The Holiness of Unholy Thoughts: Chassidism and Psychoanalysis - By Rabbi YY Jacobson

[Music] good evening tonight's class is dedicated by David and EDA Schottenstein in the sacred memory of the Mumbai Kadosh iam and Rabbi Gabi and Rivka Holtzberg Hashem Ian Kingdom as well as in the loving memory of a young soul alte Shula bas Reb Yaakov it's Huck's word love class is also dedicated to langa Yaran in the merit of Livy its husband Cyril for a complete and speedy recovery and in the merit of Shalimar da hai van rifki for a speedy yeshua and salvation the holiness of unholy thoughts that is our theme this evening you know they tell the story about a guy comes into the psychiatrist's office screaming hollering doctor helped me it's an emergency the doctor says calm down and tell me what happens I can't speak just help me save me I'm going to go insane momentarily he says listen I can't deal this way you have to sit down on the couch you must gather your thoughts relax and tell me everything from the beginning so the man acquiescence sits down on the couch and tells the doctor in the beginning I created heaven and earth we're going to explore tonight a teaching of the Baal Shem Tov the Baal Shem Tov rabbi you saw Baal Shem Tov you know was the founder of the Hasidic movement Hasidism he was born in the year 1690 8 or in the Jewish calendar toughen assess on the 18th of Ehlo lived for 62 years passed in the year 1760 Tov cough cough on the day of service so slowest of the year 5-7 70 marks to the two hundred and fiftieth yard site anniversary of the passing of Robert Shaw Baal Shem Tov this evening this class we want to learn together a powerful Torah teaching of the baal shem tov inside which like all of his teachings embodies in many ways the depth the sophistication the majesty and the richness which has sid this revealed in judaism this particular teaching of the baal shem tov weaves together three distinct statements in the Talmud and the Gemara and confers upon them a new light a new depth which also gives us a new perspective on our some of our own struggles in life so let's begin inside open up your curriculum right below the video there is a PDF document please open it up so you can follow inside this is from the book Kassar shem tov the crown of the good name which is one of the volumes that compiles many of the teachings of Rabbi Israel baal shem tov and this is simon lama test section 39 you could see it in your PDF document may have all shem tov this comes from the baal shem tov sha mighty boosh a mighty the fury know you live rock olive high Olam haba hood is for my teacher this is transcribed by his student beer shasta brushes diplomat degree Malamud base armor ABS ada color emerge ma mommy shopkin I see the Baal Shem Tov explained a statement of the Talmud in tractate brushes page 33 B represent the great Tom UNIX age made the following statement in the mission of their in Broca's the Mishna says that kawaii mermaid the mighty ma chatte can I say if somebody is praying that me the service and they say made them made them thank you thank you thank you twice we silence him as Rashi explains it seems like he's addressing two different deities he's first thanking one deity and then thanking another deity so we silence and we don't tolerate it don't same item item twice comes a ribs aider and a busy de adds that if you say smash ma when we say SH Maya sir all hashem elokenu hashem echad here o Israel the Lord is our God the Lord is one of somebody says these words twice Sh'ma Sh'ma the visitors says here too we must silence him am i late earth poeple abaya rabbi part Rev Papa asked abaya the talmud continues dilma made carter law you have indict italy why do we silence him maybe the first time this Jew said Sh'ma he was not concentrated and the second time he says it he wants to concentrate he wants to have qivana he wants to have mindfulness so why would we silence him why will we not allow him to say the Shema a second time on my lai abaya answer dear papa of rusa clash my america may you act towards heaven like a friend with familiarity when you're talking to your friend sometimes you concentrate sometimes you what we saying India Hakka China which literally means you strike a kettle but figuratively it means you speak rubbish you're not mindful of your words may one act towards heaven like a half Russa like a friend Eloy given the item a Karan if the person did not concentrate initially MacKinnon laid be Mars after than Africa we strike him with the hammer of a Smith na fuses Meath Mars after is the Aramaic word for a hammer if he doesn't concentrate the first time we strike him with a Smith's Amer add the massive and IT till he concentrates so a body rejects completely the notion of riff Papa that somebody might want to say SH ma twice because the first time they were not mindful of their words a bio rejection and he says what do you mean they're not mindful what has got a friend before you pray before you start saying your words you have to be mindful you have to concentrate and if not we strike the person who's not concentrating with the Smith with the hammersmith and this concludes the section in the Gemara broth Islamic gimbal V hitch the Baal Shem Tov once asked the following question a Katya Khrushchev MK my Medes the question of ref Papa still remains Michael McKean nonetheless Dilma make our Elias Calvin perhaps initially he did not concentrate the hash the bullets this edition by Malik heaven and now this Jew wants to fulfill his duty to heaven and concentrate a body is saying you're treating heaven like a friend how could you not concentrate the first time will strike you with a hammer Smith till you concentrate but