Purim atheism identity

okay Shalom and welcome back to practical spirituality everybody so happy to have you all back and um and we're we're rolling into porm now so I I thought we would discuss a little bit about purm but I pm on an inner level for him and what I mean by that is is that we're we're all inside a story and inside our story it seems like God's missing which is uh a really interesting thing because the porm story is you know this crazy story which seems like God's missing because God's name doesn't appear inside the Milla there's absolutely no mention of God the entire time and the U which is really interesting considering that we're talking about a book that's part of the Tanakh it's part of Prophecy it's part of you know morer wrote the thing like you think putting God's name in there might make sense but no it doesn't show up there and the story keeps having these like Co incidental things happening over and over the place you know over and over again and and we ourselves are living in a life where you can't see God all kinds of stuff happening all day long you know it's like like just just crazy stuff at all times like just my morning itself I I got to the mikah but my card wasn't doing the my doing my new uh uh membership for the month and then it finally closed while I was still doing it so now I couldn't get in and my but I was helping other people with things and people were helping me with things and then I'm borrowing someone's phone but because I had his phone so someone couldn't reach him and and you understand like these things are like happening all over the place all the time in the weirdest ways and and and then so I finally gave up on the mikah but I didn't realize the music on my phone was actually the the answering service of the gate so now I'm shmoozing with my wife at my house to the music forgetting that my I was actually listening to the music of the the people who run the mikf thing and while we're talking all of a sudden I hear someone else talking it's only the Two of Us in I'm like who is it oh it's the guy from The Gates I quickly grabb my towel and I'm like yeah I'm locked outside the gate I'm running to the MC talk trying to stall him you know yeah I'm outside the gate you know and then the gate opens and then I'm in there and then I'm having conversations with people who I saw in there and and but it's like all kinds of inuendos are happening all day long in your life and you you don't see God in it but God's in all of it you don't see God in the Milla but God's in all of it and and when we celebrate porm we celebrate porm through through going unconscious you know it's one of the few command Commandments that you do unconsciously uh one of them is sleeping in a Suka you're supposed to there's a big download of of cabalistic bounty that flows through you in a circle when you're unconscious um the purum you have to get unconscious for the flow to happen which you can do by sleeping uh meaning people who can't drink alcohol or whatever can't get unconscious so on alcohol but it's crazy like you're told to drink drink so much that you can't tell the difference between the villain and the hero like that's really drunk you I don't know if I've ever been that drunk I've passed out before that happened you know I mean you have to be really drunk what is funny though is you start making the mistake if you're over talking on por him you will start calling ham Mor ham but it's not because you don't know the difference it's just because you're because you're a total idiot at this point so so interestingly that we have this Mitzvah to get crazy smash drunk and what kind of what kind of uh tradition is that what kind of a commandment is that and but in your sober State you don't see God and somehow in this drunk State you do because everything's just got to work out and boy does it work out I mean I've seen crazy things happen on Forum I remember these elderly men like four elderly men were dancing on a table but but a a a folding table what they were thinking they but they were so drunk and they were enjoying the I think the bounce of it all you know it had like shock absorbers for their knees but obviously it was just a matter of time we were no longer so much paying attention we were all singing and dancing and then finally just like bam the the legs just gave out and all four men just came exactly down with the taable I'm not even sure they noticed they just kept going just kept going dancing in their Circle um the cblas the old city of mother shinberger elderly man I remember him 30 years ago when he looked like he was 90 now he must be 190 but he he was I have a I have a picture somewhere I have this picture of him I'm I'm there only a few of us at his house shabas is coming in he's so smashed drunk obviously a cabalist is going to get more drunk It generally works that the more observant you are I mean unless you're under 20 but otherwise the more observant you are the more drunk you are on this day because that's the Commandment Just Like You observe everything else More You observe this more but he's uh he's I have a picture of him he's in the air what's under him is a chair but he's airborn and he's looking up like this he's not even looking around he's looking like this while he's dancing ecstatic dancing and if you look really carefully you'll see there's a silver shot glass that he's put into his eye and his other eyes G like that there and one eye is a silver shot glass and he's Airborne there's a man with a Long White Beard I I at that point I thought he was 80 years old I mean now I realize since he's Brook still alive 30 years later I'm guessing that he was probably 60 at the time maybe 65 and and um anyway he's still going strong and U one time we came out of a party and my couple of students had bottles of wine that they were drinking straight out of the bottles of wine and um no no they had cups of wine and when we get out of this building some crazy fool is driving full speed down this alley there's no room in the