Spitting Out the Milk of Your Mother - Likkutei Torah Shlach Mekosheish Eitzim #6

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because I'm in Toronto tonight so tomorrow morning I'm not here tomorrow night Thursday night since Shabbos is the 25th yard site of the lubavitcher rebbe so tomorrow night were having here in the tent a big gathering of his okinawa brainian with myself and rabbi Dov Berenson with food and and and music right here right here 20 men and women will be a mitzvah for women and children everybody's invited all communities invited 7:30 p.m. everybody's invited the back here where I give the women's class that's tomorrow night Thursday night coulomb was my name okay but tomorrow morning please tell the hevener that there's no share okay because I'm in Toronto so we'll continue so today is Wednesday Monday we explored the other form a molecule almond I hope you still remember the love of the self the ultimate ultimate self and yesterday Tuesday parshas crater of teshuvah me tried to touch and I want to say explored but we tried to touch the other of that I was rooted in save of kalam on which is rooted in the essence beyond just the expression the expression and the condensed menteur the energy that allows for the self to emerge and it it's a much it's a whole different magnitude a magnitude of love so now let's go back inside now these are I just tough to say the obvious these are very deep concepts and they're not always easy to grasp because it's a it's a certain way of thinking of of adjusting your mind of tuning into it so it's important to to review it a hazard it to internalize it to think about it to be look like he always says to visa from is Beynon sobieszczyk from is binding in it sometimes you have to hear something a few times I had the privilege of learning Lakota Taylor for many years before I gave this year so there was a Yid once who said this just so is my my limits over is this old Bazaar cumin vitamin Mali right this service my feeling is poke for carrot how much he talks about so I want him to say more business hug me it's always as much as he talked about Molly say more say more every mine he reveals something with a male side man because it's really yeah very good okay for those who are listening virtually no bond and just described that Mickey Mantle's ability was not just to take a ball on a stick and to take the stick and to hit the ball that's not how you describe baseball right this is much more yeah yeah so I'm just saying you know don't these things need Hazara and his bonus and internalization and personalization the most Fortin application you know this document has been at this das okay so vitae in inside eighty-four on top it says schlock the line starts varaha zoom it's probably fifteen lines from the bottom VAR v zu vous avez uma penis save of kalam and latest and lemarcus avisek hades bassoon life this the uniqueness of this love is no other love will ever cancel it out mamala cool almond is an avi that consciously could be canceled out by other loves you know I'm crazy about you today I'm crazy about other things tomorrow we see it all the time in human relationships how many people get married and if you tell them are you in love oh we fell in love the problem is you fell in love you didn't climb in love yeah you you fell in love you got a climb in love but by definition what I'm just giving this as a muscle debilitating clash of another what's together of my male I feel it that's what makes it my male what is mamala what did we explain right it's that which I feel which I experience it makes me me it's the fuse the life that I can recognize it's it's the water that it becomes identified by the cup and not as two separate things but that's that's my electricity I call it my own that's why you can even deny that it comes from the source of Hashem why are there so much atheism in the world because the electricity of the body is so one with the body they could say there's nothing else there's just the machine air with electricity and when you die it's just the electricity is gone and then you become fodder for the worms even though it's all the virus um it's on the Samba it's a spiritual crisis but it's so the mamala is so successful it's so successful that you can already detach it from its source that's how effective that's how internalized it is within within the vessel so it's all about that my experience and because it's about my experience of it when there's no experience or when there's opposite experiences it could cancel out the law of consciously so the ave of silver V says no other love in the world will ever be able to obliterate it because it's not rooted on how much you experience consciously it's rooted in the essential relationship of oneness that is actually beyond your conscious brain and your conscious ego and your conscious experience he says nothing can change it mock Basava cicadas and I think we see this mom-ish in a relationship again I'm just giving a Marshall to be able to apply it more if I want to say this there's a marriage or a relationship that's only my mileage missing serveth what shot in other words the reason we're connected is because I feel the connection the problem is in three years you may not feel the connection there may be other connections that come into your life there may be other things going on and what often happens is it's like we all feel anymore and it's time to move on and this happens constantly in the world constantly what sort of kilometer karma means that there's a relationship that is deeper than I to say it in simple English it's an unwavering commitment to the sacredness of the marriage institution it's an unwavering commitment to the value of the relationship the value of a marriage to the value of a family it's it's a it's of course I want to feel it I want to enjoy it it's very important I'm