The Story Behind a Curse - Parsha Emor - By Rabbi YY Jacobson

[Music] [Applause] [Music] good evening and welcome to one and all the story behind a curse is our discussion this evening dealing with that deeply strange painful and tragic story at the conclusion of the portion of em er which also its location it's placing in the Torah seems very strange and anticlimactic we have been dedicating this book of AI ikura to sacrifices to the sanctuary to its dedication in Emmer we've been discussing the laws of the priesthood other laws of sacrifices the list of all of the Jewish holidays throughout the year and then totally unexpected they're not on to non anticipated a new story emerges a man who cursed let us look at the story and reflect on it please bring up source number one in your curriculum right below the video you have a PDF with your curriculum source number one the Torah tells this story by Yeats say Ben Israel is the son of an Israelite woman went out whoo-whoo Ben Schmitt sorry and he was the son of an Egyptian man the title B'nai Israel he went out among the children of Israel ye not Suba machina bene Israelis Vichy Israeli they quarreled in the camp who quarreled the son of the Israelite woman and another Israelite men this is an interesting verse if you study it for one we know that he went out who went out somebody with a Jewish mother and an Egyptian father he went out among the Jewish people who did he fight with he fought with somebody in the camp the son of the is Jewish mother fought with another Jewish man byyee cave Benoit ISA Israelis s a shame the son of the Jewish mother cursed the name Michael L he cursed it by a voi CL Masha they brought him to Moses the Shamy my the name of his mother was slimmest Mazda very limited on slimmest the daughter of debris from the tribe of done and the continuation of the story is Moses did not know what to do with this man who cursed the name of God and he asks God and the verdict is the death penalty which is performed on this human being and that's the end of Emmer how they take him out God says Hoyt si si McCollum a hoodlum not gonna take out the one who cursed outside of the camp they take him out and he's killed through stoning a deeply enigmatic story but what we immediately notice is a strange phenomenon the way the identity of this person is introduced first he's identified as the son of a Jewish woman and an Egyptian father then again he's identified he's quarreling who the son of the Jewish woman then again he's identified the son of the Jewish woman cursed a name they bring him to Moses and suddenly we find out the name of his mother I could have said the name of his mother right at the beginning know in the beginning doesn't say the name of his mother just it keeps on saying three times that he was the son of a Jewish mother once it says he was the son of a Gyptian father three times again the son of a Jewish mother the son of a Jewish mother the son of a Jewish mother and only later do we find that her name her name is Slimers the daughter of divi the tribe of done strange syntax and structure now that's number one number two the word vy8 say in the beginning is strange why Yates say he went out where did he go out from there Vanessa oh right she went out from his tent granted why is the Torah telling us he went out from his tent why couldn't the story begin with the fight a man a son of a Jewish mother Egyptian father got into a fight in the camp with another Jew why there's a Torah begin this story with the word vy8 say he went out in Torah these small details usually contained within themselves the codes to be able to appreciate the splat and the subplot and the sub sub plot of the episode of the story Rashi indeed asks this question source number to rouse she says by Yeats a Benny she is rails Mahesh hung up so where did he go out from and Rashi brings from the Madras from sifri Terrace K&M Tam coma Madras robber three opinions rebel a vom ma a Lama yatza rabbi levy says he went out from his world doesn't explain what that means he went out from his world that's where he came out from from his world what does this mean very strange interpretation what do you mean you go out of your world and where is he getting this from and what does he mean some commentators are safer as a Karan and others explained that the word right before this story in the Torah nemr the two words are Huck eylem an eternal war the last word is eylem the world if I Yeats say he comes out of eylem the word vy8 say follows the word eylem he comes out of his world what does it mean it come out his own of his world some people say means he lost his life he forfeits his world others say he fits the future forfeits the future world Olam haba raba NEBOSH hiya right smile on my alum cotton z'ha'dum the Midrash says famously the human being is a miniature universe the microcosm is a reflection of the macrocosm every human being is a world a miniature world alum cotton my alumni he left his world he left a miniature world called the human being what does this mean what is it her lady trying to say why is it horror telling us he left his world what does this add to this story rashly brings a second opinion let's continue in source number two Rabi brassy I'm the sage rabbi Brock he said something else me partial Emilio saw he was coming out from the previous portion in the Torah League leg of armor he scuffed and said but you're my Shabbos Yara candle on Shabbos you should prepare it Derick hemella little poskim Abu Julio him Osama past sin an SLT shaman bit me does the King eat every day fresh warm bread or does the King eat cold stale bread that's been around nine days he was scoffing at the law disgust right before this story in Emmer Valley 8c he came out from this law the law right before this is known as the law of the left him upon him the showbread which means every Friday they would break bake twelve Brett's no one has let him hapana they were placed on the Shulkin on the table in the sanctuary and later in the base--emitter dish and they remained there throughout the week next