24 Teves, 2025 Farbrengen, Montreal Anash #2- Reb Shlomo Chaim, Reb Avraham Mayore- RC Dalfin

With today's technology, you can clean it up in a second. Very good. Aha. I [singing] [singing] [music] [singing] >> [music] >> Hey, you [music and singing] [music] [singing] [music] hallelujah. I [singing] [music] [singing] yeah. [singing] >> [music] >> So I call David asked me to tell over a story. How did I get here? You're wondering how did I get to this Montreal in the freezing cold? Well, first of all, I have hundreds and hundreds of cousins in this community called the Dolphins. They're all my relatives. Every single one. >> Many dolphins >> and the Freed and the Hopkins. >> Yeah. Yeah. >> And the list goes on. I don't know any of them, but they're all my cousins. In 1941 when the nine Buckham came here my family were from the first supporters of Rabi Kramer show him the yeshiva Charles Dolphin Mori Dolphin >> Meny Dolphin. So we have a connection. My father came here and I think his name was tenant house. My father came off the ship and his money was stolen. Sat famous wealthy philanthropist get ber was on his ship and he saw the way my father dabbled. came out of came out of it came out of the dab of and he said ordinarily I wouldn't give you any money cuz you made a minion of people and to me they're billionaire but you made the minion and I saw the way you den you have no money I'm going to give you $5 and a bottle of coke and some of my chicken and That's when we made the ship and that's how he came to America. $5 in his pocket cuz it was stolen. The money was stolen. And Gastenburgger told him, "I'm giving you this, but tonight there's a condition that when you come to America, you must go see." My father said, "You got a deal." My father's from Romania. Roman, you know, they got smarts. He'll deal with the soccer later. Now he needs the $5, but he did live up the condition. He got a job in the Williamsburg in the Sakura bakery because of course you need to make some money. He had no money. And who comes in? The Sak. That's how I saw the Sak. Another story. My father was a frank on the way out of SLO. He stayed in six months till he got his visa. that was, you know, to come in into America through tells through a gifter, a morph gifter. >> That Zen was a big ask him as you know in Frank Paris. My father came to him if I had my father and my father did well and he said I need a visa. I I want to get I want to come to America. I want to see the EPA. I want to make I want to get married. I want to make some money. Hulu hulu. Anderson wrote to Martha Gifter, can you give him um visa to come in? Affidavit. Thank you. Affidavit [clears throat] saw the name and he gave him when he came my father had it was very difficult. Yeshiva had severe stomach problems and uh he was older really 21. But he Rabbi Gifter gave him the the affidavit. So he took he took a plane from New York to Cleveland to tell Rab Gifter in a nice way, I love you, but I can't stay here and learn thought. He saw him. He said, you lied to me. I thought it said Damon. There's a spar a dolph you're a din and you're a laby with a crooked hat go to nashad you're not going to come take my affidavit that I need for as far as your kids my father said to me I'm telling you the truth I'd love to sit and learn and stay here and learn in Cleveland tells but I just can't and I came to say thank you to You say went there to tell him thank you knowing that a giftter is going to give him over the head which he did and he went back. So I remember I was here maybe 20 25 years ago longer and someone told me the name of the property of the yeshiva I think was donated by a woman named I think Ida Bloomberg or something. She's a relative of the Denvers. >> Oh Ida Bloomberg. Yes. >> Ida Bloomberg. >> Yes. >> She's a relative of the Denver. >> Denver. Yes. Yes. >> Yes. and the story that was also from she wasn't she wasn't so she said to the freed 1940s like taking my money you know a donation the said only said only God knows who's really from what's an acronym for it Right. Mitzvah, mitzvah, lots of evil, lots of bad and little mitzvah from expressions. Well, he said religious like a priest that's let me take it from this. I had a his name was a Russian emiss first first 29 years of his life he was in line he once came to the and it was I think at that time flying probably the 1960s early 70s no I'm sorry early 70s and he comes He's starving me. He's been 30 36 hours on a on a plane. This plane made by Indonesia and here and there. But he's got how he flew finally comes to 770. 2:00 in the morning he comes in. It's dark. You can't imagine both of them right 770 should be dark and quiet. It can't be right. In those days, even in my days, at a certain time, the lights went off. There's one light left in the vic under the bikers or somewhere else, you know. Awar comes in and there's no one there except one. I think he's related to the cones, right? Married sisters's daughters. seven daughters and he sees Nafal is you know my he's a Russian and my says maybe you have something to eat I'm starving you know I haven't eaten my didn't eat on the plane there's no suka he didn't drink either after he said it's 2:00 a.m. 7:70 is shut, closed, dark. There's no one around. Let me see if I have something. And he comes back with stale bread. A loaf of stale bread. A fair looks at says, "Ah, listen to this. Listen to