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by the Young Turks. And without the Glazer, this running joke. And also hit the notifications so you can check out all these videos that I'll be putting out cuz because of popular demand, um just tired of people asking me when you're going to start again. So, here we are. Um today we're going to talk a little bit about um fears. And what I mean by fears is uh the things that stop you. You know, some people you know, they just get stopped around certain things. Uh for example, um the fear of rejection, being stopped around you know, worrying about what people think of you. And uh and then there's uh failure, where you're stopped professionally, you know, because or at least maybe in school if you're younger. Um where you're just you just don't want to fail. And so, you're you're stopped there and stuck there. And and then there's the fear of being controlled or overwhelmed by things. Um controlled by others or overwhelmed by, you know, events. Um and maybe even an event you need to be throwing like a wedding or something can make you feel totally out of control. And now all of a sudden you're stuck there again. And um and then there's the the fourth one is just the overall unknown of the world. I mean, you don't know what's coming. You don't know what's next. And uh maybe that's got you frightened. And and then there's the fear of like pain and suffering and stuff like that. Which uh also is a big fear. And and I'm sure there's more fears, but I can generally put them all under this category. There's the um Oh, okay. So, so here's the story. I was with this guy over here. Actually, maybe you guys should switch seats for a sec so he's in front of the camera more. But um just for the I'll do this pretty quickly. Anyway, but I I'm with this guy across from me. And we're on our way to wedding in Yiddish it's called the shvitz, the sauna, which also has a ritual bath. And this is Friday, so we first go to the sauna. And everyone's paired up in there and they're smack smacking each other with these leaves and uh or uh these like kind of loofah sponge things and these like brooms and and um Anyway, but by the time we went from my house to the place, he had already brought up three things that he's afraid of. And it all started with him telling me that he doesn't need the glasses he's using cuz they're a zero prescription. And I'm like, "By the way, they're zero prescription glasses and you said that uh I think I don't remember where your answer was, but it was something about the way people will see you like people will probably hold of him or uh more respect, better looks, I don't know what. Anyway, so he says he's listening to his child cuz when he was 10 years old, whatever. And uh and I said, "Take those glasses off." Immediately, that's not called listening to your child. That's called listening to your pain. And that that painful place that's in a 10-year-old's head. That's not your child. Your child listening to your child is listening to your 2-year-old who was perfect and and beautiful and unbelievable and full of energy and full of health and love and expression. And that's listening to your child. Get those glasses off. Anyway, by the time we got to the to the shvitz. Now, by the way, this is the hottest sauna, the hottest shvitz. You know what? The word shvitz also in Yiddish means to sweat. So, it's the hottest sauna in the world. You know, saunas have levels you can sit on, so this one has three levels, one, two, three. No one's above the first level. No one's above there. Although, we get I went up there for at least a little bit, but you'll see everyone's at the bottom because it's that hot. I mean, we're talking so it this place is so illegal from any Western standards. But I've been going there for over 30 years and I know those guys like my own smell. And we um anyway, but when we get in there, so I'm with a couple students and each one comes in and they're like, "Whoa, it's hot." And and then and then I realize not everyone's in there. I said, "Where is so-and-so?" And they said, "Oh, he ran back out." Well, it was the guy who had already revealed to us three other fears. But now suddenly he's faced with the heat. And I run out of the sauna. He's right outside the door. I grab his arm. I yank him. He's like, "No, this could be dangerous. And and like this I don't know if this is good for me." And and I just I hauled him through the first room. I hauled him into the second room. So, now he's really inside like there's there's no air. And put him down, you know, on the lower level there. And and you know, he but he he started to relax and be there. And I took care of each guy, each of those students I brought. I gave them like a good good smack down with the the soapy broom and uh each one got a massage. I hope that was good for you. It relaxed your shoulders. You Anyway, um later we're getting into a refrigerated pool, a ritual bath um called a mikvah in Hebrew. We bring him into the refrigerated pool. And it's freezing. So, he's trying to keep every bit of as he's going in, he's trying to keep as much of his body out. He's not breathing. And he's like, "Oh, man, like this could be dangerous." And and now he's finally at the lowest level, which should have probably covered his chest, which is quite large cuz he goes to gym. And he he but he's like trying to keep his chest above the water cuz cuz he didn't want it touching his nipples or something. And I mean, it's cold water. And of course I grabbed him again and just like, "Get in, you know." Pull him in. And and now we're going under the water and he plugs his nose cuz and I'm like, "Don't plug your nose. What are you Are you planning on breathing in the water? Like you're Why would you breathe in the water?" He's like, "I almost drowned when I was older." Fourth grade. 10. Nine. Yeah, almost drowned when I was 10 years old. Okay. Um Uh what does that have to do with now in 2024? Like you're into the mikvah and you you also you want water surrounding your whole body. You don't want blocking the water cuz then the mikvah the ritual bath doesn't work. You can't block part of your skin. It has to surround you fully enveloped like a in an amniotic sac, born again. And uh anyway, so so we did that, but the whole thing was was he was feeling guilty from from something that had happened on Friday and didn't believe the mikvah would even work. You understand that he he couldn't be purified from the guilt he was feeling, the shame he had. And so, here we are again. Is that another fear? That he's he's he's damned or something. He's he's finished. He's and there's no way out. And he's like, "Oh my gosh. Like how many fears have we gone through now?" All in this one guy. And meanwhile, all the other students are in the mikvah and all the all the native Jerusalemites. It's a very native Jerusalem place. No one comes there if you're not native. And one of the guys, one of our Yerushalmi guy, never even seen this guy before, is already splashing him with the cold water. He's He just sensed him. They're very instinctual, Yerushalmis. People who are 250 years in Jerusalem, they missed World War I, they missed World War II, they missed the whole black hat movement, they missed They're like a time capsule of Jewish life in the shtetls until the enlightenment, you know, until all hell broke loose and you're They missed the industrial revolution. They missed it all. And and they missed the Holocaust. And they just They know not They These are the most pious, holy Jews you've ever met and they have no clue what all these black hats are all about. Anyway, the um long story short is um we get him under the water without plugging his nose. And no, he did not breathe in the water, which is obviously he's not going to breathe in the water. And except it wasn't over cuz I was still going to bring him into that pool next door, which is 115°. Now, the legal limit of a jacuzzi and also legal limit that a jacuzzi is made to be able to go. I mean, if you buy a hot tub with a digital thing on the edge of the hot tub, you can't can't I don't know, maybe you can jerry-rig it. I would only buy one you can jerry-rig. But um you have to be able to rig it that you can make it higher because my mikvah in my neighborhood is is every day it's 113°. And this one's about 115°. And the which is like really hot. I mean, I don't think there's probably a person watching this video that's ever been in 115° water. You have to go to the cold because the cold tightens your pores, pulls in your blood. Your blood's pulling in to keep you warm. And then you quickly go into the hot so that, you know, while you get into that hot water, it's not originally burning you that badly until you're already in. Once you're in, then your pores open and you're just like meltdown. And I mean, going into the Sabbath with this, going into Shabbos with this before is like you have set yourself up for success in how your prayers are going to come out this year. You know, you're just like in a peaceful state and ready for the peace of Shabbat and all the expression of prayer that comes from a person who has this added soul that Shabbat brings every week, which by the way is kind of a miracle if you think about it. The first time I heard someone say that the Sabbath gives you an added soul, meaning you've got you're you're always somewhat I don't know if you call it 50/50 but probably a lot of people aren't 