Shabbos the old bread was given to the Kohanim to the priests to eat and the new bread was placed on the table for another week so if the bread is baked on Friday placed on the table on Shabbos exchanging the old breath and then Ethan the next Shabbos when they eat it how old is the bread it was baked on Friday so you have Friday and then you have Shabbos and then you have another seven days it's nine days should the King eat cold bread and nine days old or new fresh warm bread he was laughing at this law that God wants to enjoy the bread of nine days telling the Kohanim his messengers as ambassadors to eat this ridiculous old stale bread it doesn't make sense and this man was laughing and right after this story of left him upon him the portion of lesser my bottom comes this story by Yeats a he was coming from this he was laughing at this and here the obvious question is why from this law why did he choose from all the laws of nature' you can ask lots of questions and lots of strange things from all the hollow kites from all the mitzvahs he had nothing to scoff at but the story of the bread that it's all that stale doesn't make sense to eat bread afton are not denying this next Rashi continues a third opinion Oh mas misssara the bracer says me Baisden I shall moisture yatza volume he came out guilty from the court of my bully toy leb texmarq on a dawn he came to pitch his tent among the tribe of done because his mother was from done I'm rule I might've colic and they asked him why are you here I'm Marla Hyman a Don oh nice and I'm from the children of done my mother comes from Don one of the children of Jacob unruly they told him he shall dig labour Isis labeija voice some Sethe the verse discusses the encampments in the placements of the Jewish tribes during their time in the during their journey in the desert and every single tribe had its Degel its flag which had its own shape its own design its own color and every tribe had its place where it would encamped there was no confusion although it was one people but the people were divided in twelve tribes and each shave it each tribe had its place its camp on the on the north on the south on the west each tribe and it says 'i shall did my biases labeija voice songs if every person dwells near his near his flag with its special symbol according to the house of their father in other words in order for you to identify yourself as a member of done your father has to be from the tribe of done not your mother loved a service honks if you're a descendant of done but as far as the placement among the tribe of done it goes according to the father your father wasn't from don nicola based in isolation he went into the court of mush the Hudson was cleared and he came out losing the case Ahmad he stood up Vicky Dave and he cursed what's the source for this interpretation for the first interpretation I'll um vy8 say for the second interpretation the let him upon him comes right before the story what about the third because it says ye not soba Makana they quarreled in the camp which indicates that the fight had to do with machina with the camps with the place of dwelling indeed it was about can he pitched his tent among the tribe of done or must he pitch his tent elsewhere according to the structure set up by by Moses so this is a third interpretation now this three interpretation seemed completely disparate completely separate one from another and yet all about the same person what is the connection between our by lady's perspective he left his world rabbi bravia spective he was scoffing at the bread that was eaten every Shabbos in the sanctuary and the third opinion was actually a fight over real estate do I have a place in this camp and why did he curse God why was he so upset at gods now there is another component take a look at the next Rashi bring up source number three the Torah identifies him as been each Mitzvah the son of an Egyptian man Rashi tells us who Hamid Suri Shahar Ganesha this is the Egyptian who moisha once killed the source of this is in Madras raba a many Madras him on this portion and Zohar many other places this is referring to actually the first opening story about moisture Ave no back and schmeissers he grows up grows up in an Egyptian Palace he goes up to his brothers and what does he see he sees an Egyptian man who was identified as a Schmidt Suri which is why we make the parallel between this Egyptian and that Egyptian on both that says a Schmidt Suri doesn't save her who been midstate been ich MIT Suri an Egyptian man to identify and tell us it's the same man and he Moses sees this Egyptian beating a Jew mercilessly that you will die and Moses looks here and he looks there and there's nobody there and he strikes the Egyptian via Casas mr. Richman a Oba coil he kills the Egyptian he hides him in the sand and saves the Jew from death of course later he's informed upon to Pharaoh he has to flee the country ends up in Midian where he meets his future wife Zipporah marries her and encounters his future father and more you so Jethro and the rest as they say is history now imagine this happened years ago years ago when Moses was a young man and he beat them a Dipity killed an Egyptian and fled agent now he comes back to Egypt he redeems the Jewish people the plagues the exit is the splitting of the sea now they're traveling in the desert and suddenly a young man or a man is brought in who is this man this is the son of a father that moisture killed and now this son curses caught and he's also killed deja vu where What did he say what did the Yogi Berra say deja vu all over again Moses again encounters face to face the son of the father whom he saw beating the Jew now as the rabbi's the sages in the oral tradition share with us a fascinating story which mode which ratio Sukkot since mice namely why was the Egyptian beating the Jew the Jew he was beating to death was the husband the Jewish husband of schliemann's positively slime is the daughter of DV from the tribe of dong this Egyptian man forced this Jew to let him go into his house masqueraded as the husband