let's be factual a person is praying and sometimes he's not concentrating or she's not mindful of her words our minds wrong and as we know when we pray our minds can travel the world when we pray our minds can take us to very interesting places and accomplish many things that's the reality so the boss Sumter was asking what does that buy you're telling her of Papa there's no such a thing God is not a friend you have to concentrate if you don't concentrate we strike you with a Smith but what happens if somebody did not concentrate when they said smile and now they want to repeat it in order to say it with the right mindset and the right emotion and the right state of consciousness why shouldn't you allow him to say it again I buy you didn't answer the question vodka sure another question about some time asks Lamonica trip Zeta DAF got a mishmash my base poem for lipoic acid creation YK I'd say why does it observe use the word Sh'ma why not another verse in Sh'ma he could have chosen the words behalf to some alcohol or any other verse Enoshima in fact in hollow central tomorrow there's a big discussion among the halacha thirties if when there's a recession ah he meant literally those words or that verse Maya saw a sham elokenu hashem echad or he includes and he means all of the verses of Shema all of the sections of SMAW any verse and any word in the entire schwa Sh'ma volumes shamaya Valmer all the three portions of schwa all included in this ruling of ribs a toe or he literally meant only smash ma the verse my sauce américaine yarmulke and mote many a logic a thoroughly say he meant all the Sh'ma entire Sh'ma so about some device why does absurd shoes these words smash ma he could have chosen another verse in creation law he could have chosen another section in prayer just like the Mishna says might invite him he could have chosen another section why from all sections that he choose Sh'ma OB air the about something explained ma hua mian caballes Oh Malcolm ayam for this we have to understand what does it mean that a person accepts upon himself the Kingdom of Heaven the presence of God which is essentially what SHM is trollish Amal can wash and Mijares when we say schmeyer all it is a consciousness of Kabbalah Selma lotion lime of the person accepting upon himself or herself the reality of heaven the kingdom of God what does this really mean waha ingen kia Adam who of Lama and Kimmy local are its Kuwaiti is Bharat what it means is that the human being what to embrace the idea the belief that the entire earth is saturated with his presence lace acai upon him in a and there's no space conceptually or physically or emotionally or existentially that is devoid of the divine reality therefore of a call Hamas of is shalad homage blame it see you see his bark comes the Baal Shem Tov and says since laces are pond M&A there's no space devoid of him so all the thoughts of a human being have within them the reality of God the divine reality fills every space and therefore saturates and permeates every fourth of a human being the Colmar Shover he came as lemma and every thought of a human being is a coma Schlemmer which means a complete structure a complete organ a complete organism a coma coma means the complete height and structure of a human being don't think there is such a thing as a fleeting irrelevant inconsequential meaningless thought says the most of know every mush of is I felt every thought is a creamish lima is a complete structure the Baal Shem Tov conferred tremendous dignity upon every thought of a human being the cash a Alabama shaft I shall add the base ask a bit villain a simmer cover of his are wrong now when a person is in the midst of prayer trying to connect to his salt to connect to God to connect to the soul of existence and during the prayer in his thoughts comes up on Mahavira a negative thought a detriment destructive thought Omaha bazzara an alien extraneous thought he bar L R Adam Lusaka no Allison one must know that this thought is coming to the person because it seeks to be fixed healed and sublimated since God's presence is everywhere including in every single thought so this thought too has two layers if the Baal Shem Tov is telling us you're middle of prayer and some suddenly thoughts start entering your mind not only are they not part of the prayer experience on the contrary these are thoughts and ideas and notions that are detrimental that may be actually be evil destructive or at least completely alien this thought has two layers externally it's shallow tusk is detrimental is alien to the prayer experience its inner core its inner identity comes the Baal Shem Tov and says she came to you so that you should actually sublimate it and heal it and fix it this thought also has a depth a purity God is in this thought to lesser serpent it is God in this thought there's holiness in this thought the holiness may be deeply embedded deeply concealed deeply repressed and this thought came to you so that you should unravel its layers uncover its true pristine purity divinity and majesty you are the one who must identify the godliness and the thought and therefore heal the thought now here I want to parenthetically make an important observation this idea of the Baal Shem Tov has become in in one in a from a particular perspective this thought of the Baal Shem Tov idea of the more summative has become a foundational motif in modern psychoanalysis and psychology literally a few days ago I spoke in Florida to hundreds of addict's people who have many people who have destroyed their lives in the killing fields of addiction and they are all in the process of recovery some more advanced some beginners but entrenched in the recovery