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the yeshiva.net. >> We began the mimer. Good morning everybody. We began the mime on of the paritus page 92 column 4 and we're holding the next page middle of olive me column one which would be 93 page 93. etc. Yeah. See the Yeah. Today's class is dedicated by Dan by Dan Gober in honor of all of the children going to summer camp. wishing them a safe, joyful, healthy, inspiring summer. Amen. Beautiful. Thank you very much. We'll all take that. And dedicated by our dear friend, one of the pillars for many years to the of his son is Usher in honor of his 30th birthday. Happy birthday. Today is also the end of the Shiva for Rabbi Schmoly Aline who passed away here in Muny last week on Gimmel Tamos Ben. So I'll dedicate it also. Okay. So alterba focused on a few questions on theim and then from there he went in to discuss the idea of the the reward for mitzvah and he asked two questions. Number one, why is it that souls that are for thousands of years in Ganeden, their ultimate reward is to come back down into the earthy world for the time of and question number two, Ganeden is all about different levels for different souls and each one has their own experience based on their level of their soul which makes sense because you can't compare souls and people to each other and yet we say everybody has a part in it's a uniform reward. So the ultimate reward it's almost like you take away all categories and like everybody just gets the same you know same piece of chal gets split up equally to everybody >> we all become equal. Yeah, call them >> for this. He started to go in started to get into the meaning of the blessing of every mitz. We say the word a represents from the word or is bono. The idea of ashenu is delight, ecstasy, gishmach, joy, bliss. And from this went this mime I told you is focused on tenug. He started to explain the concept and experience of tyuk and very briefly he said that everything in the world has tanuk in it. In other words tug is something you can extract from everything in the world and we're talking here in this physical world and there's so many diverse pleasures. Everything provides a different type of pleasure. There's the pleasure that comes from food taste. There's the pleasure that comes from hearing. There's the pleasure that comes from smelling. There's a pleasure of touch. And there's a pleasure of eyesight, vision. In other words, a pleasure that our eyes experience, our ears experience, our nose experiences, our our touch, our sense of touch experience, our sense of taste experiences. And that's all in the physical world. And it's not just five pleasures for the five senses. Each one is so multifaceted and can detect what we would call infinite pleasures. Every type of food, different type of different taste, different flavor, different chemistry, different different experience on the taste buds. You have salty, tarty food, spicy foods, sweet foods, delicacies. Each and there's so much diversity in it. And those who are connoisseurs, you know, they have a hush, whether in drinks or in foods know how nuanced it is. Some of us are like a bull in the china shop. You know, it it looks like food. It doesn't eat you, you eat it, right? Yeah. Bakram would say in the dormitories, if it doesn't eat you, you eat it. You know, when you're hungry. But that's all levels, you know, and then it's true in how many things can you see that provide pleasure? There's so many different types of ries there. There's art, but art itself, so many different types of art, right? They're seeing a beautiful landscape. They're seeing a beautiful a gorgeous body. They're seeing a gorgeous child, a gorgeous nature, right? Beautiful sunny day, a landscape, an ocean, a river, a lake, whatever it is, whatever you're looking at, there's a tug in it. And then of course there's Shia. How many types of things can you hear that offer tanuk? And there's music. But what type of music that itself is endless. You can hear a symphony, a choir, a niggan. You can hear words that are beautiful, words that create pleasure. You sometimes hear a speech and it's ah it's kishmak. You read something the way it's written the structure call the syntax diction way of expressing you know pe two people can do we use the same letters but the way they're configurated in one it creates no great sensation and one it creates t and the same of course is true with smell and with touch and that's only the five senses but the truth is he says everywhere everywhere in everything there's tanuk and there's layers and layers and layers and layers of tan And what is it essentially? It's really all a lus. As I explained last week, last year that tanug is the love card. It's the love card that God sends with the world. With the package comes a card. And the card says, "Don't forget how much I love you." You can get a package without the card. Sometimes people send packages. I don't know who it's sent to. They didn't send a card. So you can't I can't even call them to thank. The other day somebody sent something. It was a very nice thing. They didn't send a card. So I'm trying to figure out who sent it. >> Huh? >> Anonymous. Yeah. He says his second name is anonymous. Inavage they tell a story that the Reb's anniversary day was kisv. That's the day he married Pess 1928 in Wars Va. So uh on her anniversary people would send bouquets of flowers and masletoves you know some gifts tok maz you know people that were closer to her friends of hers and so forth. So recently somebody sent me a story that uh he heard from Rabbi Groner. Rabbi was a Reb secretary that uh the Reba her husband dictated a telegram to be sent to her house on President Street and the telegram was a mazle for the anniversary in Russian. very very beautiful masleto and greeting and blessing and then a telegram always has a signature right yank goldberg the signature was said put into the in English guess who sent us that that was the signature of the telegram guess who sent us right huh yeah yeah I didn't know nobody knew that side of the dead but was so hidden he had a whole side that people didn't know about this was only to his If you wouldn't think that the reb would like that was this that's how he signed it written in Russian signed in English. Guess who sent this? That was the signature. You know, probably when they came home at night, she was like, I got the strangest telegram in the world. And they probably both had a good laugh. You know, I don't know the end of the story. I'm just telling you, you know what was uh Yeah. So the truth is yeah the story is obviously you know on a very simple level it's a beautiful story but there's also a very deep element to the story because essentially the whole world is this telegram the whole world is this telegram from a cup of coffee to a cup of water from a plum to an orange from a grape to a peach it's a telegram from the hashem with a signature and you know what the signature is doesn't say hashem guess who sent this with a question mark. That's really so essentially you know that that story it really captures all of life. That's what everything it's all a telegram. Everything is a telegram. There's nothing that's not a telegram. And the telegram is reent every single moment because the world is recreated every single moment. And that's the signature. And now you have to answer the questions. And that's the tug in everything. the tug and everything is the card that comes with the gift. There's a package delivery, but there's also a card and the card finishes. Guess who sent this card? And the card says, "I want to I love you. I'm here with you. I'm thinking about you. I'm crazy about you. I'm connected to you. Happy anniversary. Happy birthday. Happy day. Happy life." Guess who sent us? And that's essentially what all tiny is. Essentially, if you want to strip it from the external layers, that's what it is. It's the divine. It's the divine imprint, the signature of the divine and everything in the world. And it starts off in the first garden, ganed. That's why it's called Ganed. The first garden tells Adam and I want you to eat from every single tree in the garden. And one tree you shouldn't eat from one. People focus always on what you shouldn't do. But before he says what you shouldn't do, he says eat from every other tree. So what do you care if I eat from this tree too? And the answer of course is because if there's no tree that you can't eat from, how you going to ever remember that it's my garden? So the one tree is simply that you should be able to know that it's my garden and it's a gift so that you could actually experience the bliss of the experience. But what do humans do with their their brilliant sophistication? They're like that's the tree you go to cuz right the said this is not about bliss. It's not about a relationship. It's about comp competition. He's jealous of you. Huh? >> Yeah. He's jealous. He knows if you eat this or that da da da da. It's a form of power. The serpent right the nepham is it's a form of control. He wants to control you. Oh, that's the worst thing. So they eat from that tree and what happens? Their their experience of is gone from that moment. What does he tell Adam? It's not just you're going to eat bread through sweat. It's like you know we look at it I'm going to curse you. It's not a it's not a it's a consequence. It's an experience. Life is divorced from the love cart. Adam was plant working the garden before too. It says it's not like so before the we would be lazy for eternity and just sit in a garden and and and eat plums. He says he put him in Shambra. That doesn't that sounds like work. So what's the big curse? The Shamra was with every piece of work there was a love card. It was a blissful experience. After that the tenug was taken away because the tu came from the fact that it's my garden and I'm inviting you. So every fruit you eat is an experience of intimacy. After that it's like who are you bakl what are you mixing into my garden? They they lost the experience of the relationship isn't it's very very rich and all of life is trying to restore to heal that and it's not so easy to heal that you see it's not so easy and the serpent is always God is looking for control everything is a control it's a story of control I'm trying to control you you're trying to control me and he said you you try to control other people you think God doesn't have that issue everybody has that issue you think he doesn't have that issue everybody's trying to control everybody. Let's face it, manipulation this way, that way. This one does it through a smile. This one does it through the gift of gab. This one does it through money. This one does it through not whatever it is. Everybody has their way of doing it. So, you think he doesn't have that? It's all control. >> And the beautiful thing about your epiphany was it's not going to be about computers. >> Yeah, it's all about >> Oh, okay. Sorry. Sorry. It's your love language. Okay. I don't want to take away your love language. Yeah. So that's actually what you're saying that the world lost with a >> betadas. Yeah. >> It lost something else. It lost authenticity because after that event we cannot verify the signature. >> Yeah. >> Right. >> Yeah. >> So a signature on the car became like it became basically unverifiable. >> Yeah. So that's by the way the whole block technology exists only for one thing so that you will be able verify this signature and the name on who signed. >> Yeah. >> So the name on the card authentic signature is >> cryptographically working together then you can message. >> We stopped having the ability to verify the signature and the author of the signature. >> Exactly. >> Guess who sent us >> authenticity. >> The loss of authenticity. Yeah. way because we don't know the author. >> We don't know the author and therefore we can't even experience the intimacy with the author. I don't even know if there's an author. Forget about the author. I don't even know if there was an author. Oh, the car just ended up here. The the jewelry just ended up here. Tennis bracelets just fall into my dining room. I don't know. That's how it is. We get telegrams on our anniversaries. I don't know why. It just happens that way. >> Huh? The laundry did itself. Exactly. the room was organized by itself, right? As you know with your teenager's room, they leave for 3 weeks and their room just gets organized on its own and a week later it's even more organized and 3 weeks later it's even more organized. Not them doing anything despite the entropy principle. So this is really the experience of Ghana initially is I want you to eat everything and the one tree is just going to remind you that it's me that it's a relationship that it's actually my garden and I invited you into the garden cuz I'm crazy about you and I just want to spend time with you. It was an experience of bliss. The serpent turned it into a control game. He says he knows that when you eat it, you're going to become like him and he's frightened from that. He wanted to be in a relationship with you. And the serpent says, "No, this is a mind game of controlling you." >> That's why the first of the is I want to come back to