The Spies Did Not Believe That Primal Drives Can Be Healed

[Music] good morning everybody we're going to begin momentarily today's class is dedicated by very very dear people jackie and wilson go in honor of jackie's beloved brother who died at the age of 22 on june 25th may your brother jackie john jones soul find peace comfort and solace dedicated with love by jackie and wilson may his soul rest in peace and continue to serve as a beacon of inspiration and blessing for you and all of your loved ones and thank you very much may god bless you in all of your endeavors materially and spiritually and to continue to be ambassadors of love light hope and truth in the philippines and throughout our entire world thank you so please turn in your source sheets to page 149 chapter eight this is the last paragraph of the mimer it begins while pisa yuvan you see val pisa yuvan indian tennis in this paragraph we have the summation of the entire mimer valpiza yuvon based on everything that we learned now we'll finally understand indian titus ameraglam the deeper meaning in the taina in the complaint in the lamentation in the revolt of the spies they said that eric's israel the nations the tribes living in the land of canaan are more powerful than he there is no way the spies said that we can enter the land and defeat our enemies and conquer this set the region and settle there it's impossible the spies as we remember came down they came back from their visit and they alarmed the nation and they inculcated into their hearts profound panic hysteria and terror and they made them so emotionally traumatized by the prospects of entering into the land telling them that everybody will die by the sword their wives and their children so even if the adult men were ready to fight but who wants to see their families be killed be slain and they said everybody will be slain in battle there will be no mercy you are dealing with giants you're dealing with fortified cities muscular men powerful mighty ferocious warriors who will simply late waste the entire nation of israel we simply don't have the ability we don't have the capacity to enter into the land as they put it it's a land that eats up its inhabitants it will consume all of us so now we're going to understand after this whole long moment we're going to understand this conversation but we're not discussing it from a physical point of view in terms of conquering the physical land which is a particular geographical region in the middle east we have a principle in shabbos says should be extricated from its literal meaning so there's always the basic literal story of the spies going to the land and coming back and dissuading the people from entering everybody's overtaken by fear they say we're not going and they weep the whole night etc but there's also in turn as we discussed so many times there's many layers of interpretation and they're all interconnected they all evolve from each other just like tears evolve from deeper emotions and the tears are very physical the emotions are not necessarily tangible with your hand but they are the cause of the tears so every story in terror operates on different layers there's the layer of the story that is very tangible and concrete and physical and practical and then there are the deeper layers of the story the emotional layers the spiritual layers the metaphysical layers and they're all interconnected and they're all true that's why we say interred is shot and remembers and russian side paradise in other words there's different dimensions and different perspectives there's different lenses through which you can capture each story just as when you tell me a story i can hear the story and experience it from different perspectives depending on which glasses i'm wearing depending on which lenses i'm employing in order to look at that story right the same person can tell two people a story but the two people heard different stories somebody maybe who has more sensitive lenses or who has deeper lenses or more penetrating lenses here's in that same story a deeper dynamic or momentum that is unfolding which the other person would not hear they just take the story at face value so the zohar says apartheid on to the person who strips tighter from its inner meanings and only sees the external layer the physical layer that the soyuz says woe is somebody who's only sees a body and doesn't see the soul inside of it and he calls it the circles that gopher dayrise and the shmasa dairy the body of tyra and the soul of terror so this is a very important fundamental intro for all the memorial that we learn because basically siddhis is what's called pinimya satya nishmasa rice this goofy rice it is the body of tyre like the physical body of tyre and that's the way the divine wisdom assumes a physical concrete incarnation and then there is nishmasa there is the soul of terror which vivifies the body so here is a classic example for this we have the story of the spies the story of the spice on a literal level is about ten spies versus two spies who had this great debate if the jews can ever enter into this land and the ten prevailed and there was a national hysteria and the jewish people decided we're not going into the land let's go back to egypt better to have died in egypt and live there as slaves then just and then die and natural death as slaves then go into the land of israel try to be free and get killed but now here after this whole mind we're going to explore and find the meaning of the story from a deeper spiritual point of view so he says now we'll understand what the miragum said that the people in israel the nations the tribes and canaan are more powerful than he and our sages say they don't say that the people there are more powerful than us they say they're more powerful than he who's he so our sages say it's talking this is an expression from the gemara insight that he burned in the beginning of the miami even the master doesn't have the power to take out his own vessels from the house even he has no access it's like you'll say this house was taken by thugs the squatters have to overtaken the house and even the owner balabayas can't go in and take out his furniture he can't take out his couch he can't take out his safe he can't take out his utensils himself can take out the caleb which is an incredible accusation that the spies say that even god himself so to speak lost control he lost he can't do it it's too powerful even