Living on Purpose

so there's a very nice plan words called living life on purpose and living life on purpose is it means that you're that you're really focused on your purpose you're living your life based on your purpose and and that creates this overarching focus of your waking hours and your sleeping hours even because you'd want to go to if you're living life on purpose you'd like to go to bed at a time that would best suit you waking up to go back to the purpose of your life um sadly most people have no idea what their purpose is and the reason that is is because their fear of rejection and failure the fear of rejection and failure are the main cause of not living life with a purpose meaning people not knowing their purpose like for example can any anyone in here raise their hand and say they know exactly the specific reason they were created and I'm talking about outside Judaism because you have Jewish and you have ewish you have Jewish is your Jewish responsibilities which is a very important purpose but you also have why you individually were created and that's that's a that's got its own very specific tasks that were assigned to you and you were brought to this world to fulfill and in fact when you die if you aren't fulfilling both you're busted totally busted so meaning we're all every person's born with a hook in their mouth and God's the fisherman and you can swim as long as you want you can go 80 years of swimming out there but when you die he will reel you in and when he reels you in he'll have two questions one question were you Jewish and the other question were you ysh Jewish and ysh so you imagine some secular guy he's got a tattoo that says mom on it you know his pink hair and and you know all kinds of body piercings and and he gets up there they say they say were you Jewish and he's like there was no more Jewish than me I mean this is one of a kind you know and they're like okay very good and were you Jewish and the guy's like oh boss who said anything about Jewish was your mother Jewish yeah well you missed it okay back in the pond pulls his hook out back in the pond or a guy comes up guy he's got his black C has got his garlon extra tight and he and he gets up there and he says were you Jewish he says you know no one was more Jewish than me and he says well were you ysh like ewish what's ewish well God created you individually you know are you like your siblings no are you like the guy sitting next to you in sh no every person has their K and it's a specific task you were given so God takes them throws him back into the PT try again so we got to answer for both we have to answer as Jews and we have to answer as individuals the reason we don't know why sorry okay the reason we don't know why we're living meaning the reason we don't know what our purpose is is because that I'm really laughing because the last time I said this no one paid any attention because this other guy walked in to get his b sa so the reason then the second I said it again I go I'm going to repeat it and I felt bad for the people watching because they're like you already said this but no one in here listened and I just want to segue for a second why is it that a man walking in here takes all of your attention away and every single person looks at that door and I'll tell you what you all say the second you look at that door is what is the threat watch don't look this time don't [Music] look what is the threat now part of that is our Reptilian Brain our Reptilian Brain is like constantly trying to regulate its safety like a reptile you know the the lizard is sitting and enjoying the sun on a rock but he only gets that regulated because he's staying at the same time hyperware of his environment he's got a bird's eyee view of the birds who could easily come down for lunch and just swoop them up and take them away as a little you know breakfast or something or a lunch he doesn't want to be someone's lunch so when that door opens we are all hyper aware of the person walking in and you know what you all do you all go look at him and you digitally scan his face you quickly SC his face for his intentions and you're checking out his intentions and now obviously we're in the deepest part of a Yeshiva so there there's a lot of room for anything dangerous happening between the the street of shomron and us no one's going to make it back here you know with bad intentions but nevertheless we scan them because we're scanning them for another thing and that other thing is that we're scanning them for how do we add up to this guy walking in the room how do we add up meaning you know there's a lot of categories of comparison there's looks there's wealth there's knowledge there's U there's knowledge there's wisdom which is different than knowledge there's there's um strength there's um there's a background you know Yus there's just there's so many categories and we don't know who the guy is so we just kind of quickly add him up like size him up from the outside and say like where would I stand you know compared to this guy you know how safe am I it's back to our safety it's a different safety though it's not a safety of like whether we're under attack it's a safety of um would my self-image be at risk here and then you so you size the guy up real quick you see that your self-image isn't at risk and then you come right back to the class having heard nothing for the last like 20 seconds and that's what happens every time that door opens and that's how fragile we are that we have this going on constantly because people are everywhere you can't get away from people no matter where you go there they are and you want to walk into any social environment where there's more than one person maybe 20 people or 30 people or 100 people it's a wedding with 500 people you are walking into a gauntlet of of uh social danger of how do you stand up to this how do you meaning where where where are you on the meter of all these different categories of of social acceptance I suppose which is a a good reason to be very nice to people a good reason to smile when you walk down the street because when you if you smile at someone