50/50 but let's just say you're 50/50 soul voice do the right thing do the right thing be good be good be good and body voice is like do what you want to do and don't worry about being good and that if you feel like it do it. No, why do I feel like it if I shouldn't do it? So, that's the body voice. But what happens every Shabbat is you get this extra soul. And if you hear that the first time you'd be like that's cute very poetic you know who made that up. But in fact it comes out in Jewish law. For example, in Jewish law you have to tithe your vegetables you have to tithe your produce meaning you don't just take it from the fields and bring it into your house and then start eating. You have to separate a certain I don't know certain amount for the Kohanim certain amount for the Levites certain amount for the poor. And then it's your fruit. If you haven't separated it that stuff is kryptonite. You're Superman it's kryptonite it will weaken you. It will mess up your spiritual uh cuz situation. It's literally like it's gone from produce to poison. It's spiritual poison still produce but it's spiritual poison and it'll mess you up. And um which is why someone shouldn't live in Israel unless they're ready to keep those laws. You understand? You don't you don't just come to Israel and start start uh ignoring these things cuz if you're not ready to do that live in New York. Go to New York and eat whatever you want. It's not the holy land. The holy land comes with a lot of responsibility. And who knows if the reason that we're in the position we are today in 2024 and this war and you know our claim to the land and our army and our might. Who knows if we're not in this position only because of the desecration of the land. You also have the sabbatical years you have to rest the entire land of Israel every seventh year. You know what the Torah says that if you don't you've hit the digestive system of the land. It's the only land in the world with a digestive system and it will spit you out. The land will vomit. It will vomit the Jews out of here if you don't keep my my land rules. You'll be vomited out. You know why? Cuz then the land will rest every seventh year. Why? Cuz there ain't nobody here to rest it. It's going to rest without you. It's either going to rest with you or it's going to rest without you. And yet our country still completely ignores except for obviously the black hat attitude community our country completely ignores the sabbatical years and as well as much of the land much of the inhabitants of the land are ignoring the produce tithes meaning the parts that must be separated. And and so but you ready for this? Ready for this? If you're in doubt whether your host has separated the stuff or not you're not allowed to do it on Shabbos cuz there's that on the Sabbath you don't fix anything. Meaning whatever you cooked for Shabbos that's what you eat on Shabbos. Whatever lights were put on that's the lights that will be on. Whatever lights were off well good luck you're eating in the dark if if the you know if all if all you had was if you forgot to turn on your dining room light. There's no there's no manipulating matter. Why? Because God manipulated reality and created the world on six days and seven days he stops manipulating. So the Jewish people who are who are his partners in creation because the world couldn't figure things out in the first 2400 years. So he created this partner in creation called the Jews and and we we have to also not manipulate matter. And there and taking produce that is absolutely forbidden. And and taking away and and separating the tithes for the Kohanim and the Levite and the and the poor is manipulating matter. You're taking something forbidden and you're making it now permitted to be eaten. You can't do that on Shabbos. So what do you do when you eat in the home of an ignoramus? You're at a meal and your host is an ignoramus and he serves up some food you know and you're eating and you're there and obviously if it's sabbatical seventh year stuff you ain't eating nothing. But if it's a regular year and the produce might not have been separated you can actually on your plate take a little bit of this a little bit of that separated off say the you know who this is separated for wrap it up in a little napkin and put it in your pocket or leave it in your bag and just get rid of it. But you can't do that on Sabbath when most people have their guests. So what are you supposed to do? Well the answer is is that well obviously if you have an ignoramus hosting you your first thing you do is you ask him did you tithe the produce? If he says yes on weekday when he's not looking you do it again. Why? Because anyone who's that ignorant of Jewish law meaning anyone who would not take his time to figure out how to do things right probably wouldn't mind lying to his guest cuz he shouldn't see himself as lower in the eyes of his guest or anything you know. Of course I tithed my produce you know. Meanwhile if you're the kind of guy who anyway I know is not that careful with things well you're probably not that careful with telling the truth especially when your ego's on the line. So you know so maybe you're going to lie. But Shabbat comes and he tells you of course I tithed my produce. Guess what? Eat. You get to eat. Why do you get to eat? Why during the weekdays that produce is inedible? Cuz he might lie about it. And somehow in Shabbos it becomes edible. So the answer is and that was a very long way of explaining it but he might as well have an extra soul. Yeah he got an extra soul nobody's going to lie with a little extra soul in them. You know if you call it 50/50 well on Shabbos it's not 50. And so if he says he tithed his produce he tithed his produce period. Although there might be another answer for that. And the other answer for that is that you have a mitzvah to honor the Shabbos and how do you honor the Shabbos well with your tastiest the tastiest things God created to give thanks to God and enjoy those tastiest things but you wouldn't be able to taste it. So you can't fulfill that. Cuz you wouldn't be able to eat it. So couldn't be that on the doubt cuz remember it could be did I don't know if he's lying or not. Could it be on the doubt so now I have a doubt about that but I have a definite Shabbos that I got to honor the Shabbos with taste of this food. Then I take that doubt let's call it a 50/50 doubt and the 100% that I got to enjoy the Shabbos food. I don't believe that's what I'm saying right now is true. I never saw that in the side. So I don't know if that's true. I really think that what our sages say and our sages say that he wouldn't lie on Shabbos. But the reason why I'm saying that possibility is because of another weird law you ready for this? What if you what do you do if you show up Saturday night to go you know collect something you left behind you like let's say you forgot your tallis there on Shabbos your prayer shawl at the Shabbos meal that day and you come back Shabbos Saturday night after the Sabbath and he offers you leftovers. Can you eat the leftovers you got to separate? Answer you have to separate. Well I'll separate. What about the extra soul? What about the extra soul that says he wouldn't lie and it is kosherly made and kosher. Any terumah seen? You got it? Yeah what do you got? I'm saying like we used to though that has to be that maybe saying that because you have the law on Shabbos something. That's why I came to that conclusion. So that's why I came to the what the sages did not say is that you have a 50/50 whether he's lying but you have to enjoy the Shabbos with with the delicacies from God. And so and which causes you to give thanks. But again I you can put that in the waste paper basket because I made that up and and I never make anything up unless I'm going to tell you. You understand? Nothing you should you shouldn't know especially if you've been my students for years. Um I don't make anything up. Okay? And what is my job? My job is to transmit. I transmit. And if I make something up I always tell you. I always tell you. And and I make stuff up but I tell you I made that up. But I if I did not tell you I made it up I did not make it up. And this is something that I've learned over my years sitting at the dust of the feet of people that if you saw them you would probably fall on your face and start sobbing. And you would spontaneously combust in this in these people's presence. And I can't believe I was ever so close to people like this. I never ever felt for one second afraid in their presence. Meaning we're talking thousands of hours And they're pouring love into me. And they're And the biggest proof of their love is how much Torah they were they were transmitting. And I don't I don't recall a single second when I wasn't trembling. The whole time. And it was the real deal. Yeah. There's very few people on the planet left like this. And I'm embarrassed that I don't go to see them much, but my life was taken I mentioned that. I should By the time it's time that I could say like I could go see Reb Shmuel Silverberg for third meal or I or I could go to the Itche Mayer uh Morgenstern, you know, maybe for like the post Rosh Hashanah thing. But meanwhile, I'm coming from my shul that that we only finish the prayers of Rosh Hashanah to go have lunch like 15 minutes before sundown, which meant running home and washing. It takes 15 minutes to get back to my house to wash for the Rosh Hashanah