the garden. >> I want to come back to the garden. And the of that mimer, right, the last m of the and the would say every is that and then it was expelled from heaven to heaven to heaven and the seventh generation of Mosha brought it back down. And the seventh generation now needs to bring it down. Has the opportunity to bring it down. What does it mean bring it down? To recreate that setting, but in a much deeper way than even 5,786 years later because a lot of water came under the bridge. So a lot has been worked through from the original Ganaden. Hopefully this time we'll be able to look at the and is mashiach 358. >> Yeah, exactly. >> Once once the authentic signature is not verifiable, you can replace it >> with what works. Yeah. >> He never said it. >> Yeah. Right. >> You have the whole concept of of no whatever that looks like. It can look it can look like religion. It can look like science. But the problem the the issue is it's substituting the true signature >> once you don't have the authentic reality now you want to substitute it and you substitute it with all types of things >> but it it never brings you back to that tanuk to that level of bliss. Yeah, because the truth is the bliss is that relationship. It's my I brought you into my I made a garden. I brought you into my garden because what do you do with people in a garden? >> Basili. Exactly. Exactly. And the and the duk is garden. It's not a field. It's not a farm. It's a garden. There's a difference, right? is of sometimes the Reb would explain a field is a place where you plant things that are necessary to live right in bread is the staple of food that's necessary to live that's not a garden a person doesn't need figs or grapes right pomegranates we don't need that to live what is it about pleasure When people go to botanical garden, what is it about? It's not they're not looking for food. Go to this grocery store and buy food. Go to the meat store and buy food. They're not looking for food. What are they looking for? They're looking for delight. A garden. And Paris, right? It's what we we eat for delight. So basili, I wanted a garden. It was delight. It wasn't like unnecessity like I needed it cuz I was starving cuz I was die without the food. It was the experience of the depth of the relationship because of love. That's what a garden is. And Shamra every shovel that Marisha would pick up, he would experience the bliss of that. What happens once they eat from the life turns into a painful experience. That's that's basically the curses you could see. You could be sweating when you eat bread. So it's not just because you have to plow and you have to plant and you have to harvest and you have to fight with insects and you have to cut out the weeds. Yeah. That's on a physical level but on an emotional level the experience of life is one of a burden. Yeah. You're not anymore in a garden. You don't it says it says so says says we're not sure who expelled who from Ganeden. Did God expel Adam from Ganeden or did Adam expel Hashem from Ganeden? And what's the Zaha saying? An incredible insight. God didn't expel Adam from Ganed. When they ate from the sadas, they expelled God from Ganed. It's like it's my house. Imagine you invite me to your estate, okay? And you say you could be here for at that moment there was supposed to be eternity. But let's say not eternity. You could be here for 100 years. All on my there's towels. The refrigerator is stocked. The pantry is stocked. The mortgage is on me. There's also a couple of credit cards you can use. There's an indoor pool. There's an outpool. There's solar energy if you want. Okay. By night you have the light goes down. In the morning, the sun comes up. It's a whole everything. Ashvitz you have in the summer. Yeah. Ice ice bath in the winter. Ice plunge in the winter. Everything you have. >> The only thing in question is who it belong. >> Oh, I come in there and it's such a beautiful house and I feel so gach. He says the only one thing there's one pantry that's off limits. Why is it off limits? It's mine. This is my house. It's it's off the one p one bedroom. You know, sometimes you rent the house. One bedroom. You can't go in there. The whole purpose of that is that you should remember that it's my house. So what does the person do? He feels so comfortable and then the owner comes for dinner, throws him out of the house, calls the police, get out of here forever. So who threw who out of Ganeden and the house turns into a ganam from a Ganeden? Suddenly everything is a burden. Who's cooking the food tonight? Oh, it's so hot outside. It's so cold outside. Gh, I hate this place. That's what happened. That's the story. >> It's almost the signature you're not allowed to do. >> Even the Loasa what you're not allowed to do is part of that. It's the relationship. It means that it's somebody's giving it to you. It's actually a gift. If I'm experiencing every moment a gift, it's such a beautiful experience. You all know once in a while you get a gift, right? With with a meaningful meaningful card and it opens your heart. It's one of the languages of love, right? Gifts. And that's that's the experience of life every single second. Every that's what it is. And it's all because of you. Like you are the star here. And that's where the serpent comes in and he twists he he he spins the story and he destroys the Ganeden. It's not anymore Ganed. The difference of ganed and gem is not where you are. It's just the glasses you're wearing. It's not where you are. Two people could be in the same room at the same table listening to the same thing. For one, it's going to end and one is going to everybody knows that. >> One is when is this going to end? How do I get out of here without being self-conscious? And one is I hope this never ends. one >> like when you're learning a I hope it never ends and one is like how do I get out of here without anybody noticing me? You think I can do the whoa whoa whoa it's fine like so one one you in the in the in the company of gracious gracious host and another one you're in the company of >> Yeah. Yeah. And it's all control. That's what he says. Hashem knows that the day you eat from it, you're going to your eyes are going to open. You're gonna know everything he knows. Like Rashi says, "This tree is the ingredient you need to create the world." God ate from this tree, too. So, you're gonna eat from this tree and he's gonna have a competition. He doesn't want a competitor. Elon Musk wants to be the richest man in the world. And God wants to remain God forever. He wants to be the trillionaire. He wants you to be a schnar. Of course, he doesn't want you to eat from that tree. >> And the whole philosophy of life changed. Everything now changed. God became the enemy. Yeah, even before becoming the enemy, at least he became the boss. Once he became the boss, that's already the next step is the enemy. But he's here to control. The whole thing was about relationship and it ended up into control. And so many of our relationships still continue with that pattern. That's why you have to ask when you're in a relationship, who's actually running the show, the snake or the divine? It's >> Yeah. Who's running it? And that's what we mean that the had intimacy with right says you know you read this okay so a beautiful story the snake had intimacy with kava what else happened but that really is because what that means is that the zu the the the the the toxicity that the snake put into kava is not an external idea. A it's inside her sister, right? Intimacy means intimacy means that it's internalized. In other words, I don't know what's me and what's not me. That's what the zama is. It's not that the came and he planted an idea that kava is now struggling with philosophically. No, he planted something that became an experiential part of her life. Now to decipher truth from falsehood, she has to work deep inside of her because everything is mixed in. And that's why everything started right then. That's what's experientially I don't know what's what. It's all in inside. It's not like a external idea. It's all living inside of me. And that was the intimacy that he had. Intimacy means you become one. And now Kava looks at herself and who am I? There's two sides. There's the snake that's inside of her or inside of him and then there's the divine inside of her and inside of her and the nash is so outspoken and so uh convincing because it has all this evidence, right? I you look to have that tree. Well, he said you're not allowed to have that tree. Well, he said he said love love love. He said, you know, you can even hear the till today, right? It's inside like he said and it's all fear. It's all defense mechanism based. That's why there's no real tiny there. It's it's now throwing out Hashem, replacing it with control tinug. You'll own the house. It's going to be yours forever. Look at your estate. This stupid idea of bringing God into the house and splitting ownership. It's like the stupidest thing in the world. Most foolish thing in the world. Even 50/50. Why should I give you 50% of my of my trillion dollars when I can have the whole thing? Like what a fool you are. >> He introduced >> He introduced a new signature >> without without the original >> without the original. He substituted the signature. >> He forged it. Mizuyf. Yeah. >> That's why forging a signature, right, in is such a serious thing because that's what essentially all of says. It's forging the signature. I'll forge the signature. I'll make believe I sent a telegram or nobody sent a telegram which is also a form of a false signature. Nobody of course somebody sent the telegram. Somebody took time and wrote the telegram and thought about it and paid for it and sent it to you. And now they want you to figure out who sent it. That's it. And when you figure out who sent it, the love that comes after that is so much deeper. You know, there's more appreciation. There's humor in it. There's a there's a deep connection. There's a romance there. That's the idea we always talk about. I heard it from the I think the already says it in Right. When you say something in the name of the one who said it, you bring redemption to the world. That is exactly this idea. What's there's a signature. Somebody said this. It's not your idea. Somebody said this. Saying it over in their name is not just honesty. Somebody said it. So, I'm not taking credit. It's much more than that. It's connecting to the relationship that was being communicated here. >> You give a statement and the signature. >> Exactly. There's a signature. Exactly. Everything that you're touching in the world, every do has an somebody is responsible for it. >> Hashem is not that person, >> right? It's the ultimate the ultimate somebody who says it. Don't plagiarize it. Right? What what what's somebody takes your ideas, plagiarizes it, publishes it in a book, right? Gets a book deal. Yeah. The publishing house pays them a half a million dollars. They have sales for the next 40 years. Hopefully, the book is a bestseller. So, they make, I don't know, let's say $10 million and it was all stolen from somebody else. That's not nice. the any moment in life when I take any dove or anything in the world right and I I hijack it I take it away from Hashem that is theft >> it's not about the theft of a person I thought also it's about the humility you're saying >> that's of course on a basic level it's the humility of just being giving credit where credit is due yeah obviously but there's a deeper interpretation here why because that's how you redeem the world the from helm the ism concealment and how do you redeem the world from how do you go back it's always the word I always tell you right in Hebrew I think I saw this in a essay by Shapiro from Shapiro says that is in Hebrew it's a beautiful insight in Hebrew the word we use for a thing and the word we use for a word is identical is and it's also because Hebrew knows that everything is really a is there's no separate things. Everything is so every is a it's not a thing. Just like you say, what is the human body? Today we know it's a program. It's a code DNA. It's not just a thing. It starts off with it starts off with a program with a sequence with a message. You look at a computer, there's a backend program. That's the dbor. That's the code language of it. That's so every is really a you identify and every the and everything is that experience. That's what it really is. It's the card that came with the package and said, "Guess who sent us." You're enjoying aha. You're enjoying it. Ah, thank you. Wow. When you're enjoying it, you remember me. It's me. You're enjoying me and I'm enjoying you and I'm enjoying you enjoying me. It's very very simple actually. It's actually very it's the most simple experience of life right the speaks in the name of sophistication. I once saw an article or or heard a speech by and he said a snake the uses the word. So arum is usually translated as slyus right it saysma is like deceitful deceitful he gave a beautiful translation for arum he said arum is sophisticated it was sophisticated you see you look he says look at the gate of a of a serpent they call it a serpentine gate the way it walks right