for him what does what does all of this mean so again we have the explanations on a literal love but this my mirrors now says that they're also talking about a deeper layer of existence there's a famous expression of one of the great kabbalists which means the stories of town are really talking about spiritual realities they intimate to physical realities the ramban put it a little differently he said the torah is talking about physical realities but alluding to spiritual realities what this means is that all of the stories in the torah really can be read as an internal dialogue between different parts of your own brain yes the stories employ people and names and regions but essentially those are metaphors those are physical illustrations of an inner story of an inner dialogue of an inner conversation that's happening in you so the conflict between cayenne and heaven or joseph and his brothers or yitzhak and ishmael or yaakov and asaph they're all conflicts that happened in history but really says the ramen these are really internal spiritual conflicts the physical people are just a physical manifestation of those stories of those dialogues of those struggles of those challenges in a very tangible world which also explains what the matter says that two thousand years before the world there was a terror what it means most of the terrorists talking about stories post creation how could it be a terror hazal material islam two millennia pre-creation was there a terrorist the whole torah is about creation and post-creation the patriarchs and the matriarchs and the tribes and the descent into egypt and the egyptian exile and the egyptian bondage and emancipation and the sinai and the journeys in the desert and the building of the sanctuary and moshe's passing all the way at the end well what do you mean it was the 2000 years before creation and i thought that creation also created time so it was not 2 000 years before creation time itself is a creation the answer one of the answers to this is that when we're learning about torah we see terror as physical stories of physical characters that happen at a particular moment in time and at a particular location in space which is all true but there is a higher dimension of terror where all of it is essentially a spiritual reflection on some of the most important truths of existence and beyond existence this is a fundamental understanding as a prelude to the entire perspectives to the perspectives of kabbalistic and hasidic teachings into almost all the stories of the tyre and here is a classic example the rebbe sees the debate between the spies the ten spies and the two spies as a struggle happening between the mind and the heart between our primal drives and the other things going on in our psyche and we now go back to all of the pieces of the puzzle that we spoke about in earlier classes and this has been a long stretch so we now come to the eighth chapter it's really the ninth inning but it's the eighth chapter the grand finale so now says the rabbit listen to his words the tiny the complaint the fear of the spies was authentic you're not talking about lies falsehood so now you're going to tell me what do you mean it says that the miragum was chakron they were liars the fact that the nation accepted what they said and the fact that moshe sent ten twelve of the greatest leaders of israel kulam russia bene israel they were all leaders they were qualified people my shows them he picked them he hand picked them and he sent them rashid says they were great people when they were sent he says this means that they were saying something profound they were saying something authentic because if one understands how intense and how primal the midos of a person are especially the medes of toyu the midis of that our most primal state of being known as toyu the world of chaos you cannot introduce any influence of any influence of the intellectual faculties of cognition of reckoning of discernment of analysis of perspective of values they will not work in other words that are touching on some a very fundamental truth in a person's life and that is that the seven nations living in kanan are a metaphor for seven meadows so when we speak about going to the land and conquering and defeating the seven nations it's really metaphoric language for dealing with my own seven midis with my own primal drives and those primal drives are so intense are so powerful that nothing in my system can possibly even negotiate with them never mind suppress them never mind defeat them never mind change them that's not happening that's how he opened the mimer and from this the mimer went in to discuss what midos are and the power of me does and this is true even in middle east of tikkun never mind in middles of toyo and as he said right in the second chapter of the miami that the middles of a person are so primal and so intense they're pre-verbal they're prima shava they're pre-sacral and therefore they cannot be altered they cannot be changed and that's how we went into the whole explanation that motion there's always change in medicine is based on change it's based on growth it's based on exploring another angle another perspective reversing my position of yesterday it's the openness to constantly change and that's what a real abomination is real intellectualism is the openness to constantly discover new things to expand my horizons to reverse my positions from yesterday the worst thing for an intellectual for a scientist is to remain stuck in a position based on biases and blind spots it's the greatest danger to any science to any intellectual discovery in any branch of wisdom in any field of wisdom whether it's mathematics or medicine whether it's psychology or cosmology astrophysics whatever it is and the certainly entire that way it's always the openness for new things that i miss a detail that i miss uh angle did i miss a layer did i not understand the question well did i miss this proof there's always that growth and that change me does he says the middle east he said europe these are your innate primal drives and proclivities it says they capture who i am it's not what i have what i possess it's who i am and i have to respect that in me i have to respect it of my spouse i have to respect it in my children and i have to respect that in other people and all of that void in the middle is that we speak about the rebel says all of that that we speak about changing your middles