Tanya By Rabbi Yitzchok Minkowicz Chapter 5 - Torah we create the deepest relationship with G-D

we are studying chapter 5 in Tanya which happens to be a very very important chapter in Tanya as you know that tanya is the foundation of mysticism so every single chapter is like taking you into the boiler room and two behind the scenes of powerful mystical concepts which apply to mysticism in general and to spirituality and tour emits vote in a very very hands-on concrete way and each chapter so to speak has its powerful theme and message an idea and literally revolutionary because this is the foundation of mysticism so in this chapter of Tanya in chapter 5 the author explains profoundly almost like a paradigm shift to the relationship that we have with God via studying of Torah specifically universe is doing its vote and praying etc so we're going to focus today on the power of the spiritual connection that one has when you study Torah another words like this you know when you study Torah Soto obviously in itself is powerful it's God's Torah God gave it to us now there's many components to Torah that's more than 3d and even for thee you know it's way beyond so one of the component you study Torah for example so you're learning Hollow hooked you're learning the laws of God as you study Torah you have all the Commandments 613 commandments 248 positive 365 negative so what happens is in when you study Torah so torah hands as follows it has the helm ahold of the Torah all the 613 commandments 248 positive 360 or negative command so you learn the Torah in the beginning to the end every single partially you'll pick up a few myths folks and have more someone lost when you finished enter it I can ask you what are the three in the 613 commandments teamed up tell me the commandments so you gotta know the laws right what better place know it from the topics are from the five books of Moses so that's one aspect of Torah there's another aspect of Torah when you study Torah you know the story you know some history not all of history but you know history from God created the world until the patriarchs and they turn the tribes and going into Egypt and the temple the building a temple the service an example in the desert and so on and so forth you have the whole story of the Jewish people of that period from the beginning until the torrents and then it goes on to the prophets but I'm staying for the Torah for example the prophecy of the story the prophets and so on and so forth so it also a history book but here the altar of it introduces a whole new concept new in the sense a new view not nothing change the Torah stays the same Torah that the power that the Torah has and the gift that aura has is that allows us to create the most deepest spiritual connection with God in other words like this by way of introduction if you have two things two things whatever the two things maybe it could be two physical things it can be two people so lets you have two things and you put it together right and you'll see glue it together you you were faxing it together at the end of the day is it's two things that are together right let's say you have two people that get a long whether it's uh in a real relationship husband or wife or two good friends parent and child and they see eye-to-eye and everything that one thinks of the other one thinks of automatically they have like you know they're they're totally and think right but how many people is it it's still two people you have a community gets along it's beautiful it's nice it's one voice but it's still many people with one voice it's impossible in the physical world to put two things in one space it's impossible in this physical world for two people to become physically one it's just impossibility you can have the same views you can get along you can have the same understanding of life that you cannot become one however however there's one place where you were two things could become one and that is in your brain when you think about something that thing literally take for example to physically you're looking at a beautiful chandelier and you think about it and enters in your brain because we're not till the physical chandel they never entered your brain but spiritually you can become like enmeshed with it that it literally is in your brain again on a spiritual level so the same thing also a new study Torah when you take out the Torah in your studying Torah guess what happens the information that you're studying becomes one with you now here's the big question what is the Torah so comes along the answer everything algebra says as we know mr. Sutton doesn't create anything new it's just here to point the flashlight and something that's already they go I didn't notice that before and mysticism said like this what is the Torah very simple it is towards the rock zone and the hakama of God what is the rut so mean Rutan is the will and hustlas the intellect so in other words God decided for whatever reason it's irrelevant why God decided that this is a mitzvah or this is not a Miss law and this is a negative commandment or when you get into the Mishnah different laws about marriage different laws about how to take care of your field what what you give away for tithing what which parts of the field you keep which ones you don't keep the laws of Shabbat or any law about any part of the Mitzvah or any any part of Jewish law or any part of the town any part of mission anything that you're studying the Torah the prophets the mission of the Talmud devendra whatever is divinely inspired right anything that's what I'm inspired what is that it goes into the category of the rut zone the will of God notice for example on Shabbat and shabbat you have to keep the Shabbat let me keep the Shabbat see it's an honor it and you have to have pleasure on Shabbat and