it doesn't walk straight all animals and people you know hopefully you walk straight the nash has this beautiful elegant gate, right? So, huh? >> Slither. >> A slither. It goes this direction and then it turns and it turns here and it looks he says that's what sophistication does. Sophistication does nothing is simple. Everything you could look at it this way, you could look at it that way. You could look at it that way and one person's terrorist is another person's freedom fighter. And for you it's moral and for this person it's immoral and today you're a man, tomorrow you're a woman. And everything has perspectives and you cannot say anymore, I love you. I hate you. Right, wrong. Right, wrong is the most unsophisticated word for a Harvard professor. Right, wrong, real. Who decided right wrong? A fundamentalist religious fanatic. You're wrong is my right, my right is your wrong. There's no light, there's no dark, there's no mine, there's no yours. Everything is questionable and it looks very sophisticated because it's so diverse and open-minded. But he says, "But when it bites you, it's poisonous. It's poisonous." Right? Sophistication is all beautiful when it's based on an anchor on a paradigm that is true. When sophistication undoes the very signature and everything is now up for just personal sentiments. So then Netanyahu could be worse than Hitler. You understand? That's how it works. everything becomes there's no there's no uh there's no foundation anymore of basic morality and that's when people can become completely crazy. So this is what the does it's that bite it's very very poisonous. Now the truth is because ultimately the working through the is brings us to the deeper place of where everything comes back to its source even the the the struggle of control and alienation darkness is transformed. But said you have to always understand when it comes to tenug everything comes from one source because hashem is the source of bliss the source of pleasure the goes through many many stages you remember there's malim who are called kishkas intestines and they break down the divine tenug and part of it can remain in the higher world and part of it is deficated ated is expelled to the lower world. Just like when a person goes to the bathroom and the body differentiates between that which could stay in the body and that which has to become fertilizer for the fields or food for the insects. It's also nutritious. It's also nutritious. What you evacuate from your body is not valless. It's meaningful. It's not meaningful for your body and your organism. Your organism rejects it because it can't benefit your organism anymore. But your fields appreciate it. >> Why do plumbers appreciate it? Because they have work. They have work. Yeah. Okay. And dung beatetles and dung beatetles savor it. They crave it. This is their greatest. This is a for them. The more excrement you provide, the more celebration they have. What for you is repulsive is for them the greatest meal in the world. And who's right? The answer is depends which frequency you live in. If you come, if you're a dung beetle, they're absolutely right. They live off it. They sometimes go to war with each other. And what are they fighting over? This is not a joke. You could look at the documentaries. You could study. It's very interesting. I have a fascination with these things. But you could see two dung beatetles go to war for literally. And then when you think about it, we're we laugh. We're doing exactly the same thing. That's what most wars are about. That's what most wars are about. Nothing else. We call it what are we fighting about? What are we fighting about? If you go a drop higher, we're those dunk beatles. And that's what is saying on every every world realize what you call the the pinnacle of Tanuk is the there was a big was a he came to America in the early years. He never saw a skyscraper. They took him to Manhattan and he saw a skyscraper and and everybody was amazed. So just his foren but okay. So he says ah that was that was that was his they asked him what he thinks. She says the that was his and that was the end of that right where did he get that that was that's the right that the malim that's what's happening so our skyscrapers is really the he he he was nailing it and that's what we get into a fight over we get into a fight over skyscrapers people will kill each other and it goes higher and higher and higher because in the source it's pure a cyh over there. Nobody gets into a fight with anybody because it's a sight. There's no fight. But as it comes down the tug goes through a holist and what is geden in one world for the higher world it's actually it's a very humbling humbling and true notion and I can't thank enough for just for this revelation. What is the ganeden of one world? If you go a little bit higher, it's actually the excrement of a higher world. And what is the ganaden of that world? And they're like, "Oh, we got it." Because these guys just are dunk beatles. They're busy fighting over excrement. And yet in a higher reality, their grenaden is the of the higher world. That's there's in every world just like in the body that their job is to break down the divine food the divine the divine energy and allocate allocate the food to different places. This part of the food could stay in your body on the contrary we want it to stay in your body because it's going to replenish your cells and become part of your bloodstream and it's good food. And this part of the food, your body has no use for it. It was a mistake that you ate it. Sorry. I know the cake looked good, but it was a mistake. So, it has to go to the basis. And that's what the kvayim do 24/7. It's amazing how the kvayim do it. So, biologically, it's that way because spiritually there is that system. There's no system in the body that doesn't exist in all of the worlds. So, that system exists in every single world. Breaks down the divine energy and allocates it. So there's the food of there's a food of bri, there's the food of the food of whatever can't contain because it doesn't work here. I'm allergic to it. If you leave this in the body, you're going to you're going to get sick. If the body does not evacuate the right, what happens? It builds up and the person becomes sick. They can't live anymore. So says, "Sorry, this energy I can't deal with." So it sends it out to and we get it like the dungs AND WE'RE LIKE, "HAHA, WOW. WE SHALL like never before. And therefore, >> huh? No, the truth is I remember in camp, right? The most exciting dinner was hot dogs. Thursday night was hot dogs with ketchup and mustard and sauerkraut and buns. You get older a little bit and you find out how they make hot dogs. I don't know if anybody ever did that. You know how they make hot dogs? I'm not going to get into it. So, you know how they make hot dogs, right? And then they're like, you know, what was the what was the best dinner in camp, right? What everybody hot dogs, hot dogs, hot dogs. And then you realize what it's really right made of and so on with true with everything in that, you know, but ultimately every tanug, even the lowest of the tanugim, it's rooted in divine energy. There's no other source of it. And the dung beetle's nutrition is coming because in the sa in the dung there is something there are nutrients that will allow it to survive and she those are nutrients that can work with the organism of the dung beetle and that's the meaning of words when saw such bliss and ecstasy in Rome and his friends were sobbing and why were they sobbing? They said the Bikto is in flames and this nation is celebrating and says that's why I'm quelling. If this is what the sinners get, imagine what the the who fulfill his will get. So says what's the answer here? If he's talking about the future, they also knew about the future. If he's talking about now, the reality now is pretty doomed. So that reveals that this was the depth of a's words that if this is how much tanuk there is in the pilus of the pilus of the pilus of the pilus that the tugi went down infinite infinite layers through infinite filters and restrictions and concealments to the point that it's satisfying their orgies and their addictions and their gluttony and their narcissism and their murderous instincts and their power And still they have so much Tina whether it's from womenizing whether it's from adultery whether it's from alcoholism whether it's from murder whether it's from power and still in their own sha they still think they're at least in their mind they're enjoying life they're on top of the world and this is what this is the silus of millions of millions of millions of madres he says imagine For those of us who can touch the source of the on the contrary that itself made him laugh because that that brought it out as he says he saw the if if THE SILUS OF HASHEM'S IS SO pleasurable what does the source of that look like from them he felt it they helped them experience the real tan. If the IF THE HAS SO much in it, what does the source have? If this is a forged signature, everything it has is from Hashem, but it's manipulative. It's exploited. It's concealed. IT'S FAKE. AND STILL, IT'S CRAZY. Look how much tiny there is in the world. Every industry of Tyug is is endless. Just the food industry, there's noose industry, the gambling industry. I don't even know how much money there's in all these industries. And there's something that attracts people as people go to Las Vegas every night. It's more packed even than here. Every industry, I mean from the porn industry, every industry muter but the tanugim, right? And what is it all? It's all essentially fake false signatures. It's all manipulating the eightas. It's all the it's all feeding off that tree and still mish everybody's going crazy. You promise people a tug. It's go crazy. So says from that from that itself it gave him the that gave him the biggest tanuk. From that he could learn and experience what this what's in the source >> and it's completely infinite. Huh? >> Experience the tonic right there. >> Yeah. Right there. And then he experienced it. That was the sak. He wasn't just laughing cuz in 2,000 years it's going to be good. That's also true. They also knew that. They didn't they didn't argue that there's noar they became you talking about. They weren't atheists. They didn't think the B mikt is destroyed forever and evil is going to prosper. They were crying because because on tishab you cry tishov is not when mashia comes he'll stop crying on tish but now it's tishov what are you laughing is in flames and these they have such serenity and such ecstasy SAYS BRINGS this and he tes unbelievable. Why? He says he could have said he says means those who pass away from the not in alignment anymore with the in other words the is not anymore connected to the source. They're they take his energy and they bring it to a different realm. They hijack the energy and still they have so much time. It's like if you're a Ghan and you sneak into somebody's or somebody's house and you have like 10 minutes to eat up all their food, right? AND YOU STILL HAVE SO much pleasure, but it's cuz you can't be present. You know, when you have to do something in uh behind somebody's back, it's it's like it takes away all the tuk. We don't know. So, That was that was that was a from the contrast from the contrast. That's why he was laughing right then. He could have laughed anywhere. You can make a and say if this is the tuk that clipper has imagine the tuk that has but when he saw the tuk of Rome he experienced the contrast and there's nothing like experiencing contrast and the contrast gave him a at the end of the story there's then a second story with the fox and at the end it says the says twice for both stories The sages said you have comforted us. So whenever you're having in life, whenever this is the homework for this year, whenever you have high tug in life, any tyog in the world, pause, take a deep breath and realize there's a telegram. Guess who sent this, answer the question, and then go into the tanuk. And then ask yourself this question. Is this ty coming because is this t I'm pursuing this tanug because I respect myself and I love myself or am I pursuing this tenug actually because I hate myself and I'm running away from myself because that's always going to be a litmus test. Is this tanuk coming because I can experience how God loves me, respects me, wants me, and that's why I'm pursuing the tenuk to be in this relationship? Or it's actually the opposite. I'm trying to avoid the sense of contempt and numbing my feeling of worthlessness or boredom or anxiety. It's a substitute. In one, I'm taking the silus away from the source and severing the connection. And there'll still be tyuk. There'll still be tyog. In Rome, there was a lot of tinug. But it's always short term. It's not very deep. And even while it happens, you know that it's not it. You can feel it. Or in the first case, it's going to be there in middle. It's going to be there before and it's going to be there 10 days after and the year after because it hit the spot of truth of authenticity. It was the real signature. you were touching the real experience of the relationship. There's