HEAL yourself and EXPIRIENCE spiritual awakening

[Music] spirituality here in Asia tour in the old city of jerusalem overlooked in the western wall that's so happy to you back my pace are made by God today so I have no idea what I look like because I've been off-roading for the last couple hours of course I couldn't have landed in Israel for more than 24 hours without coming off roading you know I just live in the in the wilderness I'm always in the middle to listen and I think maybe it has a lot to do with my spiritual Hammond because not that you know anyone should ever claim spirituality but when you meet as many people as I do you realize your spiritual yeah no offense so the whatever you know what I mean like you don't have to be a dummy to realize that you're kind of a spirit oriented person when you meet a lot of people who aren't unfortunately both I told you no man haha Kony bit about anyway so yes I just hit the trails which was really quite awesome but here's the crazy thing about it is I decided to transform one of my vibrations that that's been a blind spot obviously if anyone here knew they had some negative vibration going on they would change it immediately problem is they're all in your blind spot like where my hands all right now all your negative vibes are here you don't see them and so you perpetuate them and wherever your life doesn't work because if you have negative vibrations obviously your life's not gonna work very well so wherever your life doesn't work as a human being you'll just create a hush cuff around it that's what we do wherever we're dysfunctional we just create a scuffle around it and then eventually they bury you and the and so so but there is such a thing as being awakened alive enough to know that you're stinky and if you know you're stinky you know there's a vibrational something inside you that you've got whitewashed with God knows what crooked house cava that you've built around it and and then you whenever you live you know that's real life and whoever knows you loves you I guess you die they just going whoo you know of course they mourn you but it's also a great relief you know especially people are really close to you so the so you know grief is great like there's grief but there's also like my goodness you know like how much longer can you put up with such a person and the and so but we'll live like this forever so I realized recently that one of my blind spots was for sure there and it's such an interesting story but to private I think to share how I realized that I can't hide this anymore that I've got an issue and so and so let's see how much I can share I just say that there was a relationship in my life that's an important one that wasn't wasn't working at all and I basically figured out the personality disorders of that person that was my toughest this person's got issues and so and they you know they may but you know so do i and takes two to tango and so what happened was I so I did the work and I you have to unfortunately cry a lot because think about it if you have some blind spot by regional thing that's like making your you smell from you know at about a three meter radius so if you have some stink that makes you smell and you're perpetuating that smell around chances are the reason you'd be doing so is because to reveal it would be way too painful emotionally like you know I'm saying like to go there no one's going there yeah you just don't want to go there and and you'd probably even avoid people like me who would take you there because that's my work which is how I get to go there I get to go there frequently because I'm constantly doing my work and in fact my work which is called the philosophy seminar I just got back from three seminars on the East Coast and we've got our first English seminar in Jerusalem in like half a year I don't even know how long like the longest time but it's coming up this Sunday with an introduction Thursday where I imagine I will bring pizza even though I personally wouldn't eat pizza it seems to be a good way to get people to come to your experience so there will be an experience this Thursday night on W do schinsky anyway if you're watching this live send your English speakers and stay tuned for Hebrew senators back in business of it anyway so what happens is the way we can be so stinky for so long I think we lost it you with us the way we can stay stinky for so long is because to reveal that vibrational frequency would require touching a part of you and that you just you don't want to go and and I found mine and that much I can reveal because of my own secrets I have none so I'm from California everybody just say everything so I don't mind reviewing my own stuff so so the so the frequency was that I was raised in a world where there was no there was no boundaries at all you know like and I've got a real album of enas soul so I if there were some I would have broken them but at least I hadn't known they were there you know I I would have definitely busted through any boundaries that were there but I but I wasn't even given any now here's a really interesting thing if you're from the soul of Agra matheno and you're the brown d breaker and you're gonna push the limits of everything you know just to keep everyone awake and alive you know because every institution rots from within but the top of every institution they don't want to lose power but the problem is had to get to the top they got the top because they obviously