projecting himself as the hospital this Egyptian man took a liking to schleimann and she thought it was her husband at night no light and they had relations her Jewish husband knew what happened he saw what happened he saw what the Egyptian did to his wife so the next day at work the Egyptian was beating the Jew the husband - limas all day now they had a child and this child is dis Jew his mother is Jewish and his father's an Egyptian and now this Egyptian man who was killed by Moses he had a son impregnated conceived through Slimers who was impregnated by this Egyptian and now he curses God what is the meaning of this so we have her a wormed narrative it's a continuous story it starts off moisture a beta this is the first evaluation of Ana and now suddenly moisture comes back almost to continue and complete that story and yet this son whose fathers in Egyptian and his mother's Jewish is dealing with leaving his world making fun of the bread and cursing because he lost a court case about his place in the Jewish camp in other mid Russian and commentators it's explained that I you're not super machina they were fighting what were they fighting about this Jewish guy was telling him the story about his father what his father did to his mother and who his father was and how much she killed his father and this was the fight and this is what caused him to curse so this was actually the fight that's another perspective take a look at the zuhr source number for the Zohar the great cabbalistic foundational text tells us this vehicles been Alesha Israel is ashamed source number four Marv I Iike what does the word vehicle mean this is another question the Torah says Valley clave and then it says ye carnal by a Cowell means he cursed what is my ye Cove mean the Zohar says maha eco everyb-- Abu Ammar vyi cleave vadai it means he made a hole while you have comes from the word NECA he perforated commode Amrit vehicular Badal so as it says that he perforated he made a drill the hole in its door knocking mother Havas awesome this man perforated that which was closed he opened up that which was plugged that is what he did ye cave doesn't just mean he cursed God ye cave he opened up a hole he opened something up something that was closed he opened up what does this mean and then the sword continues vishay me my schliemann's buzzed every Afghan so Sushma deeming till this point the name of his mother is concealed she's not exposed he vindictive aji Karev once the Torah says ye cry he opened up a whole knock of Sh'ma de may the Torah exposes the name of his mother take a look now at their easel source number five rabbi Isaac Luria by its concluded the great kabbalist of smart 16th century sharp souk in one of his books tired of sucking Paris Emer her Indian who says diary Zelda holy I reserved a it's her glorious source number five he's eben Alicia Israel is Subin Ayesha mr. Sharma Sherman all of our solemn can escape Irish mice this warm young this man the son of a Jewish mother his father was the Egyptian to Moses killed Oh quiet died too you know already from the writings of that result in Paris Mauritius and from the writings of their easel and partial smize and history kiyomitsu yahuwah gilgul Arash mcian Bernardo this Egyptian killed by Moses was beating the Jew was the reincarnation of the negativity of Cain the son of Adam the first boy kaien the son of Adam part of him was reincarnated into the Egyptian being the one who was killed by mush the zhabin micaiah have names to the Gamu mineirão who shall kainalu this child came from the father and his personality resembled the father he too was thus a continuum of the negativity of canvas outside will been ish mystery that's where the Torah says he was the son of the Egyptian man well ashamed by a collarless are same and therefore he cursed God how God the footnote says nearly Lonnie is die T I'm are small this is a footnote by up small detail the son of rabbi shai and Vittal the great disciple of the Ariza who transcribed all of his writings all of his teachings niolani is dyed tequila Yoshimura been all of our Shalom hora the suburb ashame Canary that's Lena kingdom who vehicle is a shaman is a fascinating idea how did Moses kill his father by a kiss a mystery what does the Midrash say Rashi quotes is Bechet mama for wish through God's name it wasn't a violent murder rather he pronounced God's name and as a result of that the Egyptian died so his son now curses that name through which his father was killed now the Irie so continues of a safer asaram ruin desire it says logon Nelly me beside Magan he wanted to protect his mother who wasn't humiliated by this Egyptian man who came and had intimacy with her and violated her and as Rashi rights from the rabbi's from the sages that the Torah identifies her to say that this was the only Jewish woman throughout the long and terrible Egyptian Exile who had relations with an Egyptian man and it was also unintentional he wanted to protect his mother via cave Corbin muscle shipping eat cereal hacia Boulevard so he perforated he made a hole in the curtain between the world of youth serie and the world of us see in the world of formation the world of action there was a curtain between the two worlds and he made a hole in that Kurt to kadesha male of your ego at sillas abbreviate Syria so that way the light of the worlds at Cilla's breathes Syria the world of intimacy the world of creation the world of formation should naturally and automatically shine through into the lowly world of action and kabbalah wherefore world that still is breeds ERC which are four states of consciousness is four dimensions on reality four perspectives four states of reality at Cilla's brihat syria sia intimacy creational formation and action there is a partition separating one world from another world this man perforated that partition so that the light can flow into the world of us see into the world of action as desire continues when it says he cursed God's name is it was the last letter of God's name the hey would represents the world of Asiya cuz God's name has four