Why Reb Shimon Schwab Would Not Sleep in Pajamas

the yeshiva.net okay thank you very much for your kind words for your introductory remarks thank you to the whole community to all the sponsors to all of the asconum for this course the privilege and the invitation to be here with this uh special community of shairith israel and i am extremely honored and thrilled to be here with you especially during these very powerful meaningful inspiring days search for me because i am uniquely present and accessible during these days these days of his scarves these days of such intimate closeness of such a powerful relationship as the cobalam call it kirov hamoir el anitsu it's the time that the spark is so close to the moyer to the source of all the light so it's uniquely a befitting time to learn to be meshasak each other to be here together to grow together and to delve into words of terror avoid the militars and works of gamila's hasadam so i really appreciate um the opportunity and again as david mentioned at the end of the presentation we will open up the forum to any questions you would like you could type in your question and blinder i will look at all the questions and uh for a few moments at least try to respond at least to some of them or maybe most of them but hashem belie neder and you can ask any question you would like and we're going to try to respond to it i want to especially acknowledge and begin your dedicated spiritual leader and one of the great spiritual luminaries of baltimore and maryland and american jury and and all of the leaders of the community and the entire community i am honored to begin my words of this annual trivid russia here in uh shairith israel allow me to begin with a startling story in gemara and messages the second pairing of chagiga the gamora tells an incredible story about a man who in jewish history came to be known as akhir which means the other one and we you know we know that from hundreds of an era that spans hundreds of years of jewish history we only have a record of one who left judaism who became what we would call a heretic and this is none other than alicia benavuya one of the greatest sages of his time a teacher and colleague of rabbi akiva a teacher of rab mayor remay upon whom the gemara says in aravinda gimmel some of you learned it just a few weeks ago that layout the sages of the time couldn't appreciate the depth of redmayer's wisdom and this is his teacher alicia benavoya and yet he abandoned the jewish faith he abandoned jewish tradition he became an accomplice to the romans tomorrow says kid saints benitez he became a heretic and one day tanner abbott on the rabbis teach us tell us a story incredible story it's shabbos and yerushalmi we're told it's not just the am kipper it's that coincides with shabbos this is the context of the story and why i mentioned it today so let's hear the story it's a shabbos afternoon rab mayor is giving a shear and they tell him that his rebbe elisha banavuya is there is outside our mayor interrupts the lecture he wants to go here as rabbi alicia banavuya is horseback riding on shabbos which is a rabbinic prohibition mission you may cut off a twig and the mayor is now following alicia benavoya who's on a horse and alicia benavoya is giving a sheer a deep shear and learning to the mayor as remainer is walking or running and alicia benavoya is on the horse and the journey continues alisha benavidez on the horde is giving a shirt and mayor is listening to the gems of brilliance coming from his great teacher's mouth who's violating the shabbos at some point alicia benavoya turns to the mayor and he says two words go back why as i was horseback riding as i was giving a shear i was doing something else i was counting the footsteps of the horse and the outskirts of the city and i realized that we have reached kumshabas we have reached the border after which a jew an observant jew any jew is now little walk on shabbos the 2000 amis let's say three or four thousand feet outside of the city i have counted the footsteps of the this is this is where the border ends rab mayor is not allowed to walk any further and elisha benavia his rebbe wants to rescue him from violating the shabbos he says mayor go back you can't continue with me remember sees the moment and he tells his teacher you also return and of course his words have this dual meaning i'm asking you to return geographically so you don't violate the issue of shambhas but i'm also asking you to return existentially spiritually and elizabeth says i can't i can't return he picked up the quip he understood the hint he says i can't why can't i he shares a story the story happened a real shabbat shabbas and him kipper and shabbos and alicia was horseback riding he liked horseback riding apparently and we was he was back riding he went horse riding on the harabayas on the temple mount then the harabayas was a real mountain before adrian flatt in the mountain lowered it and flattened it but then it was a harabayas remember this is the milieu the generation right after khurban bayushani it happened in 70 after the common era and he goes horseback riding i am kipper shabbos on the harabayas and i walk by i tr i ride by the base cutchakadoshan the home of the holy of holies and i hear a voice i hear a boss and the basketball says return o mischievous children except for buenos aires says children come back even those who have went astray he tells the mayor i can't come back i can't i was expelled from the russus of the creator of the world and according to the beverly according to the talmud elisha benavuya dies without repentance and it's only generations later that they achieve his soul's entrance into ghanaian as the gemara goes on to tell the story you can look it up i ask you my dearest friends a simple question what they used to call it lots the meaning of a basketball shivoban how do we reconcile this with one of the axioms of judaism that axiom that the rambam formulated in his inimitable words in mishnah terestruva even a jew who denied the reborn of shalom's presence he denied the very foundation of judaism throughout his entire life but at the end of his life at the end he did shiva the rambam says he's accepted he's forgiven as the rambam says even menasha the heinous king menasha the most evil king who reigned in judea tells us he reigns for 55 years and he did some of the most he committed some of the most heinous repulsive crimes and even menasha this russian son of his but whose father could not educate him as the gemara discusses him he couldn't menachem was just a became a rotten apple and even his truth towards the end of his life was accepted even menash this is based on the principle every person can do truth the urushami in any case i ask you now a question how do we make sense of this heavenly voice the one exception in judaism hashem says you cannot be accepted into truth what happened to the truth what happened to the truth what happened as we say in the slickest say i'm kipper we say in the illa what happened to truva suddenly it's a famous beautiful insight of the shalom yeshayah horowitz the shalom i think even earlier who explained that the gemara says you come to a person's home whatever the balabaya says you do besides say if he tells you to leave you don't have to obey so the shallow quadrant says whatever the reverend shalom tells you to do you do he's the host if he tells you to say i don't want a relationship with you get out of my house you know off the list he told the leadership and say you didn't have to listen nope push yourself in you stay in the house you stay in the relationship be tenacious you cling to the relationship cling to truth they say you need to vanish this fall don't get distracted beautiful insight but i'm asking a different question what's the meaning of the basket why is the balabayas saying true his sins were serious he wasn't just an ordinary person he was known one of the great cannolims one of the great scholars of the generation one of the people who went into the pirates who went into the spiritual transcendent orchard with rabia came out in peace but zoey man benazi one passed away and one was affected mentally alicia banavia kids has been a tease he was a great great man with such potential but their emblem says even menasha can do truth why was alisha benavuya rejected my dearest friends the words of ghazal are very precise they're extremely meticulous every word is calculated the same story that exists in bavaria in talmud babylonian talmud second chapter was written and edited a century before thomas he says approximately a century commemoration perhaps a little earlier so talmud bavoli was completed in the fifth century of the sixth century tamil usami is a century earlier approximately the fourth century after the common era and tamadur xiaomi which is written closer to the era of alicia benavuya and written by rabbi yochanan from eretz israel in india tells the story there are a few differences the the crux of the story is similar is identical but there's a few differences i mentioned in keeper khalid one very interesting difference striking what the basket said in talmud bible you'll open up after it says the basketball said shuvu bonam which one was it did the heavenly voice on yom kippur tell him come back everybody comes back besides or did it say everybody comes back besides alicia now you might say what's the difference what's the difference between perhaps suggested of your salvation perhaps in this subtle difference lay the answer to our enigma