had what to say that was relevant enough to put them at the top but the problem is the world is dynamic it's not static when you're on the top you like dynamic or static once you're at the top what do you prefer we'll take the static please we like the view up here and so but what happens is dynamic comes from below and just generally attacks you know that's why even though longest-standing companies you know some sever a real stay stairs but most thirty years laters companies that you just thought were like forever are gone you know unless they end up innovate but it's often they don't just had the courage to do that and the top just doesn't have the dynamism to allow for innovation but things should percolate from below Asia Torah I mean at least until smartphones with some very relevant for a long time because of the because we're I'm not wavered you know as our leader just you just never claimed the top so we didn't have one which was quite amazing and and there's a lot of organization that you know that you probably have no idea started here but he just had no top and so you could start anything here like and even even find you you're coming in with a craziest idea you need some level of follow-up or the board would come after you but but it wouldn't come after you you'd be like do it you know I'm cutting you a check you know that the board would come cramming down on him and going like what was that so um you might turning off I think we have heat on which is I don't think that's so appropriate right now just press off the power there thank you it also be much quieter let me take a deep breath anyway a store never at a top which was quite amazing you know and then and then he pet interestingly passed away right around right around after smartphones and and so as the as the movement hit its next stage which was you know you're gonna find truth on your smartphone not with a backpack you know smartphones a little smaller than backpacks you know you're interested in truth when he just pull your phone out you know leave the backpack at home and the boon all that shift it was about when he passed away so he never had to witness you know the world we live in today I wonder what he would have said how he would have wanted to innovate with it it's a good question anyway the top percolating up the the boundaries I was never given boundaries and I'm built I'm the percolator like I'm the sole that percolates up and bust through things but here's a very interesting thing this what I want to say before is what do you do if you're an opera money--no to button your identity's break boundaries or at least push up against them so they push you back we just have like supposed to be you're supposed to push up to push back a little then you know your geography so you don't spending the rest your life scared out of your pants for nothing you know like most people's parents unfortunately there's a lot of bad parenting especially in the observant community and I'm not saying of every observant Jew does bad parenting but there's one level of parenting that the observant community's a lousy job of and that is making the kids scared of things about a hundred and miles away from where the fear should have started you know we're not so good at that yeah we weren't very good at showing our kids the actual geography and and that's a great way to cause mediocrity in your children you know and a real browbeaten adulthood and not to mention financial scarcity because you know hurts our modern world has no tolerance for that kind of stuff you know like the whole though every single enterprise in the financial world is is governed by the people who push and push fearless leap to the edge and so we're basically just handicapping our kill our children tying their hands behind them back their backs you know needlessly you know absolutely needlessly instead of showing them the edge of things and it's not that you don't make a fence but the fence is for the terror okay fences are for the terror enough for you know everything else and and so you make a fence for the Torah for sure want to protect that thing but uh but unfortunately people have gone overboard with their protection that's why I think it was young who said that every every good parent fails every good meaning you're so good at parenting you forgot to stop and so you crippled your kid by not giving them their wings you know parents jobs give roots and wheat roots when they're little and then wings as they I can use them you know but the but many parents have done a lousy job of that you can shut off your ringer if you don't mind thinking it's okay so anyway but that's the job of parents is to you it's to stop parenting you know no unsolicited advice you know I once my kids are by me so about Nissa I'm done you know thank you they know it's like they could finish your sentence for you you know like leave the poor kid alone they didn't ask kid ass advice don't get advice don't ask advice no advice yeah and and not only know advice but know like under-the-radar advice too because they're not dummies they know what you're doing so no under-the-radar advice either just live your life and it's great cuz now you're free you know and they're little they love to hear a million things about the world they get a little older remember miss page they know everything they can finish your sentences they don't there's nothing you're gonna tell them they don't know ready just leave them alone