The Holy Heretic - Yom Kippur - By Rabbi YY Jacobson

[Music] you know the story they tell about the three progressive rabbis who meets during the high holiday season and each one is bragging and boasting about how progressive and forward-looking their temple is the first rabbi says you know in our temple we dismissed the old ancient rubbish traditions Yom Kippur comes people get hungry and therefore on their way into the temple everybody gets a nice wrap some sushi a few good sandwiches so that if they get hungry in middle of the services they can have a nice gourmet meal and the second rabbi says that's ancient that's the old stuff let me tell you about our temple we are so progressive every seat has its own laptop with wireless internet so that way if you get bored in middle of the sermon if the service gets too monotonous you can browse the Internet you can respond to emails you can check the news and so forth and the third rabbi says that's also already old fashioned we are truly progressive when it comes the high holiday season recession on Yom Kippur we put up a big sign on the beautiful door of our gorgeous temple and it reads closed for the holidays every person every community prepares for the High Holidays theam Kippur Rosh Hashanah in their own unique way tonight I want to present a Talmudic story a deeply enigmatic mysterious and strange story but it will help us glean perspective on the holy day of Yom Kippur this story takes us back to the second century after the Common Era and it deals with a figure who was at once both fascinating and tragic for more than the 1,000 rabbis whose names lives ideas and opinions and teachings are recorded in the Talmud we only know of one who became a full-fledged heretic an apostate a man who lived through the destruction of the Second Temple in the year 70 after the Common Era by the hand of the Romans a time when the Jewish Commonwealth and sovereignty was completely obliterated and crushed when hundreds of thousands were according to Josephus millions of Jews were exterminated and massacred untold thousands sold into slavery Judaism uprooted almost completely and some of the greatest sages martyred and executed barbarically this man was a contemporary of the great sage who was executed by the Romans Rabbi Akiva and I am of course referring to the individual known as elisha ben avoid elisha the son of a hooyah one of the four who entered into the mysterious orchard described in talmud Haghighi the second chapter the four people our barn is nestled apart as the four people who went into the mystical orchard of Kabbalah Rabbi Akiva been a say Ben Zoma and Elisha pot-au-feu yo the results for each were drastically different one died one went insane Alicia Bonneville you became a heretic in the words of the Talmud kids aged beneath the ice only Rabbi Akiva Nissen a special in viata by Shalom when in in peace and left in peace the mattress tells us in Madras rubber roof roost chapter six then Elisha Bonneville was considered one of the greatest sages of his generation his oratory skills his powers of communication were extraordinary and dazzling in their brilliance and their magnetic power when Elisha Bonavia would sit and lecture and speak and teach everybody would come to listen to me and he would finish they would kiss him on his head are you nice you know sorry because of the brilliance because of the depth because of the clarity because of the passion and the charisma but one day this great extraordinary sage turned around he abandoned his faith he abandoned his tradition he abandoned his colleagues he abandoned his people he was not an illiterate you see he was not an illiterate peasant an uneducated simple man here you are dealing with a contemporary of Rabbi Akiva Elisha Bonneville was also the great teacher of Rabbi Meir rip Maher is considered one of the greatest scholars of his generation the Talmud says he's called mayor mayor in Hebrew means he Luba nate's he casts light mayor because he illuminated the eyes of the sages in Halawa and in most cases the Talmud says people couldn't understand the depth of rabbi Mayer's wisdom who was rabbi meir his teacher and master ali shabaan avaya in fact when Elisha Bonalu you became an apostate all of his friends all of his students deserted him they all left him one student remained rabbi meir who refused to abandon his former grab his master and continued to learn Torah this man now Alicia Bonavia did not just become a heretic he became a partner with the Romans he became a comrade of the Romans the Talmud says in you shall me tracted hagigah that Alicia Pandava you would persecute young Jewish children and students who learned Torah in fact the Talmud tells a story there you shall me Haghighi chapter 2 at once the Romans were forcing the Jews to violate Shabbos so they would have them carry objects from inside outside which is one of the 39 labor is prohibited on Shabbos how might see Mary Schussler issues to transfer things from one domain to another domain so what did the Jews do now Allah is the lord I am Sasha Turin if it's a labor that can be done by one but it's done by to say to people carry out a pencil outside or a piece of paper or a bottle whatever it is so if two people do