that the basketball says that's the question friends i'm going to change the topic i'm going to come back believe that but i want to change the topic just a few weeks ago september a little more than 10 days ago i saw an article in the new york times i think it was september 7th 2020 and they share a story there they tell a story a reporter tells a story one that the new york times defines as a scientific miracle it intrigued me it had to do with israel and it intrigued me and i've come to read it and research it incredible story such an incredible story and such a source of empowerment during this year this difficult year as we are in the age of corona facing uncertainty facing the conclusion of a difficult year of shin pay five seven eighty a year in which many lost loved ones many suffered financially physically mentally emotionally and this future is still uncertain may it be an amazing year uh we said today we all have a little more kawana when we say these words it's not just the infectious diseases we read about from the 1300s and the 1700s and the 1600s and 1800s and early 1900s and this story that just unfolds at the end of tough shin pay for me it was moving and i want to share it with you the story begins in 1963 actually begins in the year 73 but we'll get to that in a moment story begins the time of alicia benavoya so everything is connected 1963 yigal yadin and his team performed famous archaeological excavations in the famous world-renowned fortress known as matsada or masada that extraordinary fortress a mountain that many of you have visited maybe you even ascended it before sunrise to be able to see sunrise nate zakhamer davin and the fortress of masada were jews fighting the roman enemy in the year 70 during the khurban bayushaini went into this fortress to protect themselves and managed according to the shosifas to remain there for a few years they had a food storages we know today they had mikvahs there and they created an infrastructure of jewish life but unfortunately the romans managed to penetrate the siege and according to the historical versions at least of many the jews committed suicide rather than falling into the hands of the romans when they feared they would be tortured murdered grotesquely sold into slavery josephus have been mate who was a jew and as we know became an accomplice of the romans and gave us the books of josephus who observed apparently observed the siege wrote records about that story including the places where they stored the food when yigal yadin is doing the archaeological diggings in masada more than 1900 years after the original story in 73 after the common era three years after the destruction taken by something extraordinary happens he sees josephus was right he finds storages of food 1900 years later in the places that josef has described and among the items he finds dates of a palm tree but not dates dates won't survive 2000 years he finds the seeds the seeds of a palm date that's what he finds it's put away with other items in barilan university in tel aviv and it remains there for 40 years in 2005 that's 15 years ago israeli botanists decide to do an experiment what if we would take these seeds found in masada from the year 73 and plant them and create conducive conditions for a palm tree to grow would we perhaps be able to actually taste the very same dates that our ancestors ate during the second mesamekash just like if you lived then and you took the date of uh you took the seed of a date and you planted it you would have the very dates that were at that time eaten then consumed those dates we'll have we have seeds from them of course they didn't give it much hope you have seeds that have been incubated laying in a hole in the ground for 2 000 years i mean they're numb and lifeless and dead and seemed emaciated and dried what are you going to do with it who plants seeds 2 000 years old but you know jews are stubborn and they planted the seeds as professor levy said she was one of the botanists the researchers involved she said for me the likelihood that anything would happen was no i did i gave it not one percent chance not zero point one percent chance zero zero zero percent chance i did not think anything like we tried it you know you want to say that you tried it but there was no uh feeling or anticipation that anything uh substantial can emerge from this how shocked she and her colleagues were a few months later when they noticed a crack crack in the earth a young sapling a young palm tree began to develop and sometime later the tree began growing and growing and a few years later it became a tree they named it you know why mr because he lived nine hundred and sixty years in paris was beratious and they felt this sapling deserves to be named mr shellach it's been around for 2000 years but then came disappointment she realized that this was a male tree so you'll have a trunk you'll have branches you'll have leaves but it will never be able to produce fruit states disappointment but she didn't stop she went on to search for more seats and then one day in the judean desert near eureka near jericho not so far from the qumran caves where they found the dead sea scrolls in the 40s she came across ancient dates that were even more ancient than the dates found in masada that come from the era of the urban by ishaini these not ancient dates ancient seeds of dates dated back hundreds of years before those deaths and she decided we're going for it again we're gonna plant these seeds she did now how often do miracles happen now she really didn't expect anything we may got lucky once we're going to get lucky twice how shocked she was when these plants in the kibbutz katura in southern israel negative it needs a lot of heat those were the conditions conducive not so far from a lot of kibbutz the negative the south of israel after a few months sapling emerged and then after six years a tree with flowers she realized this is a female and she named it person we read about rosh hashanah the woman who couldn't have children and then he blesses her she comes to the michigan and she's blessed with the navi shmuel as a child mushroom so she named this female date tree ghana beautiful flowers now it's time for matchmaking now it's time for a shidduch so they take pollen from the mesochelach male they pollinate the flowers of ghana and they hope for the next miracle and indeed just a few weeks ago the tree produced for the first time beautiful large lush handsome good looking delicious dates but let me tell you about the seeds of ghana the first seeds from mr shallow came from the time of masada the end of bayoushani these other seeds from the female data tree that produced the dates were dated the idea five four or five hundred years before that which means the fourth century before the common era and they identified it as date as its seeds that came from iraq from bothell this is of course the era of hurban by israel when the jews were exiled for marriage israel by the nets into bubble into babylonia present-day iraq and the same century when they come back with ezra and zerubbabel the time of haggai malachi the era of purim when cyrus the great gives the jews permission to come back and apparently they brought with them seeds and dates from iraq that end up in eritrea including in the judean desert and now it came the time for the scientists to pluck the dates and they surround the tree and they pluck the first dates somebody makes a broken borrow creates then somebody makes abraham they eat the dates we're sounding our main and then one of the people there said apostle one of the scientist name is joseph abramowitz he said we were so emotional we started to cry so much that our tears could have plant could have watered and irrigated another tree that's how emotional we were i don't know was the last time you saw somebody eating the date and sobbing but i know why they were emotional they were holding the very dates that jews ate 2 000 years ago 2 500 years ago dates that really represented seeds that lived through corbin by his russian and hurban by ashami they were eating those very dates that came 2500 years ago back there to israel after they were exalted next to babylonia it seemed like the base said the basement was destroyed forever jewish commonwealth is over forever but babylonia were triumphed but the jews 70 years later came back but only to be exiled again another basement is destroyed again 420 years later and then hunted down and persecuted and murdered and scattered all around the world and then in our generation came back in the millions to our eternal homeland inherits israel found those very seeds planted them venus evoluvates us and could make abraha with the double meaning both of a prehaders and a real prix khadija pre that dates back so many years and they're eating the dates that come from the time of murder and esther yermianovi and yes in my mind that's a miracle because it's not just about the dates first of all they said the dates were delicious i only saw the pictures so i couldn't i didn't taste them they said they were delicious and they tasted like honey like honey of a beehive which is fascinating because the torah says eric zavas and khazal say which is this it's not the duhani of a beehive it's the honey of tomorrow it's the day honey and it said the tasty states tasted like honey and they came from the time of bayou shaney and corbin by his rishi and they tasted like honey of a beehive which is why the toyota calls them divas and it's of course one of the minim