Beyond Suppression: The Fierce Appetite of the Tzaddik || Likkutei Torah Shlach Ani Hashem #6

the yeshiva.net. >> Good morning again. Good morning everybody. Good morning. Good morning. Welcome. Okay. Good morning. Good morning. Good morning again. Honor to have you. My teacher comes back the second time in a row. Wow. Okay. You want to get feedback to all everything you taught, huh? It's called okay when the titl page 94 the last piece of the mime again on top it should say page 94 in the Hebrew it's me Zion column 3 me Zion column 3 it's the second so today's class is dedicated by Rabbi Abraham and Sarah Lipkar and family alunishmas in loving memory of David not Vikna in honor of his yard site on Tamos the 26th of Tamos. Rabbi Viknan was the RV of the Tamakadik Schul in Muny and Rashiva of Teresa Bakur in Morristown for many many years created here an amazing community and many many students and may his memory and soul continue to be a source of blessing and inspiration and purity and holiness. Amen. The class is also dedicated by Elanora Shandel Kogan in memory of her beloved father Haken Bramaka Baltuva who dedicated his life to Tyra and Mitzvite and from Melbourne Australia to May his soul be a source of blessing and inspiration to you the entire family and all of the community and our people. Amen. Okay. So, I want to I want to review the few last lines that we learned and then continue cuz to be able to see the flow. So, I told you we're page 94, right? So, the this is the end of the third. The mimer has three chapters and then there's a beer an explanation on the mimer. The alterba would often say a mimer and then a few days later or a week later say a sequel a sequence a sequel to the mimer which is usually more complex and more nuanced referencing the sources. So that this mime also you see on the next says this is a a little bit of an explanation on the on the mimer. So that's the next piece but the mimer itself finishes after the third chapter piml. So if you take a look at the line starts that's 94 I know like 10 lines from the top. Yeah I just want to read those words again even though we read those few lines. The first thing before he gets to the next step He puts in a warning. Do not suru. The word suru is actually have in the beginning of also the miraagum were given a mission vasuruanuru means to survey to scout to uh look at to take a tour through something and examine it. That's what the word suru means. They came back from pouring from surveying the land. That's the beginning of the end of finishes with the same words. It's very interesting. Now, she says over there that the eyes are what the spies were for the Jewish people. The eyes are for every individual. They see things and they trigger the heart because the heart and the eyes they scout, you know, they they they sift, they sniff out the world and they give you information like spies and you could become you can go astray says that's the first step here. Why? This was the last point we learned and one of the key points of this m love. Whenever you crave something, you long for something means longing, right? Is longing, pining, yearning, craving for something in a in a in a very real way. So, whenever there's something that you crave for it, that is the definition of femininity. The definition of femininity is feminine energy is I'm longing. I'm craving. I'm yearning. I'm yearning for some form of attachment. That's the definition of it's being in a receptive mode. I want to receive. I need to receive. I crave to receive. So he says be careful. But then you can also become a z. Because the question is what are you mabo from? What are you opening your heart to? I'm longing. We're all longing for attachment, but where am I look? Where am I looking for it? Where am I finding it? You plug off the the pipe, the channel. You plug the channel that puts you into flow to receive authentic bliss and you substitute it for pseudo. You know, it's counterfeit money. I can get a real $100 bill, but I get a fake $100 bill. You know why? It doesn't cost anything. To get a $100 bill, I have to pay $100. To get a fake dollar bill, I don't have to pay anything. Because always opening yourself up to something authentic, it comes with the price of authenticity. Authenticity, truth, dealing with reality. It's it's staying in reality. Staying in reality, as you know, can be very painful. But that pain is worth every moment of it because going away from reality is much more painful. Maybe not in the short term, but in the long term. So that's the choice a person needs to make because I will never be able to receive. I will never be able to be a nukva to be feminine in the sense of attachment that will allow me to channel to to receive and if I substitute it for tanugum means aug which he explained earlier in the m this was the whole theme of the if I go for the if I go for the for the drags for the residue even though there's something there I'm going to get something it's not like you're not going to get anything there's I don't mean to say it this Butus has virt not virtues it has there's a reason that people go to right there's a reason for it to cultivate that real deep relationship that is lifelong that is that is profound that is authentic I don't have to tell you it takes a lot a lot of work there's disappointment there's alias there's right harlotry prostitution promiscuity is like a microwave oven it's fast and it's hot you don't want to bake the potato. Your grandmother used to bake a potato for an hour and 25 minutes. You remember anybody had a grandmother who would bake potatoes in an oven? Huh? >> Too young, huh? You don't go back that far. I had a grandmother. A potato took an hour, but she wanted it to be better. So, it was an hour and 25 minutes. A m an hour and 45 minutes. By that time, you by that time you expired from starvation. Yeah. Today, you tell that to somebody. If it takes more than 2 minutes, 3 minutes, you sue the company and you get a new microwave. That's true. I had to sit there for an hour and a half. That's true. Cuz I wanted a potato. Yeah. So the concept of is there's a tinuk there because as we said earlier in the m in every thing in the world there is tanuk. The question is if it's the if it's the excrement which also has something in it or it's the pimious. So if I hijack, if I grab the external tanuk, it's going to fill me externally. But what happens is I block myself off from being in flow with the tuggal, with the divine tanuk. So all forms of femininity is really the openness to the fact that I long for something. That is what femininity means. And it's a very vulnerable posture. That's why people are not so comfortable with it. It's a very vulnerable posture. One of the great tragedies that happened in our generation is that even women stopped appreciating what femininity is. Men also but women too. And really femininity is the source of all attachment. It's of course I'm longing for something. It means I have a void. Having a void is vulnerable. Yeah. Having a void is vulnerable. The gmorrah says in p test is going to quote this gamorra soon in the m. So I looked it up this morning. So the Gmorrah says over there that says we're going to create in our image. So the students ask was one of the great this is this is seems like heresy knew in our image how many gods are there in my image? That's what they ask. It's a long a long sug. go through all the that seem to contradict you know the monotheistic faith of Yiddish of Hashem but this is one of them so he tells the Talmidim so he gave an answer that's an answer for heretics but now tell us the real answer so he says that Adam was created from from earth was created from Adam but those are the only two he says from that day on There's no man without a woman. There's no woman without a man. And both of them can't be without the So it's a what they call it takes a village to raise a child. Of course, you need a male seed to fertilize. You need a female egg, the mother. And it's But it's also emotionally. Emotionally, there's no child. It's not a combination of masculinity and femininity. And both are receptive of the divine of the Shina. So this experience I have a void. Of course I have a void. Thank God I have a void. The only thing worse than having a void is what's the is believing that you don't have a void. When you know you have a void, you can fill it. I seek attachment. I seek attachment. And woe to the person who says I don't need attachment. I don't have a void. I am perfect. That's it. I am. >> I don't have a flat tire. >> Very good. I don't have a flat tire. Exactly. And I continue driving. Right. Very good. I like your visceral mashalam. Right. That's the mile of being a plumber. Brian, this. And he's like flat tire. Everybody has a flat tire. Right. That's the only worst thing. Having a flat tire is not the best thing in the world, but denying that you have a flat tire is much worse. And then there's the oppos the opposite thing. A person goes out, they see they have a flat tire and they're like, "H, my tire is flat. What's the worth of this?" So what do they do? They go and they slash all the other three tires. You understand? That's the opposite approach. >> Huh? >> Or it's just a lost case, right? That's the opposite. I have a void. So now let me slash every other tire. No, your your tires are good. One tire has to be fixed. So femininity is this acknowledgement of the longing, right? Is he says you crave you crave your fire, you crave your husband, you crave your counterpart. And