it they are exempt from the Shabbos penalty it doesn't have that severe connotation so two people were carrying it together Alicia Pandava was a scholar he told the Romans force each of them to carry it alone the Talmud continues they decided to put it down in a karma list you see biblically there's a place called rooster sir album a public domain then there is a karma list which doesn't have the biblical definition of a public domain and only is rabbinic li forbidden to carry items from a private domain into a car MELAS and that's where they were due putting that object and Alicia but novel you said no let them put it down in a public domain his reputation his life story left such an impact that till today in most of our literature he's not called by his name you know the name that he is known as not Alicia banner who you rather you know what I fear means after means the other one the alien the stranger it's a fascinating thing they didn't give him another name they called them after which means the other one the alien they didn't even give him a second name his name is that he doesn't have a name his name is that we don't know his name his name is that he's a stranger he's an alien what does that mean and where did he get that name the origin of that name came around came about under the following circumstances please open up your curriculums right below the video there is a PDF document curriculum source number one the Talmud which dedicates a significant amount of the second chapter of Haghighi both and Bavli in your Shami the Babylonian and Jerusalem Talmud to the life story of Elisha Pandava he tells this story how you get after some of them and our lives are getting Amara enough a skillet our Boudreaux after left Judaism and went engaged in the heathen culture negative lifestyle he transgressed a lifestyle antithetical to Judaism Norfolk he went out Ashgate designer he met the harlot the prostitute vltava and he asked her for her intimate services umbral a she takes a look at him and this zone of this harlot says the love Alisha booyah are you not that Li Shimin I William you're coming to me she stopped she's overwhelmed even your Alisha but I will you a car Pakula me miss yerba shoppers v Avila it was sharpest Alisha / novel you uprooted radish a radish plant from a row of radishes and in the farm on Shabbos and he gave it her this is one of the labors that are forbidden on Shabbos to harvest to reap top root amaura she said a few he is somebody else he's not Alicia enough woo yeah it's not the same person ah here he is somebody else this name stuck but there's one story about him that I want to explore with you this evening it's a story that's almost mind-boggling and deeply disturbing and enigmatic now let's study the story together same page in Talmud hagigah to svehla mandala 15a open up source 2 in your curriculums please suck the Gemara toner a bond on the rabbi's taught my Sebastian it's a story about our hair show your relative our sous the sharpest he was riding on a horse on Shabbos publicly publicly violating Shabbos for Europe mayor mahalik actor of room 32 me peeve but his student rabbi meir is following him to study terror from his mouth imagine the scene it's the holy day of shoppers at least chef Manabu is publicly desecrating the Shabbos he's riding on a horse but as he's riding on his horse he's teaching tire there's gems coming from his mouth rabbi meir doesn't want to lose it don't want to lose the opportunity so that when mayor is following his rabbit leadership in Abu you to listen to the gems of wisdom coming from this man's mouth oh my lawyer at one point Elisha Bonavia a share tells a student may go back check VAR c RT b a su c ad canto Shabbos because I already measured I estimated according to the footsteps of my horse that till here is the border of Shabbos everybody knows is a concept called hung Shabbos when you leave a city there's only a certain amount of feet that a Jews a lot of walk on Shabbos and I measured based on the footsteps of my horse that we reach the border you now allow to walk further mayor you're an observant Jew you're a Jew observe the Sabbath you have to go back I can go further but you have to go back on my lay that mayor tells them I fought a gazebo you to come back of course mayor seizes the moment and when his teacher says mayor go back the student rep mayor turns to his teacher and says you to come back but of course in his words there is a double meaning you to come back he means geographically as well as existentially a mile a elisha tells him of a like part of my tea look alive i not already told you gosh a'mighty mask up her good eye behind the cosmic curtain Shuvo Bonham shave of him hoots Myakka I have heard a voice from behind the heavenly curtains a quote from a verse in year Mia the Prophet you me yo Jeremiah chapter 3 says Shuvo Bonham shave of him return ode children who went lost who went astray and the voice continued cuts may a fair return children except out here I share is not welcome back to the embrace of God as it were so mayor he says you want me to come back but I already heard a voice a heavenly voice man clearly a pirate I heard a voice that chuva repentance can work for everybody but not Goods