alley besides his car I me it's a thin alley we you know we as many of us could jump out of the way jumped out of the way the driver with his pedal to the metal is not looking at the road he has a wine bottle upside down upside down and he's like this like this driving down an alley like this just wine bottle upside down and three of the students manag just quick enough to jump up to get their legs up over the hood the windshield hits them on their behinds flips them around and all three land on their feet with their cups of wine yeah now again I was smashed so so that's a that was what it appeared to be to them to me to everyone no no I that's what happened but I myself don't even believe in what I'm saying it it doesn't make any sense that that they survived that they survived getting by a car going full speed for the guy this part I remember vividly was the guy driving anyway but there's there's something going on and it's so beyond atheism you know there's a lot of people out there you know we live in a very atheistic tradition uh tradition we live in a very atheistic uh society today very atheistic um Society basically stopped buying into God in the last 200 years since the Industrial Revolution and the enlightenment it just became untenable and and we're not discussing Judaism obviously our our our definitions or lack thereof of God are way more palatable to the modern person because they they really work with a a person living in the modern world and Science and you know there there's no problem with that but other religions forget about it I mean religions and the modern world it it just it it just doesn't fit doesn't click and so and so well once in a while you meet a Jew who's having a hard time with their belief in God but porm porms like porm suddenly makes sense porm like it all makes sense and there there's just something something about it and I just want to mention one thing about the war is that amik a the war we now in Israel amik attacks us right when the whole world is quaking over the destruction of civilization which was Egypt at the time was the center of civilization Egypt's decimated by the god of Israel the nations of the world are scared to death of the Jews on their way up towards Israel and but amalik who sworn to prevent Israel from achieving its interdependence with the land of Israel comes after us on a suicide mission full suicide mission we also know that that amaly can get at us when we are in a lack of unity when the Jews aren't unified amalik has more uh say he can get at us when we're when we're uh not unified but but check out what happened the Jews were lacking Unity in the land which is normal but it was particularly bad in the last couple years before the war we get attacked they're on a suicide mission no no chance of winning their attack but they attack us the next day the whole world comes out against us and their chant is not anything about really about Palestinians as if anyone cares about Palestinians it was about from the river to the SE meaning it was a genocidal call when they should have hidden see I'm like doesn't hide like those Nations that were hiding when Israel was coming out of the Egypt they were hiding amalik says no we're going to come out the open an attack also in the porm story the Jews were given to to fight and kill amalik on that particular day amalik should have been hiding that would be a perfect day for amalik to hide they don't hide they're like we're coming out you know we're going to we're going to get him and so so you see that am's like really braz can you sit right here so am's super Brazen and and so too I think the most crazy day is October 8th October 8th was a crazy day because October 8th when the Gentiles should have been like either neutral like or say poor Israel at least pretend poor Israel but to come out against the Jews not against zionis against the Jews you know gas the Jews they yeld from the Opera House of Australia and they're they're like and it was really anti-jewish which means I think we're really in anomala time we're back to amalik but that's really good news you should know having amalik after us is great news for Israel why because every time Israel is about to go into a new stage of connection to the land amake attacks and that's exactly what's happened I I'll count the times watch you got um first of all ASV and Jacob have their three altercations all around Israel the bahor uh the that's the uh who gets the birth right you who's going to ultimately get inherit the land of Israel ASA and yakob fight the blessing the fight over the blessing goes to yako the burial the third fight the Jews leaving Egypt attacked by amalik the Jews leaving uh the porm story the Jews leaving Persia tack by amalik the Jews leaving Europe attacked by the Nazis who are who have been proven to be amalik as well so once again we get attacked on a and they're also on a suicide mission because they they should have been using their trains for the Russian front why are they why are they using why are they using their trains to kill Jews when they it was the Russian front that where they lost the war they lost the war over using trains for the Jews and when they told Hitler that that you're going to lose all war War you're going to miss the point of it all with your trains for the Jews he said no that is the point the point is the Jews not not the war yeah that's it's a good question how we respond so in the first response we we made war with them that was Moses putting his hands up which is putting your eyes up to God and then we would we won um the second one was not a war it was the per the story of porm no war fought there so yeah shushan yeah we didn't fight there um during the Hond times we prayed there we prayed the third time was the Holocaust we lost a third of our people so we like we really didn't do good on the third time of the the Holocaust one and now we're in this this one and I don't know what's going to happen no but according to the Zohar most likely is Trump's going to try to