process somebody asked me a question after the lecture why is it that I follow the steps the 12-step program I go to meetings I have a sponsor these are words lingo that are connected to the 12-step program for those who are familiar with it and those who should be familiar with it I do the program I follow the steps I'm in and yet I still cannot liberate myself from so many cravings and addictions that seek to destroy me and they're always or often can throw me right back into a relapse how do I deal with it so in response I was discussing the fact that sometimes throughout our entire life there are certain cravings and addictions and appetites we do not get rid of and that itself is not bad the fact that a human being may harbour thoughts that are ugly destructive detrimental even horrific and grotesque that in itself does not make you a bad person what you have to do is you have to identify the thought or the emotion or the feeling for what it is and dismiss it calmly from your life it may come back in a half an hour it may come back in an hour as long as you can identify it and not confuse it with an idealistic thought or emotion as long as you can identify its source and what it represents you're fine you're fulfilling your purpose a woman who was present it's been in the program for many many many years and one can see how much work she put in to her soul her sobriety herself many many years she was way ahead of the game in this particular field and she raised her hand and she says what you're saying is good but you're missing a fundamental point and that is that in every addiction and even in an addiction towards promiscuous relationships immoral relationships which is what we were discussing there was genuine love but sometimes a person was so injured in life or so abused in life or they abuse themselves in life so badly that their language for love is a perverse language they may not know how to experience and express and yearn and pine for love only through dysfunctional verbiage and actions because their love is an injured love so there shall the form of their love the way it expresses itself may be horrible and destructive but inside there's real love you have to be able to identify it this idea is rooted in this teaching of the ball summative in every thought a bad thought an alien thought God is present and when you're praying and this thought comes to you it came to you because it wants to be healed it wants its true essence to be uncovered now let's continue inside suck the baal shem to the eeeem a name my members are and if a person does not believe this exact abala so mouth maíam Slama he does not have a relationship with God in other words he did not really except upon himself the yoke of the kingdom of heaven in completeness quemic at Sahasra shalom dammit COCs burrow because he's shortening he's abbreviating God's presence God's reality he believes that God exists only in certain places and shortens his infinity the fact that God represents the truth of all reality the fact that there's an organic oneness that unites all of reality and all of its manifestations at a core level r1 so shema yisrael hashem elokenu hashem oseh doesn't only mean according to the Baal Shem Tov God is the creator of the world and the king of the world who runs the world and controls the world it means something else it means Hashem I've heard that there's oneness at the core of all of existence that every thought is a commerce Leymah every thought is a complete divine structure and there's godliness inside say you've annoy a mishmash man now we will understand the true meaning of this statement of it absurd in the Talmud of Brock Islamic in that if somebody says smash math wise we silenced them because here is the question Lama mybay Spielman why did he say smart wise you already such my Israel why are you repeating the words Schmeisser all irrational okay no Russia America why again a sham Assad with sorrows Lamar we have to assume he may correlate have indict because the first time the person did not concentrate the hi new show you Louisa Mae Chavez are apparently the first time he said Sh'ma Israel a shambolic a notch Amazon he wasn't concentrating he was thinking about an alien thoughts he was thinking about a fear he has a struggle II as an appointment he has an issue he has anger he has this emotional this problem this blessing this virtue this dilemma whatever it is people's minds do we know people's day dreams and imaginations I'm aiming to create the great creation imagination the power of imagination much of his own he's thinking another thoughts so therefore he thought this wasn't a smile when he wakes up from his alien thought when he finishes it he's ie I'm saying SH MA and my mind and my thoughts are elsewhere this is not a smile he wants to repeat it um naam however emu dashes some damn Kingdom would see us I'm his mother well it's others like my base problem smile but if he would have really understood and note that in that thought that he experienced which was an alien extraneous thought there is also the presence of Hashem the reality of God lesser sharpen him in a fills and is intimately saturating that thought also he would know that he doesn't have to say twice smile because even the thought that he had when he said the first time smile is really a smile on a deeper level this purity there this holiness there does godliness there there's love near this truth there there's idealism there if this drew would have understood what's my Easter all is Kabbalah so Malthus am I to accept the oneness the kingdom of God that everything is filled with God so then he wouldn't have to say schmeyer second time because the first smile