you're walking down the street that guy walks by you and he says that's one less of 8 billion people that I'm going to wonder what he's thinking because he just smiled I'm worried about what maybe what the next guy is thinking but that guy not that guy not so what I'm saying to you is everybody take a commitment right now since you do that every time that door opens realize everyone else is doing it and you be the guy who is one lesp guy that people wonder about where how they how they add up how they measure up to you you be the guy you make sure that no one has to measure up to you ever how just with your eyes your eye contact certain smile in your eyes a certain accept and another thing is uh when you're very nervous socially I'm going to share this I usually wouldn't share this one but when you're nervous socially um you're probably taking a bit of a risk by talking to somebody but you know you don't want to just sit there by yourself so you take the risk and you talk to the guy next to you and then you know what happens the guy next to him overhears the conversation swoops in and dominates dominates the rest of the conversation and like you took some courage to do this you went ahead and spoke to somebody and then only to become usurped by the guy next to you and and lose your lose your whole like everything you put put the you know the the E well the courage to talk so I just give you a little hint if you are going to be courageous and Converse with somebody at an social event make sure anyone with an earshot is included so then him joining is a victory not a loss so if I got the courage to talk to him but you're an earshot I'm going to in I'm going to encourage with eye contact that you're with us in this and which then if you wind up joining a Vic that's a social Victory just took place that I was able to create more than just a one-on-one here I this is three of us conversing now and rather than you being nervous someone's going to butt in or something include the guy to begin with be inclusive in general okay um with that the let's see if it opens again the thing that gets in the way of us knowing our special purpose so that we can live on purpose is our fear of rejection and our fear of failure our fear of rejection our fear of failure think about it guys if you knew your purpose if you knew what you're actually put on this Earth for what are you going to have to do do it you got to go do it who says everyone's going to love it who says everyone's going to love it who how do you know everyone's going to be so excited about your special purpose you know those who are those who are single here you don't have to worry about a spouse loving it but those of us that are married in here like I'm not even sure can you even find your purpose once you're married who says she's going to love it who says she's going to be so excited about it so like if you're single it is a good time to be focusing on your purpose figure out what it is it also helps you make a decision who you want to married too because if she's like I love your special purpose you know I love your mission I love it like that's that's my mission or as most women would prefer to support the mission is I would be totally supportive of that mission which takes away a lot of your work in figuring out who to marry because the lady loves your mission so if the lady loves your mission so it's great um it's important also uh oh so that was rejection then there's failure is if you have your mission now you're going to go do it but if you're going to go do it well I have news for you it's going to fail so many times just like everything else fails so many times how many how many organizations you think use the space like this building is about 200 years old and it's clearly built for public use so um would you say any of them succeeded so like every one of those organization came into this space excited with energy with some funds and they said yeah we're going to really make a big difference for the world and they came into the space and and failed each one of them you know and and if you think about like successful organizations you know the go go interview the owner of the organization and what do you get to hear the history of his failures he's not going to be telling you the history of his success it's success is already plain to see that you see it's going to be the history of the failures which were the teachers that taught him the lessons to get to where he's at today in other words if you really want to succeed in life you have to learn to chew on the fat of failure to chew on the fat of failure most people taste failure they spit it out they go run to some other place but someone who chews on the fat of a failure learns the lessons failur is the path to success if you're not failing you're probably not trying very hard if you're not failing you're probably not doing anything so so you need to fail um I heard that Facebook the or you know the whatever you call it the company the uh that Facebook had on the computers I don't know if it still does but it said on everyone's computer it said I guess maybe on the screen screen saver it said Fail Hard as opposed to try hard it was Fail Hard meaning if you're not failing you're not moving forward say hard fa fast Fail Hard fail fast forward fail forward you fa fast you move on to the next failure right you don't want to spend three years failing better to spend three days failing uhhuh interesting never heard that one but many of you in this room and I'm sure many people listening to this are doing anything not to be in in being face to face with a failure right it's our it's such a terrible fear and we just we just rather not taste it and because we don't want to taste it so then we will be um those who don't want to taste it will not be of those Highly Successful People because the Highly Successful People chew on the fat of failure they actually they love it you know they like to fail because they they don't like to fail but they they they know that that's the path now think about this if you don't want a rejection if you don't want failure you don't want