Alan Colombian is important but the point is that there's something that transcends my experience of the marriage can you have that when one doesn't have that the marriage is much more vulnerable you fall in love and you fall out you fall in you fall out you fall in you fall out and we see it constantly all the time what holds it is something that will not be canceled at okay so you're not experiencing so you're going through a catch yeah there's some struggles that have to be done sometimes it's it's unbearable sometimes a very serious or difficult situation you know there is a concept of marriage not working out we all understand it but I'm saying every marriage or so many marriages go through some very very difficult patches for whatever reason whether it's him or her both of them together are usually the dynamics it's not even him or her it's just the dynamics the way they the space in which the interplay has to happen so even in the human metaphor we can understand these two - this difference can achieve on this the posix says and share shoot him miami rob him loose lilica Basava the multitudes of waters raging waters cannot extinguish love why not if you have a fire burning it could be a huge fire but if you have Miami Robin is going to extinguish the flame the shot is here noises may occur Shana miss Lamech especially since it's not a Nava that is enclosed in a vessel it's not contained the a ver of mamala column and what's its engine what's his definition that it's Malibu Shanna Kaley it's enclosed in a vessel in my vessel that's its beauty that's its power it's the love of ultimate self which is aligned with the true self of Hashem the way his energy is manifested in a Kaley because it's defined by a Kaylie it can also be eclipsed there could be cancelled or it can be repressed or it can be or can be challenged or it can be replaced but there are limits at save of kilometers not Malou --brush in a Kaylie because it's not Malibu Shanna Kaylie the fact that the Kaylee gets dirty will not cancel out the love what allows me to experience mamala is my experience of it and therefore if my experience becomes tainted or tarnished or something that can happen it can spit out the water it can it can expel it I'm not a Kayleigh for you anymore you know sometimes different things happen I'm not feeling it I'm not containing it anymore but if it's not defined by the Kayleigh so therefore the Kayleigh also won't be a contradiction to it it won't it won't destroy it it won't obliterate it the call had the food shooter delay actually penis Ava's ooh and there's nobody who doesn't have this love every single person the Foom sure to delay according to a sheer has this love Kody you can ask what's the love Fouchier a delay if it's male I understand it's a function or a delay because it's based on Michaela if it's Ivan what's the love Fouchier the laser stuck in fear the holy nian is that it's size of is everywhere Basava but it's interesting even cyber recess Kolkata from shooter delay every person according to his own sheer ashleighb penis Ava's ooh I guess coaches you see that say that's something I disable from ceará delay she hurried away but here he says look on my car the shot is mmm-hmm we spoke yesterday yesterday's mamala yesterday's service becomes today's mamala i told you from the brisket of about a muna right the machine comes a loss of Yamuna today's Emunah becomes tomorrow's knowledge and tomorrow's and their muna tomorrow is much deeper and then the next day that becomes India so that's the laugh um sugar delay in other words somebody's for what one for what by one person is so viv is by another person my male well yeah relative to scale and person has different Calum yeah you can't compare a cup of seven ounces to a gallon to a two to a Kaylee of a hundred gallons so that's one Accord but look I would assume was already here he same wouldn't that you think everyone the food surely has this ah he's talking about this average self yeah but look idea what he means it from sure delay is not bad some how much access there is to it how much it's manifested how much it's revealed well coded that's to come on yeah so that there's something that I can I can accept but I can't really understand once it's taught me the standing or tapping into war then it then then it becomes no knowledge because that's now yeah yeah yeah you know sometimes an idea you hear it you heard it five years ago I went right over you five years later you get it you needed much more experience you needed more maturity you have to go through another couple of things in life and then you say you know what five years ago he told that to me Stalin it was like ooh right over me because everyone hears things from where they are sometimes you can the gemara says an avoid azure-eyed are boyish mean like coy initiai to the rubber we learnt it in via night right you could take 40 years for you do you understand your ever 40 years you're learning if you're sitting 40 years 40 years later ah now that you didn't understand anything you understood but you didn't understand what he was really saying so sometimes you can hear something for 40 years 40 years later you go back to what you're at 40 years ago and you get a whole different understanding of it and it's not because he didn't try to understand it was just how much you were open to how much you were capable of understand huh yeah yeah I'm saying but sometimes 40 years later there was a hostage of the ballot Anya he was the rub of chernigov chair [ __ ] was a very famous city in the Ukraine name was a parrot's cane he was a child stood by the ballot Anya but he was a very well-known rather big on the feint fell out of the hain't families or that died from the dynasty of the parrots can Chernigov so he once described this Vaart here he said in Yiddish mr. an expression Darton Darton who Adel kite I don't