he went through in chapter two what that all means i could change how they're harnessed how they're channeled how they're expressed but the core of the media he says is not changeable and the reason is because the media is a mirror media is a primal drive it's a mirror of characteristics that are embedded in the essence of my soul and he gave an example that is the difference between rotsen and segal is something the soul has it possesses it cultivates but it's independent of the soul and even when there is no eye that my ideas can still remain for posterity rot saying by definition is i want when there's no i there's no want the value of ruxin is that i want it as we explained this at length the value of rutsen the value of cecil is not that i said it it's that there's an idea there's an idea outside of me it's in me i cultivated it i developed it i believe it i think about it i wrote it down i publicized it but it's not me the definition of an idea is not me the definition of an idea is me it's not a real idea the definition of desire is i i want i want if there's no eye the whole point of rutsen is gone and that's why he said with wrought sign there's no big ruts and small rocks anyone say oh this doesn't really have value this ruts and get rid of it because the value of rotzoid is not the thing i want it's that i want it and if i want it that is what gives it the value it's very important in relationships this is so important we did a marriage workshop a few nights ago here in muncie so i opened it up and uh marcia zev lam who's a marriage therapist here in muncie did the workshop we had a very nice crowd here for muncie people drove him from cincinnati 10 hours from manhattan which is not which is an hour but it was really nice so we're continuing it next tuesday next tuesday night about how to communicate with your spouse but he shared a story of of a person who came to him for therapy it was so meaningful and very emotional story there was this boy there was this uh father i guess he went on a trip anyway i don't know exactly the circumstances but he bought gifts for his children so for the older children he bought a pen a nice pen a parker pen or another fancy pen and for the little ones there were two little ones i think a three-year-old and an eight-year-old and he gave them he bought them a little fire fire engine truck okay so the three-year-old got the fire engine truck and i think the eight maybe the six-year-old or the eight-year-old a little bit older got the got the fire and drunk and the older kids got the pen the problem is that the three-year-old's fire truck broke i don't know the battery died or it broke it broke so it was hysterical he was crying and crying and he was hysterical nouveau stuttman the six-year-old didn't want to give up his fire truck his fire engine right so the older boy was an older boy i guess the teenager and he says i have an idea let's give the six-year-old a pen i'll give him my pen because he's a big boy and he'll give the fire engine truck to the three-year-old because our six-year-old is already a very big boy so lovingly the father took away the fire truck from the six-year-old and gave him a pen because he's a big boy and he gave the fire truck to the three-year-old and everybody kept on telling him what a big boy he is and therefore he gives the fire truck to his brother and he ends up with a pen it seems like a nice story right and everybody was of course very thankful to the older boy who gave up his pen to calm down the three-year-old and mr lam says 20 years later 30 years later this person is sitting in his office and crying and he says that all night he cried that big boy who lost his fire truck that six-year-old cried all night that he lost his fire truck he didn't want the pen he didn't want the pen he didn't want to be the big boy he was forced to be the big boy but for him the fire truck was so much more important because this is what he wanted in terms of objective value we know what is more important but my desire is not about objective value it's about what i want and that's such an important idea so for 20 20 years he carried this and he had to cry it out years later he said all night he was crying in his room he couldn't show it why couldn't he show it because he was the big boy he didn't want to be humiliated even more but 20 years later he was having a difficulty expressing emotions to his spouse and to his children because he shut down many of his emotions that night because the feeling was too painful now you could say oh that's part of growing up somebody in the crowd said oh that's life that's just growing up that's how life works it's true that's exactly how life works but we have to acknowledge these little stories which seem insignificant but they're very significant because these emotional memories in a child's life when you're an adult can impact you so significantly and they're paralyzing me and they're suppressing or destroying or eliminating or holding back a certain part of me that is so authentic and is so important for life and for the joys of life with the experience of life but i can't have it because i shut down them so one has to be extremely sensitive to the difference of ratsen and seiko so he says midis is the way rothside comes down in a lower space in those drives and then emotions that i have but it's a manifestation of razan which is the desire of the soul and in a way he said it's even deeper than ratsu so when the miragulum say the seven meadows are untouchable do not try to change them do not try to silence them do not try to repress them my primal drives are non-negotiable immutable they are ferocious they are primal they are innate they are essential and because of that they're untouchable there's no way we can go and tear it to israel we the jewish people go and take israel again this is a metaphor for the seven midos of tahu whose intensity is incredibly powerful so therefore the miraculous say the whole concept of michigan has no role to play you're going to introduce intellect you're going to introduce ideas you're going to introduce values they have absolutely no role to play and there ever says this is a taina amites this is real stuff because if you don't understand that this is real there's no getting to step two you have to understand how real the statement of the miraculous you have to understand that it's a tiny mythicist this is not a fake thing people want to ignore their