no substitute for truth. That's the bottom line. That's the key. There's no substitute for truth. And the nervous system will know it. I could deny it through doing another through going to another distraction, but my nervous system will know that, too. And it catches up on us. It catches up on all of us because we were not made to lie. We were made to be truthful. You know, people sometimes think that life catches up on you. It's a punishment. It's a compliment. It means that you're truthful. And when you're truthful, your nervous system is allergic to lies. So after 10, 20, 30, 40, 50 years, it's going to catch up on going to catch up. It's it's not a punishment. It's a compliment. It means that your system was designed to detect truth and to channel truth. And when I'm feeding it lies, at some point it's going to say it's not working. It's not a punishment. It's not a punishment that when I distract myself for years, it's going to come back to haunt me. and everything. You know, the Gomorrah says that like there's going to be a reckoning even for a light conversation between a husband and a wife. So people feel it's like it's so sinister like God on vacation for a couple of days. Like you you're worse than Google. I mean Google also knows every and you're like worse than Google. Google you could sometimes shut off at least in your own imagination. I'm worse than Google. Google is also but fart. But the truth is it's a compliment. It means that your system was designed for truth, not for lies. And so when I when I feed it lies, it's going to ultimately it's going to ultimately attest to your greatness. Your greatness is that you were designed for a true relationship. There's no substitute for MS. And as a result of that, of course, the system is going to reject that which is inauthentic. It may take 10 years, it may take 30 years, but it's going to reject it. But it's a compliment. It's not a punishment. Yeah. So as a result of this, we understand that in the first tinug that is connected to the source, there is an eternity there. And in the second tinuk, which is also from the source, it's always from the source. Rome is getting their tuk from there's no other source of tanuk. It's just the psyus of the psyus of the psilus of you don't recognize where it came from. It was severed but it's still getting those few nutrients. The little tiny nug it has is always exploiting holiness. There's no other source. And that's why Rabaka didn't doubt it for a moment. It's not like Rabbi Aaka said, you know, maybe I should become a Roman. And that was the difference between Alicia Bavu and Riaka. Alicia Bavoya was Rabbi Akiva's teacher and friend. Raba's teacher, Rabbaka's friend. And he went over to the Romans. He went into the garden. He went into the garden and he came out a different personal never got confused by the world. He never flinched. He told his friends the Gmorra says and is in represents orgasmic flow. May every orgasmic flow it's called mayam. May is the flow of life the flow of vitality. The flow of bliss is called before Monday there was only one source of water. What happened on Monday? split says from is from physicality divorced from before Monday there was no split. There was only one source of bliss. If you were introduced into life on the Sunday of creation and you were cuz the soul uh God consulted you there would be only one definition of tenug. What is that? There would be no other definition of tenug. It's like you're in or you're out. You're dead or you're alive. You want to be dead. You want to be alive, there's one source of life, one source of bliss. And it fills reality. On Monday, there's a split. There's higher water and there's lower water. There's two forms of bliss. I could control a situation and in my mind it's pleasurable. I can eat toxic foods. I can be in toxic relationships. I can lie to myself and others. But in my own mind, I'm having pleasure. It's going to be 5 minutes, 10 minutes, not long. Rome, it took a couple of hundred years. But I could lie to myself. I told you last time you see the pictures of the Nazis laughing in the early 40s. You know, they had five years in their mind of bliss. The third Reich, thousand-y year, Hitler said, Alicia got very confused and he changed camps. He went over to the Romans. When went into the garden, the Gar says, he told his friends, May nobody knows what did he mean and revealed and al explains there's no two sources of pleasure it's not it's one don't get confused there's no two sources of pleasure right it's not like the guy who says I'm a man of principles and if you don't like my principles I have other principles there's no two gods that's >> it's very hard to say that it's say that you're going to see all this mar you're going to you're going to see marble it's going to look like water don't say it's water it's it's a very mystical it's they're going into the garden so this is an unbelievable revelation that al revealed that maya may don't get confused there's no two sources of ma there's one source of maya either you surrender to that and you'll be able to experience it and if you're always busy oh you don't have you put your eggs in two baskets oh you don't have eggs for me I'm going here you're going to be left with nothing you're going to be a tortured soul. >> God is not a hedge fund. Truth is not a hedge fund. And this is what, by the way, this is one of the hardest things in life. And the only way you could do this is if you experience a little bit of that tenug and you realize you have to make a choice. The great people in history are those who make that choice and they don't flinch afterwards. They know the temptations. Then understood everything that everybody else understood and therefore he didn't flinch. He knew exactly what's happening. There was a in Russia there was a very famous Jew they called him he called himself. He was a literary genius. Huh? Yeah. It was a because from paras told us so he was allet also and he was a realist like from the old who was still educated his name was Ginsburg he was a relative of the rashab of the fifth labba to talk about diametrically opposed in hashkafa would be an understatement but he came to visit his cousin once he was a brilliant man there's no question was a brilliant brilliant man and uh very literary giant I mean brilliant brilliant writer from the early you know Zionist theologians although he disagreed with a lot of the other leaders he didn't believe that Jews should have a land they should only have a culture he wanted to revive the Hebraic culture brilliant man and a very very secular Jew and he came to visit the lab so uh they say it's unbelievable ver they say that they asked him afterwards said this over they asked him they asked him afterwards words. What his impressions of the listen to? So he said he said six words which means have an expression on they know their master and they intentionally rebel against him. It's not like they don't know Hashem. They know him and they rebel against him. So said about he knows the world and he intentionally rebelss against it. In other words, most people he met they were just naive. They didn't know the world. So of course they rebel against it. They just they're they're cloistered. They're they're isolated. Says he knows the world. >> The world that is already whatever. >> In other words, it's not there people you grew up in a certain system. So you're naive. You're holy because you're naive. The moment you understand culture and history and politics, you know, you you get it, right? You you graduate it. You know, everybody knows that, right? You grew up in a certain way. You're brainwashed. You're indoctrinated. It works for you. The moment you're taken out of your little ghetto, you open up your mind and you see the world and then you realize. So he said about him, he says his rebellion against the world is with it's with it's with consciousness. It's with intent. He knows it. What's that? What's the real thing? Yeah. Rabbi saw from Rome. He saw the truth. He didn't flinch. He knew right away all their tenu that they're experiencing is a fraction of a fraction of a fraction of a fraction of the soilus after myriads and myriads and myriads of levels. And they're getting a few little uh crumbs crumbs of the DIVINE NUTRIENTS. AND LOOK HOW EXCITING THEIR LIFE IS. IT'S LIKE YOU COME TO THE richest ever, right? And you go to the garbage and you find an old bone that somebody threw out and you go home and you're like, "WOW." AND THIS IS ROME. THIS IS ROME. OKAY. So now let's see a little >> This is very rich. This is rich stuff. Huh? >> But there was a part of divine plan also, right? Everything is part of a divine plan. >> Of course. That that's why that's why the serpent is powerful. >> That's why we're here. Of course. >> If it would have been day one, there wouldn't be a question. What's tinug is was one tinug. Day two split the tin. >> Maybe it was not a plan A, but at least it was definitely a plan B, right? >> Oh, for sure. >> You got to work with the now. Yeah. >> So, without we cannot. >> Yeah. Yeah. And that was depth when he said we need to don't go don't fall into do not fall in there's no two there's no two sources that's what is we learned on the about what's you're married to somebody you have loyalty you experience the relationship why are you going to somebody else and says there you can't be a z according to the gammor you can't be a real definition of zena is not auya. It's not a single woman. It's only married. So he says spiritually too somebody who didn't experience the light of hashem cannot be called a zo when they betray him. Because if you didn't experience me, you're not betraying me. You never knew who I am. It's not called betrayal. Betrayal is only when you experience the depth and the amazing quality of the relationship and then you're betraying that. I said I said that that's why after Awitz the Reb understood so keenly so well that the whole posture of the Jewish people changed. You can't call anybody a Zena anymore. They didn't see Mata. They saw trebling. They didn't see. They saw Dhaka. They didn't see Ananov. They s they saw Burka Belik Maidonic. That's what they saw. Is it a betrayal of God or it's just the devastation of so much pain and horror that people are looking for some type of safety and comfort? So the whole approach of of rebuking and screaming and hollering and cursing and and alienating, he says you're missing the mark. You're not talking about a generation of you're talking about a generation that saw the greatest pain in the world. So the whole posture needs to change. Yeah. That's what we spoke about int if you didn't experience the light of the relationship says over there I'm I'm going back it's really we're doing the next he says somebody who never saw light darkness will appear as light so they're not choosing darkness they're actually choosing light because in their mind darkness is light if I saw light and then I go to darkness you could say I chose chose darkness. If I never saw light, he says the person never chose darkness. They're choosing actually light. They think that the darkness is the light, right? That sensitivity. Somebody's going to darkness and really says they're not going to darkness. They're going to light in their mind. They don't have an experience of light. They don't have a reference point. SO FOR THEM, THE DARKNESS IS THE LIGHT. SO INSTEAD of chastising them, respect the fact that they're actually looking for light. They just don't know what it is. Then it changes everything. And you see it constantly. You see, people are looking for darkness. Really, they're looking for light. They don't know. They don't know what light is. They never felt it. So, this is the light. This is the best I can get. Especially if it's against what my father thinks. It's for sure light. That's the only reference point they have, by the way. The reference point. There's thousands of kids like this. The only reference point that they have for what's light is if my father disagrees with it. You understand? Now, whoo wo onto that definition of light. But if my father who is completely engulfed in this traumatic world disagrees with it, it must be light. So that's what I have to pursue. >> Is that exactly what did >> that's exactly what the did. >> Yeah. If this is what God wants and he's a control freak, obviously you got to go away from the take over the house and you'll be a happy person. >> It's a it's a father's in a way father's imprint on the subconscious of the child. >> Yeah. So it's you cannot blame you cannot blame the child unfortunately for that. So the fact that he goes >> it's for this for this child this is his only definition of light. My father is part of a system that caused me pain that's darkness. So whatever is opposite of what my father believes my mother believes must be the light. That's exactly what's happening today for so many people. And you don't have a reference point of light. So says they're not looking for darkness actually looking for light. They don't know where to search. So they're not zen. They're not a It's not a zena. >> Huh? >> Instead of teaching them what life is. >> Well, you have to teach