this." He gives him the stale bread. My turns to Napolei and he says, "Who washes it? Where do you wash?" He says, "Over there in the corridor upstairs, right, there's a sink next to the Y room." My starts going there to wash. And then he turns back around. He says, "Oh, I guess I forgot. Who is the Z? Where is the salt?" Cuz you're supposed to dip the bread. Not in mayonnaise, not a tuna fish, not an avocado, but in salt. After wants to fall in 2 a.m. I hardly I found you scale bread. There's nothing else to eat. And you want salt instead of 70 salt? And he says to sorry I don't have salt. [snorts] >> My sh takes the loaf of bread gives it back and he says thank you but no thank you. He doesn't eat it because he doesn't have salt. You talk about Yiddish. Who of us starving after 36 hours on a plane will turn down a piece of stale bread? You probably turn it down cuz it's stale. But even if you didn't turn it down, you turn it down cuz you don't have a little salt. You got to be kidding. >> That's Shamaya. >> That's Lavich. That's real Yiddishaya. not fake bluff. This is what we're made out of. This is who we are. This is what we need to aspire to. You know, it says this talks about everything compared to the English that is nothing famous, right? And I think about the story. It's like everything I do is nothing nothing compared to a ye like this who won't eat a piece of stale bread 2 a.m. because he doesn't have a little salt. That's And you need to think about this. We need to think about where is our so we talk about I was speaking to the who was willing I think or the other who was willing to give away their bed for so one of the buff answered I'll give it away but he had a condition no conditions. You have a guest, give him away your bed. Are you ready? Are you real about or is it that's tailored to your ideas? You understand? So when we learn and this isn't we're this isn't this is healthy to really look at ourselves and to see how small we are how infantile we are or in Yiddish how garnished we are yet we are everything because says I want you and I need you. >> So story that I believe the didn't hear. I heard this from who told me heard it from Yudman who was a and he was a brother to out. I'm giving you the shelter, right? No, sorry. Rises raises. His name was Pinik from whose father was who was the second in command after the vag by the vagin becomes a he was a and becomes a >> in those days when you did that they literally sack sha for you. If you're going to join the C the coat kebab see this out is he becomes a >> you want to throw me out throw me out two years go by he hasn't seen his father his father hasn't seen him because he ostracized He threw him out. One day he's sitting in a park walks by and P is sitting and thinking tighter think see this what does do when he goes to the like whatever green glass set under thinks see this things tighter. I myself saw that walking home many times seven to his house. He accompanied him and he looked the Reb was murmuring. The Reb was saying as he was walking in the street was fulfilled with he was aid took the words as you walk in the streets of Montreal, Manhattan, Chicago, Indonesia, wherever you are. And the Reb did it right. So is doing that, picks up his head, and he sees someone walking by and it looks like his father. He hasn't seen him in two years. And his father [clears throat] looks at him and he sees what looks like his son Pinas. >> They come closer. They come closer. Are you Pinas K? Are you my captain? are you my father? And they hug each other and he sees aid with a pis or a beard in Pis with a capot and he says, "I don't believe it. I thought you joined a cult and you became not religious and all that. You mean you're still religious?" And now only he says, "Yeah." So he says to him, >> "Who taught you to be from and so from?" He says, "My Reb, your Reb, you mean the coat that you're joining?" He says, "Yes, my rebal." So he says, "I have to see your Reb. If your rebel can make you such a ye I have to sing it. I want to talk with you. You understand this? The second in command under the go. So says once a year comes to and by the way the deepest was said in I heard this from was a big book is my deepest and where is anyway so he says Once a year the comes to club because there is alab who lived in this community would say that the label in in in Sloan was called the damsko. You know damska means a dam woman the feminine you know for the weaklings for the females a gra with a big chandelier a few benches and herring on the table know that so [laughter] tells his Father Alba comes to our stable and explains a shabas and he says it's it's what we call Shabas. It's an awesome Shabas. It's not just a Shabas. It's a Shabas. Come shabas spend shabas with with us in glove in the in the shabas gives to every anyone that wants to come in to see that you can go in and is there and he cannot believe what he hears and sees the devotion the like the TA the the nagina a real real authentic shabas shabas. He goes in and he says the following words to the alterb calls him >> receive me accept me under your wings. In other words I want to become I want to be your hus. Now, I'm going to tell you what the said, and I want you to think and listen to it with with your cup. Okay? Don't listen to it. Don't hear it narrow. And I'll explain a little bit. Dr. Rebe answers, "You want to be my you want