Breaking the Husks - Torah Or Vaeira "Vayomer" #2 - By Rabbi YY Jacobson

the yeshiva dotnet toydaria Pasha's for area dolphin on Zion the first column page 113 we're holding towards the end we're reaching the end of the first paragraph before the paragraph that starts Rohini so we are introduced here to an explanation in the term that is used so frequently in the literature of Tyrus an ester of cifra Kabbalah and cifra Exodus and sifri Mooser also known as clippers or clipper in the singular Clippers in the plural clipper means and Yiddish ocelots v zakone by a clipper at Abbas video Charlotte was his upman in bells okay that's what I was wondering if they say that they got by the galaxy Anna the fact that they say in BIOS are so much Shoeless yeah yeah she'll probably show Marcus is connected to the etymology no shell which is of course a husk or appeal and the Clipper is as he puts it its life Efes Oh Mark FST's Allah Kriya aprea Connors besides it hovers over it eclipses it surrounds it encircles and it also masterís it eclipses it conceals as he gives an example of a walnut which as I said as a very explicit example obviously he could have used other fruits as examples because there's a complete concealment there and you have to mama SHhhh crack and break and I'm like a banana which peeling the shell is also necessary but it's an easier process reason he gives a much love a nexus because you need to break the clipper you need a nutcracker you literally need a crack it in other words it's not easily accessible sometimes the peel the husk is so dense it's so opaque it's so thick that it's not easy to get through it and it takes a lot of work in order to break it this is what we call schmira cyclists the breaking of the color pool you can make it the case that in our world so once it is banana once indeed exactly and that's the point that in the evolution of all of the worlds the clip is changes from thin layers to thicker layers to a point of a grape a grape osa has no size a layer but it's a membrane right but you completely could see the fruit and I know that you eat it with the fruit I mean you could peel it but it's edible with the fruit that's how close the proximity is between the clipper and Dupree and then sometimes you can't eat the Clipper sometimes eating the clip is even healthy that's what they told us about orange peels they still say it though they discover that it's a tournament ran it ok the clip that comes before the pre because the clip is Kodama slippery yeah the Clippers could then miss look free and sometimes that's the that's the system that's the order now of course of course a lot of the knots you have a clip attached clip oh yeah of course and hook the Shabbos in submission and simin and submission cough and simin and the boy as I mentioned you test we learnt you have sometimes a few a few Clippers so that's how it is physically what does it represent on a spiritual level why are there realities that we call clip and Clippers so here we have the very critical and extremely essential definition to understand not only the concept of this minor but many concepts that are relatable and that is that there's basically two types of realities there are realities that are real but what makes them real is that there is a concealment if there was no concealment they would lose their realness in other words they would lose their legitimacy they would forfeit their very identity because reality is concealed because there is a shell and a husk I don't mean a physical one could be a physical one too but a metaphysical one a conceptual one that gives legitimacy to the reality now of course this can operate in so many on so many different levels and gradations how much Distortion sometimes for the reality to exist it has to be layers and layers and layers of distortion I think Churchill said it in a time of war truth is so precious it has to be protected by bodyguards of lies he also said about the Soviet Union I have to remember the quality was a brilliant crowd the Soviet Union is an enigma wrapped in a riddle remember the court the Soviet Union is excellent quote it's an enigma wrapped by a rid of something else in other words and if you know if you know something about the Soviet Union he was basically saying there's no way to figure out there's no way to figure out run there's not a word that comes out of Russia's mouth especially in the good days of communism that that was true the words the state say the court say the whole quotes a riddle wrapped by a mystery inside an enigma that the Soviet Union right so nothing that came out of its mouth was true the distortions of distortions upon distortions and that is what gave them legitimacy as as a as a drew once told me he says in Russia if you went to visit Russia or Iraq effort on me in Russia she went to visit the sixties in the 17th they had nothing they were broke because you know the system of socialism didn't do didn't create the paradise that Lenin promised us he said but one thing everybody had everybody had a television every house had a television why cuz that government sponsored it because the television was the people for propaganda how could you not give them a teller at the television was the main thing this was the channel for propaganda essentially when you need propaganda that is what protects you that is what preserves you so we have air a very important idea any reality that is based on concealment in order to gain legitimacy that reality in you this guide is called a clipper reality why do you call it a shell not because it has a shell because it is a shell it is a shell that is the definition of its Mattias its Mattias exists it's reality has power because it's a shell it blacks how much does it black is a question sometimes it blocks an enormous amount sometimes these are more subtle Distortion sometimes it's a horrific distortion sometimes it's a distortion that lasts for 500 years some of the distortion that lasts for a day some of the certain that last 70 years doosh on the other hand is not called clipper why because by definition even if all layers are removed even if all all shells and husks and coverings are eliminated its legitimacy will not be challenged or questioned because it's real what do we mean it's real it's real miss is not derived from the fact that truth is being covered up its realness is derived from the fact that in Israel why is that the case the answer is because hashem elokenu mas as the PASOK says in here Mia Hashem Allah commands there's one truth in the world that truth is the truth of eighths of the truth of infinity something that's part of that truth expressive of that truth indicate above that truth reflective of that truth really exists it doesn't have to cover up anything however that denies that truth if truth was revealed its nothingness would emerge if it's nothing this would emerge it wouldn't be able to exist certainly wouldn't be able to pose a challenge that's why by definition this God of truth created amid see is called clipper it was intentional on Macias that it's reality is based on fact that truth is covered up now you have met often clipper that increases and increases layers upon layers upon layers to a point that truth is not recognizable that's the question of how deep the distortion how powerful the distortion in quantity and quality but the principle remains the same yeah well this is where the voice of a person comes in this is what Toyota comes in the real function of Ted is to be able to articulate what is a cover up and what is not a cover up but this is this is a lot of work of a person to be able to break the shell and get to the depth with inside the Clipper and remember in the case of the physical marshal it's not so doesn't work so well because the fruit is right inside there in the case of the spiritual yeah we have to understand it that the Clipper also has fruits inside of it it has divine energy in it because the very Clipper comes to divine energy because without divine energy nothing can exist so how does this process happen this is called the process of severus a calum of element are you in other words it couldn't happen gradually it had to happen through a breakdown in other words there had to be trauma this process can't Klipper can't develop gradually fiducia can develop gradually in a process of evolution we call it estas Luis because it's from one state to another state to another state kaliba the transition is not a gradual one the transition is a traumatic one and that trauma is known as severe as a Calum of Alamut are you spiritually speaking I mean I don't mean trauma we way we call our trauma in our lexicon although it's connected it's it's one is rooted in the other the original trauma of all traumas is after the Simpson that's the first trauma but after that it's fiercer Calum of oil mater you what's really suck a lemn of oil and I'll tell you it's basically that all the divine sparks get terribly distorted they're not cohesive anymore they're not integrated they are shattered and when something is shattered so now you cannot piece it together easily anymore so you have energy but the energy is used in a way that is contrary to its very mission to its very essence to it's very core and what happens is the very energy of the ain't safe suddenly gives rise for example to apparel whose Lia or even the assassin a so now the question a person has to ask himself is in life how much of your life is based on a clipper and how much of your life is based on m/s for example how many conversations during the day do you have that are alive because of cover-ups how many interactions are based on clipper how many interactions are based on tradition how many things during the day do I say that the appeal of these things is only because I'm covering up something or I'm speaking in a way of cover up deceptively now a person examines their life and their schedule this is a very very conducive process for real spiritual growth to be able to weed out from the day those things those relationships those encounters those conversations those gestures those words those actions that by definition they're called clipper why because the only way they can exist is if there's a cover-up of truth because by definition such a life is a life of a lie that's it's very definition so now take a business or a yeshiva or any institution right will they allow the government or will they allow an outside inspector to come and check the books will they allow it or not the answer is very simple if it's legit good the answer is very simple that's our that's our excuse that's our excuse as I stay clipper when we don't realize we're using the word clipper I'm the one who may actually help us extricate ourselves from it now I'm not now getting into legal details of people and institutions it's not my field and it's not my place to judge anybody or anything although the news coverage gotcha Tehillim came especially now when it comes to money and when it comes to paying payrolls and bills and all that I'm just bringing out a point if my books are legitimate you could come and look at them and you could come and look at them and you could dig and dig and dig and dig it's fine you know as they say I think Lincoln said it if you're gonna lie make sure you have a good memory right because if you ask me my right that we were you last night if I say the truth there will not be any contradiction because the truth there's no contradiction but if I make up a law and then the next day I have to remember the hold why so I could continue it and sometimes people for 10 20 years they haven't made it because the current because they keep on maintaining the line you always have to make sure not to be caught if you don't have a good memory make sure you just say the truth and it's okay that's also helpful that's also very helpful so then it also works another interesting thing is lies there are many diversion of a story that is not true there's many truth is always one in other words if I tell you where I was last night and it's not the truth I can get come up with 1.2 billion stories if I tell you the truth it's always one story it's always one story so the question here is if my books are legit you can examine them I don't care why because put them under the light nothing will happen but what if I'm not legit then the moment you scrutinize it the whole thing falls apart that's what we said about Vashti the challenge with Vashti is that she can only live and close there's that famous story right the emperor has no clothes the emperor has no clothes but sometimes you have the opposite the clothes have no emperor that's what clip is it's clothes without an emperor and that's a much worse tragedy than an emperor without clothes an emperor without clothes is not the plumb attic okay Mitchell as I mention lately he forgot about the me didn't get the memo that after dates a - you have to get dressed but clothes without an emperor means there's nothing there but clothes so the clothes are glaring now very often you have such people they're all about clothes but there's no Emperor we all know it you talk to somebody there's nobody there is just a mask an empty suit literally sometimes you talk to a person is nobody there nothing there everything is pre Hurst everything is calm everything is fake how much how deep sometimes they don't even know about it they so much live entrenched in that reality and it becomes a tragedy the biggest tragedy is when people of depth meet these types of people and then they blame themselves for being antisocial they're not antisocial they're just looking to speak to somebody not to speak to a mass and you have to be sensitive to these things and not blame yourself sometimes people just live in that reality they don't know of any other reality that is the reality it's always only masks there's no honest conversations right sometimes you can go to a similar golden event you're sitting with somebody you for an hour you will not enough think honest will come out of anybody's mouth it will just be one mass with another mass within us so some people are professional at it they're just excellent have a comments for everybody that your tire your glasses the shape of your nose the shape of your eyes you new shoes I didn't see you in nine and a half years you changed your name with what are you doing with you going for the summer what did you sell what did you buy some people don't know how to do it and they're miserable at these events they're miserable they run away after three seconds huh politicians are yeah some of them are are very skilled at it some of them are not but the Nakota here is it's all the same concept so a person ought to ask themselves in their life how much of my conversations my relationships my friendships are this and how much are this in kedusha you could put it under the light that will not fade into oblivion why Esther also means concealment but it's a different type of concealment sometimes you have to conceal things deliberately on the contrary because you want to reveal that's the difference in kedusha all Hester is for the sake of giving in clipper Hester's for the sake of Hester meaning our Rav wants to teach his students if he shares everything