Learning From Animals How to Shake Off Trauma | Beshalach "Az Yashir" #4

we're going to continue the mimer that we began learning last week the mimer oz yoshi in toyota's bashalach if you haven't downloaded your source sheets last week please download them now on the yeshiva.net you'll see the class of monday we are up to we did the first three past three sections three chapters three paragraphs with the mimer we're holding we're going to continue now inside the [ __ ] you were hearing was the [ __ ] of the balatanya that he would sing on shabbos by davening so after the whole explanation the long explanation in the concept of kriyasyamsov and the concept of and the entire explanation of the function and purpose of kriyasyamsov and ahmadis kasia and amadeus galia and the ultimate fusion of the two the synthesis of the two which is what the splitting of the sea was all about and ashira la shem he explained i sing ki goya means he's exalted above the exalted and the key point was that there's two perceptions there's two realities two states of consciousness and one watch and when in which one lives one is the consciousness of mamali calalman the consciousness in which there is real powerful divine diversity because the light is channeled and harnessed and restricted in the vessels and then there's a state of consciousness of safe of calamine that's called the yam versus yabosha in dry land everything is distinct and everything is seen as separate from its source of life in yam everything is submerged under the waterbed we don't see distinctiveness and the fish need to be submerged inside the water and all of this represents a different state of consciousness state of consciousness of mammalia where the everything is individuated a state of consciousness of saiv where it's encompassed by a single yam by the bed of water that encompasses everything it would be like the metaphor that's given in this mimer even though it's not in turtle but it's in other transcripts of the mimer is like it's actually going to be later in the mimer it's like when somebody has a thought and in their thought they imagine a reality of something let's say you imagine the entire picture of earth's planet in your mind okay so the physical planet is not in your mind but today we know and this is amazing because it says this that that's what save of kilometers several kilometers imagine the whole reality of the world was actually in your mind there is a reality of the planet the way it's all in your mind but over there it's all one completely one it's inside your mind what happens if i could live in that reality so then there's this oneness there's no diversity in other words every detail is just another expression of your mind's experience so save of calamine is that place in one the focus is very much on my experience in the other the focus is bitter bemidzius my mathias is bitter my very eye is submerged in the infinite eye and both are very real states one is alma descartes the sea splits the sea opens up that which is usually concealed becomes exposed in other words usually under the water is concealed i'm a disgust spiritually it's a state where the eye is not present it's completely embedded inside the water like the fish is submerged in the water and you don't see distinctiveness what happens when that opens up so now suddenly you're walking in alma disgust so you have now this paradox where i am walking and you could see the differences between people because it's dry land but where's the dry land the dry land is inside the sea that means that you still remain connected to that state of consciousness even while you're individuated that's a com complete paradox it says i sing because hashem is not guy he's going he's exalted above being exalted god represents safe of calamine which is exalted represents the core itself the ultimate truth itself atomos itself which is beyond infinity as much as he's beyond finite as just as you're not going to call god physical you also can't call him spiritual just like you won't call god a physical entity don't even call him a thought because a thought is also a definition and a description it's as much as he is infinitely not finite he's also infinitely not infinite and therefore ashiri la i sing out song we explain what a song is a song is not an articulation of an idea that's why people will get tired of an old speech they won't get tired of an old song on the contrary they may like an old song much better than a new song song actually touches a deeper element of the nephesh a deeper element of the soul that's beyond articulation song comes whenever we sense a space that is beyond that which can be articulated in language the language of song is a completely different language and in that itself there's levels deeper layers and layers ashira shem the ultimate song is kingoigo because kriyasyamsov got me in touch with the place of gauigar the infinity that is beyond infinity which confused the paradoxes because it transcends the paradoxes and both elements can live comfortably there so that individuation does not become a contradiction to oneness but individuation and oneness can co-exist that's the miracle of kriyasyam and in the daily darwining that is imran zimmer song which represents the void of the levia which then leads to the kriya shema and the shebain where we say baruch hashem which is the revelation of al madisi within the state of ahmadis this is a very brief and i know cryptic summary of what we have learned in the friday morning shear in the thursday morning shirt and the monday morning share last week we had three classes i believe on this mimer this is class number four now you'll understand the continuation of the possible because he is exalted above being exalted you see the tiger monkey in other words he's exalted above those who are exalted so alter everytime doesn't only mean literally he's exalted above the aloof you know aristocrats who think they're uh bombastically who who are bombastically arrogant and pompous ki goygar means [ __ ] over save of calaman which is god so colombian is going and what do you what do we continue a horse and its rider rama bayam he hurled into the sea which of course refers to the horses and the riders on the horses para and the egyptian troops riding on horses as the khmers describes the beginning of parachutes but shallow ram he hurled into the sea the word rama literally means he lifted up rama like truma you lift up you pick up you elevate so rama he lifted them up rummy little by young to throw into the sea as rashi says didn't separate the horse from the right of the horse with the writer was hurled thrown and cast into the yam later in the sheer the world the word will change a little bit marco voice pyro the chariots of paris and his troops europe euro means he hurled he threw here it says rama which actually means he uplifted he uplifted not yara like yora in the modern hebrew right you shoot right there's al tirabi don't shoot me that's even in modern hebrew yara yora he shot them into the sea here it says he uplifted them that's going to be significant now this possibility really captures the whole shira it's the essence of the sheer how do we know because it's the opening everything else is a derivative a continuation of this and the best proof of this is miriam's song after the jewish people sing the man sing with maisha it says that miriam summons all the women all the women follow miriam that with the the drums and the tambourines and miriam invites all of them to sing and what's her shira what does miriam say to them that's her whole shirt so this really encapsulates the essence of the shira what it takes the men to say in a long long shearing miriam doesn't want pasak so now