Healing Our Emotions Through the Power of Attachment

good morning everybody thank you for joining us today's class is dedicated by dr robert frankel dear friend in the merit of his grandchild rami alexander ben ashley for a complete and speedy recovery or a four schleimer and there are four criva and many many long happy healthy prosperous years with abundance of health and happiness and joy and all blessings and good spirits and a lot of nachas a reformed shlaimer for crava the cure of mamash if you didn't open your source sheets yet like i then open it right now and we're going to continue the mimer of the baal hatanya known as shashi's young in the city yesterday when was it last year we spoke about why this zoyah calls the matzah mikhla the maimnusa the bread of faith okay here we have it and we are up to page let's see we're up to page tough page tough youtubers i'm sorry not tough 834 page 834 we finished the paragraph the first paragraph we're holding the second paragraph on page 834 vise versa so let's continue recovering zoom just show me you could see me and hear me everything good the murderer you can or you can't okay okay beautiful beautiful so let's continue i just want to um i want to suggest if you have time we had yesterday a class with women it was really for everybody but it's called a woman's class and it was titled why do we have so much anxiety at the sader night and how we can repair it it was a very special class we learned a mimer a story about the balshemptiv and two people who had different types of seders i thought it was very powerful message very meaningful uh and really an incredible story about what the valhamtev said why some people know how to enjoy and some people are always stressed very interesting so i think it would be worthwhile it would be worthwhile not for judgment god forbid but really for awareness so that was yesterday you have it on the yeshiva.net we also had sunday a very interesting class it was called a double dip of jewish history shabbos are godled russia with the young israel of century city really very powerful message about mad bill and why we dipped twice and then we had also a class on sunday titled when i realize i don't need anything i can be set free they're all on the yeshiva.net and i think you'll appreciate them we also had a class on dating for boys and young men for young men which was sunday night as well also on the yeshiva.net which i think you may also enjoy okay those are just some introductory remarks and now we're going to continue today is going to be our last installment of this mimer it's a very long mimer the mimer goes on to different aspects but we're going to uh conclude the focus the first major theme of the mimer which we have been focusing on so let's continue inside the zeal you have to shepherd a munna meaning with finance you have to feed give parnassa give sustenance and livelihood to a muna what does this mean it's not that the person necessarily can comprehend can grasp the essence of the light of infinity which is who i am as it is in its ultimate truth rather it's only that it's manifested it's enclosed in the matzah and through the mats meaning that the jew-eating matzah has now the know-how to be able to call out father there's a certain sense in the child obviously the words the ability to call out abba represents a certain stage in neurological development it's a certain internal awareness that the child has now in a conscious way in an organized way that was not there before in a primal unconscious way a a baby even in the womb is receives a lot of information you know today we know because i'll speak about the experiences in the womb and today we know you know how impactful everything is on a child on the nervous system of the child things that happened during pregnancy things that even happened during conception it seemed in the olden days like a strange thing you affect a child by affecting a child but today we know how sensitive it is and how deep the human psyche is how impressionable it is how much it absorbs but those are all impressions that don't happen in a conscious organized way the kid they share is shayadaya likers we spoke about in the previous year shitagamarian when the baby eats grain when the baby stops nursing milk and starts eating grain dug on something happens it could start calling out father and mother this means that there is some development here an internal development and awareness nonetheless or commercial hating as the metaphor of the child it's not that the child really gets it understands what it means you're my father what it means you're my mother that's true still the child does get it a child may not be able to you know comprehend the full magnitude of it the full depth of it you know what makes your you know all the dynamics all the reasons for it all the ramifications okay that takes some time sometimes it takes a lot of time till you realize what a tatty and a mommy are but nonetheless there's a certain stage of development that he could recognize abba says the altar the jewish people in mitsuram are like that teenique because mitsuram is considered our birth it's our birth like says and we say the haggadah that god meeting us in egypt before the redemption was literally like encountering a newborn baby with everything that comes with a newborn baby haskell is extremely graphic ezekiel chapter 16 about what we looked like and part of it we say in the haggadah on the night of pesach by the jewish people eating matzah that night of turkey there was the commandment to eat matzah on the night of pesach that evening of the matzo was the tom duggan it was the taste of grain that allowed the judea daya liquorice abba that this in other words in recognizing the divine in creation and through creation which is a universal which is a universal lot jew and