me out and therefore for me there is no turning back there is only moving forward in the direction that I have chosen for myself and he would continue obviously to ride his horse and pass the boundary of Chiapas so the boundary of Shabbos became a metaphor an allegory a paradigm for life are there boundaries that you don't cross are there red lines that you never pass are you rooted in a certain value system are there morals and ethics that you will never break and transgress do you have a tomb in your life is there a border in your life with our no borders the tomb of Shabbos was a metaphor for life mayor has borders that Mayor was I yi Jame was a Jew his consciousness was rooted in Jewish history in Jewish faith in Jewish tradition Elisha Panov who you broke those borders and at this moment that made it says Hazaribagh come back don't cross the border as I said geographically as well as existentially but Elisha Bonneville says for me the opening to chuga has been closed I have been denied that opportunity subbu Bond immersive oven puts me Oscar and that's the end of the story that concludes the story now my dear friend is the same story it's quoted oh so in the Jerusalem Talmud for those who don't know there are two Talmud's here's Talmud Bavli and Talmud you reach armies and Talmud that was composed in the Holy Land it's called The Jerusalem Talmud edited by a man named rabbi Shimon and then a century later there's the Talmud Bavli composed in Babylonia present-day Iraq by its editor rabbi she and his son Tom with BA flee the Babylonian Talmud same track dates mostly and in Jerusalem Talmud Talmud you saw me a huggie go we have the same story but there's a few details that are different and I want you to open up source number three let's see the story the way it's quoted in the Jerusalem Talmud Craig is of the Gomorrah when he's riding on the source so on this horse on Shabbos and ever made is following him source number three are male Elisha Bonneville you tells them diet mayor stop mayor at can't come Shabbos the border of Shabbos is here you can't go further on my lay that mayor tells in my hey not yadda how do you know my late element alpha DeSousa Davina mineva la capilla mama from the footsteps of my horse which I complicate which I contemplated I know that we have walked two thousand hours which is the measurement the space that had rooms a lot of walk outside of a city outside of a population on Shabbos around 3,000 feet give or take imagine Elisha Panov who you see the man's mind he's teaching Torah non-stop read mayor mayor the observe Andrew was overwhelmed he's engulfed he's mesmerized by his teacher and he loses focus of where he is and how far he went on his own he would violate the border of Shabbos and Elisha pandava the heretic is teaching and yet he's counting the steps of his oars he knows exactly where the border is go figure a male that mayor tells Colada Massey is puffle ASAP possible you have all this Hockman you have all this wisdom as we can see from the story as I just pointed out and you won't come back you know what Torres you know what you decide is you know what that mission is you know what a blood Gilmore is you know what Tanaka is you know what Torah contains you have the wisdom you're not gonna come back a ballet his teacher tells him in a moment of vulnerability lace on no Yahoo I would come back I can't on my lair mayor says Lama why why can't you come back on my lays teacher Ashley tells him listen to this shapow maka so you see a real if maybe sky - a Kardashian rock eval sue CBI McKee put him so coldly as pajamas it was one Yom Kippur that happened to be on Shabbos Yom Kippur and Shabbos came out the same day and I was passing on my horse riding on my horse in front of the place of the Holy of Holies face cried the second awesome the holiest place of the holiest place in the world to be some English on the mountaintop in Jerusalem that place where the high priest would enter only once a year on the holiest day of the year the holiest man of Israel would enter into the holiest place the convergence of the three holiest items the holiest person all his time Dalia's blessed came together on one day I was riding on my horse on Yom Kippur in front of the Holy of Holies it was him kipper Anna was Shabbos Yom Kippur is the sharpest of all services and this is Yom Kippur on Shabbos the schemata Bisceglie access my basic a - a Kardashian and I hear a voice coming out from the Holy of Holies via Maris and the voice says shoo who bonham hoots merely shabana booyah return our children and the heavenly voice says except elisha the son of abu you why sure yada clicker you maraad be because he the voice says knew my strengths know my truth knew my power and still rebelled against me that's the end of the story the way it's recorded in the Jerusalem Talmud cm Kippur it's Shabbos he passes by the Holy of Holies on a horse and he hears a voice coming out from the Holy of Holies everyone is welcome for Chava sure who bond him everyone should return all the children besides one Alicia the son of Avila and therefore he tells her at Mayer I can't now I want to understand the story tonight there's a few major questions but before I get to the question I just want