remember verbatim but the tension was this dark neva Adel kite business can Kaley his group kindness consider who Adel kite is Nichkhun Kaley his grub kindness consider meaning where refinement doesn't make you into a vessel the antithesis of refinement doesn't turn you into a contradiction ma'am a local almond if the Caylee is damaged if there's no Caylee there's no idea there's no light like the refrigerator can't channel the electricity if something is broken it's just not the life is not coming through the definition of it is that I get it and if I'm not in a position of getting it it's not here if a student is sitting at the shear and he's exhausted or overwhelmed or stressed or or a dee dee mode or ADHD mode it's not coming into him it's not I'm not going away with anything you spoke but I didn't hear what you said so it's all about the Kaylee and therefore it can get it get washed up it can get destroyed it can get canceled maíam Robin could extinguish the love but the avid it's rooted in serve it's not like I'm a Kaylie for it the eye is not a Kaylie for it because say viv is that which transcends completely the either reason is an eye is only because of my male LMI it's because of a relationship that transcends that I so a mailer where the eye even the most perfect eye is not a vessel it's also not a contradiction if it's compromised so mailer maíam robbery hula hibiscus off and everyone has this alva never doubt it could exceed this what the passage says but I'm a Coulomb so thick the posture can you shy of a McCallum tsadikim that's every single do what do we mean tsadikim that is he or she is rooted it has this Alva who saved the pod success in voracious Valhalla is Brisbane you beneath him oaks if you see Benny obey him bris eylem the POSIX says in beret shoes Shem Tov's of ROM it's gonna be there's gonna be an sign of a covenant a bris beanie obey Nathan between you and me and in schmerzki sisa about Shabbos key I see Benny obey Nathan grease oak a bris eylem what's that bris it's an eternal covenant that nothing can ever it can destroy Peters is bliss who penis I've assumed a penis type of column Shana miss la beche is betrothal Raksha I met this alaykum penis mcaveeney ube Nathan this love of save of Calallen from RM to the Jew and the Jew Tasha it's never manifested in you and therefore defined by your limitations and therefore your weaknesses will not define it just like your strengths will not capture it so even in a weak moment or even when I'm feeling other stuff that relationship completely remains intact because it's a breeze eylem and it's not militia in you so therefore it's not vulnerable to your own vicissitudes tell Isaac what that is Thank You mr. Garson but the vicissitudes sounds more sophisticated than mission council I'm sorry no nose I think what he means is vomits : Sadiq and that there's an occluder there's an accrued of that's yeah so to speak yeah and that's why says Benny obey nation mania bein a them is like it's the space between you and me it's that space between you and me it's not internalized by you in a way that you own it in the sense that you can also dishonor it you know when I own something I can also disown it I can when I own it it's beautiful until I don't own it anymore but so if I don't own it it owns me so I can't disown it and it will not disown me sorry it will not dissolve me ah I have us the Haniyeh that's all gonna say now you can you have to own the Hashanah you have to open yourself up to it but the Etzel minyan maíam grab my you're all covered up say but I'm not in the mood and I don't believe and I'm not connected the either you why with is not connected okay the eye that you identify with is not connected fine that's how you have to say it that's the right language don't say I'm not connected the eye that I identify with at this moment doesn't feel it's connected say that's yeah and it's also reality it's a reality it's it's it's it's a certain prism of reality which which hat which is legitimate it's not the that that's also part of it yeah yeah I guess that aspect is but but but the nakid there is and and and and part of the experience of the Jewish soul is this alva as he says the funkier delay but that's part know the fact that somebody else's so it becomes your ma ma Li that's true or yesterday so becomes today's of knowledge but there's always an akuna that's beyond that that's beyond that it's cause it's infinite does up saying it comes good trying somebody translate what I said Rizzo Jacques Alcott owaisi's Ba'ath Rizzo Jacques al carro AC is modest mache McCulloh Morocco will lie Bashar Seamus Vicki no empirical that's the reason that the primary title for Hashem among our sages is a cottage Morocco and usually not other names or or canoe iam are like pseudo names different titles K go in for example other names you have a look Kim you have a look I have sinned Allah dude you have all course you have ectomy have a lot of different names right super shameless Sheringham [ __ ] it in her locker seven names and when I'll anyways but then this canoe iam to name our expressions like Rocco McConnell and Ralph has said Erica by him different expressions are sham kale rock on the cannon these are called canoe iam huh so of course they use it but usually the name is a cottage Morocco why Cocola Seamus Vicki knew him hey mouth shame his have us a pool on a machetes me to his mother all the names and the canoe iam are basically descriptions of his Havas of creation of the type of activity that is coming from Hashem that is being generated by Hashem I feel ashame avaya even the name that's known as this shame I'm a Farishta shame at them to shame on me you could that's how the poise can call it Shaima Exim shame I'm a fighter shame on me you had a massage - Lewisohn and in Ramba milk as I said the attire even shame avaya who I'll shame shame Ahava me I am Lea