we'll understand the connection what's wrong [Music] with this is aposic in skyrim which refers to kriyasyam homolytically according to many mufarshim including rashi and the matsudas when you god rode on your horses yeshua your chariots became a salvation for the jewish people and according to many mafirsham this is referring to the time of kriyasyamsof really the egyptians were riding on their horses but so to speak when god rode on his horn when you gosham wrote on your horses metaphorically speaking and you displayed your prowess so your chariots became a yeshua they became our salvation like it says this became a yeshua a salvation for the jewish people but this is interesting that the navi-skarya refers to god riding on his horses and the hashem having a merkava and that merkava being a yeshua what does this mean she starts [Music] explaining hmm letters are referred to as horses what's the connection this already comes with just as you have a horse and the horse rider and those who are familiar with the art of riding the horse horseback riding know that there's something unique about the connection between the horse and the writer he says the source is but a horse in other words there's often a very deep connection a very deep understanding if i could say that exists between the rider of the horse and the horse and the horse has a very profound bittle very profound subservience to the one who rides the horse and is completely directed and takes the cue of the one who rides it and we know that horses are even sensitive to the moods of the person who rides the horse they know if you're in control if you're not in control if you're frightened if you're overwhelmed if you're stressed if you're anxious horses are very sensitive animals in that sense you could speak to people who raise horses who grow up with horses they're very well aware the horses are well aware in their own way of course we have one of the people the sheared him as a professional horse horse breeder and horse trainer dealt with horses for many years and it's a it's it's a there's a deep connection and he says the horse on its own the horse wants to the voice wants to be surrendered to the rider but and the horse brings you to places that where you cannot go so in other words on one hand the horse is subservient but that subservience is a win-win because not just the horse's subservient and says do whatever you want i'm just here to serve the horse also introduces something that you can never do on your own the horse brings you to places the horse can bring you to heights or to depths that you can never climb or get to on your own and with a speed and a swiftness and an alacrity and a zurizus that you must have the horse for this is a muscle for isis he says the letters of speech letters which make up words are of course completely subservient they're buttle to the ideas that you're conveying through the letters and the letters are like the horses that are being used and rided upon by those who ride the horses i have an idea and i want to convey the idea and i use the letters according to the idea that i want to convey different people could convey the same idea but they use different letters they use different horses but the horse is not just subservient it has something that the writer doesn't have it takes you to a place where you can't go on your own like the same is true with words and letters on one hand they're simply tools and instruments like a horse to be able to help you get to places which means to be able to help you articulate and convey and reach yourself and reach audiences without communic without the gift of communication the ideas the feelings remain completely concealed i can't get them anywhere they remain concealed even within myself so the oceans are like the horses that bring forth their magala they bring just like the horse physically geographically brings the writer to places he couldn't get on his own the isis articulate ideas that would remain very aloof and and subtle and nebulous both to yourself isis articulate and to others this is thoughts and words thoughts are also made up of letters we think in language and we speak of course in language but there's also something that the horse has that the writer doesn't have commission the isis bring the idea to a place that's even greater than it was on its own that even when i conceive the idea and i think about it or i conceive it even before i think about it i have a picture of it there's the experience of it when you talk about it and you articulate it often you seize as practically that through bringing it into letters and words the flow of the intellect becomes greater in your mind every teacher knows this every communicator knows this that there are the ideas that i prepared and i wrote down perhaps or i made notes and i prepared it all well and then while i'm speaking there's a new flow a new surge a new epiphanies new insights that i could have not anticipated during the preparation and not because i didn't prepare well but because the horse has its own energy its own momentum it brings you to a place that you couldn't come before articulating the circle within words within letters lifts up and brings their mind and ideas to places to distances that it could have never reached on its own that's the power of isis on one end it's only a horse the worst is a completely just achilles a conduit for the idea through the isis ms but nonetheless the oysters themselves have this kayak they have the strength to be able to reveal and help you see new depths sometimes the middle of talking middle of writing in the middle of talking middle of the conversation the middle of the shim of the class a whole new flow comes in that was not there before those of you who remember the mymen that we learned in the summer a year or two ago i think from hillary bill of pirates the hostage of the bellatonia the middle earth remember a whole long mimer about the three weeks and tish above this is a major part of the discussion over there how through the deburr there's a whole new flow what's called er kaiser in the second vicah the same is true when it comes to the soul that communicates that speaks during even though word speech is considered one of the garments of the soul and can't be compared to the essence of the soul itself only array of the soul is extended to ultimately become intellect and then to become emotion and then even lower to become words nonetheless there's an o that's created through dibor the words themse a transcendent light that encompasses the entire cell from head to toe allowing it to become bound up with hashem creation as explained in the tanya chapter 5 which the soul on its own could have not done that's the power of isis there's something magical there's something very intense very powerful in articulating it in words so here we have the paradox of isis on one hand oysters articulate they limit as we spoke many times they confer language upon something and as a result of that they define it and by defining it they limit it that's one type of isis that's one level of isis isis are also completely subservient they're just tools to be used by the seiko or by the middles in order to express themselves so they're like vessels that's why they're called horses so kisir kaval kusu hashem riding on the horses would be channeling the divine through isis through the words of learning through the words of davening which are made up of isis on one hand you can't compare the oceans to the experience itself the experience itself is much deeper the isis is the language nonetheless the isis have within them a tremendous kayak to bring the soul to a deeper place to bring a new flow of awareness a deeper consciousness