there's other positive commandment that you do on Shabbat sanctify the Shabbat they're the things you don't do on Shabbat now the reality is before gardening those rules today's those rules exist no now could God could God have made natura body could have made something a different day or you can make different rules about the short cut of whatever reason we're not going to go into the logic and philosophers about it God chose that this is the rules of Shabbat it was his choice that is something which is called what the ruts turnover colors rojo the will of God now when you study the mission in the Talmud if it's just the will you would think God is this like you know you know authoritative tyrant that puts down rules hey these are my world these are my rules no he explains it all that our human intellect could understand the reason all throughout the Torah there's reasons for things and throughout the mission and through the Talmud and especially you get into the mysticism and the Kabbalistic girl they explained to you the reasons fold amid salt and it actually is very interesting because God gave us a brain and with our brain when we study things when we comprehend things it's really enjoyable makes sense now something something that makes sense is actually enjoyable why because it makes sense what I do it makes sense so you have in the Torah the will of God but also the wisdom of God now here's the big question how could we finite human beings connect to the infinite God we're finite and those finite for example if you have an 8 ounce cup and you have 64 ounce bottle you cannot get the whole 64 ounces of the eight ounce cup even get maybe 8 ounces drink it and you can put more but at one time eight ounces you can get more than Nestle can handle now that they're both finite one 64 ounces one of the eight ounces but how much more so doesn't you can get more than eight ounces in a town scub how much more so you can't get an infinite amount of liquid in today on some you can't even get more than a damp rag in an infant amount so the question is how could we find that human beings connect the God so God gave us as a vehicle as a tool the Torah which logically when you study it makes sense it might take a while for you to grasp the ideas I'm some some of the ideas are deep etc but if you whatever you're studying in missionary and tommo during the prophets or in the Torah as you study it with your brain and you think about it and you discuss it and you mad at on it meditate on it I'll start making sense to you and matter of fact sometimes it takes a while which is understandable because we know it takes how many years to really fully comprehend something 40 years 40 years so that's because you didn't get it in the first sitting doesn't mean that God fig you're not smart and doesn't mean you're never going to get it if within 40 years you'll get it it's how it says there you go the Talmud says that it takes 40 years to fully comprehend something but eventually you'll get it and what an end but doesn't mean that it's black and white you understand it you don't get a totally and you'll certainly you know in 28 it you're so you know pull away at it and eventually you'll have a lot a full understanding of it so when a person studies Torah this allows him the opportunity to create a infusion of God's infinite infinite that 64 ounces infinite wisdom infinite will of God in to our finite you being so in other words with the outer we're saying is that through the fact that we use our brain to study the Torah comprehend the Torah and then store the torres down in our brain because let's say you study something in the club or in halacha or Mishnah right so i was happy study it you forgot it what so you remember it for a while and if sometimes we study it doesn't you think about it more but the point is you're actually putting it in your brain in your hard drive so to speak right you put it if you're putting it in your hard drive and it sits there so what do you have sitting within you you have the it's called Torah what are you more importantly behind the scenes what do you have actually within you you have God which part of God the will of god and the intended the intellect of God now we studied Kabbalah before here before you know the spirit what's the highest sphera Katherine which is thi nug and rock song so rad sign the wheel is a high heart and a high level and after that what's the next levels Cochran bina das the intellect so you are basically taking God's ruts own you're taking God's hakama and you're giving yourself a transfusion of God the infinite God within you now that is a gift that God gave us that he allows us to put God himself within you true we have a godly soul no one's questioning that but the godly soul it's within us here we have an opportunity to take in our head and infuse in our head wat the God's wisdom and god's will now now it's getting now real good merchandise within us so what happens when you when you when you feed yourself God's will and wisdom what happens to what happens to use a human being joy that's true that's all correct or correct but most importantly most importantly is as follows the author explains like this we each have a godly soul and we have a body now let's talk about things that we can relate to more and i will talk things that we have to learn to relate to okay we each other body right oh you agree with me we can relate more to our body now let's take a simple stuff this is basic 101 we have been 101 in any at many any any parent and child you know that for some reason whichever whatever whatever the reason is but that's the fact God made it that this body that we have we have to do two things well we have too many things but for this conversation I do two things what do we have to do one is we got to eat we got to eat why