non-jew as explained at length we're talking here the muhus of ancient the essence of ainsof which is beyond creation so you can't say that they grasped it as it is in its pristine truth but rather the way it's manifested and filtered somewhat through the matzah like the child does the child have the full comprehension and full awareness of what it means abba no but the child does have a certain experience that this is abba and therefore he says just like you sustain somebody you give somebody sustenance life life through michael through food food is the chief one of the chief ingredients through which we keep somebody alive we replenish their energy just like through the flavor of grape that a tea that a child an infant tastes so this is the concept of a shepherd when you shepherd say a shepherd he shepherds his flock what does it mean you're a shepherd what does a royale do roy swalazzina what does a good royal sign do the most important thing is you have to make sure that your sheep your goats your cattle all the animals that are under your domain are being fed have what they need are being nurtured that's what a shepherd does we have the story of martial banu he's identified in thailand moshe was a shepherd as the madrid says he was always a shepherd he was created to be a shepherd and what was his role his role was to take care of the flock of yesterday and there's the famous story in madrid that when one sheep ran away moshe pursued him and when moshe pursued him the sheep ran further and further until marcia found the sheep and lifted up the sheep on his shoulders remember he says i brought it back and told the sheep i didn't realize you were thirsty and he went and he found a brook of water or stream of water or whatever it was and he irrigated the sheep and that's the quintessential model for a shepherd and that's when hashem says if this is how you treat sheep you could be the one entrusted to be the shepherd of my people so araya is the one who makes everybody has the parnassa they need the sustenance they need a shepherd means you have skin in the game you take responsibility it's your responsibility to make sure that all of the flock have what they need this is called the financial isomet to sustain them to give them prognosis they don't need a paycheck every week but they need to make sure they have their water they have their protection they're not scorched from heat they're not too cold they have all the food they need urea the antenna of a jew picks up atsumu the the the shaman of a jew picks up it absorbs it detects atmosphere and it's not satisfied with anything else because it senses the truth but it can be unconscious or it could be very dormant or it could not be impactful it could be very concealed so that moonah needs nurturing the word ammuna means faith but the word ammuna it says in tanya chapter 42 comes from the word immune exercise exercise is called immune training la amenmi a coach a trainer is called right what does it say in in in megillah esther over there it's he took care he nurtured he nurtured esther what's this idea of a men it's the idea of training of doing it again and again and again in other words you can have an amazing skill for dancing you can have an amazing skull for writing you can have an amazing skill for being a therapist you can have an amazing skill as a mathematician or as a musician or as a novelist or as a communicator or as an athlete but if you don't practice if you're not amen yourself it doesn't you don't do anything with it and you know what do they say the ten thousand hour rule right ten thousand hour rule so the altar says in tanya in perik member chapter 42 that's part of a munna and munna means it's not just i believe it's true it's a training it's a skill that has to be developed it's there it's there you have it in you you're an athlete you have an antenna to to to pick up aids but i have to nurture it the moon has to be shepherded and that's the word you know we have an alternative word umnus what's um this is a trade in the industry it's called you say an uman myso um this is a craftsman's work omnus what makes it a trade the gemara has an expression in shabbos about rajbi rasoi um his traitor is his trade it says an umnas means you know a shoemaker or a barber or a lawyer whatever your ownness is this is what i do every day again and again and again i just know it i know it why because it's an umnos it's constant means it's constant so what makes a moon a moon is a skill of the soul it's that skill it's that aspect of the soul that when cultivated it allows the soul to perceive and experience ultimate reality ultimate reality means the ultimate essence of the ain't safe but it means she says just like the dagon feeds the child and gives the child the ability to say ima this is the mats even though the grain becomes a cause as the gemara says that a child experiences a much higher level of awareness called the godless nobody's going to say that a physical piece of bread captures the essence of wisdom is somehow it's enclosed in the bread in a very concealed way but somehow here there is this ability to be able to give it to the child vidyla maven for at the youven pinochet now will it doesn't mean that a munna shepherds us somebody is a shepherd who sustains a munna he said in the beginning of the miami that kinesis is called the moon why we call them because canessa's sister all has the mic and the awareness the sensitivity to be able to grasp the truth of ain't safe academy but in order to sustain it in order to feed it in order to shepherd it that it should be more powerful more alive more vibrant than a person you need a shepherd so premise abba this shepherd is the father shairish called hat who wants that the child should be able to have access to it so you have to feed the child the doggone that can