he knows he will not be doing this job because he wants to share with them therefore he has to conceal a lot of the message if you're a therapist and you see a lot about the patient you can't share everything because they'll have a break then he won't come back you have to sometimes feed it in a deliberate you're also concealing but there the concealing is because you want to communicate the full truth but the process of communication is you have to give a child baby food you can't give them more than baby food if not you lose them completely esther also means consumed was a different type of concealment intimacy has to be concealed because if it's exposed you lose its power yes yes yes don't confuse it with clipper clipper the Hestia Snee associate sneezes in order to reveal yourself we live in a world that if you reveal everything you conceal and if you conceal you reveal because if you conceal certain parts of a body you actually if you reveal sentimental money you actually conceal that there's a depth behind that body the whole person is only a piece of meat in their own perception and that's how they're selling themselves so concealment in kaduche is part of Revelation in fact it reveals that's a function to reveal the totality of the personality not just one aspect of a person's flesh in terms of dress and the same is true in all types of concealment Vashti on the contrary by her the concealment is for the sake of concealment because of this revelation or you give all they don't exist anymore that's why all clip is gonna hold on to concealment and fight for it till the last breath that's all subside and it's often brought in to cinders that your are your are evil a moment sees doesn't have a reality so people often read it and Safari marketers when they make a mistake they think it means it doesn't exist but what that does is it makes people doubt reality and also make suffering look insignificant sadly sadly sadly evil has a lot of reality and it has a lot of power it has destroyed millions and millions and millions of innocent lives take communism all of communism was based on a lie there was not a word of truth that came out of the communist regime not of Lenin's mouth not of trotsky's mouth not of Stalin's mouth not of crucial mouths you couldn't trust him with anything nothing I'm not gonna talk about Putin at the moment that's a that's a separate partial nothing but look what what look how many people were killed 50 million people the same is true with this the Nazi regime all based on Shakur but it has tremendous tremendous power when it says in cabal and I said this that Rob doesn't have him at sea is it means it doesn't have them at sea us of MS because it doesn't have them at sea us of em as therefore it's destined to be obliterated one day because since ultimately truth emerges when truth emerges it will fade it to oblivion but of course there's a time in history when the world lives off distortions and then they can thrive and use that power to destroy horribly and horrific Allah but Jews never gave up why they never give up because they knew that yah has power but it doesn't have ultimate endurance because it doesn't have real soft substance it has powerful substance it has to the point that it can destroy it as monoliths land millions of lives I only see but real substance eternal substance that it never has and that is what kept us going they knew that soft cold soft ultimately truth emerges I want truth emerges some things will not just not because continue to exist that's what happens sometimes it takes too many years but that's it basically what happens the light shines at some point and suddenly the law just fades away not because you have to fight it because you see there was nothing ever there was only there in perception and that perception itself is a product of clipper the fact that you could perceive a lion call it truth that itself as a product of clip and the way our Shem allows for this process is the breaking of the calum of tell you in other words that itself is part of the divine energy that is profoundly distorted in the breaking of the vessels to the point that then it's us is completely concealed what does I mean concealed it's really divine but it's being expressed in a way that's completely contrary to its own raison D etre to its own very soul to its own very essence in other words it becomes a clipper and sometimes what that means is you have them you can elevate that energy sometimes you have to break that depends on the situation but very often you can elevate that energy because the energy itself is always divine energy how it gets distorted through this process of Sharia column of Toyo that's what it means and it's which has become dark and they become eclipsed but what does this clip of this clipper is that it cannot see reality anymore any longer now you'll ask a question what is the greatest clip in the world what is the greatest lie in the world what is the greatest record in the world the ultimate greatest lie in the world is that there's something including me at any moment at any space and any experience at any given moment in life that is detached from God's infinity in other words when you look at yourself start with yourself as I said first share in the mind and you see yourself as divorced from Hashem you feel Hashem is not with you and in you at this very moment in this very space as Yakub Levine who says often Yasha shamba maka Meserve our nightly lawyer Dottie if I cannot say often Yesha shed by maka Mazama commas I mean physically and also conceptually in my soul in my mind in my heart that is the beginning of all clipper the distortion that there's something outside of a knife or as he puts it here a narrow your penis a bit full shell color illumise leg a beam and say for harm I have a messiah sometimes I fail to see the oneness and unification of all of the worlds with the infinite presence of Hashem which gives them life at every moment and who are we all these worlds are always begin with my world so when I look into my heart and what do I feel I feel alienation I feel loneliness I feel that I'm messed up ain't safe is messed up ain't safe can't be messed up that means I am living in a shell I can't ignore it I am living in a shell we live in shells but I have to know that's the first shell that's the first husk why it's distorting the truth but sometimes I could live my whole life with a distortion my mind could be operating based on a distortion in fact all of healing is basically getting rid of the layers of distortion closer and closer and closer to the truth and when you discover that truth then you don't need healing you are always there the key you don't nobody needs healing everyone is wholesome well-being is not a privilege of people who went for psychoanalysis for 25 years it's not a privilege well-being is your state of reality however sometimes I have obsessive or non obsessive distortions that don't stop playing in our brains and when I could go a little beyond that then I could just let go you just let go you don't have to do anything just let go just be tell us tell us I think that most physical health is some body system getting distorted and losing its original my talents and vitality and oneness and some things everything out of sync right we're out of sync now sometimes what happens in life is you get a peek into a world outside of distortions you get a little view sometimes for a minute sometimes for a day sometimes for a few days you get to see something but then you almost got you thrown back into another world it's called cough akela and Gomorrah it's called cough Aquila and you want to go back to that reality because you saw it if you never saw it are you good to go you're good to go right the boss and says well noisy Hoss they asked upon night he says the problem is not Hester the problem is asked there a stir as the Hester is bastard the problem is that the concealment is concealed the fact that I know there's a clipper it's already you dear Samantha look at sea trooper I know I can identify and say I'm now living in distortions you're already not bad this is pretty good you can identify the trauma you can identify the voices that are distorted you're pretty good the knowledge of the illness is half the cure you do some actual shots interprets as already from the rishonim when the Hester is behests Tara it was a hostile of the time I said because there was a pillow power of pirates on the Ukraine power to sit in the equation so he was one side it was a fab Rankin was once so he asked somebody to go bring wine from the cellar they went down to the cellar and it was pitch dark it was a middle of a condition to schmooze so very open for Blaine as a spinster she says it's damaged that's it's really dark there was not no light you know real pitch dog we don't really understand it today there's always ups light somewhere so he says it's a mystic sonic so somebody says there's bleiben apartment notice the anger vine and the Zen you'll stay a few minutes in the cellar and your eyes will get used to the darkness and you'll be able to see it he says yeah from them Hobart Myra that's what I'm afraid of that's what I'm afraid of you get used to the darkness so hi newest hot dog Russian album it's Ryan Pina Egypt becomes the paradigm for paradise why because they had sushi Sekar newest hot dog ah Sh literally because they had free sushi Dugger the fish for more things that's what they have done Egypt becomes the paradigm for paradise so amos says it says in vera White's ACS kimitaka civilize Mitzrayim what civilized mitzrayim I'll take you out from civilize he says civilize us from the word Liz ball I will liberate you from tolerating Egypt I will liberate you from Savoie new truce of limit means patience tolerance this both these bullets are right Mitaka syphilis the problem is not Egypt the problem is that you tolerate Egypt you tell it the problem is not abused the problem is you tolerate it the problem is not that you have voices in your soul that drive you crazy the problem is that you tolerate them you make peace with them your princess courage there was a Talmud with emotion to be once said if you learned Cusco sobota in the third paddock of alabaster you know the main theme is that for three years you have a right to make a maja if you're living if I have a squatter living in my house and I have no deed so how logically I have three years to voice a protest if I voice a protest within three years I'm good I could reclaim the house later if not why didn't you make him a song so the pinnacles of card said what's shot in Nevada session weather company says sometimes they have a squatter who takes over your whole life in you takes over your whole life he says all you have to do is make him a ha at least make up my car if you make up my heart then we know you're the bulla boss if you don't need to make up my car make up my car doesn't mean you chase him out you can't chase him out he's a bully the guy in you is a bully but at least make up my heart say this you're not much you're not developers I'm the boss that's enough I love Pinterest Curren says that's enough that's enough I'm not asking you to chase him out and I asked you to take him to court I'm not asking you to come with an axe and spelling from there at least tell somebody make up my heart make a protest because that's already an awareness and awareness so now when it comes to a person's life this is a question how many things do you do every day that are based on a distortion of truth your own truth and the truth of the people around you how many how many things that do say during the day that the only reason you're saying them and you believe them and this legitimacy to the words are based on a distortion of truth meaning how you perceive yourself and a distorted what you perceive your wife or your kids or the people near you how many thoughts do you have a day that our only reason that they're legitimate in your mind you operate that way you think about this is because of distortions how many and how deep is the distortion and how heavy is the distortion think about this because if you get control of this you get control of a lot yes yes yeah if I would have told her that no I told her I overslept I was reluctant to say that my great great grandmother had a funeral or that there were three suicides in my building and I had to attend to because that's almost said there was an emergency of course has actually become a hero in the process too you know that only a law you become a hero on the Prophet it's always good right I think Oscar Wilde said the best feeling in life as you do something anonymously and then everybody finds out it's always good you know you lie and you become a hero why not but it's really the same thing the need to become a hero is the same reason we need to lie the same thing I hate myself I have to become a hero that's why people watch movies they meet novels and they'll cry for hours and hours they live I carry asleep in other people's lives we love living through heroes we love living through other people's dramatic lives there's people who imagine their own funerals and they start crying they imagine their children being orphans they imagine all types of things to make themselves feel better about themselves it's all the basis of the same dear I have a distorted sense of self and I need to make up for it I'm basically feeding into Distortion I cannot embrace truth now the fact that paradox is if you embrace truth actually you're good to go you're in a very good state you're part of the aim so if you're good you're wonderful you're wholesome you're absolutely beautiful you're extraordinary you don't need a lawyer you don't need to become a hero you could make mistakes you could say I'm sorry you can have real relationships so before you speak to somebody before you say something even before you take anger anybody who gets angry ever in the house not nobody okay you almost got angry once a guy once told his wife he says you know I never make mistakes she says never he says oh yeah once I did back in 1962 I thought I made a mistake that was his mistake shut so why can't a person make mistakes it's all the same thing I have to always ask myself one of my self-image is real what is a clip and what am i doing and what I'm doing right now which part is it's feeding and which part is it coming from and which part is motivating and fueling this type of behavior this type of relationship much of anger or much of the need to control people right or a lot of times when we become alienated from people what happened often is we are only in touch with our clipper and because we're in touch with our Clippers are therefore something they said destroys us to our core because we don't have a core we have a shell that destroys the shell and the shell goes crazy so we have to fight back and fighting back we feel that we gained ground but what about if you could actually really embrace your wholesome self behind the Clipper or beyond the Clipper and operate from that space you'll see that a lot of thoughts a lot of words and a lot of actions will Alton ultimately be very very different but for this you have to sometimes rediscover yourself in a way