what else if you don't need anyone what else do you don't need to die you'll get week you'll get weak initially you'll get cranky right you'll get here at of all right and you'll get and the list goes on and eventually like you said an extreme cases you can actually end up dying so in other words a person has to eat because if you don't eat what will happen you'll have all these crazy seven toes and then you can totally pass out so a person has to physically eat now a person also has to close themselves why because of me too hard too cold and so on and so forth right so we wear clothing on our body now we have a godly soul we have a godly soul the godly soul that we have awesome seat absolutely but why only only the ID the body's referred only the animal salsarita's the godly soul wants to be fed now why does the why is the body want it be fed the Hornet I it wants to live for the body life as physical if it wants to be here and the now in the physical world the north side to be here now in the physical world that has to walk it has to eat okay the godly soul wants to live now how do you define a life for the garvey soul what's life of the godly soul it's eternal and it's it's combined with God until ten o'clock are you got yes but right but what what is before we talk we feed it what is considered the life knows in other words the golly souls the godly soul when there's like the body wouldn't eat it feels good right because it energy why because it's a light able to live it's able to enjoy life the godly soul what's life for the godly soul what does it want what's its mission what's his vision the vision and the mission for the galley soul is what to cleave to God it wants the cleaver god it wants become one with God now that's all at once one-track mind just like the body wants to eat good foods right all day as much as I can until you get to full right and then you stopped the godly soul wants to cleave to God when always it feels great when when it cleans to God when it's not cleaning it doesn't feel so great now how does the godly soul cleave to God how's it coming so peace of God prayer stunning tour exactly so there's basically two ways at least to gov't just like the body needs food and it needs clothing so the godly soul needs food spiritual food and clothing spiritual clothing what is food for the godly soul Torah now Torres food why is Torah food for the godly soul I instant but what we're saying it again we're saying the tour is food for the godly soul and what is garments for the godly soul Mitzvah great you got the answer right now the question that we already see before the whole you give tours God wants us to use our brain and we get it we understand that it's more so much more enjoyable so the question is what why is Torah compared to food and mitts vote compared to garments true I gotta we gotta correct but the question is what's the connection that tour is called food and food you know spiritual food is Torah and why isn't the opposite and some why isn't Torah garments and mitzvot food inside haha one is the outward and one is inward one ones out once I'm word yes that's true that's also true but you take in the Torah within your words you do mr. outfit okay in the world that's also yes that's true correct okay so here's here's the point you guys are pretty close here's the point very simple what we say before when when you sit down for example to eat do you look at the food or do you put it on your body not going to help you you still go to the young read you can go to a restaurant or home and look at all the beautiful foods and you're not gonna get filled up you have to act some people actually have a magic able to look at me feel full I suddenly vado how they do it but something will do it but you generally speaking most evil of work okay so if you want to be full if you want to be satiated the hapless about but you have to go what you want to be satiated but comptia feed first spirits now what happens to the godly soul if you want to feel you want to eat you want to feed the godly so it has to eat what do you take within you what do you internalize within you what we say before targus done one when you sit down and you study Torah and you comprehend what you're studying you are actually just like almost like think about just like you're feeding a person physically you're taking your soul and you're feeding it and watch what happens to your godly sold in your study Torah watch what happens you go to a torah class or you said at home and study yourself or you study with friend whatever maybe you know this pay attention to you golly soul he's alive just just like and maybe more so when we just like a person that's eating a good meal and it's killing its compelling it feels great it feels great right so Tory you take inside then what didn't you take it inside to think about it you look you read you think and that's all cut becoming internalized within you as you internalize that what is that doing to you it's bringing your connection closer to God on the other hand mitts vote when you do a mitzvah so if you're putting on tefillin your lighting the Shabbos candles it doesn't go within you it's outside you and you need it to that gives you like a shell of protection like if you go for example let's say into a study hall and everyone studying you don't study but it feels good or you go to shul to pray and you don't pray right you feel good spiritually you didn't walk away with any new like internal transformation but it feels good why cuz i affected you on the outside but ultimately what what do you want you want to have to feed yourself spiritually on the inside so in other words since the soul wants to get close to God what better way to come close to God is by internalizing the Torah study which means by studying Torah am I thinking about