Rambam Laws of Teshuvah - Chapter 7 / Halacha 4 - Rabbi Alon Anava | Atzmut.org

[Music] [Applause] [Music] so don't think if you are about juva don't think or have in your mind that you are light years away from the tzadikim or from a righteous person because many times a person says ah you know all my life i was sinning i have so many sins now okay for the last two three years i started doing chiva big deals over three years i'm doing 50 years i've sinned and i'm so horrible and i have so many sins on my record i'll never be able to fix it i'm a lost case i'll never be able to find all the people i owe money and that i hurt them and oh there's no hope for me i'm light years away from a tadik from a righteous person and why would he say that meepne because of all the sins and the bad things that that person did he thinks oh i'll never be able to do chuva and had a valken this is not correct ella he's loved by the master of the universe and the hashem looks at him in such a great light like as if he never sins for forever and even if a person is 60 years old and all his life sins and he says how am i going to do chuva for 60 years or i'm now putting a feeling and eating kosher that's gonna fix what i did so he says don't think that because when a person decides to change his way and he decides to do chuva on that moment the ketogenic already puts him in some type of a buffer zone and he says i know you have 60 years yet record of bad things and you only started doing chuva but because your chiva is real because i see in your heart that you really want to do chuva and i see that your actions are real then the kenosha puts him in some type of a buffer zone and says take your time to do chiva i mean don't take too long but i know it will take you a few years in the meantime the kidnapper who sees him as if he didn't have sins and who loves that person doesn't mean the sins are erased but it doesn't mean that now you're you're you're doomed and your actions are worthless and welcomes you and loves you and sees you in a great light and he says okay i know it will take you ten years five years twenty years to do chuba depending on you depending how much you press on the gas but nevertheless your reward is great why is your reward so great because you tasted the taste of sin for many times and you decided to stop the kawashito and you're able to conquer your desire that's a very high level even if you did it for 50 60 years our sages have said um in a place where about suva stands a complete sadiq cannot stand there this was is said in the talmud interacted with page 34. if you want to see inside but in a place where about stands a complete saudi cannot stand what is the meaning to that elo the level the virtue of the baal juventus greater than the tadik why because the tadik never made any sins so he didn't taste the sin he was he was born in nebraska i don't know boro park manzi never tasted it and never sinned he doesn't know what it means to sin but the other one about tasted it and decided not to do it so their level was much much greater why because they have to conquer their desire on a daily basis for that i'm going to add a quick story that will emphasize what he's saying here he was once a king and he decided that he needs to hire the next one who's going to take over he didn't have a son he said i have to find the right man that will take over the kingdom so they sent the message out they started recruiting people thousands of people came to apply and from tens of thousands they narrowed down to a thousand they them all sorts of tests all sorts of things to do to see who's the right to be the right person from a thousand they narrowed it down to 100 from 100 to 50 to 50 to 10 finally after weeks of hard examinations and testing and observing they narrowly down to three people there are potential to take over and now they didn't know okay what's the last thing what we can do how can we test them to see who's the right person so they went to the king and said okay we narrowed it from 10 000 potential people to three we have the three most potential individuals what should we do now so the king says okay we're going to put them through a test we're going to lock them in a room for one day and in this room each and every one of them is going to get a special bottle of wine the wine that belongs to the king and the one that will not gonna drink from the wine and will be able to hold for 24 hours he will be the next one now this is something that we can relate with because okay big deal the the wine of the king so i would now add on the story and say it's almost like putting a heroin addict in a room and heroin on the table and telling him don't touch it the desire is almost un unbelievable about this wine okay and of course it's a parable so flow with me don't start being what's the big deal with the wine okay so they lock them all in the room with a bottle of wine and they wait 24 hours comes 24 hours everybody comes to see what's going to happen all the media is there cnn fox nbc they're all their cameras are raiding no drum roll and now what's going to happen everybody's all excited they open the first room and they see the guy sitting like this on the bed the bottle was completely sealed didn't touch the bottle everybody's like wow he must be the next one he might be the next king everybody's going crazy now open the next room and see the guy on the floor ah drunk the whole bottle is completely empty the guy's a lush they're saying ah okay that one didn't make it now what's gonna be now with the third room everybody's biting their nails drumroll their cameras are focused what's gonna happen they open the door they see the guy sitting on the bed like this the bottle is open and this much is missing from the bottom everybody thinks he's going to be the failure the king walks through and says that's the guy i want he's going to be the next one no yeah but your highness you said that the one who's not going to drink from the wine is going to take the number one he's going to be the one who takes over he says you're right but you know what with this guy he opened it he tasted it and then for 24 hours he didn't touch it knowing the taste of the wine and he was able to hold himself that's the kind of man that i want so the kaloshvaku says the exact same thing don't open the wine ever okay so you don't know how it tastes so that's a tzadik or a person who was born in a cocoon in a world of torah never tasted the sin in his life but a person that opened the bottle tasted it now he knows the taste of it of the sin and then for the rest of his life he doesn't touch it that's a much much greater level and therefore the kenosha boho has greater respect and he sees that balaycheva in a greater light because on a daily basis you have to fight you desire you know what it is to eat food that tastes a certain way you know what it is to be with a woman in a forbidden way you know how it tastes to cheat and lie and then you hold yourself that's a much much greater than just not knowing and not touching therefore sages have said in the place where about shuba stands a complete saudi cannot stand why because all of his life is fighting his desire and here and there he might fail but the main the main action is that he's fighting the desire and therefore about your vine is a very great level so don't discount your actions and don't discount your difficulties and don't discount all the hardship that you go through and uh baal juvah is a very very high level and hashem loves the ballet chuva so don't think that you messed something up or don't think that you're far away from sadiq and you're light years away from them in many cases you are way ahead of many many others because the kaloshva was not counting victories was looking at the effort a lot of people said if i didn't win the battle then i lost the battle kalosboro says i'm not looking for victories i'm looking for a fight i want to see the effort that's what counts not how many time you won or how many time you failed because how many times you didn't give up is how many times you kept on fighting how many times you're saying no i will i will be able to do it at some point that's what hashem is looking for and therefore balichuva are considered in a very high level this other shame should be a will and we also will end up being about you and die and leave this world with chuva in our hands [Music] you