each one of us has that femininity because we are all feminine. We are all we're all as it always says that we are the isha of the ish. So the says be careful because when you're in that vulnerable state, you want to know what is filling the void. Where are you going to to fill the void? A lot of things could fill the void. And if you fill it with something that itself is basically fueled by its own void. So it's just using you and manipulating you. So the void only becomes much more um dramatic, much more intense. So this is always the clal that the moment I immerse myself in tanugim that are not aligned with hashem it could be a very fast fix and we all know it could be also very very enjoyable but essentially it's a form of detachment which means it's not filling the real void because I'm not attaching my true self with anything true in reality and that's the choice everybody always has to make that's the first thing he says then adds But certainly you will never be able to discover your masculinity. Right? Because these two lines are the first is be careful with your femininity where it's going to is it going to or is it going to a real relationship? And as we explained in last year at length because there's a about this that the definition of a is that I'm in a marriage that I'm in a marriage and I betray the marriage for another relationship and says what does that mean spiritually means you're in a marriage. What does it mean spiritually? Because if not you're not an asious ish you're auya. It's not a definition of za. What does it mean spiritually? You can't be a Zena if you're not first in a relationship that you're betraying. Right? And that's why said somebody who never tasted the experience. This is literally what he says in the m somebody who never experienced the bliss of divine is never called a what are you betraying? What are you betraying? If there's a deep connection and I say no to this connection that's hurtful that's called but somebody as he puts it If for me the highest definition of light is darkness that's the only definition of light that's the only light I know so of course I go to dark places to find light I don't know of any other definition of light right now just that obs observation in life is a priceless observation first of all it teaches us not to judge it also teaches us the mechanisms of things right if my entire life I never tasted authentic divine light and only substitutes fake substitutes. So of course I go to those places for light. I don't even know anything else until you don't have once in your life a reference point of authentic a you cannot blame yourself or others for going elsewhere. It's not you you never had a relationship with anything else. This is the only reference point for for experiencing something that at least will give you I don't know 20 minutes of satisfaction. >> How does one know if they had it? >> That's a good question. That's a good question. I didn't know if you're >> That's a very good question. >> I was just going to say the experience of living life will always give you flashes just by being always going to feel like at some point might not be easy. >> You don't know what real trauma is, do you? Huh? >> If that's your source of knowing about trauma, it's >> what I'm saying. para you know about trauma for my I like that. Okay. No, what I'm really saying is bas what he was saying is that you're saying if you never in a in something deep, you can't can't, you know, betray it. But just going through life, we're always going to get flashes >> through with people and with deep intensity just might not let it. >> Some of us will, some of us won't. Some of us create so many powerful coping mechanisms not consciously unconsciously that we live in a very very uh delusional world even if we're not trying to >> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. >> Even as kids don't >> it starts usually as kids. It depends. I mean there's no I don't think there's a rule here you know it's so it's so individuated. That's number one. And number two, it's also important to understand that um there was a time in my life, for example, I'll just give you an example. I spoke about this with Russell in the famous interview that uh I used to think and it wasn't it wasn't it wasn't a conscious choice. I used to think that understanding the gishmach of something is experience. I used to think so. You don't understand that? I'll explain it to you. I used to think understanding something and understanding it obviously to the best of my ability with the full depth that I could that is the meaning of the experience of it. I I really thought so and I didn't I wouldn't be able to articulate it that way because this was this was it. I'm just giving you one example and there's so many diverse you know manifestations of this. That's number one. Number two, as Dr. Reba says in the he says he actually asks your question. He says really And uh he asked this question. He says, "Why are you making this distinction?" And um I remember there was something else. Every Jew says, "My soul craves you." He says there's which means I can have a relationship that is nice, but it's external. and I can have a relationship that really fills my nervous system with with with comfort. And he says, I'm just going to quote the words in in it's page 106. We learned this on Shabas. Somebody the person who absorbed more internally, more authentically the experience of intimacy with Hashem. This person ought to be careful not to be a Z which can be even the most subtle way which for somebody else actually doesn't mean anything. There was nothing wrong here. For example, right means permissible cravings which one person doing it like you're at like this is your you know this is your aeta something permissible. But somebody who tasted real kvasikim knows that was a betrayal. Like in a marriage, I said on Shabas, you have marriages that when the husband is flirting with another woman or a woman is flirting with another man, the couple doesn't even take note of it. It's like, what happened? What happened? What? I sent a text. What happened? Really? Like in 2026, a text became the issue? So, it's not because they're so open-minded and they're so loving. It's because the relationship is much more superficial. >> Bar is low. >> The bar is very very low. >> Yeah. And they sometimes they deceive themselves and sometimes it's good for the kids and sometimes it's also good for them, you know, keeps them out of bigger trouble and sometimes it's all that is available at the moment and and it's fine. In other words, it's workable and relative to other situations, you know, it's it's pretty good. It's like relative. But somebody who knows the experience of having the deepest form of relationship, you know that even a subtle thing which for somebody else is insignificant, it this is called not for somebody else, somebody else it's not. It may even be holiness. What do you want? Right? And that that that's really what it's about. That's what he says. Ty what's tyet is a classic example for this and and you can and it's unfair to call somebody a za for tyet if they never experienced what it means to feel anoid mulvado in every bone of your body and in your nervous system it's not fear it's just not fear like you know once said the once said he was talking to hashem and he said this whole system doesn't make sense this whole system is not fair. He said like this in Yiddish. In other words, if you would have created all the distractions of this world, you would have put that in a book. If you wanted to read about the distractions of this world, you have to go by which is one of the big mus was his name and read up over there and then you'll find out what was and would be in front of everybody's eyes. Everybody say I promise you not one person would sit you put into a book. Yeah. All the other distractions are visceral. They're right here. So what do you want? Yeah. It's very powerful because what he's saying is you have to know what you're up against. So how can you call this person a zena? Because he's just following the distractions that he's been used to for 50 years. Wasn't trying to justify but he was trying to to to to everybody should appreciate what is involved. So says you can't call this person. They were never married. They were never married. Right? to be amazed to be amazed you have to be a madrega it's very hard to find today I still have not found a Jew you could say he's sinning willingly it's not so simple he's not sinning willingly he's not sinning willingly he's a he's desperate and he's wretched and he's despondent and he has anxiety and he's depressed and he's bored out of his living daylights and he's numb and he's disassoci iated and he's fragmented, right? And this is like his five minutes of of Six Flags, you know, great adventures. This is pin colada. It says slush. You know, when you go to 7-Eleven and you get your slush and you're excited about it. This is a slush to be amazed. It means you actually had to experience a relationship with a in an emotional, experiential, embodied way. And now you're saying, you know what? I'm done with you and I'm going to another woman. I'm going to another man. Okay. But for that you have to be a Madre. >> Has to be a real abandonment. >> It's abandonment. Exactly. I'm abandoning you. And that means we were really connected. We were really really connected. I felt you. I know what it is. I didn't I feel you as a B. I didn't feel you as a burden. I felt you as light. He says I felt I