primal job say it's nothing grow up be a man very often when we grow up we understand or we're made to understand the concept of bitter or the concept of morality or the concept of values or the concept of avidis hashem as a path in which you have to disregard your pettiness disregard your emotions because come on just be a person be a man be a woman be a mensch there's truth this is what god wants you say yeah but i experienced this and this is what i'm dealing with i don't care just grow up what do they tell you grow up don't be a baby don't be a cry baby fire engine that's what you're looking for a fire engine truck i'm giving you a pen i can give you a check for ten thousand dollars you'll say no give me a lollipop lollipop cost uh 25 cents okay today maybe 90 cents a lollipop i'm giving you a check for 10 000 bucks makes a lot of sense right so we often understand or we could understand that the idea of serving god of of being a good person of living a moral life living a life based on torah and mitzvahs what does that mean that means that i disregard i have to disregard a certain part of me the part of me that is that is petty that is babyish that is childlike that may have all these types of emotions like forget it get out of it this mimer is telling us something very shocking the way to transcendence travels through my middles and maybe take this with a grain of salt the way to transcendence travels through my pettiness because what you're calling petty what i'm calling petty is just the concrete manifestation of a deeper drive my primal drive that ebb says in this moment that the midis are not created by seiko they're they're affected by seiko but they're not created by seiko the midos is who i am and you cannot serve god if you don't know who you are you certainly could you could serve god but it's not going to be so wholesome and you cannot be in a relationship if you don't know who you are you can't be in a relationship that is real if your eye is not present in that relationship and if my middays are mirrors of my eye i have to be able to respect them to embrace them to give them a voice so that they can be present in this relationship with my wife with my husband with my child with god with myself and with anybody else in the world did you understand what i just said we have mikhail from sydney you're with us you understand you're trying to understand i don't know if you can understand this you have to feel this now as i said that we spoke in previous year this media is in their source there's the way media has come down as visceral emotions that i'm feeling in my body whatever that is i'm feeling angry i'm feeling sad i'm feeling lonely i'm feeling anxious i'm stressed i'm feeling anxiety i'm feeling frustrated misunderstood resentful right negative i'm feeling animosity i'm feeling a lot of fear those are very visceral emotional reactions and you could say just ignore them they're nothing they're they're stupid they're immoral they're coming for me it's a heart he says wait you have to understand that these are simply the way your primal drives your deep deepest medicine which is pre-verbal prima pre-sale higher than they're being manifested now sale does play a significant role because as he says sekhal serves as a maramaka it labels and categorizes people and experiences and things to be able to show the primal drives where to be expressed and how to be expressed this is dangerous zone this is a positive zone so let's say my spouse tells me something or your spouse tells you something and you're feeling misunderstood were you feeling rejected and therefore you're feeling very lonely and that's painful and it creates a distance that may be a very physical tangible emotion that you push it you could feel it in your body it's not just an idea it's not just an idea it's not a piece of gemara it's a feeling it's an emotion it's an emotion you may be exploding with it you may be imploding it may be benign it may be very intense what was the role of seikol here took the words that your spouse said and labeled them as being a message that undermines your connection to each other those words were processed by your mind as words that represent the fact that you are lonely that you're misunderstood in this marriage listen carefully but why does loneliness make you feel rejected why does loneliness make you feel bad why doesn't it make you feel good that is because you have a primal drive that you want to be attached you want to be connected you don't want to be lonely lloyd so the way this primal drive was channeled and the way it came out was that right now you are very upset and you feel so misunderstood by your spouse and you go into your own world and you may space out you may tune out you may detach or you may get angry you may get passive aggressive whatever it is your sacral played a role in how a channel was channeled and how it emerged how it was birthed as he said seiko are the mothers and the fathers who birth a child they birth the medics into being that's why we have a mommy but the mommy doesn't create the soul of the child saccharo doesn't create the media the media is pre-verbal pre-sec everything the media comes from the etzeman effect the essence of the song come to miraglum and say just let it go don't go into your primal drives just let it go and that would mean that if my primal drives are wounded if my primal drives have been hijacked by toxicity by trauma just let them go there's nothing you can do and this is where the miraculous say we cannot conquer that space and the rabbit says their time is ms why because cannot have a say into the world of midas midness are too ferocious they're too real they're too primal they're too innate they transcend your seiko cannot have an impact we cannot conquer the seven meters there are two ferocious they are too powerful they are too intense leave it alone leave it alone wow you understand the seriousness of this so if my primal drives have been wounded their expression has been wounded which is what real trauma does the miragulum say it's just too powerful sahel has no say because sekhal is not a bala bus they come before me they come before segal they're like don't tell me what to do don't tell me how to feel don't tell me how to experience i was here before you i'm bigger than you i'm stronger than you you want to fight i'll kill you and the more sacral tries the more middles prevail and as he said before in