you don't just be a great example in the best example of being happy happiness but show you happy with your Judaism and let them see it see you make your blessings with love and patience and caring that's all they need you know and which is wonderful because now you're kind of forced into being this ultimate spiritual guide you know guide through an example obviously but now your spirituality turns on because you're taking your time to be that person and nothing more no advice science lab now um anyway but what do you do if you're an opera Mavi no but you're raising out boundaries you're raised without borders so you want to know the answer I'm the answer that's a crazy answer but there's a lot of answers but the answer that you're probably weren't expecting is you spend your life scared let me explain it to maybe in an analogy like this you know we say every morning for will show my Ohio England right lesson to see you spoke and created the world let me say oh you memo you said listen he says and does which of course none of us do but we're all creating worlds with words because we're created in the image of how God created the world so we create our world with words but we also say and hopefully do or we have no integrity and most people are not saying do the must be righteous saying don't do and say they will say they won't do it you know people Jenner they're nuts saying dude and the other one is going summit I decree and fulfill the decree God does that we don't do that isn't that there's a full sneeze safe zone so in the future just let er rip yeah we got enough things ruling over us here and things were not allowed to do so the pleasure of a nice big sneezes it's a safe zone for a hard course she's got the tissue so you know some of life's pleasures come with a lot of rules in Judaism so like we should definitely at least be able to sneeze fully so so the anyway what was that time I appreciate I appreciate the overall theme that wasn't on that right I was in in and now I was explaining I know it's gonna explain a story I thought I'd started it already I can't remember if I started it or not okay whatever I drew a blank you know the funny about that there's not one person in this room who has any idea what I was talking about know what's pretty funny if you're the guy forgot we were talking about I just started stopping laughs about you know like maybe I should choose in your career maybe this is depressing you know Here I am talking along forgot what I was talking about and no one even knows what I'm talking about right we're stopping and laughing it's getting hot in here no is he it's he we have a little problem with building in the Dafty that room that room just gets cold but this room unfortunately does not know how to be on its own that'd be wonderful what this one might work nice lady do you mind just airing out the room a little bit over there and and then that will close in a sec because it's got it there's ambient noise that's more than I can handle I don't like the ambient noise but let's get that thing nice and opened up keep it going just let's get some fresh air in this room have a great day Oh safe travels don't forget to sleep on the second half don't support yourself up as long as you can they're gonna make you go to sleep but do your best and you fly to the US you want to stay awake for it's 12 hours so you want to stay awake the first four and then try to sleep then accelerate otherwise you arrive yeah well you may not be a miss you've slept a lot but by the time it's around 3 or 4 p.m. you've enough since midnight that's 3 or 4 p.m. you're done and now your whole schedule can be messed up for days but if you just put toothpicks in your eyes and force yourself awake for the first 4 hours of your flight and they don't want it the stewardesses just want like they shut the place down like get out of our hair yeah till the meals when the meals done all the lights set off you're done yeah but I say oh I have to have no choice because when I get the grab when I hit the ground it'll often teach 10 hours straight from from noon til not 11 hours from noon to 11 I'm on my feet in front of a crowd straight yep so I must force myself away from those hours so let's go back to the fear I'll go reel it back maybe it'll come again so when you are when you have no boundaries you're scared of everything because because yeah you're not a dummy you know there's stuff to be afraid of you just can't find it this is how I became a big wave rider you know most surfers you meet 9 out of 10 or the 9 or 10 19 out of 20 when you meet a guy who surfs he's not a big wave rider they're just far and few between you know they aren't even I met my first female big wave rider ever after 40 years of surfing when the Billabong crew was here I actually been a female big wave rider and I still you know I I mean she told me how to search her on YouTube to watch but I still haven't seen it I just met big wave riding yeah David ridings like starts more than double the height of this ceiling more than double I and that's what it's like that's when we that's what we feel like we're serving when it's double I when it's more than double night then we start I don't know we started doing we start really having fun and then it gets bigger and you just keep going because you're pushing the boundaries and I cry should have drowned a thousand times but God was keeping me alive for something else and I never found the boundary I never