i saw one of the scientists tells the new york times she says it's a muzzle that these days these dates were so tasty and so delicious it would have been embarrassing if they were horrible because our sages extol the virtues of the dates of israel of that time and say how delicious and large they were so she said i'm very happy that they're delicious and large but i thought to myself ah what a metaphor and a reflection of of the jewish soul if this is true about the jewish date how much more so is it true about the jewish soul you know sometimes you look at a jewish soul and it's been incubated for 2000 years for 2500 years or for 50 years or for a century or for 10 years 20 years and you look at it and it seems lifeless it seems khalilah dead numb apathetic indifferent dried up emaciated we sometimes look at ourselves or our loved ones and it seems like the soul has been snuffed out or as the fresco says in his famous navoo of the dry bones at some is hyvacious the bones have become skeletons and they're dry and i'm not talking here only physically i'm talking emotionally psychologically spiritually yeah i may go through the rituals but i'm dry i'm numb there's so much stress in me there's so much anxiety we look at ourselves and we look at our loved ones we look at other people and we see a soul that seems to have been in the ground for thousands or hundreds or dozens of years or a few years and it's so dry it's so dry there's nothing there but look again look again you could look at these seeds and say they're dead look again take these seeds and put them back where they belong plant them in their natural environment give them sunlight give them water give them earth give them ear give them the nutrients that they need and suddenly these ancient seeds that have been declared dead for millennia will be vibrating with life will be bustling with life isn't this true about every single one of god's children never ever underestimate the deep spiritual vibrancy and depth in your soul for every jewish soul is a khelik hashem a ray of infinity a fragment of heaven on earth even if you look at a soul like yours or your child or your grandchild or your friend's child or anybody and it seems emaciated and dry don't fall prey to the external facade to the external deceptions look deeper go deeper because just like those seeds they had the dna of twenty five hundred years of erythe swelling of jewish history and what does your soul have your soul has the dna of thirty eight hundred years of jewish history avraham and sorry it's a can roof of rock and your matriarchs your great grandmothers of thousands of years all live epigenetics they all live in your genes all their faith and wisdom and resilience and fortitude and depth and commitment and sacrifice and spirituality and holiness and purity it's all there it's bustling there it's embedded in the dna physically and spiritually we carry the genes of mimo darcena and we carry the genes of the others and we carry the genes of of the tanoyam and they shine them in and we may look in the mirror and feel that we're empty and dry but look deeper give a jew his or her proper sunlight the vadim kai the sunlight the varum kite of yiddish give them the water hey maya mala toyota commercialism give them the earth the humility and the vulnerability of a dhavaning of our shift and with mayam shift come back with me my dearest friends to elisha benavuya and i think everything will become clear the basket that came out of that fateful young kipper khalil was saying something very comforting to this man the basketball was talking to him the reborno shalom was reaching out to his childhood he says come back means return we translate it as repentance but that's a little somewhat of an alien translation the authentic translation of truth is return return to whom return to yourself return to your core return to your dna align your outer life with your inner life return to your maker return to uh the one who conceived you returned to your tati to your mommy to the shinna ema bonum smell return to your own atsumios as the al-shak says go back to yourself go to go to yourself discover yourself one of the most painful things for a parent is to be alienated from a child it's one of those things that one has to avoid as much as they can i would say that to sever chords with a child is something that we don't do not do maybe maybe maybe there are unique exceptional circumstances but absolutely exceptional your circumstances 99 of the time i never sever a cord with a child and i'll tell you why because people say the child is causing me so much pain if i cut the cords i'll have an easier life it's not true the pain that your child is causing you pales in comparison to the pain that you will have if you don't speak to them again if you cut them out of your life that pain is far deeper far more severe and far more catastrophic for the child and for the parent especially in our generation your bonus loyalty says you're my child good morning you remain a child no matter what the unconditional love is there even if there's pain and the rash says i think it says that usually in mayor and s is like but not there in kidus is like whatever they do they still remain children unlike rabbi yahood and in sifri parshasana we see the rabbi huda it seemed like retracted and of mary which may be another reason why hey pascal mike ramirez says the reason is because they may ask for that support islam tells alicia my child roots me after your sense of yourself you must leave outside elisha you're my child but one day one dark day this debuff crawled into your psyche and you looked in the mirror and that day you decided you're not a child you're not a child of the shrine you're not part of am israel you're not part of the eternal covenant of amashem you're not part of mammals suddenly you looked at yourself and you identified yourself with you're an alien you're a foreigner you're an outcast you're not part of the golden unbreakable chain of classes israel that goes from abram of inutil mashiach suddenly you look at yourself and you say i'm not part of these people i'm part of a different culture a different community a different different civilization a different empire alicia banavi that's not true you're my child in your own perception you define yourself as an aker as a stranger to everything your ancestors stood for your have stands stand for you lost touch with your inner course the basketball was inviting alicia banavia to see himself as a child except for the that you have come to identify with is holding you back leave that outside leave that that's alien to you the accurate you is not welcome because it's not who you are the child in you bring back come back he comes to your xiaomi and says it's not what he heard he heard smallish you know friends there is what i tell you and this is what you heard me tell you we all know in marriages there is what you tell your husband and is what your husband heard you say to him right are the two the same to what not to say what i say to my wife for what i say to my husband what i say to my child and what they heard me say is not the same thing because i hear you through my own senses i hear you through my own traumas and weaknesses and perceptions i don't hear what you say i hear what i thought you said and that may be very different that's why communication is so important to understand not only what you're saying but what the other person is hearing elisha ben avuya at that that's what hashem said but you know what he heard he heard a different message he heard true vubon sadly for him the ache became synonymous with his identity there was no distinction anymore this was the tragedy for him he heard me alisha bennavuya hashem was saying let go of the after you're not an ashe get rid of the asher i want the child he couldn't see himself anymore as a child for him the became his identity it's like what happens in trauma what's the tragedy of trauma people who suffer from trauma and so many of us deal with one form of trauma or not it becomes my identity my self-image becomes so restricted i operate on a level of consciousness that is extremely narrow extremely traumatized extremely small my relationships with people my relationships with myself my marriage my relationship with my children my relationship with my co-workers my employers my employees comes from a very very restricted traumatized place because my brain is now operating from a level of trauma i don't see within myself a larger story larger potentials different possibilities my neural pathways have been dictated have been dictating me in a very limited direction my choices are much smaller i don't see myself as a child i see myself as an akhir i heard hutzman alisha navi hashem didn't expel the ache he expelled the elisha benavuya that was the tragedy of this individual this is the discrepancy of the bamly and you shall me one identifies what hashem says and what identifies what this man heard isn't this a story about so many of us your kipper comes and there's a pascal there's a voice that's hurt there's a voice that comes from the base kaido shakur darshan within every single judy benefish here's a come back my child and yet so many of us have this inner perception that i'm i am messed up i am traumatized i got too many issues i endured abuse i had a difficult upbringing whether it's my parents to blame my teachers my community this one that one i'm an alien i don't belong i don't have a relationship anymore i'm a con artist i suffer