May Hashem Find His Power ”How משה Brought Healing to the Lowest" - Likkutei Torah V'atah Yigdal #5

[music] the yeshiva.net. >> Okay, just before we begin to announce Thursday is Gimmel Tamos, the 32nd yo hila yard set of the lab. So we're going to have a big fabbrangan here on 24 next door Thursday 8:00 p.m. [snorts] Everybody's invited. We'll also be livereamed on the yeshiva.net. You [snorts] could please tell your friends or family or acquaintances. That's Thursday evening 8:00 p.m. next door. The schul is providing a whole suda and uh Ben Shimon on the music and Yankee title bomb on the video and uh Rabbi Yway on the mic. [laughter] Thursday morning there won't be a shear. And also tomorrow morning there's no women's class because I'm going to be in California. [snorts] Okay. So, uh we're going to try to finish the M today. We are on we're giml of the page 77. On top it says, see page 77. On top it says llama test column two. See llama test column 2. Make sure on top it says because the page numbers repeat themselves with every so column two. Today's class is dedicated by in honor of for mendelina Esther and Miriam easy and smooth among everybody who needs [snorts] including those who are present here physically and virtually. Okay. So now after a whole in the mimer comes back to the original PK with which the whole mimer began. This ma began with a very fascinating expression that Mosha tells Hashem after the whole story with the spies after the Maglam came back from Israel and they gave an alarming report creating uh mass hysteria and panic dissuading the Jewish people from the courage and the faith that they can go into the promised land. Instead, everybody was overwhelmed by dread and fear and panic. The Mira themselves said it's impossible. This mission is impossible. We'll [snorts] never be able to make it there. They are more powerful than us. They will consume us. The land will consume us. We will all die. And the people went into a mass panic crying and lamenting the fact that Musha took them out of Egypt. What was the point? They could have died in Egypt, a more peaceful death rather than come and be uh engaged in such a fierce battle. and all of our wives as they said and all of our children will be completely obliterated. And uh they said let's go back to Mitsay. And at that moment, Hashem tells Hash Hashem tells Mosha um that how long will they not believe in me and not trust me? Let me obliterate them and we'll start over with you. And Mo responds and he says, I'm sorry. Can I trouble you again for the This time it's for real. Wolf wolf for real. >> So this is a very interesting expression. You don't have it anywhere else in Kumsh. It's not the first time and it's not the last time that Mosha will plead with Hashem. Thank you so much. Mosha will plead with Hashem for forgiveness. It already happened before and it happens afterwards. But here he says an expression that you don't see anywhere else in and that is after Hashem says I'll wipe them out and I'm going to start over with you. And thenu famously says the whole world is going to say that you simply were incompetent. It wasn't that they didn't believe in you. You simply couldn't do it and that's why you slaughtered them in the desert because you had no ability to bring them into they were more powerful than you. Says and now also an interesting expression. Now let the power the of Hashem grow. Let thee it's almost like he's giving a pep talk like a motivational speech like no literally like you say to somebody. What does mean? It means your should be straight should be from the word right means doesn't mean thank you. It means you know more strength to you. Your strength should be uplifted. your strength should be uh elevated. Your strength should be increased. It should be straight and erect and powerful. So that's what he's saying now of Hashem become big, become strong as you yourself once said. Hashem, Hashem is slow to anger. He's full of kindness. He carries and forgives sin and transgressions. And he says, "Forgive them." And Hashem says, "But you got it. Forgiven. Change of plans. The only thing is they're not going into they'll stay in the desert exactly as they wanted. They get what they wanted. They want to be here. They'll be here another 40 years. They'll be here. Their children will go in." That's basically the story. So the whole ma was based what's this of? What does it even mean? Why here? What's the word? And from there went into the whole idea of the power of mitzvah why it's so important in comes down here for that the difference of and the difference of mal and he started to explain the whole of and the truth of the oneness of reality and the power of the mitzvah to be able to give the soul an experience of the true oneness even when it is here in this world. Spoke a lot about what we say in the morning. Compassion can only come when you see the contrast of who you really are and who you think you are, who you are in your essence and your source and who you become. Is the help that even in this distance you should be able to hold on to your truth. And he speaks about the three levels and then corresponding the three types of mitzvah which is what allows of to be able to carry and and ingested and experience in the soul. And in order to explain this he explained that there's two levels of mitzvah. This was the main we had in the last year and the last one is the mitzvah which is like a raw or a business where you're actually focusing on the benefits and on the spiritual power of the mitzvah. And then there's something even deeper in the mitzvah and that is avoid without any reason and it doesn't come from a negative space. On the contrary, that is the deepest form of the mitzvah because it's realizing that every benefit and every explanation and every articulation as lofty as it is is already a garment. It's a way of putting it in of of dressing it up in a way that can be understood and perceived and experienced and felt and internalized in the capacity of the person living in that space that they're in which is a beautiful thing and it's an important thing. That's what we call malikal. But nonetheless, it's missing the core power of the mitzvah, which is that it's the pure intimate core of the divine sharing himself with you. And therefore, every reason in the world, as beautiful as it is, and as authentic and as true as it is, will never ever match up to the power of the pure rawness of the relationship itself beyond anything else, beyond any definition, beyond beyond any description. There's an expression by the way in the mimm of the previous he would say this that the world says that we should do with the same gishm that we do that we even mitzvah that we don't understand we should still do it with the sameish with the same pleasure with the same appreciation like you do mitzvah that make a lot of sense says the is that the prayer should be the opposite with which we do that the opposite because The real power of Kabala, it's not like some people think like it's a neb. It's like a yoke like I'm I'm I'm oppressed. I'm just a slave. Obviously, that can be it could be experienced that way. But the true element of is the opposite. It's the ultimate gishmach because it's the gishmach of knowing that every gishmach in the world is actually depriving you of the ultimate relationship, the ultimate connection which is the ability to transcend any definition of self and really become one with who you are in your essence which is the infinity and infinity cannot be captured and described in any way. So any reason for a mitzvah, even the highest reason for the mitzvah, which are all true and and and and important and very very relevant, it's already a lavush, it's already a garment. It's an additional layer in its purity. Every mitzvah is beyond reason, not as beyond reason because it doesn't make sense because it's beyond the realm of reason. Reason itself is part of creation. Reason itself is a garment of existence. It's not existence itself. The greatest mistake is when reason becomes existence. Reason is a garment. It's one of