was also a smile I he was thinking about a macabre thought he was thinking about something else but we established that that alien thoughts came to you because it wants to be healed it once you should reveal that it too is a manifestation of God as a manifestation of love is a manifestation of truth without sorrow sloshin hashas continued in the curriculum continue in your sorcery this is that sackless the shining beautiful meaning of the words of the Gemara mckinnon labor mars after the Nava a by a thousand of pop if you don't constant shrade we strike him if somebody doesn't concentrate the first time we strike him with the hammer of a Smith obviously the question s first of all who ever heard of the idea that somebody's praying and they're not concentrating the first time so we come with the Smiths Amer and we strike them nobody knows what anybody else is thinking God made the person that nobody knows what your what are your thoughts so how is it even possible we strike what does this mean and why does he use this metaphor does he mean that a person has to be rebuked the person should not do it great but the boss sometime asked a great question you shouldn't do it but what if you did it what if you had a relapse you're praying and you're not mindful so we'll say don't do it again but now I want to say smog and the Talmud's answer doesn't look right at first glance it's done answering the question the most summative says a cough one of the meaning is he Amish of ATS ma ma casado this is not an alien hammersmith somebody comes with our hammer and knocks you over your head it's not what it means you know this story that once happened it reminds me you know how it isn't some synagogues the rabbi doesn't get along with the president and the gabbai doesn't get along with either so once there was a show and the rabbi would give his long sermons every Saturday morning Shabbos morning and the president would sit on top of the stage there across a cross from the rabbi and the other side of the Ark and the moment the rabbi would start delivering his sermon the president would immediately fall asleep the gabbai who despised the president comes over to the rabbi one day and he says rabbi you know this is a disgrace that your own president in public sleeps and snores during your sermons and the rabbi says I agree it's an unheard hutzpah so the gabbai says rabbi if you only give me permission this Shabbos when you get up to speak and the president starts sleeping I'm going to take a bat and strike him over his head so that he should learn a lesson of respect to the rabbi rabbi says it's a beautiful beautiful and very great idea okay the rabbi is excited the GABAA is excited Shabbos comes rabbi gets up to speak the gob a prepared his bat and of course the president this days as dozes off the cob ray comes over with the bat strikes the president over his head president looks up sees the gob i standing right in front of him with the bat door with the smiths hammer the president turns to the gobby and says do it again he says what why president says I could still hear him so the baal shem tov wants to understand what is the meaning of this the answer is the thought itself is striking the person can maybe mars after then africa day Lusaka nila hollow side the Smith uses a hammer to put things into shape to fix things up to make them usable to make them beautiful that's what you do with the hammer the thought itself is striking the person like with the hammer because the thought what the Talmud is saying is the thought itself is urging the person is striking the person is hitting the person it wants to be fixed it wants to be sublimated when you're experiencing this alien thought you think it's bothering you it's striking you it's it's it's driving you mad you're trying to pray and this thought is distracting you comes the baal shem tov and says the talmud is saying a bi is telling your papa this thought is what's striking the person because it wants that the person should engage it and not fall prey to its external shallow husk but to fix it to sublimate it to heal it Vellamo who raised their palm basil a marsh ma so why is he repeating sh ma a second time kealoha special abou Palmolive law O'Shaughnessy is such a miss burns as though the fur time when he said Smaug God was not present in that first smile when in Soma Kotzebue Mitzi you see his burro who become oliso Malka shaman he's shortening he's minimizing God's reality and the acceptance of the true yoke of God's kingdom or the cajamar my shotgun eyes I therefore absurdist says this person has to be silenced with deer a peacock obtained the words of this wise man are charming are glamorous so how does the Baal Shem Tov explain the Gomorrah this is what their if Papa and I buy you were talking about let's understand the exchange if Papa comes to buy and says why did the azaleas say that if you say smash smart wise you should be silenced maybe the person wants to repeat it because he wants to concentrate so our buyer answers one second are we friends with heaven if somebody doesn't concentrate the first time we strike him with the hammer of a Smith until he concentrates so the Baal Shem Tov asked a great question fine but what if he didn't concentrate the Baal Shem Tov explains you don't understand what I buy is saying a bi is not saying despite the fact that he didn't concentrate the first time we don't let him concentrate a second time say the second let me concentrate because he should have concentrated the first time what if he didn't I buy you saying something deeper the lack of concentration the first time is also qivana you're telling me he might have not concentrated the first time and