to note just for your information there seems to be a major argument between the Babylonian and the Jerusalem Talmud as to the end of Elisha band of Leah's life and probably and it's been suggested that it's probably not an argument and a conflict conflicting facts probably they're both addressing different dimensions and I think it will become clearer after this class at the end of the class according to the Babylonian Talmud in Haig it seems that Elisha pandava died a heretic he died an apostate and Rabbi Meir and rabbi Yochanan worked very hard that one day Elisha panov who you should enter into paradise according to the Jerusalem Talmud that's not the case rabbi meir visited his teacher before he died and he repented I believe that my teacher died about Dhruva two versions but let's understand the story one of the foundational teachings of Judaism is aimless Kedavra a midwife naturally there is nothing that stands in the way of repentance sugar the power of repentance can overcome every single story every single life there's the famous foundation and you can look it up in your next source in your curriculum the famous words quoted in our literature and in the Rambam baffi Luka far gone I feel ooh cover beaker call your mother us the truth about her I Naima Kaplan I even somebody who denied God his whole life his whole life he said but at the end he did cheveux he repented he's accepted ssin mr toshi and iishe are daca a douche on their face a person can return the psalmist says that back until the last withering moments of the soul moments before they die they can still do true the suddenly hear there's a voice that comes from the and what does the voice say everyone can repent besides Alicia Bonneville yeah how do we reconcile this heavenly voice with this foundational teaching of Judaism that as long as a person is alive he or she can repent he or she can be remorseful and be forgiven even a kafir Baker how is it that Alicia Bonneville was rejected from the divine and prays and to him the statement was Shu who bought him save oven hood smelly ship and I will you puts me after how do we understand this what happened here next question question number two of tired Aden friends question number two what was the point of issuing forth the voice from heaven just to inform this great tragic sage that his repentance will not be accepted it's Yom Kippur it's the holiest day of the year it's on Shabbos this heretic is riding on a horse we're near the place of the Holy of Holies and he hears a voice and the voice tells him what your truth is not except that he's not going to he's riding on a horse on Yom Kippur he wasn't planning to repent what was the objective of this heavenly voice just to sting him just to haunt him just to persecute him he wasn't planning to do truth if the voice would tell him come return I can understand the message the voice is telling him everyone should come and repent besides you why are you issuing forth such a voice what's its objective number three this man who's now letter do chula is hearing voices from heaven many of us perhaps don't do a lot of what Alicia Beccaria did and yet on Yom Kippur or other days we don't hear a Bosco we don't hear voices from heaven at least I should speak for myself I hear voices but not from have he hears a bosco God is communicating to him and yet what's God's message to him you have no hope you must end up in the abyss your destiny is hopeless what's the meaning of the story various commentators have discussed it over the generations but tonight I want to share with you one interpretation it's based it's based on AB lovely commentary of the rabbit that somewhat said that the third Lubavitch Rebbe Rabbi when I commend the level abolish their evidence and I said that Co passed away on the thirteenth of innocent tough race curve of which would be 1866 and was born area Rosh Hashanah the day before is Hashanah tough goof mem test which would be 1789 in his magnum opus in his van and his great work of arataura he gives an interpretation to the name of Yosef we know that Rachel has given a child after so many years of waiting and she names him Joseph Yosef why Yosef yourself.i family been out here so that God should increase for me another son Yosef are suddenly been out here God should add me give me yet another child now I want to ask your question as this makes sense a couple is waiting for so many years for children Rachel that was barren finally she has a child she must be in joy she must be full she must be ecstatic give your child a name conveying your feeling conveying the moment conveying what you feel is his personality his destiny what's the name she gives him the name she gives him is I want another child what type of confidence is this child supposed to grow up with when he knows that his entire name is based not on himself but on the desire of his mother for yet another child URI self-assembly but now he talked about me not about my brother indeed she gave birth to another child being young but why name a boy today Yosef may God add the ISIF means to add increase may God add yet another child celebrate this so God willing the right time you'll have another child tomate said that gives an interpretation what these