that's what the oysters have a certain kayak and there's explicit there's a there's a deep explanation why that happens because oceans are really rooted in a very deep place the power to articulate comes from one of the deepest places in the soul and therefore when you do articulate you get in touch with that inner depth that you couldn't have through your consciousness before you articulate it in letters but the passage says we say every morning this is we have to hilum we have ashrae which is kuffman hey then we have kuffman and then we have cuff members in 147 halaluka zamrelike we were also to speak about snow so there's an expression over there hashem doesn't desire the strength the strength of the horse nor does he want the strong thighs of man yeah god desires those who revere him those who fear him those who anticipate his kindness on a literal level what does it mean it means don't think that the source of all success in life will come from your horse and don't think that the source of your prowess will come only from your thighs yes you have a powerful kazakh horse and you have powerful thighs says that's not what impresses what god desires he wants those who respect him who fear him who anticipate his kindness his hair because ultimately he rules the world that's the literal interpretation of these verses in tehillim that we say every morning in davinik comes down to ebb and he says as always there's a deeper interpretation what we learned what is source so isis ah we're not just talking about the physical horse we're also talking about the spiritual horse we're not just talking about the physical powerful horse don't think that that's going to be the beginning and the end of all your success you need a relationship with truth you need a relationship with god but he says it's a deeper interpretation based on what we explained about isis let's understand what deposit is now saying and here we're going to see how it all ties in together to the discussion how do we get into this she says [Music] the isis which are so usually because horses represent power the horses are powerful they're strong you know you have a good powerful strong horse he says like we say in ashrae two chapters earlier in tehillim they speak of your strength so it doesn't only mean they speak about your strength it means uh expressed in deeper what does this mean well the pasta says they will again utter yogurt represents the numerous restrictions and the numerous veils of diverse types which allow for the creation for their mergers of the highest worlds and the lowest worlds which are all essentially products of hashem's guru which means god's ability to restrain and restrict his energy that is what guru is the strength and the discipline to hold back to withdraw to restrain to limit to contain that is what guru means the power of containment the power not to express the power to create boundaries to create limits what is the ideal of adam viraj that hashem the rebel shall islam contains the infinite energy in order for there to emerge worlds because the truth is that everything in his presence doesn't have a separate significance like we learned before save of calamine food safe or mabet that serve kaladeiros and he gazes he scans and he sees all of history from the beginning till the end the code says he reads the generations ahead of time um and with one thought he created the whole world that's the initial thought that represents like the yam there's one seabed and it encompasses everything inside in one makshava all of the cosmos all of existence not just the physical world but also all of the spiritual universes are essentially one mahsava one divine thought and just like a thought if i capture something as a thought the whole entirety of that object is a thought in my mind the difference is of course that it's only a thought in my mind but the truth is a divine thought is really existence it's just existence the way it's reflected as a thought there's existence the way it becomes a word and his existence the way it's a thought the difference is words are much more articulated they're more tangible they have a concrete they are manifested in a concrete way and they have concrete properties what's the difference of the world in makshava and the world in dibor the world in makshava is a world where everything is submerged in god's mind in other words you don't feel the individuation that's like the yam what's dibur diburi's differentiation sentences paragraphs chapters books but each sentence itself is made up of words and each sentence each word is made up of letters and each letter is a channel of energy and an individuated channel of energy that is the gevura of hashem [Music] represents the glory those are the oysters what does this do it articulates infinity into finiteness that's what isis do i can experience the world from a place of isis that's mamala kalam i can i can experience life or i could try to experience something of life from a place that transcends isis that's beyond the deepur that's going to the makshava akhas the one thought that encompasses the whole world and he continues with this is the deeper meaning the gemara says was a heinous sinner and the gemara describes that there was not a single woman he did not pursue for promiscuous relationships and then one day he decided to do true it's a whole long story what happened and he asks heaven and earth to plead for him and they refuse and he asks the mountains and the hills to pleat for him and they refuse and he asks the sun on the moon to plead for him and they refuse and he says it's dependent on me and he places his head and his knees and he weeps and his soul expires and rebbe hears the story and rebbe starts weeping when elizabeth udaya died a voice is heard that he's going to habbah and rebbe cries and says there are those who acquire their worlds over many many years and decades but there are those who can acquire their world in somebody who lived his life in a very immoral way but in one moment one hour yes is somebody sh that which could be communicated to one neighbor to a created being who's finite liais macabre tai nugmis so that he should be able to receive pleasure from it even the highest spiritual pleasure like the higher grenade nick yesh it's called the yes commercial cost of like the passage says we learned a few weeks ago the mishnah says at the end of um hashem is going to bequeath everything 310 worlds because the posix says i'm going to bequeath to my beloved ones yesh which is 310 shin yuri's 310 but he says yay means somethingness yeash means something right ayan is nothingness or nothingness and yasha is somethingness so he says that which can be absorbed by a created being who's finite so that he or she should be able to experience a delight i can only enjoy that which i can appreciate that which i don't appreciate i don't enjoy you could sit by the most beautiful concerto in the world but if you tone deaf doesn't you don't appreciate it you could be in the most exquisite art gallery in the world but if god forbid you can't see or you don't have any sensitivity to art it's irrelevant bring a horse to an opera bring a horse to the louvre museum and tell the horse look at the mona lisa you know it's worth 200 million dollars or maybe today it's priceless you could be sitting at the most powerful shear in the world you could be learning the most powerful piece in the world the only way i could be makable tynuk from something i can enjoy something the only way something can be absorbed and detected by someone who's finite so that he or she should be able to experience the light even if it's a spiritual delight there's the delight of food but is there the light of music there's the