meal that you know and having prayed 12 hours straight. So. Hashem, please forgive me for not being in the presence of these people more often. Um there's very few of them left and and and one of them one of them I'm very connected to, obviously. That's where I go to. I believe that. I'm not sure about so much. They used to be two of them running around Jerusalem, which is how I got to my neighborhood is cuz our neighborhood was was there. And we moved there for that, but they all passed away since then with the exception of two who are still there, but they're like, you know, over 100 years old. One of them actually came to shul last week. And he's he's so small now that I think he's up to my belly button. And he was still there and he still stood up for that suit. And he still stood up and when we all left shul, he was still in the standing meditation silent meditation of his own. Meaning he's still in the in his hundreds. And he he can't lift his head. You can literally rest your drink on his neck from all the years of studying. A head's very heavy. He used years like this Well, eventually it was like this and eventually like that. And now you can literally rest your drink on his neck and it would not fall over. It would be perfectly flat. So, I went to I want to say hi to him and sit with him for a while cuz he's like his wife passed away, so he's taking care of my daughters. Good reason to have daughters, by the way. Um because you may live that long. And you know, your your daughter-in-law hears you and why can't your son take care of you? Don't ask me that question. But you don't want your daughter-in-law take care of you. You want your daughter to take care of you at the end of your life, you know. Anyway, I think I'll go for a down end of bend to say shalom to say Shabbat shalom to him. If his if the top of his head's my belly button, he's looking at the floor. I went all the way down. I went as low You know what I mean? I did a full crouch a crouch from a squat full squat in front of the shul. Full squat and got my head as low as possible that way. And he saw me and he was like, "Young thief." We had our we had a little connection there for a moment. So, there we are in the cold mikvah and I decided I'm going to train him for the hot mikvah now. Before I did, what I said to him was, "Where are your What are all these fears?" And he he's been in therapy. How much would you say you spent in therapy at this point? Thousands. How much approximately? 10,000. Is $10,000 in therapy accurate? Um I don't think therapy's really Less than 10,000. A little less. Okay. Well, you're young. What are you How old are you? 21 years old? 20. So, he's a little less than $10,000 therapy at 20. Um I think maybe it'd be appropriate to say By the way, I'm I'm only into therapy. I was I'm formally trained in that and I and I send people to all kinds of therapy now, all kinds of um phenomena, but um one thing that I don't think is appropriate is fear. Fear is not for therapy. And the thing that was mostly um mostly um uh paralyzing you was was fear. It was always coming down the floor. And it turned out he reveals in the cold mikvah I asked him, you know, or he had revealed I didn't even ask him. He revealed that he had been beaten as a kid by his old man, his father. He'd been beaten. And he took that beating to become this very fear of life itself because life gives you a beating. Life is I mean, there's one thing you can say about life, it's a beating. And you These eyes have cried. You look at my eyes. You can I mean, people know somehow I mean, they may not know know, but they know that if I'm talking to them about to them about their own deep pain they don't feel they're being like lectured. They're they're they're hearing the the They're hearing from someone whose eyes are I'm already tearing up. Hearing from someone whose eyes have cried many many tears. And um anyway what had happened was that the the beatings took place. And you know, like everyone else knows that life's a beat down. And you know, and and uh and it's also a beat down no matter what because there's certain things you just got to go through. We're all reincarnated and who knows what we got to go through. It's obviously a much worse beat down if you'd like to go against the fabric of creation, which is truth. Meaning God created the world with uh truthful speech as Peterson would say. Um truthful speech creating order out of chaos. Meaning chaos and then God created the world with speech that that took chaos and made it into order. What kind of speech? Godly speech. What's godly speech? Truthful speech. Well, if you want to go against the fabric of creation and think you can get away with something, which you cannot because you're in a closed system. We're When you're in God's world, you're you've never You think that's outside over there? Outside the window over there? You think that's outside? That's not outside. We're in a closed system. We're all inside the mind of God and the whole world was created with truth. What kind of truth? The truth of a a giant kaleidoscopic thing called Torah that God shined light through the Torah. And And we're literally this physical world is the outside of the Torah. You're inside the outer membrane of the Torah. And that whole thing is called truth. And if you want to go against it cuz you think you might get away with something well, good luck. Good luck with that. And you should know, by the way, if you get away with it, it's going to get even worse. You need to be a lot What's the matter, comment? Do I need to know it? Yeah. And so, it'd be a lot it'd be a lot better to have not gotten away with it. You understand? It'd be a lot better not to get away with what you said. I mean, whatever you're trying to get away with, it'd be better you not get away with it in the beginning because if you do get away with it, then you start building an empire on nothing. It'll be built on on faulty foundations cuz it wasn't honest to begin with. Well, just watch it disintegrate. And if you if you doubt what I'm saying, so just look at the news cuz I mean, not every news station plays the news of people's lives, but many many do. You know, I'm I'm guilty of looking at the Drudge Report. That's kind of where I get my international news. And definitely records the take down of every famous person. Um but they but when I grew up, there were newspapers up at checkout counters. I think they called them tabloids. And it was just how the next person came down and then the next person came down and the next person came down. Who got divorced and who went bankrupt, who lost all their money and and uh it is very interesting to watch Elon Musk. He's very interesting to watch because he's too Asperger's to lie. He doesn't know how to lie. You know, so I mean, he doesn't know necessarily what's true either, but the lying, he doesn't do it. And so and the the guy's it's crazy watching him. Cuz he is such a great example of somebody who doesn't even know what's true, so who knows where you don't go. He doesn't even know what's true, but he knows he can't lie because he just doesn't have enough social um skills. Asperger's people, you know, their number one symptom is social interaction, social cues. Like they they just don't know how to interact. And so, Elon Musk is this amazing example of what happens to somebody who can only tell the truth. So, if anyone's interested in becoming the next uh SpaceX or Tesla or What do you call his satellite system around the world now? Starlink? Anyone wants to be that guy? Okay. No. Tell the truth without even figuring out what it is. Um and here in Jerusalem, we like figuring out what the truth is. Before we tell anything. You know, before we even speak, we like to first investigate. And um you want to hear something interesting is the word for desire. Like cuz why do people lie or tell the truth? They want something. They want Why would anyone lie? They want something. What do they want? Maybe they want money. Maybe they want a little thing. So, they can lie about who they are by being the star or the attention vampire seeker. They'll lie about themselves. Like people love to lie to get what they want, right? Well, it's to get what they what? What they To get what they want. Well, what's the word want in Hebrew? Ratzon. Yeah, ratzon. And it turns out in Hebrew, of course, there's cuz will, desire, is the underlying substrate of all reality. You understand? Desire is the substrate of all reality. Yeah, you guys should be actively commenting. Are you actively commenting? Should you go to my live stream and actively comment? So, anyway, the um the the the word desire that you know how many words there are for desire? You ever counted the words in Hebrew of desire? I got up to 20. There were probably more. But it's like it's weird. It's like a crazy number of words for it. And the um anyway, but let's just stick with the word the simple word of ratzon. Nirtzof. So, what's the root of that? It's a two-letter word and it's reish tzadik. The root of the word desire, the main one, is ratzon and and that's probably the most popular one. Like say for instance, that one that's beyond the whole high ratzon, rats. Yeah, reish tzadik. It's a two-letter root. And the Anyway, the that What does the word rats mean, guys? What does that actual root mean? It doesn't mean want. What does it mean? Run. It means run. Yeah. The word actually means run. Well, think