felt the and that was I told you last time this was the limit on the whole generation. That's why he changed you know everybody wants to know why how do why why the position changed of how you deal with secular Jews and how you deal with children who left Yiddish guy like what happened people used to sit sha your kid left there were people finet you sat sha for your child you tore your clothes there were even misnag when their children became they sat sha Isaac yeah Isaac had a father Isaac was one of the big of the alterb. He was the R of H. It was a big community. He was a gone. His father sat Shiva on him when he became a of the Reb once told this story and he said used to have a meaning that Pes he would make a on the whole sh was a soap pes he made a se on the whole sh. So after he became a he came home and his father saw that he was pes he made a se on the whole sh he relaxed. He still went through the whole sh. Okay. No, it's not the worst thing that ever happened to him, right? Huh? Say he he relaxed. I don't know if he was excited, but but it's so what like what what what what everybody was wrong until the liberals of this generation came along and said love love love. But the truth is, so there's a lot to say about this, but one is this nikuda. In order to be able to be called a Zena, you have had to be in a very deep authentic relationship that filled you emotionally, not just intellectually. You had to feel the bliss of connection. And this is what you're betraying. And that's a whole different. >> Yeah. Exactly. Exactly. The Reb once told a story that there was a Jew by his father in the Rebayatz and he was talking to him about Yiddish. So the rebay said so the the person tells the previous he says you don't know who you're talking to I'm a heretic I'm an atheist so the reb quoted his father-in-law the reb I'll say it in Yiddish from you know what kaken samkis means cracking open sunflower seeds you know people who sit a whole shambas afternoon with sunflower seeds that's called you take a and you knock it. You you like bang it, you open it up, it takes like 10 minutes, you're busy. Yeah. Huh. >> Gimm. Yeah. Yeah. So writes in the that on Shabas for he was he didn't want people to do it because of but those who don't follow that. So by the very mak not to open nuts on chabas only if it was open before chabas. That's what writes in because of he says it's a very very complex most people once because the that the peel becomes so you can't move it afterwards and right you may remove a little bit of the shock because it's blocking so he says it's so many problems so you shouldn't crack nuts on shabas okay parenthesis but uh what am I saying this ah so the said from like you know do you like calling self an apicitis. But trust me, this is not an apicitis. There was an Israeli politician who was pretty secular. So she once said, "I want the Jews, Israelis to have a Jewish education." Why? You're not religious. She said, "I want them to know what they don't believe in." So that's knowledge. But here we're not talking about knowledge here. We're talking about experience. That's already a different level. the experience of it that could make a person that that could that can allow for says. So this is the anything you crave for craving longing seeking attachment that is the definition of femininity which means acknowledging that I have a void and I want I need attachment. I crave attachment. You're an attachment. That is the definition of being a human being because we are all mablin. We're all nukva. We didn't come out just uh even if you were hatched from an egg, you crave attachment. I just had I thank you so much. I just had a chicken that uh hatched eight sat on on on on 11 or 12 eggs. Eight eight chicks came out and they came out of an egg. You remember you ever had a teacher who said what were you hatched? Anybody ever told you what we hatched? Yeah. So I actually saw the process and even they are craving attachment. It's been now a few months later, a sure the first few weeks, they won't budge without their mother. And that's those who were hatched. They didn't even come out straight from the womb. Right? This is this is the the feeling of the yearning for veas. So you want to know make sure that it's not from it's from the real tuk. And this is because as we all search for attachment and bliss in life, you want to know where you're getting it from. What am what am I going into literally was told to that you crave your husband but like every every there's a level of niggling there's a level of pimius on a plyica level it's said to every single human being woman and men because even in in when we speak about when we speak about masculinity and femininity it's not only women and men it's true a woman generally embodies femininity and a man generally embodies masculinity let's hope that we're working on It's not so simple today. But generally femininity is an energy. It's a divine energy that exists in man and exists in woman. And masculinity is an energy that exists in a man exist. The question is what is more emphasized? What you cultivate and so on and so forth. But everybody has this experience. That's why we say Hashem is the man and we are the woman. Even the men are the women because we're talking here the energy of femininity which is the of being a mabo. We're all receptive. And the only thing that's worse than not having what I want in attachment is thinking that I don't need attachment because that creates a fake reality. A horrible fake reality. That's where the ego takes over. I don't need attachment. Of course, I need attachment. Now, the question is, what do I want attachment for? And that's always the beginning. The beginning is to know that I need attachment. I want it. I crave it. I I need it. It's it's part of my chemistry. And now I want to know what will actually fill that void. What type of attachment will fill that void? If it's going to be a fake experience, somebody who doesn't really care about me and I don't really care about them. It's just transactional. That's what is. That's the definition of I don't really care about you. You don't really care about me. So why are we together? Transactional. That's what it is. There's some benefit. It could be money or it could be something even more subtle, but it's some benefit there. >> Yeah. And alb says if you go to this you're not going to be able to eat from because that's the I'm blocking myself off. You know if I stuffed myself up with with with poisonous food and now somebody wants to give you healthy nutritious food the system is not there. It's I'm not there anymore. I was overwhelmed by the distractions. So it's actually being present and not allowing leaks to come out to be able to receive from taggel from a real re from real relationships. And this is true even in our marriages. It's true in all of our relationships. It's very easy to get nurture from fake relationships, right? Whenever you're whenever you're looking for for validation, right? If I'm looking for validation, so it's my ego trying to get fed for a few minutes from something that's not real and it's not going to work. It's it's later I'm going to be miserable. And the same is true in every one of us. And adds this line, but for sure you'll never be able to discover your masculinity because the path the path to masculinity travels through femininity. So really strong masculine men always respect their femininity. That's how I titled last class. Strong men, masculine men always respect their feminine core. When you're like, I'm not feminine. I'm just masculine. You're not you're not a man. If you're a man, you know how to how to respect your femininity. You also know how to be a man because femininity means respecting the fact that I need attachment. And there's no man or woman who was ever created that didn't need attachment. Adam needed attachment. Needed attachment. This is what the of the in that sense they're both feminine. It's important to understand this because one of the great coping mechanisms that we have is the feeling that if I get betrayed long enough, it's much better to say, "I don't need anybody in the world." And some of us are so skilled at that that we create a facade that really doesn't need anybody. And we stay isolated because it's safe. Because if I don't need anybody, you know what? You know, nobody could ever hurt me. And if nobody could ever hurt me, it's a much safer place to be. And I don't mean necessarily physically that I don't speak to anybody, but emotionally emotionally I I live in my ivory tower and never nobody can get really close to me. They can get close enough that I'm safe, but that's it. Because real attachment is always vulnerable. That infant in the arms of its mother, that one week old baby, that one-month old baby is purely vulnerable. That baby can say, "I don't need mommy. Of course I need mommy." But with that baby two years later still feels a lack of attunement. At some point I like figure out what to do to get my needs. But it's like a very manipulative way in a very very innocent child soul. And that's where I live sometimes for the rest of my life. And if you're talented, it gets worse because you actually are skilled to build a life in which you don't need anybody. You're good at it because you can actually become a person where people need you and you don't need them. And when you come into a room, they're all looking to you. So this is sometimes such a psychologically wounded space where you have a person you think he has confidence. He