ecstasy of love there's the delight of wisdom there's the light of transcendence there is the delight of cosmic oneness even ghanaian alien it's called yesh you know why it's called yesh because it has to become something it has to go into the word thing in order for me to be able to say yes only somebody could acquire his world in one moment no ayesh the yesh he's kind of the whole islam the whole world when he allows himself to be absorbed in the shah akhas if you go into jungle what shah says a moment what's a moment this is the one thought with which god created the whole world the yeash could be kaina ilama the whole world what does this mean there's creation the way it becomes deeper but this creation the way it's one thought imagine you know you have a thought of a company that you want to build or of a home that you want to live in it's a thought it's a moment area but that thought has everything as the entire company the entire home the problem is you can't go with that thought to the bank you need to articulate it you need to bring it down you need to make it a tangible plan you have to share it with others you have to write up a proposal you have to get investors and within that whole stress and anxiety and overhead and everything hopefully something can come out but what if that one thought can actually be the reality of the company so today we're discussing today we're finding and i'm not going to get into this at length but in you know i'm going to go there in quantum theory and quantum mechanics we're realizing how every thought does create a reality but that reality exists on a quantum level it exists on a thought level the reason is because by mahashava hashem it creates a reality but you have to have the kalim to be able to tune into that reality and my caleb demand deeper they demand articulation they demand oysters if there's no oysters it doesn't exist it's hard for me to relate to the iron iron is nothingness no thingness so the whole what is the world what is the world when you look at the world from a place of deburr because it came into dib where everything is individuated says one moment one care one makshava where you have all of reality all of existence that's ahmadis that's the yam which encompasses everything and it's all unified because it's all an aspect of divine infinity so qaina the whole island it's a higher state where all of reality becomes completely one from the place of the marsh that borrow asylum just like in the yam there's no individuation there's no separateness so you'll say but that's not reality it is reality in a way it's a more reality than the diber reality the deeper reality is the reality of isis what's isis we spoke shabbos shabbos morning at length all what what do isis do language reveal but they also conceal they reveal because they give everything meaning this becomes a cup and this becomes a shmata and this is a mouse and this is a pad and this is lahav dilla safer right this is a mic etc everything has a name and that's how we articulate i could sell this i could produce it we need names we need names to articulate it so that's what isis do they give everything an identity like a name a shame right we speak often about sheamus names but oysters also conceal because they right away fit it into a particular box this is what it is and it's not anything else it becomes right away fixed so they reveal but they also conceal they define it they articulate it they confer language upon everything and that's where the story ends there's no more creativity this is the end of the story i look at the pen how long can i look at it how long i could look at it for a second two seconds and i'm done i know what it is already but if you introduce this to your toddler do it bring it to the crib right to the one-year-old or even a cup or even a mouse or anything that's green or pink or yellow put it down and he or she could look at it for an hour and they'll turn it around and they'll look from this angle and that angle and this perspective why no isis pre-isis there's no definition i don't have definitions for it what happens when we give things definitions the moment we give things definitions they become part of a story of the past we're not anymore living in the present since nobody knows what i'm talking about so i'm going to go back to marriage because suddenly everybody will know what i'm talking about you come home and your wife tells you something or your husband tells you something do you know how to listen to it without isis and i'll explain to you what i mean somebody said something to you right what do we usually do we write away give it definition we right away give it meaning we put it in perspective we put it in the box we put it into the file in other words i say ah this is expressing this and this nature of my husband or my wife or my child and right away it connects to what happened yesterday and what happened a week ago what happened a year ago what happened 20 years ago what happened 30 years ago and boom you're upset again you came home your teenager told you something oh here he goes again because he has this attitude because she has this attitude which right away fits into what happened last week which you know happened a year ago two years ago three years ago and you can seal the lid what happens if you could remain open to infinite interpretation what happens if you can actually hear what they said and not define what they said and contextualize it oysters is always context because the moment i define it it goes into a context the moment it goes into a context it connects to everything in that context and therefore it becomes part of a story and once it becomes part of a story it naturally triggers if very powerful responses based on that story in other words i'm not living in the present i'm living in the past and everything becomes part of the story now you're not doing this consciously we just do this naturally and oysters are a blessing but can i become that toddler who looks at this and doesn't say cup i don't see a cup because the moment i say cup it's the end of the conversation i can just see it for what it is and what is it i'm not sure that's why i'm curious i'm curious i look at the raisin we once did remember we did had a meditation and a shear we looked at a raisin and we're not tempted to say raisin because the moment you say raisin you know what it is can you just open yourself up to the raising without a name now it's very hard to do this because we love speech and we love definitions and we all yearn and hope and pray that each of our children develop their speaking skills and when they don't it's very worrisome but we have to appreciate the trap of isis as well when you make a blessing on the raisin what do you say you don't just say the raisin tastes good you know how many things you say hashem and i'm going to say on this omg do you know how many profound ideas were just conveyed in the blessing that you make before you eat a raisin before you're drinking your coffee right you know how many profound ideas were said you just put in infinite ideas into this little meditation before you're drinking your stupid cup of coffee because it's not so stupid is you hashem because we're not going to reduce the coffee to the cup of coffee we don't do that we're not going to reduce a raisin to the name raisin it becomes a raisin as well now with a raisin and a cup of coffee it's not so consequential with your wife's conversations it's very consequential with your teenagers conversations it's very consequential so the exercise here the balatini is teaching us is don't run into the world of isis don't right away give a definition can you remain curious inquisitive like the man what was the