primarily from envy from hatred from sadness from depression there's so much fear in me so much insecurity in me that's who i am i'm an acharya i'm an alien let go of your perception of yourself as an ashrae i want you to be able to look in the mirror and say i am a child i'm a sailor kelly manifestation of infinity in this world who am i evid says the gemaran schwarz the servant of the king is the king an ambassador a messenger of somebody assumes the status of the one who sent them you are a shliyak they rebuild with him on yom kippur we say what does the tour say daimon kim allah jews are compared to amalek what's the definition of what's he says messengers that's a messenger means somebody who identifies himself or herself as a shliyakh of the revolution without any distractions who are you yum kippur you're dying of kamala every day in ramallah but i am kipper we try to internalize it to breathe it to live it who am i who are you you're a shliyak of the rebel island in this world you are his ambassador you are his messenger so you assume the properties of the one who sent you you're not just your own lonely lost soul solemn i'm not a loser represent the one who sent you and therefore you're invincible you're indestructible at your core you're full of sanctity purity holiness you're invincible you're full of possibility you represent infinity i am not my trauma i am not my stress i am not my anxiety i am not my fear i am not my insecurity i am not my eight sahara i am not my jealousy i may have these issues i may have these skeletons but i contain them they don't contain me i define them they don't define me who am i at my core who are you at your core diamond come along you're a messenger of hashem in this world a manifestation of infinity and therefore kevin you assume the properties of the one who sent you he doesn't suffer from a lack of self-confidence he doesn't suffer from fear he doesn't suffer from insecurity he represents truth and infinity and that's when you become that sleep that's what you carry in yourself that's what you represent that seed no fire can destroy it no water can destroy it after twenty five hundred years it's alive and well you just have to place it in the proper environment venous give it the water it needs the ear it needs the sunlight that needs the earth it needs and your true dna your true self your true core will blossom your bianca galinsky if ankula galinsky was a navardik italian he was atomized and he was exiled to siberia and he once shared a gevaldo's story he later moved here to surah he was a famous magadam banebarak and other places some of you maybe remember him very funny very funny man and he was uh he would say it was beautiful terrorists and stories and he once shared that when he was in siberia it's a fascinating story he would wake up very early before dawn before sunrise before dawn to be able to happen because afterwards they would be marched out to their labor assignment in siberia and there was another man who would also wake up very early before the group and he would get dressed in these aristocratic uniforms he had these uniforms with metals and patches and the ankles said what are you doing and the man said i was a general in the czarist army and then of course after the bolshevik revolution as desire was dethroned and murdered the romanovs were murdered with their entire family all the kindelach or the children i of course was also dethroned and i was accused of being a counter-revolutionary and ultimately i was sentenced to siberia to stalin's gulag but i managed to smuggle in with me my uniform from the days when i was a general and every single morning every morning before i go out to work as a prisoner here in siberia i put on this uniform so i could tell myself i'm not a prisoner i'm not a victim i'm not a victim of the cursed communists i'm a general i'm a general i put this on i look at myself and i tell myself i'm a general that's what i do every morning biancala galinsky said that story inspired me for decades i understood the calling of yiddishkait i wake up in the morning i put on a uniform every day this is not hypocrisy it's to tell myself who i am i'm not an asha here you're not a loser you're not an outcast you're not an alien you're not evil you're not a broken shattered miserable person i may have struggles we all have struggles you're a general you are ben malek you are prince rabbi and carolina said the greatest tragedy is when the prince forgets that he's a prince instead of going to the shmongers board he goes to the garbage dump to find some bones together with the dogs you're a prince you belong at the schmonger's board your community had it of legendary rav you had of course rice but from rice who was i believe the first rav to be ordained in the united states of america came from wurzburg and came to shady found the trade with israel and fought very hard for one of the great spiritual leaders of your congregation of israel in baltimore was ruptured i don't know if you know the story it's a long mice from sherman schwab when he was a rabbi in bavaria in 1933 at the age of 25 he was appointed as rover bavaria and in september 33 just a few months after adolf hitler was elected as the chancellor's the feuder of germany it was parshas ki sisa and rabshim and schwab gave us a sermon and there was a germans by a spy of the gestapo and shul and shimon schwab quoted of shimshin rafal hirsch and parshuski discussing that the jewish people didn't want idolatry but they were looking for afar mittler i don't know how many of you know a good yiddish or a good german affirmative they were looking for an intermediary between them and god and of course schwab said jews da finished they don't need an intermediary they don't need a calf they speak to hashem himself but it could sound like hitler and the gestapo invited rabbi schwab 1933 for investigation did you insult hitler in your sermon and rabbi schwab opened up the german commentary of rafal ursh written in the 1800s showing them that he wasn't talking about the chancellor of germany he was talking about affirmative and intermediary between you and god they told him you're not of the hook you need an investigation call back and he would call back each week and they said to call back and call back and after a few months he called the gestapo and finally somebody screamed at the phone stop calling already your issue was settled the man was very rude but he realized the man was telling him you're off the hook and ultimately of course shairith israel saved him and his family when he got the position in baltimore where he served i think until 1958 and then he went to washington heights and manhattan but why am i sharing this with you fascinating piece of history i'm sure he once said that those two months those two months when he was calling back the gestapo he was under their radar being investigated for insulting that sir hitler he did not go to sleep in his pajamas now for us americans that doesn't mean anything we fall asleep on the couch in our clothes some of us even commit the horrible crime of going to sleep in our clothes but for ayake this is yahara yavar go to sleep in your clothes not to go to sleeping pajamas this violates all the rules of a good german bavarian jew who lives according to a disciplined schedule and etiquette this was unheard of you know why he said because he heard of an acquaintance he was taken by the gestapo middle of the night and hung in his pajamas and shipman schwab said something extraordinary he said i was afraid they're going to take me middle of the night and hang me as well and the jews tomorrow morning will wake up and see their rove hanging in pajamas and that type of disgrace for german jews would add insult to injury and would demoralize them even more so he went to i went to sleep in my royal garments if khalil they kill me that insult should not be executed as well i realize it's really a good morning sanhedrin says it says in the kneel erected that golden statue 120 feet height 12 feet in the width in the valley of dura the capital of babylonia and he had all of his subjects worshiping bowing down to the south and because of them he cast them into a fiery furnace to burn them alive and the daniel describes at length that they were dressed in their royal beautiful brilliant dazzling glittering aristocratic royal garments and the gemara says why is that necessary they knew they're not going to bow down they knew he'd probably kill them why did they come dressed up was that they should have come in pajamas and the gomorrah says in sanhedrin explains it because it would have been a clap immoral and embarrassing clapton of the jewish people they would be thrown in as as dejects as losers they had to maintain their royal dignity until the last moment to inspire that pride and dignity within every jewish soul rip shim and schwab yurov was following that example of khmer sarya but what a lesson to each and every one of us you know sometimes we're beaten by life sometimes we go through difficult times sometimes we're going through a difficult parsha sometimes we're going through inner confusion mentally physically psychologically emotionally spiritually with ourselves and our loved ones reps um once said if you lose your money you lost nothing money comes and money goes if you lose your health he says it's serious you lost half you may have not lost your soul but you lost part of your health is very it's already of a different level but then he says but at least you still have