the ways in which energy is processed and it's one of the ways in which reality is channeled and it's a very very important way. But don't replace that with essence with source with existence itself with the core of existence. It's it's a gift. It's one of the gifts. God created stones. He created mountains. Created oceans. He also created logic is also a so there's some mitzvah in which Hashem wanted that the pure will should be manifested in logic and some mitzvah that he wanted they should remain above it that's but they're all essentially the whole is a and that's it that's that's its greatest beauty some mitzvah come down also in region some mitzvah come into reasons and all the way down to the most practical practical level. But the reason shouldn't be confused with the purity of the essence and that's what you want to hold on to that nuda that gives you access to everything that was the main the main. Now he goes right. This is the meaning the deeper meaning of the words of Misha after the whole debacle the whole catastrophe with the spies. And now let the of be graced, be strengthened, become big. The word god, let it become a huh expand. Yeah. What is the what is he saying? Again, it's almost like he's almost I mean I don't I don't want to I don't know if I should say it in these words, but just to bring out the point. I'm just using my own words. I don't mean to put these words in the mime. It's almost like he's recognizing there's a weakness in it's almost like you're telling somebody, you know, like you'll tell somebody be a man like grow up, grow up, [laughter] become strong, you're not so weak. They're like, "You're not so weak." Got very very upset. He's like, "You got this." Like, "You got this one. Okay, you got this one. Just find your strength." Like, you know, find your strength. Okay. Pause. Find your strength. Don't panic. Don't go into hysteria. >> Yeah. Yeah. >> Yeah. It's like what? Like you're going to be fine. Okay. You're going to be You yourself said that you don't have to get angry. You're kind. You know how to forgive sins. It's like you got this, right? It's and and then Hashem says, "Okay, you got it." So, you know, who's the therapist and who's the patient, right? Who's giving whom the strength? It's an interesting on this test. This is the suk of maida. The gum says that levy said that when moisha went up to heaven, he found hashem writing the crowns drawing the crowns on top of the letters of the seven letters have those tagim those on them shot gets and didn't say anything. He just watched in awe. So hashem tells moisha in your town you don't have a mik to say hi when you meet somebody. you just came to visit me like why don't you say hi why are you being silent so Mosha said you know I'm your servant and it's not respectful that the servant opens the conversation so that's why I didn't say anything so Hashem says you should realize that I could use your help that's what you should realize so said okay strength onto you you got this grow into your hour. He said, "I need your help." You should have realized you need to help me. Said, "Okay, here you go. That's the end of the story." Now, the Marsha says the whole story doesn't make sense here. It says when Mashem, Moshe came up to the mountain, he found Hashem. So, it sounds like it was after Mata when he was the was after the story of the Miragam, which was more than a year after Matra. Mata happened 7 weeks after they left Egypt. Then a year later on the was they came back 40 days later. So this is more than a year and a few months after mira didn't go up to the mountain with this is a conversation that happens after the sins come down and the cloud shows up by the Mishkan already a mishkan. So the Marshall says he doesn't understand the whole gam it's it's it's and you see here there's a very deep a very deep mystery here what's going on and it's a response to I needed your help so you come here you should help me say you should have known that you need me I needed you to tell me your work should be successful wish me out that's what I needed from you. So right away he said you got it. You got my vote of confidence. So now explains one of the explanations here. What's the pimus of this? What is this? And then will understand why it happened now with this story. What's the connection? Because he doesn't say it again before. He doesn't say it again after even with different crises that occurred. So he says the is he could have said of different names. He says comes from the word right. It's one of Hashem's names. We say and that represents his malus, his kingship, his royalty. The name, it's very interesting. It says in cabal is the same letters like that's the connection with the gar has an expression which means the din the the verdict the constitution the rules and the laws that the malus gives out is you have to follow it according to if it doesn't contradict in other words we accept it accepts the authority of the government like it says heaven If not the fear of authority, people could swallow each other alive. So therefore, even of the malus is not necessarily a holy malus. It's a nonetheless if it doesn't undermine you have to follow the what are you why is he saying this here? It's not is represented by Dina. It's represented by structure, by constitutions, by law. It's that's why you need a meal. That's why Malus means government, a regime, a system, a political system in which many different parties can converge together and live civily, which is not a which is a complicated thing, right? Political science. What's the science of creating governments that can govern people? Do you focus on the individual? Do you focus on the collective? The two major systems of capitalism versus socialism were both systems conceived by people with intelligence in one this surrender. You surrender then you don't think people with intelligence, huh? You're not a fan of Marxist intelligence. Okay. [snorts] >> Huh? Yeah. Yeah. I understand. I'm talking at least on paper theory, right? [laughter] Okay. Yeah. Churchill once said that uh in social capitalism is the unequal distribution of success and [snorts] socialism is the equal distribution of misery. Everybody gets it. [laughter] Yeah. But it brings out different one system the y surreners to the tib. Yeah. That's even when the system is done with purity. In another system the tib surrenders to the yak. meaning you always need you always have to give up something because if you're going to have a collective reality so then there's things that the individual is going to have to oblige to right whether it's paying taxes surrendering certain rights but that's the system of is a system that always requires din is which represents on a deeper level what this represents is it's the way the mitzvah are But as a mitzvah of the king, not like he said earlier in that in every there's two parts there and is the idea of is the idea of we're being sanctified and elevated through the mitzvah. So the said those are the two parts of mitzvah. There's the mitzvah that gives you a certain benefit spiritually, emotionally, physically. That's before that is what's the kind of he's my right and that was the great mitzvah that he said all the greatest attained all their spiritual levels through it's the of the of and then is that's step two. So here the isitzvah it's a mitzvah of the that's the concept of this is that this is the den of the melik I may understand it I may not understand it and in this case not understanding it is not because I'm not intelligent or because the melik is tak creating a corrupt rule here it's in the most beautiful and powerful sense of the word because it transcends any realm of logic. It's not that logic we're not we're afraid of logic. That's the very big difference. That's how you know if you're going higher than or lower than lower than is you're afraid of logic. You're terrified of the intellect. The intellect is the devil. You have to crush every vestage of intellect. You're afraid of it. And if you see it in somebody, you have to knock it. You have to dismiss it. That's not