purpose you don't want to have a purpose because if you have a purpose people are going to laugh you're going to get rejected a lot it's it's scary having a purpose you know I have a purpose and I don't like it at all like for example yesterday um yesterday I had to do my purpose it was not fun it was quite embarrassing I'll tell you the truth I I um so my purpose my my the purpose that I've um aligned with in my life that I really believe is my purpose is to that I'm a bridge you want to bring your purpose to one word so my word is Bridge and and then you want to have a by line so I'm a bridge I Bridge people to themselves to one another and to Hashem that's what I that's who I am meaning that's my purpose okay I Bridge people to themselves that's the possi seminar coming January something and I still don't know the day but it's like in two weeks from now and uh and I Bridge people to one another um I'm really really good at connecting people and and I and I get brought into all kinds of situations of us of interpersonal Strife where I can get people to actually agree and um I'm also known to have families come back together that have been uh disconnected children whove abandoned the families families that have uh no no longer talk to some Black Sheep kid in their family I put them back together and the and of course this class usually is all about connecting to Hashem which is bridging people to Hashem and that's most of my online stuff is is bridging people to aim that's my purpose so yesterday I was in a tough situation because I had um I'm lighting my candles in the courtyard next door and there's a a particular um overzealous family that's a it's a really pretty broken situation over there it's extreme poverty and and irresponsible parenting going on over there and like the kids are completely half but they're also Cano you know what Kim are Kim are are zealots like anti-state anti- secular Israelis like pretty hateful pretty hateful like very bad energy place so it's just a little it's like I don't know right 10 kids living in two rooms it's literally two rooms there's a front room and a back room 10 10 kids and you know in these kind of absentee parenting situation anyway so the kids are now yelling to these secular Israeli groups that who are down in the courtyard watch looking at the kites they're yelling they're yelling the the words h huta means get out of here so they're yelling at the groups get out of here and meanwhile there's like I don't know each group's probably 20 to 40 uh you know 20 to 40 people per group and these people are like probably feeling a little self-conscious walking into a k Courtyard and you know they're they've come to Jerusalem from all over the country to enjoy the lights of Kaneka and we're also everyone's pretty PTSD in this country from the war and like now they now they got to get thrown out of this her Courtyard by a bunch of bunch of kids screaming a so what do you think I did you think I stayed in my apartment or you think I went out so I I believe me I wanted to stay my apartment I did not want to deal with these kids at all but I just said you know what I'm a bridge and my purpose even though like I so don't want to do this and I just marched right into that house I was literally walked into their Salon I didn't even ask to come in I walked right in these kids I think made in their pants and I for 10 minutes for 10 minutes I let them have it 10 minutes I mean I put the fear of God in these kids you know for 10 minutes straight the father wasn't there the mother was just like you know I mean she just always looks like she's afraid Child Services is going to come take these kids out of there you know so she's just oh I think she's always panicked and um anyway I just let him have it hard Ro but you but you understand that can you imagine getting bald out by me like that'd be that'd be an experience you know I I'm jealous of my friends I one day I had a cold I didn't get to go out with all my buddies and they managed to put OJ simpsons's son in the hospital um I guess I don't know what they were smoking drinking sniffing I I'm pretty sure it was cocaine oriented but U eventually they eventually they realized that OJ's son Jason who was a classmate of ours had to um had to go to the hospital over this he was clearly oding so rather than just having him die and running away they brought him to the hospital but the next day I was pretty upset that I missed that night because they said they they sat on a bench at the hospital and OJ Simpson balled them out out for like 20 minutes just screaming at at my gang it was my gang like normally Jason isn't part of our gang but the one night I wasn't there Jason Simpson was was was there so they all got balled out by OJ Simpson and I missed it yeah anyway I have a lot of stories like that growing up in Neway so anyway so you got to realize that that's in the way so what do you got to do you got to deal with your fear of rejection and you got to fear of your deal with your fear of failure you get that if you're going to figure out your purpose you have to get rid of your fear of rejection and you got to get rid of your fear of failure how do you do that how do you get rid of your fear rejection yeah inose that fear failure w't affect you as much anymore well you're saying a very nice thing and that's put on a scale so I got my fear of rejection and failure and then I got my purpose and do I am I really willing to lose my purpose because of my stupid ego because that's all ego anyway so am I going to let my ego be more important you understand like so last night I was in a situation where I like I'd rather not walk into my neighbor's house right now and so I mean I'd rather let my own fear of that inter that altercation I'd rather just but them these people get thrown out of the neighborhood and not but I'm a bridge and if I'm a bridge I can't I can't let my fear of rejection be in the way here and so I got to do what's uncomfortable right now so yeah you can hopefully weigh purpose down enough but what's the problem you don't know where your purpose is it's how you going to get to it and and