words mean he bases it on earlier sources from Kabbalah you'll have in your source the exact terminology of it's a matzo thank you so the idea is based on that discourse but the application to the story of Elisha Bonavia has been articulated beautifully by a Gorn abhyasa bear salivate Shakur by Yusuf Dave Haleiwa soloveitchik from Boston who are she shiva Robin oh yes she must remain heat so Kohanim during a lecture he gave in Atlantic City in New Jersey at a convention of an organization called Mizrahi a paella Mizrahi in 1961 kiss left option Cove bays and in that lecture he articulated the following explanation and he suggested robbery soloveitchik suggested that we must focus on what would seem as a non important detail in the way the story is recorded in the Babylonian Talmud and the way it's recorded in the Jerusalem Talmud but upon deeper reflection it's this little variation that captures the mystery and the tragedy of the story and I'm gonna ask you again to open up source number two I want you to look at one line the last line of source number two please take a look what is the voice that he heard that Alicia Bonneville heard what is the voice what was the message vile acquire a mighty little crush a mighty man the liquid a mighty like fire Sumati malaria Perry good shoe viburnum se vuelven puts me after I heard from behind the curtain return all children who went astray except unwelcome so what did the voice say everyone is welcome besides I hear now look at the voice the recording of the voice in source number three the last line of source number three the Jerusalem Talmud what did the voice say vasculitis my base credit record arson by Medes shoe viburnum shave ovum cuts me Alicia Bonavia return our children who went astray insides Alicia bin Abu you I want to know what did the voice say that the voice say subbu Bonham shave ovum cuts me out here or did the voice say subbu Bonham shave oven hood smelly ship enough William which one the de voice reject a hair or did the heavenly voice reject Alicia pinellia the babylonian talmud says it rejected Ashley the Jerusalem Talmud says it rejected Elisha Bonalu yeah why this variation what is its significance now we know when it comes to halakha how logically when there's a debate between the Jerusalem and the Babylonian Talmud we usually follow the Babylonian thamma because it was authored later and hence the editors of the Babylonian Talmud had the chance read dissect and analyze once again the decisions in the Jerusalem Talmud and therefore the power of halakhah of the verdict is given to the Babylonian Talmud now here we're not dealing with a whole logic story we're dealing with that a gothic story a homolytically but yet we will say we can say halakha bah flee this law will stand true here as well how logically the laws like the bhava Li what did the voice say the voice that he heard that the voice said shufoo Bonham shave of encodes me actually the way it's recorded in the Babylonian Talmud so why does the Jerusalem Talmud say sugar Bonham shave of them coats me Elisha Bonneville yeah it's this contrast which in a unique and very subtle way captures what the voice was saying was shoo viburnum shave of him come back my children the voice was reaching out to Elisha Bonalu yeah and inviting him back into the structure into the reality into the existence of classicists role of the Jewish community like a mother who never gives up on a childish stream of the divine presence was reaching out to Elisha Bonavia that former great master and teacher and sage and saying Shuvo Bonham save of him you're a child who went astray please come back your place is secure your future is secure the best I need you're a Jew the best Akana you're one of the great sages of the generation come back my child we will always be connected we will always have a place in our hearts for each other we are intrinsically one but the voice added one statement oats me let go the voice was rejecting the the alien persona the foreign identity Alisha been a fool you you're welcome hoots may I hear the I fail in you is unwelcome that must be disregarded and left the hoods left outside what the heavenly voice was portraying was that there was a split there was a dichotomy in the psyche in the spirit of Alesha Pandaria there were almost two people what the voice was saying is that something happened to Alicia Bonavia which had to be understood Alicia Bonavia even today was still a loyal Dru was still a god-fearing human being was still somebody who belonged to the past and to the future of Komatsu's his role was still a person who taught area was still a person who was a and entrenched in the consciousness of Yiddish chiton of terror of Jewish history culture faith and tradition Elisha Bonneville was a Jews feet was still standing at Mount Sinai but it was an eye there was another one an alien persona a foreigner that overtook him one day what happened was something astonishing and extraordinary one day Elisha Manabu you woke up he looked in the mirror and he saw himself as another person he saw himself as an RA he saw himself as a foreigner as an alien person another force took him over he became Ashley he became estranged from himself it's almost like Adi book so to