about it. If you ever see someone running, I don't mean jogging. I don't mean they're racing. Although, you know, they're racing, they want to win. Okay, so maybe even racing. But if you ever see someone running, what do you know for sure? Yeah, on city streets, you got a little briefcase and you're running. What do you know for sure? Is that he he wants something. He maybe he wants to get to a meeting on time. Maybe he wants to make a train. Maybe he wants to make his flight. But nobody runs unless they have hit a point of great desire. Now, what do you call someone who runs? What's a fancy word in English? Begins with an M. It's got four syllables. You can call someone who's running, he's got a lot of what? And it's similar to running and the word mo- locomo- motive. What is it? The word? Motivation. You understand? Motivation. Which is you know, is that not the discussion of like so many personal growth trainers trying to get everyone motivated in life? Well, think about it. Like a motive moto- motor- cycle a mo- motor motor vehicle a a locomotive. It's It's It's moving forward, you know? And how do you get yourself moving forward? And the answer is, well, you got to figure out what you want. I actually have a webinar called Desire is 10 or so. The webinar just on the subject of that word desire, which is the substrate of all reality, by the way. Meaning this cup of water Well, the cup and someone desired to make a living making cups. There There are people who desire having cups cuz it's really hard to drink water Without a cup. without a cup. So, and I happen to want this water, so here I am drinking a cup. And some clothing designer said, "Why don't we make this Hasidic wear?" And he wanted to do that cuz want to make a living with that. And some salesman wanted to make a living in sales and he sold it to me. And And like my flesh is made out of the desire of my parents for one another. Yikes. Like the Brooklyn Bridge is made out of desire. Yeah, you thought it was made of metal? Is that what you thought of Brooklyn? Did you think the Brooklyn Bridge was made out of metal? It's made out of desire. People want to get from Brooklyn to Manhattan a lot quicker. And when there's desire, man, nothing stands in its way. You know, which is really why we have to be so careful because if nothing stands in the way of desire, meaning if the world conspires to your desire, you better spend some time figuring out what the hell you want because you're going to get it. But if you go to get it in a way that's not authentic, it's not really a true expression of who you are and what you should have, well, you're going to get it and it it going to fall apart and it's going to be humiliating and you're going to have to get another beat down, which is the desire's subject. Comes the beat down. Because the world conspires to your desire. That's the way God created it. I could go into a lot of Kabbalah about that. Cuz I call it the the spiritual is made of all these things called malachim. So, I call it the malachial universe. You ever heard me say that? Oh, yeah. Okay. It's called Have you listened to a lot of my classes? So, it's called the malachial universe. And those malachim conspire to your desire. And that's why the whole world just goes based on your desire. But you got to make sure you want the right things. Now, um Anyway, but the Brooklyn Bridge is made of desire and airplanes are made of desire and everything in this physical world and this whole world is made of the desire God created the world. And in fact, what is the what is of the tree of life, meaning the the the um tree of life is the um you know, the sacred geometry of tree of life. It's the actual fabric of this creation. What is the top top of the tree of life? What is it called? What's the crown on the top of the tree of life? Keter. It's the word is keter. The crown of the keter. Well, what is what is that? It's desire. Like you want to hear something amazing? You know what flows from it? What flows from it? I mean, obviously, the whole creation flows from it because God desired to create a world. So, the world flows from it. But guess what else flows from it? The 13 attributes of mercy. Why? What are those doing there? We only need the 13 attributes of mercy mercy because people sin. And the whole world would cave in if we didn't have these attributes where God will basically look the other way than destroy the place. You know, and and just be able to suffer it. God can suffer the humiliation. What I mean by humiliation? Well, think about it. If the whole creation is you, cuz can God create something he's not? No. So, if the whole creation is you and people want to brain in the stars or the sun or the moon or anything, they want to lie to get what they want. Well, what are you? Something very simple. Something we love on our Shabbos plate after the fish. What is that? Chopped liver. Yeah? Now Now God's chopped liver. Well, if you are the creation and the creation itself has rebelled against you, kind of like diarrhea, you know, which is your body rebelling against you, well, what do you do? Flush it. Flush the whole thing down the toilet. So, in the very desire God creating the world, he had to have already involved with it the forgiveness that the world would need. So that he can play So the So, as Bob Marley said, you know, we've got to fulfill the book. You So that he can fulfill his story, history, his story. Cuz it's a big story and God's got a plan, man. This plan for this place. And the only way the plan could work, which was his desire, is that it would come with the 13 attributes of mercy so that the world would not be knocked out of existence. And that the world would actually come to completion, which is we're very very close at. And those who are watching us should know that by now. I'm about 100 yards from a gold dome. I'll let you do the rest of the math. Now, um But I'm glad there's a gold dome there, by the way. I know a lot of Jews aren't happy about the gold dome, but I like the gold dome. You know why? I like the gold dome because um it had been the Christians left it. Did I say the Christians? Sorry. Frank said. Um maybe it was the Holy Roman Empire that made me say that. But the Romans, when they destroyed our temple, which is 100 yards from me, um they they left it as rubble specifically. It stayed rubble right there in order that it would be a testimony of the Jews no longer chosen and the Christians now the chosen people. And so, they left it rubble. The Romans left it rubble. Um by the way, the Romans just left it and ripped the Jews back to Rome and whatever. And then Israel became a vassal state. Same old stuff. And um and the um But they That was all left in rubble and ruins. Later, the the Christians decided to use it as like it should never be um cleaned up up there or anything else built up there because this will be the testimony cuz think about it. It's a pretty radical claim that God's got a new chosen people. Let me explain why it's so radical. I I once sat with a Christian group in a restaurant here in the old city. I was I was I was eating in the restaurant and these Christians saw, you know, me and they're like, "Oh, great. This We got to We got to talk to this guy." So, the whole group No, it was all a group. I guess the the their pastor was paying the bill. I don't know if that whole group comes to my table. And uh And I said to them, I said, "Do you believe God is a just God?" And they're like, "Of course God's a just God." And I said, "Well, obviously, the only way to get a people to keep 613 commandments, which, you know, which is 45,000 laws how to keep those commandments, and many of them are expensive, many of them are difficult, many of them are even require quite a bit of self-sacrifice, if not even dangerous, I I resting the entire land for a year on the promise of a 6-year bumper crop, like, that's dangerous, you know? And so and so obviously, to get a nation to do that, you have to tell them personally. You know, imagine you you imagine he went out outside, yeah? He went out there and whatever he was going to the bathroom, he was going to get a drink, whatever. He comes back and he says, "You guys aren't going to believe this. The word of God came to me when I was in the bathroom." Just kidding. God ain't coming to nobody in the bathroom. You you have to be in a very clean state. Talk about ritual baths and names of God and stuff, but anyway, but he goes out, he's overlooking the Western Wall, which is basically this whole neighborhood and he comes back and says, "I heard the word of God." And comes back in and he's And we said, "Oh, yeah? Wow, amazing. What did he say?" And he says, "Um God told me that um all of you have to give me 10% of your income for the rest of your life." You going to give this guy 10% of your income for the rest of your life? That's only one commandment. You understand that the only way to get the Jewish people to be this nation that types down the the actual pints of creation, which remember the Torah's the the the overhead projection, like an overhead projector. It's the actual transparency that the whole thing comes through. And to get a nation actually keep all those laws, you got to tell them privately. You can't just send somebody. It has to be a national revelation, which is what happened at Sinai. You understand? You have to tell the whole nation. And by the way, how do you tell a secret to 3 million people? Well, if