Rabbi YY Jacobson: Chachma and Binah: Inspiration and Perspiration

so we'll begin today beijing hashem on my manpages kaira from the balatanya avadha levi who that's uh page 109 the second column or daf nun hey column ii if you go to noon hey column 2 or 109 on top you should say kaira for avadhale vihu [Music] so just a little context in parshas kardak of course you have the story of the mutiny the revolution the map that kaira and 250 leaders made against moishanar following that comes the parachute known as martin is kahuna hashem tells moshe no that he says says he told moshe to tell aaron he tells them the responsibilities of the cayden and the levia in protecting the mishkan and serving in the michigan and taking care of the michigan and all of its details and then he enumerates the madness corner the various gifts that the kyanim received in perikit kass passage of he speaks about the fact after the curtain received trumus and the levine received mysterious what's known as truman my situation and then the passage says an interesting light loss and that's the mind begins the levy should serve and do the work in the oil in the tent in the mishkan and they should not they would not inherit among the other jewish people the land they were given places to live they weren't given real estate that they owned but the language is who now obviously when you read this in los angeles right away your ears perk up because the sentence is very difficult you could say alleviate this the lady should do that void who's the who they say the lady should serve he the void of the almighty the the the structure is very difficult to understand now obviously the traitor it's it's a detroit is safe the lady should serve who he but it's completely superfluous you said this all right so this is it's one of these you see that this is a message here and it's beyond the shot because the word who is completely uh apparently unnecessary superfluous and furthermore it just it would disturb the sentence vavadalevi survived the solomide so the sawyer asks the question [Music] and the sawyer says takadavanezerosa asks if another says who batsman he should do it himself over the levy don't don't censor him you use the levy who it's still difficult because it says that the israel shouldn't do it they shouldn't come close and the lady should do it so obviously levy's not sending shlokhim from israel but that's the point is that the the word who is difficult so desire asks the question what does who mean [Music] who is not repeating the word he should do it the lady is he levy what does this mean so that's going to be the focus says in the passion the whole work of the livium was to access or to draw forth to be mamshak means to draw forth to access from the state of who the levy the whole aveda of the levy is who to bring out the who how did he do it of the almighty the who is not only not an extra word it defines the avoid of the levy what does this mean what does it mean muhammad is who what's who who means he who in in english is h e is he who he she says represent something it means bringing out alma discarsia the concealed world into alma desgali into the revealed world that's who generally we know that in la shinkai dish like in other languages there's different ways of communicating depends if the person is here the person is absent atta when i say you ato right it's a second person you're right in front of me and i can say you if you say who he it means you're not here right i'm not going to it's called los angeles like you speak in third person the person is not present so you say he told me yesterday right or he's in australia or he's in uh london in other words he's not right here it's something that is more concealed that's the word who versus atta so that's the grammar of hebrew how it works when it's heaven of allah if it's masculine and when it's hey you'd allah if it's feminine right israel he named saatberg it's different it's prosciutto spelling that's over totally different you know what i mean what but it's who i don't know at least in the lit of aleph hey versus hey you the aleph because he is feminine it's a woman and who is masculine it's a zucker it's masculine so over the levy who the zoya says is that avoid of the lady was to bring from the concealed from who that which is not present it's kasia it's the concealed world and ahmad is question to the revealed world into ahmadis galion to the revealed world and he says that's bina that's what desire says now what does this mean first of all what does it mean to bring for mohammed this question is god second of all what's the connection to being a third of all what's the connection to the levine and why does the toyota say it here suddenly valve delay view for indian to explain this so for this we have to understand the fundamental difference between what's called in swarm of kabbalah and in cities literally means the mind the maya is the mind right the mind is the house the the brain but the brain of course is the house it houses the mind the consciousness of the mind so mayfin is the word that's used when you want to describe the brain the mind awareness a person's consciousness a person's cognitive abilities it's called michen you say it means somebody who's intellectual somebody who's cerebral the mayak generally mayak is the brain the mind but in kabbalah it says that there's merch in the abba this is the level of the the merchant is the awareness of the father and this michael and is the mind of the imam of the mother in other words it's also called is called bin are both intellectual faculties they're both abilities of the brain right you have the three the first three spheres so these three are all parts of the brain and of the mind but it's different dimensions it's different faculties it's also partially physically different parts of the brain the right hemisphere of the brain the left hemisphere of the brain is considered the right muscle is considered the left it says this and so yeah today we also know it you know with the cat scans and neuroscience so it's you