be eaten by the child you also can't feed a child too much even if you're feeding the child oatmeal or whatever it is from the grain it has to be the baby food consistent with the age and the composition and the height and the health of the child so you when you when you feed something you can feed an animal too much it won't work could choke or you can overeat i have to give you the right dosages of food and it has to be condensed it has to be contracted in order for you to be able to get what you need to get those nutrients so he says abba the father feeds he feeds the children he dresses up the motion the weirdness the mic and the godless the princess cutlass in a small fashion and this is like the eating of the matzah the next uh the next the next side the next column eight thirty four my achilles this is like the eating of the mats on the first night of pesach israel and that's why he's called roy israel the shepherd of israel and that's why mata is called the michael of a munna in zaihar the daily maven and this will be enough for somebody who understands [Music] six six days you should eat mats why six if this is such a powerful idea that the matzah gives the jewish people this type of awareness it's strengthens it and yes it's an orphan of katniss meaning it's not that the night of isis but it's time they were capable of understanding everything but it gives you this this strength this got its only six days as it brings in the footnotes and canisters israel the jewish souls are comprised of 10 spheres 10 faculties the main brokenness that comes from the yeast in the dough that's why the jews were instructed to eat matzah for six days because of the six minutes what does this mean if we take the metaphor of a child she is the grain he knows to call out father mother in other words there's a certain stage in his development that he can appreciate this is my father this is my mother and i'm not going to substitute them for anything else and i know that there's a special connection here and there's a special bond and a special relationship and it's processed in a very in in in a very conscious way it's still called katniss he's only a baby he's six months one year one year old two years old when he's saying abbavim but nonetheless there is there's an awareness here yes it's a small awareness it's a primitive awareness it's a condensed awareness but it's an awareness but what will happen here is that his atmos his very essence feels connected and attached and aligned with his father and mother yelling he's going to walk after his father go after his father and call him abba or mother in other words in this healthy development called attachment there's no attachment disorder there is attachment there is connection this is enough to be able to tell the child i want to be around these people i'm walking after my father i want to be with my mother i want to be with my mother of course you need a father and a mother who are attached not who are out for lunch and that this creates all types of issues with attachment avoidance and some other things a child has to be able to feel this connection and when the for our child's filled his connection he's not leaving for us you know what happens so in spirituality what in physically what this means by a child is it affects the growth of all of his emotions all of his experiences it's interesting how terebus should say this because today this is very big in psychology all his experiences and emotions are filtered through that attachment if that attachment is healthy and powerful and you're talking about a little baby here it's not the baby's not a philosopher and he's not a psychologist but if that baby feels attached this is out but this is i don't want to leave you and that's a good sign because i want to be connected to you and because you want to be connected and you have that connection then ultimately you can become independent person because you have a solid base your base is solid and healthy so what happens is all my medias are filtered through that attachment so what is this spiritually he says spiritually it means that medusa my natural dispositions allah because of this bittle this oneness with the abba spiritually speaking through the matzah it affects all of my middles video even the middles that were affected by the shredder by the breaking of the vessels we spoke often about tahu and tikkun you remember many my mother that also the maya mashed we learned it's so a maya machete you have it also in the kuda terrier pace we have it on the website over there it's that lengthy discussion about toyo and tikkun that there was a shiver there was a breaking of the vessels in the world of toyo and as a result of that the media is become broken and that's what middle-israelis are middles doesn't only mean badminton they mean broken middles middays that don't represent the wholesomeness of a person because all middle-israelis come from brokenness ra means broken in baba kama we have kaiser a flimsy broken wall any middle any middle you talk about middle royce narcissism what's narcissism narcissism represents the brokenness of a person there's no attachment i can't trust anybody or anything talk about jealousy talk about hatred talk about envy animosity all of these middles yeah arrogance the need to be arrogant the need to get validation from everybody and to be at the center of every conversation what is that it's a brokenness it comes from you want to identify you'll see at the core there's a shiver i'm not recognizing my attachment i don't have attachment i don't have attachment with my core with my source and if i don't have attention with myself so i'm looking if you if you don't have the love that you need if you never got the love that you need you substitute it by searching for attention i need attention the difference between