I believe this I believe the only reason you don't know what your purpose is is because of the fear of failure and rejection meaning fear of rejection and failure have so badly kind of damped your your antennas meaning it's it took a cigarette lighter onto your like butterfly antennas just like so you lost touch with what your purpose is in the world had you been left to your own devices you could have known and what's the best way way to know is to think about what's always bothered you about the world what's always bothered you about the world since you're a little kid you looked at the world you were staring at the school bus or you're at your parents shavas table or you in synagogue or you're in the community or just walking down the street what bothered you I can tell you that as a little kid I had a big fat pair of binoculars and I would bring him to every major sports game which we had season tickets like literally like 50 yard line football right behind the home plated Dodger Stadium and literally behind the bench of the Lakers like right behind the players a little higher than them so we could see good the court and I had giant binoculars and my father would say what do you need binoculars for you got the best seats in the house but it was a joke because he knew what I was doing there I'm not going to watch a game wasn't there to watch a game I was watching the people on the other side and I would just go row by row by road until I finally find a father and son who don't talk to each other they haven't talked and I keep monit so that's one I'm to monitor them throughout the game there's a husband and wife in a they're in some kind of fight I don't know what's going on with them so I'm going to monitor them for the game and and that's all I did the whole game was just I'd find people there's thousands of people so I would find the people were disconnecting and then I would just go from each station like see if they would talk and I'm a little kid and I just wanted it to be resolved I just wanted to be resolved I I I felt their pain and I was desperate I couldn't breathe I would literally watch the father and son and and like holding my breath and try to put words in the father's mouth or words in the kid's mouth and like try to like do it mental telepathy like across the stadium and that they should talk to each other my parents said when I was little if they ever wanted to find me they had to look up meaning wherever we were just go out there and look up and they would look up and they'd see up some giant eucalyptus tree or on the roof of the building or wherever I was always up there watching people to see if they are connected to each other that's all I could think about when I was little but the thing is is you too you had your own thing probably wasn't what I worry about I worry about people connecting you had the thing that you wanted to see in the world some people they couldn't handle Injustice some people hated the the bullying and victimization of individuals um some people couldn't stand couldn't stand that some that some people have no money meaning that they're there's poverty um the people aren't eating some people can't stand um the education systems and and some people can't stand uh government and meaning the first step in the the first step is getting rid of the ego we spoke about that but the second step is figuring out what's always bothered you what's always bothered you about the world what's bothered you about this planet since you were born can you guys think of anything go ahead raise your hand let's hear something that always bothered you yeah what always bothered you uneven social themselves uhhuh like snobs you never like that wow okay you don't like snob yeah mhm cool so you know what bothers you anyone else mentality herd mentality uhhuh you don't like the way uh uh people don't have their own voice very nice keep going guys what's that just to love people you saw that conditional love you didn't like how love was conditional based on conditional means B you have to fulfill some condition to get love uhhuh interesting yeah what bothered you do what's always bother what's always bothered you about this world you don't know know yeah well it's always been there it's always under the under the current you got yours you got to find it you'll see once you get it you'll realize it's always bother you how about you young man you know what's always bothered you you need a problem wor your life you understand you've been spending your time trying to figure out like a lot of people are troubleshooting all their problems you know like make sure your bills are paid or make sure your you know your taxes are dealt with and parking tickets and we got all kinds of things that we got to deal with you know so we spend a lot of time dealing with these little problems what I'm offering is a big problem you need one big problem worth your life you got to have one big problem worth your life life and then your life's so meaningful then you'll be happy because you have a meaningful life because the the key path to a meaningful life is is uh is having uh path to a happy life is having a meaningful life and what could be a more meaningful life than spending your life solving a problem you know there's do you realize a plumber who's that's not our purpose but a plumber who like some lady has a leak in her house and the she you know this pouring down into her sink and meaning under the sink and onto the floor of her kitchen and the plumber comes and for 100 shekels or 150 shekels he comes and changes the valve and he tightens it up but you realize he sleeps better knowing that he helped that lady it's not just the money he solved a problem it's there's certain uh great feeling that he has I even like watching them do it like when they come to my house to do that I like to actually watch the watch the action like watch this guy solve this problem and I sense his his uh his you know the richness in his heart I know people make a lot more money than that guy but but this guy's got a certain problem solved so how about living that purpose you figured yours out it