a soul you still have values you still have convictions you still have a personality and then he said in yiddish but when you lose your courage you've lost everything when you forfeit your courage you have lost everything that the person can't afford to lose my courage the knowledge that i'm a child of the rebellious leader the knowledge that essentially i'm good i'm sacred i'm holy i'm infinite i'm aligned with infinity i'm aligned with hashem don't see yourself as an see yourself as a child you keep her and what that really means is when i can align myself with when i realize that my deepest truth is my divinity it's beautiful it's amazing it's full of righteousness the lord abortion is upon him shame comes when i detach myself when i see myself as a lonely isolated neglected creature when i don't see myself as divine as powerful as invincible as a manifestation of the shrine in this world villanu when i disassociate myself that's where shame comes from that's where toxicity comes from i start looking at myself i'm a problem case i'm lim so limited i'm so confined i'm in solitary confinement ayidav staltz inner healthy esteem that doesn't come from arrogance it actually comes from humility it comes from realizing who you are who you really are and what you can be that's the essence of truva it's the essence of yam kippur it's the essence of dersho hashem be mozzarella beyonce this time of the year there is that basketball that still resounds the same basketball that alicia benavoya heard we can all hear silently and the basketball beacons us and says never ever forget that you're a child let go of your perception of yourself as an as an alien as an outcast you will never be an alien you're always mine you're always connected you are always empowered you are always uplifted see it in yourself and see it in others so that they could see it in themselves see it in your children so that they can see it in themselves and when you see a seed that seems so dead remember yaakov says it's alive it's vibrant it's pulsating with physical life and emotional life and spiritual life may we internalize this basket may we internalize it in our own lives in the lives of our loved ones the lives of all of our brothers and sisters the world over and experience indeed a year a year full of life a year full of kiruv a year full of hope and promise and infinity a year filled with possibility and of course a year of health happiness prosperity for you for the entire community of shairith israel for all of baltimore for all our brothers and sisters inaudible all the world over for the whole world thank you very much okay let's go to questions right so if you have a question you can type it into the question and answer box and i'm going to go to the screens and start with the questions question number one how then does one reach out to someone who considers himself an ache especially when he or she is in your very own family that's a great question obviously there's no generic answer and one size fits all we're talking about a very individual question but just on a very general basis without knowing the people involved it's just extremely important to maintain a connection whatever that connection is maintain a powerful emotional connection again depends on the age depends on the situation depending on the circumstances but the the usually the common denominators try as much as possible to maintain a connection and not on your terms on their terms that means if it's your child you want to spend time with them if they enjoy hiking go hiking bike riding is bike riding go out to eat barbecue exercise together play games together play football or frisbee together study together talk chat but connect it's very important to hold on to that connection if they like going for coffee go out for coffee go shopping together whatever it is it's so important that the conversation continues and sometimes that's painful and don't try to get into arguments and debates they're usually futile especially if it's coming from close family especially if you're a parent it's not going to work much easier friends can influence your loved ones but you hold on to that relationship that relationship is so so important to hold on to by hook and micro or by crook what did rabiyosha bear say are your words an elaboration of his explanation or is it something else entirely so there's a say for by rabbi yoshi bear called khamejas the original book was called feared russia's and basically four sermons that he presented at conventions of estados arab and mizrahi in the early 1960s so this i saw in one of his yiddish russia's that was presented i think in atlantic city in 1961 or 62 and over there in that russia he speaks about this story with akhin al-shabab and he makes this distinction between the babli that was really seeing himself as telling him you're a child and let go of your that's the nucleus of the idea and i i developed it and elaborated on some on some points okay next question what are the practical ramifications of what you're saying i think the practical ramifications of what you say what i'm saying is don't be afraid i think one of the practical arguments i'm saying don't be afraid of any of your emotions in other words a lot of thoughts come up in us i'm miserable i'm a loser i'm not nothing is going to be good my marriage is crumbling my children's relationship with my children is horrible um i can't be successful whatever all these types of thoughts don't be afraid of any of these thoughts of any of their emotions you know why you're bigger than them you're stronger than them you're more powerful than them they don't define you you define them in tanya it says that mahshavas are called lavusham thoughts are called garments the rizal says the point is we sometimes take our thoughts so serious they're only garments you know what happens if my jacket is dirty i take it off doesn't mean i'm dirty means my jacket is dirty and what if i can't take it off because i'm in the middle of a lecture okay so i wait till i finish and then i take it off when we have negative or toxic thoughts we don't have to take them so seriously they don't constitute your essence they are garments we remove them we are not our thoughts i transcend my thoughts i have thoughts but i am not my thoughts so when you could start training yourself not to allow these thoughts of negativity and toxicity to take over your brain that's a tremendous step towards truva true sometimes people associate trouble with guilt and negativity truth is about liberation and emancipation the rambam says true is about a transformation of identity you become aligned with your infinite core so that you're not enslaved by your external limiting stories that you tell about yourself you understood what i just said you're not restricted and limited by the self-loathing stories you tell about yourself you see yourself from a in a grander way from a grander perspective from a larger perspective your horizons are extended and by the way it's true in neuroscience today we know in neuroscience that we create neural pathways by addictive thinking and then we become prisoners to those thoughts into those behaviors when we can start exercising freedom and start behaving and thinking differently we actually create physically changes in our brain that then allow us to see things differently or as it's said positive thoughts create change in your inner life and your outer life next question if you yourself feel like an akhir how do you change that attitude excellent question the first thing is awareness when you wake up in the morning tomorrow morning you're going to say these words what does that mean i'm thanking hashem for giving me back on a shama what's this neshama that he gave me back he gave me back a piece of himself then you're going to say i want you to meditate breathe in for a few seconds and meditate on those words the neshama that you have imbued within me tahereh means it's pure it's pristine it's sacred it's beautiful it's wholesome it's amazing it's splendid it's dazzling it's brilliant it's confident it's joyous it's optimistic tahir in aramaic to hero means light the neshama you have given me is full of light because it's your light you are a manifestation of i am a manifestation that's how you begin your morning now i know i have other stuff i have at sahara i have toxic stuff i have traumas i have this thing happen this thing triggers me fine i got it but who am i who am i in my essence i'm not an acharya i'm a child bro why because the ben is the av you are a piece of the childhood so meditate on this take it seriously breathe it in internalize it and that allows us to operate throughout the day from a much deeper deeper place now the other thoughts are going to come up it's tara won't let you go so easily anything that happens oh you see you see you see it's called confirmation bias so many things happen and they confirmed to us that we're an ache i'm an alien i'm a loser i'm an outcast i'm a sinner and this is avoid this hashem you have to retrain yourself not to allow your thoughts and your brain and your life to be overtaken by those thoughts they're normal thoughts they're human but they are coming from alienation and i do not want to be in a place of alienation i want to be in a place of dvacus next question how does what you're saying go hand in hand with shivering aleve how can you be embarrassed by your sins without feeling a little negativity about yourself beautiful beautiful question it's a beautiful vart from the