yourself. You can't teach it to anybody else. Experience. It's experience. It's not even teaching. >> But unfortunately, their generation, the generation of kids that reject the father. They they cannot go to nigler. They have to go to >> which is so hard. >> The nigler of the father they reject. >> That's true. >> So how you can go there? That's why Mashiach told this in 1746 Mashiach nailed it. He got it. 1746 that's a little more than 200 years ago. He told when the experience of your mayor your wellsp springsings will saturate every corner that is redemptive consciousness. Well, like you previously uh connection >> connection connect >> the real attachment the real experience of attachment that's true there's no there's no forgery there no dis no forgery the nervous system knows always when it's forged bliss and real bliss it knows it we don't tell it to ourselves because I want to enjoy whatever I'm doing I don't want to ruin it but my nervous system knows it there's whenever there's real tuggal there's a serenity there there's no urgency It's not like right now. It's not obsessive because it's not about control. It's never about control. It's actually letting go. You can't experience the bliss of through control. It's on the contrary. You're like almost non-existent. It's like you become a channel. It's even hard to describe. But if you ever felt it, you're just a channel. You're not you're not controlling anything. And that's the garden. The definition of what what do you think happens in Ganaden? You just give up control. That's it. You just let go. You know in this world the the med says when ch children are born they're born with with uh clenched fists. Most infants they come out with clenched fists. And it's interesting even in the first days and weeks if you put your finger they close it. It's very fascinating. It's like a it's like a reflex. You put your it's a little baby one week or two. You put your finger and they go like this. They close it right away. When most people die one of the first things is they open up their fists. It gets loose. So it says in medish we're born symbolically we're born and we think let me grab whatever I can I grab this I grab this right when you're born this is this is the posture of Maza and then when they die they just let go what is ganed ganed is you let go of all control you let go of all control you're in Gaden in this world we don't know that I have to control I have to control anything. Well, if I'm not controlled, I'm going to be what? A a lazy good for nothing. Everybody's going to exploit me. You know, we associate lack of control with being a victim of abuse. It's the opposite. Of course, there are there are victims of abuse there. Don't have control, but that's not the real point of lack of control doesn't mean you become a schmata that people to step on you. It means you allow yourself to be in Ganeden where you're a channel. And that letting go is the key to paradise. And it's the hardest thing in the world because the snake does not like letting go. The snake is like somebody got to be responsible in this world and it's not you. So I'm going to take over. I said giml and I think we spoke about it once said that the reason he's so m you remember he was so m he was a tremendous machm every and every min. So I said usually people who are such mach are OCD you don't want to be around them because they're just very very nervous. They they have nerv in it's called nerv they have a nerve they're they're nervous they're suffering they let it out in hala but it's just an outlet not everybody but some people but was the opposite he was open he was full of sim so he once explained I'm just giving the context why why I think that's what it's just my own intuition of why he said it and he said that the reason he has all these is because I want to understand I want experienced. In other words, what he understood was whenever you pursue a tanuk that's not a lus, it blocks off the nervous system from channeling divine bliss because it's like it's like it's like say in the if I betray my spouse I'm not I can't come back the next day and say let's love each other. You blocked it off. You shut it down. You have to do chuva. You have to do a lot of work. >> Huh? split personality >> if and ultimately a split personality doesn't work. Either it's real or it's not real. Either I'm loyal or I'm not loyal. I can't be today loyal and then tomorrow I want you. That's just a transactional fake relationship. And real real relationships can't be transactional. They're very real. They're authentic. They touch. So said I'm not a because I'm crazy. I'm obsessed. I'm not even because I'm afraid of gehenna. I'm always fine-tuning the system. So I should be able to experience flow. I want to experience source. And every every was simply helping the body remaining fine-tuned, not becoming distracted by other things. He was so sensitive to what he will pick up, what he won't pick up. >> I I know I know everybody knows. I know it with myself. If I sit down at the table and I start eating something I shouldn't eat because I'm stressed, I'm anxious, I'm numb, I want to numb myself. Whatever it is, I know afterwards I'm going to learn a mimer, it's I'm not going to be able to understand it the same way. I know it. Maybe I'll understand the words, I'll understand the concepts, but there will be a blockage and there's a reason because my I gave away my energy. It's a form of and says in the of that it's always relative. Meaning he says this and the deeper your relationship is the more even subtle distractions will be a betrayal of the relationship. For one man flirting with other women his wife doesn't even notice it because she's also flirting. You know what I mean? They're both they're both yitatskas. So it's not a big deal. It's a what's the big deal? But for somebody where the relationship is very very deep even a little tiny betrayal for somebody else it's nothing. What the what? Nothing happened. No, you know people say nothing happened. Nothing happened. That's true. Nothing happened. But like says the name of the mag ofim have a much more devastating impact than a of why? Because when you're when you're in the back end of the system, one little maka that's wrong, you're you're you're disrupting the system. It's very serious. It's not because of evil, it's because of your greatness. So the same is true. He says when somebody appreciates elus in a very deep way he says even dhus even a subtle tyus becomes a betrayal not because they're they're obsessive they're not obsessive but because they're in love they're present this is this is the this is the mistake of our it's not a mistake it's just nobody experienced it. We have learned we have learned to to believe that real sadikim are more obsessive people. They're more obsessive. They're more guilty. they're more crazy, they're more fake, they're more because that's experience for many. But the truth is the opposite. It's actually more loving, more present, more real, more authentic. And therefore, I respect myself and my energy too much to allow myself to betray what I'm capable of channeling just because the potato chip looks good. I have too much. I'm too invested in life. I'm too invested in love. I'm too invested in realness and connection. That's what it is. Like, yeah. Like, you want me to go eat sa? Why? Because you want me to be a dung beetle? Why? To prove it to other people? Like, why? To numb myself? Why should I numb myself? I like myself. Why should I numb myself? I'm a mage. Why should I numb God's energy? Numbing yourself is really numbing God. Why are you numbing God? Like, why? God actually wants to live through you. So, why should you numb it? What are we? Now the truth is we're not trying to numb our we're trying to numb our pain, our anxiety, our stress. And that's the challenge. Can you tune in to the part of you that is amazingly blissful and beautiful and you don't have to numb it? >> And the way didn't suffer. You know what happened at Rabaka, >> right? What the Romans did to him. And you know why they did it to him? Because they knew how he feels. This was their revenge. It was like the Nazis were the Jews. You know, they would take Jews and cut their beards. They felt when they're cutting the beard, they're like killing God. When they did what they did to Akiva, they felt they're going to destroy this. We'll prove it to you. You could you could see you could you know the rishes. You saw it by the Germans that level of rishes. You know, the way that you see the pictures, the way they cut beards, the way why they cutting a beard, why are they cutting pis? What was it? It was this this beard, these pis these pis they represent, you know, and the Jewish people this we're going to destroy take your big tug. Oh, Sahak, you're laughing. They didn't know the story, the Romans, but they felt the story. Trust me, they felt the story when they looked at. They felt the story. It's exactly what Hmon felt when didn't bow down to him. The whole world bows down to me besides you. I'm going to I'm going to I'm going to prove that you're also going to bow down to me. Right? This is exactly the This is exactly where the serpent comes out in its true colors. Ribbaka's silent joy killed them more than anything else. When the Germans saw a ye a Jew in Poland with a beard and pay, it killed them. Why? What killed him? A Jew has pis go drink. Go go go go go go do your what? What? What do the payis drove them mad? They didn't even know why it drives them mad. It drove them mad when Hitler would hear the word Jew. It drove him mad. He went crazy because this this they felt all they felt all of this. Theb said if you want to understand the kaduca of a yid, you have to look at the hatred of the Nazis to a Jew. Then you'll understand the kadusha of aided always. >> They have it in their psyches. >> Yeah. For for how many thousand years? >> Yeah. They they detected it. They they detected it and they were determined. We will kill every last one and finally we'll have tanug. It's all for tu. They all wanted bliss. That's all they wanted. Hitler said the Jewish people circumcised the world. First they circumcised us physically with a bris and then they circumcised our conscience. >> Hitler. Yeah. >> No, no. Our conscious conscience, you know, have a conscience like a conscious matspoon. Matpoon. They gave us a he says they gave the Jewish the world I hate the Jews because they gave the world a conscience. what we call Jewish guilt. >> He said it literally he said this. It's it's published. I saw it. That's not I didn't make that up. But and he felt it in his bones. It's all tug. If you can destroy a YOU'LL FINALLY ENJOY LIFE. You'll finally that last that last menace who reminds you that you're miserable is going to be gone. When they saw a deep down they knew they were miserable. Deep down. Why? Why do why do they want to kill every Jew? What do you get from killing every single Jew? What's going to happen? What do you think is going to happen? Every last baby. I understand you want to kill leaders and fine. Why every baby? What's going to happen? What's the in killing every Jewish baby with glee? >> Not even not even a quarter of a percent of the world, right? It's not like you're talking about a nation, you know, three billion people. So >> deep deep deep deep down it's tug. >> It's when the last Jew will be dead. Finally we'll be able to control the world. Finally we'll be able to enjoy life. Finally we'll prove that Ganed belongs to us not to God. That's it. >> Yeah. Even when they killed was in and that drove them mad. That drove them mad. And while they were while they were torturing him, he was like, "Do you understand how they went crazy?" So they tried to torture him more. And they didn't realize they're not competing with they're competing with truth. They're competing with Hashem. They're competing with reality. You can't kill. You can't kill Rabaka. There's no such a thing. Elus doesn't die. The Reb once said, the only thing that can't get nullified is B. Everything else you can destroy. You can't destroy BL. Tell me how do you destroy BL? That's what the Nazis didn't understand. You can't destroy BL. The essence of Yiddish is B. You can't destroy it. You could burn a building. You can try to kill a body, but you can't destroy B. You can't destroy Hashem. It bounces right back and it drives them crazy because that means we can't own the world. We want to own the world. We want Tina. We want to live it up. And they knew they can't live it up. They knew deep down they come home and they're miserable. And that's why they have to drink and they need another woman and they need more control. Why? Because they're miserable. And if the last Jew is dead, we won't be miserable anymore. The problem for them is the last Jew will not die because God won't die. And there's a reason God won't die. It's called reality. Reality doesn't How do you kill reality? Tell me how you kill reality. How? You can destroy a cup. How do you kill reality? Reality is a truth. You can't kill a truth. This she is the fundamentals of Yiddish. This is the fundamentals of Yiddish. The philist The only way you can experience tag