from below it goes to reshashana of the yom kippurim ikepurim kippur shaheen they are days in which god godliness is drawn is given to the to us the mata below the british not just given but in a revealed way so here you have to stop and ask yourself a question wait a minute didn't we just say that rosh hashanah kipper is also part of our neely dodi the altar says here that elo is is is the is the activity that begins with us from below towards god and then he says now rosh hashanah and yom kippur is the activity of god bestowing his godliness to us below in a revealed way so make up your mind out the rebel which one is it before i go further do you do you follow the question if not i got to repeat it moshe hello do we have people listening or understanding which one do you mind to repeat the question i'd appreciate it okay please the altareba says in the text that that on the the month of ello is anila deity we begin the relationship we we look into ourselves we make the henchmen and all that right and he says and rashad yom kippur is when god draws gives his god he responds with his godly revelation to us now isn't that isn't that also so isn't that not we beginning the relationship but god beginning to reciprocating and giving us the rel giving us light right before i told you that the difference between nissan and tishrei is nissa begins with god take right he took us out and tishrei is weed out into hashem begins with us but it doesn't seem to say that right here here it says in this moment right here that rosh hashanah yom kippur that the el is anila deity we begin the relationship and keeper already god's response so the answer is simple when we compare elo to when we compare i'm sorry rosh hashanah to listen it's true this goes back to something that i taught you many times and repeated again that in siddhis when you learn qasidis you have to always remember the rule of relativity einstein's rule of relativity in hebrew it's indian yakasi it depends it depends what it depends right relative it depends it depends in what it depends on what kind of right it depends on what context so when there's a there's a discussion between rosh hashanah between tishrei and this and what i said earlier is true here we're not talking about listen here we're talking about the the one verse and we're talking about elo compared to rosh hashanah and yom kippur so therefore it's true that if you look at this context and this scenario hello is i begin the process we begin the process and tishrei excuse me uh is god's reciprocation and response to our our calling to him that's the answer to the question and what does he say happens tishrei this is very interesting dalton says that during that time hashem is his goggles what does he mean what you know when you see these words in a mimer especially with the altareba it's not just you know to fill the page you need to put in more words when you see paprinas is galos you have to stop right there what does that mean in a level of revelation in other words ask yourself the following what would godliness be like if it wasn't revealed and what is godliness like when it is revealed and i think right it's pretty clear something you go into a room we're all sitting now in a room that's that's sunny and bright and lit up can we sit in the room without light absolutely can we hear the sheer without light yes but when you sit in a room with lying especially good light it's a whole different experience i was told that balor khasid and nabarro park you know they made they they made shoes in different blocks the the main base madrid and then there's like block your shoes on the block so they would ask them i'm sorry 11 43 46 right no about just above the 48th if this is before the split of the two brothers the story i'm telling you they asked rabbi halberstam at that time there was only one brother for all of his life god hashem so they asked him what would make our show successful so he said two things lots of light very bright in the bass medrash and lots of swirling the sparring will draw people there who are you know they can they have all this from they need to learn and to research and light it should be bright then we have a hydra remember what which means he loved lift light i used to come home in the morning from shore to before the sheer sometimes my wife is darkening and it's a little dark and i say the machamp like light and i open all the curtains and all the lights light light his gauss his guns lit up when you go into a place that's lit up and it has good lighting and that's a skill and it's specialty to have good lighting right it makes the experience very different dr ebba says here that the way hashem responds to our twilos when we invest in a hesmen is not just giving us godliness moisture but penises god reveals that experience to us and that's a very different experience level than just saying god is here no no no no no in other words this is this is the issue that what if we invest hard this month in making a husband not only will we get payback that will be blessed on rosh hashanah with a good year etc etc but it's going to be revealed right it'll be clear you'll see it that's what he says and that's why he adds the words between us his goddess commission yes hilo just want to add that neuroscientists today say that really the brain wakes up according to light and that one of the way to sort of stimulate optimal brain functioning is to sort of gradually introduce yourself to light particularly through walking first thing in the morning really that that that sort of uh that sort of is is central to activating the brain in a in a healthy way so thank you and walking first thing in the morning very interesting well we should walk to school i guess anyway so and then although that says commission i just want to i just want to say with that you know my morning routine is often i get up to uh and learn as the sun's rising over the hills here and this morning for the very first time my teenage son was there when i got here this morning we watched the sunrise together so okay if you get this vibe around this day and and you know just since you mentioned that i remember as a boy and it it left you know such a wonderful uh impression my father up early you know shabbos morning in particular every day was up early because he had to go to work early but shabbos morning he was already when i got up i would hear him learning