could see it different parts of the brain that are responsible for different experiences in the body and for different functional abilities in the person including in cognition so you have what's the difference has so say three lines but there's a lot a lot here in these lines now these terms some of us are probably familiar from different my modem because these terms are not uncommon but he puts it together what is the balatani saying here he says in the abba the first thing he says is and then he says it's two words if you reconfigure the letters what are we what are we that you're that you're attacking us and he says that's an element of criticism means coldness it's strange what does he mean it's cold it's cold it's not hot and then he connects it to eerie law ireland means there's a higher level of there's a urethra there's a lower level of year it says in zaya it's in the introduction there's different levels of here so the zirita lower level a higher level of view and he says that that's yirabyshas it's a year it's an or that's connected to bishops positions is usually translated as shame what's the connection to shame and then he connects it to apostle which means found literally means we're gonna find me where you're gonna find you're not gonna walk in the street and find wisdom right where you're gonna find a smart man where you gonna find them in the street you could find in the street a diamond you could find in the street a hundred dollars in the positive [Music] the awareness of the mother it's been what's 310 worlds shy olympus 310 the pasek says yes i'm going to bequeath to my beloved ones to my friends yes 310 yes also means something yes i'll fill their treasure treasure chest they're outstressed i'll fill them so he says mahendim [Music] because this is the state in which a ray or a glimmer or a radiance of his greatness comes to a place where it can be comprehended and grasped mamish in a real way havana is understanding and asaga's grasp mamash saba mela that's my that's the description here making the abba versus now let's try to understand this what is the balance saying what's the difference between the two [Music] and then afterwards he's going to explain why the two are so essential and necessary and not only that it says in zoya that they're two inseparable friends which is my tati married mommy and mommy married tati as the kids used to say this video so he associates it immediately with rachman bina what's the difference between bina so when many my modern already beginning in tanya in chapter 3 and chapter 18 in other places and the many my modem of the balatanya based on many explanations in the world of kabbalah the world of siddhis what's the difference between the terms are used a lot you already have in hummus you have the concept of the concept of bin about salo it says there's an indian of khakim there's an indian of bina there's an enormous maven then there's a third indian das but here the focus is so it's called the father and the mother the masculine and the feminine what's the what's the difference the key difference he defines here is ayan and yash and therefore it's connected to you get it you understand it because it's a lawsuit and that's the concept of yash to try to bring this down what does this mean a very common metaphor that's brought for hachman is if somebody is struggling with an idea you don't understand something you read it and you read it again or you read it again it's not that you don't understand the language then it won't help you're reading a hundred times you understand the language you may even understand the words but it's getting started you're learning a piece of gemara it's a hard piece of gemara you read it you read it again you know you're missing something or whatever else whatever you're reading or you have a dilemma in life it could be your reading positive difficult text you have a dilemma in life and you're trying to figure things out it could be a dilemma in business could be a dilemma in a person's life whatever it may be and the person is struggling and they don't see a way out they don't see a way out and you think about it again and maybe you ask me but you just don't have an understanding of this this thing that you're reading this thing you're trying to figure out this thing you're learning and then some of you know the feeling very well maybe some more than others you have what they call an english an epiphany an epiphany is you're walking in the street right and you thought you were daydreaming really you were thinking about your problem you didn't even realize you were thinking about the problem and suddenly boom there's like uh what is it called the light bulb mom what do they call it the a brainstorm a light bulb goes off you know like literally a light bulb goes out alternatively calls it in the borough maverick it's like a pit yeah in the wilderness and pitch dark i don't know if you ever had the experience and so ah a blitz a blitz yeah a blitz and there's a buttock buttock is lightning a maverick and it sheds it casts such a powerful light you know the intensity of the light of the lightning and the electricity it's incredibly powerful half liver fellow what there is in that electricity and one lightening and suddenly there's a light that goes off literally like a light goes off in your brain you're like reading and or reading you're reading the text you're walking maybe you're sitting on the couch on a monday morning or wednesday afternoon and there's a lightning that goes off i was like ah you just feel you got it you got it you got the idea or you're trying to figure something out and suddenly something pops into your brain where did it come from out of nowhere where did it come from can we identify where it came from no it just came in but where did attacker come from ups delivered it amazon amazon made a delivery prime delivery straight to your brain it's a very powerful feeling when it happens what is that what is that that's called generally that's called then there is bina bin is very different wow you fill it somebody