speak psychologically speaking entered into ali shabaan of lujah and suddenly it convinced them that he's a comrade of the romans that what is holy to the jewish people is not holy to him that he's not one of the links and the Hashmi I'm a sailor in the sages of the tradition that kanessa cease trial is not his mother and its future does not bond suddenly Alicia Pandava was captured by the persona of an action of an alien of a foreign figure he ran away from the basement ocean as the Talmud describes see framing him no sir mistaken the Talmud says the Haghighi you could look it up in your next sources heretical books were coming out of his bosom as he left the yeshiva and Greek songs were not were being sung by him even the years after the destruction when the Jewish people were in mourning he did not stop singing Greek songs he started to hunt down Jewish children and persecute the Jewish people and help the Romans uproot Judaism he became The Grates kafir and cynic of his generation suddenly this is why the sages called him out here why didn't they give him another name they were saying something so deep so beautiful so profound they were saying that the a pair of ali shabaan of alia is an it's not him this is a foreigner this is a stranger this is an alien which overtook him that true Alisha Bonneville yeah in the member mock him in the depth of his neshama in the depth of his soul was still intrinsically connected but Ravel er voices as with the greatest powers of love to God them to the Torah and to the Jewish people which are one there were two people there was an Elisha Bonalu year which was buried in the deep recesses of his consciousness and then there was an i there was like another person who took him over he didn't have a name because this is not that surely Shabanov ouya it's just an alien force which overtook him and suddenly he became convinced that this is who he is a pseudo personality a second personality takes him over we call this personality I so we have no a split soul there's two people there's Alicia bin Abu Anas after all living in the same heart one day it's Yom Kippur it's the holiest day of the year it's Shabbos it's that one day of the year when the deep chord and every Jewish heart is aroused is awakened this trigger Jews who don't show up all year around something onion Kippur tells them come Shuvo bottom slave of it's innkeeper and what does Alicia pan of will you do on this Yom Kippur I mishegoss gets on a horse and where does he travel to he travels to the base Kurdish Academy's riding on a horse on Yom Kippur in front of the Holy of Holies and suddenly here's a Pascal here's a voice and what does the voice tell them shoe viburnum shave of them coats me le chemin Avaya you're not a master you're a band you're not an alien you're not an outcast you're not a rebel you're not a heretic you're not an apostate the best Akins you're a child you're not an I say stop seeing yourself as a foreigner stop seeing yourself as an outcast stop seeing yourself as somebody who's estranged from the Jewish people from 4000 years from thousands of years of traditions from Sinai you're not a massive abundance of them you're a child you could never get divorce from a child let go of your iShare let go of your self perception as an alien member of the Jewish people because that self perception is itself an actor it's itself an alien perception your perception that your alien is an alien perception it's not really who you are it's not really what you believe the voice of heaven was not projecting him the voice of heaven was lovingly and tenderly inviting him for an embrace but it was telling him let's go over the Act here leave the after remove the clothes of the after see yourself as a Ben and come back in to the coitus check adduction to the holy of holies the voice of heaven was telling him something very profound he was saying will kill Isha Bonalu you tell me you're violating game Kippur you're violating Shabbos right you want to go horseback riding let me ask you a question Elisha Bonalu you why did you come to Jerusalem to the mountaintop to the holy of holies to go horseback riding on Yom Kippur go to Montana go to Kentucky go to the trails and the north or in the Negev in the mountains why to the house of the Holy of Holies on Yom Kippur if you want to violate him Kippur at least shipping of oil you somehow you also can't ignore Yom Kippur somehow you also can't say good body in Kippur somehow Yom Kippur is compelling you it's magnetic force to come engage it to come fight it to come spit at it to come rebel against that why because Yom Kippur is entrenched in the depth of your psyche because you're a Jew you can love God or hate God you can't ignore him any more than you can ignore your wife you can love your wife you can love your spouse you can loathe your spouse you can't ignore them you can try to but it won't work there was a Jewish organization a very successful Jewish organization at one time that had a custom to make us and you will ball on Yom Kippur the favre it's the forward from the arbitrary ring the workmen circle they will put distance strong socialists the Buddhists and the the group of Buddhist was found that in 1897 strong socialist movement