is through letting go. You never through control. There's no such a mitz. It's always through letting go. If you try to control it, it's the opposite of it because it's an in of anoid mulv. Anoid mulv you can't control. Other things you can control. I'll control the money. I'll control the bank. I'll control the business. I'll control my spouse, so to speak. Good luck. I'll control my kids. I'll control this. Control. Control and control. And you think it's going to work. can sometimes if you're a powerful person it'll work for some time and there's a bliss there that's the t ofus it's also getting its nutrients from elus like the dung beetle is getting your nutrients no question but it's so far away from the source when you let go that's always the beginning of because in real you can't be there to enjoy it that's the real thing and that drove the Germans more mad than anything else right and every says the Same thing. If you want to enjoy the divine, you cannot be there to enjoy it. You need an ego death. The deeper the ego death, the deeper the bliss. No ego at all, complete bliss. A little ego, a little bliss. This they drove mad. This drove them mad. You cannot be there to enjoy it. Really? Let's expel God from Ganeden. And that's it. What they didn't realize is you not being there to enjoy it is the deepest bliss in the world. You not being there means you're channeling a you're in a garden. You don't need your ego. Your ego is your insecure brokenness. You don't need an ego. Your ego is the greatest sign of busha. It's it's a busha. You don't need an ego. You're bigger than ego. Right? This is also the every much bigger than ego. Ego takes your infinity and reduces it to a little pathetic creature that is that is inflating itself. You heard? Ego takes your infinity and turns it into a little pathetic creature. And then you're walking around, you're like, "Don't take this away from me." Ble takes away your ego and it gives you instead your infinity. Which one you going to choose? >> Huh? >> In Yiddish. Yeah. It is much better. >> The ego. The ego is also better in Yiddish because the ego is better in Yiddish. You're not understanding that >> he has a religious ego. >> The ego is much better in Yiddish ego. English ego and the ego sophisticated intellig is let go. Yeah. And the ego state the original sin the was all about control and the Then the the the tikun is just let go. >> Yeah. >> The original sin is control and the tikun is let go. But I just want to say let go does not mean >> you're it's the opposite. You let go of control. You allow Hashem to be in control. You're in his garden. It's he's he's hosting you. Imagine you invite me to your house. You invite guests. Rabbi Oliver has 150 guests for Shabas. Imagine you invite a guest to your house. Yeah. Right. And it's you see the person set up beautifully for you. I'm bringing my own food. And you go home and you go bring your own food, right? And it's like, we're hosting you. Like, enjoy it. Enjoy it. That's what letting go means. God says, "I want to host you." We think letting go means it's like uh, you know, just throwing yourself, you know, throwing yourself off a bridge. Letting go means Rabbi Creger is getting younger. >> Letting go means you came to my house, right? You came to my and you're bringing you're going home and bringing your own food. I I I want to host you. That's my pleasure. That's what letting go means. Letting go. God says, "I want to host you. I want to take care of your kids. I want to take care of your business. I'M TRYING TO TAKE CARE OF YOU. Let me take care of you." You're like, I don't like your I have to go. WE TAKE CONTROL IS I'M GOING TO CONTROL my life. God says, yeah, I need you to do a few things. I want you to show up. There's a few things. I want you to show up at my house. It would be nice IF YOU D WHATEVER IT IS. A FEW THINGS HE asks you to do, but it's my it's my that's what letting go means. Letting go means allowing God to host you in his at his wedding. That's what it is. >> Even when you bring your own food, he's also hosting. That's true. So even when you say thank you but no thank you God I'll do much better than you. I know how to make a much nicer than you. God says okay you know what I'll help you make that too. I'll help you make that too. But you know what? It's not going to have the signature. It's going to be more torturous. So goish. You want to make a on your own? Go plant. I'm just telling you're going to be sweating a lot. Fine. I have a mindset. It's almost a mindset. You could really walk around all day trying to do the right thing. You lose control. But if you have a mindset like it's not about the control, I have to do this. >> Of course, I have to show up for the wedding. That's it. Just show up to the wedding. Now that's enough. >> It's all in the mind. >> Exactly. There's no pressure. >> Exactly. You got it. >> You just experienced the moment this starts living in your bones 24/7, you're in a state of that's what the BMP wanted to bring to the world. >> And that's what the Mashiach told him. We we have all we have suffered so much. Nobody knows that this is available to us. Nobody knows. It's a secret. It's the best kept secret. It's hard to believe because you've been punched in your face. It's it's nobody's fault. We've been punched in the face. Let's face it. You show up to your and they threw you out. THEY THREW YOU OUT OF THE hall and you came home hungry, right? You're shuck and ate up the, you know, the guys who take the the the chicken near them also. You know that guy? He eats both portions. You came home hungry. How many is he going to go that way? So, you start making your own food. Yo. So the challenge is um you're saying okay so you it's good to be true self which is not going to be in the control fantastic but then you go to which is completely >> here goes the trauma >> that true self right but >> I was that's why I was you my brain you said true true self that cannot violate their >> I stand by what I said. >> It's like >> I exper everything I say everything I said I experienced. I'm not preaching it. >> How do you explain to the new generation that >> you don't explain anything to the new generation? You experience things. >> Stop explaining. >> How do you experience that? >> Letting go to be a schmat is also ego. Yeah, of course. >> Yeah. I don't have to control. I'm not control. That's what the boss well you know what he said from the word literally means I place Hashem before me the shi from the word shva my entire life is shi there's an equinamity it's called there's an uh >> equilibrium >> an equilibrium because what was the bash saying that he doesn't have pain knew what pain is trust me if you read the resume of the bashv you would call him the biggest trauma victim him in history. Yeah. Both parents died when he was young and he was thrown out of every yeshiva in every community. He grew up in the forests with beers and and and deer and other animals. He should have been a bitter dejected Huh. Yeah. A bitter dejected man. Bitter. Yeah. What was saying was shi means life is a roller coaster but there's an inner sense. I'm a host. Let my host take care. So therefore means every moment he remained openhearted. That's what it is. He never closed his heart. He remained at the wedding openhearted. There's different parts of a wedding. There's the bad. You see the niggan there's the there's the dancing. There's the pictures. There's a mitzvah. Whatever. There's different parts of a wedding. The garra says this. By the way, you think this is not the gammor says, right? sharp one. This world is like a wedding. Go grab the eat food and grab the drinks. That's what the Gomorrah says. What does this mean? You were invited at a wedding. Now eat and drink. I once heard from the what's he says today nobody knows this you don't know exactly here so he says you have an opportunity grab this may be your don't came to your doorstep but this is this is this is what it means to let go you came says you came to my gunaden let me treat you let me be here >> trust >> he will do it without violation So he'll give you a meal. >> When we let go of the bitterness and the anger, we feel it. There's a lot of bitterness and anger and it's fine. It's normal. We're not afraid of that. There's there's frustration. There's pain. I get it. I I also have it. We have to let go. That's also part of letting go. God says you could be at the wedding and you don't have to be bitter. You don't have to be angry. can let go of that too. It's hard. We don't want to let go. Sometimes we don't want to let go because it's our last uh we feel that it's going to be acquiescing to injustice. Some people feel if they let go of anger and resentment, nobody's going to fight for justice anymore. It really comes from a very pure place. A lot of people will not let go of their anger and frustration at God or at the community or at their parents or at the system or whatever it is because if I let go, right? Like Ellie Weisel used to say, if I stop telling the story of the Holocaust, right? The Germans will get away with murder at least they killed me. At least everybody should know that they killed us. So many of us don't want to let go of our anger because if we do what's going to be with the last adis the last testimony about all the craziness and insanity and abuse if I remain angry and miserable there's a fantastic >> it's very very deep this a lot of people are not letting go because they're beautiful people and they want that the adis the last for the corruption should be there and if I'm not angry anymore and you meet me and I'm a happy person what does it mean it means oh nothing happened to you you're a good guy. The Adis is gone. So people, they're so pure and innocent. They'll remain miserable for 90 years. So they could be Adis. Everybody looks at them look faka life. His kids are suffering and he knows it and but he wants to be an aid because he's such a good person. He doesn't want evil to win. He's having mistakes. Now I'm telling you this is our generation >> because his digital signature. >> I get it. I get it. I know. >> Huh? It's harder to let go. But I want to say the real reason they're not letting go is not because what the therapist says because you're stuck. The real reason is because they're so holy and they want there should be an adus in the world for all the corruption and their misery is the adus. >> And when they let go you're going to LOOK AT THEM SAY OH what they did to him. But if he's miserable and destroyed and he destroys him and HIS WHOLE FAMILY, NOW there's corruption. >> Very good. Very good. So the truth is that the adus is not going to disappear. Truth doesn't disappear. Your misery is going to disappear. That's it. The ADIS won't disappear. And whenever it's necessary, you're going to say and if it's necessary to go in for two hours and feel your pain and cry, you're going to do it. Nothing is no nothing is going to no no truth is going to be obliterated. Every day we remember our and still says >> we're never going to forget what our Malik did. We're never going to forget what Hitler did. Even when Mashia comes, Even the mashia remember mitz and therefore you remember what par did we're always going to remember it >> the book the happiest man on earth >> edu jaku edi jak the happiest man on earth >> the happiest man on earth edi jaku >> he was a survivor yeah >> it's not a you're choosing yeah we have to remember what a malik did but you know what a mullik doesn't live inside of me anymore the is outre I'm not letting a Mullik and the Nos and Hitler and the Nazis and the abusers live in me rentree. And if you want to live in me, pay rent at least $10,000 a month. Instead of me paying the therapist $10,000 a month, let them pay me $10,000 a month if you want to live inside of me. You don't want to pay rent and you could still be a witness. You could still be a witness. You don't have to wipe out the crimes by being happy. We're afraid that if we're happy, the crimes will be forgotten. They won't be forgotten. >> You'll actually be a better witness because you're going to be empowered and creative and you actually got appreciate even more. But this is really a generation that's afraid of of smiling for real because we don't want the criminals to get away with murder. And I get it. It makes sense. Well, you see yourself as a criminal. You know, the sins that you did >> that too. Sometimes you become the criminal which is the worst form of abuse and therefore you're not allowed to be happy because you have to feel guilty of how horrible you are and that's also part of the how far you say to the point where you should become friends with the enemy as well. >> There's a certain fine line >> with Christianity. >> You need boundaries. Everybody should protect themselves and evil shouldn't be called good. So that's delay how many boundaries they need. You know there's a lot of also different situations the situations where people were hurt by people who were just carrying trauma for generations and everything was bash or I would say just with their hands tied behind their back you know doing what they can with the tools they had blind and clueless. So