that's means that intellect knows its borders. It knows its boundaries. It knows its limits and therefore I'll take you as far as it can go and then in a very healthy way it says or I can't go any further because I am defined by an entity called intellect >> and that itself recognizes its limitation and that is the greatest form of intellect by the way it doesn't take away this is the greatest form of intellect because intellect that does it usurps that which doesn't belong to intellect becomes fake intellect and that's why a lot of great intellect uals they fail miserably because their intellect is trying to replace things that it can't. It's it's usurping it's going into a realm of reality that it has no access to. It literally has no access to. It would be much better to say and now it's time for silence. I simply don't know. This is beyond me. Now intellect respects itself. It respects its integrity and it lets it gives room for true reality rather than a limited form. But when I don't do this because I don't have the the authenticity to do it or the humility to do it. So now the intellect has to become crippled. It becomes crippled. It becomes something that it's not supposed to be. >> Yeah. Yeah. That's the that's the it's it's trespassing. It's going into boundaries. It has no realm over there. So it becomes itself mishuga. It has to start figuring out things that are not shak to it. In simple words, it replaces God. It replaces a because there's nothing higher than that. And as I said in a previous sh, it's an aa to intellect. You're you're you're harming intellect. You're you're putting on it a pressure that it's not it's like taking a 2-year-old child and making him responsible to run a country. It's not fear. Let the two-year-old be a 2-year-old. Let behel. It's beautiful. Don't make him something that he doesn't have to be. >> Yeah. You're giving you're putting you're putting a position on him to figure out all of reality that's beyond beyond that's beyond logic. And he's supposed to figure it out. So what is he supposed to do? The poor guy first of all is stressed out. Stressed out. Second of all, he has to reduce reality to the constructs that he knows. So he cripples it. He he pretzel it. He turns it into a pretzel. He strips it. He strips it from its truth. Real intellect is beautiful. It's an amazing gift. It's a channel. It's a It's a finite channel to access that in reality which can be accessed or experienced or filtered through this channel. That's it. It's a certain mold. It's a that's it says in our history this week is already so how do you learn it when you were a kid? Yeah. You have no permission. And what happens when you do something without permission? You get punished. Yeah. Third, hopefully you learn your lesson. Yeah. It sounds like almost I don't give you permission. So what's what's the worst thing you could tell people when you say nobody should think about the elephant in the room? Yeah. Nobody has permission to think about this. What does everybody do? That's all you THINK ABOUT? NOBODY HAS PERMISSION. LIKE HOW CONVINCING is that? You don't have per You don't say you don't have permission to talk about. You don't need to think about it really. So what am I supposed to do? Not think about it. It's a sledgehammer. You sledgehammer. You extricate those thoughts. The word means something else. It's like means a domain. Seel has to realize it's not part of her. It's not in that. It's like this is a it's a different realm. It has different different dimensions, different frequencies. It's like you'll tell your eye don't try to perceive this color because it's not in your shoes. You don't have your retina, you don't have the receptacles to be typhus this and you're going to try to force it into your eye. You know what you're going to do? You know what we do with blind spots? Our brain makes up. You know how it works? It's fascinating. The brain sees a blind spot. It doesn't want to say it's blind. So the brain compares what is around the blind spot and assumes that that's in the blind spot and that's what you're seeing and it's instead of acknowledging it's out of my domain. It's out. It's literally it's out of my rush. Can you just surrender to that and be completely comfortable with that? And in that there's a tremendous sense of of joy because it's truth and it actually connects you with that which is reality which is really reality which is that's not that's why I'm using the word it's not in your accept that remain there. That's the that's what he's saying. That's from the word which is the word fact. I don't need to integrate it in my faculties. Now I'm going to say this again. I don't want to be m it because I said this so many times but just I know that people hear it and based on their history and experience if you if you have to hear this from the truth of the words rather than putting our own experience into it because sometimes people can use these concepts as a justification for exploitation for manipulation but it's the exact opposite. This is not coming because you want to beat people into compliance and strip them from their dignity. On the contrary, this is the malus that is the most blissful experience in the world because it's what connects you to the itself. So therefore this is what's says is the energy the power in Adna which what do we mean this is the which is and it's beyond all the worlds which is accessed through accepting his malus and the action of the mitzvah without any reason. Why is it called the word represents accessing that which is dormant it's concealed commercial give a person has the capacity in their arm in their yard to throw a stone the stone is a the stone is part of those things in life that what we call means inanimate matter its nature is that stones don't fly and even if a stone is thrown off a roof, what does it do? It goes straight down and that's where it stays. That's that's its nature. That's its yet power in your hand to take the stone and throw it, hurl it. And through the you carry it in the ear. This power when it was in the arm of the person before he threw the stone, it was not recognizable. It was part of the person but it was just subsumed inside the person. The kayak didn't come out. It didn't emerge. What happens after the person throws the stone? So this that was always there. But it was there as part of the totality of a person's energy. It never came out. And suddenly it comes out. And where does it come out? It doesn't come out inside of you. Where does it come out? It comes out in the stone. It doesn't come out in the person in yourself. You can't demonstrate this kayak. This comes out only in something that's separate from you by taking this stone which naturally based on the gravitational pull is supposed to be on the ground on the earth and you throw it and you have energy here and if you really know how to throw a football it's going and it's flying and suddenly you see this flying ball and what is it? It's all the kayak. It's the kayak of the person that put it into the oven and lifted up the oven and this kayak comes out. Where was this kayak before? It was always there. It's not like a new kayak that emerged, but it was there in a word is always used for something that is there in potentiality. We use means potential. There's this bay and then it comes out in actuality. Here this was in an energy. It's a power which means it's a potential. And then the stone brought it out by what? By defying its nature and flying. It's not that the stone is flying stones. Stones don't fly. It's your kayak that's making it fly. And when your kayak has be finishes, whatever it is, 30 seconds, 40 seconds, if you have real real power and you really put that energy into the ball, it the momentum, it propels it tremendously. But ultimately, when your kayak is depleted, the gasoline is finished, the stone goes back, the stone or the ball or the doim goes back to its natural habitat, natural state of existence. That's Why is Alba giving this martial? So he's bringing out here a very deep in the only way you know about of is through the