that you never did because sometimes my whole life I never learnt about a self that's not distorted I don't even know that there's such a concept some people I would argue have such distorted sense of selves that they don't even know there's a possibility that they're wrong in other words the Hester is bastard the concealment is concealed I don't even imagine that there could be something else I don't even imagine that most people you speak from experience of talking to most people I mean I'm not most most people you don't feel that you love sometimes it's about very simple things if I say something and I don't feel it and I don't the canal and I don't really believe it I have to be able to tell that to myself I can't repress it because if I will it will haunt me now this doesn't mean I have to worship every emotion I don't have to worship every emotion but you have to be able to identify an emotion and not lie about it because if I do I just become a dishonor very dishonest person yeah a person is struggling with God they should talk to God about the fact that they're struggling it's probably you'll be the best relationship you'll ever have with God people who speak to God honestly about what they feel about him usually have the best relationship with them if you cannot tell a best friend what you really feel about them there's no friendship here there's no relationship if you always show up in your marriage perfect if you're always in a perfect mood around your wife then either you're not normal right or some other things I'm not gonna get into what you're never in a bad mood I mean you women usually know when their husbands are in bad mood but the men go crazy when they point it out right you look stressed to me and then like for three hours you like I can't talk to you me I'm not stressed why can't you say is stressed why can you say you're in a miserable mode what's gonna happen because you're not gonna be macho you're not gonna be masculine who created this idea that you're now going to be stressed this is another clip of clipper again we create certain images and we have to live into those images and if somebody challenges them we go mad but what happens if you can actually say you know what I'm gonna embrace truth and when you understand who you really really really are the way it describes it here then you're never afraid and we spoke you're never afraid of vulnerability cuz it's not gonna destroy you if my perfection comes from the fact that I'm something that I'm not really it means I'm more wounded than I can ever imagine imagine understand this if my sense of self perfection comes from something that's not true it means I am deeply so wounded that my self perception is the worst that it can be and yet I will fight for it till the end because if I give it up there'll be nothing left to me nothing left mom there's nothing left but if your self perception could come from a place that's a little deeper than clipper and you could make some peace with it right then the fact that I have flaws and a half struggles is fine it won't destroy me because I'm not creating an image based on the fact that I'm perfect when I'm not I'm creating an image based on who I really am so if I really have nothing inside mama shunt octopus and stick knockers shed it's I get behind Messiah would have all the good words Moshe Smith - of low life or whatever I was told or I thought I was told so then sometimes I have no choice but to compensate and that's what I do that's what I do somebody told me once that crouches told me about the narcissus narcissism is a very serious issue people have narcissistic personality disorder it's a very difficult thing to let anybody's familiar with it very difficult to live with narcissists are like you know they say you want to drown a narcissist you put mirrors on the bottom of the ocean it's a very difficult to fulfill challenge and so happened to noose know somebody I was dealing with a situation so somebody who understood Souls very deeply he said by him it's a cos it's the exact opposite some armors the exact opposites he's very very sensitive so sensitive and he lets people in in the deepest way and when he was a child he was badly hurt from it so subconsciously he made a conviction he will never ever ever trust not only anybody he won't even trust that anybody else exists because he can't deal with it so it was a fascinating idea how somebody's distortion could be so profound but it was also very healing idea because that means that what you need in order to heal is not not denigrate yourself but actually come back to your primary goodness to your primal goodness to your ain't what he calls here they ain't serve the bittle and when a person comes to that place then they could be much more vulnerable because you won't melt you won't melt into oblivion Vashti will melt if there's no clothes she will hold onto the clothes you won't on the contrary it will set you free it will set you free it even has to do with people for example in their own children your child tells you something and it triggers very deep anger in you or resentment in you right think about it and ask yourself one question this anger that it triggered in you is it based on a you that is a clip of you or a real you is it based on a you that you've built up in your mind this is Who I am as a father and this is who my child as to see me as and when he pokes that you go crazy or maybe that itself is a distortion and if you could reclaim a deeper you you'll actually be able to respond with much more composure much more love and a much more wholesome response that will actually help him and help your relationship this is never about somebody else it's about me it's always about me what I'm responding to based on my self perception and therefore based on what was now done to me by virtue of what my wife said my child said my friend said my boss said my partner said my my community member said my rabbi said himself with you said something to me oh you did something to me or you looked at me a certain way and it shook up my world what is this world at it shook up ask yourself how real is that world how real should it be why is it so real in me now it may be there for the rest of my life but if I can at least identify and Quarantine it then the hester is not faster then at least a clipper has some light shining and remember that ghosts demons and skeletons love darkness they hate light whenever you shine light clipper hates light you know why because when you shine a flashlight especially the light of the Sun you know what happens it disappears it will fight for darkness it hates scrutiny it hates exposure it hates conversation that's why some people you start talking about something they will do anything to avoid it anything they'll do anything to avoid it because when you start shining light on certain things oh my god Ducie loves light that's why you will never see here the word ain't so particle without the word Oh why are you because kedusha ain't safe loves light because on the contrary it's all about revelation not that everything is always revealed things sometimes can't be revealed but oil is by definition its mission statement sheer give look I want to look and I want you to see the Gemara says if I get to shame ship boldly rice half ba lay rice here are calls for a shame Shambhala discuss Polaris white it's about a it doesn't run away from our it on the contrary it celebrates light why does it celebrate light because it won't it won't disappear on the contrary why won't it disappear because its existence is essential its existence is not circumstantial its existence is not here to avoid something else guilt why do people feel guilty because they really want to fix a situation or because they're trying to cover up pain khalipa is always here to substitute reality with another reality I don't want you to see the reality I want to cover it up with another reality so therefore I create a second reality instead of the first one and I stress it up it should look good in caduceus the other way around it will always be associated with earth you could look at it you could see it nothing is being hidden so for example people what do they say about Jews a Jew if he doesn't feel guilty he blames himself explain why my perspective my perspective how I see myself I had a beautiful Audrey I didn't I didn't grow up in trauma had a mother who told me I was their very special persons never grow up they come in a special person and it's good enough to people because of that self perception that's another form of course we would include of course it's a different type I would say you know a nice doesn't bother people right but it's still not living with you it's living I accept myself based on my thoughts that I'm a positive person and I tell that to myself I legitimize myself and my thoughts I'm a good guy I'm relaxed I'm happy I can you and you promote yourself with that narrative which so now is I don't see anything wrong with it he's saying listen I'm gonna get up early to learn my kids what's the answer why do you feel that to be challenged in any way what are the ramifications what are the practical ramifications I'll tell you what it is it's very hard to have a real deep relationship with that person [Music] it's very hard so good maybe doesn't harm a fly but it's very hard to have a real relationship with that person sorry after that first ever real relationship with themselves it's very hard for the person of a real relationship with God they can't let go they need ah you shouldn't tell your kids you great you should feel an experience that your kids are great much more important much more more than saying to your kids they're great you should experience the greatness of your children is far more important trust me I mean we I know in America today especially today there's a mitzvah to say I love you around 1.1 thousand times a day and kiss them 650 times to make up for all the kisses he's still waiting from your father to get because he still didn't kiss you once maybe five minutes before he died he said something positive to you and even then so we overcompensate so we don't stop kissing we don't stop hugging the kid says leave me alone no no no I'm gonna kiss you every time my mother you're not kissing your child you're trying to feel the kiss that your mother was supposed to give you you're not even tuning into you so much listen it's better than abuse pushes aside best wish my son take the stick and take out the belt you know like some of us got better if it's a choice between a kiss and this - the kiss it's organized but I'm just saying more important than the kiss is about the penis genuine appreciation the genuine connection but if I'm always thinking I'm thinking of legitimizing myself so then I'm still in a mode of deep Distortion I happen to have good conclusions but I'm still obsessive this person has negative thoughts and this person has presence can you associate to have a father who didn't mice do too much and didn't tell you that he that you're the your clocks and a glump and I'm in T up tanner straighten and disappointment to the family and a shame to Claudius you know and then you had a father who bore Hashem said all these nice things to be able to ultimately elevate you and to allow you to appreciate the good to create a little more so you could thank you most as I could fry the house sometimes difficult experience allows you to experience people that mysterious nefesh to understand these concepts so maybe this was your mysterious manfred look at it that way if it can help I mean with I say this with empathy but sometimes you need paint on the stand truth but it's all in the same mode and my mind is positive your is negative but it's really we're both obsessing we're both I'm saying I'm good and you're saying I'm bad we're both busy doing the same thing we're trying to justify our existence that's so I justify myself by saying look at me I'm slim I go to the gym every day I don't mean me I mean that person me too but also that person I'm great I'm this I even make a couple of dollars look at my house look at this we're busy showing off to ourselves ourselves and this person is basically saying I'm a loser I'm a yacht my merit nothing is right but it's the same mode we're both busy telling ourselves stories to justify ourselves so it's like the shell that were in trying to do then it's both because there's no real self acceptance from comes from the fact that you can actually let go and failure in euralia habitable so color illumise look I didn't say particle there's no better description of the tragedy in area have been through so cold oil Muslim aliens i okay i think enough for today no I have to figure out how I feel at the end the machine if you wouldn't I want to make sure if it's about about I've come across Alan Morgan is a cover base [Music] okay my wife does drive it on my wife yeah yeah yeah I mean I don't know how to break it to you I don't know if you can continue coming to this but but there are there are cultural there are cultural values and different communities that they develop to call it the fundamental core of Judaism I think the Chris is there a value for that community perhaps it's a value I'm not in that community I'm not gonna judge it at the moment I'll have my opinions but I'm not gonna judge it at the moment okay but you have to see if it's making everybody's life miserable there is always option to if it's something that somehow can work you probably deal with this all day no don't you do this for a living why am I giving this advice I get paid for this he learns a lot of Gemara fitting in is a value a comfort zone I feel like I don't I think if the only way I fit in is by being accepted I will never fit in because it's endless it's a bottomless pit I'm basically living in a shell and basically this is the clipper that we're talking about it's a bottomless pit it's like a person who says I need your compliments every hour of the day in order for me to feel good now as long as I get it it's great but what happens when I don't get a compliment that day I'm dead I'm done a lot of people they define their cell value based on the compliments they're getting right somebody once told me that his image of himself changes 50 times within the first hour of the day why at home his wife compliments and whoa you look so good very nice have a good day then he lives in Brooklyn gets into the car and usually there's a trucker that that tries to cut you off and he opens the window and he curses you and your mother and your grandmother had South color Davis yeah so now his self-image is horrible then he goes into the bank and somebody tells him something nice about himself oh I heard that up now I feel good then he goes out of the bank he meets somebody else mr. Hayat why didn't you pay that now he feels horrible then he gets to the city in Manhattan and I've been there it really gets tough on the road and people tell you exactly what they think of you right she says within an hour he has 50 opposite images of himself because he doesn't think it's a bottomless pit it's literally a bottomless pit that never ends so I think if somebody the fact that we want to be accepted this we all want