the miami not only does sachel not have ownership over the middle seca doesn't even show up in their world seiko doesn't even show up secular is an erp nami a neuropathy can only affect others by going into their world and these middles are untouchable now comes the other side ah after you understand this or you feel this you get this caller can vanender conveyor when khaled silences the whole people to my is khalif silences the whole nation to maisha what does it mean to maisha surashi says he starts speaking about my he says this is the only thing that marsha did he took us and everyone thought he was going to start slandering marsh and then he spoke about the greatness of my says there's another interpretation of he directs the attention of the nation he silences them through maisha what's my masha tells the jewish people more than once in humish and pasha's bashal and he says what are we that you're attacking us what is says ma represents two words the kayak of what represents bittle what is bittle bittle is the ability to say ma what it's the ability to wonder to be inquisitive to be curious it's the ability not to be fixed in any type of comfort zone intellectual or emotional it's the ability to say the strength the power the faculty the capacity to say my what that's why is always responsible for discovery is the seminal point that shows up in your brain in your mind it's the epiphany aha if the light bulb goes off it's the lightning and the thicket of darkness is a lightning and suddenly you see it and say ah i got it always comes from a place of deep deep humility deep intellectual humility when i suspend my intellectual ego and i open myself up to a new truth that has transcended me and eluded me until this very moment and opens me up to this because my ability to say ma i don't know i am not the master i am not the expert it's like in a relationship the greatest relationships aren't the relationships in which i know you when i put you in a box it's the relationships where i continuously open myself up to learn more about you with humility and respect and compassion and you do the same for me and then you we help each other do the same for ourselves do i really know me do i know me how can i know you if i don't even know me and i have spent a lot of time with myself do you know you but when i realize that i don't know you and i'm open to that discovery so then i help you realize that you don't know you and you yourself are open to that discovery that's all part of also means something else it's the kayak of mah it's the kayak of bittel ma means what i don't have a fixed model ego is the antithesis of ma mursh rabbeinu said about himself i am a channel this is not about nepotism it's not about dictatorship it's not about me owning your life and that's what represents in a person it's the kayak to say matt the quest to say what and it's the kayak that allows itself to become a channel for something larger than it because it's not based on identity it's the ability to go beyond identity vayas kalivasam al-maisha khalif silence is the nation to maisha in response to miragulum and then the mind and the heart can make peace then the middles can be affected in the most positive sense by the mike through the bittle of mushroom and this is what we remember the whole last piece of the mime when he discussed how can mike can have any impact on meters the primal drive is untouchable that's what the miragum are saying and it's true and the fact is that maison do impact middles in more than one way first of all as i said before they're the mirror mocking they label things they categorize things even deeper than that the motion are responsible for the development of midis from the amygdala to the limbic brain to the prefrontal cortex from the middles of an infant and a toddler and a child growing up to more developed middles to the middles that are more mature and this is constantly happening in people's lives but how does that even happen how does sacho love any say into that world of medes and the answer is because real sacral is not about sacral it's not about i understand it's about introducing me to bittel introducing me to the ainslief opening me up to the infinity that encompasses everything and is the source of everything including the source of all the primal drives you're right when we have we have difficult experiences that shock us and it's hard for us to make peace with them they don't assimilate easily into our system we have to really embrace them with silence we have to really pay tribute to all of the emotions that are coming up and to all of the experiences that are coming up to all of our visceral reactions and that will open us up to the primal drives that we have and you don't get rid of those primal drives but you can open up the primal drives to the silence of moisture moisture couldn't speak moisture was a quad power quad lushen he told god i'm not a man of words i am pre-verbal don't defeat and change your primal drives through arguments through rationalizations through justifications through external pressure or internal pressure surpassed i got to be a person i got to be a mensch oh yeah yeah your primal tribes will will win that war but only if you can introduce real bitter what's real bitter real bittle means the space where my eye meets god's eye the space where i can recognize the ain't safe the infinite the ability to be able not to label things not to categorize things you see seikel has two aspects to it one is the intellectual need to label to categorize to define which is amazing but that's the external part of cycle the real internal part of circle is to open myself up to the source to allow everything to be traced back to its original core and the original core of everything is inserted my primal drives also come from there so when seikel especially which bittle opens me up to that space now my primal drives themselves open themselves up to growth they themselves don't become uptight they open up i'll give you an interesting example you know every fruit has seeds that allow for the procreation of the fruit every plant comes with a method it's brilliant how this was made that it should be able to generate regenerate and if you study fruits you'll see that every fruit based on the quality and the nature and the climate and the region where it grows has seeds that are most conducive to guarantee it's procreation it's incredible the wisdom here and there's