letters you'd and hey enough of and hey and he tried to manipulate that final letter over the name so that the world of us see it can get all the light from the higher worlds without the partition because he made a hole in the partition what does all of this mean we have there many concepts many stories suddenly were introduced to the capitalistic idea of iuk if he made a hole what does this mean what does this represent what was he trying to accomplish how does it connect to all the other interpretations of who he is now we're dealing here with some very mystical and profound ideas that deal with very deep realities as the Zora continues that these the story contains tremendous and great mysteries in the Torah tonight I will not exhaust the topic not even scratch the surface of it I just want to present based on different works one aspect one way one dimension to understand part of the story but there is much much more to discuss and far more that's even beyond beyond discussion briefly we are exposed here in the works of the Zohar and I resolve to the fact that this man attempted to break down structure everything in the world every person in the world every reality has its place its identity its individual chemistry qualities and characteristics and therefore every single thing and person has his or her own story mission statement purpose based on who he or she or it is it's once again worthy to quote that memorable line of the cut scarab arrived in a commando Morganstern it's been a while do bees do mundo bees to vanish beneath beneath nation do business to a brave explanation for Dobis - Dobis to valleys beneath but if it do bees do if i am i because you are you and you are you because i am i i am not i you are not you but if i am i because i am i and you are you because you are you than i am i and you are you there is i and there is thou there is I and use you now sometimes there are people there are philosophies or our cultures that try and continue to try to actually a very popular idea in the modern age to D legitimize borders this is the philosophy that claims there should be no borders No Boundaries no distinctions let the world live as one imagine no heaven no birth no nations no borders separating people separating existences separating reality let us at the surface it sounds very romantic poetic exciting and idealistic why can't the world to really become one why can't all peoples be one aren't we all organically connected why the need for distinction for individuality for differentiation isn't this the cause of greed and conflict and war forget the boundaries melt away in oneness it's a profound idea and a very beautiful idea but as beautiful as it sounds it's good for the imagination it's good to imagine it an imagination in reality it's sometimes more detrimental than constructive there is a nucleus there is a point here that is true but in its practical manifestation it often creates more havoc and chaos than peace and the reason is because the way God created the world is that everything has an individual identity every person is different every flake of snow is different there's not one type of bird are thousands of species of birds and not one type of tree but thousands of types of trees and every human being is different every psyche is different every thing existing has its unique identity when we deny it when we deny something or somebody their individual identity and we try to gloss over it and we say everything is one that oneness is fake it's superficially imposed it's it's denying the diversity that is inherent to the structure of existence if you want peace in the world you will not have peace by undermining diversity and making believe there's no difference between people or nations because when you do that your unity is skin deep and it's superficial and the moment the differences emerge it will be conflict true peace comes from a much deeper place true peace comes from the fact that I acknowledge Who I am I respected and cherished it but else acknowledge who you are I am I and you are you and now we can begin to schmooze now I can appreciate that our differences need not create tension between us on the contrary our differences can allow us to enrich each other because there is a larger hole through to which each of us contributes in our own unique individualistic way so peace doesn't mean there are no differences peace means amidst the differences everyone appreciates who they are and you can appreciate who somebody else's and understand that there are differences and there are borders between but now the dialogue and the conversation could create a unity within diversity understanding everybody's unique role and on the contrary creating an even deeper unity because it's not just that the diversity doesn't destroy the unity diversity contributes to the unity because I cherish that which you have and I do not have and I need you to complement that aspect of me this is true in every relationship it begins in a marriage if the basis of a marriage is the fact we love each other we're one because we're the same you know how long that's going to last as long as you think you're the same but believe me you're not the same or at least most people are not the same especially men and women they're different creatures unity must come within the diversity appreciating everybody's uniqueness and then ensuring that the uniqueness not only does not undermine the unity it actually enhances the unit the best and simplest example is fire and water let the world be as one let's fire in water come together and coexist but we know that fire and water when they're put together and mixed together they'll destroy each other either the fire will extinguish the flame either the water will extinguish the flames or the water will be evaporated by the heat of the fire you want water and fire to co-exist great but you need a path separating them put the water in the pot and then put the pot on the fire and now the fire in the water will both contribute to take the raw food and turn it into a delicious gourmet dish they