hid it and when I moved here all the big wave riders moved to jet skis Pullen's getting towed into the waves which I'm kind of glad I missed just having watched some of those wipeouts even last night on YouTube you know cuz last week it was the waves had hit about 80 feet plus 90 feet in Nazari Portugal you can google a Portugal big wave riding and see the biggest waves in the world and it's pretty frightening and knowing me I would have kept I would have stuck with it that guy so I'm glad I do and and by the way the only border I ever met was the show Sahara to this day I finally met my match I mean my man was God but but it was such a pleasure to meet God in my life because he's just there there's the edge I found the edge you know up until there and I'm till there enough to layer enough to they're up to their diet up to their in relationships up to there and you know in your activities when it comes to Shabbos and I took so well to those limits and you would think it would been the opposite you know a guy who has no limits should be kind of turned off by Judaism but I was like whoa thank God lengthy now I feel safe feel safe safer or anyway but what I didn't realize is I had a vibrational energy inside of me called unsafe that I felt unsafe and I expressed it in two ways one I already shared with you risk taking took a lot of risk but the other way was a very interesting thing that is you know it's a little embarrassing to even share publicly I'm embarrassed to say this but I'm super engaged I mean you can tell how engaging I am just right now but why don't one I'm even more engaged if it hasn't it it has to have an it like people hire me for an hour and they get so engaged I they get a such an engaged person when we spend that hour together but I never knew until this day that it must end I mean I have to know when it's over I have to know when it's over I can't be open-endedness of that level of engagement is was not it just wasn't a note I can play on my guitar it was just a missing core that I couldn't play that and I never knew them I just never knew it and very sadly there's certain people who have an open-ended engagement requirement what are those people called begins with an F a em family families open-ended you know it's there's no end no in the air our doesn't end hey welcome can you move seats so they can sit together please you came off the wall have a good Domini hi welcome it's funny they're going to pray and you guys just came from that you came from the wall welcome where are you from you look so exotic compared to me nice so you probably like the topic we're on are you speaking this with a beam something I've got a little bit maybe nah maybe not sir can you give that the most severe it was like if I see it say that as I will say this yoke my much Mecca shiny show more than McCain a Fender toshimi as Bill mccoshen Misha we have a table for two right here is it comfy - this is like the revolving door here every minute no no something this couple came in right before you how you doing so happy to have you so so I'm just starting in Hebrew for one minute you know Mukesh ameesha can even say him Sammy Shubin I give conveniently yes Soph Lizzy at a tearful Lolita she'll commercial Tulsa more all-clear to that yes off with her about yah hast mich Baha been Zulu or yella D in Sufism this Superman oh man Russian easily mouth as much you know neighborhoods club so what happens is and I think this happens for a lot of people I'm not the only one this happens with oh I'll catch you up is that when you're in deeply engaged with a person cuz that's the right thing to do when you're standing with somebody you'd like to know that it ends and I don't work half our revenues and I get hired I get hired a lot for now to meet with people but it's an hour it's over after an hour but when it comes to family it never ends it never ends and I noticed that I would disengage I just disengage at a certain point and this might be something that other people haven't done where they disengage at a certain point even with their spouses and and spouses are a little more independent compared to kids kids are like you know spouses are he you should be shy mule that's my you meet you let me kids it's like it doesn't it you know it just they their need it's like a vacuum cleaner that's been the on switch was glued on you know you just never ends when it comes to kids they needed you and they need you and then now I think women don't have this big an issue like men do I think men it's a little harder for us to be back engagement someone that where it never ends and so I when I realized that I felt unsafe in my life with my upbringing being I'm an opera Mavi knew a soul I like to break through boundaries pull a together I like to break boundaries but because I was raised in a world that didn't have any so I just got scared where's the edge and the way I expressed that was two ways one was being a wild risk-taker daredevil and the other way was by disengaging when it got when I couldn't see the end in sight in interact in interactions with people I would disengage and so I had to cry that out big time last week it got a big cry and cry out that that negative frequency inside of me of unsafe and cry out mind say because because you got to cry it out because the only wait if you have some stinky vibration in you like if you have a vibrational frequency that's just you know I just don't belong there but there it is so you gotta