defend us and get just destroyed by I don't know who it's said in thear a far off land so I can't think of anything further off than China or North Korea or something but apparently it's apparently it's not gonna be so good for them what say to as ation or is something indiv yeah it's a good question like what would would you do if you found a guy who you could be for sure he's amik you have to kill him and he kind ofx right is that and well is it then the other question is are you ever done with the m it's not like you put on film once you know do you have to go I'm like really destroy yeah it's interesting this I'm this I'm like business not to mention you have a Mitzvah to wipe them out and then you have the MIT not to forget well if I wiped them out what's the difference if I forget so I have to it's like Su of it's the opposite of yeah but but seriously if you wipe them out and you succeeded at doing that of wiping out am but also the par out of yeah Wipe Out the memory of amate don't forget it's like make up your mind you know if I'm getting rid of his memory it's like child birth why are you tell me not to forget you forget how painful it is you remember and do it again right right turn right to survive I'm like they shape shift into animals yeah they sh they know all this kind of M magic stuff and um anyway but what I what I wanted to talk about today was how we are wearing masks we're wearing masks that that you know you're basically wearing a mask in the way your facial muscles are your facial muscles are ma Masky you know like what would your face look like if you never met anyone cuz think about it you're holding your faal you're holding your facial muscles up right now in facing me so but you're all day long you're and what would you sound like how much of your whole ability to speak has been your own desire to to somehow look good for the person you were talking to and how much of your personality is a copy paste of others in your life and so you start to realize that what exactly is underneath all that meaning what's under the mask because the other aspect of porum is wearing costumes and that's kind of something that we've taken on the Jewish people have taken on because it doesn't say I don't think it says anywhere in Hala to wear costumes you know it's interesting that everyone wears costumes on B by the way because where does it say so you know it doesn't say anything about costumes yet a lot of people go in costumes I personally really wanted this year to go uh to go Anonymous like to have a mask that would make me Anonymous which is what I usually wear them for you like my tubish shot wear please you can I got it the Jook for like nothing you can get him in the sh so so so then there's this thing about dressing up on poor and what would be the ideal thing to dress as who you really are to dress as who you really are that would be a nice Revelation because what is the whole day about it's about the re revelation of the Hidden well what's hiding what's hiding is who you really are and a lot of don't even know who we really are you know you know I don't I certainly don't know who I really am I'm have no idea really isn't the only to cross is it well you can get very specific um crossdressing is a Torah commandment so yeah you can't crossdress on porum but I do believe that people turn a blind eye on porm I think think you can not for begad but you can to make somebody laugh if there's atick there's a exemption to but not forisha I don't know I mean there's all kinds of weird hakas on like for example if you go into someone's house and trash the place on a regular day you owe him but in purm if you're because you fulfilled the Mitzvah of drinking to the point of Oblivion that you wound up trash in some guy's house you're completely off the hook yeah yeah you're you're off the hook for that um by the way you're because I told you that already you're all not [Music] welcome to my porn part I'm going to be speaking to the the authorities here to see if we can make the Afterparty here because I think that you know there's I don't think anyone in Basse hasem is going to bench when the rest of the world benches so this place should have a band I think starting around 10: you like that idea yeah yeah I think there should be a ban here be the band meaning I I don't mind being the band but I'd prefer not to be the band if possible and that there's actually a band with their own sound system and their own you know to make the party start here I think around 10 would be appropriate is do yeah well all the rebies go but they go till about 10:30 11 and then they bench and as soon as they bench everyone who wants to keep partying just leaves like the second the rebi pulls out the M you'll notice certain people just take off because they're not ready to bench if they don't do it here it's at my house every year it's at my house my I have a party that starts around midnight every you know every year but um I realized now the base hasem is so established that should be here yeah suay night should be here it' be better here don't wreck their Furniture it just it just everyone's so sloppy and sideways by midnight you know that the parties out of control and then we all wind up in the shol upstairs from my house it should be here people were like hanging from the windows and in SHO upstairs and I'm just thinking if my neighbors saw because our neigh our Sho is like Kash to the neighbors you know people like they're afraid to sneeze in there and then I have 30 40 drunk guys you know trying to start Mar which is an issue of you're not all dou drun and how do you D after P except for maybe at 3: in the morning I mean you stop drinking at midnight and uh maybe by 3:00 4 in the morning you get Mar so listen up the um so it's really the if you were going to wear costum ideally it'd be dressing as yourself and have you ever noticed that when people drink alcohol they more themselves sometimes like let's say he's a quiet guy and he drinks and all of a sudden he's like making more