inspires respect. People are looking to be close to this person. Little do some people know that under that is a frightened, frightened, wounded child who's frightened to be in a vulnerable, authentic relationship. Anybody relates to this? This is very important. People could live their entire life this way and it's all unconscious. They don't even know it. And that's why their kids don't like them because their kids feel all of this. The people in Shul don't know this. It's a good guy, smart, good business advice, great van, the parisha always. But the kids and his wife are miserable because they feel this. They feel that there is a bulletproof vest that you can't penetrate. There's a barrier, a mum. It's called a mum. You can't penetrate. And he doesn't even know why. He push doesn't know why. He will not let his guard down. Of course, his psyche exactly knows why. I'm not going to be a mabel ever in my life. I'm not going to be a mabo. But you can never become a mashpa if you're not a macab. There's no such a thing. There was no reba in the world who was not first aalmed and remained forever a talmet. You can't beat it's impossible any other way. The alterba the alterb till the last breath remained at of the mag always. In fact I think I told you once the story said it I think it was purim. I think it's an incredible incredible story. He just shows you it shows you literally this in the mimer. It just it just popped into my head and it's probably the one of the best illustrations for what he's saying here. Whenever became aba he didn't want to he wanted to go to the first of America is now celebrating 250 years. So the alterb founded I don't know if you know the same year that the United States of America came into existence and it's probably not a coincidence. So uh in those years the 1770s so a year later made with and wanted to go but the prior told him no. So he listened to him and he stayed he stayed behind and that's when he became the you know the white Russia Bellarus Russia became the the the reb the rebba of those of of those cities and uh so one of the early years was standing or sitting in his house by the said bam laden which means by the window and out of the window he saw a whole group of coming towards his house and they were obviously coming to him they to the so uh the alterba was standing there with his wife. His wife's name was Sterna. So he turned to her and with a profound sigh he said villain what do they want from me like a very uh with a sadness with a melancholy like what do they think I can give them? And the Rebba said that Rebbitson understood that this was a fateful moment because there was a part of the alterba that was telling him to, you know, to quit this. This is not for me. Like what do they want from me? So she understood that. So she said to him, she said, "Do you think they're coming to hear SOMETHING FROM YOU? NO, THEY'RE NOT INTERESTED. They're coming to hear what you heard from your Reb. So's face lit up and he said a he said in these words a if that's the case I will speak and I will speak and he opened the door and he actually said a mime for them. And we know the mime that he said. It was written down. We know the mime that he said. Yeah. What happened? What did she tell him? She told him this. If you they're not coming to hear you. You know why the Reb said the story? The Reb said the story because he started off he said in the he says it's a strange thing that thousands of people or hundreds of people thousands of people come to listen to one person sitting and speaking. At this time everybody could learn they could dav they can go to sleep. they can do other things that they need to do. What's he says it's arrogant one person is sitting here and thousands of people come to hear this person. So on this he told the story he told the story and then he finished the story and he added he said like this he said it he said it humility because of course they came to hear what he has to say he says but in this case it's not humility in this case it's the truth but because I was to hear from my father-in-law and I was to hear from my father and I was from so that's what I'm saying over that's why he said the story said by Nova of course he had what to say but here it's not the so that's what I'm saying that I'm saying over with us that's why he told the story so what's the what's the right it says in should be called no no you're always called always why he's not a anymore he's 95 years old his reb passed away years ago and he's actually teaching the whole world he's called a and if he's not aim he's not to be aim you need to be a the moment you graduate from being a you're not maybe you're brilliant but you're not you don't have because you'll never be a mash if you're not a and the greater a much deeper mab there was nobody who was a tal to the mid like it can't be that way it's not it's not like why well he he doesn't know his stuff he doesn't know his stuff. Why? Why? I understand. If you don't know anything, you have to be a talmet. If you know, YOU ALREADY KNOW ENOUGH. It's not that's not the truth. It's the other way around. Cuz the moment you lose touch with that that nukva, that macab, the moment you're not a mabel, you you you're you're you'll never become in touch with your true power. It's like unplugging. That becomes your power. When you become a mab, something happens in the process. What is it? you become which means you discover that all the truth is inside of your soul and therefore the bliss that you're looking everywhere you have to look into yourself you're you're not a recipient you're the source but the only way you will find source in yourself is when you surrender everything to receptivity so it's a little bit of a paradox if I start off I have everything I have nothing when I have nothing and I'm open then suddenly you realize you have everything. It's like I told you from another she from the poet who once said, "You're not a drop in the ocean. You're the entire ocean in a drop. That's thear. But if I go to the if I go to the junky, so he says first of all, you won't be able to be from and certainly you will never find your true power. You are the divine. You're the BEST THING THAT EVER HAPPENED to God." And here says once you'll be a you'll find your leadership. You'll find the in you and to who is this is earthshattering. You're the one who's going to create the mitzvah not fulfill create make the mitzvah because since you are because of your so the mitzvah are from you you become now masculine channel of like it says connected the with so the wasab from that's what the garra says we're the and the is the often we say hashem is the groom We're the bride. And here we say is the bride and we're the groom says the isha betrothed to you. That means you're in the mash in the it's God's because when you discover the deepest truth of your own infinity you are a piece of hem. So all the tiger you're looking for you are the source of it because of your b because you're a mab so you become a mash. So now you give something to what do you give to you give to is structure mitzvah are structure you give it the you give it the relationship it's a fascinating thing because usually we always talk about and it's true you receive from right is divine and you sit and you you ble to tra and that's the truth and here says there's another nuda in that process suddenly the is receiving from you the is the feminine and you're the masculine, but only if you got rid of your You can't be a doesn't work that way. You got to plug every hole. You can't be a Z and a I'm because what's the definition of it's like who could fill me? Who could fill me? Oh, you could fill me. Okay, you could give me something. I'm like I'm just looking for people to fill me, things to fill me. You're you're you're you're not even in a posture of a macab. You're a zoa. Even to be a macab, right? You have to plug all the holes like know what you're receiving from who you're receiving. And then in that process, you discover your own leadership. You discover your ability to be present and to become the source of what everybody is looking for. >> Regulated flow. >> Yeah. You become regulated flow. Yeah. What do they say? You're you're looking for miracles. You're the miracle you're looking for. You want to fix the world, you you you you become the solution. Don't look for sol. You are the solution. That that's the deepest form of a mashia. Mashia is you are the solution. Take charge. Not because you're arrogant, but because God put himself into you. But the only way you'll discover that part of you rather than your anxiety and your insecurity is if you let go of all the other parts. You have to surrender all the other parts. >> That's where we're holding. No, no, no. In Aramaic, and Zion are interchangeable. Soar is like >> Yeah. So what is notar is he should be able to discover your masculinity visav the divine. You should discover your your like right is is inving a hole because that's what the idea of nukva means I'm open. I'm a cavity. I'm an empty vessel. That's what nukva means. That means I have a void. I'm empty and I want you to fill it. That's the vulnerability of femininity and it's one of the hardest things in our generation for women and for men in their own way to be able to open themselves up because there's always a chance of nobody's going to come to fill it or maybe they're going to fill it with the wrong things and I don't want to get hurt. So, it's much better to say I don't need you. I don't need you. I'm a