you don't know the answer to that, I'm suggesting to anyone who's watching this that you take a 3-day trip, 5-day trip, and go down to Jordan and Sinai desert, and freak out in the most amazing desert in the world. But that is a place. I mean, it is unbelievable. It's like Joshua Tree on steroids. And and I'll just never forget it. And if it wasn't for this war, I would have been down there for three times since October 7th. And the the it's really something. Do you know where it is? The actual Mount Sinai? We don't know where it is. Anyway, we don't know, but if you could get there, you could tell 3 million people a secret. Bottom line is, God couldn't get it done unless he told all of us, so he brought us all into a covenant. And obviously, in order for there to be a new covenant, otherwise known as the new I'm not going to say I just say so tired of getting Christian things wrong online, so I'm just not going to say it. But it's it's a part of the male anatomy and it begins with the same word. But anyway, the um I'm I'm trying to be better behaved. The the bottom line is that the that in order to create that covenant, it has to be with the people themselves. Now, it turns out the covenant itself says over and over again that it's an eternal covenant. So, you realize that automatically, if you try to create a new covenant, that's the Christians and Muslims did, you'd have to erase those parts. So, if you really believe the Torah's divine, well, then you've lost your claim. Automatically, you've lost your claim. Not to mention the fact that virgin births do nothing because the Torah's very specifically telling us that the Messianic uh the Messianic era will be ushered in by a person who's from the tribe of Judah. Well, tribes come through fathers. It has to be through the father. It has to be the seed of a man who's from the tribe of Judah, which is King David's tribe. And so that was a really bad idea. I understand telling people in those in that era, you know, which I don't I'm not even going to go into what the IQ problem was, but the uh telling people in that era about a virgin birth with would probably be pretty impressive. And then, of course, just bring in the whole hell business and you've got the uh what I want to say is that I asked this Christian uh "Do you believe God's a just God?" And they said, "Of course he's a just God." And I said, "Well, the only thing would have been like the right thing to do to tell the Jewish people the covenant's over? Like, if you're the new covenant, why didn't you let them know? Why would you Why would you have them falsely believing that they're still in the what it said it was, an eternal covenant, and have them absolutely raped over the coals for the next 2,000 years? Not to mention like conflicting prophecies all coming true for the Jewish people throughout their exiles cuz the prophecy goes about what's going to happen to the Jews when they get exiled because they didn't keep the Torah in the land. So, it's like it's such everything's just so obvious, you know? Anyway, so I asked them, "What's What kind of just God would make a covenant with another people and completely leave the eternal covenant people without saying anything?" Anyway, they're they're By that time, their pastor had come. And and he was like pretty upset that they were talking to me, and especially that I just asked this question. And they um And then I looked at him and I said, "And by the way, you know, you realize, pastor, you believe that someone can act in all wrong ways throughout his whole life, just lie, cheat, and steal, rape and pillage, but if he takes Jesus as his as dying for his sins and his eternal savior, he goes to heaven, while we and me who's like done endless endless endless endless endless sacrifice. You know, my father asks me sometimes, he says, he says, "You know, for all your work, you know, and your organization and all your travels and everything, shouldn't you have some money to show for it?" And I'm like, "Dad, I made four weddings the last 2 years. And I got more to make, you know?" And you know, like he says I said, "I have a lot to show for it. I have a four Jewish homes being being that are starting to flourish, you know? And yeah, I've got what to show for that money." He's like, yeah, my father's like, you know, Donald Trump capitalist, you know? He's just like, "I don't mean that." You know? And I'm like, "Well, I do mean that, you know?" And anyway, but I said to this pastor after everything I've said with this guy with extreme conscience. You have extreme conscience. My conscience is nuts, like. Even today, while I was praying, I was like, "Did I say very specifically the whole time when I put on my tefillin that I betrothed you to me?" You got speaking us cuz when we wrap our finger with the leather strap, we bring in these beautiful sentences of God betrothing himself. Yeah, I can sing it for you. Uh we'll betroth you forever. Uh we'll betroth you with righteousness and with justice, kindness, and mercy. And with justice, kindness, and mercy. I will betroth you forever. I will betroth you with righteousness. I will betroth you with faithfully. And we will be as one. Anyway, I know it's not very beautiful, but if you know Jewish law, it's sort of relevant whether or not you actually said it or forgot to say it. You've totally totally done your job in all the prayers. But here I am, like, do I even go on or should I just say? And I was at a part where you're allowed to say something, so I was like, "I'm saying it." I mean, that's how conscientious I am. I'm crazy conscientious. And I've got 45,000 laws to deal with, and I'm crazy conscientious about them. Not to mention all the everything I've done for creating this family and and it's not over, man. The second this thing's over, the second this class is over, I'm going to take my teenagers out to do stuff I don't want to do, but and and pay money that I ain't got to to be a father to them. Cuz cuz raising kids observing is a big ask. It's a big ask. Meaning an ask of them. And so there's only one way you can ever have a big ask. It's big relationship. And that's something to think about in business, too. Like before you ask, maybe you should make sure there's a relation. And you want to have You got a big ask? Big relation. God has a big ask. Mhm. Not for Jews, at least. And the Gentiles, they keep the seven go to heaven. You have seven laws, connect to God all you want, you know, you're all set. And doesn't matter what you do with your penis. And Jews not so simple. A lot of relation. So much relation. And if you're willing to be a little deeper feel the light course through your veins, through your heartbeat, through your body. You feel your consciousness alive in this very moment. You're in a relation. It's so awesome to have the infinite infinite, literally in a form to you. And then just close your eyes, too. Relax. Take a deep breath. Breath works. Breath just short circuits the brain and brings you straight to the heart. And just feel the flow of the infinite, finite light, which is you, into you, into your soul, which is part of the infinite. Feel the gratitude and the power of the presence. You may have been tired, feel that your tiredness goes away. Like that beautiful child that that beautiful inner child that's full of energy always until he passes out. Opening up your eyes. And so I said to the pastor, the guy who lied, cheated, stole, raped, and pillaged is going to heaven forever for having accepted Jesus for having died for his sins. Is he eternally saved? He goes to hell. Straight to hell. Forever. Whereas I Yomtov Glazer your sweetest rabbi on Earth who is going to hell forever. Forever. On on like a technical error. And I forgot to say something right before I died. You know. Which I You know. I'm actually going to die before I say it. And it's like I forgot to say something I'm supposed to say before I die, but I would die before I'd say it. And the uh And And not so much that I I can't say it cuz it doesn't mean anything to me. It was that It's that anyone would think that that I even gave someone a second the thought for a second that I would even think to say I'd rather die. That I'd even consider. And not And not because it's such a big deal. I mean, if if Christians that's what they want to believe. Good luck. But the um It's that It's that it's It's an It's an insult to It's an insult to the very fiber of my being that has spent I guess since I was 11 when I started my journey that has spent What would that make it? 45 years of learning to align with vibrational resonance that is true and it's never ever ever failed me. And that just doesn't ring true. Doesn't ring true. Sounds made up to me. The same thing when they told me there's a virus and that we've all been put on leave in the in the spring of 20 I was like, "No." That ain't real. You know, and then they said it was natural, I was like, "Don't think so." And when they said they were doing hurricane speed with a with a with a cure Mhm. No, I don't think so, either. I think this This is a plan-demic. Yeah. And uh And by the way, I don't know what it is, but every fiber of me And when they told me to wear a mask I don't think that's going to be effective. If if it is what you say it is, that will not be effective. It's like make up your mind. You know, if you're saying what it is it is, we don't need a mask. But And if it is what you say it is And And if you If