rock. The only way you know about the it was all there but it was all dormant. You have access to it. You have access to it in the stone. As you see that stone flying, you recognize like in the world of sports, mazle for the Knicks and everyone who needs mazle, right? Yeah. So, it's fascinating. How does the the the the hero of the team become the hero of a of a century? What is it? 50 years, 60 years. >> 53 years. Oh, wow. Okay. Ah, it's my honor. I should take credit. Okay. [laughter] So last time it was when I was born and now again. Okay. Well, >> okay. >> I should be born again. I'm trying to trying to. The greatest athlete in the world sits in one place on a couch. That's not where it comes out. Where does it comes out? It comes out in the basketball. It comes out in the football, right? It comes out in the soccer ball. It comes out in the hockey puck. It comes out da the d inside him is all the the is not in the ball. But without that ball, you're not going to see anything. There's not going to be any celebration. >> Huh? >> The ball. The d is mala what was inside. It reveals it brings out the kayak of what was inside. And the more the kayak is inside, the more it comes out in the dam. Like you see, wow, this is power. This is strength. This is force. This is skill. Whatever the particular sport is inn there were no basketball team. So used the the example of an Evan of a stone. But the but the point is the point is I don't know if it's a true story but they say that somebody came to Kvski in Ben and asked him if you could u play basketball on Shabas. So he asked them to describe what it is and they described to him. He said, "Why can't they just put the ball through the hole before Shabas?" Before Shabas, you put it through the hole and yeah, you have it there. What do you mean? It's not like you can open the bottle before, right? What do you have to do on? Yeah, that was uh that was that's what they say. >> Closer. >> It's closed. That's true. Running is different. Also, also you don't see the power of the running inside the person. It's only once you're actually running in the legs and through the distance that they're covering you see the kayak and the more distance the further they go away from their home or from their location the more you see the kayak but over there it's still inside the body you see it in the legs of the person in the distance that their legs are literally covering here he gives a mal dafka of the ev because he wants to talk about something that's completely separate and something that on its own is d the legs of a person are alive is not a rack is called d which means it's inanimate. It at least seems lifeless in terms of this dimension. Doesn't move. And it's the kayak that makes a propeller to move. And so you can only and you can only access that kayak through the stone. You can't see it in the person. Say I want to see your strength. I want to see your muscle. You I can't Yeah, you could show me your muscle. You could you could show me your body and it may be impressive, but the real kayak, where do you see it? You see it in the stone. You see it in the ball. And that's what all the videos are going to zoom in. They're going to zoom in on the ball, on its on its on its flight, on its movement, on the spin, right? That's going to be the the the and from there you're going to learn about the person who administered the kayak. They become the celebrity through the ball, not the other way around. Huh. >> That's the >> Yeah. So that's the giloy of the kayak. >> Focus on. >> Yeah. That you don't know about the kayak without the gilly. Without the gilly, the kayak is there. It's all there. Nothing happened in the ball. The rack doesn't have it's not the basketball is flying. It's all about the player. It's all about their skill and their athletic power and their training and their strength of course. But how do I know it? How do you know it? How does anybody know it? How does the ball know it? Only through the gilli in the ball in the e in the stone. It's a very important mush. It's not st a cute mushel in honor of the ah >> now anybody who knows this world knows whether it's martial arts or it's sports most of it is in the mind it's not physical of course it's physical it's in the mind but the only way you could see the power of the mind or the power of the arm is through that physical substance maybe Elon Musk is going to change it in the next 20 years and you'll be able to see it all inside the But even then where is it expressed? Where's the impact? The impact is in the rock in the in the ball [snorts] and the further it goes the more you could see the kayak. You know that's all proportionate with the object that it's affecting which is against its nature. It's it's a d. If if the object itself was a fly and a bird, you're not going to see that the bird is flying the which is the exact opposite of Yeah. What's what's the point? So he says this is what meant what we need is the there's the mitzvah. What we need to be able to see is the of the real that's coming out here. What is that? That's what he says. It's the of you could do a mitzvah your whole life and all we see is a rock. All you see is all you see is dead, lifeless action, which is what do is it's like a rock. You know what they say? Iraq doesn't Iraq feels no pain. An island doesn't cry. Very robotic. All the technicalities are there, but it's diamond. What does that mean in a person's life? It's Iraq. It's here, but it's lifeless. There's no vitality. There's no there's there's nothing there's nothing organically exceptional about it. You don't see any kios any vitality, any vivaceiousness. And that's how a mitzvah could be. A person could just go through mitzvah robotically day in day out. You put on fill and you put on and put him in [snorts] and cheesecake you could put in your whatever it is but it's the certain deadness. It's just by wrote it's like a robotic and the person feels like a stone. They feel almost like the heaviness of a rock. You feel the heaviness of gravity. life just pulls you down. Pulls you down. It's very earthy. So Mosha is saying now we'll soon see why did the not want to go into this is why they didn't want to go into like we learned they said the land will eat up its inhabitants. Land will eat up its inhabitants. It doesn't only mean physically that we're going to die. explained spiritually means the land will eat us up. We're all going to become earth. We're going to become when some when when you eat something, the food becomes who you are. When the land eats up its inhabitants, they all becomes. We are now all slaves of the earth. And that's what money does to that's what work does to people. You become a slave to the economy. You become a slave to your job. That's all you could think about. Bills, bills, bills, bills, bills, bills, bills. The spies didn't have a point. Ask anybody who pays bills. Anybody here pays bills? Or your father-in-law pays for everything? >> Huh? >> If there's anybody who has to pay bills, you know what it is? Bills. Bill, you could start calling me Mr. Bill and not Gates. If it would be Bill Gates mail, the bills would be paid for and time. It's the bill without the gates. So not just bills and bills and bills. Pressure pressure. The said you have to be out of your mind to leave this desert. You have to be out of your mind. They they had a very good point says that their came from a very high place. It's very shabas. It's very it's one of the stories in that it's impossible to understand without this is you read all the at the end of the day. It's just it just doesn't make sense. Like there's just no sense to it. They were great people. Mosha chose them. The says they were great people. They were top leaders and they literally derailed the entire Jewish mission. And everybody fell for it. Everybody fell for it besides two people Yeshua and Khal and Moar. And there was not one normal person. Like guys wake up. I mean they saw Mat they saw M. It's not like they lived 2,000 years later and they were relying on stories. They were all there. They This is a year after like we