that's why he has to do it a second time so I'm telling you what do you mean he didn't concentrate the first time he was thinking about something else but we hitting him with a hammer of a Smith that he should concentrate the lack of concentration of this much Java is a thought that came to him and his striking him and is bothering him because it wants him to reveal the Shema in that thought so when he had shewn when he said sh my the first time with that thought there was au s-- or Schmeiser all it was also a complete experience of smile either was an alien for that alien thought just came in to him so that he should reveal the godliness in that thought and therefore really fulfill my role so that alien food is also part of the divine experience it's also part of the love it's also part of the holiness and that's why it came striking him like a hammer saying take me embrace me heal me now the person disregards it and says I'm gonna say Sh'ma again why are you going to say Sh'ma again the whole point of Sh'ma is that God is one so God filled those so the first thought by saying Sh'ma again you're diligent amaizing the whole idea of Sh'ma the whole idea of Sh'ma is that there's one s in the world the whole idea of shmeil is that there's nothing devoid of love and of meaning and of depth and of truth including the first thought your job is to reveal the SH line the first thought not to run away from it and reject it and illegitimate it and repeat Sh'ma again as though the first smile was meaningless and insignificant and inconsequential so when you're telling me he wants to repeat it because he wants to concentrate was the first time he didn't concentrate up I says what do you mean he didn't concentrate the first time the lack of concentration the first time that is the concentration that is the smile the moshav azhari the alien thought wants to be sublimated the Muslim doesn't explain their what I buy a mint with the words are we friends with heaven it may mean does a person think that he's only a friend with God he's only a companion but still somebody else no God represents the essence of every person God fills your entire reality God is really a term which means the essence of your reality your own truth God is at the core of every experience at the core of every thought if you would just be a friend with heaven so I'm talking to a friend sometimes I concentrate sunlight on concentrate but since God fills everything so every thought is saturated with godliness so even the first Sh'ma was also a schwa so this answers both questions the baal shem tov asked why did the observer choose from all the words Sh'ma because what he's trying to say is that is what Sh'ma really means so it's expressed when you say smart wise it means that your second smile is small you don't really get what's my solace and that of course explains by his answer tear of Papa why even if he didn't concentrate he should not say Sh'ma once again because the first thought was essentially the hammer of the Smith striking him asking him begging him losing him urging him to be embraced to be elevated Pisa but this is not it this is not all of it there's still another dimension and a major caution that must be established as we'll see in a moment Pisa beer shots the brightest of customer base and we're gonna be able we're gonna come back soon to there's two aspects to the ball summative is saying we discussed the first component now that while something was going to go to the second half of the teaching which is crucial in order to understand this teaching and with that I'm going to go back to the conversation I discussed earlier I had I had the privilege last week to have with the addicts and what that woman spoke about loved injured loved again will be able to see two dimensions in the process of recovery and all spiritual and psychological growth pisa be a Shasta providers tough customer base according to this double summative explained a statement in the Gemara tom attracted height is 8 B now this needs a brief introduction the gomorian Pyrrha stuff has discusses a fascinating story one of the greatest Talmudic sages who lived at the end of the Second Temple error and after its destruction was rabbi yahushua Benjamin ya rabbi tawbah Kanani was not only a great scholar and personality and sage he was also a debater unparalleled and the Talmud describes an intricate debate and a very powerful debater be sure but samanya had with subida bay Asuna the elders of Athens Athens of course was the intellectual capital of Greece Greece then was not what Greece is today if you're following the developments in Greece Greece was the intellectual capital of the world the sages of Athens the students of the great Greek philosophers and of course the great three of Socrates of Aristotle and Socrates and Plato or Socrates and Plato and Aristotle I should say and their students in the students of their students were great philosophers and people of the mind and the impact that Greek philosophy had on civilization was quite well known and recorded a major debate takes place between one Jewish Sager be Shobha samanya and the elders of Athens sabe the bearson what's fascinating is if you read the Gemara we have the whole debate but nothing makes sense it was all done in riddles the entire exchange between our be a Sherman canine and the elders of Athens is all in riddles so we have to decode the riddles and demethylase eyes decipher what they meant so many works of great Jewish minds are dedicated to uncover the meanings in these debates between Abba show Burke and I and the elders of Athens because at the surface these the base the debates and their exchanges their dialogues seem childish and