has a lot to do with um people's fear of of elevating themselves and seeing people in like a lower vibration of Consciousness they're not something's blocking them something stopping them from being who they truly are so I guess it's a catalyst for other people's purpose I feel like everybody's say it again if I had to boil it down it be to elevate people's Consciousness for myself and others and through myself and people seeing my Consciousness elevated also are uhhuh uh so the problem would be unconscious people and since you're a little used to notice people were unconscious see so for these three four of you guys four of you guys still got to work on this you got to figure out what's always bothered you because you need a problem worth solving you need a problem that's that's worth solving and and I mean that'll be very rewarding to solve solve that one everyone whatever you guys said it would be very rewarding to spend your life solving that fail yeah you'll fail and it'll be embarrassing sometimes to put yourself forward you know I put myself in all kinds of situations that are often embarrassing just to work on my bridging bridging people together anyway the the next thing is that the next level of this would be to figure out what's your special skill set what's what are you good at everyone's got something they're good at so You' want to develop a um not develop you you want to think about a somewhere where you're naturally good at things so and then what you do is you apply that which you're good at and apply it to the problem that you're here to solve so for example what I'm naturally good at is is public speaking especially when I don't have a sinus infection but I I'm naturally good at at public speaking and and what I do is I often discuss uh people I I I've figured out like literal Technologies and how to get people back together who have lost their contact with with loved ones with each other with fellow employ employees with employers with the um I I figure out how to BR how to bridge people and I use my public speaking to do that you get that so um so that's the next step is is you develop your you figure out what your skill sets are and then you apply your skill set to the problem and then what you want to do is nail the purpose to one word you want to get the purpose down to one word onew purpose so mind's Bridge you know your one word per takes a little time to get it down to one word yeah a lot of what you're talking about is is a purpose that involves mostly you know the outside world than yeah purpose is totally beyond your life it's going to it will even outlive you it will probably be whatever you choose as your purpose will probably get bigger when you die not less yeah the purpose has nothing to do with with you so doesn't that connect to the overall purpose of maybe the world and other people like your yours is bridge that connects to that helps connect to other people's purpose would you say that they're all inqu well there there's one big thing called tonum that all of us are here to fix the world and obviously everything's related to everything so the more everyone's fixing everything the more they're going to relate consider like family to be a exterior thing family is a little better than just yourself but it's also way more internal than what I'm looking for yeah uh by the way I'm not talking about how big the purpose is the purpose could be only the feeling people get when you walk into a room it doesn't mean you're now running a giant tax deductible organization with 10 branches you understand this this can be as big or little as you choose to go it's up to you how big you play it but it and certainly your family feels your purpose but it it shouldn't be limited to your front door the front door of your house understand start is that you could start there like you could have biggest purpose for the outside world own family not right so that so we'll finish with that we'll finish with that is um there's two games of life there's an outer game and an inner game and so you have to be very careful not to be a bluffer because you know people with big outer games generally have really bad inner games your inner game is your inner private life and your outer games the life the World the game you play out in in the public world so like famous big outer game bluffers are like politicians musicians professional athletes and that's why you'll notice that the tabloids like the gossip newspapers are full of these you know this one broke up with this one they got divorced and they you know uh a good example this is uh what's that guy the one who owns Tesla Elon Musk big outer game his in game I mean like how many times that guy been married he's he's got 12 kids or did he just have another kid I think he might have had a 13th kid um minus one though cuz he said he said his his son that became a a a girl he said his son is dead so so that was very popular on social media that guy's nuts like he just that son is dead you know about this yeah so anyway he um so he's a great example of a big outer game and and an inner game that's you know I mean he's got a he does have a what's it called Aspergers which is on the spectrum of autism so it's like we're not expecting autistic people to have an amazing inner game you know it's a big challenge for an autistic person to have an amazing inner game is like maybe above and beyond what we would be we we' be expecting from him but but whatever it's still an example of of a big outer game so it's really important that someone who knows their purpose doesn't wind up using his purpose as a smoke screen for his lack of inner development you have to be developing yourself the whole time if you have a big outer game your if your big outer game and your inner game's crummy it will implode has Shem has a way of causing everyone who has a small inner game meaning their inner gamees undeveloped but they got this like big fat outer game yeah sh has a way of just having them just become a public embarrassment it happens in the Jewish World a lot um father OJ Simpson OJ big outer game not a good inner game yeah and uh his inner