is also hvar youth cave of K is the concept of you'd hey and then vovan hey is ya hava Coonoor driver which is is how you however year right it's all existence his have us is being to be is called salvos have i is that which brings everything into being from a state of iron from nothingness into a state of yesh ex nihilo so certainly all the other names whether it's radical more Hanan or Ella Kim whatever it is Seamus or King William are all denoting or capturing a certain activity that as general is being generated from him in other words it's all in the patina of mamalakat my shame can shame Kaddish but the name Khadija Kaddish what does the word Scottish mean made a lot smooth so this denotes at smooth sets what it means the essence sure who Kaddish remove them because the only thing you could say about it is that it's beyond and that's what Kaddish really means kaddish means that whatever it is it's beyond kaddish means something beyond in other words ah I didn't want to use the word separate beyond because it's not separate separate are separate Shana miss lavish toys Owlman separate in the sense that any definition of it is not capturing it but not separate in the sense that it's somewhere you know and in in Mars for carrot because of this there's no place that it doesn't fill because there's no contradiction to it so it's the closest thing else Shana miss laboratory Kalman it's not limited or defined or condensed in the parameters of each universe and it's chemistry all the other names represents the detailed flow of energy of this person or this experience even javea represents his harvest so it's everything Shana at Seminole I'm a virgin but it's the holy service it's not it's not an individual detail but it's the whole concept of his harvest which is basically the concretization of reality in terms of a separate identity but a Kaddish I cut his burro who they wanted to use that name because that represents what we're calling save of kalam it's Kaddish a model and it's interesting in Yiddish the Baal Shem Tov in his Tom made him the name the main name they used to use is far Shem was de a Brewster the a barista this rabona shall oil um this basha fare right is of course Hashem but they would obviously they ate what's the definition of a brush they're a bridge what is a bridge to mean the higher so what are you saying basically wherever wherever you are it's the higher the a bridge to wherever you are it's Daria that's that's what conditionings Kaddish means wherever you are it's something deeper it's something beyond the Kaddish borrow who but they then they added the words borrow who could have just said Hakadosh I cut this bar who in other words ain't safe huh miss lavish toys is a dump in the EU vikarma it hot it's not the pisser cottage that remains aloof separate hakodesh Bora who is the way the Kurdish ultimately is miss lavish and produces mamala Kalam and remember it's all really one thing we talked about it in two things how cutters borrow who borrow who means like the mission system average has a Geffen borrow is when something is drawn down when something is is brought like when you're a maverick as a Geffen is when you ah it's not graph there's another words for it ah draw when you draw it the graph you grafted into another tree drawing is I draw a part of it I put it into earth because I want the sapling to grow you have in modern Hebrew Breaka Breaka as a pool which draws from a source of water whether it's a well or or or a brook they call it Breaka Brook has always to draw something down me you say um somebody gives up Baraka what what why are you giving a broth what are you trying to do so the consular brokers and that's why there is a person who can give a broth every person give a broth about this there's breakfast and his brothers but the real brush is the ability to be able to see into your potential and draw forth from your own reservoir of energy draw it forth actualize it Yaakov puts his right hand on the frying so Yosef says put your right hand on mine ah she's older so yeah coop says no a fry him is greater he needs the right hand the oyster could have told ya Yaakov bless Menasha with whatever you're gonna bless a free him and let him get the right hand the answer is a brother can't create a new person I can't reinvent you I can help bring out who you are what you have in your source we can actualize Menasha is not a frame a frame is not Menasha Menasha has his own destiny from so baroque is always to bring it forth Hakodesh bara who is the synthesis between that which is color to move though that which is always beyond and not grasped by the eye even the highest I the spiritual eye because it's preached free the restriction of my male and yet that's borrowed who that it's enclosed tell you sowed the Eve regard Mary had there's an expression and Sawyer he and his minutes are one Vava Obama back in the zoo I'm saying when something is communicated to a new place to a lower place it's called bracha vah vah vah McKenna's una class kedusha the love that comes from this is also called kaduche solution new cover kedusha is feminine Shama cabela's me Kaddish the other that I experience that you experience from save of kawaman is always called kedusha kedusha is the feminine element of Kaddish in other words when you're experiencing the flow of colors so that is kedusha commercia CastleVille issue kasich Hashem tells cava your trucha your desire craving will be to your husband the kedusha which is receiving and yearns for the oneness with Kadosh being a penis a Venusian Kozma shameiess Brits are now this love of the Jew which is called the oice bris the eternal covenant between you and I a nabela's Gallus there's no way it can be revealed Li they crease us arla only by cutting off the foreskin alifair faso mikasa which covers up hooli etc he doesn't want to specify mama SH what it covers