noise than anybody else so that's himself coming out like he really wasn't a quiet guy but the the the alcohol caused his inhibitions to go away and and suddenly he's talking so it's a chance to kind of say what you always wanted to say to be who you always wanted to be it's it's a coming out it's a revelation a personal revelation on for and I don't I mean it's funny for me to talk about this because I don't have anyone inside the reason I'm able to do what I do for a living and what I do in my life is all because there is really no one in there I don't have anyone in inside I'm like I the weirdest thing but like I actually have no identity at all and I think maybe it was best that way because I'm able to really help people like nobody else I've never met anyone who can help people the way I can help people but the reason I could help you is because I can jump into you so easily when I you understand if like you were talking to me about your stuff I'm in you totally there's no me to begin with to and I'll just be in there and I can do that with groups I can do that with individuals but if it came to porm and I wanted to dress as like who I really am I'd have to dress in a special invisible clothing I'd have to become totally invisible which would be what I was saying is I want to be knowing this year I want to not be recognizable but my wife doesn't want me to do that you know she wants a presence at at our party and she doesn't want the grandkids freaking out cuz I'm in some weird mask or my my daughter has an anonymous mask you know the hacker anonymous mask it looked so good with my stral and but I put it on at chabas lunch this week and if you saw my grandkids they were like they were like damaged by The Experience so she was like No And she wouldn't look at me my wife wouldn't look at me she so she's not excited about me going incognito but I so want to have purum be me unrecognizable what do I do I don't know what to do so the oh maybe I like really get made up like like get my beard extended or something anyway guys something to have in mind is who you really are who you really are to have a real um personal perm experience is to contemplate the party you've been hiding and make sure it's coming out this point what you been hiding from the world and what I generally find that people are hiding is their greatness you know people are so amazing and you're so amazing and each one of you and and but the thing is is how how specifically would you want to express how amazing you are but I would expect that every one of you every one of you this poor shows up at your absolute best because you are that great and that gets covered up just like the story of PM is all covered up and the whole idea of this holiday is how this whole world's covered up so we got a story covered up we got a world covered up that we live in we've got a personality covered up by by the copy pasting of from others and and we've got this opportunity to really like to to let it all hang out on poor and and and you and our rabbis say you know if alcohol is what it takes that's really they're telling us that's what it takes you know that you have to you have to drink and and that's the secret you know when the wine goes in the secret comes out and what's the secret the secret is that everything's made of a go everything's made of God the whole world's made of elus and something about about that wine going in the elus comes out anyway so today we're just going to do this short class so I bless everyone to to uh have a porum that's that's lifechanging like the the truth of God in this Hidden World in this atheist world the truth of God should be so clear but in a noetic way you guys know the word noetic noetic it was actually a word coined I think the 1950s but now it's already in the dictionary it was coined from the um original psychedelic research that was happening in the US you know in the universities Harvard I think it came out of Harvard's psychedelic research and the um noetic means it's when you know something it's like knowing you have five fingers like you know it totally but with a a trillion words you couldn't explain it you get it it's when you know something so deeply yet you could never explain it and purum is really built for us to have a noetic god experience a noetic god experience that's that's really what the whole the whole day is designed for is to get to that noetic knowledge of God but a kind of noetic that you couldn't explain it meaning if you had an atheist the day after porm say prove to me there's a God you'd be like no problem and then you'd be like I mean I know it totally but like and rambam says you have to know there's god well having a noetic experience of God is probably one of the best paths that because the other path would be getting Gathering evidence there's got and I personally am happy with Gathering evidence there's God I think that's what he meant I don't think he meant porm but purm is chance to have a noetic god experience so you some of you guys probably have to really let let it rip you know you got to cut loose this P like yeah I don't know if you guys let yourselves cut those like that but noetic experiences are where it's at like what gives me the holy to teach my cabala classes as if I've been learning so much cabala my whole life who am I to be teaching cabala class all these years the answer is my noetic experiences because because you don't teach something you don't know you know what I'm saying like or you could teach something you don't really know but no one's going to want to come back you'll get you'll teach one class and no one will ever listen to you again the it's those noetic experiences that suddenly put like you get a white beard overnight like you know stuff and you don't know why you know it but you know it now and now when you share words of Torah or you share any words of wisdom or advice it becomes sagely in the eyes of people because you've had your noetic experience you've been touched by God in a way you could never explain it