me to accept you? A fine request, but I can't." Wow. Why not? Not because it but the alterba quoted we don't say our is called the and others they say on the ballot paras they say special prayers called and also on the shabas before if you look it up it follows the days and then there's I'll quote to you what it says test menu or menu. What does it mean? What does we really mean with paras? The paras cement, right? Teeth, the world to come sprout forth from it. very enigmatic. It makes no sense. The is the following type also in Hiddish means a do a tit there is a type of a do that's really the world to come And when it's come out of this table, you know what the table is? The and the little kid and the and the tickle. And he says to You must give from that table. You're not cut out of this bowl. Now, what does that mean? You can't become a if you didn't if you weren't born or no. Is your mindset as we said earlier in the mind of the paradigm? Is your paradigm the stickle table the kite? You can sermonize and you can dion and you could know but if you don't have the kkite the vite of a little piece of herring with a little be it wine be it vodka be it sc toasting to someone for their nishama of the parent or a friend etc. then you're not shy. Not that you of course you can do everything. The message is such a powerful this story to me is a classic important story of what is the what I saw by my you know he was a real Russian. What I saw by this ye is just this exact idea. Mamesh I'll give you an example he was living the last 25 years of his life in in in pranites across 77 when there was tish he and his wife went to I think it's to mendle handle or that that organization and they offered to peel herrings and mices for hours unsolicited why so she to eat so get what to eat didn't make it wasn't on co it wasn't publicized when he was in Australia the I think there Kramer he told me had a car didn't have a car the mikvah wasn't where they were at yeshiva in that area you had a ghost gave him the car without questions you have insurance you don't have destroys. You know how to how to drive. Give him the car. They both have to go to the mikvah though. I'm not suggesting we do crazy wild things. I'm not suggesting that. Talking about the attitude. The attitude and the mindset. It's not my car. The keys never leave the ignition. The story I told you before with Flamish Schwarz and the other in California, there's no it's not mine. It's not mine. It's ours. And when we live this way and we feel this way, then we have sidus. The Reb, our Reb lived this way. Not in every situation, in every situation, he lived this way. You know, Debb came from a place Russia. Hard times, difficult times. My wife Zer Zman who was the one who started the yeshiva and the mus in in Australia. Many times he has probably three two 300 letters. He make a whole safer from the letters of the Reb to him and him to the Rebel. And many of those letters he cries his heart out about situations on the ground. And look at for those that are printed there. The Reb says to him always cut out this is not talking to me. was born in 1904, 2 years after the rebues pay said come with me to defeat the learning and I'm sorry come with me and to the reb said I'm not ready. Could you imagine you're offered a ticket in those days didn't feel he knows what it means to be spent with him months learning with him see this and explaining him what a reb is what his consciousness is and then for I believe when Katcha offered him a ticket he said now I'm ready to go now I'm ready to go by the way I have a video if you haven't seen it it's online it's worth watching [snorts] talks about and his brother he met them and he describes them it's very interesting they put in early days they they cited it so the babiden Wherever you are, there there is a mess. You know, there's a message. There's a approach. If you're in that, you're in. If not, you're not in yet. You're not in yet. You could get in, but you have to dedicate yourself to this. And this takes work. And work is healthy. If you don't work, my father always said, you know, as a Romanian Jew, you know what a zak means? A means lazy. Zach is a sack, but it doesn't rhyme in English. You're a lazy guy work. My father always taugh taught us growing up, you don't get the job that you want, go out and paint windows. slept water talking about one simple Zion I forget one of the years I went into the 770 after's room would go in and then he would go home and then he would sit for hours at his table so I went into the room and I said to him cuz it was a man it was a very a very special time. I said, "Do Zap, say something. Tell me something. Tell me something." And I was very surprised when he told me. And he said, and I guess this was on his mind. And why it was on his mind, I don't know. And he said it to me. It crushed me. He said, "Can't imagine what type of poverty We had when we came there to Soul in 40 45 he didn't cry but he was so broken and as soon as the night after dancing hakus that's what he shared with me I don't know why but that's what he shared with me and I share it with you >> again not to bring out the negative and and the depressive and all that. But when you know where you come from and you know where you could reach then the world is open to you. It's mish is so simp. It's a time of happiness but happiness doesn't mean Louis had authority