up but the point is it's covering up in other words you have to appreciate the new Hooda that Hashem makes a bris was Thoth ROM why does the bris have to have circumcision involved make a covenant why do what do you have to cut something he says because as long as there's a foreskin none are low we could explain what that means it blocks any ability to have some form of experience or revelation of this Alva commercial Kosovo maltimus Arliss Lavazza par success you should circumcise the foreskin of your heart this - Arliss does the r-la that we have for but there's a different type of our law its Arliss lavaca and the two our lists are connected the heart sometimes has a foreskin and the foreskin blocks it it covers it's like I'm a pizza you have no access to the heart so the bris is they're essential but in order to experience the bris you have to be able to open up the channels so you have to be able to have the foreskin that's why even though you can't create this bris and you can't undermine it you can't cancel it but the preparation for it that's up to you Varla in a lotion item ala lotion key so the real word Arlo's not just it's stuffed usually we say ARLA means something that's plugged if I stopped item it's plugged so the real word of ARLA is a cover-up because the problem is not that it's not stuffed it's not stuffed it's pure it's good there's no plumbing problem the problem is there's a cover-up so you have no access to it so the Erla is the foreskin that covers and doesn't allow the source to come out there's a moment from the ballot on your topic of some above he said it at a bris of his grandson great grandson did some ascetics underbar of shalom so there's a - he said then that very interesting idea do your binder shall oil are made that the place of the bris is also the part of the body through which a person can procreate that's the place of the source of life the tip of the seed of life the sperm comes from that place but we're also created with on our low with a foreskin what does this represent spiritually though the source of life of everything is divine but in life in the world as on our law there's a cosmic foreskin that doesn't allow us to have access to that source of life what the bris does is is not just a particular circumcision of a child it allows the child to be able it removes the foreskin allowing the child to be able to access the source of life's energy with less cover-ups so when we remove that individual earlier you're also on a micro on a micro level you're removing the macro arla because everything is a reflection you're opening up channels in this child soul and in the world to be able to be aligned with your own source of life that has withstood sir love ma cannot Satan bliss that's when yahushua said when they came in tattoos so he said it's time for a second Miller yeah what's this what's this Arles a lave that blacks the ave of save of Kalama for who penis Alvaro avalor shouldn't be translated as evil love because you're not gonna cop what he means I told you many times the word Iran or chancroid theirs doesn't begin with evil the word Haram means broken in Baba kama have Castle rah rah what's a coiler oh ah a weak wall a broken inkay hawlucha have release e-commerce and NASA taco sauce mmm Hevel loose Rua loose Rock means it's fragmented it's broken everybody is whole you are whole when are your whole when you're part of the whole when you separate yourself from the hole right there was a big birthday cake a yesterday Loyola Montana got the guns the talk but smack of it'sif it's a whole cake when somebody takes off a piece now you say well I guess you have to if you want to eat it but it's fragmented when I detach myself from the whole that's colder ah now I'm broken whenever a person feels broken that's a state of rah because it's not true you're not broken you're always one with the hole but when I experience myself not as one with the hole when I experience myself a separate fragment and broken that's the source of rah when we speak about rah in the most aveer term it's the ultimate result of being broken it's the ultimate result of being separated when somebody for example harms and other persons Michelle Smith is dumb the worst sin murder what is that it's the ultimate sense of brokenness you completely don't recognize your oneness with another person you could take their life you completely don't recognize your oneness with the higher reality all these types of things so the question is how broken but all robbed begins with a sense of brokenness and therefore average raw means a broken love what's that broken love a love that doesn't bring you back to your wholeness there's two types of loves in the world there's a love that promotes your wholeness and is a love that promotes your brokenness you know just like in say in in in people's relationships you'll say the reason you're you love this person is because it's feeding into your taxes 'ti in other words it's dysfunctional and at some point it's gonna plotz because it's not bringing you closer to who you really want to be into who you are on the contrary that's called all avisaurus this is a Veera but Tom noogies Bernardo sometimes a person falls in love with all different types of pleasures our show bahattar even though it may be permissible it's not forbidden rapture but remembers vez la vez at Ivor but the person becomes so passionate and so overtaken by their cravings to some tour some form of worldly the light and pleasure and what that is is that dulls your ability to experience your true wholeness vishesha Casa Vega kapa haka circle says in tehilim yogya kapa haka circle meaning you should eat with the toil of your hands Copiah Colima Chaka pie mu game you have to work with your hands or your egg lying with your feet or shoddy frm I could sign them or other external organs below lathe don't allow your whole