powerful woman. I don't need you. The most powerful women, right, and men know how to be feminine. They could trust. It comes with a lot of trust. But if your trust was betrayed, so then you don't go there. You just close off. I don't have any holes. I don't have any neckv. >> Like the language these days that people you ask somebody say, "No, I'm good." >> Right. >> Right. Right. >> Right. Yeah. >> Yeah. I don't need anybody. I don't need anything. We're embarrassed with need. We're almost embarrassed with need. We're embarrassed with craving. We're embarrassed. There's also a form of self-confidence in this. Self-confidence means that I have a desire and it's very, very deep and I want it to be met and it's not a bad thing. It's a good thing. That's the source of dus. That's the source of duvas. I have a need. I have a desire. I want attachment. I really want it and I'm hurt without it. >> Is typically filled with >> right >> is typically >> right. So that's true. >> When I he's right. When I filled my whole life with Nus, I stopped realizing that the need is not is not evil. Just the way I filled it may have been problematic. Well, what happens is we start shaming the need. There's a stigma that we we learned in a previous muhammed about rats. The ability to say I want is is is is a divine quality. I want but we're like a freak. Oh, I want Oh. OH, YOU WANT? WHAT ELSE DO YOU WANT? OH, I GOT DISORDER. HE WANTS HE WANTS WHO DIED AND MADE YOU KING. SO, we stigmatize to ourselves. I don't want anything. No, no, no. Really, we all want. It's a joke that you don't want. What a joke. Of course you want. But you know I don't need I don't want and suddenly I become the greater the sadic the less you want. Just choose the opposite said I don't want ganed. HE DIDN'T HE WANTED MORE THAN EVERYBODY ELSE. I JUST KNOW WHAT I WANT. That's the difference. Of course I want. No I want to say we want Msiah now. I don't want. I WANT. OF COURSE I WANT. We want the I mentioned earlier brings a medish. It says just like a date is the sweetest fruit and everybody has ta for it. That's the cotton candy of God. So don't think is not a balty. He's the worst. HE JUST KNOWS WHAT HE WANTS. THAT'S WHAT MAKES HIM A SADIC. You know, we think he's amputated. He's castrated half dead, half deaf, half blind. So he's a sadic. What else should he do? What else should you do? Become a sadic, right? What other career is available for you? A lawyer accounted and in stocks and real estate. So, become a sadic. So, he says, "No, they're the biggest ballet. They just know they know they know who's craving, what he's craving for, and they won't go away from it. they have more self-respect. So that's the So now continues this will be enough for the one who understands. Now he starts answering all the questions in the beginning of the mime. What's the next step after the titsus? Remember the whole bin here in the mime is that sitsus is the one mitzvah that has two parts. The talis and the fringes the talis represents the lush the mak that is not granular. You know what granular means? It doesn't become individuated in a particular strand. It's a talis. It's a cloak that covers you. The titus is like the Cyrus that individuates the flow. Lammed bay 32 strands is lammed bay. It's the flow of Hashem's into which could be contained because there's a the talis itself represents the so titus represents the two elements of mitzvah that was the based on everything he spoke before about that there's the two elements there's the tug in its core the bliss itself which is beyond any definition or description because hashem is not getting bliss from something he is bliss And then there's the way the bliss is defined. It flows through something and that's the experience of that everybody has. And the source of that is and that's what the gill of the gill of. So he says now after all of this we'll now understand it said twice only by no other mitzvah. says now we'll understand the whole system is called now the first has a whole Russia together with it who took you out of Egypt in order to be a god for you and then he said and that's how the para ends explains now we'll understand it the first thing you have to remember is whenever you see the word ani. It's the same letters like ani. Now, it's interesting because they're opposite. Ani means what? I What's uh what's ayion? Nothing, right? So, this is the this is the issue of our self-confidence. Who am I? Am I or am I an or and why is you would think the point of an is that you're not, right? You're not a nothing. You're So he says, "No, ani." When you reconfigurate the letters, what is it? What does that really mean? It means that the energy of ani is only. There's no other energy to ani. This is what it means. Ego death. The only ego that's worth holding up, the only ani that's going to withstand all of life is the ani that's plugged into iron. The ani that's not plugged into iron is not an it's a fake ani that's going to crumble in a moment's notice. The first crisis, the first issue, the ani is going to crumble and now you need a new ani. The only ani that will endure is the ani that's ay. What does this mean? For who? It's similar to what says in parl also in this week in this par when sent what did he ask them? He said I want you to go to the land and I want you to see one thing. Is there a tree in or not? And the question is you ever saw a country without a tree which all the maf say certainly in the Middle East what does it mean does a tree or no tree what's so gives up a lot of different explanations but doesn't doesn't seem to make sense says listen was saying something very very intense and deep the word comes from the word which means counsel advice. This is what we call wisdom which is also often called you have it in is counsel and is help advice that you give to people to help them who is what is any what he say I'm looking for an what are you really looking for you're looking form you're looking for some clever insight perspective strategy to be able to to be masic something something to be able to attain something right you're looking to attain something I need ana how to deal with this person. I need an whether to go into this business. I need an whether to date this girl. Whatever. I need an how to deal with this situation. I'm looking to on to something. So, I need your professional advice. That's what is. So, that's does have this type of ability. What's who doesn't want an? He says, isma. What's is it also rooted in the source of comes from? The PK says in Mishma literally it means where you gonna find you're not gonna find in the street but is based on positive all emerges from iron because like the first epiphany the lightning you know the lightning bulb goes off in your brain. Where did it come from? You don't have access to that place. It's the subconscious. That's called ayen. Ayin doesn't mean it doesn't exist. Ayin means it's not contained and grasped by your intellectual ego. That's why we translate ay not as nothing but as no thing. In fact, ayin is much more yesh than yes. Yesesh is that which you can grasp in your hand. You could look at it. You could define it. You can measure it. Ayin means you have no control over it because it has control over you. I means it's transcendent reality. So it's we call it nothing. That's where kma comes from. Where did you get this insight from? Nowhere. Of course, somewhere. It came from a place in your side of you that you don't have regular access to it. And there was a little flow. And suddenly, ah, wow, I got this. That's how do you send spies to figure this out? We have to understand what this means. He sends spies to figure out if only has access to the of or it also has access to the source of that's going to be the key. And in this lay the entire mistake of the sob says this is what's called in the concealment beyond all concealment which means it's concealed. Even in the concealed worlds there's no way that it allows itself to be in the realm of grasping and comprehension. It's not be. That's why we call it. We call it because in our mode of existence where we like to control things, this doesn't exist. Since I can't grasp it, what's my best way of dealing with it? You say it doesn't exist. You call it, not because it's, but because I I I don't know what to do with you. I don't know what to do with you. So, if I don't know what to do with you, you don't exist. And by the way, that's what our brain does. There's a brilliant experiment I once own a book from Rabbi Professor Yakob. It's called something from nothing. He does a brilliant experiment how the brain there's a blind spot. So sometimes your brain looks at a piece of paper and there's a part that you don't see. Okay? You actually don't see it. But the brain doesn't like to admit that you don't know. So what does it do? It compares and it says, "What do you see in the rest of the circle?" And it borrows that image and it fills up the blind spot. So you actually are dis deceived by your own brain to tell you that it's seeing something that you really don't see because your brain does not want you to sit with the discomfort of like this is insanity. So better lie and this is literally like pure neurological facts that constantly happen in life. Our brain does the job to take us away from ay >> always >> always does it blatantly and then this here and and the brain is not trying to lie to you but your brain is trying to keep you safe and comfortable I can deal with what am I supposed to do with it it's not so what do you say you say