that's one type. That's a whole different experience, you know, than other types. So there's no one answer for that. How many boundaries there has to be depends on the situation. But the point is even with boundaries, it's a very very nuanced shift of experience where I could let go. And that's what letting that's part of letting go. Enjoy the wedding. It's hard. It's hard because sometimes the only self we know is this no this self of pain. If the only self you know is the self of pain, how do you even learn that there's another self? There's a self of joy. We become so accustomed to the self of pain and there's a beauty to that self, right? It's compassionate. It's deep. It's sensitive. It's dramatic. >> To let go of that, I'm going to be just a boring old man. I'm not going to have anything to say. You know, if this right when you talk down you sit down to talk to me within 30 minutes, I tell you how many people molested me in yeshiva. such an interesting life. You know what I mean? They could do a Wikipedia page every day on what happened. But if I let go of that and that's not the first part of the story, you know, what what am I going to tell you? That I'm drinking coffee or what else is going on in your life? Everything is great. Really? >> Okay. Next. Anything interesting about your life? No. There's a letter a few years ago. So they printed they printed a whole volume of letters between the Reba and his father-in-law the Rebats private letters one to another back a whole volume literally it's like I don't know hundreds of pages so there's one letter there I read it years ago so I'm not saying verbaten but this is the Rabbi Aayat writes to his son-in-law based on our relationship you should be writing me a letter every single day that's what he says based on our relationship you should be writing me a letter I I'd love to have a letter from you every day. So his son-in-law answers him. He says, "I would like to, but I have to just say the truth." And that is that there's two types of people. He says there's people that their life is very very much external. It's about connections with others and it's very active. He says, "I'm not saying it's good or bad, but it happens to be that my life is the opposite. Everything about me happens inside and it's very boring and just to waste the time. I don't want to waste time. So I really don't have what to write about. So that's what he says. My life is very much inside. And he said and it's boring. There's not there's nothing much to write. So I'm not saying it's good or bad. I'm not complimenting it. I'm not saying it's the way to be. I'm just saying the just to waste your time. I don't want to. I'm just saying >> I'm just saying you understand sometimes I think who I'm going to be without my pain just with the boring but the truth is you don't need your pain to make you an interesting person. Your boring self is the most interesting part of you because what what do we mean by your boring self? Your inner energy your own energy that God has given you is the divine. Like I said before, numbing yourself is numbing a piece of God. That's not boring. Your boring self is not boring. It's divine energy. It's not boring. Is very, very interesting. Interesting doesn't mean that it's a dramatic story, you know, that I fell off a cliff and I wasn't caught or there was a helicopter there that caught me. That's one type of drama. People that need that drama, it's usually because they don't cherish their own energy. It's like people who exaggerate stories and dramatize stories. Why do people say make up stories? What does it give them? Why not say the story the way it happened or don't say it? Why do we have to exaggerate and change facts in the story? What does it do? You want to know the real reason? The real reason is because it comes from an insecurity. People want to be impressive and the story the way it happened is a little boring. If I could dramatize it and reinvent the story, I will become interesting. I will live through the story. It's really a form of deep brokenness. I know I used to be there once upon a time. I used to tell a lot of stories. It's really it's it's a form of brokenness. It's really a form of brokenness. It's it's just like we're invested in pain. We're invested in lies and drama and exaggeration. It makes my life more interesting and also I'll get more validation. Wow. Did he tell a story today? Everybody was sobbing. What do you gain from everybody sobbing? All the women were sitting there with tissues. So you come home, what? You made 200 women cry or you made 200 men cry. So what does that make you feel about yourself? It gives you some fake validation for three and a half minutes until the next miserable experience. All these things are forms of disassociation with truth. That's why the moment you experience real tanug, you'll never say another lie in your life. You'll never say a lie in your life unless I'm not talking about. You'll never exaggerate. You'll never intentionally say something not true. You'll never even exaggerate a story or dramatize a story. Why are you doing that? The pain of saying something not true is deeper than all the bliss you can have from the soilus of saying something untrue. The moment you feel your energy saying something not true, you're literally disconnecting from your energy. Like why? You're killing yourself. That's the idea. Why? Because it's a form of death. Like go away from it. Anything even a subtle lie, it's a form of death. And if you're more sensitive, even the subtlest of lie is a form of death. like the of what's when you when you experience even dos of is already a betrayal. You don't want it. It's a form of death. Why why should I do that? Why should I lie? Like I I have real energy in me. Like what give that to the person you why you lying? What's going to be better? It's all lying is a desire. Like you're substituting God again. The lie is going to be better than the truth. How can the lie be better than the truth? This is your truth. It's all part of the I think everybody got the point. If not, there's nothing else I can say. >> Huh? Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. It's adam mo. It's adam mo. Today I'm repulsed by it. I don't know. I had to do a lot of work in this area because uh what happens is, you know, sometimes rabbis they need to tell stories, holocaust stories. They make up stories. People they have all these clips. people for some makeup stories. >> There was a story I said for years because I sent somebody sent it to me. Then somebody said, "What's your source?" So I started to re to research the source. It was embarrassing. It took me only a few minutes to realize fabricated. And the people think you're going to inspire people towards Yiddish and towards a through making up stories. It's the greatest betrayal of Yiddish. You should know. If the way you can inspire people to God and to truth is through making up a story, it shows you what type of God you have. And that's the God you're inspiring people to. And that's why nobody that's why we have such a hard time experiencing this because deep down we've been fed so many lies that our nervous system deep down feels that all of this that I'm teaching is also a lie. I'm telling you that's what a lot of people are feeling. It's nobody's fault. It's nobody's fault. It's very subtle what I'm saying. very very subtle. If from the age of one years old you've been fed lies, you your nervous system knows not to trust anything. So you want to talk about God, fine all good. But deep down everybody knows don't surrender. Keep your guard up. Keep your guard up. In some of my own work and journeys and work, I had to test the alterb because of my own. It's not not his fault. It's me. I had to test and test and test like push push push against to see if at the end it's going to be true or it's going to be another another you know another shallas you're selling me because here's the rule truth you could strip away everything is going to remain true and that's the only thing you can really trust strip away everything everything don't don't sell me anything don't warn me with punishments don't reward me with prizes Don't talk to me about insulting this one, insulting communities, making a B you. The moment I have to buy into any of that and therefore start believing something, it's not going to be real. If it's not going to be real, it's not going to be real tiny. It's going to be silus again. It's going to be manipulation. So, you have to push. I had to push back back push literally push back. And you know what? When it's real truth, it's just true. It's like true. There comes a point where you're like, there's really nothing to hide. Like if it's really true, like it's true. It just is. >> It's more inspiring. >> It's not even more inspiring. It's a different magnitude. It's not more inspiring. It's not more inspire. It's a different m It's not inspiring anymore. It's much more than inspiring. >> It's a different experience deep down. But only you only know the difference if you have a reference point for truth in your nervous system. If not, it's just one big chant and let's just go back, you know, let's go back to our to our Listen, it's not easy because to go to these places, you have to be ready to wipe out everything in your hard drive. And it's going to be hard. The computer is going to be empty. >> Yeah. You have to wipe out everything. So simply ask >> and and the question is do you want to like you have to be ready? Am I ready to give up every belief I had in my whole life? If not, you're not ready for this. It's fine. I'm not blaming anybody. Are you ready? Right? I had to ask myself, am I ready to erase every she I ever gave in my life? There's a lot of them out there. And I told God one day, I told God, if you want, I'm happy. I'm happy to delete every class I ever gave, every video, every audio lecture, every essay. Delete. And not delete in a hard drive. Delete. Delete. If that's what you want, I'm fine. I'm not going to say my is completely fine with it. I'm not going to say that. huh put in the back will do the back in case God changes his mind in a couple of years. Yeah. But in case he goes through ai and he says I like you. Okay. Bring them back. >> He also has a backup. Okay. >> Everything is to say you want me I'll take the yeshiva.net. Erase everything. YouTube erase channel. Hebrew English. You erase erase. erase Spotify every erase like be like says just like before creation says in every right the oneness of Hashem is just like before what is he really saying he's saying the most beautiful thing in the world if your life is not matching up with the level of oneness of Hashem before creation delete it it's extra it's it's it's a fake if it cannot match up to the frequency of the oneness of Hashem pre-creation delete delete it. >> And that was one of the most exhilarating moments because it's the truth. It's letting go of everything. If you want me to erase everything I ever said, fine. Now, God did not tell me to erase it. >> At least I didn't hear it. And I'm not a novi. Huh? >> You know why? Because you cherished every single mistake of yours. as a as a total divine experience. Too bad you don't pes you remember becomes so so so this is this is it in each of our lives you know am I ready to really really every belief system let go of it not because not because I'm trying to rebel no Because truth is not afraid of anything. If truth is ever afraid of anything, your nervous system will never know that it's true. It cannot be afraid of anything. And only when we go on that journey can we start experiencing truth. >> That's why what I learned that's why I learn every day. There's no coverups. There's not not protecting anybody. Not protecting anything. I cannot deal with people. You don't have to protect. Don't protect things. Nobody's insecure. Nothing is protected. >> Truth is protected. Huh? >> You're not a lied. >> I don't mean, of course, if I see a lion coming into the room, I'm going to get afraid. Maybe the BMP would not be afraid, but I would. I mean, the truth is the wasn't afraid. When you're really in sync, you're not afraid of anything. Right. That's true. But I'm not there. So I I get afraid of a lot of things. What I mean is don't be afraid that truth has to has to have bodyguards that don't let you see certain things. If truth needs that, I don't want it. You understand? It's back to what told the So is there I'm not going to use your name to protect you. I'm not going to use your name cover. How do you speak like this? Didn't tell him how do you speak like this? He didn't say that to him. He appreciated it. He knew that's now he has a now he has a real talmet. This is not a game. If Monus couldn't tell this tob, he couldn't be a real part of a system part of the system. the original systemat you're gonna question and this makes you're going to question is going to question was yeah it was a mind like this you didn't have I don't know such a mind the the mastery of and his mean the only right the only person he writes. He once said, okay, you know, he was very sharp. He once said they said he said to make it doesn't mean you know it means they knew