it is what you say it is, masks won't help. But if you're going to tell me that it is what it is and then tell me the masks will help. So then where this is all something new. The world's gone screwy. We're in mass hysteria. By the way, there is such a thing as a mass psychosis. I actually witnessed one in Jerusalem. That moved from neighbor to neighbor. It was the craziest craziest like 2 years in probably in thousands of years of Jewish history. There There was a mass hysteria that happened in Jerusalem. It's amazing when it when it hit Rabbi Nachman's neighborhood. He called me into his office cuz he knows it hit my neighborhood. What was it from? What? What was it from? It's just the same I can't even begin to tell you. It was like It was like I could tell you. I mean, it's like kids are saying that they're having ritual torture. Ritual torture. They're being taken in tunnels into churches in the old city. These are Jewish kids. They don't know there are churches in the old city. They've never heard of churches. And they they don't know where they are. And and and being, you know, I don't I don't want to go into the gory details of of their anatomy and of what was happening in the ritual torture. Things that these kids I know these kids. I raised my kids in these communities. They They didn't even know that such a thing exists. And we're talking about very little kids. Those kids are now coming home from school as I witnessed this to other neighbors' kids that were there. Cuz when they were telling their parents, they're like, "And guess who else was there?" They go The The The parents now run to the neighbor and say, "I know my kid was in school all day." But they're coming up with these crazy stories. And they go to the neighbor's parents and the neighbor's son said, "My teacher told him the same story and said he was with your kid." But our kids are in different schools. They haven't seen each other since last Shabbos. And they implicated your kid being there. I I just can't even tell you what happened. It was And I'm not telling you where it went from there. But let's just say it wasn't pretty and the effects are still Is it We're going back I don't know how many years it was. 12 years ago? 10 years ago? 15 years ago? I don't even remember. Oh, I do know how long. Cuz I have a 14-year-old who was born that year. So it was 15, 14 It was 13 years. Is it still around now? What? Is it still around? Yeah, it stopped. It went through several neighborhoods. Anyway, so when it hit Rabbi Nachman's neighborhood, Rabbi Nachman says today is probably the at least of the English-speaking community of the planet is maybe the of the greatest rabbis of the generation. He's a big Also has a side job. He has several side jobs. But one of his side jobs is he's the rabbi of a community of English speakers in Jerusalem. He calls me immediately. And he says like, "Whatever happened in your neighborhood has hit my neighborhood. What do I do? Like what do I do?" You know, cuz he wasn't really part of what was happening in my neighborhood, which is all Yiddish. So So I said I said, "Let me tell you, Rabbi. Don't touch it. Don't touch it with a 10-foot pole. Just stay out." And he says, "Um Rabbi Nachman says, I have crying women at my door. I have parents fathers having nervous breakdowns. Like the kids are in massive trauma. This is a community-wide child psychology event happening where the kids are going to need therapy. And you're telling me that I shouldn't touch it with a 10-foot pole." And I said, "Good luck, Rabbi." He's called He is We spoke a year later. You know, we We're not Now we're in touch much more lately, but we're in touch now. Anyway, we saw each other a year later. He called me in and he said He said I should have listened. I should have listened. Not that he He couldn't There was nothing he could do. He was the rabbi of the community. But anyway, my neighborhood it hit his neighborhood. It hit Arona. It hit Beit Shemesh. It hit the A little neighborhood near Strauss somehow got this. It was very strange. But But that was it. And then any other neighborhood it skipped. But there if you check it out, if you want to YouTube it, I forget what it's called exactly. It's a It's a group psychosis. A A mass hysteria group psychosis. I forget there was Trimper. Um there were witch hunts and many people were killed in America. This happened Maybe it was England. Um where the same exact thing happened. And many people were killed as a result. Um And um I say to this to this priest, "What kind of just God What kind of just God would have me burn in hell for that? For what, you know? For life. For life's goodness." And he says to me, He said something that he should not have said to me. He quotes the the Torah. Quotes the Bible. Quotes the Torah and he says, It says, "Your offerings Your offerings are like vomit to me. Your offerings are eaten. Your offerings are like vomit to me. No, I should have just taken my entire plate of food and uh bring my drink and just go like to say such thing. You thought he could get away with it cuz he was quoting the Bible and he knew at least the Torah would know the quote. You know. Your offerings are like vomit. So now he's like, obviously I'm going to throw a plate of food at the guy. I don't It's like I only love. Um you should know as much as I love, I I'm never violent. have a little secret of mine. I'm actually considered one of the most loving people you'll ever meet. You should know that most of the times you see me loving, not all the time, sometimes it's just genuine love. But much of the time you see me being very loving, it's uh got a root. There's actually a root underneath my tree of love. It's a tree that roots. You know what my root is? The root of my love is rage. It's rage. There's an avid neighbor who's pretty zealous and he he screams at when we're when we're on the when we're on Shabbat. He screams at the cars that are driving on Shabbat. You're not allowed to drive a car on Shabbat. And so while we walk, we're friends, so we should move it on the you know, that week's Torah portion walking. But every time a car drives by, I know it's going to be a pause. And then he get does this bloodcurdling yell at the cars if they're not listening. There's air conditioning, music's pumping out of the car. It's when he doesn't close. But this guy goes into his bloodcurdling scream. Shabbat! Waving his fist at the car. And then we go back to our conversation as if nothing happened. And he says to me, Matt, Matt, he says, one time we walk a lot. And he says to me one time, he says, you should know you don't have to. I thought a lot about it and I realized that you're more of a zealot than I am. I'm more of a zealot than you are. I'm sure the ultimate zealot, man. You're a crazy freak. You know, screaming at these cars. No one's listening to you. And they already know what you're saying just cuz they've met enough idiots like you. You know, like screaming Shabbat at a car. And he um with like horrific anger on your face, you know. And he says, you're more of a zealot than me. Cuz he says, listen, I'm not going to a play. I can't do it. You do it. So what's left my mission is to scream Shabbat at the cars. I know that every time we end our conversation, you go into your house and there's anywhere between 15 and 20 Shabbat guests. My Shabbat meal probably costs you know, 300 shekels. Your Shabbat meal probably costs a couple thousand shekels. It's like five, six, seven dollars. And you got a penthouse. And it was when, you know, my family was young. So every seat in the house was just all the way back. So it was my kitchen. We have We can add a table there. It's uh And he's like And what do you do? You love them. That none of these people at your table keep Shabbat. They're just showing up at your Shabbat table because free food, experience, you know, little meditation, uh you know, some love and connection and And he was so right. And we know that Abraham who was famous for his having guests, that his original attribute wasn't kindness. His attribute was rage. He's the guy who who destroyed his father's idols. His father wasn't just the idol maker. He was the one who was the master of spirituality. He knew how to imbue the idol with the power of that idol. And he And he took his entire shop of idols and destroyed everything and put a hammer in one of the idol's hands. And his father said, "What have you done?" He says, "I wasn't It wasn't me. It was that one." The idol with the hammer, he must have done it. Which made the father look down and said like, "You child maker." You know. Anyway, that's the Abraham in all of us. By the way, it's the Abraham in me that's messing with all these new covenant people. That's the Abraham in me that's like, Sorry to break your idols, you know, but that's that's what I'm going to do. You know, and it's with love. It's with love. I'm not angry at anybody. You First of all, whatever you do, you know, I if I think it's a mistake, you don't have to listen to me. But um but you know, just be good. And being good doesn't mean emulating JC. Being good means emulating God. Like why do you Why do you need that? You want to emulate something, emulate the creator. That'll do the trick. You know. You got to emulate a mythological character like some rabbi the Jews killed 2,000 years ago? You're worshiping a Jew and emulating a Jew. And we ourselves, we don't mind emulating our righteous holy