replacing completely Jewish religion and their ball every year was on Yom Kippur why make a party on Yom Kippur make a party a night before on Yom Kippur that to make the party because this was their way of observing Yom Kippur not a very traditional way but an observance of Yom Kippur yes sometimes you can't you don't know how to detach you can't disengage yourself so you remain engaged by it albeit in a negative fashion that's your way of maintaining a relationship that's your way of not detaching because you can't detach it's too much part of you so you find it and somehow your conscience can somehow deal with this dysfunctional relationship it's not such an uncommon thing especially produce le ship enough your soul gravitated to create a second ocean you couldn't beat a CH so you came on a horse and suddenly his soul emerged and said recognize who you are let's words let's use the words of you who did to yak of hacking uh-huh sign has been my recognises this the tunic of your child or not is Yom Kippur the tunic of your child or not are you a band as this your child or not how can I recognize at least ribbon oval you who you are identify with you with your soul with your essence with your past with your core with your unconscious with your history with your friends with your teachers with your colleagues with your family throw away out there and come back Alysha banoffee has stopped he heard the voice but here was the great tragedy the great tragedy was that what he heard was solid smelly Shabanov oh yeah he didn't hear hoots me out there you see sometimes I say one thing but what you hear is something else it's very important in communication not only to know what you said but what the other person heard you say trust me often what you say and what the other person heard you say have almost nothing to do with each other often at the end of a speech I owe ask an individual tell me what I said and he'll tell me everything that I didn't say and sometimes the exact opposite of what I wanted to say it's quite fascinating the voice said shavoo Bonham se vuelven cuts me off hey as the Babylonian Talmud records it but what he heard was shoe viburnum shape of include smelly ship enough for you what he heard was Elisha Pandava is rejected because in his mind the two became one the author became the Elisha pinellia the foreign personality became the pristine and authentic personality and the hoots may after resonated in his ears as hoots malesia pandaboy Elisha Pandava Leah's rejected out you have no place and Chloe's throne you have no place in my rescue sir all you have no place among the Jewish disappeared because he did not recognize himself what he saw was a hair he did not see le ship enough for you that's why when they you shall me finishes and says why she had that crazy Amara be he knew my power and he rebelled against me why did he repel if he knew who God was why did he repel the Talmud doesn't explain the voice said he knew who I am and he rebelled and that's why he's not welcome so why did he repelled he rebelled because he knew who God was but he didn't know who he was he knew he did not know himself he did not know his power he did not know his truth he did not know his strength he didn't recognize himself and his inferiority complex spiritually speaking this what caused him to get lost this voice is heard is emitted every year Yom Kippur in Kippur especially in Capricia coleus by Shabbos Abascal comes out Shuvo burning Evolvin puts me out there the greatest tragedy is when you start defining yourself as an actor as somebody who was unworthy as somebody who's lowly as somebody who's corrupt that somebody who's lost to somebody who's alien and foreign and estranged so the voice says no you're a child come back my child I miss you I want to hug you I want to embrace you puts me out leave you're after by the door you're my child when Rachael looks at her son Joseph the first Jew who would become the prime minister of a superpower of Egypt who would dress in Egyptian clothing and would become one of the greatest economists the economy economists of his generation and save the Fertile Crescent from famine he would be the brother who would be an outcast who would be alienated by his brothers who would define him as an affair a stranger an alien a foreign growth in the plant of the Judaism and therefore somebody who must be thrown into a pit must be rejected it can't become part of the Jewish faith of the Abrahamic tradition of ethical monotheism he's an active Rachel knew this about her child Rahul knew so what did she name him yes sir Yosef assembly Ben knock his okay hey look it's a mat so that she knows that he has the power to transform the hair into a bed she wasn't giving him a name based on another child she was talking about his destiny his unique calling and destiny will be to transform an affair into a band to reveal that that person who looks like a knife hair is truly a Ben he will live that way within himself and he will be able to accomplish it and countless others it's this voice that Rachel communicated about her son Joseph that so many years later comes to Alesha monopoly and comes to every Jew since and the clears on yom kippur shavoo Bonham shave of it [Music] you