says what i said i got it tell me what do you get no i can't talk i can't tell you anything why can't you tell me if you got it i can't say it if you say you're going to ruin it you have to sit with it it's not yet ready it's not yet uh it's a akhla paga you know when you eat the fig that's unripe it's called pagan mishnais it's not ready to be eaten it's not ready to be digested tell me tell me i can't tell you anything you have to sit with it you have to develop it literally you have to develop it you got this seminal idea you got the point you got the core you got the atmos but it has no uh it has no caleb it has no it has to be fleshed out it needs flesh fleshed out ah no structure no bones no sinews no expression it needs to be expanded needs to be developed if not if it stays at that point the lightening doesn't stay forever the lightening comes and goes it's all over similar to the seed of the father the seed of the father the tipper has tremendous kayak we know that it pollinates the egg and through that with its combination with the egg of the mother the half a cell and the half of so you create the first cell which develops being hashem into the embryo that grows into a fetus that will grow into a child that can be born but at that seminal point at that seminal point before the nine months of development right if somebody says oh we have a child here child won't be able to be viable nothing will remain and that sometimes happens you know miscarriage etcetera or there's no there's no the conception doesn't happen or even the conception happens the later stages of development don't happen for whatever reason so you need the mother that's my that's why bina is connected to the mother and is connected to the father because the mother is the one who takes it and she develops it in her womb not in the father's womb but the biological structure of how hashem created the birth of a child represents like everything [Music] everything in a person's life represents it's a mirror of the way things are kevayakal in the spiritual structure of the universe and the divine structure that's the inside of of teresa mister me sorry like always quotes from my flesh i can perceive hashem so from your own mechanisms from your own soul you can exel you could see a lacus you can appreciate the lacus so those are the two stages now very often it doesn't happen with us because if i'm just reading material that's not difficult i don't need if you're just reading cereal boxes or you know the sports section in the newspaper right over hello magazine and somebody once told me that he stopped reading magazines years ago i said why he said because he realized that every week it says the same thing it's just the letters are configured in a different different order but it basically says the same thing it's not challenging him so then you're not going to need an epiphany right okay it's the same you know same old is is a process where there's a difficulty with something and there has to be a breakthrough now the sheila is why does it work this way you see that's how it works is is there a cycle behind this what's the what's the um what's the reasoning what's the what is it called a a rhythm to the what's the meaning behind us the meaning behind this is quite profound so this explains that latanya explains that in every relationship whenever there's a relationship between two things or two people there's always a question the question is who yields to whom when two cars are coming into the same row to have a sign yield or stop either you take the right you have the right away or eye of the right away whenever you have a relationship who dominates the relationship is it one person or is it the other person do they both have to compromise that's a question you have relationships whereas they say one person wears the pants and the other person becomes completely subservient to you i lose my identity in you you have a relationship the opposite you lose your identity in me obviously there's something challenging in those relationships why because it's not an ultimate relationship because one of the people can't be there with their full presence right there's a t-shirt i once told you i'm very easy to get along with once you learn to worship me but if you don't learn to worship me i'm not easy to get along with so whenever there's a relationship there is always this challenge yeah who is the one who defines the relationship is it you who defines it and i'm just subservient to you or is it the other way around and sometimes there's a lot of learning curves creating space compromising opening yourself up to the other meeting each other halfway right take a marriage if there's people don't learn how to compromise they don't learn how to see the other person's perspective it's impossible it's not unless it's going to be very difficult or somebody's just going to lose their identity you have to learn it works both ways i have to learn your perspective i have to listen i have to open myself up to your mindset it's not so easy for people especially if you're a very defensive person not because of yourself because of your wounds you can't really let other people into your life it's very very hard right people who suffer from different conditions based of amazingness it's a big challenge you know what i'm talking about you're looking at me like i'm saying something strange you never heard about these issues huh it's a very common thing it's a very difficult thing sometimes people not even they're they would like to the person maybe bush doesn't know how to it doesn't know how to for him it's a form of suicide to let somebody else in if he gives up space if he gives up any stockhim of his territory it's going to be he's afraid you know hamas is going to take over because that's where he's been living for many years now i'm not going to describe the neuroscience of it the trauma of it et cetera that megadill all these all these titus but it's it's real stuff okay so let's now go back to a more a deeper place is about a relationship there's a relationship between