immature and ridiculous absurd here is one of those debates and here's an example of what we're saying and this is what the most stuff that was going to explain today they asked the sages of Athens Astra be sure abandon Anya the following question it suits Adam is a chick which dies or perish Rashi a friar sir Mays Berkeley pasa but Schick what dies when it's still in the egg may hate her Norfolk Russia from where does it spirit leave the egg is completely sealed off there's no opening the chick died while it's in the AK so from where does it spirit leave oma Shani rubbish Ibaka Manya responded may hate her the Isle Norfolk from the same place through which the spirit entered the egg that's the same place through which it leaves the egg and rabbi Yeshua was victorious fish assets are as beer this story in the Gemara needs explanation they asked the question the trick died in the egg withers it spirit Li from so what Derbyshire Birkin on you answer same place where it came in from okay so what's the answer I'm going to tell you first a beautiful there's a lot of answers but I want to tell you a beautiful answer given by the morale morale of Prague Robbie who deliver of Prague 16th century in his commentary on Gomorrah to share God does he give us a torx he gives two explanations this is the second one he says a chick that dies symbolizes a child who passes away like that little chick that was not fully developed the Greeks believed that children who died are finished there's nothing that's left the body rots and there's nothing left why because according to the Greeks the only thing that defies mortality is the intellectual and intellect of a person it's this a whole the intellectual contributions and experiences of a person that is the only thing that remains eternal a child according to the Greeks is not an intellectual he's not he or she is incapable of relating to abstract intellectual concepts so therefore according to the Greeks this child is gone the more we are identified with our sale the more we're identified with abstract intellectual concepts that self that rational self that intellectual identity becomes immortal children have nothing of that but the Greeks argued even more even according to the Jews who believed that a person has a soul unlike the philosophy of the Greeks in other words a soul it's not just the intellect even the Jews who believe that a person has a soul the Greeks argued when can the soul defy immortality only if it's not completely in meshed with the flesh a person who was aged who developed time to think about abstract topics his soul is divorced somewhat from the flesh a person who's older who has detached himself from earthly cravings and instincts his soul can live after he dies but a child who's completely focused on bodily needs what does a child do child sleeps a child eats a child drinks all bodily physical needs so the Greeks argue the soul is so and meshed with the body if the child dies if the chick dies the spirit will never leave there's no way the spirit can't leave anymore it's stuck in the egg so the Greeks believe there's no more to immortality for a child who dies it's just over and certainly even a kind even according to the Jews there's no immortality to be a show about Kanani answered mrl said you don't understand what secures the immortality of the child is the fact that the same way the spirit came in the spirit comes out the soul of a person is pure as pristine as divine and even and it comes from somewhere else it's a divine reality so it comes in even when it comes into the body it remains pure and holy and sacred and therefore even after the person passes away the soul Maine's untouchable the body may die and the body is interred and buried into the earth but the soul of a person is essentially a transcendental reality it's a divine reality it comes from a different place it existed before birth so be sure but samanya says you're asking where does it go out from same place where it came in from the whole soul is something beyond a person there's a part of a person that's completely beyond the physical completely beyond the earthly so even the child who's involved with many physical needs his soul remains or her soul remains eternal that's the Morales explanation now let's see the boss symptoms explanation in the context of this discussion for Amara P Shasta broth has paid acharya back here in the text the Mohsen have explained it based on a gomorrah attracted breakfast in chapter hara a definite sign the last chapter of Rocco's afternoon Zion amidala 57 the Camorra says hi Roger Bateson ba Kalam if somebody sees eggs in a dream the town were there is discussing dream interpretation if you see different symbols things in a dream what does it mean so the talmud says if you see eggs in your dream I guess some people dream about eggs so it depends if the eggs are whole so the shell is intact so you can't see what's inside so then the talmud says blue your Bukka saw see it means your prayers are suspended you're not sure we're not sure if your prayers will be fulfilled or not be fulfilled because just like a closed egg a sealed egg you cannot see the food you're not sure what you know you don't see what's inside it's covered so this represents the fact that you cannot see what is going on with your prayers Nesta Bruno says Picasso say but if in your dream you see an egg that was already broken so you could see the the yolk or the white the edible food inside now you know that your request was fulfilled what do we see what does this mean hideki premise beta mother penis at Villa we see that in the Talmudic imagination the egg represents prayer because if not this whole Talmudic