belzer roof the belzer rover aaron said we say in kipper nila i stand before you like a vessel filled with bushes filled with shame so it's filled with bush i'm filled with shame you tell somebody i'm full of i'm like a vessel full of shaves if you know the caleb or the laws of tuma and tara a little bit they're not so people are not so versed in them but the is for a kali to be macabre it has to be shalom it has to be complete it has to be useful so let's say i have a pitcher of water let's say i have a wooden pitcher of water right and there's a hole in it so the water is now trickling out it can be used for water it can't be susceptible to tomah anymore because it's not considered a caylee it's broken unless i designated to put an apples if i put an apples it's fine because it can have a little hole but let's say that it has such a big hole that even it's komodzi rima and even pomegranates will fall out it's not a cayley anymore even though it looks like a cayley but it's too broken it's too shattered to be a caylee halogenically it's not a kali and therefore it's not tame anymore very interesting so the belzer roof says that's for you to be a kali you have to be wholesome you have to have a sense of wholesomeness if onion kipper i feel like a shattered loser a nobody full of guilt and there's no trivia then it's trauma what happens then is i feel that yiddishkait my yiddish guy is based on so much negativity and so much fear so basically instead of having a relationship with hashem that is empowering my relationship with hashem is coming out of a sense of such a shattered self-esteem and brokenness and it's filled with guilt and negativity and i wish i could escape it deep down subconsciously if not for my fears you have to feel that you're a wholesome kelly you know why because your soul is divine you're like the problem is such a beautiful cayley and it's filled with dirt i want to get rid of the dirt the concept of shivering hallelujah leave nisba the bellatanya writes in a safety or lavender doesn't mean a broken heart what's got a broken heart he says beautiful vert he says the shahad umaltimas a jewish heart is one with hashem there's an is a foreskin that covers the heart so you need a break through the foreskin you have to create a breach in the wall so that the light could come in right jewish singer once said i used to worship perfection but now i look for things that have cracks because that's where the light comes in when i have a big ego or have a lot of insecurity or a lot of pompousness so there's an arla there's a thickness and i can't experience vulnerability i can't experience beauty i can't experience love i can't experience truth because there's so many blockages so you need a breakthrough the heart not to break the heart to open it up so you can experience hashem's love you can experience hashem's light when i'm traumatized and i'm full of blockages i can't experience anybody even if you tell me a hundred times you love me you say avas oila maf tano i can't experience it i'm too traumatized so what's a late night but means create a crack a crack in the cover-up so that you could let the light come in you can experience something deeper than you the toughness of saliva is not to break people so they become broken shattered people that have no esteem no security no confidence and they just walk around internally shattered and miserable the concept of life niger is i want to create a breakage in my ego i want to create a shiver in my nephesha bahamas i want to create a in my insecurity and my trauma i don't want they should take over my life i want to create a crack so i can experience deeper light great questions next question how could the basketball have said that is not able to return even if it was not meant to be taken literally there is room for misinterpretation listen you're dealing with one of the greatest hanoi who i guess who i guess understood subtleties and the subtle message here was what the basketball sounded like i don't know unfortunately well i don't know if one force i don't hear basically i don't know what it sounds like what does it sound like when hashem gives out a gospel i don't know is it a physical voice is it a spiritual voice is it is it an inner voice i i can't answer that question so exactly how the words were formulated was it physical words was it a message that he heard the way the gemura describes the basketball is that this is the point of akhir is not welcome but you're not an asha you're a child of course you're right he misinterpreted how could you practically discover your infinite self when your life is fraught with challenges good question good question the answer is my dearest friend because only one way if you realize that every challenge is essentially a scheifer it's an alarm clock to help you become more aware of what your avoid is if you see your challenges as coming from the satan and coming from some force in the world that has control over you it's not going to work you have to see all your challenges as part of your shlikas as part of your journey the reborn of shalilam has given you tools and resources and sent you into certain places with certain challenges to be able to bring your infinite light into that place so none of your challenges are a mistake none of your challenges are just randomly cast at you none of your challenges are there to break your shadow you every single challenge you experience in your life as difficult as it is is here designed to help you flex your muscles go deeper into yourself for you or me to become aware of the issues that we have and bring light into that place never ever think of your challenges as divorced of your infinity on the contrary you were sent into those challenges as an ambassador of the reborn of shalom to bring infinity into those challenges now this is not an easy perspective to live by because we're so often trained to see those challenges as just overwhelming and we are part of the problem never think that you are the problem you are the solution that's the key every day i have to ask myself this question am i the problem or am i the solution i have a lot of challenges am i the problem or am i the solution if i think that i'm the problem i become the problem when i realize i am the solution minus shama is the solution it's hashem's soul that he sent down kevin to this world to be the solution so you have a challenge great now you are the solution you are the solution to that i'll tell you a very uh for me a very moving story there was the president of israel his name was salman shahzad the third president of israel he grew up he was named after the balatanya but he became a leftist socialist first education minister of israel and then in 63 became the president of israel he once visited new york in january schwart and it was one of those winters oh you don't know those scathing new york winter nights with the wind that could get 15 below zero 20 million coming from israel he wasn't used to it and he came to he came to brooklyn he came to meet the la bachcha so they meet outside on eastern parkway and he tells the children you guys in new york have such a cold schneider the boehner cuts through all your bones it paralyzes you he's complaining he's lamenting to lubavitch about the new york scathing winter night without skipping a beat the rabbit tells him that's why hashem sent down the neshama of a jew to the world to warm up the cold and to light up the dark so when i'm facing cold and dark moments of challenge i have to think i'm the solution i'm not the problem but for this you have to believe in your divine potential you have to know it and the shamish do you have suggestions for a good book related to these steps of discovering your infinite self your simcha so much of yiddishkait focuses on shuva which is related to the negative things i want to learn more about the positive how do i learn more about the positive elements it's it's a great question and the truth is both are necessary because it's important to be able to identify the negative and experience remorse but it's also important especially in today's day and age to be able to identify the positive so i don't have one book but generally the the there's a lot of swarm of siddhis that focus very much on the positive the bashamtive and his students a lot of their swarm focus a lot on this on this component so there's all these types of swannam you'll find you'll find these types of these types of messages in them you have to also know how to read it like you read never shake written student of the villain it's full of this idea that the power of a person the dignity of a person the godliness of a person so some swarm of muslim are very very harsh they're very negative and even there if you know how to read them you'll see this message but it's important to read those for him you have a dif various free hashtag that focus very much on these on these positive positive components i want to ask you a question how can we do chuva on sins that we know we are going to commit again listen we the mishra says you don't say akhtav ashraf i'm sinning and i'm going to do triva but when i do truth and i'm sincere the fact that i'm going to do it again doesn't mean the truth is meaningless and worthless the rambam says the idol of your death but they already explained it means a higher level of trouble it means right now i have to be sincere that i'm not going to do it again. now why do you say you're for sure going to commit it again maybe you won't why do you say that