it doesn't exist once you start tuning into reality you realize it's the opposite and this is this is really one of this in in in cultivating whatus is teaching us. You start experiencing that the more iron, the more reality. You understand? The more yesh, the less reality. That's the shift that starts happening when you get in touch with deeper reality. If it's more yes, it's actually less real. If it's more, it's more real. The less tangible, right? You start knowing that you experience when you start learning a deeper level of bal and you're like, "Wow, bring it on. more iron, bring it on more because you realize that is where reality is. The fact that I don't grasp item thank god I'm not I'm not I'm not reducing it to existence. We even have it in in in all everyday reality. It used to be uh 150 years ago, 200 years ago, if you didn't see something, it didn't exist. Today, we know that whatever you don't see probably has a much deeper impact on all of the world than anything you see. For example, electricity, right? Atoms, cells, subatomic particles, germs, viruses, bacteria, infections. Nobody sees any of this. Till 150 years ago, nobody knew there such a thing called germs. Bacteria didn't exist. Today, you know, it could close down a whole world. Ask the Chinese. So, it's not it's not you don't see it. It doesn't exist. It's a joke. What what has a bigger impact in your life? Your genes, your invisible genes or the parts of you that you see? What do you think? Your unconscious emotions or everything that you see physically? Anybody who knows anything about themselves knows the more invisible it is. The more ION IT IS, THE MORE YESH IT IS. THE MORE YESH, THE MORE. Do they only have access to the or do they have access to the to the reality? Do they have access to that? Why are we scared? Because you have to. The only way I can access it is through surrender, through ble. So I need trust. It's not a place of safety. I would rather remain small, safe, and in control than large, surrendered, and open to infinity. >> Huh? >> Fear of the unknown experientially. The body doesn't want to recognize it. So, so deep down everything is ayen. The whole world is yayme. But we try to make we try to formulate things, right? If the doors of our perception were cleansed, we would see ion as the only reality. Everything we see is just a a a condensed version of reality that goes through millions and millions of cons concealments so that it could become categorized in a way that our eyes COULD SAY, "AH, I got this. You're a tissue box. I'm safe. I know who you are. You understand the fact that I call this a tissue box. This is not a tissue box. It's a joke. You think I'm crazy now, right? Take a microscope. This is not a tissue box. You know why I CALL IT A TISSUE BOX? For my own safety. I could deal with him. I could sell him for $2. You understand? I want to sell the I want to sell you stuff. I want to know who you are. We put everything in a box, including ourselves, so we could be safe. Ain is what do I do with ayen? Ayin requires complete surrender. But all comes from that's the source of everything. The aniph is not definable. So our whole world you see what what happens the moment we leave for a moment the consciousness of this world. It says in chapter 3 says if our eyes would be given permission to see Those are his words and he wrote this in the 1700s. You would look at the world and you wouldn't see physicality. You would see Hashem everywhere. But my retina doesn't deal with Hashem. My retina says this is a cup of coffee. This is a pen. This is a person. Is it true? Yeah, it's true. Based on the eyes capability, God allowed the world to be translated as a physical thing. That's what creates. But the moment your vision expands, the moment our soul goes one step higher into consciousness, it's the same world, but it's all divine energy. Everything is divine energy. >> And it's hidden. >> Huh? >> Yeah. >> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. >> If our doors of perception were cleansed, everything would appear as is infinite. Not that the table is not a table, but the version of table as table that's a product of billions of and it's this is even true in science. What's what anybody who's even basic physics you know that one of the great paradoxes of the world today is that whatever you look at it's such a dumbed down version of reality not that it's not true we're not lying but it's it's true based on what the Max plank said you know we used to think that consciousness is a derivative of matter today we know matter is a derivative of consciousness just think of those words matter is a derivative of consciousness the moment your consciousness goes up a step. The whole matter is one big consciousness AND YET IT'S THE OPPOSITE. HUH? NO. NO. You look at it as a table. It's a table. The moment you look at it, does a tree make noise if it falls in the forest? >> Huh? >> I was there. I was there. I saw it. >> The answer is the answer is the noise that the tree makes is not a reality. It's the way I perceive reality when I'm in the forest based on the chemistry of my ears. Or is the other question, are you are you are you if you state an opinion when your wife is not there, are you still wrong? That's an updated version. That's English. In Yiddish, it doesn't happen. In Yiddish, you're always wrong. When your wife is there, when your wife is not there. >> Ah. >> Yeah. Yeah. And here this is the vert. So there's no but the truth is that only in do you find all safety you can't find safety in yesesh the only safety is in the only safety the only real is in soenu says you're going to go into this land out of the midbar is there also the over there >> it's very hard there's no land without trees. What is he asking? Rashi says it means sadikim. Eight is a metaphor for sadikim. There's other explanations. >> Is there safety in or you realize you don't need? >> Huh? No, you need safety. But the only real safety is in because that's the source of everything. That's the source of love. That's a and that's where everything comes from. Everything is just a manifestation of ay. So the the kson in life is to live in but to be plugged into ayah. to always be plugged into not to detach the from the ayah. We learned in also also in this par what was the sin of right he uprooted the plants says everything is rooted in something don't uproot it on shabas you're not allowed to do that I'll cop on them okay so that's the now you understand what it means now the only ani that is the only ani the only ani that is real is the that's plugged into iron The moment your self is detached from iron, it's a self that is forcing itself to exist and you have to keep it alive through inauthentic mechanisms, >> life support. It's literally like a corpse and we know it's dead but the person still is not ready to accept it. So we do everything we can brilliantly to make believe to the world that it's alive, but inside you know you're dead, but you're not ready to call the because you don't want anybody else to know. So just think about that. Imagine the chick died inside the egg, but the chick doesn't want to admit it. So it does everything it can to keep it on life support AND IT LOOKS ALIVE to everybody. And people will even say, "Wow, you're so alive." And that's why the person will buy the most beautiful house in the neighborhood because he needs more evidence that he's alive because he's so dead. Did you hear what I just said? Yeah. Some of us are so dead that we need more evidence than anybody else that we're alive. And therefore, we will do things in such dramatic ways because we need tremendous proof to say that we're alive. Cuz when you're really really alive, you don't have to prove it. >> Believe myself. >> If I don't believe it, yeah, I need the whole world to say it. And I will fight for that. And sometimes that is what's driving so much of what I do to build the ani that never existed and never will exist because it doesn't exist. It's a ponzi scheme and I always have to invest more and more. And that's why it's torturous because to keep a corpse alive when it's not really alive is an impossible task. Do you know how much mental energy and bandwidth you have to invest in that? And do you know how busy you have to be with avoiding reality? >> Ain't exactly a mental stress. Understand my dear friends, unending unending stress. Because the what's the greatest stress in life? When you're invested constantly in avoiding reality. There's nothing as torturous as constantly having to avoid reality. Imagine if 24/7 I had to lie to myself about whether it's light outside or dark outside cuz I decided day is night and night is day. Right? my whole day I have to be shutting Venetian blinds, building walls and that's what so many of us do. I will avoid reality and therefore I will take this ani and make him bigger and stronger and I need the whole world to tell me that I'm I'm I exist. And that's the tragedy of so many celebrities, for example, and why they go into depression. Because with every new follower that they have, it's another statement that I'm really dead. Which is why you following me is so important because it's my only evidence that I'm alive. Do you know how hard it is to avoid reality? The only for this is when you realize you're the moment you're OKAY NOW YOU COULD BE ON ME NOW YOU CAN BE ON A malench of course I'm >> sometimes excelling could be the biggest cover >> that's true that's true sometimes excelling in spirituality could be the biggest cover