interpretation doesn't make sense I see an egg in my dream Agri presents prayers the Talmud says there's two types of eggs if you can't see what's happening inside the egg you only see the external external component of the egg so you don't know what's happening with your prayer it's suspended will would be fulfilled will it not but if the egg is broken so you have access and you could see the inner edible food now you know that your prays will be fulfilled it's interesting and the laws of Pesach it's also discussed that beta the word egg in aramaic is called baya in fact it's a very common term in Jewish literature we don't say baits that we often say baya the word baya baize you die in hay has the same etymology like the word bowie which means a request a prayer so beta is connected to prayer to requests again now we'll understand the story in Gemara a Muhammad officially a became muslima there's no thought that does not have a complete structure there's no thought that does not have meaning there's no thought that does not have its own unique and important personality every thought is a world every thought is a universe of my sovereign or visible Adame bocadillos acne Allah LASIK in his Collette and even a negative or destructive or alien thought that comes to a person is coming for him to fix it and telev ate it as discussed the modem daihama cava him a Meno Ischia Ludo severely creamish Lima so the person pushes away the thought from him it's really like he killed and he pushed away a complete structure a complete world if a thought comes into my psyche to my heart to my reality as I'm praying and I throw it away so according to the baal shem tov what did you do you killed a crime muslim although it's a thought on a person but as he said every thought is a world every thought has got in it so every thought is meaningful every thought has life to it so when you take the thought and you sublimate it you heal it you elevate it you brought it back to life you reveal the true life in it you uncovered the shell and you excavated the soul but when you dismiss this thought when you denigrate the thought when you just let go of the thought you actually kill the soul i'm nam lip-balm yes my Chaves it's a little crazy but sometimes there is a thought that you have to push away sometimes you have to do it so let's go back to the egg this is the imagery here the egg represents prayer sometimes the chick is hatched the mother chicken sits on the egg warms it warms it and the chick emerges as a new chicken or a new rooster comes to life but sometimes is a chick that dies in the egg a little wife that dies in the egg so the boss summative says when I have a thought that's alien and I push it away what did I do in the middle of prayer I pushed away the thought what did I do I killed a chick but sometimes you have to do it sometimes there are thoughts you must suspend the nafs of lima by made the azomite shovel the tray surveys of the carvahlo i saw and if you ask a question how will I know which thought should I push away and which thoughts should I bring clothes you spoiling are dumb you have to follow the following reflection in Bashar shabam our savasana Miya Tolliver mush after my millisecond Allah Lisa RZ tolucaville ELISA if the moment the alien thought came into your mind it came also with the remedy at that moment you also had a thought of how to fix it of how to reveal the love inside of it of how to reveal the holiness in the unholy thought if the alien thought came was followed by another thought showing you how to elevate it then go embrace it explore its true identity the in-law yeah let me add March after mamela Sakana but if you don't immediately have an instinct in your thought how to fix it I was miss damnable of Atholl asada mitzvah La Silla Albemarle shafting then probably it came simply to confuse you to confuse your mind to nullify your prayer to kill your experience cause your shoes lattissima java ee then you have permission to push away the thought Kia ball our good hash Camilla Harger we all know that um eunuch moral dictum if some you're not gonna kill another person but if somebody comes to kill you you kill him first if this thought is coming because it wants healing then you will experience another thought that will help you see how you can heal it but if the thought is just coming as a thot to disturb you and confuse you if an instinct comes in that's grotesque that's perverse that's alien that's strange then if that happens ah a below her go how it's coming to kill you hashkee lorica even though it's true you're killing it you're killing a thought we said God is there there's a life there but if you don't kill it it will kill you if you don't kill it because you'll have compassion on the thought it will destroy you that is why the altar ever Robo Schnee is Amon of Lee Adi the founder of Chabad in his Tania chapter 28 he has a line there sharp line he says how he shaped elastic by loss amid this shall my shudders are don't be foolish and think when you're praying the alien thought comes into you you're oh you're going to sublimate it and heal it and fix it you have to be careful you have to be cautious I want to give a metaphor an illustration to explain this distinction the Bosch summative is making there was once in on a museum and an art gallery a beautiful tremendous piece of art of a dog a big and strong dog barking its teeth bulging and the image on its face was frightening and as a real good art it looked vivid and real and whoever came into the art gallery and sought most people when they saw the piece of art what they do they jumped away in fear they didn't want to get bit by this wild undomesticated dog it took a