to be accepted and we all love most of us very few people I know compliments mean nothing I mean I've met one or two people that was Mohnish like my level I made it there's there's there's there's self-identity is completely like unfazed it's not easy to find a person that if mama Sh it's Kauai high yet it's completely emotional and it's a very very rare quality it can't be a genuine leader if you don't have that quality it has any distance Monken it's the greatest show hood in the world right so we all have that but I think a person has to be able to identify how he sent that is to our functional our functioning and verify mr. market position market yeah avoid addictive art you know the VAR to the market so half of the can what the Commission's hasn't break the others he quite reverse acaba vilaça Coachella the covet of your friend should be as valuable to you you should cherish it like your own coffin so literally it means you should treat people with the respect that you would want for yourself the market asks hey look I didn't pick a office it says her kin of archive over her covered might CNS Ottoman Iowa the Camorra says above a comma de Foix minute Mandan may have a lip balm on that Boyer may have a casa de mccallion milord the office meaning the prickly office is Mills in the Casa de says it's it's the extra mile it's it's a form of PT of piety it's meters Hasidism so high that he says in prickly obvious you would say that your coverage should not be so negated to you it's not the quite cover however mass ignition lock position market sets up in the mission as I Heath white Rivera they covered that your friend gives you copy vilaça it should be as valuable to you kiss a lot like the covered you give yourself what does this mean so I'll give a simple illustration let's say I'm invited to give a speech I'll just give me from my own life but everyone could give from your life and the person who introduces me doesn't give a good introduction which happens more often than not sign it says stupid things whatever the best introduction I ever got was a person I have a tape series on tania's called The Tale of Two salts so I was in Philadelphia so somebody said we have her the author of A Tale of Two Cities I thought that Dickens came to do some ice everybody turned around who resurrected Charles Dickens so when I got up I said I've gotten compliments in my life but such a compliment okay but the Embassy is not always fun so we're ready to speak starts off on a sour note because when there's a good introduction you know it it feeds feeds the right and then half of the oil um was sleeping in the middle and then the other half of the oil Emma's texting which is the minik minik by Eden and then the this one leaves that one leave so the whole autumn um is and then at the end I finished a nobody and all they says you should kya which is always a deadly deadly Jewish response it's quite good so I'm upset I don't feel good so I come home I said you know I'm gonna do it over I'll give myself an introduction and then I'll give this speech again and then I'll give myself a standing ovation not for a minute for ten minutes which is unheard of even shrimp doesn't get that but he may be tacky does this when he comes home I'll give myself a standing ovation for ten minutes right and then I'll feel good so everybody understands that it's not gonna make me feel good and I also understand it why not why not the answer is cuz the cover that you give yourself is valueless it doesn't mean anything the people standing ovations could mean something my own it doesn't mean anything it doesn't add it doesn't create anything substantial in me doesn't create new new neurons new waves new awareness and new consciousness there's albeit before the standing ovation is did you up after the standing ovation so the maggot says he cried Comerica the cover that other people give you are evil efficacious all of it has exactly the same value that's the truth it has exactly the same value it really adds nothing to you and therefore criticism also doesn't take anything away from you if it's legitimate if they're telling you something legitimate listen to it you'll grow from it if they're destroying you it doesn't if a compliment creates you of criticism breaks you people who desperately need compliments when they hear criticism they're dead they're finished especially a wife criticizes you who they can't function they can't live because their entire self identity is completely subjected to the accolades of other people and then it doesn't end what do you when that when the admin officer nefesh and the moment you don't get what you need you're just desperately craving and you're in it this is all examples of a person living behind the Shelf vocês behind the shell completely completely not in touch with their own reality experiment just know there's another psychological response and that is you come home and you hate them you hate them you tell yourself there that they stupid they're idiots there which is also the same for me because I didn't get what I needed from them so therefore I turn them into my enemies it's also the same points again exactly exactly it doesn't bring you up at all home it's just a defense mechanism because you're hurting so badly so you turn them into the enemy always but it's because I so desperately need it and you disappointed me so you become the monster yeah reframing that's something else maybe the disappointment was also dysfunctional learned you didn't have the confidence in yourself close hey I gave a good speech these guys you know these not familiar with the concepts or whatever yeah different well maybe I didn't know who I was talking to yeah well maybe I didn't I wasn't informed or maybe I have to appear differently it's a learning it's a learning curve when you go to strange communities or different communities and you never heard yes some of these concepts the first shopper tone I ever did was in a community near Chicago Sunday morning the president of the community was a very wealthy Jew sits me down and shown in front of the rabbi and he said I want to tell you that you were a disaster that's how he opened up the conversation you were a disaster and he says a few weeks ago we had somebody else and he told me he was and you were a disaster so you know how to compare the rabbi felt bad for me so he calls me aside he says as a missile more sugar the guys his name is Manish was sugar vanilla sugar I'm saying the truth rabbi don't silence me for 25 minutes he was telling me what was the wrong time it was not comfortable it was very very uncomfortable extremely he finishes he says and by the way this was your best shot at tone ever so now I thought that my mistake Michelle said I'll tell you why because from this one you will learn the most from this one you will learn the most from other ones when you'll get compliments you won't learn anything on the country you'll feel good this sabaton will turn into your most successful one because it was an educational experience that was it that's reset so when you turn a mistake into an educational experience it's not a mistake on the contrary it became an education okay so then I have to go to myself and ask if his words had value and it happened to be he was he was dramatic but he he said some valuable ideas I think thank you for the thank you for the compliment I see you're a nurturer you're a nurturer what do you want to say those who don't worry I'm on this still value the people at the same time they will still think that it's a Sony inish well listen today we live in a world where a little oil it became a certain simin yeah of a certain you dishes smells you can't deny that right but it's not exactly the same like wearing her hat by darling you still have to make distinction that's it wearing the Vayner thomas villain is a Hitler right but this juicer don't wait a better time for them we all know that right there's people here who don't wait a minute comes to the micaiah Mitzvah soon they don't wait up in the top stone does it saying I love her the radiation mine should put in a minute on floor yeah that's why my deficit and they put on the bigger thomasville but the people who don't so you have to be sensitive to that and aware of that is there a value putting on a Bennett Thomas from their eyes no a hat I mean an extra yarmulke by Dominic lapel the minute we stroll in all communities is by diving you wear a yarmulke kiss pseudo use by Dominus I don't think it's a simple thing I don't see the same I don't see why it's not the same because wearing the second market by daven Inc there's a hum RIA Seder it's a very beautiful color but it's a totally sailor wearing a yarmulke by Dominic is much more rooted in sources so let them read the sources and we'll see that it's not mom's descent just like eating the brach someplace that is not eating keep something it's not and not putting on a bit of tums is not truck you didn't put on tefillin and I'm going to the mick one Shabbos doesn't mean you're not Jewish it's not is it a kaval turkey and to go to the mikveh yeah but people don't go to the mikveh especially here it's on Jan 20 degrees this emotion but I think that this Chabad rabbi was rose you want I should give you a lift I want to sit with my wife if you don't want you don't have to take it you can get that you can take a taxi I mean it's not like it was because now first of the episode right so that's that that's the Asad me he told me in into the Sumter's are the software ever came to Chicago the Divya he came to Chicago there was Alabama to show they called burn a rural village stay there the rough was very system and customer from his father right his system before that was a he drop by half cup slim is almond half so the santomero have wanted to give ad Russia this is the early years she sent this guy by and the guy I told the rabbi that he went back to the road that but he said I don't think you don't speak here because the message does not pull him off with your standards so the Sakharov asked the kibbutz Kirov if he Minds if he could elevate the mass it's a first Russia he said mushroom I finished she said why what do you care he says that there ever a yacht the Obama never was here and he spoke so if he spoke here he's not gonna make them assets of different to make believe that for him it wasn't Kosh enough for you was culture enough that made of looked at his Gaby Cesar data faucet that Picasa and he went to speak there he liked it as they adapt accosted it's he's not gonna do it and make believe that by him it wasn't kosher enough you understand so he understood that the Satmar understood this he understood this and he had a respect for it doesn't mean he wouldn't want to told him if it's maybe you would want to told him I said sir but he appreciated that is that people have to appreciate this this this there's a certain richness to the story doesn't mean in his circles he wouldn't do something else but he understood his diversity does he do she are in noting the inner am has had an aid them the pitch a male living ever other bits of male live in and how good that he was very big he once he was a big asking was a big ask and he once sent them to Berlin for a Shoppers now being GERD I don't have to tell you the men and the women don't sit at a Shabbos table right together they don't walk together they're very strict with this in Berlin you can understand that Madson was different it was a Fruma here but the women were at the table like an American everybody's smoothing together so mature male Levine was very taken aback he felt that this is not this is not Jewish everybody goes to sleep and he also goes to sleep Friday night here's the the the Paula boss the host Axela Hamish he weeds through the whole partial with Eric I him and then he says the whole tell him the whole Timlin by the table Friday night and he was amazed a few minutes ago he was socializing with the dominant honor with the dominant with the women and now he say the whole Tim Friday night late at night she came back to the umbrellas and he said it's paradoxical this meal was Mama's coderre haquyen the German Jews were German Jews they were very differently I'm talk about the front German dress I'm not talking about the reform what about the elephant in Germany no Seraph all her school was very different than polish it's in the ice to evening wasn't like dice - yeah so the a.m. has told him the picture may you're going into our scholars a clown you're going into public activism that's why I sent you to believe you have to realize this stuff i shouldnt endorse kaya Senora Maya you have to realize the different ways of people fearing God not everybody does the same thing if not you won't be able to be in our skin you'll be able to be for your little group you won't be able to have bird's-eye view of what the Jewish people need I had you have to see that there's different ways people function people operate that's it we have to understand that you have to respect that it doesn't and it doesn't threaten you doesn't threaten if you have a minute it doesn't threaten if you have a new surface like this difference cause the Gomorrah says Marinero pastor there's different rivers let's go farewell I think it's a kiss our own people grow up and you know it's my way or the highway and if it's not - so can my receive and my reverie and my culture is it's it's deadly it's it's heresy why why is it Harrison but cloud I told somebody somebody said about somebody's in a pecados I said to use the word up to krytus on a Jew you need a Sun Hat dream you need a PEZ do you need calculus you need to predict Asst hours it became so likely to use the word coif it on somebody the Rambam gives a good daughter and what a - is one of the cause he disagrees with something that they agree in your killer there freeze a closer a guy called me disagree with something about 1/8 of in a particular community became up the courses since when does a month like as a native have to do with clearing up the courses the ramen hook was true with the fines whether or not the code is is what a min is what a kafir is the word is throw unlikely it comes from ignorance heresy is a very serious accusation not everybody is a heretic most people are not but if another person is making a mistake we throw around the term with such ignorance with such pompous arrogance by people who are not really educated in this why because they disagree with my culture doesn't make sense okay so let's get back to clipper yeah let's get back to Clinton so I think taka this toad of the Magnum is rich illustrates in a very profound way this whole point because why is it that I desperately need compliments is there anybody here who desperately needs compliments yeah Bailey what do you do when you have a performance and you don't get even one compliment what do you do I once asked the comedian I once was at a place and I asked a very big comedian you see when a speaker does a lousy job isn't it as a your family a singer is worse a comedian is the worst when nobody laughs at the jokes it's mummers bushes for characters you know what I mean a speech fine it was boring people fell asleep like their most features are boring singing okay a lot of singers