game was really not good and and um but we we've also had like you know I think there was a guy I never heard of him until he took his life as Waldman maybe was his name Wald was there an jewish author named Waldman Waldman wder Walder yeah you could tell I'm fua not knowing who that is because I never heard of that guy in my life I only heard about him when he was already dead but um but that's a Jewish example of a guy who like had a big outer game you know he was an author like a big author we weekly weekly Publications children's books therapist you know a therapist spells if you separate theth and the the rapist you know was was he like was he getting together with his uh clients was he having kids kids he was a child therapist whatever this more in details than I'd probably ever want to hear about so anyway bottom line is classic example of a big outer game small and then there was the head of a Jewish organization another one was it zaka what was that guy's name yeah didn't he also take his life yeah and oh maybe not are there theories that he was killed anyway but he was another big outer game guy big outer game guy and I don't know what he got caught with but I imagine it wasn't something that anyone wants on their resume and the um I love being aloof from all this stuff like I I never heard of that guy either till he died and um so what about the other way around another one just died too I was just at a Shiva last week of another one with a big outer Game and his inner game was just disastrous the um it's it's it's pretty big deal you know like you should we should all know that when someone makes fun of personal growth you ever had a friend who like smirks he's like smug about people who go to personal growth personal growth books personal growth seminars personal growth anything you know personal growth gurus anyone makes fun of that stuff like you can just you might as well just knock the wind out of them you just just G just give him a big like you know just watch him go like but anyone who makes fun of personal growth is you know all you have to do is just say when he when he's making fun of it just say hi what's his last name W wer was it wer just say hi I'm Walder what do you think you think he could have maybe benefited from some personal growth programs you he work on himself a little bit that have been helpful so he try he didn't try believe me he didn't try yeah I feel like the other way around is much more common when people work on oh yeah sure sure yeah you meet these intergame guys all the time the especially in the Jewish Community you know excuse me I wasn't going to have the first time I ever blew my nose on YouTube happened today I don't mind doing it if I become one of these guys with sinus issues but my sinus are usually great that's all right so it's all about the track record you don't want it to be the first time the second so um yeah you meet a lot of people who are big inner game developers I know a lot of them because I'm in the world of U of uh oim were you know like whatever the when you're from the bcha community there's certain stars for every 20 Bas there's a star on the personal growth level like who's like you know's he's it all started with a book called bil mishan and now it's like years later no one seen him since you know he's like in some cave somewhere like going deeper and deeper and deeper and deeper into his development of him himself and meanwhile he's got so much to give and none of it's been given like no gift has been given I know so many people like this they're so like heavy meaning meaning they meaning they just all they do is feel the the thing they they don't give it out you know there was a guy like this at ASA Tor who sat for so many years we used to always say to him like when are you cuz an asan Torah if you know Olive you teach Olive if you know bet you teach bet if the only thing you know is lamid well go teach lit you know like you don't ever sit on your knowledge you must teach it you can't know anything without teaching it and so that was our whole brainwash at a that you have to teach everything you know so there was this guy at a hiding out there for many many years who was learning and learning and learning and learning and learning and learning like this guy could learn like literally all day and all night and he opened the base MERS in the morning he closed it at night so we used to go up to him and I mean I'm I'm going to give his name because I'm so mad at him for not going out to teach anyway so we would go up to him once in a while like once a year You' got to do this you go up to him and say Galia when are you going to actually teach and he mean when are you going to get out of here and go like make a difference for the planet you know you know what he'd say he'd say when I can think like a Jew when I can think like a Jew a lot of people who are raised not from come into Tera and realize that we don't think right we don't know how to think like a Jew and it was his belief that if he would sit and learn sit with all for you know our sages for hours and hours and hours for years upon years upon years that eventually his brain would stop with its goisha way of thinking and start to think like a Jew go ask him man anyway but today he's out there he he became a therapist and he's one of the best therapists in Jerusalem he and I were the first people ever trained by the great famous Russ Russian hypnotherapist named aimi when he was training us he this guy had a million people in in Russia listening to his weekly you know like psychology hour on the radio in in Russia we were the first two English people trained by him and but he continued in the work I SP I can't stay focused on one thing for more than a few hours so I worked in it for a few years but then I spun off into the possib seminars and all the work I do since then um anyway he now gives big time he's he it's like a year waiting list to get into him of course you have to pay probably two 300 bucks to get what he's got to give but a yeah I think thinks like a Jew bro that we can't end on a better note than that Shalom everybody blessings