people. But but when we're emulating our holy righteous people, what are they emulating? They're emulating God. You know, cuz you can get to the levels of studying a lot of Kabbalah. And you get to the level you start to understand quite a bit about who at least what God had in mind, maybe not his own mind, the way he had in mind. You can start to figure out and you can start emulating. Okay, so you're not a Ben Kallah. So I emulate the people that emulate him. But anyway, bottom line is the pastor says, "Your offerings are like vomit." Now just to give you the context into what was going on. Is the Jews had It was a done deal. The Jews had lost their merit to be in the land. We were going to be exiled. You know, we were we were heading up to Babylon. Yeah? And on our way to Babylon, we had not get thrown out yet. We still had an altar and we were still bringing the offerings. And God says through the prophet, "Your offerings are like vomit to me." And then it says something very beautiful. Like how about you guys just love each other? Like Like how about instead of amazing? And of course I'm sure they say this in Christianity, but it's our Torah. It's Jeremiah saying, "Your offerings are like vomit. Why don't you all just love each other? Like if you could at least get along, I would maybe keep you in the land. If you could just stop judging and and love one another. And then you can start bringing your offerings again, you know. But at this point, with you not loving each other, your offerings are vomit." Which is very beautiful. And just think of how it works. Like if you could have only loved each other, then maybe I'd take the offerings and say, "Okay, well they love each other, so that's enough. We'll take the offerings." But offerings without loving each other is vomit to God. You ever thought about it that way? It's pretty interesting. Um What? I was telling you about the miracle story. Yeah, we're I'm almost there. I'm almost there. Anyway, so I look at the priest and I say to him, "You know damn well what that sentence means in the Torah. How dare you misuse that and make it talk about the covenant of the Jews for 2,000 years of hell we've been through. It's complete I mean, besides obviously all the apostate Jews in Hollywood and Wall Street, you know, but in banking. But with to to to conflate our that's very contextual piece of Torah with a context of of the Jews serving God through these exiles for 2,000 years. It makes my life that I mentioned of my own sacrifices zero compared to what the Jews have been through. Like the Black Sabbath. You guys have Black Sabbath I know it's a rock band. But it's it's when the three most beautiful towns on the Rhine River Worms, Mainz, and Speyer which were Jewish kind of big Jewish towns of the greatest scholarship with traditions going back to the first temple that were untouched by the exiles. These were like These were bastions of Torah, bastions of purity, bastions of goodness, bastions of of protection of of the goodness that was at the second temple period. And on one Sabbath, the Christians came in and massacred every man, woman, and child. One Shabbat, all three towns. These were not small towns. Talking tens of thousands of people in each town, not hundreds. Not one man, woman, or child was left alive. And you know, when I meet a Jew apologizing for Christianity, and I'm just like I'm not even having this discussion. You need is a history lesson. And the um Anyway, so I said that to the priest. I said, "How dare you? You know very well what context of that sentence is." And uh that verse. And he uh he looks at me and says, "He And that I can give him this." He said Oh, actually, no. No, no. He said, "Where is?" He said He said, "Well, that's what we believe." No, no, no, no. No, no. He gave it to me. Yeah, yeah, yeah, I got to give it to him. He said He said, "You're right. I'm sorry." He said, "You're right. I'm sorry." And then I said, "Well, what about the question of a just God? What kind of just God would create such a theology as you claim?" And he says he says to me, "Well, that's just what we believe." Come on, everybody. We got to leave. And they all filed The whole thing just filed out of the restaurant. And as it's filing out of the restaurant I shouldn't have done it. I I look back at it a bit maybe uh with regret. I'm not sure if I should have done this. I'm so conscious that I can't get over it. But as they're leaving the restaurant I was saying I said I was saying I said Like the old door hit the last one on the rear end. The last of the sheep sheep went out. Now, um we're in the hot mikvah. And we got a net Sorry, cold mikvah. Now we got to go into the hot mikvah. And I know getting in that hot mikvah is nuts. It's not something I would do myself for me. Even after cold water, and I getting this guy get it. You know, so we needed to have a little discussion. And what was the discussion? Why has your $10,000 in therapy and all the time you've spent over all these years not made it even the tiniest dent? Not even a dent. It's the fear that stops you. With everyone wherever you're hitting the brakes in life, I promise you there's a fear right behind it. Everywhere you hit the brakes, your life shaped from your fears. And that's a scary thing to know. But I'm telling you right now, and I hate to say this to you guys, but you're Who's sitting in your chair right now? Who's watching this right now? The shape of your life is your fear. The way I used to like to say it's like my daughters um when they bake they have a a piping bag and icing bag. You ever seen an icing bag? They have a whole tool chest of shapes. And so they'll make a flower. My daughter will walk up to me and say, "Daddy, Daddy, do you see this beautiful flower, Daddy? Daddy, look at this flower I made." And I tell my daughter, "That's a beautiful flower." But a personality like me, when I see the piping bag, that shape at the end, what is the job of that shape? The job of that shape is to keep the icing in the back. It's job is to preserve the icing in the back and only let out what can get out through that shape. It's the stuff that escapes. Well, if you think about it, those five fears, your fear of rejection, your fear of failure, your fear of being out of control, your fear of being alone, and your fear of pain and suffering are the shape of your life. Because every time you get afraid you say the word You said in the past cuz we did the work. Every time your fears came you always said the word no. And every salesman who needs a afraid to go out saying no to him he says no to making the call. Your all your no's of your life, and by the way, nothing happens in this world with the word no. Nothing. And look at anything you see. Not only is it made of desire, it's made of the word yes. Every single thing you see came with a yes. You might have had to pay for it. You know, you know this guy who made this mirror here. Okay, you know, he said yes cuz they said that they came to an amount of money. At some point the guy was like, "I'll give you this one." The guy said, "No." Eventually he got to a yes. Then he built the mirror. The whole world occurs in yes. Nothing occurs in no. Everywhere you've ever come to is only been with the yes. But my question is how much no has been shaping you? In other words, how much fear has been shaping you? Because those five fears are the shape of your life. They are the shape of your life. This is why I created the Possibility Seminar. The Possibility Seminar is where you come and finally learn how to say yes with courage. How to say yes, how to be truthful about yourself. The possible you as opposed to the predictable you. And how predictable was your life? How predictable with all your damn no's, man? One after the other after the other. With all your no's, how predictable does that make life? And the answer is extremely and predictably adventurous? No. Predictably no. Predictably no. Predictably exciting? No. Predictably boring. The chance of you living the most boring, predictable life ever. It won't. Very simple. Just live your life fearlessly. Live your life with the word no. Well, you'll always know what you get with no. But with the word yes, that's where all the action begins. And we actually have a sentence in Torah that God created the world out of yes. I mean, we all know that, obviously. He said, "Yes, I'll make a world. And yes, I'll create water. Yes, I'll create earth. Yes, I'll create." But I don't just mean like that. The world's literally The sentence is "Olam hesed yibaneh." I'm creating I'm building a world out of yes. Cuz what's the word yes? Hesed. And what's the word no? Gevurah. Right? Yes is hesed. I created the world out of yes. Gevurah is no. Yes is the right side. No is the left. And yeah, I mean, there's a time to say no. If If If yes to you is going to be no to me or my family, the answer is no. If yes to you is no to God, no. There's a time to say no. But if And by the way, this is the beauty Give it all of this. This is the beauty of the 613 Sorry. This is the beauty of the 365 negative commandments. Easy to remember cuz 365 like the year. And there it's not coincidental. By avoiding the 365 negative commandments and the some 30,000 laws that have to do that cuz not one Torah commandment tells you how to do it. Not one. So, which means you have to have no law. But the But the 365 commandments are how a Jew stays out from under the influence of the stars. How