heart to be captured by the stress of the office you have to be in the office with your hands with your feet with a volume I could sign them but don't let it hijack you to the point that you become obsessed with things and that doesn't allow you to remain aligned what often happens in life is a person becomes so overwhelmed with such a passion a person needs things from the world you have to live and live in a good way but when he says when a person becomes overwhelmed with this tremendous passion and his Lavos so this fire of Tyva is the our let's the four skin that covers up the true love that you have in your in your soul it eclipses it varaha cotton whatever even those who are by nature cold-blooded Kumari Shui Hollen like bookworms the oshri alum is people who love intellect they like to sit and read they're usually less social they're usually less warm as our part on your shreya column in other words they're brainy they're very brainy so they're not so emotional they're not so such people's people's be yollop they like to sit themselves and read their their knowledge knowledge junkies so they're much colder they don't do they don't get excited so much they're more intellectual they're more cerebral more cerebral yeah that could be yeah she says beginners know a lot more spiritually that shot if you're born circumcised these people we know that are born after a bris I have an uncle those angers own my father's brother who was born on Zion are there and he was born there circumcised full bris when he was born was I another when Masha was when the Gemara says Masha was nylon mall in sight to matteo ricci Toivo shinola the mall stop I'm telling you I'm at seus so the Valentine says what's up Nolan mall some people are born with less stiver some people are born and their disposition his mullet either in other words a lot of our love there a lot of cover-ups it's very easy some people are not they're born with a more fine disposition more Adel a disposition it's not easy for them to get overwhelmed and gluttonous they're not the addiction type you know what I mean they're less passionate they're just less but about everything they're less passionate it's different types it's called nylon mall C says alpha became similar hot if dumb Buddhists the law says if somebody's born Maho they don't get over the hook you have to do a toughest down you got a prick you have to still allow the dumb bris y versus left you don't have an Allah so he says Lamar yet he'll be with our myeloma and AHS but search leagoo for my name avoid even if you know that mole so the Orla may not be as passionate you're not the addictive type but ultimately if a person doesn't work on themselves to live a life of connection with truth so then the various pleasures even though it's turkey goofy it's not evil things we're not talking about evil bad addictions it's the regular day-to-day could be eating supper but when a person eats supper they can forget the pen aeneas of the world it's such a gluttony you know it scalding you - - you know what so finis ah Zulu verse over yeah ah yeah fresh ink it's out scotia you went you went to fireside whoever huh yeah the drink in the front in other words it's Mahad the minima hadrons its rabbi Landau's Heckscher ah so Burlando there but something it could it and it could it is that moment the annoyed Malvado Kansas can be felt you're in a different place you're you fall into an aural on the Salem is not gonna go away it's there but you know how when you eat a heavy meal and you can't breathe for a few hours you can't feel emotions yeah you know what I'm talking about guy goes to restaurant the each nine courses he comes out you want to call this heavy condition he barely could be that was a good soda because I can't breathe and for three hours there's nobody home you can't there's no emotion because you stuffed over there are lists a collection item is stuffed up but what just happened what happened was you you went out of your zone you're not in this zone of oneness you're and there was a reason for it you had a void there's a reason we're gluttonous we're not there's a reason we go to addiction people are not we have a void and I have to fill that void and I fill it this one through drinking and this one through websites and this one through food and this one through other things why do I have a void because I feel broken because I'm in a state of rah I'm broken if I would feel whole I may have pain but not a void void means these are emptiness as a whole why do you have a hole I'm broken I have a hole because I'm not hole I have a hole with hol e cuz I'm not hole WH o le because I'm missing the W the we ah I didn't say we'd I said we ya atossa Lamar tell David Amma to challenge the Dom yeah right yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yes Atossa even though I'm born and Adel some people are just able they're more able you know what I mean yeah they're equals at night at mole you born mall it's not just physically you're born with hips our CCO shanira toughest dombarris that's why the briefs with haram Amina comes with a condition you have to be mal Darla because the more person is mal Darla the more they can feel and experience the true ave of sighs of Kalama it's fear but you may not have access to it because I am completely covered for stopped and covered up ah decked by my Orla yeah the Arlo's is is the the intensity of the private intensity of the passion that's that's a broken passion it's not a passion a passion to a la cosa passion to ms a passion to Polly meais those are the great passions those are passions that are part of your wholeness and promote wholeness and then these passions that are substitutes for that it's always a question if I'm going to the substitute if I'm going to the core Oh commercial Cove this deposit says initially meets call of Yahtzee Hema viboras album yatta might