great artist to be able to come in and look at it see it as a piece of art I go back now to my discussion our discussion with addicts last week she asked me she said a good question she asked she raised a great point isn't all addiction about love isn't just isn't it just injured love isn't it true that the manifestation may be perverse but inside there's love yes there's two stages in life one we call subjugation when we call transformation when you see that painting you're not always capable of seeing it as a piece of art it's true every destructive addiction and alien thought and my perverse reaction and immoral craving and appetite and proclivity and instinct and habit inside there is love inside there's holiness inside there godliness it's a piece of art but are you even capable of seeing the piece of art if you engage it you may simply be morally defeated and fall prey to promiscuous destructive and immoral actions what you have to do is you have to push it away because how balihar Kokoschka moi are good that thought that's coming to you may be a product of your own issues and your own addiction and you are still bound in that place you're still bound up to your patterns you're still not fully wholesome and develop that you can actually objectively look at that instinct look at that thought and say wow see the art at this stage you must identify it and reject it there is a deeper stage of consciousness where you can transform it well you could see the art in every thought and every word every emotion not in its external expression but it's the depth and you can heal it this now is the meaning in the story of the Talmud now let's continue oppa's a you for now I'll understand what the Gemara means it suits Adam is Meishan off it guru say a trick that dies from where does it spirit go out calamar hamish of assha baba Shasta foolish and it abates of the myths when you have a thorn in middle of prayer prayer is called an egg baits a pea in middle of prayer you have an alien or destructive thoughts that's the chick that's in the egg the miss the chick dies I know shadows I saw my shovel May misses you push away the thought and you kill it it has a soul it has divine energy in it but what did you do you kill the chick in the egg Haiti Norfolk Ruthie on this day as Katie Norfolk Rosie how does it spirit go out it's not a geographical question from where does it spirit go out it's an ideological question hey who may miss vadai Sakai Muslim Haiti Norfolk Rosie means how does the spirit go out how do you have the audacity how do you have the car how do you have the hood spatter you have the cruelty to kill the spirit to remove it spirit to push away a world our universe by dismissing and denigrating and ignoring these unholy thoughts or Michonne me on this ruby show banana answers may hate the old Norfolk I can remove the spirit based on the place where it came from mashallah mashallah lovable Asad umbilicus I cannot fake just as the thought came in in order to confuse the person and push away the person from his own relationship with God so casts nothing the same the spirit can go out the Siuslaw DiMaggio Lloyd CIC the person has permission to push away the thought and to remove it and to kill it Rizzo Sharma Mahesh Adal Norfolk that's what he means from the same place that when in it goes out they asked the question how can you dismiss such a thought how can you kill such a thought how can you ignore and destroy and obliterate such an opportunity how do you do such a thing how do you remove it spirit you have to indulge it you have to engage it if the sublimated so he says no Mahesh said the whole Norfolk look at where it came from where did it come from what was its motivation that motivation was to destroy the person to stop your darvany to undermine your concentration to pull you away from a healthy and wholesome and mindful stayed in a relationship with your soul that's what it's boring point is if that's what its point is if you're going to engage it if you're going to recognize it if you're going to acknowledge it you will not be able to recognize its true deep art you will rather fall prey to its external manifestations and it will succeed what it wanted to do you're still in a place we are not detached from it you're too much part of it and you don't have the luxury you don't have the serenity you don't have the depth you know the discipline to be able to see yourself as completely distanced from this thought than from this perverse experience and say let me heal it let me fix if I engage it what will happen is I will become a victim of it does it have a life does it have a spiritual life yes are you always ready to reveal that spiritual life not yes not yet maybe later maybe after the prayers you can go revisit it maybe at a later stage but right now you have to kill it based on where it came from that's how it goes out if it came because it just wanted to be healed if it came like this hammersmith begging and asking for redemption for healing if it came because it wants to serve you at once you should help it become what it really is and sublimate it then elevated then transform it but if that's not the case if it did not come for healing if it came because it wants to destroy you that's where it's at now you have no choice but you have to disengage yourself from it you have to dismiss it so that you should be able to be in a position where you continue to serve God and you continue to access your sobriety and you continue to cultivate a real relationship with your soul during this unique gift and opportunity of Prayer and he concludes with Divi a peacock obtained the words of a wise man our glamorous have a good night [Music] you