said they saw everything. They saw they saw they saw like what what else do you want? They didn't have to believe in miracles. They lived miracles. They ate man for breakfast and they drank the rolling stone of Miriam after breakfast. >> So on the contrary, so what they said was a confirmation. >> Exactly. So whatever shows is no is actually you have to understand them actually what they were saying is LOOK AT WHAT YOU HAVE AND LOOK AT WHAT YOU'RE GOING TO LOSE. You're going to lose everything. You're going to lose this. It was extremely extremely powerful idea. And yet they made a colossal mistake. They made a colossal mistake. But it wasn't a mistake that came from just foolishness or complete lack of faith. It's a mistake that came from a very deep spiritual yearning. Yeah. Rabbi Jonathan Saxam in one of his essays he explains that the of the in the story of the miraum were afraid of failure. They were afraid to fail. What alterba teaches is no, they were afraid of success. [laughter] And it's so powerful because the deepest fear of people is not the fear of failure. It's the fear of success. It's just we don't say that. I don't say, "Oh, I'm afraid of being successful." Because that doesn't sound normal. And my psychology won't agree to that. So I say, "I'm going to fail. Everybody's going to hate me. It's going to be a disaster." Really, what I'm afraid of is I'm afraid that it's not going to be a failure. I'm going to be successful. AND IF I'M SUCCESSFUL, OH MY GOD. RIGHT? We all say we want to be successful. It's not so simple. Not everybody wants to be successful. We say we want to be. Do you really want to be successful? It's a very it's a very interesting thing because deep down success is very very scary. If you're successful and you're really successful, you know, we're going to you're going to learn you're going to learn that God right sees you as a central feature of existence. It's like breakfast is waiting. [laughter] You know the we like the idea that I'm not so important. There's a very beautiful thing. You know, I could take off for a couple of days. If I need a couple of months, good. A couple of years in this. I can go into early retirement. The moment you're really successful, you see who you are. It's a game changer. The miracle were afraid of success. They just couldn't say it. They said, "We're going to die." They were afraid they're going to be successful. And the success terrified them. Why? Because success meant that they're completely divorced from the spiritual paradise in which they were living. And this is a and what Yeshua and were answering was that there's something in the stone. There's something in the stone in the in the er that you're not understanding. The of comes out in mitzvah that which you're afraid of is ultimately your ego. You want to remain in a spiritual oasis. That's the mitzvah. They wanted to remain in the in the second level of the mitzvah. The mitzvah that's rich, the experiential spirituality of the mitzvah, which is galdic. And that's why you need that as an introduction. What they were depriving themselves is in the stone you see the what's the comes out in the physical rock it comes out in the mitzvah in the simple experience of the mitzvah divorced from all your explanations you HAVE of you is this is the moment where the that's why the word he wasn't telling God you got to go to the gym and build muscle like become a little stronger the of needs to come out you look at the stone it's The diamond there's nothing here in it though comes out the power of when it's elevated comes out the power of the zic which was behelm the purity of the can't come out in explanations and logic and all that it comes out in the mitzvah in the simplicity in the rawness of the mitzvah which seems very very technical and physical it's literally the flying stone here the less explanation the better not again I'm not afraid of explanations we love explanations explanations are gishmach and feelings are gush it's back what we spoke about in the previous m before so the market says you go to what is the ble of the I don't want it to I don't need you to put it into logic NOT BECAUSE I LIKE LOGIC but it's I don't I don't you don't need to dumb it down there's something more powerful than that and that's you the relationship with you the relationship with you any logic in the world it's it's it'sa it's true for the animal soul you need explanations and for kiss explanations on certain levels are good but in the in the in the core of who you are it's not it's not what you need it's adding something that's just going to take away from the power of And where do you see that? You'll see that in the mahitzvah, not in the explanations and the experience and the depth of it, which is all a lavush, which is all a garment and a beautiful garment and a royal garment. And it's important to integrate it on that level, too. That's why there are reasons for mitzvah. It's not stam no reason. And you could live your whole life experiencing it. But like the bash once said the which means the simplicity of the simple Jew that is the simplicity of atmos of the essence of it sounds like a pett of art pun intended but it's not so pushet. It is very part but it's not part at all because what these was really saying something is that ultimately atmos is going to be as simple as it gets but not as simple as it gets because oh because we don't have anything sophisticated to say like people like to put the bash was this simple nice guy who felt bad for the amiratim who knew nothing and they were hanging out with cows and horses and the bash said yeah god loves you love love love let's just drink a little schnaps and here's a [snorts] couple of pieces of herring and and let's dance like I told you once of his 60 were the some of the biggest of the generation they weren't impressed by herring and and schnaps it's not what impressed and the mag of and of the some of them were they were they were the fact was a nice and warm guy okay so they could have given him a bra and I give him a hug inviting a guy in the reveal the and there's a lot of results of it and one of his is that ultimately the is going to come out in the in the in the simplicity it's going to come out in the rack in the flying rack >> way it's an interesting notion because it's is like a >> diamond yeah A slingshot, you say? >> Yeah. In the slingshot, >> right, the more power, the more power you put into it, the further it goes and it hits its target. And it's something that can happen from within the person itself. You're never going to see that power in the person himself. Which means that's like the person, you're not going to see the that comes out in the stone. In the world, in the consciousness, you see malikal. Where do you see? And the answer is in my in the mind and in the heart and in the experience. Over there you see malikam. You see the experience. You see revelation which is beautiful which is amazing. But it's also constricted according to the capacity of the vessels. Where do you see the pure infinity? Where does that come out? That comes out in the misa in the action. in the complete surrender where I could give up any need to understand and to experience and it's just full presence to what is and to his will and in that you have everything you have. So he says like this whole he says even though the was just three lines but everything that this represents this is true with the of the light of that flows from above because all the worlds and all the creations basically are could all be called like the rock the stone expression in parish from the earth that's going to be in the ground of the mishk that's where they took the earth and they put it into the water of the so he says mishk represents the place where he dwells and that that's the offer the offer in the place that he dwells the place where he dwells in the higher worlds, souls, angels. This is called why just like with all the beauty that's in a stone, you can't compare, right? What a stone represents to what a mind represents. The comparison between consciousness and aim is