beauty of the man what does it say by the man they called it man they didn't have a box for it didn't fit into a box pun intended the man didn't fit into a box if you tried to fit into a box what happened if you took a hundred pounds of money you tried to fit it into a box what happened if you took too little or if you took too much it didn't fit into your box either it exceeded your box or the other way around but it did not fit into your box that was the power of the man man says man an egyptian is ma they called it what who calls it what killa you do mahu because it was it was bread from heaven and therefore it did not have a name that you remember we learned last tuesday in the women's class i taught this fassemas from parishes bashar the demand taught the jewish people to be able to define reality in a way that defies definition that's what the man taught the people and masha said this is the bread that god wants you to eat he wants you to learn to digest a munna to digest to be able to eat curiosity i love it to be able to eat curiosity to be able to be satiated by wonder satiated by mystery to be able to be that child who doesn't have to define things who doesn't have to um articulate this is what it is and then you close the box and you seal the lead lid and that's it the story is over you put you contextualize it and you have this person you don't do that i don't know listen be open start calling your wife man in other words i don't know tell me teach me tell me well you don't have to try everything i say at home you don't have to change it into legal papers unless she likes the name i don't know the harder thing is start calling your husband mom i know in toronto we have the man family that's why they're called the man family now let's let's go to the source of this where does all this happen hashem articulates the world in isis by sarah mahmoud what does it mean it means save of calaman is predefinition so what is the world the world is infinite it's what it really is and that's the truth of it that's the truth that's the truth of it and that's why today we know the world we live in is based on the thoughts we have about the world we live in i'm going to say that again because it's true the world we live in is based on the thoughts about the world we live in that's the fact you and i could be sitting around the same table we're living in different worlds because our thoughts are different we all we all know this two people could be sitting on the same couch right one is living in a beautiful home and one is living in a miserable home why who's right but it's true on every level it's true on a scientific level it's true and it's true everywhere if i would have microscopic eyes if i would have microscopic eyes i wouldn't be living in your world i'll be living in a different world the table wouldn't be a table the mouse wouldn't be a mouse the cup tucker wouldn't be a cup if all the doors of perception were cleansed everything would appear as is infinite and that's true that's the pre-ics level but hashem wanted to create isis i didn't agree i didn't come up with the idea of isis it wasn't my idea basarama maurice never islam berations about looking at mr my versailles dr ebba has a mind where he explained he says incredible thing he says when a person creates something it's new i'm a carpenter you give me lumber and i i sculpture it into a pushka hey look my zeta was a carpenter and my grandfather wouldn't use nails [Applause] see my name this was my bar mitzvah gift he gave it to me the night before he passed away he was a carpenter and he wouldn't use any nails only glue okay there's not a single nail only glue and he matched up every piece matched up with each other and he would always build this was his hobby this was his hobby if you go to 770 you'll see there's a huge oran kai dish in the front that's his his handiwork not a single nail it's huge not a single nail this was my grandfather my mother's father the bianca lipskis passed away a few days before my bar mitzvah 1985. in any case so the altar ebba says when somebody is i'll say a carpenter or a silversmith a goldsmith i give him silver he makes a manure a cup a goblet whatever you make a bookcase a push a table a chair so he says this is a new thing he got the material it's a new thing he now has to figure out how to make it right the idea the skill of the hands etc he says by hashem creation there's no change she says what is creation really this is very powerful see the whole world was there before creation is that god listen to this god took the pre-existing world and articulated it as isis that's the change in other words pre-creation everything is there nothing changed in god procreation post-creation the difference is god allowed the world to be redefined as isis that's creation preachers barolo kim the essa art the oceans of arabs became a place of isis it became a place of definition became a place of description became a place of articulation and noises now isis are gevaldic they articulate they define they give context they give description but as much as they define and reveal they conceal because they strip everything from its alignment with infinite energy that defies articulation so which world do we live in which world do you want to live in you want to live in the world pre-isis and you can't communicate you want to live in the mikvah of your life we live in a world of voices but yes you're a yes because there's no tainan what does dalton rebel say there's no tainough that you can experience if it doesn't become a yes i cannot experience it as pleasurable if it doesn't become defined in properties that speak to me if you give me everything infinity but it doesn't translate into a yesh meaning it doesn't become something that i can relate to it's not pleasurable people consider the sheer the information could be the most powerful information in the world there's no taino why is there no tai nung because it didn't become yash's dick you want it to be a yes in order for it to be tainook because tainag means i enjoy it for me to enjoy it my eye has to feel that it enriches me from my eye to feel that it enriches me it has to be reduced to my eye i told you you take a horse to the most beautiful symphony and the horse won't be impressed not because the symphony is not beautiful because there's a fed you'll forgive me i hope darla will forgive me sometimes a person gets sick they're learning a mymatare look at the torah right and i say i don't see the beauty in it of course if i'm in a state of affair how am i supposed to see the beauty it wasn't brought down to yes yes yes yes i want yeshs i don't want ayan so this is all the tan nugent whatever a person can observe by definition yes even alien ish so he says when this yeash is absorbed in sha akhas which is kind of the whole world the whole world was there it's not like you lose the world there no you get the world there you get the real world you don't get the world that's boxed in you don't get the world that's post simpson you don't get the world of isis you get the world that's pre-isis uh that's called makshava akhas what does we have the pleasures of the vine taino but it's all called yesh you know why it's called the ash it's called yash because it's yesh islam it's 310 worlds and it's the way it's channeled into some finite description it's not anymore the yam if i go into the yam i die there's no i i'm not a fish if i go into the yam i cease to exist the only way i can exist is if i'm separate in other words oysters for us oasis is the source of life it's the channel of life and almades kasia i run away from isis and i'm a descalia i run into isis so now god asks moshe to speak what does maesha say you want me to you