love and attention of course is that attention only lasts while you're getting it the moment you stop getting attention doesn't last anymore right if i'm desperately craving attention and i give a wonderful speech and i get a standing ovation for two minutes at that moment i so to speak compensated for the void of love but right after that it's all over that's why many musicians what happens they're worshipped by tens of thousands of people but then they go home and they can't deal with it because the void sets back in but only with much more intensity because there was no real connection there was no real attachment that's called shiveria it's amazing ideas here so what happens here is that the middles that had the shiver and therefore it results in midi israeli's broken middles uh but they can all be reoriented and be realigned with kedusha with wholesomeness for example my love and awe should be directed towards truth not to love or fear other things in other words he's taking the first two middles avengir people are afraid of so many things i'm afraid of people i'm afraid of what people are going to say i'm afraid of how i'm impacting people what they're going to think of me ava right this person all addiction is a form of love i'm attached to things but they're all taking me away from what i need i'm addicted to food this person is addicted to alcohol this person is addicted to gambling khalil a person is addicted to certain websites a person is addicted and has a crush on certain things or certain people whatever it is every person what am i missing i'm missing the ahava the real love that i desperately need the love to truth to love telecus which is my own ms which is my own preliminaries that's what i'm missing so this is the medic idea of sheisha's altered when the child calls out which is a real thing it's an experience of abba and ima a very deep as we said i'm gonna come from beyond us you're talking about something that's deeper than das the first level of beniful this is through das through understanding the flow of energy that's in their world even that has infinite levels but the second idea that this is beyond us and it's there in every jew every jupiter just like the child has it but the dugon is what allows it to come out what allows it to be experienced consciously that's the matz and explain the difference between bread and matzo bread which has sour dough which has yeast blows up that's already the yash but matzah represents the iron the original the core the essence itself before bina which is the kuda of bitter which is beyond language it's beyond definition beyond descriptions once that happens this matzah can re-infuse the six minutes of a person is attraction glorious boundaries to pharisees empathy natsuki's victory is submission or surrender or acknowledgement or gratitude you say this bonding communicativity these middles which have been affected by ashvira by the breaking of the vessels in the beginning of creation as we learned many times they could now be sheishes six days you can eat matzah each day represents one of these midis and you can infuse them with the matzah the introduction to the kunis are known as possibility many people say it friday before so desire says you are beyond youthsvirus he emanated from himself he identified with his within his infinity 10 characteristics in order to be able to create a perception an experience in the world of these ten spheres this awareness which is beyond us in endless different ways not only for six days but the recipients can't take it for more than six days so this chef shafa this flow from the ancief is so to speak divided compartmentalized in six days um because in these six minutes you had the brokenness to transform brokenness into wholeness darkness into light the dial of maven and this is enough for somebody who understands so to summarize very briefly what we're learning here at least one of the points a lot a lot a lot of going on there but at least one of the points if you this was a metaphor that rip hillary bill of piracy gave we learned to mimer you remember two of two summers ago the pillows miami about three weeks he gives their fabulous metaphor he says you know if i go into a museum and i see an extra art museum an art gallery and i see an extraordinary painting an extraordinary piece of art and when i look at it i may not be an art connoisseur i may not know how to paint and under draw i may never have taken classes or lessons about about art but i have some sensitivity so i look at a certain painting and i'm like wow can i explain what's the wow can i explain to you everything that went through the process that went through the mind of this artist and i can't i don't have the information but i see enough to be able to say this is something special this is something unique and i'm there's a there's an or there there's a reverence there you know sometimes you hear something from somebody or somebody communicating you read something from somebody you read a book even if you may not understand everything and you may not understand the wisdom of this person completely but there's enough there to be able to tell me that there's something very special here but the pillow says but can you know who the person is on his own without the art no all i know about the artist is that he or she is capable of producing such a piece of art just like when i read your book i may be very very impressed i may be blown away but do i know anything about you outside of the book no whatever you chose to communicate in the book i know about whatever you chose to convey through the piece of art or through the piece of music or an architecture through the blueprints of the home or a contractor through the actual home or a sculpture or through this actual sculpture sculptured item i know that i know you through