people but everything there's a relationship between me and an idea when an idea comes into my mind it's a relationship it's a relationship between me and the idea it's a marriage in kabbalah it's called zivugim everything is a zevo again kabbalah there's nothing about this not a ziva if you're familiar a little bit more bin it's called zevo means marriage intimacy everything is everything is relationships why is everything relationships because i'll pick ebola everything is a relationship the dna of the world is a relationship the first thing is hashem wanted a relationship it's not good for man to be alone that's the beginning the first thing light taught this he says before creation hashem felt it's not good for me to be alone sloazer i want to create a help connect through that position [Music] so the whole fabric of creation is a relationship it's not like relationships are some mistake in the world you know at some point you got to get married your parents want to get rid of you we already want knackers from your kids so we throw you out of the house get married right it's what often we don't understand right people think that the world of yiddish is the world of relationships and somehow rabbi waiwa uses too much time too many times the word relationships why are you somebody come to the word relationships saga shavats an ish and chain of art right so you want to use a different word you can use a different word you could use the word from kiss foreign [Laughter] i'm not invested in the english word relationships but the point is that relationships is not just a detail in the world it's the essence of it's the essence of creation it's the essence of matantora the matter says when i want to absorb an idea that idea coming into me is a form of a marriage there's a relationship between me and the idea and many great things could come of it like in any relationship or nothing could come of it that depends on the situation whenever there's a relationship the question is who dominates is it me or is it the idea who dominates do i wear the pants the relationship or does the idea wear the pants in the relationship what i'm saying sounds abstract but you'll see how this develops huh or they could become equal and how does that happen is it like 50 50. so you have two stages you have two stages stage number one is hakama stage number one two is bina what's the what's the reason that a certain idea couldn't come into my head i couldn't understand it you understood it right away i couldn't we're learning the same text i read it you read it you read it again you read it again doesn't go in so there could be many different explanations but then it could in all of them is that there's something that's not letting it come in there's a blockage whatever the blockage is if i want to use a very physical metaphor even though it's inappropriate maybe it's not too technical but if i have a cup and the cup is 7 ounces so 7 ounces could fit into the cup if you want to give me 20 ounces you want to give me a gallon you need to give me a different cup so there's a cup and there's a cup right a cup has certain barometers at least those that i'm used to i have certain walls i have seven ounces you give me something that's seven ounces my cup contains it if you give me something that's 20 ounces 30 ounces yeah 50 ounces you start giving me gallons and 100 gallons i'm sorry i'm like you got the wrong guy go find another cup you can almost feel it sometimes it's like your head is resisting like don't go my head is not a kaley for this my cup doesn't go there i need things that i could contain this this idea is too deep for me it's too challenging for me it's beyond the walls of my cup it's beyond the parameters of my brain it's not really beyond the parameters of my brain because how much percent of our brain do we use throughout our life but it's beyond huh five com five huh if you're einstein five percent and if you're not einstein we won't even give the number but it's a very small percent but my perceived parameters of my brain i'm like sorry my cup is too small for this leave me alone what has to happen the first thing that has to happen is what does it mean what are we what is he saying what are we much has explained to the jewish people you don't understand me you think that i'm hungry for power i'm trying to control you i'm trying to manipulate you i'm trying to exploit you trying to use you trying to exercise my power over you so you're attacking me you're criticizing me you're judging me you're getting want to stone me maishrabena says you have to learn who i am what am i what are we and that's the basically what maishrabenu is saying is i'm not looking to be powerful over you i'm your servant i'm a conduit there's no eye present who's trying to control situations i'm a messenger of hashem i don't have an identity that is separate that's trying to overpower you what's the word it's the kayak to say what it's the power to say what ma curiosity inquisitiveness it's also the kayak of ma it's the kayak that it doesn't have an identity doesn't have an ego the definition of the kayak is ma what is it if you ask me who are you i don't have a name why because definition of openness to something that's beyond me to something that's transcendent to something that's higher than my perceived brain what happens you look whenever you have an epiphany whenever something pops into your brain whenever you have that blitz that lightening moment the light bulb well what happened a few seconds before most people don't realize this but next time you have an epiphany ask yourself what happened a few seconds before a few minutes before a few hours before and you'll see i'll tell you what happened what happened was you read it once you read it twice you read it three times you couldn't understand it you tried again and again and again maybe for days maybe for weeks it wasn't going you know what happened you got frustrated with yourself frustrated in a good way it's the recognition that i really don't get it i really don't get it in other words as long