say commercial totally Mischa Heikki hull of a Yanaka ooh there's a puss akin miss Leigh this is very powerful words the posix says in Proverbs I'm I'm Alec says mid skull of Joseph Emma myths up IMEI sedum and I think MIT's Casio series you ever made milk you ever made butter for milk your mother ever made butter for milk you saw yeah summer candy made butter out of milk yeah so the milk has to curdle kernel into butter it's a whole process so the plastic says MIT skull of asthma mitts means to like mitts it's a-- yet the extract the correction also squeezing the extract of milk the squeezing of the milk the processing of the milk will produce butter MIT's rpm when you squeeze your nose too hard it will produce blood a nosebleed and he continues I have to remember the end of the pasta we don't have a mission Leahy right and he said and when ah no no no no I'll take a look I just want to read you the passage yeah starry mitts call of a chief Emma yeah you squeeze the milky produce but erm it's a few squeeze the nose HC damn you produce blood MIT supply M notes Edith no no not cap I am a PI M is like when you get angry MIT's app I am the Matsuda stove it says like this the MIT's it's squeezing Milk Producers butter squeezing the nose produces blood and when a person gets angry it usually it creates a fight it creates quarreling might sit if comes the Gemara and bracha stuff sama gimel and says what is phlegm I might look trying to tell you well we will you find the butter of Tyria only somebody who spit out the milk that he nursed from his mother that's what the Gemara says breakfast of some of Gitmo mid skull of Yosef Emma you got to spit out the milk to find the butter where will you find the butter of Trader somebody who spit out the milk that he nursed from his mother what does this mean what does this mean what's wrong with the milk that you nursed from your mother so this is very heavy the milk milk will witness our mother is a metaphor for that which we internalize from day one it's what your mother gave you it's the milk that I live by it's a metaphor for that which I'm comfortable with that which I'm used to that which has sustained me which has given vitality it's who I know it's who I know myself to be if you're not ready to spit out the milk of your mother the Hema the the schmaltz yeah I don't mean to mean milk eggs and flavorings but the hem is the Smetana the best of the best creme de la creme this is the commercial trader the putter it's an aristocratic royal very rich food but aright a bagel MIT puta a bagel MIT put we're gonna find the commercial traitor only a person who was ready to spit out the milk of their mother meaning what does it mean it means in life independence and more than independence the courage to be able to reevaluate everything about myself the courage to be able to be ready to spit everything out the courage to be able to say I really did it know where I really didn't figure it out what often happens in life is the milk that I nursed for my mother I will never spit out this will become the lid the barometer by which I measure everything but the hammer shell Toyota has to come that's where the Gomora says the Mesha haiti hull of shock without expired i don't want to use the word vomit it's not easy it's not easy remember it's the concept of Coover but it's not when I'm talking Ivana Nevada we're talking about that ability to be able to let go yeah yeah Shimon I'm sunny very good yeah tremendous right I'm not spinning out the milk cause I want to get rid of the milk it's because I want to what does it call shirring or when you meant churning churning I wanted to turn it into butter that's the point the point is not the vomiting the point the port the transformation to put his transformation yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah the lobster no Lobster and others they want to grow but they have a shell and you have to shed it and it's very vulnerable when you said it because this is your protective mode and the moment you shed it you're open for prey that's why I think they go on the racks they do it on the racks it's very interesting but only then can you develop a new shell which is much bigger because your body is growing and then the lobster gets irritated again and it sheds it again and a new one grows and that's how it is so if I'm not ready to shed but what are we talking here about not synonyms concerning them the hull of shark which they emo in other words the milk that made me grow and when I was a child that gave me life that sustained me and yet if I want to get to the butter I have to be able to say goodbye goodbye to that milk what's the greatest obstacle for real transformation my ah vulnerability ah comfort zone and my real inability to ice spyin so i spine to spit out everything that for me was like everything this this is who I am this is this is how I'm knowing this is my reputation this is my resume this is how Google knows me right yeah of course we're talking in a healthy way here there's a very big difference if you're doing it out of guilt or because you hate yourself that and so we're not talking about that that's another addiction that's a spiritual addiction transformation yeah why did the Gomorrah use from everything Gemma C says being in a hammer Camela Marshall some newness at cephalic olive the hammer is the sham noticed the Smetana yudishtir the fatness the cream that flows over the milk it flows over the milk cashew penis Ave AHA now Shana miss la beche hysterically what the Americans have Michelle trade is the average size of kawaman that's not mixed in the milk it flows above the milk because it's not militia NAT Kaylie that's the camera the camera is that Cherie see a part that flows above because it's not limited by the Kaylie how can you find the hem of tailor the hem of tailors the Sham newness of tailor the De Smet enough data