very very powerful. So he says all the angels, all the souls, all even in the highest worlds, it's like And the that flows from above. This is what lifts them up to be absorbed in the light of Hashem. Like the rock being uplifted by the And this is the power that dresses up and encompasses the soul. That's like the kayak encompasses and and surrounds the stone and doesn't let the STONE FALL. THE STONE WANTS TO FALL. It's like, "What do you want from me?" And the kayak says, "No, I'm picking you up." And that's the mitzvah in a world which is completely concealed. The mitzvah is that glimmer of light that comes from the that comes out in the heaven and lifts it up to bring you in. Like I said earlier at the end of to gather you in into the grip of infinity that you're completely subsumed in. That's the gift. I want you to be with me. How could you be with me in this world? So this is the that comes out through the mitzvah which lifts up the soul like the does not let it fall. Here has a footnote. a few lines after the footnotes. It's like four or five lines. And because the sin of the spies was so grandiose, it was so devastating. That's why it's here. What's the connection says? We need the of to become even bigger. We need to see a real throw. Why? Why is that so important? I WANT TO SEE YOUR GOD. WE NEED THE MUCH MORE MUCH BIGGER much more expanded. Why? So that even that which fell down very very low is not hopeless. There's no such a thing. You're too low. The rock is too heavy. The rock is too dead. The rock is too lifeless. It's a boulder that's unmovable. That's why the lower it is. We need we need more not less to lift up a that's a lightweight. You don't need such even an amateur even an amateur could take the and throw it. But when the heaven has fallen very very low, how you going to lift it up back to the heavens? How you even going to lift it? Never mind. Bring it up. And that's why he continues as you yourself spoke saying what's the idea of literally it means aim is a face means long. So they explain usually it's that you are your anger is prolonged. You have patience. The anger that comes from the face is you could prolong it. You're slow to anger. What does what does this really mean? Says the face represents a flow, a communication with love and affection. When you give something from your hind part, it's like throwing something over your shoulder. You're not interested in seeing the person. Let's say you have to give a gift or severance pay to somebody who, I don't know, ruined your business, right? You tell your secretary, give them the check, or you throw it over your shoulder. You don't want to even see them. When you love somebody, what you give them is really just an extension of the relationship. When you don't like somebody, what you give them is a substitute for the relationship. You understand the difference? And that's why when you're giving with closeness, you want to look at the person because it's not about the giving. It's not I'll leave the check on the table. It's not the table. I want to give it to you. I want to that's more important. I want to see you. We all know people sometimes give very expensive gifts to somebody just to get them off their back. [laughter] Right? Are you buying the gift to get the person off your back or you're buying the gift in order to intensify the relationship so that you could look at them for longer? It's a very big difference. One is called one is called means that this relationship with the face is it extends into the lowest places. In other words, even when the person fell very very low, I'm not going to turn away my face. That's the pim is going to extend itself longer and longer and longer until the lowest places. And I'm not going to say this is too low. You got this. When the comes out, they can go even to the lowest places. And Moshe says as you spoke struggled a lot with these words where did God say that his should be stronger. So most say that it goes on the next words which he said back in says you have two words you spoke saying. What's the difference of and the word it says in represents when you say something loud and declare it it's called from the revealed is more internal it's in your heart it's in your thought is revealed is concealed is always outspoken is more in the heart. It's in your thought. It's like internal communication. So he says from the of a higher world becomes the of a lower world. From the re revelation of a higher world comes the concealment of a lower world. Commercial. A fascinating metaphor. the teacher speaks and from the words of the teacher, the student acquires thoughts. In other words, the lowest level of the teacher becomes the highest level of the student and then the student brings it down until he could say it because he's the teacher and he brings it to his student and his lowest level becomes the highest level of the student and that's what looks like. The debour becomes the amira. The student doesn't have access to the teacher's internal experience. Usually all what does the student have access to? The dour. Heaven knows that to get to that place of dur the teacher has to go down lower and lower and lower until he could formulate it into words and that's all the student has access to. But from those words the student CONCOCTS HIS WHOLE HIS WHOLE INTERNAL WORLD. So the teacher's dur becomes his maka. What's in one world in the next world in the lower world that becomes the mach of that world which means the maka of the talid is only holding on to the last level that was revealed in the higher world and from there he concocts all. Now in the metaphor the student exists independently of the teacher. Thank God. In the nimshell the student is created by the words of the teacher. So the consciousness of the student even the highest level of consciousness is only touching the ceiling of his consciousness. And what's the ceiling? The lowest level of the higher world your remember the student here is not an independent reality getting coming to a in the niml. The student is created by the energy of the teacher. The teacher here is the so the highest level of consciousness of the student is only the deeper of the previous world of the higher world. That's all he has access to. So sometimes we think you know our consciousness encompasses all reality. And you have to remember it's only touching the final the final stage of revelation of the higher world which became the makava of the lower world [snorts] and then the lower world has to go through an evolution and the words of the student become the makava of the next world of the lower world and that's why the growth is so so dramatic and so intense. When in one world is expansive consciousness, the second you're elevated like a notch, it's like, "Oh, wow. I was still in the right, the chick already broke out of the egg and he's like, "OH, I'M A FREE. I'M A FREE CHICKEN. I'M EXPLORING THE UNIVERSE." And then he goes up a little higher. Oh my god, everything is an egg. [laughter] The galaden of yesterday is the ganam of today, literally. And that's what growth is. That's how you know you're growing. If yesterday is ganed and this today is gana. It's true. >> Yeah, it's true. >> Huh? That itself is gonna the moment you become aware of that that becomes ganed because it's it's about where it's about where the kavana is today. That itself maybe the word is not ganiman but yesterday's gula becomes today's gull. it becomes a constriction because you're growing. But if you're not growing then then you're right. So the which is giloy becomes lay which is a good thing. So says yeah. So the concealment of which comes out from the is the source of the revelation of what is created in the lower levels. The lowest level of which is that becomes the and the Bria the highest consciousness of Bria. What is it? It's Malus of it's the words of the lowest level of becomes the crown of Bria. The malus of Bria which is the of Bria that becomes THE CROWN AND THE HIGHEST SPIRITUAL consciousness of the ceiling of the infinity that touches is the lowest level of the becomes the and the same