as i'm i i am i i don't get it that's humility that's the beginning of kayak it's the beginning of what happened right before the epiphany was you were walking in the street and you were completely focused on that idea you were so focused on that you didn't realize how focused you were on it you know when you're thinking about something and you don't realize you're thinking about it right and then when the shear is over he's like oh wow for five minutes i was thinking about this i didn't even realize you were so immersed in you know those daydreams right the good daydreams you were so immersed in it you were so immersed in it that you didn't realize you were immersed in it you were so immersed in the idea that your consciousness was completely there you weren't conscious about the fact that you're being conscious you were completely focused what happens at that moment your eye surrenders or is trying to surrender to the truth and because your eye was mavatal itself how was it with itself not through hammers and not through stones and not through axes and not through uh swords it was without itself from from an internal space where you just become frustrated annoyed with your intellectual ego and you realize there's something much deeper and you were completely immersed on the idea so what happened was you literally like by irikai the walls of my cup came down and it created space for ayan it created space what's ayan what's ayan we always say it's not nothingness it's no thing-ness it's an idea that comes from a place that's beyond a thing it's beyond that which i could have grasped a moment ago for me it was iron why was it iron because i had no fish in it my cup couldn't grab it it didn't fit into my vessels it transcended my vessels it was something deeper but when i put down my ego when i laid down the walls i created space right i expanded the cup so the iron says oh now i could come in now i could come in you know the kotzker famously asked his talmidam who is god where is hashem they said everywhere he said name allah will you let him in the qatar didn't know that he didn't say it in chakras in poland they didn't have uncle meishi's song hashem is there hashem is truly everywhere who is god and i a question of who is god for nate says there's no space devoid of him yeah god is everywhere but the question is too where are you he's here but where are you he says i have to i have to let you in letting you in is a very very heavy step he calls it a tactless habitual tackle there's a mission in pakistan closer than the peridot elisha benava the only time alicia benavoya is quoted and mishnai is the only time elisha navi if i'm not mistaken is quoted by his name khazal didn't even like to refer to him by his name they called him because he was from the old from hundreds of tanoyman is the only one who was otd he went over there but there was a big sensation because alicia benavoya wasn't the bizarre ayosh of chronos and he was the web of rabbi akiva he was he told me one of the hadar so the fact that he left yiddish kite obviously you understand it made the whatsapps were busy for a few months the whatsapps if you remember you remember the whatsapps everybody was busy with alicia they stopped calling about the fact that they changed his name you could see it was a trauma would they change his name for they called him they didn't even want to say his name ramayana continued to learn by him so he's not quoted but in pre-k of his pedigree decided to quote him benavoi and what did he quote him it's a very interesting thing what did he quote him to a child it's like ink transcribed on fresh paper fresh papirus fresh parchment it's fresh it's new and the ink gets absorbed beautifully into the into the paper you teach toilet to osaka into an old person it's like writing on your machoque if you have a piece of paper you wrote and then you erase and you write again and you race so the ink is not easily absorbed that's what a leadership says the obvious question is my commercial what's the hidden of the mishna everybody knows you need alicia benavide to tell you that when children learn something it goes in much deeper and it stays there you know children are like wet sponges they absorb everything if you want to teach a language to an adult good luck right children their brains are so are so pliable and so impressionable right you remember your children remember everything they remember what you said they remember what you did my kid sometimes reminds me what i said to him 10 years ago i don't remember what i said yesterday what's the hidden of the mishna that children absorb much better i mean it's a it's a well-known fact to say it but there's also another question prickly of this is not stump statements about life pricky obviously the gummy says it helps people develop medicine if he's trying to teach you that you should teach toyota to your child you shouldn't wait till he becomes an adult if he's just saying that it's a good thing to teach a child he wants to encourage you even more and explain it to you fine so he could say don't lose the childhood the years to learn and don't lose the childhood is you teach your child but the second half is a little disturbing because let's say there's a jew who didn't learn tight as a child take it was a litigious student and friend he didn't learn to until he was 40. he comes to such a mishna what are you telling him whatever yeah whatever you learn it's going to be even if you want to bring out the point say it in the positive encourage people to teach toyota to little children when they're young because it's going to be absorbed like never before you really have to say the negative what's going to be the message an older person who never learned what is he taking out of this mishna if a fallen a lost case it's it's old nayamak nothing is going to go in let's say you have yiddin balichuva yeah they didn't learn toyota until they were 30 40 50 60. i know what you do became about true at 79. 