you How you remain in direct relationship with the creator with no intermediary uh influencing you. No zodiac. No horoscope. How does a Jew stay clear of his horoscope? By avoiding the 365 negative commandments. Simple as that. And the uh anyway, but what I want to say about it is that What's the beauty of having 365 negative commandments? Meaning 365 no's. Which is much more than that because each one has to be explained. It's 30,000 laws. You know what I love about it? It's cuz it's a yes world. This is a yes world. Everything happens with yes. Nothing happens with no. Is that if we have a God-given prophetic knowledge 30,000 things that you shouldn't do. You know, the obvious inference is don't do those things. But anything else that's being offered get in there, man. Go do it. Oh, you have an idea that could could uh trans you know transform the world, do it. You have an idea that can make you a bunch of money. Okay? I mean, obviously go speak to people who made those mistakes in the past. You don't have to make your own mistakes. Um you Anything that's not on that list of 365 negative commandments means go for it, man. So, if everyone's getting in the cold water, hit the cold water. If everyone's going for the hot one, get in the hot. If everyone's going in the sauna, well, get in there. Nothing happens with no. And by the way, if you don't ask, the answer's always no. I'll finish with uh the situation in the mikvah. So, there we are. And I told him a very simple thing. That's not thousands of hours or hundreds of hours or tens of hours or an hour of therapy. I said a very simple I asked him a question. Why did Why you Why can't you get over your fears? Why Why Why are you still getting beat by your father as a 20-year-old man in Jerusalem? Why? And he kind of looked at me dumbfounded. Didn't know the answer really. And I said I I said, "You know, it's when I live live in ID The answer is identity. Identity. Human beings have no idea who they are. And when we develop identity and we squeeze to it like a white-knuckled roller coaster ride. Even if it's stuff we wouldn't even want to believe about ourselves, but well, that's who we are, you know. Anything not to be nobody. It becomes your identity. When you're a little kid and you start developing identity. No, I mean, think about it. Most people, what's the scariest thing in the world? It's the loss of identity. Losing your identity. Wouldn't that be the scariest thing? What would it be like to wake up one day and not know who you are? And by the way, you could be an expert and not know who you are. I am I am probably at a some very close friends who are experts as well, but and that makes us best friends, actually. But all of us are so busy in the yes world that we never even get to talk. It's just like a WhatsApp here and there. And we all we're always high-fiving when we cross cross each other's paths. But we become experts at having no idea who we are in a yes world. Which is what I created the possible you for. Is to be able to literally be a full possible you. And literally create who you are, cuz the whole world's made of words, and create and all the negative stuff that caused all that fear, all those negative beliefs inside you are all words. And so, it becomes your identity. What people are scared to death of it. It's called an identity crisis. What's an identity crisis? The identity you don't who you thought you were isn't who you are. You notice like nobody's afraid of alcohol. But put them anywhere near a mushroom and they get weird. And so, you say to the guy, you know, gee, you know, this is kind of this mushroom's causing a lot of reaction out of you. Like, you obviously must know a lot about it. And he goes, I know nothing about it. Oh, you never researched mushrooms? Okay. I've never researched, but I know I'm scared. You know, I'm not getting anywhere near that mushroom. Why does it have such a reaction? You can't have a fear reaction against something you have no knowledge of. Tell me you studied it and now you're scared. Okay, fine. Why is it automatically that anything surrounding psychedelics cause a reaction? There's a great line by Timothy Leary, who was You can look up Timothy Leary. He was the pied piper of the psychedelic era in the 1960s. By the way, I'm only bringing this up not as an advocate of psychedelics, but just the subject of the fear of identity crisis. Meaning the fear of waking up one day and not being who you thought you were. So, Timothy Leary said something. He says, um, psychedelics are known to cause, um, paranoia and panic amongst those who have never taken them. For that line? You look like you've never heard that line. Like, have you heard that though? Yeah, I've got his picture. Nixon called him the most dangerous man in America. Yeah, well, well, we can blame, uh, psychedelics being put as, uh, what do they call it? A class one? Class one narcotic? It's it's the number one cure of narcotics and it's not addictive. Meaning it cures people of addiction more than any other thing they've ever found in the history of rehabilitation. But it got put on there because of probably because of him. Well, I don't know. The whole world the whole world had gone crazy over it at the time. So, it was like it was unstoppable, but he was definitely the pied piper. Um, anyway, to get back to the mikvah, to get back to the mikvah, the, um, it's identity. Meaning you have come to identify with those fears. Those fears have become you. And and get this. Can you get rid of identity? Can you get rid of an identity in 15 minutes of therapy? You can't. Well, well, what do you mean? Well, I'm going to come back each week. So, it's going to come out to be hundreds of hours of therapy. No, because if you come back every week, you're already re-fortified. Well, how much how much can the 50 minutes chip away if your entire energy And then think how exhausted you are, by the way. How exhausted are you? Where your entire energy, which is totally exhausted you, is spent 20 every waking hour, 17 7, 17 hours a day, 7 days a week, to constantly create every fortification you can that nothing should ever poke a hole in who you think you are. Which you don't even like. Which is the craziest thing in the world. You don't even like who you are and you're so alone. Anyway, so what we said was that to finish this diatribe here. Um, what we said in the end was was that you've come to identify with these fears. It's become you. And what you're really doing is you've come to identify You've identified what happened to you being beaten by your father with your whole life. And every single thing that is a beat down, which is life, is just once again you get beat by your father and you are completely identified with that. And when we hit that hot water, the first thing that's going to burn is your toes. And it's going to be your feet, and then it's going to be your ankles, and then it's going to be your knees, and and I'm going to ask you when you get in that hot water, are you your toes? And what's the obvious answer? He's shaking his head. The obvious answer is, say it out loud. You're going to burn up first. No. Are you your toes? No. Are you your knees? No. And then the burning hit his waist. Are you your waist? No. And he just kept getting in. Just kept getting in till he was in till here in 115° water. Which is basically scalding. And he's freaking out. I said I told him the whole time, breathe the whole time. Just breathe. Because the identity of even identifying with the body's pains is the same as any emotion. They're not the same, but it's all identity. And it's not who you are. We finished with the mikvah, we got showered up, we got, you know, our fresh clothes. We went in to the synagogue. We prayed with all our hearts. It's a I'm hardly an ecstatic prayer synagogue. It's an extremely intimate prayer situation. Usually hundreds of people. We probably only had maybe 150 Screamed screamed at the top of our lungs the prayers of King David. Meaning the the songs of King David. We made our way to my house and this guy was like butter. He was asking people if he could hug them at the table. It was unbelievable. He became like butter. He's like the sweetest human. You mean that? Yeah, you're sweet, man. You're sweet. How you feeling? Amazing. Yeah, oh [ __ ] I feel clear, I don't Okay, everyone. Shalom, shalom. Shalom, guys. Go ahead and subscribe and hit the like button. I mean the bell button to get notified. And, um, yeah, send it out to your friends. And again, if I offended you in any way, it was not that I wanted to offend you. I don't want to offend you. I love you. Um, I I if I was offensive in any way, I I I can't not going to apologize for what I said, but I what I will apologize is that I never came to this world to offend a single person. And and if you're feeling hurt, look in the mirror. Just look in the mirror. Cuz I I said everything I said was love and not hate. Yeah, there was some rage. It was not rage being directed at you. It was rage against It's just rage against against false. As it says in the Psalms, we scream this too. Can I scare all of you guys here? And my voice is a warning from me. And the words are, "Ohave Hashem sine uvo." Those who love God hate evil. Not dislike it. Not don't be indifferent. Don't be neutral. You got to hate it with a consummate white fire hatred. And when I say evil, I'm not talking about the devil and all your evil stuff. Not that stuff.