don't know what they do present company excluded but you know there's a kitchen it's called but but a comedian it's his whole raison D etre is gone right so I once asked a comedian what do you do afterwards what do you do with the feeling the emptiness so he said as I said Robert Jacob said I think to myself just because I failed onstage does it mean I should fail offstage to onstage I failed I stepped down from the stage I'm not gonna fail offstage that was that was a good answer it was a good answer but he understood something about life and he did not confuse performance with value let's say my performance is horrible does that negate my inner value okay so that's what that means living in a world of Klingon that means I'm living completely in a shell completely I'm not in touch with my inner value my inner true self and therefore I have to create a new reality for myself and that reality is called performance a woman I once met in a spiritual seminar told me that she suffers terribly her mother wanted always a blonde girl with long daughter she wasn't so her mother would die her here and would say I love you because you're blond she grew up and one day she discovered to the horror that she's not which of course meant that she also lost affection of her mother until today I believe 3040 years later she's dealing with this every day every moment of the day because her mother did not stop saying it now but this happens to many of us not with blonde hair maybe but different ways including spiritual and religious ways performance becomes a substitute for value it becomes your value so now I'm on stage I do my think I failed I failed somebody somebody does a compliment or somebody criticizes or many people criticize what happened is now what do I go home with so there's two of there's two different approaches emotional processes one is for three days I don't stop thinking about it you relate you go home and I'm replay what did I do wrong what did I do what I'm never doing this again in my whole life I'm becoming a mechanic it's a cassette force of self doubts uncertainty in a confusion tension replaying it like an obsessive remember the brute scratch record player the broken record player or the scratch CD again and again and again and again and again until the next success till the next success and then you have pavarotti's approach they once asked Pavarotti after a horrible opera presentation how did it feel he said cried all the way to the bank somebody deposited the check he cried Oh what does this mean it doesn't mean a person shouldn't appreciate a compliment and a person shouldn't learn from criticism it means do you have a core self if you have a core self which according to the Baba Tanya the core self is actually divine so it's in its invincible it's indestructible a compliment doesn't make it and criticism doesn't destroy it should I learn from criticism of course if I want to grow I should learn from criticism is it a schmuck it's never - mock we're human we have of that ego when you really really won with yourself it's not purpose monkey it's not the smile I want to tell you on image I saw once it has a lot in it okay well by whatever was maybe 88 or 89 years old miss pinky is a Michigan kid he was giving dollars one Sunday a youth came he was a man who died young he was a row of actually in Florida I knew him he was in his 30s when he passed away and this was a few years before he was a ha badnik and there ever helped him a lot in terms of advice he was born so you had a lot of elements never helped him unless he had a certain closeness but he was very sick it seems to me when I think about a letter that he was probably pretty sick at the pond time so he's walking in line and he comes up to the river and on the way already as he comes close he looks at the lebarge remember and he starts calling like this you know like he did to uh you know this he's making like this frankly was very it was quite disrespectful first of all as a person who's older than him and it was also the love homage to them and he was Alabama sure he wasn't the you know he was officially a costume but he's going like that he was open like this so the Secretary's around were like a little with us but people didn't mix it he comes close and he still like this and he like I'm there very disappointed in you in English he didn't say why my assumption is I don't know this my assumption is probably the illness was accelerating and he felt that the revenue should have helped him more perhaps I don't know that that could be something else and he felt disappointed by the repens lack of saving his life or whatever and I wondered how the DEP is gonna respond how do you respond to this what's the response without it's not it's not even what he responded it was the the naturalness without skipping a heartbeat without blinking almost as he goes in this I'm very disappointed in you it ever looks him straight in the eyes and he says it makes two of us I'm very disappointed in myself and that was it and that was it we just moved on with complete serenity with lot of sincere in its sincerity I'm very disappointed in myself I'd only gave him a bra whatever I don't know if the I don't remember if there was more so here you have a situation right so sometimes they have a person who gets very self-conscious sometimes you have a person who get self-conscious but they know how to isolate the self-conscious and respond from another place and sometimes have a person who's completely one with themselves they don't even get self-conscious but somebody who lives in that mode of self-consciousness then they're not there's no self this but myself is always dependent on you it's basically I'm waiting for you to tell me who I am a guy once wrote a postcard to a therapist he was in the Bahamas on vacation so he writes a postcard to his therapist he says I'm here in the Bahamas I'm having a great time I wish you were here to tell me why so basically I'm waiting for you to tell me how I'm doing I don't know how I'm do we tell me if you're gonna give me a compliment I'm doing fine if you're gonna give me criticism I'm done so somebody who operates in that space mohnish has no core now some of us we always operate in that space and it's so pathetic and very sad way of living so that's what the market says he-he's voicover huh lovable I think it's a lot and I'll tell you it really translates itself and a pretty I think in a recognizable way in marriages and in educating children I'll tell you what a guy comes home from work okay and he desperately needs his wife the compliment now some women do that the moment the husband comes home he's like wow my hero the man who works so hard for the family but by the way you didn't have to rush home you could have stayed another few hours do what you had to do but how I appreciate you is unbelievable okay now the truth is when you do that to men it's wise because after that you can ask him to do anything can ask him to mop for nine and a half hours and I'll do it like a cattleman well let's face it not every woman does that when the husband comes home very often the woman complains because the day was hard he's waiting for a compliment cuz he desperately needs it so what happens now often he shuts down he doesn't feel like a man he can't feel like a man why cuz he always has to take and take and take you see when I need that what you said the person always has to fit and what does it really mean it means I could never be on my sphere I am forever I'm a Kabul I could never give because I have nothing to give because I always need a tape why do I always have to take because my confidence is a bottomless pit there's nothing there so I always need from you I always have to be parasitic I could never ever give so when I enter into a conversation with you or with my spouse or with anybody all I'm waiting for is to be able to get energy how can I give I can't give I don't have any to give I don't have the mental space to give but if somebody has an inner wholesomeness they could say now I'm good now let me just be here for you let me just be empathetic for you and what about with a child you tell your child to do homework he says of course not you sell him again no go to sleep no after four times your plots your plots a guy came to me he lost it at his child because he didn't do homework after four times and it tells me I'm right now I'm right I said I won't ask you a question you really believe in homework you never did homework in your life borrow Hashem you never did homework that's why you're in real estate if you would know how to read or write you wouldn't be a real estate thank God you didn't do homework you're illiterate you're uneducated you don't know the first thing about anything so you sell gold this that's what illiterate Jews do they sell don't things and some of them make a couple of dollars in the process yeah cuz you're complete damaras you know that America sham you support the family very nicely so tell me how valuable is homework in your life so he's laughing he says kids are dumb let me give you a my analysis of a star you don't care about homework what you care is that you need to feel that you're a successful father a successful father means my son obeys me now your father never respected you your mother never respected you your siblings never respect your wife doesn't respect you for sure doesn't respect you there's one last man that you're hoping is gonna respect your eight-year-old KITT and suddenly this eight-year-old kid this mom's are this terrorists also disrespects you how do you feel about yourself you feel like the loser losers this one final last straw that you're holding on to the hips a mensch because the real estate didn't do it for you you lost that too you freaked out madam at the homework you know who was freaking out at the eight-year-old boy a six-year-old boy was freaking out at an eight-year-old boy you weren't a father freaking ton of uranium you were a six-year-old freaking out at an eight-yard you're a six years old who did not get recognition that he exists your existence comes from other people telling you you exist in other words from accolades or from your son saying yes taptic you have to see what happens it's some Shabbos tables when the kids don't have Vitus you ever see what happens a kid doesn't have a divider and the father goes crazy instead of having an enjoyable Shabbos table it becomes a nightmare why most of our toilets are boring thank God he doesn't have it right oh thank god you're an adult start saying that variety you wait till he finishes right thank God he doesn't so he doesn't have what happens here it's not that I tell you that the guy can sit he doesn't sit at a for two and a half minutes Academy as a DD can even listen it's he straight away why do I pay tuition I feel like a failure in other words I'm a six-year-old screaming at an eight-year-old so I won senator bar mitzvah-kah penis of it doesn't mean respect your father well it means respect your father also means something else covetous of viscera means respect your own father would respect yourself as a father respect the father in you or was we could say in English grow up respect the office respect the office in other words you can't be a six-year-old educating an eight-year-old you have to be a father educating a nature but how do you become a father if you six it's very hard you have to go into yourself and say I don't need my child to make me feel that I have value you know why because if yes I can't be a father to my child I'm busy taking taking taking taking taking I'm a parasite my children exists to give me Malthus that's why Malthus is a dangerous word you should know it's as though the whole purpose of the child is to give me Malthus I'm sorry to break it that's not the purpose of the child then it's pray determine the little phrase Malthus machines machines very good do I not want Malthus for my kids of course it's the greatest prophet of Malthus from your children but that's not my child my child wasn't to give mommy and daddy maahes my child was created with his own soul I can't take full responsibility for my child in one way or another way my job in life is my privilege to help my child develop himself or herself fully and cultivate the diamond within and try to move away the marble that's blocking the angel within my child how that expresses itself I never know fully especially if you have children with a lot of personality right okay so you fasten your seat belt and you say God let's hope this roller coaster bike doesn't end up in too many crashes and that the car stay somehow somewhere on the track okay it's not always easy it's not difficult it's not it's not it's not always easy Mark Twain said when I was nine my father was a genius when I was 19 he was an idiot now I'm 29 I have a couple of kids in my own my father as brilliant advice it's funny how much the old man went in ten years we go through a process write copy this a visa you have to be a father you have to be a mother a father and a mother is not here to say I exist because my son is a success story don't use your son and use him for your success you're a man you're a favor come in come in mom's my face off then you can actually be a father paradoxically when you don't need your children to establish your identity you can actually be there for them well you don't need your wife to tell you you're a genius you're a gmail of abortion and you're smarter than Trump and you should have been the President of the United States you can actually be there for your wife not that a relationship shouldn't be prudent have praise inside it's fish mark when you're appreciated what feedback is important to anybody and even to a selfless person because it teaches you who you are this is not all feedback is about ego some feedback is about letting you know what you do in life what you accomplish in life it's important to give feedback to people right that's another thing Jews don't do they don't know how to give feedback for separate reasons because it's vulnerable to get feedback but feedback is a point that not only is even if you're wholesome feedback isn't you don't need compliment but you need the feedback cannot say from type a hakama azo hugged me come either a semicolon the Gemara says in thymus the comedian we cool oh wow so this is an important distinction everybody has to ask themselves which self do I operate in do I operate in a self of do I live in do I live in a shell do I live in a husk in other words what do I mean in a Haas we have to translate that I live in a husk my life is a husk my life is a husk my life is a shell I create a new version of self because I don't know my real truth or you know your real truth and if you know your real truth you understand the quote about Tanya you know your hospital so Colo illumise legate alien so if I have a Mahajan Thomas if you can imagine yourself as part of ain't safe you understand that compliments won't create you and criticism will never destroy you I won't have to do it when I get home three lines from the end of the first paragraph the age group Alexia pre Kia mahadesh virus a clipper so you said why a clip is called Clippers they conceal a fruit the fruit is precious