your item i know you through your book through your music through your home through your piece of art which is amazing and you may know a lot but do i know anything about you do i know anything about what type of person you are your struggles your vices your virtues your inner experiences your childhood your development what makes you tick who are you in your essence it may be that for thus artist actually painting is one of the most insignificant things in his life he may have so many other talents that are completely beyond what you ever imagined you know you read this book you finish reading a book and you feel like you're the best friend of the writer you know you know that you read this think a thousand page book and you think you're his best friend right but you never met him you don't even know what he looks like unless there's a picture but you don't know what he looks like do you know what type of marriage he has you know what type of person he is you know what other interests he has outside of writing for him the whole writing experience may be a very very little part of his life for you it means everything because that's my only access to you but does it really capture his essence survivor gives this metaphor and he says this is the two levels that is talking about here the first level is i recognize hashem through the painting our world is an amazing painting it's just a piece of of magical engineering every cell every cell is stupendous is a stupendous extraordinary act of of infinite engineering and wisdom you know if we only had access to one leaf if we were born on a planet that had only one leaf one leaf of a tree it would be indisputable proof that there's a creator because the wisdom the engineering that goes into one leaf you could read about this is so intricate it's so powerful it's so incredible that one leaf of one tree would it would logically prove to me that there's a boiler island forget about a whole tree just one leaf of one tree one cell one neuron one atom and we're talking about in every tiniest piece of matter billions and billions and billions and billions and billions of atoms but just one atom just one one genetic code in one cell out of a hundred trillion cells in the body so you could learn a tremendous amount and if you take this seriously you come to realize that the world is divine energy but what about the divine do i know i know about the artists from the painting but what about the artist himself after all the study of science and physics and geology and cosmology and astrophysics and mathematics and philosophy and psychology and biology all of that it's all kayak bonifa that's a good guy shall the kiss loyalizing something else the never shall the kiss is connected to the essence of the kiss senses your god you have an antenna to be able to experience the atmosphere that's me savilicus is beyond his touchless beyond beyond his masters beyond gillier that's what al-tarabha says during the moment of dvacus what would although say that says he would hear his grandfather in a moment of vegas you know what the timothy says he would call apostle where everyone is had nothing against i don't get stuck in illam haba i don't get stuck in anything it will manage to i want you and you is deeper than everything because these are all condensed forms of energy allowing for the perception of the divine based on the limitations and the chemistry of that soul or that angel of that world and in each world you have the way the divine is communicated as the engine and the chemistry and the soul of that world it's a different experience that's the jew that's the jew the jewish antenna experiences and this is the secret of the jew this is the enigma of the jew this is the challenge of the jew this is the void of the jew this is where yiddish guide begins that's why it's the opening of assassin virus the question is can i live with this consciously this is matzah the matzo was the first ability even as a teenager as a child coming out of egypt where it accesses this food accesses abba abba means father means that which is to be able to come into das in a way that the the child could say ab and follow abba and not substitute them with anybody else i don't want anybody else i want you [Music] what makes you my father what makes you my mother i don't know i can't tell you i'm sorry i'm just one years old don't ask me these philosophical questions everything is there it's there in a way that relates to the child's reality at that moment that's what happens with eating matzah every year jew eats matzah it's not just you're eating a piece of bread which is a nice ritual esta la cus in the mats of the ribonus it's like calm down it's not not a joke when the matzah is made with this ingredients hashem says this mata has an energy it's called matsus mitzvah before you eat bread you make a bracha before you eat a vegetable you make a bracha that's a general brachii but there's a broth the matz is a mitzvah it's a divine connection i thought that god told me to eat matzah the matzah itself is something that communicates infuses a jew with something what does it infuse you it gives a heels to this munna that's stored in the essence of the soul so i all my middles my six minutes i can heal from brokenness from that attachment attachment with what attachment with the core attachment with the essence now according to this and this is what i'm going to conclude with if you remember how the mimer began first the terrorist says seven days you should eat matzahs in parachutes ray it's a sixth day so the gemara says it's the whole first sheared at length that when something was in the cloud and it's taken out of the cloud it's here to teach us about the whole cloud so dalton wants to know why the seventh day was the one that was included and then excluded and then it teaches