want me to start defining the world i can't do such a sin that's a crime i'm i'm i'm from the arm you remember in the yam there's no eye bitter matias cassia differentiation individuation pre-isis there's no almond discount there's no almond there's galia there's no ear there's no eye this ain't safe so moisture says you want me to speak a muscle for this the valentine brings this mushroom let's say you you you you see this incredible piece of art i remember the first time i came to the grand canyon i went there with my wife so i read up a little bit about it so i thought i knew what it's going to look like and i remember we came and i took a look at it for the first time and i saw it and my breath was taken away whether it was for 10 seconds or 30 seconds i was just i was in awe just the sight division now if somebody would come over to me at that moment and say write an article about what you just saw or give a share about what you just saw i couldn't why not because when you're mesmerized you're enthralled by something you're submerged in the water you can't articulate it you're in you're you're that's called bittel in in halal is an expression idi the turret lamiville like when you're busy absorbing you can't emit with blood when you're busy absorbing you can't emit right when when you when your mind is completely submerged in something you're not in a state where you can where you can where you can articulate so moisturabeno says i'm pre-isis i can't speak quad-pack fatlosh and this is not for me me or no i don't have an anointing this is the way life is experienced when you have the microscopic eyes that see the oneness and that's the world you live in when you say hashem created the whole world with one mahshava and soy phil caladores that we say in the davening he scans the world like a scanner all of the generations the beginning of history's end of history it's not just mystical language today in physics they speak about this that there is a concept of going back in time there's a concept of uh experiencing all of reality all of existence as one could if you look you know read about read about how they define the big bang and what happens after the big bang wanna kuda wonder coulda wonderkutamish and that nukuda includes all time and all space and all matter all crunched up in that seminal point and then it expands it develops and by the way the theory of the big bang is eerily reflected in the words of the ramban in the beginning of parachutes i'm not a big scholar on the big bang or in cosmology or astrophysics i'm just saying that these are very powerful illustrations for these some of these concepts so you have the whole world all crunched up in one all matter all time all space and if you transcend that so yes in that one source in the maksha that's called because it's one mahsava it's like when you imagine the planet in your brain or you imagine anything in your brain the whole entity of it from top to bottom is grasped in your mind in a single moment it could be a huge country it could be a continent it could be the whole planet from to travel from one side to the other side would take you an enormous amount of time but in the world of marshava it's one moment and you have everything afterwards when you differentiate the makshava and you start analyzing the details it's not shaakas anymore so the yesh represents three hundred and ten worlds and that's called ayesh because lagabe the yam which is beyond hagbala and it's part of this source which is called yamaha el yo in the makshava it's so that's what altarebus says that this yeah he's kind of the whole world when he's nikhil in one shot that's when he really acquires the world that's when he really owns the world that's when he's really in touch with the world okay let's take some questions how how does a horse know what to do if he's a horse he has to hang around people good question the horse knows what to do as a horse if he hangs around people you want to know what al torebo means to say what is what what is he teaching us with the yesh kai nilam the way i see it is he's telling us that that you can only have a real kinion in the world you can only acquire the world when you're ready to go back to the shah achas in other words as long as i don't go back to the achas i don't acquire the world back to my metaphor if your spouse is talking to you or your child is talking to you or your brother is talking to you or your mother is talking to you and you right away define what they're saying you impose your definitions and your names on what they're saying here you go again with your attitude here you go again with your obnoxious nature here you go again with your idiosyncrasies here you go again with your negativity towards me you see what i just did i just gave it a name i just defined it i have a name for it if my therapist says what did your spouse tell you today you say oh my spouse was very very negative or very very critical yeah yeah you conferred you you you imposed you imposed your language your experience the way it felt and it's true for you it's true that's what you felt you did it for a reason it triggered the new something because you're living in your own isis which is the story you've been telling yourself about yourself which may be based on the story that you thought you heard from others when you were growing up in other words you contextualize yourself what we call self-concept self-conceptualization the way i define me to me and now when i hear what you say that self-conceptualization puts what you said into that box and becomes part of that story and that's the end of it and now i'm angry for the next month so if you want to really be kind so which world are you living in you're living in a very small world you're living in a very dark world you're living in a very small box it's not your fault but that's where you're living tells us it's amazing if you want to be queen or ilama if you want to really acquire your world you have to go to the sha'akas you have to go to the place you have to elevate your reality yeah yeah you have to you have to elevate the posture of reality and be able to see it from the place of sha aghas from the makshava akhas that encompasses all in other words al madison not only ahmadis galia yeah yeah yeah it's bringing the iron into the ash the no thingness that no i i is people say nothingness we don't like nothingness it's no thingness you're walking in the water on dry land i introduce no thingness into thingness that's man that's why after kriyasyam so if they can start eating the mana that's the next story because the man is the ability to eat the food of mystery the food of man is the food of man from the word amuna i can start eating the food of mystery i can remain inquisitive i can remain open to different interpretations i may be experiencing something and that's real but my interpretation of it is just a projection of where i am and that makes all the difference in the world because once i give an interpretation it's fixed it's forever fixed and i'm stuck there and my emotions are stuck there there's no fluidity anymore there's no fluid that's the difference of yamanya basha right yam is fluid it's not fixed and yabasha is is it is what it is huh a prisoner a prisoner cannot cannot cannot go out of his own prison first taste where does the horse come in here the horse comes in everywhere i told you the horse has to hang around people bence yeah it's just a metaphor it's just a metaphor i think what he's asking is how can uh a human who has that horse aspect um raise up more so that they're um more living in living in this world but yet being able to tap into the young um so when they have that communication with their wife or daughter