the fruit is beautiful the fruit is delicious you have an egg guys you have a Walmart you have a hazelnut a necklace is usually a Walmart but these are examples we have to crack it and get out the fruit ain't true pollutes our pre-k my - recycle it but you sometimes have to break the external to get to the internal you have to break the exterior in order to extract the inside the inside is wonderful but the inside is blocked convoluted the car today law I'd seen it should say Cappadocia immaculate osama stood in Malaya my SRS leash meters a Clippers so since the whole explanation here is that all Clippers essentially are really sparks of kedusha that fell and therefore they're not recognizable so they develop into a clipper which actually conceals their true identity so their true identity becomes convoluted it becomes manipulated it becomes distorted so just like in the physical metaphor you have to crack then sell in order to get the nods and sometimes the cracking is painful sometimes the cracking is stray Gnaeus is difficult sometimes it's not sometimes it's appealing sometimes you use a peeler sometimes you use your finger sometimes you need a hammer you need a nutcracker like we spoken mismo Shabbos you have to use a hammer to crack the nuts last day Kaleigh similarities to assert who for soca daylight's you need to technician my clippers on my steed in Malaya so when we started to speak about these knit suits that fell down through the spacer kala and you have the Clippers that concealed and it suits us and on this he gave the whole Marshall that the neshamah before it came to the body was completely one with a knife because there was nothing blocking it but here in this word suddenly a whole new substitute reality is created and it needs to compensate for it so it creates a hold the reality not recognizing who it is and the same what happened to the neshamah happened to all the psalmist all mid sources all that suits us are really neshama is doesn't show me everywhere you say this is on a shaman there's a spark there's a soul so therefore all these sparks are now in clip as well that clip is so physical again we understand there's a shelters are not here if you're talking a spiritual idea it means that then it suits us themselves our shells in other words they are operating in a space in a in a reality in a dimension of distortion with their own light cannot be experienced by themselves because there is a clip and now here after make an important Hara when we give physical metaphors we could never get stuck in them because if yes we get stuck in a clipper and a metaphor is a clipper the worst thing is to get stuck in the clip so here it's always important to distinguish between the spiritual and the physical the physical it's two things you have a knot and you have the shell of the knots it's two separate things and spatially it's two entities you have the orange and the orange peel the banana and the banana peel the bar and the wrapper are on top of the bar that you have to remove in order to get out the bar in spiritual reality it's not spatial it's the same thing when you speak about a khalifa in spiritual reality we're not talking about a spark that's stuck inside of a shell and the shell is around the spark and you remove the shell you extract the spark in spatial terms we use that metaphor to understand explain the idea but don't get confused spatially the knit suits is the Clipper the Clipper is the Mitchells meaning the spark of holiness becomes convoluted it becomes manipulated it becomes distorted so that the energy is not really reflecting what it truly is and it's therefore becomes in its own mind and its own perception something else of what it really is that is a hard till you till you do spirits eclipses that's the point that's gonna be the answer yes of course just like this saw coming out of it's right right however however either you see the mid suits of kedusha or you see it from a cover or perspective that is based on a cover up like we spoke at length in the previous days that sometimes you see reality but this reality has legitimacy only because there's a cover up in other words there is a clip either on your eyes or on the object or a combination of both which allows me to create a certain reality this reality becomes a reality due to a a perception which and that perception is not rooted and complete truth it's either rooted in half truth or rooted in a complete lie right that's what we mean and then the very same reality something else for one person it's this for another person that's something else but one person this reality doesn't exist and for another person this reality is very powerful or not truth or lack of it yes yes but since truth is ain't so so therefore truth itself you know has many gradations it's not like it's it's not black and white cuz we did it with infinity right so again Clippers can have let multi be multifaceted multi mental it could be a thin one it could be a thick one could be a complete distortion after distortion and so forth right but there is a quant there is a quantum leap between kedusha and clip and others kedusha even if it's the most restricted level of energy it's not based on a lie it may be a restricted level of energy you may teach a fuss at homage to a five-year-old boy and you're given the most basic basic layer of shot it lacks the full depth and sophistication but it's real it's real right you're teaching a mission on the most basic level it has everything inside of it so it's not really clipper even though it's restricted it's living and then there's that quantum leap to a place of distortion where it is already a different reality that is introduced outside of the device right less yeah yeah right yeah Milan McCoy - does Milan because there's - the first night a second night a third night right Harlem I hit sear this hour my breathe is a LeMat said looseness nefesh you're welcome to Sean Mathias etc this weekdays the Shabbos disjunctive does Yom Kippur I mean etc this high dude is so consumed in this business krishna this krishna this - hey Zell Joya Indian noises samosa microstrip Amit slam candela come on Amir Tasha on a regular car term here me it's a shot with us this was the whole concept of the wonders in the miracles and it's really widened stomm a dramatic display of Hashem yokosuka's really - yeah basically God says I'm gonna flex my muscles and when I flex my muscles watch out but rather there was a Titan that was being conveyed here the whole story of passions were a departures boy of all the marcus noises in my sim as we're going to explain has to do with a cosmic form of therapy where we have the beginning of the process of healing the sparks and extracting them from this from the shawls and the husks to explain this he starts off with a hammer shifter this topic he makes if the posix says in teenagers bernard semi a damascus as a gang or Masami parted valhalla doubted russia Shaima effort peace and remember the story partials bodacious turner says that hashem created a gun we call it gun aid in the Garden of Eden Ben no hurry oh you see me Aidan lashka Susannah a river comes out of Eden to irrigate the garden other men have are placed in that garden which is filled with trees including the tree of my life in the tree of knowledge who me some you parted from that garden the river splits at fragments for how you live our ocean splits into four different outlets four rivers you have the hey Decco you have the price you have the geek line and you have the patient the deckle is the Tigris process the Euphrates ration suspicion is the Nile and geek find they're still arguing about what it is the Persian Gulf the black seed in the NCAA ok whatever there's different interpretations certainly the biggest action around the creation of the world happened in an Iran Iraq Iraq was always the place to be it's still the place to be if you're looking for action it always was it seems like he'll be a summer share some the Iraq got a sauce palm with barley happens in Iraq whatever it's all around the Tigris and the Euphrates River the action never subsided there for a single day it's not a place of vacation god Nathan in in biblical and Judaism is not his fight for GaN Eden it's a different type of fitna Bogany huh it was food there was the Fertile Crescent that's where everybody ate and there were trees there yeah if you consider that food I mean in America they wouldn't consider that food shame effort piss shine and then you have a daiquiri of giving up Russ Peter - what does this mean spiritually Norah HC me a Denis I'm shocked over Hara and I'm shocked as Mohammed ah a law that's elusive Omalu Bashar in Southborough there's gonna be in this paragraph a few mystical terms but the main thing is you come to life some people shut down but the main thing is to focus on the idea nor Yeats maa that a river represents a flow like literally rivers are born in usually often in Wellsprings and the river is an extension it's a flow so that's what he says nor is armed shock of a heart it's a flow it's a communication it's a light that comes from what's called Adin Adin in Titus and Esther is hakama ela dot sillas the highest spiritual universe preceding our world is called our zilla's and the highest level of atilla's is called karma because that's the first Sofia the first absolute it'll hakama in law that's casaya the higher karma that's the Aden Shabana Luba Sharon Salzberg and casa milà vassilis you have a clear manifestation of the infinite energy in other words karma is a state of consciousness that is still cognizant of ain't safe above all you're the Nemesis a ten Sephirot sillas heads through Klosterman Ange safe is communicated through the hall to the whole world of our Zyliss Menemsha our cleanest mouth was not sinless Andy Creeggan all the way down from Aden into the garden which is associated with the last sphere of atilla's called mal goes Mizell la Hache crisis egg on the river leaves Aidid which is karma to irrigate to give vitality to give ivation us to give irrigation to give water to the garden which is Marlo's the Shum bot sillas Eva garma is God behind and in the world of our zilla's he and his me dice are 1e you are Ziva garma ER his lavash and his garments actually in the in english he say garments this is an expression of Zoe Hart eheu vegara Mui shot in the world of art Ellis he and his garments are one what does this mean it means that is a world where there is complete unity there is no distinction between the garment and him what we would call between the shell and he there's absolute complete unity there's a cognizance that everything is an extension of the ain't safe once you hit other mob Rhea now you start the world of fragmentation in our world it's not just a world of fragmentation of compartmentalization it's a world of complete separation a world in which one could walk the face of the planets for 80 90 100 years and I'd even recognize one is that essentially the world you know thought that we're all part of one organic holistic infinite unity but in that sillas everything is still one Villa Hainan our effort and that's why as long as it's in the garden the river is one Shalom Hadas it's called the world of oneness the world of cohesiveness the world of complete integration it's already a world there is a certain level of consciousness but we discussed that others fear am I'm not gonna get it out to the difference of out Cilla's breeding it's serious SIA it's a significant as we did it once in one of the memoriam I think she was time however what's important here to understand is there is an evolution of states of consciousness the highest one is at sillas where there is a complete recognition of unity axis in other words when you speak about on a Shama of at Cilla's what's it mean a neshama vassilis until this doesn't mean a world that is 100 million light years away you get into a spaceship and you take off and after a hundred million light years you find it Syria after two hundred million light years you'll hit it Syria after a billion light years you'll hit Bria and after sect iliyan light years you're gonna bump into our zilla's good luck until is really it seriousiy are really for perceptions it's for ways of looking at the same reality in other words our Zyliss is here it's a certain pair of glasses it's a certain vantage point on the summer of excellence means a soul that looks at the world from the perspective of excellence which is a perspective of actus of complete unity then you have one river there's only one rivet is one flow it's a river but it's one the key when she literally sharia once it hits the tip of the world of Ria's imma show me a pirate the river is now fragment the patinas petered this how Khosla dollar the hardest show to the size conquers the beginning of fragmentation begins with four four rivers the he made commercial on the hardest take a metaphor of rivers in our economy la havana no one river is similar to his colleague Lloyd me Musa not in its substance Giselle my Masuka Nets Lulu and vache Nina King one river may have sweet water one liver may have clear water the other way or may have very different type of water the like the guideline not the size then them said Messiah parser is shining them said Maya the size of rivers one continue for 200 parts one is a hundred parts of the governor every River is completely different caffeine diamond Manohar is Alyona Zelizer the higher rivers the spiritual rivers are not similar Dino P shine P shine which is one of the four is Neil Isis the Nile Sasha mitzrayim represents the spiritual energy of the Senayan name should have enough Labine it suits him robbing me alum ha told you yes in a Martian awful above oh you can't compare the Tigris River to the Euphrates River the Nile River to the to the to the Persian Gulf you can't compare them what do we mean spiritually once there is this calculus everything isn't really different you can't compare the sparks of toyo that fell into Egypt to the sparks of thought that fell into Babylonia to the sparks of Palio that fell into America to the sparks of tell you that felon to other parts of the world every River has its own dimension it all comes from one place from one River and the river comes from Aden with this complete after us and therefore there's no division whatsoever and there's no Clippers there's no shells there's no disunity however once the river starts splitting out it starts in four but from the four as we know there are no four rivers in the world but many more starts off with four but then ultimately everything develops in its own way and has its own chemistry its own character its own water its own size which spiritually represent the fact that then it suits us although they all come from one source ultimately they splinter and now every person every country every star every milieu every animal every atom has its schnitzels its type its unique niches with with its unique Clippers its unique challenges its unique dimensions and here you have the world of his hulka's the world of fragmentation and in each nor you have a different dynamic which would explain why image try him it was more of a necessity for samosa VAT of Goldsmith's Ryan and Adam killed his mother