you can digest and enjoy but if you take away the path if you don't have that border separating the fire from the water you just make direct contact between the fire in the water without any have a dollar without any boundaries the water will not be able to be water the fire will not be able to be fired because you're undermining the fact that the chemistry of fire and the chemistry of water are very different they each have their unique role and mission we want them to work together but it has to be in the context of a unique structure and a unique identity and this is true in almost every issue in the world you have the same issue for example between Jews and non-jews some people are very allergic to the fact that there's a distinction between Jews and non-jews is it racist it's non liberal it's non compassionate but in this name of unity they don't realize that they are actually contributing to the lack of unity because there are real differences in the world a Jew is a Jew and an Andrews and Andrew just like their body is different limbs and different organs just like a man as a man and a woman as a woman there are different nations and different civilizations and different cultures just like there are so many different animals and everyone has their own space their own beauty their own uniqueness their own powers their own virtue their own challenges and flaws when I can acknowledge Who I am I can acknowledge who you are then we could learn how our borders only help us live together and enrich each other in a more profound way the unique identity given to every single creature of course comes from this is a basic idea in Jewish mysticism comes from the evolutionary process of the cosmos God Himself is undefined and therefore completely unified everything originates in God's undefined unity to unify everything without identity is to go back to the original unity that precedes creation but for that God didn't have to create a world everything was one the reason God created a world is to introduce the unity within diversity within structure within identity within the individual capacity and container of every single existence to reveal that underlying undefined unity and how each of us is part of that unity in our own unique way to go back to the undefined unity is to undo creation creation was imposing diversity within unity and channeling the unity through diversity now we have to think about this and understand this and this is what's called seder espousals which means the undefined divine energy in light this channel then access through a very intense and intricate evolutionary process from the world of oxalis to breed see Rossio and each world is multifaceted multi-layered and multi dimension on every single creature in every world has its source its spiritual origin and spiritual source in the various sefirot ik tree and the evolution throughout these four world which is a whole complex discussion in the works of Kabbalah in the works of custard ism and beyond the scope of tonight's class now this drew this man was took on this idea of ie Cleef he perforated the curtain between you'd see Reena SIA he perfectly perforated the partition he wanted the divine flow should not be restricted should not go through a certain conduit you shouldn't be able to use it shouldn't be in a way that you access a certain energy through this reality through this person through this experience and another energy through another experience everything is one let the energy be free uninhibited unrestrained what happens when you make a hole in something you make a hole and suddenly the flow of water the flow of liquid is going from another direction to different places ie clear now let's come back to the three interpretations in Rashi and let us see how he did this how it manifested itself practically the first thing is may a llama Yahtzee he went out of his world he could not acknowledge alum cotton Zell Adam that he has his world he has his own world you are you the next thing was the bread the way the energy flows into the world there is Shabbos and there are the six days of the week and they're not the same how Marvel being coded there's little we say half-dollar we separate Shabbos from the days of the week why are you separating why can't time be one and the answer is cuz Shabbos is different and for Shabbos and the weekdays to co-exist and get along they need a border they need a pot like between fire and water and then Shabbos can inspire the six days of the week in the six days of the week and prepare for Shabbos if not then you confuse the energy you don't get Shabbos you don't get the weekdays you don't know shop assist he couldn't deal with the fact that all over the house pause all of the influences go through Shabbos so is this is most he was laughing what was he laughing you bake bread on Friday he had a Friday the King waits nine days till the next Shabbos to eat the bread every day you eat new fresh bread he couldn't think knowledge the fact that job has had a special superiority Shabbos was the source of energy it says Shabbos my name is Burke and : the blessings for a whole week come from Shabbos couldn't accept that the next thing he couldn't accept this his place he wanted to be in the camp of done they said this has to do with your father being from done his father was an Egyptian this was a very difficult reality for him he could not accept his place his mother was Jewish his father was an Egyptian he said it's all one the world is one what's the difference why is intermarriage a problem why can't everybody mingle with everybody we're all human beings we're all children of God why is he different it seems like a very valid point the answer is it's beautiful words to say everything and everybody is the same but they're not everyone has their energy their soul the Jew in the non Jew can do great things together and be friends and help each other and achieve great things together marriage is a certain type of relationship married is a relationship soul to soul it's two halves of one soul the Jewish soul the non-jewish