is true of becomes the but but but the Point is it should be able to climb that ladder. That's the point. You climb the ladder. The revelation of this gillu, the re the flow of this gill to create the concealment in the remember the gill of the alen becomes the helm of the revelation of the higher becomes the concealment of the lower. What's the lamer? Everybody asks what's the lame says theor says which is this becomes the lamer. It accesses it is the gil of the higher which becomes bringing the flow lower to the lowest level. That's the which is meala the higher experience. But in the lower world it has to be concealment because it's a lower world. It can't have that in a revelation. So every dour that is megaloa higher world it comes in through lay into the lower world which is why if you understand something right away you didn't understand anything right cuz that means you're just sticking into you're in your own orbit when you're when you're stretching you're stretching you feel that you're stretching if you don't feel that you're stretching it's you're not stretching because you're sitting on a couch. The same is true with mind and consciousness. When there's something new there's going to be a stretch. You're you're you're you're hitting you're hitting the ceiling because you're trying to get outside of the ceiling, trying to get out of the egg. It starts with a helm with a concealment. If it's not concealed, if it's just open, that means I'm not accessing anything above me. I'm just sticking into my I'm sticking in my own orbit. If I want to go away from a class or I want to go away from a mment, I want to fully understand it. I want it packaged. I want it contained. I want it in my system fully. It means I also limited myself to an experience of anything that's outside of me. Of course, I don't want it to remain completely elusive. I have no access to it. But it means that any any touching something higher is going to be through Helm through through Helm not through Gil. It's first going to come into concealment because the becomes [snorts] this is the deeper thing what it says by Hashem placed to do what to work it to protect it. So the ised why did Adam have to work Gan? I thought Ganed is paradise. Ganed also needs work apparently. Yeah, it's who radiates, who brings in the light of the into gan is makes a garden. It needs work. A garden a garden needs is the one who creates. He brings in the light of the into what does that mean? It says in we say some people say it put it in Friday before you say some people say it every day. So over the expression in is we can't say that you have said you have justice that's known that's defined which we call nor can we say that you're somebody who has justice which is compassion you don't consist of any midas there's no identity or description for the the me and the radiance of the gal is not something that's natural defies any expression including it's only the arousal from below. It's the relationship from below. It's Adam who creates it's who BRINGS THE INTO WHO brings the into identity. Learning creates the radiance of the higher grenade mitzvah creates the radiance in the lower grenade. Shra it says in medish init is the positive mitzvah is that's what did and Adam lived where he wasn't a ganed alien. His gan was on earth and from here we see that mitzvah CREATE one sec. The whole is saying that the source of mitzvah is higher than comes from which is the for and the mitzvah is itself. Ms. The rule is that that which is higher and higher could always come down lower and lower. That which is high will come down low, but not too low. The only one who could COME DOWN REALLY LOW is the one who's really high. And the ONE WHO'S THE HIGHEST COULD come down to the lowest. It's always that way. It looks a little counterintuitive. Sometimes when you see something that's very very low it could be it's very very low but it could be it's very very high. It's not could be it is an expression and the higher it is the lower it goes. THE LOWER IT COULD go and maintain its integrity and therefore when you see something very low it's always connected with something very high which come from they can create so when discussed and asked the forgiveness for the sin of the spies is the mitzvah. So we want to see the the and the light that comes through mitzvah which is which is pure that's what should come out here in the world because only that could reach the lowest place. Remember this was the whole mistake of the spies. The mistake of the spies was that this was what they didn't get. They wanted to remain in spiritual consciousness. Who doesn't want to? If you're a sensitive soul, that's where you want to be. And if you don't want to be there, you're crazy. So, Mosha was asking for the healing of this. What do you mean by healing? They didn't want to go into they don't want the the pure integration. And this comes from the to be able to see the simplicity of that of in the desert. They were surrounded by glory, spiritual paradise. >> They were in the clouds. It's not only they didn't have to work physically. They were completely they were they were on a on a on a on a journey of of absolute bliss and transcendence 247. Mosha is your teacher. Aaron is your your is your priest. Yeah. God God is your chef. >> Yeah. [snorts] >> God is your God is your chef. Mosha is your teacher. Aaron is your priest. What else do you want? says adam of cast. It's an adam. You know what ad of cast is? An adam of cast means you're a son-in-law and your father-in-law pays all the bills. >> Why would you want to? >> Why should you go? Why should you leave that? And your father-in-law is treating you well too. And even likes you. Says the best of the best. You become farmers, military people, economists, you got to fight wars, you got to plant, you got to sew, you got to plow, you got to harvest. >> Who who wants to go to work? And it's not just physical work. It's the emotional the emotional detachment where life suddenly becomes an earthy experience. It's a big this is a big hat. Once you learned on the you're like what was their mistake? A lot of Jews still feel that way. [laughter] >> Yeshiva. [laughter] >> What? What do you say? It's more than what? >> Oh, who wants to make? Yeah, >> if you could be insulas, why should you be in? It's not just a small thing that didn't want to go work. It's not laziness. On the contrary, it's when you could feel why should you struggle with making why should you struggle with stones? Why should you deal with stones? Why should you talk to rocks when you could deal with people? [snorts] Yeah, you have the man, you have think even the nutrition the gammor said they didn't have to go to the bathroom for 40 years. You know why? Because the man was a perfect food. Every part of it was absorbed in the body. The body didn't have to defecate. The body didn't have to reject anything. That wasn't a good business at the time. >> It didn't have pilus. It didn't have pilus. It didn't have pilus. The man was is a heavenly food. So it it it fit the body perfectly. Now there's pilus and you have to do b and the body separates and the body says this is not for you. So this has to go into the fertilizer and this goes into this is good for for dung beetles. Art sayya becomes food for dung beetles or food for the earth. Everything is food by the way. Artus becomes food for the lowest level. You learn the lowest level of the teacher becomes the highest level of the student. What your body ejects becomes fertilizer for the earth. It's not waste. It's waste for your body but it's not waste for the earth. It's beautiful. That's how all produce happens through fertilizer. We say it's it's dirt. It's not dirt. It's dirt for the body, but it's it's it's growth for the earth. Without fertilizer, everybody dies. There's no produce. And it's true on every level. This is very very intense. The the waste of becomes the consciousness of the waste of the fertiliz. And the mitzvah is so high it can go into the lowest. It can go m to the lowest. So to be able to see the true that's init that's in