what was thinking when he said okay was very sharp and very extreme but I'm just saying so but know that's made sure to be true about but I can't be his if my doesn't experience that truth I can't be his he may be the most greatest genius I respect that but a genius is not aba a realb is a channel for his but a genius is not a Albert Einstein was a big genius I don't think he was bigger than but he was a genius ask his wife and kids It's a serious thing. You're talking a serious thing. You're talking about it's not not a joke. It's not a joke. If there's one little corruption happening over there, it makes sense. You're a human being, but we have to know it. We have to know it. If in the middle of a you're thinking about what other people are going to say, right? Or there's a self-con whatever it is, we all have that. We we just have to know it. That's it. If you're just a nice person and you're giving people good advice, fine. You're giving a little a LITTLE SPONGE CAKE, FINE. NO, nobody has a problem with that. But if if you're you're you're fish >> if you're trying to transform the world and revealing a frequency of hashem and you feel that this is what's going to redeem the world that's a responsibility and if you're not standing behind that not thousand not not 99% and not even 100% but with your Then >> then this is a level of of of deception that is criminal. It's much more than other criminal acts fav. Because you're not just selling people a boat because you're selling them God. You want to sell people a boat, sell them a boat. Fine. There's a lot of people that sell people boats and bridges and and banks and houses. Fine. I'm not I'm not minimizing Ageneva and Exela. But you sold me a boat. >> God. But when you're selling Hashem, you're selling not just Hashem Hashem. It's it's it's if if this is if there's an ounce of not truth in this took away from hundreds of thousands of Eden a certain does it. >> That's true. >> Very good. So you drank the Kool-Aid. That's what his whole thing is. That's the biggest way of taking away from people. Doesn't say and you have to run away from it. He says the whole thing is one big >> very good. You drank the Kool-Aid, right? And if this is a lie, it's a real betrayal. You're telling you tell a child, "I'm your mother. I'm your father." And one day they find out you're not their mother. Is there a bigger lie than that? You understand? You you you were my to you. I gave you my and then it turns out I was lying. I just wanted your money. I just wanted your coet. I just wanted power. I was just playing with ideas. I was playing with ideas. Huh? That's a snake. That's what told Alba. And when people can't say that to a Reba, they don't. It's not a real reba. It's not a real reba. There comes a point where you have to be very very honest with everything. It's a challenge cuz it's it's a it's honesty is scary. I'm just telling you it's scary. >> Why it's scary? It's scary cuz what what if you find out something? That's why it's scary. >> What if you find out something? If if you've been experiencing something your whole life and you were afraid to say it, you were afraid to feel it. You know what did when said this? He said, "You're right." And he went out. He went he went to get arrested. That's what he did. He said, "You're right. You got a point." And he went he gave himself in. The whole story oft happened from this Now it's an interesting thing who told over this story. There were only two people in the bar and alterba. My suspicion is we know this story because the rebba heard it from his father heard it from the from the heard it from that generation. >> But but but wouldn't go home and tell his wife or his kids I told if you're not a real person you deserve it. I don't think he would say it. So how do we know the story? We know the story from the alterba. So look at the pride that took the nakas that he had and he went back and he told I don't know his one of his children or somebody this story. He somehow he appreciated it >> he appreciated that the person said that to him. HE LIKE OH FINALLY somebody gets it. >> He said it I can I can't I'm not going to speak this guy. I don't know but I can imagine there was such a profound moment of nas there of of this is a relationship this person he could teach this person he could connect to this realized what is putting on what what is on the line here I'm putting my soul on the line is your soul on the line if your soul is not on the line like my soul is on the line you're a criminal and soul doesn't just mean time it means So you have to be truthful. >> Yeah, I'm all in. I'm giving you my because this is if there's any little bit of you that's there that's not part of a like be open about it. Are you all in and if not fine I get it. But then just make it very clear. I have a neas. I have a I have times like this. Okay. We're all like that. We're all that way. That's why it's even the adelite to understand what it means, right? What it means to be in this position. What it means the responsibility like we don't even have a you know all of us can go on vacation. Let's face it. You know what I mean? >> No. What it's it was all with T. But what it means to know that you're a channel every moment and and how how how authentic the authenticity can't seize for a moment. You have real people. You have real people had real it was real. This was not fake. That was the point. Real doesn't just mean you you believe in me. You think I'm a smart person. We're talking here real in the sense that they were there was miserious nef they surrendered their entire self to this truth. They were open to receive this completely. The eggs are in one basket. I'm putting all my eggs in one basket. You can't put all your eggs in one basket if it's not a safe cuz then you're going to be very very disappointed. It's going to be very very hard. Right? People don't realize in different communities when there's corruption on the top, they don't realize what it does to children, what it does to young people. Now, here I'm talking was talking about not corruption. He was talking about subtle subtle subtle devian of truth. But certainly we could all understand when there's blatant corruption and even not blatant, but what it does to people, right? It it takes away God from them forever. Because if this person is the role model for Hashem and you see even a little he's not talking to his brother. Why is he not talking to his brother? Whatever >> brothers. >> Somebody gets protected in the name of money or in the name of power, right? All these little little little stories. But the four-year-old knows everything. He feels it. So he knows that from that day all they're doing is they're selling a name. They're selling a system. Now it may work. There's community, there's family, people have identity, there's there's good organizations. I'm not we're all human and I get that this is how it works. And there's a lot of benefits and we should always see the good, not just the negativity. But we have to also appreciate the casualties that happen when we're not living fully in truth. >> Yeah. Whenever there's organizational politics, which there is because people are normal. We have politics, we have fights, we have there's territorial issues, there's organizational issues and then people start using the name of the name of the alterb the of course hashem and that and all becomes right. But young people their nervous systems are detecting everything. >> You can't tell people that but then be like but I'm still good. I'm hanging out. That's I'm the exception. >> Everybody says I'm the exception. My is like against my also wasn't fought. Oh, that's that my is against it's against the but the kids know that too. They're not dumb. They feel it. They don't have to know. They feel it. >> They know that it's not against Kyra. They feel it's not my against >> and the moment that happens there's a something shuts down and you just don't go there. You you you that part part goes into exile and you just live on the surface. That's really that's a lot of what goes on. It's nobody's fault. I'm not blaming. I'm I'm I get this from my own experience. I'm not like you know putting this on other people. I get this from my own experience. This is not theory. I know it's it's daily work and it's not it's just part of the human challenge. It's not like anybody it's not everybody's everybody's trying you know people are trying to do their best. Most people are trying to do good, but but you know there's a lot of blind spots and and and and and foolishness and so the only way is that's what I'm saying. It's very hard to be able are you ready to clean up your hard drive and say that everything I ever thought may have been a mistake. I don't think you can experience Hashem without that. >> At least I can't. >> It's a beautiful mistake. Infinite consciousness as a mistake. >> Yeah. Yeah. And the truth is that it was all a mistake. Now I'm going to become a real extremist. It was all a mistake cuz even if technically it was true whenever a siph is not flowing through me it's a mistake. So even if the facts were true the way I experienced it may have been a mistake. So it's really the ability to be able to press controllalttdelete and start over completely >> deep down it's not a mistake because it's part of the journey. If the mistake brings you to more awareness, it's not a mistake. That's true. Even sins, the garra says that even sins become mitzvah, right? But a mistake in the sense that I don't want to stay stuck there. That's what I mean by a mistake. I don't want to stay stuck there. I want to use it as a springboard for more awareness. There's no mistakes. Everything is part of Shi. You don't have to I just I just had an epiphany. means there's no mistakes and ultimately you don't have to change anything because everything was part of it. You don't have to change if it's you don't have to change anything in your life because everything was part of it. >> He accepted >> he accepted it completely. There's no need for any changes. It's exactly the way it was. But just learn from it for the next stage. No changes doesn't mean you shouldn't learn from it and you should stay stuck. No changes means it was exactly the way it was supposed to be. Nothing had to be changed. And now what's the next step forward? Okay. And that concludes today's >> to be continued if we have the pressure. So what's the >> what's the V? The V isma means to erase everything. >> That's what it means. Yeah. >> Okay. >> He says, you know, You said to delete all the things. >> I didn't tell anybody to delete. I said I had to be ready to I didn't tell anybody to delete. >> I can't tell that to anybody. >> It's the It's the ability to That's what surrender means. >> A child's understanding of truth is always going to be full because it's not ch it's not being ch he still has an ego. An adult is channeling his uh is able to channel. >> No, adults have bigger egos than children. I think >> no, but he has the ability to choose. >> But but I but often as a child I could be fed, you know, truths and experiences that I create defenses around. And when I get older, I have to be able to examine what's going on. >> All the blockages. >> Yeah. >> Don't press the lead on everything. >> Don't press the lead on everything. I'm not trying to understand the concept. >> It was a metaphor that you have to be ready to let go of beliefs and >> templates and coping mechanisms. >> There's a lot from the from the call. What do you think? Huh? >> Tea is the animal soul. >> So it's the template is not what you do. It's the template of your midas. It's the structure. Right? We all have a minted coin. The coin is minted. We have a structure. >> Not just the habits, the templates of our psyche through which we operate. It's called an operating system. He calls it bias. >> Builtin operating system. builtin operating system is that that's not a simple thing to press delete on that and open it up to real flow is >> is the profoundest challenge of life. >> We will fight that with every fiber of our being because the animal soul does not want to let go of that because that is akin to suicide and you can't blame it either. You have to have compassion. >> You can't fight it. Don't don't erase your bias. >> Override it. >> Override it. Yeah, you can't erase it. You override it. >> Fres patch won't won't won't get rid of it. That'll just make it stronger. It'll just it's going to say hide a little better. It's going to tell it just go into a better hiding place. That's it. It says avoid the next fras by being smarter. That's the whole idea. When you do it through a frask physically or verbally, you don't eliminate it. You just like a virus, you know, the new virus attacks the immune system because it creates a mutation. It creates a little change and your cells don't have the immunity against it. So that's how so that's what the nephews does. It mutates constantly. Oh, he caught this. Okay, I'll take this for it goes to the better. It happens. You don't really deal with it. >> This class is brought to you by the yeshiva.net. Please help us continue the classes. Make even a small contribution at ww.theshiva.net/donate.