up because at the surface it looks so real Right? That's the tragedy of religion and being used as the great cover up for my sense of inadequacy. So now I use God who is the ultimate figure of reality to say to everybody and to myself, I'm doing well. I exist. It's a painful It's a painful stuff what you say. Anybody relates to this? >> You're not that religious, huh? cover up. >> When do we know if it's a cover up? >> Ask your wife. >> That's usually the simmon. If and if your wife didn't do the work, so your kids will tell it to you at some point. How do you know the the we spoke about this a lot of times, but there's always this the very deep. You can't fool them. The nervous system when it's having real tinug is in a different space. It's it's it's open. There's humility. There's there's joy. There's there's deep serenity. There's trust. You're not you're not torturing yourself. You're not in anxiety. Now, we have anxiety because we have different parts. But in ayan, there's no anxiety because it's surrender. The frequency of surrender is the frequency of bliss, trust, faith, and love. That's the same. It's the same similar frequencies. Serenity, trust, bliss, faith, love. So that's the only real ani is if it's channeling says what's the next word. is why is he is the takes the whole and condenses it into a seinal point. From there you have he which is expansiveness. From there you have VV which is downward flow and then you have the last and that's basically which is not is the structure of existence that comes from the always THROUGH and yet he says which is the ultimate paradox is which is where there's a even a spiritual yes and he's saying Why? Because the whole system and differentiation between is part of our perspective living down here by him. It's the same thing. The ion doesn't get destroyed because it came into Yesesh. It's a pure channel. So, this whole distinction we're making, you grasp, you don't grasp. That's a product of being and therefore this we call and this we call this I can hold on to. I think I can hold on to it. But really, it's all the whole symptom doesn't exist from his perspective. It's all part of him. Give a simple example to what he's saying. I once saw this example. You know, you have a bottle of water and the bottle of water, right? The bottle of water falls into the ocean. Now, imagine the bottle is empty. It was an empty plastic bottle. Falls into the ocean. And what happens? The cap is off. So, the bottle gets filled up. Now you're the guy inside the bottle. Okay. So this is exactly what happens. You are a you're the ocean. You're the ocean. But then the soul comes into the body which is a bottle, a container. And you know what? The body suddenly gets water. Oh, I like this water. What's the biggest mistake you can do? Take the cap, close the bottle, and say, "Nobody gets my water." Why? You're in the ocean. You understand? What do you have to do? You got to open up the cap. Even if you're not getting rid of your water. Getting rid of your water is histoal. You go back to the source. Even if you're supposed to be in a bottle, but don't put the cap, be in flow. That's yan. You understand? Huh? Like a mikvah. That's the secret of a mikvah. Hashaka. What's hash? Shak is we have nice mikvah and warm mikvah but don't create a separation between the natural water and the forcet water because then it's a mikvah the power of a mikvah is the ble hashaka means there's a flow the bottle keep the bottle connected to the ocean of course you're not an ocean I'm a bottle I feel only a bottle BUT YOU'RE THE ENTIRE OCEAN IN A BOTTLE YOU'RE NOT A BOTTLE IN THE OCEAN YOU'RE AN OCEAN IN THE BOTTLE You see the difference? So it's all it's not a difference. It's not like with it's all one. But from our perspective, there's two separate is the same. >> Yes. Ani and that's why that's why and is the same thing. The great mistake is I take the bottle and I tell the ocean I'm tell nobody gets my water and I make it tight tight tight tight tight tight and then I go around dancing look at my bottle navasa you were once part of an ocean and I you became a little bottle for a $150 you're walking you think I could charge $1.75 $1.75$1.75 LOOK AT MY bottle and I walk around with my bottle and that's it I'm all invested in my bottle AND THAT'S WHAT THAT'S WHAT IT MEANS. That's literally what it means. I'm walking around building my bottle. I don't want everybody to see my beautiful bottle. The last thing I want, the last thing I realize is you're the ocean. We don't want to take away your water. We want to give you your water. Don't hijack the energy because you're literally the ocean. But it's very hard to see that in this world because the bottle I could control. The bottle I can hold on to. What do you do with an ocean? Huh? >> Huh? Yeah. And that's the secret of a mikvah. That's the whole secret of a mikvah. That's why mikvah cleanses because the idea of mikvah is the and then you emerge from that space with a new consciousness or hopefully with a new consciousness. So what's the next line? The whole world is called why means confinement limitations. Our universe is finite. The Gmorrah says from earth to heaven takes 500 years but it takes 500 years. It's a number by ex by your exodus by leaving these confinements like we said before. This comes back to everything he explained before about when you get stuck in the create you want to go out of that's with more vigor. So now the becomes the even the part that is usually we the godm should be a god to you is even the part that you call yours is also there's no separation anymore right we all have in life and the isim YOU UNDERSTAND EVEN THE isim the yesh is also similar. Yeah. So it comes to means you're your own identity and the so this is and that is because it's one wall one that's how I could take you out of which means you're not stuck in the confinement of disassociation and fragmentation because you're always in flow. It becomes yours. And the isim represents the name of restriction of concealment. This is what we spoke about the bliss flowing into individual strands of hair where they sit and enjoy theash. This is the way the comes into in other words it could be contained. That is what ganaden is. When Yeshua before Yeshua passed away in chapter 24, the end of Yeshua, he speaks to the Jewish people and he says it's not easy to serve Hashem. Why? because holy sh so the first the beginning of chapter n of I quoted earlier the garra says over there they askedim how can you sayim kadoshim kadoshim is plural there's one god soim said it says kadoshim who not they said that's a for the but tell us soim said because he's He's holy with all types of holiness. So says Gmorra says over there like this he's holy in every type of holiness. That's why every form of holiness. What's the idea? >> Yeah. So he explains like this. So it's fascinating all the andesh is the noun holiness itself is when there's a vav av looks like a strand of here. So when the kaides flows through into the here which means it's more condensed and filtered so you could contain it thenes becomes it becomes that's what it says by by a by a that he grows his here again that the here becomes because it's channeling the flow of is the That's in its essence which is bliss in its core. The way that bliss is contained in that's called soim everything is because is the flow of the tug into a way that it's contained which is ganed which is cyrus and that's why it's it can become yours. It could become yours meaning you could contain it. It's that and that's what needs and that's that's the first. Now you'll see how everything now comes together. There's a here from the go a few lines later to the line starts like five lines later the first one we said that's the which is Cyrus which is then you have a second that's referring to Then you're going to have gill atmos the revelation of the core of tanuk itself. Remember the whole ma was based on the fact Hashem is tanuk but it's a tanuk that's pure ah when you get to the core of tenuk it's beyond any imagination or description because it's not contained it's not something giving you tenuk it's tuk in its pristine core what is tanug it's not this the food is gishmak the niggan is GISHMAK THE EMOTION IS THE IDEA IS THE ismak it is tuk that gil that's there's no symptom there's Notes with which is like the but that's not the here that's the garment it's beyond the that gets in it's internalized through the here the first is connected to which is the second is connects these two is the contain mitzvah is the bliss itself and that's why it's intangible. So this is the two is one is the here one is the saying sit and their crowns are on their head. What does that mean? They all wearing crowns. What's a crown? Crown is above the mind. It's above the brain. And it's above that certainly it's above the here. So what's the idea of atra they're going to be accessing not the tuk that can be contained in your brain in your psyche it's the it's the it's the tanuk itself which is beyond the mind there's no way to contain it with the mind the mind that contains the is the experience of the way allowed the to flow down through but then it's going to be they're going to experience the mak itself which means the pure the pure itself And that's the ray that comes into every mitzvah. That's the two since is the only mitzvah that has both. So that's why only by mitzv by DOES HE SAY TWICE. IT'S TWO DIFFERENTS. ONE IS REFERRING to the way it comes into and one IS REFERRING TO THE WAY IT IS in I'm