create so much guff around it to protect yourself from you know meaning uni that's dysfunctional and if you have that dysfunctional tedo a dysfunctional frequency inside of you in the eve folks can see on you know beef name so you got it you'll create a whole hushka fire you'll create a whole worldview that like explains it all you know until you die and everyone's just like thank God you know like that person's gone because what a hassle it is to be close to you and and so but but if you want to get in touch with that frequency you're gonna have to cry because how could you perpetuate a frequency that doesn't work with a whole much guff around with the whole you know worldview your graded around the dysfunction the answer is is because it would hurt too much to look there I don't want to look there we never look where we don't want to see something but last week I forced myself to look there and I found that spot I found that unsafe spot in which the variant I know that unsafe spot but I never knew it was showing up in my closest relationships I never knew was showing up with family I had beat it in all my risk-taking Norma risk-taking I'm the protector of my family I created the vibration of protector and I protect not only my family I protect everyone I'm a protector of people as a victory over unsafe because now I'm a safe protector and but I didn't realize that it was still showing up with family so what did I do I created a new one I'm safe I'm a safe protector and I'm engaged or I'm safe and engaged because protectors already in I don't think I need to keep declaring that like it's good I don't even think of it I I lock my door at night I didn't used to know I do it because I want to protect my family so I locked the door at night by the way Jerusalem's very safe so when my wife would come and see the door was left open she would say to me you left the door open and I would say see how safe it is but that's what we do we create that's a perfect example of self-deceiving hush cough of self-deceiving worldviews we paint over dysfunction you get that that's what we all do and so and so what happened was I was I discovered there's this whole other frequency of disengaged when I don't know when it ends and there's no more clear example of when it doesn't end when when you're with family now family's not gonna call you out family won't call you out on you know why because once you're in a once you have that negative let's say you have a negative vibrational energy you have a negative frequency you're gonna create a a what's record for date and you say one that makes up for how do you call it one that makes up for compensatory a compensating vibration so my compensating vibration have you ready for this had my family ending the conversation quick like they all had to know that was come they knew you got 10 minutes get it done you imagine that like they knew I'd be there a hundred percent but you got 10 minutes to save save your piece and I don't even know I was I had no idea that was because of me you just created you create a compensatory frequency people will dive to it and cooperate you know what that means that means you have people cooperating with you right now in what ways that perpetuate you and you perpetuate it you understand you have compensatory frequencies you've created to basically protect the frequencies that you should be transforming inside you and everyone will relate to you based on that for example if you meet someone who's compensatory frequency is shy you will automatically kind of give them space you automatically given space and if someone's compensatory frequency is lazy and you got you needed someone to do something and there's five of them there you will not pick I'm lazy you'll know not to pick that person and they are already putting it out I'm not available to be picked for that you know no the inner frequency might be that they're a big failure and they chose lazy as the compensatory frequency anyway long story short is I did my work last week come back to Israel and here's the crazy thing is that is that I have a family member I'm a family member who's the only one who never bought my scrap I have one family member never bought my scrap anyone else body obviously I'm singing scrapped without the S yeah but I have a family member was the only one who didn't buy it now what my entire disengagement my disengagement program that you know where I have everyone behaving accordingly that one's be everyone perfectly behaves with your compensatory frequencies I had a family member that refused to buy it he was not gonna behave with that frequency and spent the next I'm trying to think when he realized it I don't know when he realized that but he just decided to become he just turned his whole being into a thorn and stuck it here for years and years and years now what do you think my move was what would be my move of someone sticking thorns I'm the issuer there whose whose issue based on this whole class who would I create the issue as mere them then for sure everyone else is acting normal why can't they accept what's normal in your life is is not normal it's just what you've trained the world to behave like to not step on or expose you so the one person who refused to play along it was a thorn in my side as his when I flew back to his right just arrived and no one's been sweeter to me I haven't discussed any of this with him no one's been more with me I don't think there's not a single