sitting at the table learning out loud yiddish and hebrew and and and it i just have fond memories of that so when we as fathers you know do that believe me and my girls my girls remember when i would do the same thing you know as they were children growing up so believe me it you know these things leave an impression and and and and make a great impact okay commercial castle embraces me when is there the embrace when does hashem embrace us sukis we sit in the sukkah and we're surrounded by a big hug called the sukkah that's the godly embrace so then it says it's hashem's right side that or right hand metaphorically speaking that embraces us us that's sukis and simcastora under my head also alluding to rosh hashanah the experience on rosh is left what do you mean left kivura it's a serious day it's a day of judgment but the al-qaeda brings this to tell us that when we invest in elo then we will feel hashem's left acknowledging that we deserve a good blessed year so the bracha that will come to us on rosh hashanah and yom kippur will be will have the might of gevorah in other words i just want to elaborate well if we if if prashanayam kippur you would have only god's right blessing you then you would still you could argue but wait a minute the left might say you don't deserve it or the left doesn't agree but when you say smiley takas lauraishi god's left supports the head that means even the leftists agree that you should have a good rosh hashanah so that's that a left leftist agrees that you deserve that we deserve a good rosh hashanah let's continue throughout the ten days from rosh hashanah three of keeper who prince milo that is the level the experience of the left which represents all fear trepidation well if he shows who's a man his goddess why are you scared like i've told you many times in the normal days when a principal came into a room you rose and you were quiet you know to mention my my rebbe my mespear of your khan when he would walk into the sheer borough park there wasn't a pin drop there wasn't a pin drop there was oh there's a this is a a prominent talmud and and you know of stature you don't clap and you don't dance you stand in the wall and you rise you know a little bit more whatever the point is that since we're talking about smiling rosh hashanah yom kippur are days of or they're not days of simcha by the way this doesn't mean you should you walk around with your nose down [Music] it's not tish above your keeper is not this above tissue above we cry rashford and kipper if we cry has to come from inside something that irks you about yourself and your neshama your soul russia tisha b were crying for the destruction of basa amigdas it's a simple thing it's a it's it's behavior related but rosh hashanah your keeper is so related so what's the idea the idea is hey it's a serious day just just think for a moment you're going to a judge your life is on the line i i know i would be shaking and trembling i mean if this is not a joke it's not a joke so but and and he was saying that the life meaning the soul life my spiritual life you know where am i with my my connection to hashem so this is era this is all this is fear ours and he says whose man his gallows because then is the time the of god's revelation and therefore since hashem is as a king that's why you know we all change from hokkaido and uh we've changed to hamelech the holy king to the from the holy god to the holy king because the emphasis during the assassination is the king ha melech and that's why in the darkening the boutfield who's designated to do chakras goes over he walks from the back kind of stan you know stay moving up to the front in the in the sense of this is a special moment and what are his first words hamlet god is here the king wake up people stand right because your kingship is the kingship of all worlds okay i'm going to explain this tomorrow a little better so we'll stop over here i'm sorry i was a little late because rosh hoda's daughtering but we're making up any questions no i just want to say i'm really glad we're doing this yes thank you and okay from time to time i'll look i'll i'll try to read some of the comments and see this movie eris but you know if we do all that it's gonna just take us so much longer so i'm giving you i'm i'm giving over this is great yes you're honest yes so i think i think i think maybe you should try to talk about youtube because i need the dirty the dvd is a revelation we didn't get there yet we didn't even wait slow down we're going to get there did you did you did i'm not fat did you do you well you we're learning and we didn't get there yet why are you mentioning that because i feel like i mentioned it because i understood his mind was that [Music] of [Music] yes but we're not we're not at that point in the mind where you're jumping okay i'm not what you're saying is right jay anderson but we're not there yet there's there's a progression yes motion so the question is yes just one question so it's it's i really i really really appreciate and that that you brought out that the donald trump says that in order to really do effective chuva don't bring begin the whole process of what we're talking about you have to know who you are so my question is how do we know who we are that's my question in your case moshe ask your friends they'll tell you i'm good um hello i might take you up on that okay maisha marisha when i asked my master military shown that question he said ask a real friend who will tell you the truth about yourself and don't ask someone who'll say oh moshe you're the best ah you're the godby you've done so much for us you're defaulted you got gun aiden and but in all seriousness when a person is themselves under their towers at a quiet moment and they're not rushing and they're able to think about themselves hashem their neshama believe me you can start making you can get in a little bit and you know the the trick is not to get more of it because i i when i start thinking about my shama i get very very vague did i mess up here there what a stain i have so it's a balance there's a balance because dalton ever brings out first how special the shaman is you'll see soon he joins in started this talk about it you gimmel which is which is a key in the mind but let's wait for that till we get there so good question hold your horses we'll get to it kevin we'll see everyone tomorrow have a great day bye-bye bye-bye [Music]