he's right there was no more it was morning so much morning so to said much more Clippers in which nine they live it as their easel says from the 288 sparks Veeru akela Kim may rock surface raft Merrick emphases race pace chest mace 202 ended up in Egypt a dove Rav Allah eaten race bass and 86 everywhere else and that's why you don't go back to miss Ryan so therefore that's why he says NIM should have enough flow but it suits him not much more than bhava I mean the rivers or if Canadian isn't this planet I don't know I know Canadians in this book that I know but at the U Vanina my share Assembly's Burdick limits right that's what I heard for a moisture Shapiro's the Journal of rocker he was here a few months ago he told me the after you've an Indian emotion you remember he was here Shabbos yeah yeah the last year there at my Shapiro gave wasn't by Rochelle from all the places in the world yeah the last the last year he gave was here he never gave a afterwards because he was very ill so much Mileva Maric I was with him so he tells me that he says I was in you did she was speaking she says a will fill in Tom GaN Eden I want to experience granadan some spices and I'll I mean not similar and I lock myself in a room remember I saw Toyota early look at the Toyota I learned it for hours in there spinning I made the after you Venini remove sand sheriff Emmons Boras limits right now will understand the miracles that are shem showed him it's right commercial Kosovo Sam tells moisture the objective is VA do Mitzrayim kemiya sham how does everyone Titus Egypt should discover should become cognizant that is a god he says no Peters VA go in Menasha Chavira in Pandavas language yay da doesn't only mean knowledge it means breaking commercial coast of South temperate Hesse via da bomb Assange Shizuka's there was a war that Gideon fights against the people of sucrose and he uses thorns or other weapons and he says via da bomb Rashi says vltava the met people of suckas will be broken through it so he teaches VA demetria means you have to break the Clippers of Messiah that's me while Indian Kim of Allah my Allah we explain cerca de Lloyd see under suits maniacally Palma house Allah in order to get then it sits out of the shell that covers it EF cilia skin my dear it's a clipper you have to break the shell commercially I go it's like they're not Walmart if you don't break the warm up there's no way of extracting the fruit what happens if your whole life you say there's nothing inside the wall not everything is just a shell there's nothing else why are you breaking my life somebody takes a hammer and stop destroying me this is me say it's not you it's your shell no no this is me I never learned that as anything else but my shell so to break the shell is the greatest favor you can do for this person because he doesn't even know there's something inside of it the shell became him there's nothing else sometimes you look at a person there's no person there's a shell there's only a house there's nothing else there it's only a husband to mass the greatest Mitzvah you can do is break it because if you break it suddenly they feel they're dying but really they start living telling you don't break it they're actually dead they think they're alive the moment you kill them they have to use a Mason that's what the Chimera says and Thomas what should a person do in order to live my says he has to die what should you do in order to die you gotta live so what's a shot in order for the mid suits the courts time they were known for the niches to come out you have to kill the fakeness if you don't kill the fakeness you don't kill the cover-ups then that's it there is to me I don't even know that there's something inside so the schmira is only not because you want to break because you want to give birth because you want your truth should emerge and remember again psychologically when I talk about two things it's not spatial it's one entity that is really a cover-up it's one entity that doesn't know itself that is completely manipulated so the severus are clipless is to take out the edge this is presumably why they weren't laid that means to know someone intimately because you're breaking figures of course of course very good what's the connection between das and VII right it's opposite for other murders cava to know somebody means not to know them based on their shells and not to let them know you based on yourselves your discover means there was an honest relationship that's why intimacy as they say is into me see into me see okay you got that so you have what to say over into me see me let me real me but sometimes me doesn't know me right sometimes that itself is a challenge but all bias comes from breaking away shipping away on the clip in order to extract it that's what das is that's what knowledge is that's the beginning of knowledge of anything of a person or of reality how do you look at another person you don't look at another person on their shells you look at yourself without your shells when you look at yourself without your shell so when you look at another person you already see something else people who live in a deeper space they see depth wherever they go people who live superficially only see superficiality wherever they go they can't see anything else that's how it is so when you live with your own pet when you live with your own Clippy you see Clippers everywhere that's what you know you don't know anything else everything is Clippers right people who are cynical see cynicism everywhere people who lie think that everybody lies they always say you know when somebody starts telling I'm telling you the truth I swear to you I'm telling you the truth why do you think I think you're lying unless you think you're lying that's your second home that mob are you saying the truth because we we naturally what we own is what we project to others says falling into the inion and now we come back to miss Ryan shy they should be this a clipper usually is Gillian and say butter : it's at such a low below Casillas bar huh precious words by breaking the Clipper you're not breaking you're allowing for birth you're allowing for revelation you're allowing that the knit suits should experience itself as part of ain't safe this should be Gillian except article on its attorneys translated in English it means that the spark which is completely covered should be able to experience itself as an expression of infinity to be pointy you Salalah to be able to be submerged subsumed included in a la casilla sparked the zoeng and this is shot when the Jews wanted to find what happened that the end of UT's was signed by clear stamps if we say it every day soos very shway ramavaram how do we tight the horse and it's rider he crawled into the sea Rama he threw he lifted up and through cast into the sea sea tides as I finish her rusev who a clipper or a civil Mikasa manages the race of the rider is the clipper that defines the horse somebody who knows horseback riding well knows the deep relationship between the horse rider and the horse m/s you have a traveler who know this is again it's not portions from all animals the horse has a very special emotional relationship with the rider of the horse it died first fully directs the horse but is also those who know horses they know everything the horse knows the person the person knows the horse very sensitive animal the horses Seussville race freedom of a young me says it's a muscle derisive is the Clipper race of a McCollum it's resulting in my Cuba's pirate that's why party was so busy with his chariots the chariots are representative of the race women who are right of alysus by the sri Rossum is gala one that suits us vanilla banks I borrow he takes the sauce and the right one the sauce and the relative of the source which is manipulating the horse because the Clipper completely redefines the knits us Rama vayam by Yama is a metaphor of Alma discussed the world where there's no separation because in the yam back to the north that's why I spoke about the NAR back to the yam creatures in the yarn ever leave the sea you can't tell a fish say go to dry land and live like the famous Marshall learn about Kiva tomorrow in Brussels on McAuliffe right the fish lives in the ocean what does that represent it represents somebody who knows he's part of ain't sighs that's his life you don't go out of the sea there's a world that the sea is a world of askus when you look at the ocean you see no fragmentation the gomora says in full and komai shares by yahweh abbas a common shares be a brush by yacht when you look at the ocean all you his water that shot Kamala RHD assertion Kamiya liya mahasin one under the water there's a whole world but they're all defined by the water bed in other words when we speak about that sillas it doesn't mean there's no separation there's no individuality but it means every of the original sees himself or herself as submerged in one bed of water so there's no distinction what do I mean there's no distinction I may have a different mission than you but it doesn't put me in a world that's separate from you distinctions and diversity does not translate into fragmentation and disputation in other words to create unity you don't need everybody to be the same you need everybody to understand that there are an expression of infinity and on the contrary if I am like you I'm denying infinity because infinity means that truth is not limited to one color infinity means it includes infinite colors so by talking about everybody being the same we deny the infinity of God you understand when we define unity as everybody looking the same it's because we don't appreciate that the source of reality is infinite in other words we really believe that God has a color so one community says God is orange the other community says God is yellow one decided he's green and one decided he's black one decided he's white I'm sorry but what they all believe the same thing that's the funny thing the black and the white actually believe the same thing God looks one way and we define what he looks like instead of humans being created in God's image God is created in man's image or whatever that image you want to call ain't safe is ain't safe so every color is part of ain't safe so I don't need all the colors to be the same I need all colors to understand that they're part of the app so you take Seussville a realm of I am that small or Isaiah saw some camel mikasa or bizarre you to this much accustomed to curious yumps of the yadu mitzvot in kenya Shambala height of Tamura chair the howling civil initial bat my dad says nobody was left over so how do you say new you can't know if you dead and a depilatory a dilution schmira the ADA midstream is it was the severe why he days are Aguilar and in South LA and it suits envy him y'all do you do your mama's can yes sir and the sparks that can no so v8 who has two interpretations you break the outer so that the inner could no you break the outer one you dear so that there could be a real idea that the mitosis really know very much the curse of Makkah Maharaja shizzle I'll bet it's a higher India Nasser Marcus birthday LeSabre Clippers Lloyd's amendment it suits all the ten markers had the same function in mature I am there was someone in it suits us and there were so many Clippers that there was a need for all the ten plagues which each one in its own way kept on breaking the shells and breaking the husks to be able to extract the kedusha awfully strong AB some of my lead system emotional game I mean ebony my minute commercial Kosovo Yamin on by ich Makka pakka - and they themselves didn't need it says in schmoes that they believed that wish villa hootsie on it suits a sum of loyal tohe clippers mamas in order to extract the sparks which were a mama subs or really in the Clipper truthfully asbestos and Marcus announcer selfish movie aadum it's non Kenya so all the Marcus wasn't stomachs a story to show off for Egypt there were different ways that the Jews could come out of mitzrayim different ways to break pirate Marcus produce could have happened the first day the per shot is this was a process of an educational process for the Jewish people an educational process for the world and a redemptive process for all the net suit cysts that existed in mr. Lyon to be able to emerge mama is it possible mama the Clippers that were most hard as opposed to Israel rider own cleavers that they were thinner membrane yes that for that but yeah I mean on that yes yes yes they don't need that schmira they don't need that schmira and we understand this in relation and work with people sometimes a person has to be broken to become a human being it's sad but sometimes as long as the person is not broken he will remain a shell forever because you have the security and the comfort zone to remain stuck we all know that crisis can lead to destruction crisis sometimes leads to the deepest opportunities in fact if you'll speak to most people most many many people who have begun a journey and call it a journey of recovery a journey of a real growth it usually was initiated or at some point there was a tremendous breakdown which is called Saphira with their system broke down emotionally psychologically socially spiritually religiously things nothing was working to the point that they looked in the mirror and they said why am i alive lamas our nation well what's gonna be the future of my life that moment we always look like we always look at as the lowest moment of our life really that moment paradoxically is often the deepest moment of life in fact it may be the moment when you're closest to God for Harari you'll see that those people will often crave looking back for that moment why is that the moment you may be closest to God because that's actually when God reached it out and broke the Clipper and when he broke sit it's like being thrown off a bridge and of course when you're thrown to the bridge you don't know that it's a mattress gonna come out and there's gonna be arms that are gonna catch you you just feel suspended in the air somewhere you know off the bridge without anything at least before I had a clip I was comfortable with it sokar newest hot dog Russian I love him it's Ryan that's why throughout the 40 years in the desert all the Jews were saying is let's go back to Egypt like a battered woman syndrome at least there I'm in a comfortable shell that's abusive but I know what it is so when that happens when it breaks it's extremely scary and when it's skinned with that scariness is the beginning of salvation because the the clip is broken and the niches could actually emerge the truth can emerge you can for the first time hear somebody say something ms say something truthful because everything else broke down why does it have to happen that way sometimes the clip is very thick there's no way of getting into it it's just - it's completely behind of course it's ongoing work of course how does it happen it starts off with God's work always he starts off the process so there's always empty blade that's number one like he said Euler might tell you we didn't do that that he did once that came into reality now Baruch Hashem humanity knows how to wear enhance on it enhance on it huh what's your shot you want