79 started to become baltruva i know a person in their 80s they're thinking about becoming bolshevik huh right now imagine starting to learn gemara you might just start even reading hebrew so you open up a mishra prakayo is one of the first things you learned right djokes gets erased what's the havana it was once a fabregan shabbos afternoon in the summer days prikayovas would teach a mission and he would explain it so he asked these questions and he said that shouting the mission is much deeper the mission is not only talking about biology the mission is only talking about a child and an old person in years he says years don't always go by the passport years go by the attitude the mission is talking about a way of learning alicia benavoya is teaching how to learn you could be an old person but you learn as a child and you can be a young person but you learn as an old person what's up he says i could be [Music] a young person but i'm learning like a zakin what's what i'm learning like he says it's an approach i'm not really ready for anything new i'm not i'm not i already have my way my mahalak my structure i'm ready to listen but it has to fit in to the filing cabinets i have a filing cabinet i'll take out a file i'll put you into the file for cart and then it's a nice vart so ups another vert i could say it over sharpens by the table say it over shallow should i say it over by military say it over to mccarus you understand you know you guys know that huh and if attacker doesn't fit in if it doesn't fit in what do i do either i fall asleep or i dismiss it i dismiss it or i make it fit in i make it fit in i don't i only hear that which i'm capable of hearing so alicia benavilla says that's not how you're supposed to learn you have to always be a yelled a child how does a child learn you see it in children's faces that's why it's so painful to see when we use children and we give them information that is sometimes destructive because they're so innocent you know when you speak to young goliath the moment you are it's a tremendous hazard it could be a tremendous on the contrary however that child he says is completely open there's no cynicism child didn't shut down yet the child takes it in child is ready to hear new things and that's why children have such good memories why do your children remember almost everything and adults don't and the answer is you'll forgive me i hope present company excluded most adults when they listen they're not listening they're developing opinions you can ask when you listen to something are you really listening or you're actually thinking that was good that was good i like it i don't agree he said that already oh that i know this i'm gonna use right you know what i mean anybody knows what i'm talking about adults fit with opinions even if your opinion is good even if your opinion is wow it's amazing you're not listening you're complimenting [Laughter] there's a time to cop the time to listen wow i'm going to say it over i'm not listening i'm having an opinion children listen so elizabeth is saying you have to learn like a child it's not about years how should you learn it can really go in how can it really go in only through bitter and i should tell you it's not easy because these are subconscious things it's not like i tell myself i'm not really going to listen to a new thing no of course i would listen to new things subconsciously i'm not ready to step away i'm not ready to step away i have a mahalak and sometimes the more developed you are the more dangerous you are because if you were ashaykitz right you understand what i'm saying ah there's an expression in gemara and this is and i was a little sensitive caleb martin littara srikimtvila the kaidish you know what that means some of you looked mr khagigigan not long ago caleb and the gemarium littara srikham thriller kaidos it means it's follows kali until it's complete until it's usable can't get tame when you're building a vessel a caglio it doesn't get tommy until it's enigma until it's finished so let's say somebody's tummy is fashioning the kelly i don't care because as long as it's not complete it can't get tommy but caleb when the kaylee is you're doing the final touches and you make sure that only a pure person did it so the caylee was completed you could use it for anything if you want to use it for kirbanis let's say you want to put a carbon katas in it right a holy food you have to put it in the mikvah again it's a special humra that khazal made for carbonus and i'm complete and i'm complete in my purity the same letters like habitual because going to the mikvet phil is bitter habitual hey beiji tesla what does it mean to go under the water under the water you can't live so why do we go under the water because under the water means you're going to a place where essentially it's a form where if i would stay there you can't live and then you become pure because the only way you could become pure is if you completely step out of the identity the way you know it you go into the mikka which is a place that you can't live so it's really a form of transformation of metamorphosis it's to be able to experience kadusa if i'm not a kaili hanigma batara right so then i'm actually more open i'm like a child that's why and i say this with a lot of sensitivity and respect sometimes it's much easier to speak to secular jews than it is to religious jews you understand why because the secular jew has an advantage he often doesn't think that he knows anything about judaism he never grew up with it but the from jew and chris alts what in the world are you going to tell me i know everything i you and me know he knows nothing he knows nothing he knows a lot of information but he knows nothing because the entire brain was molded by a certain conception of judaism that is extremely extremely extremely extremely narrow extremely limited and sometimes even ridiculous and sometimes even abusive but even if not abusive it's sometimes very very narrow and limited right but how do you tell that to somebody so you understand the level of bitter you need so caleb they need much more bitter because i know it already i should become a yelled i'm