always a method how is this seed going to get replanted sometimes it needs the wind to scatter it to blow it away sometimes the water sometimes it has its own wings its own airplanes its own parachutes you know the dandelion its own parachute that goes there are seeds that naturally people swallow and then they come out with the excrement which traditionally was done in the earth and then it gets planted again same is true animals who eat these vegetables or fruits these fruits an interesting thing is about the peach the peach you know the pit inside the peach it contains the seeds that's why it's so hard because they didn't want you just to destroy the pit because then the seeds get destroyed so those that pit in the middle of the peach is so powerful because it contains the treasure it contains the seed now try cracking open that pit you can't it is so tough you can't crack it open but here's the miracle of nature you take the see this the pit of the peach and you put it into the earth and the earth has those elements those nutrients that the pit just opens up and the seeds emerge and they're replanted and a new peach tree can grow you take a hammer say i'm gonna beat this pit up i'm gonna crush it good luck you can be a mighty guy take the pit it's gonna win you you put it in the earth it opens up he says you're going to fight the midas you're missing the point but you put the midnightest into you put him into the middles vayas khalifa become flexible they become open they're not threatened you didn't beat the primal drives by negating their authenticity no you introduced a siphon to them and that's the power of my sin to affect middles that's why mayhem could be a marimokum for middles that's why mayhem can develop midas into ibor into unika into mayhem everything he discussed earlier in the mime why and this is where healing comes from because this takes the primal drives back to their own source it takes them deeper into themselves it takes them back to their own iron and whenever anything goes back to its own eye into its own source gives you access to that iron then it can be it can be healed it can be recreated it can become vulnerable and let go and be reprogrammed so to speak so my primal middle is i'm not going to change this is my eye creates a link between your primal middles between the midis and the source of midas because our middles come from hashem's middays but hashem's middles himself don't define his own infinity they're just a channel for his infinity so when i can align the middays with the source of ainsaif what now happens is that my primal drives can have all the comfort that they need the validation that they need and therefore the healing that they need and the interplay between mayhem and middles is not one in which michael tries to suppress or repress or undermine or mitigate or compromise or crush middles but rather it creates alignment between the midis and the encyf and therefore peace can reign and that's the real function of sekhal in a person's life and that's why khalif said three things to the people of israel we can go up into the land we can you say we can't i say we can second allah neither we will ascend third we are rashnu it's that realization that you should never ever be afraid of your primal drives because as long as you can introduce moisture and you have which is essentially panemia's attic ponemius attic as he said earlier in the mime midis down here are a mirror of razor and down and a lower space is a mirror of tainog that's optic that's the pyramid is don't be afraid of your primal drives you don't have to battle it the miragulum said we're going to battle it and we'll be killed in the process he said no yo you're not paralyzed people feel all their emotions and they get so scared of what they're feeling and therefore either i have to suppress them or repress them unconsciously or run away from them or space out or i become overwhelmed where i become desperate or i become depressed i feel like a loser don't worry your primal drives are not here to kill you we just need that taste of bittel we need that taste of ain't scythe we need to bring in the flavor of real real infinity real one is where my eye is not locked up in any form it's really a channel of pure infinity preverbal pre-sale even pre-media is pre-creation this is where my eye is not stuck in anything it's really open to the full grandeur of infinite oneness so don't be afraid of any emotion you could contain it because the real you is bitter which means it's a channel for the ain't self which transcends any form and any definition and any label and any category and any description that's yahoo and then he says first you have to know that i can stop saying stop saying i can't start saying i can as somebody once said whether you believe you can or you believe you can't you're probably right so the first thing you have to say stop being terrified by your emotions there's no emotion inside of you that should terrify you that should overwhelm you it's not comfortable i have to deal with it i have to work it through but don't don't surrender to this attitude to this mentality of defeat yahoo i can because the i is not an ego if the eyes comes from ego or the eye just comes from rationalizations of course you will lose that's what the miraculous said and they're right but ah if my eye is ready to embrace i am you're good you'll be great you'll rediscover yourself and the middles will find their ultimate infinity and then they're going to become channels for infinity all your primal drives really want is to channel infinity into their in this into this world that's what they really want so when you can align them with their own source there's recovery there's real recovery this is deep stuff alain i live it then means we're going to be able to go up which represents accessing the infinite light availability options but it's still ethereal it's still above your rash noise so then comes the third step we're going to inherit the lights shabbat says slapshoes when you yarsh in something you inherit something it becomes mine it becomes now manifested in me chazelle and shah tikkun yerish iris to tell you that the lights of toyo which are infinitely intense can ultimately be integrated into the world of tikkun iris the toyota caleb the tickle so that the lights of chaos are integrated into the the vessels of integration into the vessels of tikkun tikkun means the world of healing