us about and very briefly i'm just going to say this in a few sentences because this is really the whole second part of the mimer the seventh day was kriyasyamsof kriyasyamsof represents like we learned in that everything that's concealed comes out alma descartia becomes almadesgalya it comes from a place that's deeper than yam and yabosha and therefore it could synthesize both so shri shal-pesach represents already a deeper state of consciousness where the jew experiences not only through matzah mata that's for the child the child eats dagon and in the dagon he gains awareness or she gains awareness of but that's called katnos it's the way this ultimate reality is condensed and filtered in baby food sri sarge is already beyond matzah that's why achilles mata is rashoos it's voluntary during the first night of my pesach when we're just instill in mitzrayim i have to eat matzo that's my access to it should we after seven days three shabbas of the screech of everything that was concealed could be revealed so even the deepest levels of atmos can be fully fully experienced without restrictions without filters doesn't have to go through the bread it doesn't have to be melubus but it's katniss it doesn't have to be condensed and filtered and limited and contracted in baby food even though the baby food also gives you the access to above but nonetheless it's like a child seven days later there's a full development of it and therefore matzah then is it's voluntary oh that's only the seventh day but once you hit the seventh day you could redefine all the six days that you can go back and all the middles can be elevated from the first night into the state of the seventh day which is beyond matzah which is rashoos it's beyond matzah the six middays all become a reality a channel for the absolute infinity of atsmo saint-saef and there is complete oneness in the person i just wanted to mention that i know that this is difficult and abstract but i wanted to mention it because just to give you the the continuation of the mimer how it all comes full circle why the terrorist says to eat matzah's for seven days and then he excludes the seventh day and then from that we learn that all the six days are voluntary because we eat matzah for seven days so you would think you have to eat for seven days he says no only six days the seventh day if you want you can eat matzah but essentially the seventh day takes you to a place beyond matzah from there we learn that also the six days the six minutes could be redefined through the mats that's one aspect which is going to continue in the second part and the second part of the mimer let me take some questions question number one you explained that matzah is not inflated there's no bloatedness in matzah does that represent the fact that despite perfection of time place all this is necessary but insufficient and we have to possess the humility of matzah and the sincerity of a simple jew who doesn't have an ego yeah the idea of matzah is humility and he's explaining in this miami what what do we mean by humility humility here is the concept of which is before the idea takes shape and develops an ego in there's no intellectual rabbi monis friedman recently posted a story about a lonely old widower who knew very little about yiddishkait he somehow realized it was sader night he took out three rice cakes and non-kosher wine and an old haggadah from his mother that was a sader rabbi friedman says maybe god had a lot of nachas from this sincerity albeit that halachically it was an improper seder maybe god appreciated this more than the technically correct routine lavish sailors of others perhaps we're talking about the fact here that the supernal rookhnius you get only through the matzah this is why as philosophers say it's necessary but insufficient and the sincerity and emmezdakite is important but you need to eat the matzah yeah listen i'm sure the gemara says every gesture of a person is significant the fact that this person wanted to have a seder that's amazing that's very special the fact that he was eating rice cakes instead of matzah okay he did you know and the fact that he had non-kosher wine i mean it's i think it's important to say the sincerity is very powerful the fact that it was non-kosher wine is unfortunate the fact that he didn't have matzah is unfortunate you know there's also something you have to be careful with i once saw an ad in the new york times many many years ago they were promoting a seder listen to this matzo with pork okay so on one hand you could look at it and say wow these are jews who are eating pork but they want to stay there that's true on the other hand it's painful because you're eating a you're having a seder in other words you want to connect to you this guy do you want to connect to the spirit of peso if you want to connect to your parents you want to connect to your ancestors but for them eating pork was something that they wouldn't even entertain so there's something also sad about that you understand of course you want to bring out the good and accentuate the good then would uh would be able to say a lot of beautiful things and so should we but you also have to recognize like you know just have to recognize the pain in that that's what you have to recognize next question okay i see a very long comment on the yeshiva.net everybody could read it on their own and uh so i'm going to wish you all a beautiful day and a question afraid for you and your loved ones and your families and your communities and all of us and all of the jewish people may it really be a a powerful meaningful real authentic internally internally meaningful biamtif um and as we learned yesterday in the mimer in the women's class that the balsamic taught that the real seder is the one in which a person can really really go out of their comfort zone and not