that flows above the milk enjoy this compared to milk but it flows even above the milk he says for this I have to be able to spit out the whole of Xian nickname I that's the Orla sometimes that milk becomes my ARLA becomes my my track I I was knowing that mole I was no know yet laughter because I'd sue me that toughest numberous because it's all of the cover in other words every single cover-up in life anything that's happening in your life that's covering something that's blocking truth becomes on our law and it doesn't allow you to experience the briefs eylem in a genuine way if you want the camera I have to be able to challenge even those things that are not bad it's the milk of my mother but the milk of my mother is entrenched very deep into me and that's a metaphor of course ah tourism si yeah yeah yeah that's the milk that's the milk why not because it's not there the hem is near it's there but it flows above the milk you want to transform it's turning it into hammer that's a whole new process and that process requires from the person to be able to look at their life and to challenge and prick through all the foreskins that cover up that which is in the pen amis and by Mahler a person has to be able to challenge it first it has to be able to discipline himself in it because whenever it exists it will create a blockage and it creates a blockage the person will not be able to become one with that premise so you could look through your own life or I could look through my own life for you look at your schedule and you see where are those forced skins in my life where are those our laws when do they take over because if you can master them if you can master those our laws and you could remove them at least somewhat what happens is it allows you to become the true person you are not only in the male stalking here even thinking of save of okay please remember tomorrow morning there's no shear huh and tomorrow night we have a big for bringing in the tents have a wonderful day I good hi - everybody we're going to continue now with the Gomora Sock'em huh oh I say there you're right there sorry you're right you're right no no you happen to be right I know you know one over you happen to be right if you would want to be right you probably wouldn't be right no no the comfort zone fear zone learning zone and success though growth zone look there's the comfort zone you don't want to get out of it because you're going into the fear zone the unknown which allows you to go into the learning zone the growth zone which is churning the milk into butter and then you get to successful Avada but it's different yeah but even within that relative so to speak what should I buy and niska's I at least give all zegen moisture didn't want a nurse from an Egyptian milk because because of this that's why Miriam brought his mother call of she Yannick mahé my blade will turn the milk into butter the nosebleed the Vilna Gaon and mish lay over there has a beautiful interpretation on the plastic he says that there's three reasons where people argue with other people and they try to convince them that they're right and the other person is wrong and that's what the plastic is talking about he says like this I saw once he says when somebody when somebody criticizes you or somebody he says Musharraf or somebody curses you or attacks you we have this instinct that to get into an argument you know to start fighting back she says there's three reasons one is you want to basically reclaim you want to reclaim your dignity you want to show that you know you're feeling down and you want to whom you want to come back up and you want to show the person though you're good and you're much better than him yeah number two is you want to prove him that he's that he's a lawyer you want to you want to prove that he know that he lied and number three you want him to stop so he says that's what people get into fights and arguments she says the first one who wants to show that he's better than the other person he says you're barking up the wrong tree says look how they make milk from butter the Vilna Gaon says the first thing is you always have to cover the Kaylee with the milk when you make butter you can't keep it open if you keep it open it's not gonna happen so he says keep yourself covered that's the first thing one myth skull of a chick Emma the color has to be covered nobody has to know everything about you you could you could be discreet so the second thing is when you when you try to clean your nose to March it starts bleeding and it gets even more bloody so you said whenever you try to clean yourself and show other people show this guy how clean you are so I'm cleaning my nose that sometimes gets bloodier and and the third thing is you want to shut the person up so that's what he says it creates often more quarrels that's how the Vilna Gaon interprets it but there's different interpretations shirin's the Reformers now I do sure know that classic decisions as I wish I do the pics of carrots that's the other thing sovath shameeka bellows Michael Mauboussin in the column lost - I'm in the coven in the shop in the in the receivers of my design of yeah yeah there has been tough enough I spy in the milk don't wish mine lad yet the let's the tipper Miller ah rakia Donovan mother Matthias lock em huh unleash comin is Griffin in the putter McKenna's Griffin in the Smith and I'm a Spanish toys I wonder - Bo's yeah yeah yeah the body - vodka doctor's rehab analogy guessing from ain't she so on the Litvak sugar sharpness mattina commercial Tyra wants a toy furs and the smelt another from an ish buying the milk sinister sobs again so get nurses Alma and thus is Michigan ink so there's a good English spy in the milk this class is brought to you by the achieve Annette please help us continue the classes make even a small contribution at triple w dot they ueshiba net / donate