or some child they're able to listen to the ocs but be so flexible that they can grow from this rather than be but we can do it because we have because right i mean i think fancy's asking how we bring this into our life to do better right right right so what do you think what are you thinking about it um more awareness of ourselves and yeah i think also i think also somebody asks here what if your perception is not negative you hear the person as they show themselves without the negativity what does that mean well you yeah sometimes a person yeah maybe screaming at you or a person maybe uh maybe very very uh sharp and negative and they may be saying things that are very hurtful extremely hurtful and you may i have to acknowledge that pain right if somebody punches me in the nose i have to be able to acknowledge that pain we're not talking about denying the pain of it we're talking about one second we're talking about just not feeling compelled to put it into a context and make it part of an old story about me or about the other because then i remain completely trapped let me give you an example from the animal kingdom i spoke about this on shabbos i have read or heard that let's say a cheetah or a leopard or a tiger a lioness attacks its prey attacks an antelope an impala a zebra whatever it may be a calf a baby elephant and there are basically three options one option is the predator devours its prey another option is the prey managers to potential prey managers to flee the third option sometimes zebras or impalos or others i've read they have a strategy where they freeze and by freezing they often divert the predator because the predator either thinks they're dead or the predator thinks that there's something wrong here it's not something they're accustomed to because you're supposed to run away and if you're not running away it means you have something up your sleeve this is dangerous territory this is unusual and sometimes it's a strategy that allows the impala or the antelope to save their life it's fascinating so they'll freeze and the lioness will leave or the cheetah will leave i've seen some videos of it actually and and now they're that and and now they survived maybe with a wound maybe without a wound so researchers wanted to see what's the at what happens in the aftermath is there ptsd are they suffering from post-traumatic stress disorder when they go back they find they're heard and they integrate are there noticeable differences is there life changed and they noticed a fascinating thing that they somehow integrate perfectly and they haven't seen any visible displays of trauma of stress of anxiety maybe there's a physical wound that has to heal hopefully but they don't see any irregular behavior on any level and then they notice something fantastic incredible the zebra or the impala after the lioness leaves and they're safe may run somewhere into the forest or into the jungle or not run anywhere remain where they are and for a few moments they will just start shaking they begin shaking for a few moments could be for 30 seconds it could be for a minute it could be for a few minutes and it's almost like they're shaking out the experience and they finish and it's over never happened you understand what happened they they experienced physical pain no question they experienced physical danger and they learned from it and next time they may be more careful with this spot whatever it is they're not going to go back into that space but because they're animals they don't have isis they didn't turn it into a story we can all experience pain we can deal with pain our challenges the stories we tell ourselves about the pain that's what kills us [Music] people in the background that are talking oh yeah sure we talk about often you know children who are abused people have told me worse than the abuse itself was the way i was treated after the abuse when i shared with my parents what happened in a way that creates more damage that animal has been abused that animal has been attacked but there was no story attached to it the animal did not confer language and definition and description and explain what happened and put it in context and say oh this proves that i'm a loser and i always knew my mother didn't like me my father didn't like him my teacher didn't like me the herd didn't like me my uncle elephants didn't like me my aunt elephants didn't like me i'm made to be a defect i'm a smart i'm valueless i have no confidence and of course i was attacked what should happen and now i know i could never trust the world anymore and i can't trust anybody and i can't whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa instead what the animal does it shakes because it had pain and it was horrible it was horrible to get a bite in the neck from a lioness it's not kashmak for a zebra to get a bite in the neck of course not it's horrible it's horrible can i shake it off and move on no i put it in context it's so powerful when i'm not trapped by the oceans now isis themselves exist on numerous levels there's isis and deeper isis and deep rights and depresses and the isis are a way of channeling existence and reducing it to a finite description which is important because we live we don't live in the quantum reality we live in a world where our eyes and our brain at some point is is compelled to define things by isis that's part of brie that's part of creation but al-taraba tells you the yeast should know that if you want to have a full kenyan in the world you have to be able to take it to a place of us to the one marshava that encompasses all of reality where reality's posture is sublimated that it becomes a channel for infinity what if your perception is so negative and you don't even know you're doing this you may need help with from somebody to help you start thinking in different ways it's very normal that's what trauma's trauma is that i'm trapped in in very very difficult ways of thinking that's what it is yeah it's exactly what it is there's two there's two expressions from the 60s one was a head trip and the other is living in the moment yeah yeah okay i wish everybody a beautiful day a lot of hats those of you who are living in my area here enjoy the snow go out and play with your children or grandchildren and have a beautiful and meaningful and very white day it's a it's a day of cleansing it's a day of whiteness and it's a day of oneness i was just thinking about you know why we enjoy the snow so much right usually when we wake up in the morning we see the individual of the world every tree is on its own and every car is on its own and every house is on its own and every lawn is on its own and i am i and you are you and we come to show everybody's dressed up in their own uniform but a snow day were all bedecked with this white unifying blanket of purity and i think it gets us in touch a little bit with alma descassion with kamayam yamakasam and it's such so pure it's like the world the way it's in its pristine place where it's so pure and idealistic and clean and beautiful then you start seeing the footsteps in the snow and you know it gets a little dirty and messy but before that like early in the morning just pure whiteness and there's an innocence that it it brings out in people a calmness yeah and everyone is in the same boat you know everybody's shoveling even if you're worth millions you're you know struggling with your months but he's shoveling i mean yeah some people hire others to shovel but still you know we're all everybody's car is buried in the same snow okay if you have a garage maybe not but there are you know a lot of common denominators it brings out it brings out the commonality in the human condition and it's very beautiful and the kids are