the world of correction the world of integration the world of balance this is toyo iris data represents my primal midais where there's i could be absolute toyo absolute chaos absolute apocalypse absolute intensity caleb of takonar the structures can they ever make peace the miraculous said they're never going to make peace there's no way if you want to live in the world of caleb you're going to live in a compromised mitigated fake false world and if you want to live in the world of iris to tell you you're going to live in a very intense and primal world but it's not a world that can be integrated and kalaev and yahushua are saying islam we can go up don't be afraid of though going up don't be afraid of those lights and then we irrationalize we can make those lights ours so now my primal drives of tikkun of tayu instead of making my life chaotic it becomes mine i integrate it i know how to use it i know how to allow it to propel my life forward not overwhelm me the purpose of creation was that hashem wanted to have a dear beth a dwelling place in the lowest elements of reality so the ultimate raise on the yatra of creation was that hashem says i want to live among you i want to have a deer a home a resident and in your home you're there with your entire essence that's what a home is a home is what do they say a home is the place that when you come there they have to let you in and a home is hopefully the place where you're not camouflaged you don't have to wear masks in your home pun intended the home is the place where you are you you're not there as a worker as an employee as a professional who's at home i am at home a home is a place where a husband and a wife and children want to be able to be fully themselves so when we say hashem wanted a deer used to say adira means that the atsumos is there hashem in his pure so to speak infinite state so the ultimate purpose was the synthesis is the integration between the infinite and the finite derivative that's on the macrocosm how does that begin in the microcosm that i should be able to create that link that unity that fusion between the iris of tayo and the calem of tikkun the iris of toyo represents the midos the seven meters of tayo which are ferocious which are primal pre-verbal prima chava pre-cycle even pre-middles of tikkun these are the midnights in their full intensity and when you go into that place inside of yourself there's no structure there's no organization there's no filters whatsoever it's very very powerful and it's very very scary and that's why the jews said okay we can't go there let's just not go there let's create a life let's create a judaism that is much more contained even if it's much more superficial let's be more superficial and more contained you know we'll smile to each other and we'll just get rid of that about that space on a deeper level what it means is once your prime primal drives are damaged once there is trauma there that's it and this is what the miragulum said no although we can allay naila we can go up all the way we don't have to be afraid and then furthermore we arrash we can make them ours your orders of toyo are not your enemies they're not the enemies of kalim of tikkun but the but the prerequisite for that is when you understand that the caleb of tikkun are here not to structure and kill the energy and the creativity but rather to allow the bittle to shine because that's what really is that's what sequel really is it's to be able to introduce you to the pure infinity which is not afraid of anything and can allow infinity to dwell in the finite because bitter is not fixed even in what looks like infinity that's also not bitter so now you can have the fusion of the two and then you fulfill the ultimate purpose of existence which is that hashem in his essence should dwell in this world in the lowest elements of reality this is this is the real mashiach this is ghoula consciousness question you spoke about intellectualism being open-minded does that mean i should be open-minded about the foundations of terror well the foundations of terror are true if you're struggling with questions and you're sincerely trying to understand then you should ask those questions judaism is not afraid of questions because it has answers there's no midst of it to introduce questions into somebody who doesn't have questions there's no commandment to do that because the foundations of terror are true but if you're really struggling with something it doesn't help to silence your mind and say oh i'm not allowed to ask i'm not that i ask means i have no answers so are you saying that we have to respect and acknowledge our core wants yes that's what we're learning that's part of what we're saying yes is the ego created by hashem with the soul or does it come naturally oh that's a complex question but generally speaking the ego that we were talking about is the ego that comes from brokenness from insecurity from the fact that i'm not a channel of infinity and therefore i have to replace that void by becoming stuck in a particular image that will give me validation next question if my eye is really a channel for infinity then what's left of it who is the one who is transcending himself great question well when your eye is a channel of infinity what's left of it is the divine your eye is a channel for hashem like the gemara says of somebody represents the one who sent him so when i'm your i am like you that's the i can do things as though you did them the power of agency in halal is that i become like you i become your representative so when i redefine myself as a sleek of hashem i am the manifestation of god in this world and that's the truest i that's the deepest die and that's the eye that's infinite and it's invincible and it's destructible it's the helicomi and that's where individual so we learn in the beginning of the mind when somebody said individuality is so powerful where's the place where individuality becomes one with everything and that's the real truth that we're learning here that medici are very much about individuation and do not try to destroy that and they're not trying to call that immature but if i can trace back my individuation to my own source which is ain't safe so then i don't have to be threatened by my individual my individuation on the contrary my individuation can become extremely extremely power it can become extremely powerful channel for infinity which part of the eye is the one that