why don't you identify what made you do it and maybe change that like why this victim mentality let's say it's a problem of gossip or it's a problem of of insulting somebody or it's an issue of addiction or laziness maybe you won't do it again let's let's let's believe in our power and our potential there's a reason you're doing it again identify the reason you're going back to it and let's try to eliminate it so i i'm not such a pessimist i'm sorry and you know what if you fall and you do it again okay so we get back up and we do truth again how many times a day do we say why is it not a brachal of atala how many times a day you ask hashem three times a day even at jim kippur we ask hashem three times a day right for children we say maybe hashem says this time not it's allah because we have no suffocate that when a jew sincerely asks hashem for forgiveness hashem says you're forgiven after yom kippur i do chiva and then i fall and i fail back to my old habits how do you move forward without feeling like you're back to an you have to take out the old cd from your brain eject the old cd and put in a new one the old cd is telling you that you're bad bad bad bad bad let's start giving ourselves a different narrative you're not bad you're not an ache you're a piece of hashem i make mistakes and the reason i make most of my mistakes is i don't realize who i am if you would realize how amazing you are you wouldn't make these mistakes those mistakes are coming from the fact that we don't realize how amazing we are so start realizing that and start telling that to yourself and when you make a mistake learn from it don't become paralyzed learn from it it's a beautiful vart from uh from representative what do we do in kipper afternoon we david myers right how do we start mairev you forgive sins and then what we do what we go from the illustration to my roof straight into my roof and especially if it's a yakisha show there's no delays they don't go for a conversation between nila and myrev and all shows my life right into my river where's the sin what's the recopy of in slack you know what he answered he said the sin of mitsayam kippur is the jews sometimes don't believe that hashem forgave them that's the sin a whole young kipper comes and goes and then i say i'm still a mess i'm still an actor that's the sins what's the sin is you don't believe you're good you don't believe you were forgiven i still believe that i'm a bad person that's a sin get rid of that that you have to do true before you do it true for the fact that you always think you have to do true in the sense that you're never good you're never beautiful you're never amazed that's not good imagine if your child would feel like that about themselves and you hashem is your mother hashem is your father why do we think with hashem it's the same imagine your child always feels inadequate child always feels they're never good enough why do you think hashem thinks like that about you he thinks you're amazing he's your biggest fan he loves you he loves you the way you are and he takes pride in what you can be that's how you look at it he takes pride in what you can be shouldn't come from a place of of of negativity next question how do we avoid insulting people when we're being mahm they're being lacks and flippant can you yell at someone who's not wearing his mask properly can we ask him to leave philip listen if there's a situation where somebody is endangering the health of the public then we are obligated and we certainly have the right to take the precautions that we need in order to protect those who are older the elderly and the vulnerable from khalilah being affected but always you want to try to do it in the most cordial and loving and respectful way and that should be done up you know we could we can we can create uh guidelines and boundaries in our institutions our schools our moistus where there are certain guidelines and if somebody can't respect it and can't follow it we could cordially and nicely ask them to please not come so i don't think i think we should try to avoid insulting people and screaming at people and and and throwing out people in in a in a rude way unless it's absolutely necessary if there's a dangerous situation so fish comes first but of course we should always try to be cordially respectful and we can explain to people listen you know i'm not telling you what to do in your own house but you're coming here to a public a public place there may be people who are older there may be people who are vulnerable there may be people whose immunity is not as powerful as yours and these are our guidelines you may agree you may not not agree nobody's forcing you to come so i think i think that makes sense to most people and i think most people can respect that even if i disagree fine but i'm coming to your show i'm coming to your school you know call masha balabayas say but if they'd say if they say is an issue of becoach it's not just about us you know as having a bad mood i think most people can understand it so again and i think we have to it's very important not to uh surrender it to politics and to agendas and to egos there's only one consideration consideration is reverend shalom says we have to protect our health venezuela and that's our consideration never an ego issue it's not a trump issue it's not a biden issue it's not a democrat democrats it's not republicans this should not occupy space in the minds of intelligent and caring people there's only one agenda and one agenda only and that is to safeguard the health of people if sometimes it's an exaggerated situation and it's not necessary we could be honest about that too obviously this dinner so these are things that rabbanim who are responsible with the partnership of doctors and physicians who are responsible and caring people make decisions and make guidelines and everyone should be respecting those guidelines and if somebody is not they could be told in firm but cordial ways that this may not be their place that's generally how i would how i would respond to this what do we do about worry and fear and stress and anxiety that's a good question they say that warring is like a rocking chair it keeps you busy but it gets you nowhere what we do about it is as follows every situation is unique there are people who have very very serious anxiety and they need help you may need vitamins you may need to change your diet you may need a little medicine you may need to work with a nutritionist a therapist a doctor a psychologist a psychiatrist sometimes it's very very serious you know there's different approaches and different methods many of us don't have this serious level of anxiety that paralyzes us but we just have general anxiety and for this you should learn you should learn how to cultivate a good relationship with hashem you should cultivate a better marriage so you could speak to somebody good friendships and put yourself every morning meditate exercise eat healthy live in a more expansive space live with a more expansive consciousness live in a more powerful world in a bigger world than a broader world in a godly world the world that we spoke about before you're a shleak of the reborn and when i'm suffering from anxiety i have to tell myself i am the solution i'm not the problem the anxiety is inside of me to make me aware of ways to grow to make me more aware of myself so don't become a victim of the anxiety you define the anxiety don't let it define fine you what about betaken is wonderful holiness is wonderful but how do i remain how do i remain positive i'm scared of you kipper i'm scared of elul i'm scared of rosh hashanah how can i use that this time properly without feeling so scared the answer to this is the assailants of yiddish and i know unfortunately not everybody knows this but so important the isaiah says of yiddish guide is the last navoor of the last navi s hashem loves you to pieces hashem's love to you is infinite it's unconditional it's non-negotiable and it's non-destructible it's not breakable nothing that you do or don't do will take away his relationship with you his caring for you the judgment of rosh hashanah the judgment of him kippur is always a judgment that comes from intense love hashem wants you to have the best year in the world he wants you to have the most successful year physically spiritually emotionally socially financially in this world and in the next world everything hashem gives us for the year is putting us in a position where we can flex our muscles actualize our potential live life to the fullest and fulfill our mission in the world you are a partner of hashem you're a co-creator with hashem don't look as hashem as this big scary guy in heaven with a long white beard okay you know life death life death life death it's a very scary feeling look at hashem as your loving best friend my sister my spouse my dove my twin awas he loves you he rejoices with you he wants you to have the best life he created you he's not here to create you and then judge you and kill you and take vengeance from you and take and be angry at you that perception of hashem doesn't come from judaism it's a it's a misreading of all the tfilis and the whole tamar the foundation of foundations the aside how you say this is that the reborn of shalom as the balsamic said loves every jew infinitely more than a parent loves an only child desire says in parish most if you would know how much hashem loves you you would pursue him with more alacrity swiftness and ferociousness than a lioness runs after her prey