person in my family that's spent more time with me than him at this point no big talk was had I don't mind I obviously you see I'd be willing to open up and own it I hope just opened up with you guys a little bit you know so I'm certainly on it with him I don't think I need to he's so insightful but my frequency shifted and me and he he took his thorn away at that bull like if there was any question what I'm saying is true or not true about me or about the subject matter in you inside you is it all flipped around like like that and this is why it's so important for all of you to realize and me which I think I realize is that it's not appropriate for any of us to complain about our key relationships because anything you work anywhere you would complain in your key relationships in your life is it's really you it's really you you're the one and wherever you would have those complaints that's just that's just giving wherever your complaint is is the access into the issue which is you and deep down and so it's it's really a tremendous victory now I'm going to open up a topic that I'll probably develop more tomorrow is it before yeah yeah quick question I said you go in deep deep deep tears first of all you got to go into the embarrassment it's horribly embarrassing to admit your frequencies many garbage frequencies you got to cry it out you also got to find the right one you have to always search with a lens that says what would be the most embarrassing if you don't look for the most embarrassing one the one you would released one I reveal you probably will miss it so you've got to go for the most humiliating one that's probably where it's most likely gonna be where it's most humiliating and you just never admit it cuz how else could you be doing all these years you know obviously there's something painfully embarrassing there otherwise you would have gone that long creating such frequencies meaning the compensatory one for everyone to behave to so you gotta go to the one that just you're the last thing you'd ever want to say like me saying I'm unsafe that's an embarrassing what's that just it's true detail the question for this time of the class and the but what I'd like to share is just another thing that's so off the wall and I'm only gonna bring it up as a topic and hopefully handle it tomorrow one of the days this week really a crazy thing that's gonna be it's gonna sound as a deposit such a thing is gonna sound ludicrous and they're gonna be interesting for you rabbi take care of this your access to spirituality your access to spirituality requires it requires that you clean out your emotional toxins I mean you can have what they call Spears I mean you can have a surface observance listen you can have a full Jewish observance and you could even you could even go far in both tour knowledge and in understanding of prayer and and in the path of prayer in the path of connection but to have a visceral to have a visceral God experience which is the point of it all I keep a little short of prophecy obviously but to have a visceral God experience it only will rest on someone who is clean emotionally meaning that you've worked through your garbage you don't have toxic stuff inside of your personality built as a building as a factory you know factory loaded ill then when I say factory I mean the factory of your upbringing I mean because no one was loaded with that when you work toddler you don't have any of that but that that that if you want a true spiritual vision fusion the kind of spirituality of that that's that you can't deny something that would take you the rest of your life to describe and you wouldn't finish nor get accurate anywhere in your accurate today like true spiritual USB cable plug in only lands on the person who's clean from these toxic vibrations inside which would explain why so much of Judaism has been relegated to the surface because it's just not part of our culture to go there you know no one's going there and because no one's gone there so you're relegated to you know daily Jewish life of the 2019 community you know but but if you want to touch I know a lot of you want to touch into the something a little not a little something if you want to touch into something real undeniably real so then look no further than your the toxins built into your personality that you've been compensating before and break through those and there's ways to do that is several portals I happen to have one of them one of them is the possibly of seminar it's a portal to that and that's how I was able to get to this one but it was a blind spot for me I only broke through it last week after 19 years of running this program and just hit 9,000 graduates but I got my own blind spots we're all onions we're going through the layers and I hit a new layer for me for myself I think it's been really exciting to fly back here and re-engage with my family but in a way that needs no time babies no timer you know I think my all my family is much more relaxed with me right feeling expressed I'm not going anywhere I'm here I'm engaged tell me everyone have a beautiful day Shalom if you enjoyed watching this well watch some more send it click it forward it join it subscribe to it you know keep coming on in joining me in this amazing movement to make a big difference in the world and the biggest thing you can do of all is to join the yom tov media club calm please go online yom 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