earth. And then the lowest can be uplifted. Even the lowest of the low. Not because it's low because it's rooted in the highest. But only when you're really high can you go down to these low places. You can't if you're not very high. You're going to it's it's a danger. That's why malim can't come down. Malim are very very high but they're not namas. They're not atmos can't. They tried once the nilim the nilim came down the malim and they ended up the most corrupt in the world. Why? Because they were so holy. When you take very holy things, holy people and you throw them into uh you throw them with a bunch of women it's a disaster. It says are from they don't get in a spell from they could seem even inhazed literally it means goes to and people who are shy they go to ganed yeah somebody who has him you could send them to ganim somebody who's shy keep him in ganed as gem. Who do you send to Ganim? You're going to send a bashful person to Ganim. HE'S GOING TO BECOME A gem and he's going to be worse than the people in Ghanim because he won't know how to deal with it. So, he's going to become completely CORRUPT and people will have bush. They should stay on over their entire place. It's not it's not the literal tit of the Mishna. It's it's a only people to send somebody very very far away. You can't just do it with a it's only when you're rooted in the highest of the high when you're very connected you can go anywhere but you have to make sure like said if not you can't you have to remain in an environment that's safe that's secure you can't now we need this and that's We learned last time that through being an EV you become Lee. The mad says wherever it says Lee it's never moves. It's forever because realized it's a whole different voice. It's not that Mosha was saying words. Mosha realized that now we need to bring the light into a much lower space. This is what a real leader is so that even the sin of the spies shouldn't become an obstacle that derails history. How do you find healing after this? See his words when somebody fails so badly you could do one or two things. You could say okay you give up on them. Okay they failed. It's not for them. That's what Hashem told Mosha. It's not for them. I built a people to change earth. They're not ready. They want to stay in Ganaden. We don't we read the story of Schlak from [snorts] a very vindictive traumatic place. It's really a very deep story. The Jews said, "We want to stay in Ganaden." And God said, "You know what? They have a point. Let them die in the let them die right here. Live in Gaden ain't and that's it. I made a mistake. I thought these are the people that can change the earth. They can. They're not capable." Fine. Nothing wrong. let them die and live in paradise >> and that's it and and the whole point was said no even the is not going to be a but for this you have to bring the light into a much lower space when you see this situation you could do one of two things you either give up on the people or you say now my responsibility is how do I bring the and that's the of that's what a real leader said, "We're going to bring the >> Huh." >> It actually worked out because they didn't make it, but the >> their children >> their children did it. Yeah. Yeah. Misha said they still need the time. Their children will do it. Now, sometimes children look back and they're like, "Our parents were completely clueless." They weren't clueless. They built the foundation for you to go to the next level. >> Yeah. They lay the foundation and the children take it to the next level. But it's because of their foundation. So it works both ways. The children have to have a true true debt of gratitude. And the parents also have to have a debt of gratitude. Nobody becomes bigger and stronger by just saying ah they're clueless. The kids are clueless or the parents are clueless. The parents create their foundation and the children go into and everyone has their with humility and respect and awe and reverence. And you know, we could go on for this for the next two hours, but you get the point. Send a memo to your parents and tell them how much you love them even though they're stuck in the desert. [laughter] Just joking. You don't have to add that. parents. >> Yeah. [snorts] So says so realize he has to go to a higher place. You have to bring the light from higher. This is very when you see somebody is so low instead of telling them how low they are you have to go higher and bring the light there. You see this is not easy to hear always. I could say OH YOU'RE SUCH A LOW LIFE. YOU'RE HOPELESS. Or you can go higher and bring the light there. That's the different That's a different reality. You can go down to the lowest place and lift them up to the from the you'll have the concealment even in the lowest levels so that they can have the from the highest from the highest level that says the should come down and be prolonged and extended to the lowest This is similar to the idea that comes down to the lowest place even now that many mitzvah they have their fruits in because they're so high and therefore they often result in the most concrete physical things like it says in all the blessings will come in you and reach you literally means the blessings will reach you means they're going to reach you where you are going to reach they're going to come into you they're not going to have to take wait TILL YOU GO HIGHER they'll meet you where you are >> huh they're going to catch up to you THEY'RE NOT GOING TO COME HERE. They're going to reach you where you are. Yeah. The next words says is so the world learns and he forgives a sin. Says the word means carrying back to the stone. The the heaviest thing. What's the most What's the heaviest thing in the world? Sin pulls down down down down down. So now you need a to pick up this stone. This can lift up even the sin like the that's uplifted. There's a that can lift up even a sin. What's literally means he overpasses sin. says really means means you have to pass IT OVER AND DO IT THE OTHER WAY. EVERY IS really a flow. She's flow means he turns it around that the pesha becomes a he doesn't means backwards. He he he he transforms the pesh. He turns it around on the other side. So the pesha becomes the sin become mitzvah. That's what means it's so low. So most people get afraid of it. I can't deal with this lowess means could lift that up too. This could start flying. What's start flying? It's the sin itself that makes you fly. The momentum that makes the Evan fly is the stone itself. The pesha becomes shea that becomes the source of your flow. Your darkness becomes your light. Your lowest reality is converted into your deepest energy. That becomes your greatest strength. The says through kindness and truth sin is forgiven. Gomorrah says the trader forgives your sins your sins will be redeemed through charity. How do forgive all the blemishes of the soul now through learning where your words my words are in your mouth the which is the for the mitzvah and it's which represents the mitzvah this axis is the kayak that lifts lifts up the stone. The the the the mitzvah is the energy of infinity that allows the person to lift up even their mistakes, even their sins. That their sins become forgiven. Not only forgiven but transformed. It becomes your greatest strength. But adds one word. What's only in this world? Now here not tomorrow this world like he said in the beginning of the is available because concealed the says when it says now means is transformation. information. This is only today where the was given to a person. It's not fixed that you can actually transform things from darkness into light. This is the power of which is not defined by any particular reality. That's the not like he explained in the beginning of the mimer. That's the that's the opportunity that happens precisely in this world in the where of is revealed. This was the mistake of the that's why he says the word which is also the whole concept of chuva. >> This class is brought to you by the yeshiva.net. Please help us continue the classes. Make even a small contribution at ww.theshiva.net/donate.