if you would only know how much he loves you the whole these days are an opportunity for hiskarvos to realize who you really are you're a divine and you could live that way and hashem is judging you to be able to give you the opportunities this year for you to be able to fulfill your mission these are the messages that have to dominate your brain and we're extricating the evil from us not because we're evil because we're so good and we don't want to have things that are toxic because toxicity doesn't belong to you you're too good to be toxic you're too good to be bad you're too good to have a foul odor you're too good to be immoral you're too holy you're too beautiful you're too sacred you have to recognize the wholeness the wholeness inside of you the wholeness of your kali what's the key to loving torah what's the key to loving hashem and one more question why do hazal say that if you're mavato taylor you're served boiling coals that doesn't seem loving and nice to me these questions are so important you know david these questions are so important because there are hundreds and thousands of jews who are dealing with this and everybody has this impression of judaism as so negative it's like it's so sad it's so sad i wish you could learn some of the swarm that i learned you have to learn some of the swarm of the balatanya of the balsham of the students you have to see the whole different dimension it's really all this for him it's all this for him it's the basis of either you have to know how to read them yet okay so let me answer you very brief and i think uh david we should stop here after this question no unless you want to go till slickers unless you want to go to slickers because the questions the questions are coming in so unless we want to go to slices which may be which may not be a bad idea so here is the deal let me ask you a question let me ask you a question okay how do you think about it hashem created you he created us he gave us a sahara he gave us challenges he knows that we're going to fall and now when we fall hashem says okay time for revenge time to punish these guys does that make sense to you is this a judaism that you can accept isn't that weird he creates you why did he create you he created you to sin so he could punish you and put you in gahannam and you could burn in purgatory for years and he tortures you what type of god is this what is this a normal god he creates you with challenges you didn't make you hate so hard he made it the more he says he made the it's r he put you in a difficult situation he gave you it's a hard he gave you challenges a lot of the trauma you're dealing with doesn't come from you came from things that happened to you and now you make mistakes of okay time to kill this guy and make him burn ooh he didn't learn does this make sense to you you think this is a judaism that an intelligent person can accept doesn't this sound weird imagine forget about hashem imagine your mother would say this your mother gives birth to you and your mother says you know the moment my child sins i'm gonna cut him up into pieces i'll fry him i'll torture him does this make sense to you of a mother a father unless you have a crazy dysfunctional mother and father some you put these parents in prison even if your father punishes you if there's sadism and barbarity and torture you say this father is an abusive man he has to go to prison he's a killer and yet when it comes to hashem this is what we all believe does this make sense to you i'm challenging you you answer this question i don't have to answer you answer this question sadly we often are very very misinformed about this we do not know what punishment means we do not know what it means let me tell you what the ball sometimes said about gehenna okay this isn't told this yak of yosef for me this was a game changer let me tell you what he says he says it says hashem kale nakamura god is the god of revenge the god of revenge has appeared how do you understand this hashem takes revenge right why'd it say wrong name and white say twice and he says hashem hashem's revenge is all love you know how he takes revenge he appears in your life and i'll give you a muscle from the bosh imagine you're in the dumps and this kind kind man schleps you out of the dumps and gives you everything puts you on his your feet gives you security and shelter literally saves your life and gives you amazing blessings but you don't know and when you grow up and you become independent you start persecuting this fellow you do bad things to him you curse him you me they meet you uh denigrate him you insult him you hurt him you harm so you know what the greatest in the comments i fear when you suddenly experience the love of this person and you're embarrassed you tell yourself oh my god how can i do this that's the greatest revenge the greatest revenge is not that he punishes you the greatest revenge is you suddenly realize how good he was all these years you were angry at him you were cursing him when he was the best thing you had in your life he you owe him everything you know sometimes in a marriage when you're traumatized and your wife is trying to love you and every time she loves you you throw another psychological rock at her because you don't know how to experience the love and you think for sure she's trying to hurt you because you don't know how to interpret love the greatest come in the world is the bush of the shame i'm experiencing when i realize oh my god this god who's so close to me i'm a piece of him and i backstabbed him that's the most painful thing in the world in other words what he's saying is you know what gahannam is you know what grenadine is i come up and i see two videos one video is how i lived and one video is how i could have lived who i really am all the failed opportunity how i lived in such a small tiny place for the person whose video of how they lived and how they could have lived match it's grenadine and for the other person there's such deep hurt and shame that's he appears in your life so what is gehenna then gehenna is cosmic therapy you know if you have deep pain in you and you go to a therapist what does a therapist do he helps you spit out the pain does it hurt yeah you cry and you stop is it bad it's not bad it's healing gehenna is cosmic therapy divine therapy it's painful sometimes it's fiery but stem is not taking revenge he's not trying to take revenge because he hates you he's trying to heal you your nesham is divine it's holy but sometimes i tarnish my soul i make it dirty i make it filthy it's now filled with creases and dents and traumas and blemishes and defects and it can't be itself so you need therapy so i can go to therapy in this world that's called truva or i go to therapy in the next world that's called gehenna what is gangnam ghana is the pain of spitting out all the dirt all the filth all the lies all the deceptions so the neshama could go back being what it is not that god is going to take revenge and kill you and torture you and put you on these hot coals generally souls are spiritual so there's no physical gehenna it's a metaphor when we speak about fire snow it's metaphoric it's all metaphoric it's a metaphor of various forms of divine therapy to help a soul cleanse itself spit out the dysfunction the spiritual trauma so that the soul could become what it always was of course i want to do it in this world because this world is the ultimate place to do it the transformation happens in this world therapy in the next world is a whole different form of therapy but that's the idea that's the idea you know you have beautiful clothes and they become dirty and smelly you put them in a washing machine with chemicals and water you're not trying to punish your clothes you're not trying to destroy your clothes you want to give them the fresh soft smell that they had hashem is never trying to destroy you or torture you he loves you loves you loves you loves you like a child and more than a child it's an opportunity for you to be able to reach your ultimate potential don't be scared of a god your god loves you year it doesn't mean fearing because hashem is a tyrant years hashem means i'm afraid to ruin such an amazing relationship such a beautiful relationship that's what year is i'm afraid to ruin such a beautiful relationship and when you meditate on these things you learn about these things you could come closer to hashem you develop this type of love love for yourself love for hashem love for every person who's in the image of hashem and therefore a love of terror love of mitvis which is a way of exercising this intimacy with hashem if you want if those are those of you who want i have a lot of shirim on these topics a lot a lot of sharing on these topics if you go to the website the yeshiva.net t-h-e-y-e-s-h-i-v-a dot net n-e-t though yeshiva.net you'll see i have a lot a lot of sheerum on these topics which you may want to explore because i think they may help you um in this growth and this growth i love hearing these questions and hearing your astute answers okay i thank you very much that's very nice of you next question this is refreshing inspiring and very very positive okay beautiful beautiful everyone everyone can relate to what you're saying it's really really beautiful and we really have to hear it thank you i really thank all of you and i want to thank again the murad asura shlita for the covet i want to thank david rep david my dear friend and i want to thank the board of 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