he would share but he could say loves the and the seriousness of will come in this in the later years [clears throat] would say basically cut it out Yada to reach a point of yada is not to drink and become cuckoo and and and and [laughter] sugar. You want to make yourself silly, do it on teach us that that there there is there is an avoid here. There is a path. There is a trajectory. There is a mahalik. This isn't just I'm here today, gone tomorrow. Who lives like that? My father always used the words not such an angel but it's important. [laughter] He lives a pigish day like a life's about. Living like a khazering and sleeping and surfing the internet. That's what life's about. Learn another learn another super another go out with a do something meaningful. What are you wasting your time for? The worst things to waste your time in your brain. You're frying YOUR BRAIN NOT THROUGH DRUGS BUT THROUGH WASTING YOUR TIME. Do what is meaningful. And that's what is it teaches you to be meaningful to be serious. serious doesn't mean I was telling uh one of the groups I was speaking to today to walk around but serious means there's something important happening right now that teaches us Msiah is a reality it's not a figment we say in English a figment of someone's imagination Someone made up an idea of come a day Msiah will come on every day is a Msiah day how when you know it's interesting when the of the came to him and he said that they want to do a reciprocal which means is an excommunication on the go who put a nation of an excommunication on the al on the siden. So they said that if they they were told in or whatever the case they were told that unless they can find someone who can match the blowing it won't work so of pelov believe in the flame of kadina different who the two came to the alter and they said you are the one that can match the gl learn learning the male In order for us to succeed with putting a reciprocal communication on the coin, we need you to join to sign. after the doubt never said no and you know why it's printing the print if you put him in other places said because if I if we put the type this is what said if the type of excommunication that we would have to put on the blind would be one that will cause him to have and that will cause a great kill and I'm not participating because there'll be a great kill said to the with who was standing there the way I heard it I can't find exactly but something similar okay he cursed by say we'll see who will cause I'm not going into the story now a whole discussion of other mas wrote a book about it I'm not going to go into right now but I want to bring out that who did not want to put on the the excommunication on the all of them were willing all the they were willing to put the said no. You talk about it's now a bloodline. May he help us that we live, we try, we live more and more with these truths and we don't let anything get in our the way and we ta have real love and concern about everyone each other and and and and not and not allow you know conditions and exceptions and reasons. excuses when the freed came to America. Listen to this tough path 1929 1930. So he stayed for the first two weeks in Burough Park on the corner of 46th Street and 14th Avenue which then there was a house on the corner. It was Abelius Simpson's new house. Abelia Simpson the Rashab first lived in Harlem. His brother lived there. Then he moved over. Took a job in revolution which they knocked down off Malik on 12th and 41st 100 year old shu. He was there but there were you know a lot of knock from people in issues in 1928 was there. So 1929 he makes his own shul I believe builds a shul new house gives the second floor to the fikba. So if you look at the gem video the fab is poking from the porch that's on the corner of 46 and 14th Avenue. I made a clip on it if you want to know details on YouTube for those that look at YouTube. So they came raon came from all over to play New York area to give shenan to the reb to right and it was a balagan and people couldn't get in the next day got complaints from that he came to see him they couldn't say show him so the reb called rabbi Jacobson who came in 1926. Simpson came to America in 1923. He came in 26 and the Reb says, "I thought you would make sed and you let in you organize it." And it was so Jacobson said that you know Simpson the Kramers they're older they've been here longer you know like he didn't blame them but he's like saying I'm the new kid on the block I don't want to you know stick my nose in where I don't belong listen to what the said at label altered label in our borrow park said that the reb that that Rabbi Jac walked around with this in his pocket all of his life. The following answer from the next excuses. Excuses are excuses. You have a good excuse. Remember Simpson came earlier. The Kramers are in charge. You don't want to, you know, stick your nose. You don't belong. excuses. Reb Jacobson walking around with the Reverend Jacobson who was a isha a great man a great great man talked about him all night and asking amiti there's a lotion lab they showed me in the kdesh tremendous lion that the rebel writes about rabbi Jacobson mameish and niflid all the American boys the heads ki barnetski and levy all kind on and on they're all his they would have been if they would have been from okay they learned in teras told me I spoke to him a lot old time