soul are different souls they can't connect on that level practically speaking you can't expect the non-jewish spouse to feel about Auschwitz the way the Jew feels about Auschwitz or to feel about Israel the way that you feels about Israel not because he or she is not good it's because we're family and since we're family we have a certain relationship with fam that I can expect her or he to die for the same things I'm ready to die for when you understand what marriage is it's a connection soul to soul the souls become one you understand that it's healthier and happier for the Jew in the mandrew to have borders to have boundaries and then they can actually appreciate each other and respect each other by being who you are you can give more to somebody else then by making believe that you are not who you are not but this is a very difficult concept he tried this man tried to cover up on this to remove the borders to remove the boundaries but you could heard he made a holy perforated that's how he would protect his mother he's a Bennish mystery so what he couldn't accept the place of the Jewish people in the world he couldn't expect he couldn't he couldn't respect the place of Shabbos in the world he couldn't respect the place of the base McNish in the world because the divine energy comes into the world in three ways eylem tion and nefesh place time and spirits place the base HaMikdash jerusalem the holy temple was the conduit of divine energy time Shabbos Saturday the seventh day of the week that's the de transcendental oasis an island and time just like there are islands in space and nefesh in spirit and soul it's the Jewish people who were chosen to serve as sources of inspiration kindness and morality to the world not to be more arrogant to be more humble in the presence of God these are the channels mayor lama yatza this man left his world he couldn't understand appreciate his world he couldn't appreciate Shabbos he couldn't appreciate his place in the community of Israel as unique place so he fought he cursed because he wanted to be in the tribe of Don but there are distinctions to our borders now why couldn't they accept it what was the reason the reason has to do with the fact that except boundaries you need humility you have to understand that you are you but you're not everything and you can't have everything and you don't need to have everything now there are two types of relationships that a person has with other people with God sometimes have a relationship you know I love you I'll be here for you I'll do anything for you but with one condition I have to be there I have to be part of it it's ultimately about me there's another type of relationship I'm so connected to I'm so committed to you even if I realize that for the sake of you and for the sake of this cause I have to separate that is also fine for me because it's not about me it's not about my ego I can deal with rejection in a much more profound way this man came screaming I want to be among the tribe of Don where my mother is I want to be a full-fledged Roo I won't be in there and they said you were drew your mother is Jewish you were true that's not a question there on bond explains it at length you were Jew but here you don't belong this is not your place once he heard that and moisture confirmed that he cursed why you want to be a Jew you want to be part of the member of Dunn family because you cherished it you value at the Jewish structure the Jewish religion so what now that the Jewish religion says you can't be a while you're cursing I don't understand if you couldn't care less about it why do you want to be here who cares you here you there you there you want to be here because you appreciate the structure if you appreciate the structure the structure says you don't belong here why can't you accept it the answer to this is because he was a Bennish mystery there is a difference the relationship between the Jew and God the relationship of the non Jew and God lisam of the Jew and God is if you don't want me that's fine that's part of my service to you sometimes I serve God through being embraced and being connected and sometimes I'm rejected and that's also service and I accept it fully knowing that God wants me not to be here that's fine I'm serving God by going away by not being part of it this level II couldn't deal with I'll be here if I could be part of it the moment I hear God's desire is that you should not be part of this you should go away suddenly threw it away the Talmud conveys this point through a very powerful story bring up source number six the Talmud says that when Messiah comes all the nations of the world are gonna come to get their reward so God says what about the tour and the mitzvahs like I offer them to you you rejected it so they'll give all these excuses so God says you know what let me experiment with one Mitzvah build a sucker it shook his bill desuka so the Talmud says source number six that we desired of gimel bring up number six me add colada at night to avoid loquacious suka bearish God every Gentile goes and builds a suit on the top of his roof for Kadesh Miroku Magnarelli Mohammed covers Tomas and God brings out the Sun in the midst of the summer at Koufos Thomas the summer equinox it's boiling hot the color a vessel / Circosta me I'd say each one of them kicks the sucker and goes out because it's too hot boiling your swanee they kick the souq and they leave so the gomorrah says well my Rob emits tired Potter - look the halacha is that if the sukkah is aggravating if it's painful to sit there you're exempt so the druid also leave the sucker the talmud answers nay the potter beauty meme avati he's exempt from the soaker but does they have to kick the sucker what's the explanation if God brings out the Sun this is before air conditions God brings out that summons boiling in the sukkah so you're not worthy to do the Mitzvah he's not accepting you in the souq it's pouring rain or it's boiling out you leave the sukkah but why kick the sucka why are you getting angry at the sukkah there's two types of relationships one