not a child i'm a zakim so alisha benavuya says no i don't care if you're 90 years old be a child i love my toilet remain a child open completely open that takes a lot of inner confidence a lot of security because sometimes there's a lot of voices in me that say things are settled don't shake them up right you're tough is what i'm saying everybody ah you have no opinion you have no opinion why did and and the represent said that's why he quotes elizabeth because the gemara says about alishan that uh at his bris his f his buddhist the tanoyam were all sitting and the father saw they were learning they were waiting for the bridge so they were learning and the father saw he had the hatanayama there and the father saw the fire coming out of their mouths and he says i the words were full of simcha like when it was given from sinai he felt the crush of our sinai so the father said if this is the kayak of toyota i want to dedicate my child to torah and he dedicated alicia benavoya to torah that's what the urushami says so alicia benavuya even though later he left but as a child he was absorbed with torah so in many ways this mission in prikeyavas brings out something very special that haloima thoroughly yelled at the mahou diamond goes in deep and deep and alicia even though later he left it but as a child he was completely absorbed with it and that means that it became part of his essence part of his core so many ways it's like a certain apidian hanashama redemption of the soul because the gemara is a whole story in new york probably how they you know his talmudim wanted to get him out of gehenna so the mission here is bringing out something very special in the name of alicia benavoya which also applies to alicia benavoya so all of this all of this okay we'll finish in three minutes it's very late but what does this all bring out this is the first step the first step in the marriage is the first step in a relationship is i have to be completely open to the other [Music] really open and that takes kayechma and that's where always there's an epiphany there will never be a barakah maverick if i'm in a state of yesh if you're trying to control it it's never going to happen you say i'm going to understand the idea you better go into me it will run away the epiphany always happens in a moment when you're not in control [Music] why why why couldn't you i better get it i'd better get it because if i better get it you're not gonna get it it always has to happen from the person opening themselves up to something deeper then there's stage two what's the problem with the problem with khakim is it's amazing but i'm not there the eye clarity but it forest but it was a real forest it was like wilderness so when it became dark it became dark it's not like in the city where it becomes dark but it's never really dark you know there's always a light here and a light there there you really saw what pitch dark is i mean pressure couldn't see anything and i'm laughing it was pretty dangerous and then i remember there was a lightning but the house was pitch dark and then there was a lightning so we managed to see where there was a candle and a match the lightning was gone it was pitch dark but we now knew to walk to that place and light a candle when we lit a candle it was light so there was nothing got me is i got it bin there you resurface back into your reality and with your identity you take apart that light and you flesh it out and you assimilate it into the structures of your mind that's called bina after been i got it but you'll notice something in bina you will never have the clarity that you had in karma and people always crave to go back that moment i got it why because the clarity of chakra came because i wasn't present and in bina i'm present so it never has that same clarity also you'll see never comes in many words it's always a few words been it comes in a lot of words because it doesn't come with many isis it's usually six words five words four words seven words the epiphany doesn't come with big words because it's it's pre-ocean it's beyond verbal there's different levels of etsam is pre-verbal it's like almost like a picture [Music] bina is all about words because bin is names and structures and stories and definitions and descriptions so bin is issues so that's the first thing he explains in the abba is bitter is yes the state in which i transcend my eyes i'm open to a completely new concept that's transcendent is the opposite is [Music] it fits into my structure because if it stays in the world of it's amazing but i wasn't there i lost myself in khachama now you need to lose yourself in order to find yourself because if you don't lose yourself what are you going to find right immediately so you have to lose yourself to find yourself because if you don't lose yourself if you lose yourself there's something to find i'm such a client so in that stage of the relationship i'm completely open it's very very deep bitter and then bin is bring it back into your kalem into your vessels it says in zohar is in many ways bin is more than because you could talk about it you can give it russia you can write it down you could buy the paper you could write a safer me can't write anything but bina li is darkness because the will never be replicated in bina and the reason i'll never be replicated in business because bina imposes structure on something that's really beyond structure you're feeling what i'm saying you have experienced this if if you deal with ideas you know the difference of you have that light it it doesn't repeat itself it's like a lightening it goes away it's too elusive because you can't grab it because if you grab it it's not it say and i iron by definition doesn't let you grab it because if you grab it it's not iron it's a thing i can grab a tissue box right but how do you grab light grab light now if light was only a particle maybe you can grab it if light is a wave how do you grab it so whenever something is yash you can grab it when something is iron if you try to grab it you'll grab everything you won't grab the iron so