told me you can't imagine what was going on in New York and in Brooklyn in 1920s and 30s where boys went to kayen and teragas during the day and the night they went to college to Brooklyn college they became a purism because of one Jewish professor professor who was a denier of biblical of a shamayan and he they had a course called biblical criticism, biblical analysis and he killed boys that were learning in the morning and told him this told him this. He knew these boys his friends. So the fba told this to Rabbi Jacobson and he keeps it in his jacket his cap pocket till his day of passing cuz he no excuses he always LOOK FOR EXCUSES EXCUSES more excuses for husband from excuses you're right you're right you have a reason but the only the poor person has to eat side Let's stop with the excuses. Let's get get to work all the we have to do tenfold 100fold and to revitalize and bring to the other in a in a peaceful way in a shik way. You had a ye here nim the bells of dine. I think Rav Nim was the the the grand I think the grandson or the son of the story with the Reb in 1903 when he fell asleep on the sofa with Freud. You know that story spoke about it was from the third daughter. You have people around here to see this to see this. See this is the emash. You heard it. Whatever you consider sweet and honey and the best. We have honey here, right? Whatever you consider consider precious and dear to God. This is when he told me the name of the heard from a tight I told this over to a pillchick who was stone the pillchicks whose father and uncle learned in 770 and they would always say we were so close to becoming a truth but our father pulled us out at the last minute so we remain stoner. Fine. So the son wonderful person and you know Levitan's son big young Levitton was married a pilgrim. So they had a lot of stories about that. So he said that that this I told him this and every time he sees him he says Remind me again. Let's let's let's emulate that. I think we'll end the put on the formal part. And uh the imother from Montreal to New York, >> especially if you're flying. So the angel helped them to come back and again was he said to him says come to says you have mutkin you have you have you have and and pis you have all this see them and many others WHAT DO YOU THINK Dan was an american you know A kind of tutis. >> A chocolatiness, you know, a sugar daddy, right? A sugar daddy with coating and sweets and and chocolate and ice cream. Come on. You see them with Russian. See them. They come from the 50s, the 60s, whatever. So I came. But you need to frame yourselves. But green glass, his nail is 15 years. He's looking down. see a video very nice but come on you guys have to be the rabbi green glasses I mean you know and you could do it really not you have to JUST WANT TO DO IT do you really want to do it or no maybe yes no we have to wait once a year for for abdavid to make a like this in a beautiful hall with essen mameish gavaldic right right no I I was speaking him before a few a few weeks ago I see these clips with glass it's a m and after they sit down 10 minutes 15 minutes a half an hour they go home it's like you need posters you need publicity okay listen today people are listening online and and fine what I'm saying is don't limit yourself. It's uh what are we now famous rightwat's coming just saying doesn't mean you have to sit four hours in 10 minutes 15 minutes is good together you know h how could it be that you you go through a and you don't say you don't Say a if you don't say come on you know it's like the rebba the rebba wants us the rebba wants us to live see this my there were three people shabas in Australia one shabas each each growner the other shabas one another shabas they took turns three. Okay. There was a piskin the contemporary men and he once heard say and he really loved it. So he went over to his friend he said he knows this. So turned to his ability says he lives with you know okay you have to live with living is gish it's a very diff it's a very different it's a very different thing a heres a reddish and you know my design was so and again to everyone else who brought this together made such a gald beautiful and shul for many years was Denberg whose father I think was Mendel Denberg whose brother was Shia Denber I have named after him who come to Rashad in and this shoe I don't know if if he came tonight did anyone to see Professor Alan Nagler. Was he here tonight? >> No, >> I don't think so. >> He told me he was coming, but I guess he didn't make it. He had this tire. Relax. Relax. The Reb knows how to take care of himself. Believe me. You know I write I've written many swarum that I wrote there and I write sometimes controversial things but how you write it how you position it how to look at people how to understand two sides to the coin I'm not saying it's for everybody but hashem I can tell you that I've been invited to many different kinds of groups and organizations with philosophies and shittas. It makes no difference. When you talk in the heart, it makes no difference. I want to end off with one more story. >> Pleasure. >> What? >> In the cat schools, there's a bungalow called Mountain Lodge. You've heard of it? Yeah. >> Why? Why used to be the rever? Right. >> So, >> there was a yeameis. His name was Mendel Greenbound. Grimblain. I think one of the brothers Yasi learned here in Montreal. Their father Remendal