relationship is I want to do this look I want to do the Mitzvah I want to be connected to you I want to enjoy you but I want to be there to enjoy it I want to enjoy the relationship I want experience the ecstasy it's about you but it's ultimately about me there's a narcissism here I never transcend in myself but what if I know if for the sake of the cause of the sake of the relationship it's better if I'm gone oh here you have to have a deeper relationship here you have to have the humility you have to be able to surrender your ego that the gomorrah sister shamed shaky Balti Scarola preach the caca our do Chicago caboose Carol apprecia just like I got reward for expounding on that reward for separating from going away you know sometimes in a relationship you have to be close and sometimes for the sake of the relationship you have to let go of this person and some people say no I'll die for you but I have to be there I'm not gonna separate from you I can give you space I have to be there a deeper relationship is it's not about you so if you know that God wants you not to be in the sukkah you're being rejected you can celebrate it with the same joy and the same depth as though you were invited to the suka why because that's what he wants that's his will it's not about me it's about fulfilling his will and if you need me to be out of here that's fine you know they tell the joke that there was once a husband comes on Friday afternoon and my good Jewish husbands he comes to the kitchen starts eating the kugel and the cholent and the meat and the fish cause he's starving and the woman after praying for Shabbat she doesn't what are you doing in the kitchen don't you see I'm working hard it's a balligan so he says what do you want me to do she says I want he says I want to help she says help me says okay let me help you Vee chemic their health and how can I help you she says you want to help me get out of the house okay see he goes to Sheol for an hour and a half to help his wife he comes home after an hour and half and again he's in the kitchen nibbling on the food so she says of us yes what happened now he says Ville is a shear alpha how long can I help you for I helped you an hour and a half Alan can I help you there are two types of relationships and one drew celebrates the rejection the distance because that's also from God but for that you have to have bitly after humility you have to appreciate that there's a place for you and there's a place where you don't belong and you can find yourself even in the place where you don't belong because that itself is the will of God and this he could not deal with why couldn't he deal with it because he was a Ben ish mystery his father was the Egyptian this will explain that relationship with Cayenne what was the problem of Cayenne why did Cayenne kill heaven because he needed everything the meddra says Rashi brings he fought about the matter says he fought with Cayenne about who the world belongs to Cayenne needed everything he fought with heavily Evelyn an extra twin sister so the question was who gets this twin sister Cayenne was born with a twin and Heather was born with a twin Kai and Mary his twin 'evil married its to it there was an extra twin sister Cayenne killed Heather cause he wanted a twin sister the word Cayenne comes from the word Kenyon which means acquisition the world have the word heaven means vanity for Kai and the philosophy of life is acquisition I must own everything I must be everywhere Hevel is much more humble so when God doesn't accept kaien sacrifice what does he do he gets angry he can deal with the rejection although God says I don't want your sacrifice that's the will of God that is the will of God that's also a relationship with God sometimes a relationship with God is I want your sacrifice and sometimes I don't want your sacrifice Judaism teaches that's also a relationship in a way it's a very profound relationship the fact that you don't belong here is also a relationship kyon couldn't deal with the moment God rejected Cain's offering he got angry and he kills his brother heaven this Egyptian that my she killed was a reincarnation of Cayenne it's beyond the scope of the class but I result teaches that kyon was reincarnated into three people shiva siam you come call Mike and cayenne Shiva call every kind Shiva same you come history career at MIT Surrey the neshamah of kine was reincarnated into Jethro the Ruach of khang was reincarnated into Kyra the nefesh the lowest level of kyon was reincarnated into mam into midst into the Egyptian moisture was a reincarnation of heaven Chi and kill devil and have all the blood of heavily screaming from the earth so now my should did the same to the reincarnation of kind he hit kyon in the earth in their Egyptian slime is mazda3 according to the Rizal was a reincarnation of a certain part of the extra twin of have o and therefore this Egyptian came after her because he was a reincarnation of kyon moisturi Ben who's a reincarnation of heavens this Egyptian now he has a son and the son cannot accept his place and identity it's sometimes you scream unity unity but really it's a form of jealousy you lack the humility to be able to acknowledge that you are what you are cherish it but you're not everything this is the source of so much jealousy I see you're doing this you're having it and I can deal with it I get angry I get frustrated but you are you and I am I nobody can take away from you what your real contribution is no one will deprive you from it make peace with yourself embrace yourself and that requires good self-confidence but it requires simultaneously profound humility sometimes what sounds like unity is a form of self agra I have to be everywhere and I cannot acknowledge Who I am you are a person your father was an Egyptian your mother when mother was Jewish it was a painful and tragic story but this is who you are now you have your place in the world your role in the world don't in the name of the shame try to cover up all the borders and make believe they don't exist and the very fact of what he did showed