whenever we try to grab god or grab yiddish guy to grab truth what happens you don't get it right the definition of that i don't get it i don't get it you're right it gets me that's the nakuda of iron that's kayak says that's who i am that's who i moshe's identity was he says it a few times in hamish that is his identity martial that is his kayak it's the kayak i don't have a name is a child in the most beautiful sense of the word and therefore absorbs new things that be on its own won't absorb it now really work together they're best friends they could also not work together they can get divorced but ultimately have to get married because they're an amazing marriage but an amazing marriage is only when bina really respects and really respects bina and makes it concrete you know how husbands come home and they tell their wives i have an idea i have a dream and she's like relax let's analyze this you know when husbands say i have an unbelievable kalamaya trip for the family really and who's making the food and how we're getting there and what happens when the kids have to go to the bathroom right and what happens you forgot there's a dentist appointment a doctor's appointment right oh i didn't realize [Laughter] so many need a very good marriage as we will see have a wonderful day based hashem will continue tomorrow 7 45 a.m huh i'll tell a lot of stuff it's even says over there in gemara one of the opinions is that because his father dedicated him to tyra only because he saw the fire with shalila shema so therefore it affected his learning that's one thing in the story we saw a kid die by sheila khan and you know this story a father sent his son to do the midst of shiloh khan and a snake bit him he did the mitzvahs only two mitzvahs the toyota promises so he saw a lot he saw different things in his life you know he saw the hurban of bayershini there were different things that happened it caused them to uh to leave the gemara says he was one of the four who went into the orchard no you know he's a big minder the mayor continued to learn by him but he himself was kittens beneteaus yeah kevalde waves particles yeah they're not they thought it was a particle and they realized it's a wave they thought it's a wave and then they realize it's both and the paradox coexist that's true let's assume that even matter is what if you see or is it so nice that's true that's true even matter even matter we know is not structure matter is also light and einstein showed that energy and matter right that's true but as we're going to see bin is the way that the earth gets gras what makes matter matter our perception of it our perception of it makes it matter right max planck said that we used to think consciousness is a derivative of matter today we know matter is a derivative of consciousness what makes matter matter is consciousness my perception of it the tools i use and that's exactly what bin is the tools i use to define it in a certain way that work for my system that's what makes matter matter and that's why it's called yes but it's really all art of course of course it sounds like a little illusion of course i wouldn't call it an illusion because it's part of the reality that god created the tools are part of the reality so it's not an illusion of the sense that we're that it's a diminion that it's you know just not based in reality but it's it's it's based on the certain tools which are based on perception which are part of reality it's also part of reality and if there is no observer the fact that even in light the fact that even in light right when we observe it right we can observe the paradox when we observe light it collapses into one model one modality means one or another because the observer imposes his or her limits on the reality and that becomes the reality for them it's not it's not a joke it's not like a cynical uh you know magical trick i really impose my reality when there's no observer the reality can remain in its paradoxical uh dualities scientifically measure something in the lab the measurements of the probes yes interferes with the measurements yes that's unbelievable in a lab we know when we measure things the measurements the the measuring interferes with what you're measuring so the moment you're measuring it you're you're not measuring it that that's the nucleus in the moment you're measuring it it's beautiful but you're not measuring it anymore to not measure it you actually have to close your eyes not measure it because because it's not measurable measuring is already an imposition but by the way this is a physical this is why all of science today is all based on humility it's based on transcendence and humility if not you're uh you're completely distorting reality you have to be a child you have to completely be a child if you're a physicist today you know that in order for something to exist it needs to be an observer to observe it so this world right not exist without observing if there is no one that's incredible if there's nobody to observe it you're saying it doesn't exist the matter doesn't exist do you exist so so so we have a fascinating idea it's almost like hashem wanted to create a world in order to do that he had to create an observer we become observers and that's what makes the world the world and that's why you actually and if we and if we transcend if we transcend ourselves as being observers we go what's called the observatory you know when they have these places we observe if we transcend that position and we we become aligned with the source so the whole world becomes part of infinity is a wave not a particle by the way by the way the wave matter and energy it's all the same comes from and einstein wave matter and energy einstein made the yeah yeah equation between energy and matter right and the planck made the equation wave energy manner [Music] 18 23 numbers 18 23. the word who is difficult so desire says avoid of the levy is to bring out the who as he'll explain later in the mind sure thank you pleasure to have you it's worth the drive he comes from t-neck in the morning this is