was in the Korean War. Ramen drove in the 1940s. It was a simple yeet. I knew Ramen. I spent time with him in Florida talking and interviewing him, which by the way I didn't say earlier and unfortunately I should have said it. Not that I need your business, but I don't want you to go to the earth with all your memories buried. Young people, I'm not talking to you with the older people. You have a whole life in front of you. I'm sorry. A whole life with you. Who knows your story? Trust me, your kids don't really know your story. Most kids don't. You need to get someone to do oral history, family oral history. Not talking about German, but talking about your life, your parents, grandparents, where you come from. It's very important. It cost a few dollars, but I promise you, your kids, grandkids, and grandkids are going to thank you for it. I've done it so far about 10 to see them. One of them just passed away. He was 97 or 96 97 98 I forget. And thank God the family commissioned me to do it. We have 8 to 10 hours of oral history. What they do with it is their business. It's theirs. It's not mine. Doesn't go online. So pass on the message to people who are 70 plus really I can't tell you how many people who I know who have such memories and such stories and no one knows finished anyway so I'm in mountain lodge one chabas my brother so I went there on Shabas kid 150 people and there was Thank you. Thank you very much for helping me with >> only good things for including finding a nice wife, a good wife. >> Amen. Anyway, so is there his brother's there is there substantial people learned people see them this is in mountain lodge 150 people I come like here lot of tables food menal greenbound who was a soldier next soldier is making kdish on a glass of scotch or vodka. I forget whatever. He downs the cup like it's like it's water. I'm telling you. I'm sitting right next to him, you know. And then he stands up. And I'm going to illustrate what he does. He has his cup here. Here goes. Adonu, Moreno, Rabenu, Melik, Hamosiach, Leol. He does it three times. There wasn't a pin drop in that room. And I promise you there were very big anti-bas in there. Big ones. I know them. No one said a word. Now do you think they were scared of him? No. When Mendel Greenb who the Eba called Mendel de Sat cuz he was a soldier that gave him that name. Men de Sat. when he raised that cup and he said to you know what he was saying I love you I'm not forgetting you I miss you and everyone in that room saw that he's talking from the heart because men greenbound didn't know the intricacies of and not and how I promise you he was not at that level or interested in those things. He knew one thing. It's a glass of scotch. IT'S A KID SHABAS AND HE LOVES the and he wants to remember that. So he screams out from his heart what he screams out once in Los Angeles. One of my Friday night the are singing is very far from where is and he lets them sing as a dancing and then he stops. He says stop and he says if you don't sing ye with kavana you're not allowed to sing it. If you're singing it, you better mean it. And if you don't mean it, be quiet. I promise you that if we were to express our feelings, one person with Y, one person without Y, but the is here, the sincerity, I love you, Reb, I miss you, Reb, I want to do for you. we wouldn't have any issues, differences and and foolishness, stupidity. Okay, convinced cuz I saw it in the room. I saw it with my own eyes in the room. They didn't throw eggs at him. They didn't throw water on him. They didn't throw wine in him. THEY DIDN'T TELL HIM, "SHUT UP. SIT DOWN." NOTHING. Naga because he meant it. If you mean something, if you're really genuine, it's the forever for that's all. That was the last story I want to tell you that that let's not get caught up and hung up on on, you know, it's not just about not it's about all kinds of things. Stop. Stop. Do don't just learn sidus leis give away your bed for no give away your gosh you sleep on the floor my mother-in-l herself on the floor right next to the couch so my grandmother who had dementia if she would fall off she would fall off onto my mother not on the floor are you ready to do that are we ready to do that I'm not I'm not ready. Are you ready to sleep on the floor next to your mother? So if she falls off the couch, she falls on you, not on the floor. You understand? When you think about these things, at least when I think about these things, I see how infant, how how little I am. Mish little mish little. Everything we do is like, come on. We should go with and strength and and with the ghoulish because if the is is is waiting I'm sorry to say there's nothing to wait for. There's nothing to wait for. We've waited enough that we need to continue. And the Reb didn't get morbid. Even when the Reba said to have and everything else, you think the Reb was depressed, he went on with more strength and more strength. And then even after the stroke, the Reb continued coming out. Everyone see sees these things that was there. No such thing. There's no room for melancholy when you come here and see 150 people in the room on a Monday night and tomorrow there's work and today it's snowing and it's the middle of the week and wow the dare is looking DOWN HE'S SAYING I have I have Eden I have an army look what they're points 11 12 night whatever the time is now you know anyway what time is it now it's