that he was different because his father was who his father was he could not deal with the rejection of my truck and what does he do he curses God in Emory we have about K&M who are blemished and they can't work in the temple in the same portion does that mean they rejected he they rejected from working on the temple but that's a relationship what does it mean it's a relationship the very fact that they know God wants them not to be there that's the way they relate to him they can respect it they can appreciate it in a relationship you have to be able to appreciate that and what's the result of this the result of this is he gets stoned it's not just physically it spiritually psychologically sila being stoned spiritually psychologically means you become stoned in the sense that the heart and the mind becomes stone like plugged it doesn't a mote does it's not responsive anymore there no there's no fluidity there's no life there's no vitality it's like the person becomes completely stone like because they detach themselves from their own source of energy from the own source of vitality Mayer Lama yatza the problem was he went out of his own world he couldn't embrace his world he couldn't embrace his source of life his source of energy his own place his own relationship he couldn't deal with Shabbos he couldn't deal with the base--emitter she couldn't deal with his place in the camp and as a result of that what happens is the person becomes desensitized when we curse others in Yiddish it says miss shields if I curse myself I'm cursing others I'm angry at others it's really a form of not accepting myself so there's a certain deadness in the person a lack of inspiration and that's expressed by the scylla by the stones that cover this person I want to conclude with a story perhaps I want to share this story but this is a story worth repeating and worth remembering two story about the two great brothers the Hasidic masters the holy river novella melech of legend sck and the Holy Writ sucia of Ana Paula they would travel visit their brethren and they traveled as disguised beggars they were beggars but they disguised their righteousness their scholarship later they became great masters than I am Alamelu had male attribution and once somebody informed upon them to the police and they were thrown into a dungeon which was filled with people and the circumstances there very bad to the extent there was no bathroom instead of a bathroom in the corner of the room imagine there was a bucket a pail which people used when they needed to tend to their needs in the morning rep sucia sees his brother of mela reveille mela weeping brother why are you crying he says and he says because I can't Davin I can't pray according to Jewish law you now let it pray to God in the place where there's such a horrible odor sort of Azusa says new so why are you crying you won't a venerable a mother says it's the first day it's the first day I'm not gonna be able to pray to God Cerebus so you won't pray to God he says what do you mean I need my relationship with God to be functional to be effective to be Who I am I need to connect the first thing in the morning I have to connect to my own essence to the essence of reality to the score of the cosmos what is God God is the essence of reality that's the Jewish understanding of God God is the essence of the self at the essence of identity if I don't connect with my own essence I'm detached from my very self I'm detached from my source of life I can't function I need a pray I need my relationship with God sort of Azusa says today you'll also have a relationship with God how through not praying the same God who wants you to pray every day states that his will is that if there's a horrible smell you shouldn't pray so by not praying you will fulfill God's will when you fulfill God's will you connect to God so today you will connect to God by fulfilling his will and not praying you won't pray and that will be your relationship and rebellion Allah says wow I didn't think of this you're right and instead of crying he starts singing and they both start singing and it's two Hasidic Jews so they start dancing and in a few minutes they had the whole room dancing with that it was Purim and some costura dancing Cassatt's 'kiss ecstatic everybody was having fun and celebrating dancing away with the two jews absolution of LML there's dancing in the middle the prison warden hears the commotion he runs into the cell and he sees everybody's dancing he calls over one over the non-jews and he says the Simic Amazo is it what's destroy what's this festivity what's this dancing the guy says I don't know the Jews are guilty as usual they instigated everything he says you tell me right now why they're dancing why they're so happy and the trembling man points to the bucket and the warning says what is so exciting about that bucket why is that making them so happy and he says I don't know but somehow they explained that as a result of the bucket they developed a new type of relationship with their gods there was the pre bucket relationship and the post bucket relationship before the bucket they had one relationship with God and now because of the bucket they have a different relationship with God the prison warden says aha I will teach these Jews a lesson and he takes the pail he takes the bucket and he throws it out of the room the position turns cerebellum elephant says but dude their brother now you could start governing now you could begin prank the moral of the story one of them is we're always in a relationship sometimes we connect through prayer and sometimes you're asked to connect it through not praying but it's always a relationship sometimes I connect through getting close and sometimes God says now it's time for you to be far virus some what can we ride and that's also a relationship because you have your identity your mission your story your energy and you connect to the ultimate unity through the conduit through the partitions that were transmitted to you have a wonderful night [Music] [Applause] [Music] [Applause] I [Music]