trustworthy to pay that's so here also he changes he gives a whole deeper doesn't only mean I'm faithful I'm trustworthy I'm not going to I'm not going treat you means that today you grasp it through the is not something that you can do with you have to surrender every last faculty to it because any faculty is limiting it so for Cyrus it's good foresh it's good but notes there's so this type of This is why it says twice and then a second time you just said you think I forgot that you're God. He says there's two different one is and one is one is referring to the garment one is referring to the hair of the head says not by any other mitzvah because has both dimensions the cyus the fringes and the talis itself which is like the of the mitzvah one represents one represents mitzvah And this is the reason that this bliss happens precisely when the dead come back to life. You remember asked in the beginning of the how does it make sense that souls that were thousands of years in gaden the ultimate is to come back to this dark world like really like that's a punishment. It's not a big scar. I understand when we're here, we want to stay here. But once you've been in Ganad for 3,300 years, what this is the ultimate better than Ganed what's now asked also why is it that Gan every soul has a different is everybody together. On the contrary, the bigger the sky, the more differences there should be. A SMALLER SKY GIVE EVERYBODY TOGETHER. But the ultimate prize, right, should be only it should be different levels. You say now it all become clear. Why is with the goof? The goof is not there. The goof is in the earth. What's that? Everything is embodied. Pun intended. It's with the body. The goof is going to stand up and HAVE THE SAME how is the lowest. The answer is see this is where literally transforms because this which comes from the essence of tanug not the way tanuk is experienced it's tuk itself it's remember hashem is tenuk tanuk is hashem god is bliss bliss is god what does that mean what what what what's giving me the bliss he is the source of all bliss any bliss in the world is just a poor or rich reflection of that. So that which is this is accessed through the mitzvah the mitzvah that you did with me explained earlier in the mime that the lowest levels are rooted in the highest levels like the carbonas that come from a behem why the mitzvah comes into action because it's precisely the lowest action that doesn't have the richness of experience it seems very physical and yet that's rooted in the highest because the end is rooted in the beginning and therefore it's done with the body So where is it going to be revealed in the highest you can experience in the body not only in the soul? So it's worth for them to come from Ganed into here because the Ganed is a big it's the you can internalize. Why can you internalize it? Because it's what is it's the flow of the way it can be experienced. So that's namas without gam the gof is a but when you go to the deeper level of tyog the over here there's no symptom there's no you would think oh my god if there's no symptoms and there's no iskalus it can only be the but the truth is he says it's the opposite here it includes everything there's nothing that's a contradiction to it you can't say it's the soul and not the body you can't say the body is not a kali for If it's that which comes through its so the higher you are the more you could receive that's why has so many different levels when it comes to it's so on one hand it's suddenly there's no division there's no differentiation what do you mean but you have a higher soul and you did more that's all true and that's true comprehension of everything is the same put on and you put on Mosha's understanding over there there's big differences in the of but in the it's why it's identical and that's why every Jew is going to come back to and that's the that in where you have the you create the the falls here down into the lowest place from here you create the deepest craving for truth so here you can go back which is expressed primarily init and that is what creates the of and that's the second so the first is of which is because all is which takes you out of over there there's and that's the first one and then he finishes off that's the second one that's the that's the Second element of titsus not the titus but the talis which is which this can only happen with the go this can't happen without the gf because it was created in the go it was created through the go it was created through mitzvah in the body and here the body is not a contradiction to it because in the it includes all of reality so that's why they're going to come back to be with the body >> yeah so of course like like everything of Msiah we the foretaste of it is now right you start tasting it and that's what he's saying yeah that's the so there there is these two elements there is the tug the way it's experienced in life the way is experienced through life that's what represents and then there's touching the of itself now that's so that's so intangible like he says you can only take it through a moment you want to like grasp it you lose it because This tinug has no words. It's just tiny. When we speak about tinuk, you'll say it was a gishmakimemer. Yet you had two words. Gishmak, right? It was a gishmak experience. It was a gishmak conversation. It's all a tanuk. That's a murkov. It's it's tenuk with something from something. Tanuk itself is tanuk. Where did all tanuk come from? It came from the source. And that source is not tenuk from something. He is tanuk. So when you touch that, what does that feel like? You're not touching from something. You're touching there's no anybody has any words for this. >> Huh? >> Huh? You're touching the ultimate truth. In other words, >> take away the word touching. >> Take away the word touching. Exactly. Because when you touch it, you can't touch it. You're there or you're not there. And when you're there, you're all there. And there's no words anymore. We also learned from this that what does it mean a relationship with Hashem? A relationship with Hashem means that Hashem is a source of the source of all bliss. So relationship with Hashem is blissful. It doesn't mean there's no pain because God sometimes puts us through pain and being human means experiencing that pain. But the relationship with Hashem is wherever I am there's an element of bliss. And if the word Hashem doesn't trigger the word bliss, we're worshiping idols. I'm not blaming anybody. It's not anybody's fault. It's without judgment. But we created a different type of God. >> Yeah. Now, we have to we have to be sensitive because people sometimes go through so much through life and like what are you talking about? Like no, no, no, no, no. My God is not associated with bliss. There's a lot of anger and resentment and and pain and it has to be worked through. No question. But deep down the soul, a relationship with Hashem is a relation with the mucker of all tugg and and as he says here, it's beyond any it's not just life has tenug you see the bliss. I'm breathing and we learned in a before remember that the biggest is life itself because if you tell somebody I'll give you every pleasure in the world but right after that you die right every pleasure whatever you always dreamt for you want to believe whatever get write it down right your bucket list and and and be great think the biggest everything you have but right after that you get a bullet you're like a sugar right why why and the answer is because we all know there's nothing Like the tuk of itself, all the tanugim, it's all for everything is for life. So if you could just get in touch with that, it's so powerful, right? Feeling your energy, just feeling the energy of life. There's a bliss over there. We don't do it because we're so distracted because always something missing, right? But just breathing, just presence, just appreciating life itself. The reason I'm so distracted is cuz I'm alive. Can you appreciate that? I have a hundred things to do. The reason you have 100 things to do is cuz YOU'RE ALIVE. BUT MY CAR IS BROKEN. I HAVE A FLAT TIRE, RIGHT? I'm in the red. I the mortgage. I got it. And you got to deal with the mortgage. No question. But it's because you're alive. The Bakas is no mortgage besides the people who are have to pay for it. But so that so even that it's a tremendous tremendous ten that's the connected to life to the experience of life in it's tenog itself. The word is tanog. So over there a person touches the frequency if you call the frequency of of of of raw tug in its deepest core it's a complete complete tug that he says there's no way of being masut and when you experience even so to speak a glimmer of it you just know that this is the ultimate truth of reality and it's all love and bliss and that's the gill of and it's going to be dka in the g and mitzvius are the fore that that's what's mik that's generates it. Well, but the of went with the Ramb I said in the first year the Ramban held that the ultimate is the Rambam held that after they're going to go back to Gan but the Ramban and took the of most most of the of the of the went like the Ramb that the ultim it's a very famous mimer that's based on this mimer It's a very famous when people learn it's one of the first they learn yeah a lot of and with that I'm going to wish you all an amazing and meaningful and inspiring day. >> This class is brought to you by the yeshiva.net. Please help us continue the classes. Make even a small contribution at ww.theshiva.net/donate.