live in a world of expectations but really connect to the reality of the moment the reality of your children and the reality of your home and the reality of yourself so i bless all of you that we should be able to do this send you my love and light a little for you and all of our people and the whole world and as we say in the haggadah mean i'm doing it in that order because of the unique peso because of the unique calendar this year where pesach begins thank you and have a beautiful yamtif thank you today is the birthday of the rebbe iraloff nissan today is direba's birthday laboratory rebbe's birthday begins 120th year capital kofkaf i had this house last night to go to the rebels isle in queens to darwin over there it was quite a big crowd i don't know there were like a thousand or two i mean quite a few looked like a few thousand people was pretty packed i went late but i dive in there so i'll just conclude i'll just conclude with a little vart a little insight that i once heard from the rebbe in honor of his email address in honor of his birthday it's one of the last talks i heard from the rabbi before he suffered a stroke it was partisan and i always think about it on pesach that goddess starts off after avada mahinu amari belaza benazaria hariani kaban shivam shanivallahi 70 years old and i never knew the reason that we mentioned utilization at night but finally benzyma gave it to me minzaimah says departing says you should remember the day you left egypt all the days of your life you could have said you should remember you jesus is the days of your life even the nights all the days of your life could have said the days of your life all means even the night and that's why we mentioned you jesus misread by day and also by night we say krishna in the morning we speak about its misread in the third section and at night again we speak about it both by day and by night why is it so important to mention both by day and by night did that be explained as follows every person's life has moments of day and moments of night this moment that things are bright and beautiful and you have clarity and there's moments of confusion and uncertainty the mitzvah of going out of ethios mitsuram of going out of mitzrayim is both by day and by night there's no such a thing a person says i'm too much in a state of darkness to be able to go out of egypt there is never a darkness that is so powerful to cause you to be a slave even in the thicket in the midst of darkness it's in the midst of darkness you can emancipate yourself you can choose a path of freedom a path of awareness on the other hand in the middle of the day when he bets things are so bright he says never a point that you should stop growing and say oh i'm done i'm a liberated person even the middle of the night and the middle of the day both both extremes some people say it's too dark and some people say everything is perfect and i get stuck in the mitzrayim for perfection whether the sun is shining brightly or the sun has set i always have to be able to open myself up to infinity open myself up to truth but wait you're belizabe you said i'm like 70 years old why like hare any kid so what does the gemara say in bronchus because he was 18 years old he was a kid and they wanted to dethrone ram gamlil the way he treated their yeshua and they went through a point of but he was too young and in the morning he saw some white hair in his beard and his wife encouraged him and that's why he says the day he became a nausea they became the leader of the jewish people it looked like he was 70. he wasn't he was 18. he was a teenager this means that this is the first title that he taught the first teaching of one of the first teachings that he taught was the source of saying it's yes messiah at night why was this the first time why is this the first time and the answer is because this teaches us what a jewish leader is the definition of a jewish leader is to teach jews how to be able to experience itself at night when things are bright and perfect i can experience mitzrayim it's not so difficult i could talk about guru but when there's a state of night a person could surrender to the spear and you could surrender to sadness and you could surrender to expectations and it's not the way it was supposed to be and it's not the way it should be and it's not the way i planned it and i'm confused and i don't know the future that blizzard assay says you know what my job as a nausea is he said nasi from the word is to lift people up here's the definition of what it means to be a leader and every person is a leader you're a leader in your own life you're a leader in your home you're a leader in your family life you're a leader in your community every person is a leader what does it mean to be a leader to be able to help people experience yes matsuram at night to be able to know that wherever you are in the world in any situation there's no such a thing that you're stuck but rather you can touch the vibe of liberty and freedom right here right now in your present circumstances and in your present reality it means something different for every person one person's mitzrayim is still another person's gula in other words if you're in a deeper place right my goola could still be your mitzrayim because you left mitzrayim yesterday and today your gullah becomes your mitzrayim tomorrow we always have to leave with ryan so it means something else for every person but wherever the person is a nasty a mentor a teacher a figure a father a mother a parent a coach an educator a teacher a pentagon is here to be able to help me always know that i never have to be stuck in mitzrayim for the word made sorry maggollum i can always touch the vibe the energy of freedom wishing you all a beautiful pesach and a beautiful yum tiff londo thank you thank you same to you [Music] thank you