me to start blaming your mother I mean what do you want me to do I could start blaming your mother we could do that if you want and she could blame her mother and she so ultimately go back to Java who's gonna blame the snake and then any we're gonna have to go back to God so let's just start with him right I once saw a yield he came into her shoulder she was a messy show Friday night and he takes off his coat and he fathered me puts it on the floor so he says why do you put another voices when I come back is anybody gonna be on the floor so why don't we just start this way it'll be nice on the floor you're gonna go back there anyway but the truth is it is a very healing that's a very healing idea because if ultimately this is essential to the process of creation it means you're not the meshuggeneh outcast who's suffering like nobody else it means that this is now a void and the void of life is severus a Clippers Cherise a Clippers is not just a Vaart it's the void of life and everything well Adam your does have a sorceress a Clippers Cherise a Clippers is the daily avoid of not allowing the fitzy Nia's to redefine the premise on the contrary allowing the pen amis to define the societies now I want to learn one more stinkle here when I am able to finish the one one one more stick here and finish with it was they you Vernon you know my face Hrishikesh and his brothers Lapera is showing in action epic a model of my flesh as a la dama local as the market now comes on lloyd at the Kevorkian now will understand why the opening of the story before anything was one miracle when moisture come star chemin says nobody's gonna believe me take the stick throw it down let it become as he does it that becomes a snake moisture runs away he says hop on this snake at the tail and he does then it becomes a stick when he's going to pirate that's in schmoes when the coming invader comes to Padre what does Hashem says before you go to party the first thing is gonna tell you is show me a miracle what should you do tell Aaron to take a stick throw it to the ground Aaron does that the stick converts into a serpent town in a snake what happens after that Pyrus magicians do the same thing and then the snake of Aaron converts back into a stick and ultimately his stick swallows up their sticks that is the introduction for all the 10 miles Rashi says it says by evil amate Irina smarter samsara Sheila after shall cause Arvin epic LaMotta Boas mutters it had to first become a stick at the surface we read the stories I was like okay another story you know let my people go let my people go no no no I won't let them go and with all the songs you'll hear amid such them tonight that the Shabbos table hopefully and if you don't hear the songs don't get angry come a double ale it's fine you could sing another song and but what is the point what is the point is basically once in history God said I'm gonna display some I'm gonna display some of my yet my my arsenal yeah my Arsenal's and that's what we do now to hepatitis and he says no no no no this is the whole part of what happened this is not a small story that was a trick I'm cooler than another billion tricks if you're the creator of the world so sticks could become snakes and snakes it becomes thick's and leopards could become sheep and goats could become lionesses yeah you could do it all and the song could become the moon and the moon could look become a human being or a mouse fight the Vaart is that this story contains the entire spiritual message why hey hey he may in unison Marcus manure Shula Chhabra clippers the ten markers we say was to break clip - eh but dove Arbuthnot's me what's clipper clipper we say is a shot what does it really mean it means the conception of life that's just you have to you see everything here has to be understood stop with the word Clippers Clippers as shells it's too mystical it's too it's too non-personal he says Clippers means the conception that you're detached from God that means you're living in a shell the conception that you detached from infinity commercial cost of Leah IAT the river is mine the need to take credit for the river that's the greatest clip why do you have to take credit for the river because you feel you don't exist that's why we take credit for things I don't exist why don't I exist because I'm living in a distorted reality that I'm separate from ain't safe when you swing you're one with ink so if you don't have to prove your existence God doesn't sit every morning and say okay who's gonna give me a compliment today to prove my existence even though sometimes in domini it could sound that way with all the hallelu cause how many other Lucas does he want to hear okay but that's a separate circuit you're not dealing with an existence that needs validation when you when you when you don't exist then the river has to be yours then I need this I need this I need this why because there's nothing else there so all Clippers basically the distortion that your age would ever be from a yachtsman so therefore you become so arrogant because you're so small when you have nothing you have to have everything you cannot connect it to anything real rock the coral a la carte de la calle canal pirate : the god of gods but he had to be a gun being and I'm I've sinned who what are the Moi's and the wonders in Egypt La Hire isla have to demonstrate to the Egyptians a Sheree Mayo is some penis Clippers versus random Amish even though they're tacky Clippers mama SH look what they're doing I felt pique NEMA cobbling machine stomach Medusa before eager they should know that every moment their entire vitality and substance is coming from holiness mate sir Bishop AMS a numb years with over different McCoy Sethe and really they're not separate as they are in their own full SaLuSa nation and delusion damina McCoy sir L ashamed Palin but atlas look a Bella Casillas bar they're completely one and aligned and submerged in godliness rap really tell this to Pyrrha sure rock shy she use names should let my famous sauce and we're specialist my biggest album about so the vitality comes to them through veils and through an evolutionary process of many many gradations that are so powerful in the diluting of the energy and the compromising of the energy the governor called Concord Simpson and their state imagine you I'm Ally I really did seem summon the concealments are so powerful that the ain't sight that is fueling my consciousness allows my consciousness to say I made the river it allows my consciousness to be able to cliff completely in a shell and that itself is coming from God from condition that ain't safe is allowing a reality that says there's no such a thing as ain't safe there's only me why is that if it's ain't safe energy because it comes through such concealment that it can be completely distorted and misused what we call me illa you completely misuse it Villa hey Vigo Lisa ordered a bushel of my lemonade Simpson man hain tell them to move atala so what has to happen to really challenge them and nullify them all you have to do is give a little oil a little more than a sense of a little higher than Simpson meaning give a little dosage of energy that's not restricted and then they cease to exist you know because they never existed their whole existence is really ain't safe it's just ain't ciphers concealed so therefore a distortion of reality creates a substitute existence the moment reality emerges the moment you strip them beer the moment the ER is not with symptom anymore the moment they face truth you don't have to fight the potato Mottola bizarre union of myself this is basically with the knife sim or so where malar he wants to say what are we gonna do here in mid san let me tell you what we're gonna do Bowser you murder my physician Binion amatriciana pathology the first it comes out in the stick that becomes a snake and I want to say here outside the naquadah before was going to learn inside the mid-session as we continue on Monday and that is as follows a stick and a snake are very interesting a stick by definition is straight it's a branch of a tree that develops into a cane a stick we use it as a walking stick or whatever we use it that's a stick a snake is anything but straight we talk about this serpentine gait right you ever watched a snake it goes in one direction and then it curves and it curves back and it curves back so Amata is a straight stick and a snake is very very crooked it curves there's something that's very sophisticated about the serpentine gait but as we know it's also lethal and poisonous this stick becoming a snake and then becoming a snake again is really the whole story there's nothing more to the story that's the whole story the stick represents a flow like evolve a flow from what from the divine energy that comes down throughout the world into this world that's the stick and it's straight meaning on the bottom you could look up and you could see where it comes from what happens in life however the same stick becomes a snake the same energy becomes suddenly an ostrich and here nothing is straight anymore everything that's crooked everything does the store is going this direction they go this time everything on the opposite direction the maneuver is in very different than conflicting directions meaning that very same energy becomes distorted crooked in perception where suddenly your entire entity is really kedusha God is with you at every moment you're part of Ange so if you're really infinite but suddenly you take that energy and like a snake completely distorted completely your perception becomes a perception of a shell and a husk that blocks the truth of your reality but wait a minute it's really a stick and therefore the snake is not really a snake the snake is what it's think that went weary so what do you really have to do you just have to touch it you have to look at it you get you run away from it he says don't run away go into it and you'll see if we're gonna become part of stick gonna become a stick with that really it now I'm going to give you in conclusion I'm going to give you three models for this in our contemporary world in our own psyche in our own psyche a husband comes to me and he says I hate my wife that's amazing I'll see you was sleeping all she was sleeping now you woke up yes present company always excluded especially you my Slough the gun sir she I said I hate my wife he woke up he says I despise her I feel alienated III don't like spending time every time she calls I already I already don't feel good no what does it look like what do we we call this 8 disgust i lo the person I'm not interested in a person leave me alone why does he they live together whatever working out it's a business relationship you have kids whatever it's cheaper than a divorce right that's the surface one second let's find out maybe there's something else is it may be possible that it's really the opposite story he really loves his wife terribly tremendously LMI this is a man like many a man who needs attention from his wife he never told it to her she never picked up on it he wants his wife to give him tremendous amount of attention and recognition and nurture him and empower him and build him up and accept him for who he is desperately which is a very deep and vulnerable and primal human need especially for men he never shared it or she never understood it or he maybe didn't know it about himself and he was embarrassed so what happens after a while that he's not yet it in order to protect himself and cover up his pain what does he do what does he do this person is a horrible person why I need you so much and it's so painful that I don't get it from you that the only way I could deal with you is by dismissing you out of my life and you create this terrible negative energy because the expectation and the potential was so deep and it was destroyed in my life and therefore you bring up for me is so much pain in other words if you really look at the hate what do you see you see love story number two a child is alienated from his father you asked the boy ask the girl what about your father Oh my father my father is not a father I don't have a father I don't have a father what happened is it always that the father was a monster as a Russian Irish or maybe it's the other way around maybe this child loves his father maybe this girl loves the farm they needed a father more than anybody else perhaps because of their sensitivities the father wasn't emotionally available again amazing but sure you get vorenus whatever it is it's not even a gaya now the child to experience that pain is too difficult so what does he do he looks at this person and he says this person is a monster this person I not only do I not need this person I don't have I don't need it I'm not interested in him your lack of interest is really profound interest in fact the depth of your lack of interest is your interest you're so interested you so much connected that's why you have to be so disconnected a third situation is a father called me and tells me that his his son was dust his teenage son was diagnosed as antisocial somewhat Asperger's doesn't like people can't deal with people and he tells me that his wife and then watched a video of his chart of his this kid as a young kid and he was the most social in the whole family they forgot he was the most social he was fearless he hung out with everybody he was inquisitive and suddenly now he doesn't have a dosage of curiosity nothing he says the whole world doesn't interest him is it possible that it's the other way around his lack of social interest becomes because of this profound social connections and therefore he felt people so deeply that perhaps if he was hurt to backstab the only way to deal with it was say I don't care about anybody because it's too painful for me to be present and then get hurt this is all an example of one reality and that is what looks like one thing is not only not that it's the exact opposite and the way to fix it is not by running away from it the way of fixing it is by looking into it by holding on to it by gazing into it that's the whole story of Cleveland the story of clip is it's a status thing it's really love you love this person this marriage is actually a beautiful marriage it's so beautiful that it became so horrible if it wouldn't be beautiful if you wouldn't see in this woman so much and so much potential it wouldn't be horrible it's so beautiful became so horrible because the energy got distorted in your mind and what your psyche sees is I love this person I hate this person this person makes me miserable imagine if you could see what's behind that misery behind that misery is I really have a need that you can fill and you could share it and you can articulate it and the other person can understand it and start giving it to you listen it takes a lot because you have to break the clip for 20 years you hated your wife it's not easy to say I really love this person you have to break your own clipper but what happens when you break it you reveal that the snake was a snake and therefore the snake will become a stick this class is brought to you by the achieve Annette please help us continue the classes make even a small contribution at triple w dot they ueshiba net / donate