of course in a good mood okay question next question i don't understand you speak about mahashava but mahashava i still have to think so is mahashava really the issue good question it's not here is marshava akhas of the whole world there is mahsava the way the isis are already differentiated it's still higher than dibur but it's mahsava here is referring to awareness of our infinite self we don't have to make sense of things we can just trust that this is part of hashem i don't have to understand or wrap my brain around it i can let go of the need to define it to describe it you get it that's the point makshavi here is not talking about analysis dissecting crystallizing that's another pill that's just like dibor mahshavi here is talking about the source of mahshava and that's a practical tool to accomplish this in others how should somebody react to these strong reactions how do we react to our interpretations of reality you asked before what happens if you have all these negative interpretations i think it's not trying to figure it out you can create space for these reactions respect them know that they come from the world in which you exist in which you interpret reality in a certain way but just make space for another awareness make space for the awareness of your infinite self aligned with the infinity of god i don't have to articulate i don't have to be drawn and compelled to fall into that trap of giving it a name of giving it a description i can just trust that this too is part of a night mulvaney this too is part of the divine this too is part of hashem even if i don't understand but but it's killing me okay okay i know that you feel that way the zebra doesn't say it's killing me nobody told the zebra to say that the zebra just says that hurt watch out don't go back here that's good sometimes you're in a relationship there's bad things happening you have to be able to acknowledge it and say i'm not going back there i'm not going to be part of this whatever that means for you there's different ways of reacting but the beginning of it all is the beginning of it is don't don't fall into the other person's toxicity don't become part of that trap that they may be in yeshkoina ilama you could be kaina your islam your real islam and one shah the whole velt is la mom [Music] oh thank you for asking that so these are all expressions of the tanakh or of the sages about hashem so cypher um at south kolhaduris that's an expression in gemara in haggidafud bays hashem gazes he scans and he sees till the end of all the generations okay that's basically like you have a scanner you have a scanner and the scanner scans you know you may have a huge page with all the details so many nuances you take a picture of it and it's all there right one picture so it's safe for mabet hashem gazes and he sees till the end of the generations the passage says which literally means he calls out the generations may rush means from the beginning from beforehand that's aposic in yeshaya the prophet ushaya perek mamalev says god basically can call out all the generations before from the onset annihilation the pasta continues this is isaiah 41 verse 4. i'm the first and i'm also there at the end so the balatani is bringing all this uh that god with one thought he created the whole universe what's the ballet bringing out from all these sources that there is a state of reality that transcends individuation in other words that one thought that includes all of reality right i gave a muscle but the big bang you know you see all of reality crunched into that seminal point but this is even beyond the physical this is all in the divine consciousness that one thought that is reality and today in quantum mechanics we know that there's different levels of reality in other words i could see reality a solid solid lifeless matter i could see reality from the atomic perspective from the molecular perspective from the atomic perspective from the subatomic perspective i could see reality from a quantum level and they're all really true they're layers of reality what are you seeing they're looking today to define reality from the perspective of the string theory you know that unified integrated theory where it's all like the vibrations on a violin so there there is that's the power here there is a state of reality from the perspective of the one makshava that one mahshava of hashem that includes the entire cosmos that is sha akhas and one can tune in to some degree to that state of reality there's three-dimensional reality this four-dimensional reality it's five-dimensional reality right the little uh the little apostrophe on top of the yolt yeah the ultimate is diffusion the defeat the diffusion of the two that's the ultimate and practically this means i could stay in my body and still retain that calmness i can walk in the water on dry land that's the synthesis by eating the food of mystery i don't have to interpret everything all interpretation is a projection of where i am and i want to be in a fluid state i don't want to be in a fixed state you want to be in a fluid state not in a fixed state that means to be in the i'm not in your bushel can i be in in in a fluid state that's where i want to be yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah how will my relationship with that person be different there won't be any competition everybody everybody will be able to see themselves as channels of divine infinity yeah the fusion of kriya samsuf is the fusion of alma descaster with amadeus that's the fusion the fusion is that i could walk in dry land but we are in the sea in other words that the consciousness of the sea relates even to my individuation in other words i walk in the sea i'm in alma disgusting but it's like dry land i could see myself and i could see you hey but i thought when amadeus cassie there's no you and me the answer here is and that's the amazing the good of this mimer that the differentiation between you and i doesn't have to be a contradiction thomas discuss in our individuated selves we could be completely aligned with infinity how infinity means no differentiation that's where atomos comes in that's where ki goygar comes in in the light of believable you have to be infinite so there's no room for you and i in the ultimate core there can be complete fusion between the two states alma discussed in amadeus so there could be the fusion ashiri and as we'll soon see the next year will what does all that mean okay so the tuesday morning we have 9 45 the women's class and thursday morning by azer hashem we will continue and hopefully complete this mimer lee neder so see you tomorrow morning we have 9 45 a.m a class right here in zoom or the yeshiva.net and we also have one thursday morning 7 30. i apologize again for the technical mishaps this morning that we had here on the website and hopefully he'll be fixed and i wish you all a a beautiful day a meaningful day and he said that he was having um uh like not not good thoughts so the rebbe sent him to uh a house in a town to speak with someone but the man went to the house in the town and he knocked on the door it was a very cold night and he saw people in the house and lights but nobody was answering the door and he not kept knocking and knocking and waited all night and finally they let him in the morning and he went in to speak with the advisor the rabbi in the house and he and he said i have thoughts in my in my head i can't control my thoughts and the man said well he said why didn't you let me in why didn't you let me he said well i control um so he did that he did that he didn't speak before him brought him over to a horse and he showed him the horse he said this this horse also didn't speak duvar and pateline for 40 days you