receives reward in heaven so the gemara in sanhedrin in chapter 11 discusses that it's basically the soul and the body together question from texas is it ever possible to have an emotional reaction that comes from stuff we have accumulated like unhealthy thinking a reaction to a negative experience and be completely disconnected from our primal middles or is it always connected in other words is it possible that sometimes our emotional reactions are really not coming from our middles they're coming from stuff that are toxic stuff that we accumulated unhealthy thoughts that we have developed from ourselves or from other people reactions to negative experiences and they're really disconnected from us completely or is it always connected or is the mimer saying that if i am having a strong reaction because of a previous negative experience it's actually not the experience i'm reacting to but the experience is just a trigger for my primal drives wow this is such a good question i have to compliment you for your question roboto what do you say about our students here we have the best and the brightest of america beautiful question and the answer to your question is i think what we're learning is the second option that you introduced if i'm having a strong reaction because of a previous negative experience or certain ways of thinking that you can call toxic destructive negative it's not only the experience i'm reacting to but the experience is triggering my primal drives but what's important to understand is that my primal drives here have been painted or traumatized or channeled or manipulated or went through a very intense experience because so let's say this kid who was bullied or god forbid abused or molested or neglected trauma with a capital t trauma with not a capital t you speak about negative experiences we go through in life what that causes me is that yeah i'm in a particular mode and because i'm in a particular mode i'm reacting to something that happens and we call it an emotional memory right i may be aware of what happened i may not be aware of what happened i'm just experiencing a very intense emotion that was triggered because of all of these negative experiences that occurred in my life that caused me to think certain ways and process things certainly so that's all true and you have to acknowledge that but i have to acknowledge something deeper it's not detached from my middle it's ultimately my primal drives have been affected in a very powerful way in other words i my cycle may be playing here a destructive role because as a result of my negative thinking i label you as a lion imagine imagine somebody tells me a lion just came in to your house i'm not going to continue giving this class right [Laughter] i'm going to be pretty terrified i'm laughing because it's a little you know outlandish but i'm just you know a lion is in the room but let's say you see a lion in the room if you see a lion in the room you have to scream and you gotta run away and you gotta i don't know what to do if you have a gun use it if you see a lion in the room but one second why are you so afraid of lions why are you so afraid of lions why don't you just say oh it's a lion that's great there's a cat there's a lion there's a puppy and the answer is because lions kill so what i want to live i want to live so now listen to me the idea that there's a lion in the room is coming from the fact that unfortunately my mind is traumatized my brain is traumatized and therefore even when there's no lion in the room i am screaming lying why am i it's like the fire alarm i once heard a therapist a psychiatrist a neuroscientist explain what trauma what trauma does to the brain they said you remain stuck in your amygdala the amygdala is the reptilian brain the most basic part of the brain that basically is responsible for survival fight or flight and it's extremely alert to danger now when there's real danger it's amazing but what happens if the fire alarm in your house never goes off so even when there's no fire it's still sounding so two o'clock in the morning every single night you hear a fire alarm and you're running out of the house the fire alarm is not a bad thing when there's a lion in the room it's so important to have that alarm but when there's no lion in the room the amygdala is still screaming lying lying fire fire fire fire wool like the story wolf wolf wolf do you get what i'm saying so the idea that i'm afraid of a lion and i'm screaming is because of my meet this it's because of my primal drive that's not bad that's good thank god the challenge is that there has been a disruption in the flow and because of my experiences in life these primal drives are being triggered in such a powerful way but in the wrong context in the wrong situations because of wrong information because there's no seamlessness there's no flow there's been an interruption question if the ultimate goal is for hashem to dwell in the lower worlds how does personal reward in heaven come into the picture it's a good question but it's beyond today's sheer i don't understand if the purpose is for god to be in the lower world how does that connect to the mimer great question and the answer is because that's really what it's about having god in the lower worlds means allowing the full connection and alignment between my own and scythe into my most basic lowest elements back into my pettiness in other words my emotions my visceral reactions right all of those which are coming post segal post martial can they all be aligned with aidsife that's the work to allow that flow that seamless flow where the divine which means the core of all could find a home in my brain and in my heart that's dirib in a very personal way very good questions i didn't even get to the website questions because i was doing the the the zoom questions the website we have another six questions everybody could look at them and i thank you very very much so this this concludes the mimer it's hard for me to say concluding the mimer because i don't know that such a minor you could easily conclude but this concludes at least one version one rendition or one attempt of going through this incredible minor of the rabbi schlach 1955 based on a mimer of 1914 of the rebel ashab a few weeks before the world war one broke out parasha's balloons tough ayan dallad on that mimer this mimer is based i wish you all a beautiful day 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