the Torah and the more you study the more you think about the tower guess want you now become more one with God not all you become one with God God actually penetrates and comes inside you and now you actually feel internally internally and eternally happy the more you study the more you study the happier you're going to be now someone once asked a simple question what have to study Torah sitting in a library right box all over the place all right why can I just get it in right or like go like going to a restaurant like I just look at all the food and I'll be full it doesn't work that way right but the question is why isn't that worked away because the fact is that just like food has me internalized same thing also torah has to be internalized they get an analogy it's analogy which helps bring the point home it was once this in Russia you know taking us a new york it's pretty cold in New York but in Russia was very very cold and this guy was used to sell vodka you know it's in the commodity in my shine for good reasons younger ones calls it warms you up and he was delivering a big wagon full of a hundred cases of vodka from point A to point B and he's traveling you know he produced the vodka and now he's gonna go sell it make his prophet and he's trying it's cold and getting colder and colder he wants to go ahead and cell walls vodka because he wants the you know he worked hard he went needs a profit and he's brought his family and he can't wait to get there been anything is getting colder and colder he realized he doesn't do something to himself up he's gonna freeze you know hundra but nothing so he puts them takes the bottle of vodka and he puts it next to him real nothing happens he stays cold so finally he takes a little bit the X a little vodka puts into a cup and he says Allah hi him and guess what happens pics in the second one I made a third one erybody he's all warmed up and he systems like I understand this I have a hundred cases of vodka here I'm not war I'm cold I think three little shots and already warmed up what's the answer it's very simple as long as the vodka is outside of you it's not warming you up when you take yani alot three long shots you're already warmed up it's the same thing also you can think about studying Torah you can talk about how important to study Torah but until you don't take out the hummus and until you don't take out the Mishnah until you don't take out the Talmud and sit and study you're not getting warmed up now the reality is it's a good now and you guys think about it let's say you drink the three cups and you and you get warmed up what happens after a while it wears off you get cold again so you need more exactly in other words yesterday's breakfast doesn't help you for today so the same thing also yesterday's Torah study doesn't help p for today if you study Torre yesterday that was Fiesta you warm that yesterday questions hanging warmed up today and the answer is got to pull out a book and you got to study some more and the more you study the more you're going to connect the guard in the most deepest of way now what's interesting is that we said before that Torah is internalized right and MIT's vote is more external then Hebrew what is that called what is that called it's something which is called massive and there's something which is called Polly what is the movie Markov mpany mean very simple in other words Markieff is something that basically it it it surrounds you and I was like you have a sitting in a library and its box and you look around wow it feels great to sit in a in a Jewish library and then I've seen people walking in Rama Rao is feels great it does 100 per second feels great wellness once you walk out of the library it's gone why don't you come into the library you take out the booking you study the book now it goes into the head well doesn't you leave the library it's still on the head for a while it's still with you exactly so what does when you do a mitzvah so when you do the mitzvah you feel great because you're connecting to God and in a very profound way by doing the mitzvah when you finish doing the mitzvah guess what now you're on the mitzvah famous started King David King David who was a real searching jus as you can see from the Psalms and so on and so forth and says King David you know one day he was in the bath house and he goes my god oh my gosh God I don't have any Mets vote you know all day i'm doing the throat I feel connected I don't have any metro then he realize oh he's circumcised he has one Mitzvah with him and he felt felt better about that but that's because to Mitzvah so mitzvahs external so when you're doing it you feel the connection and we're not doing you don't feel the connection but what happens when you study Torah Torah has both qualities why because Torah is a mitzvah it's a midst of the study Torah so when you're studying Torah in you're fulfilling the midst of studying tourists you're getting that powerful entity that you create so to speak like a blanket I Provencher goes accomplices you all around but more importantly Torah has the profound power that by studying Torah you're actually taking an internal transfusion of Torah study and that transfusion creates the most deepest connection that you can possibly have with the infinite with the infinite God so in other words if you want to basically connect to God which we all do I saw wants to for sure but if you want to basically just like you want to take care of yourself physically you want a case on spiritually so physically we all want to take care of ourselves you know what about nice clothing we know where to go eat whether it's at home or a restaurant or whatever may be spiritually if you want to take care of yourself yet true ultimate all the great that will give you like you know a good feeling from the outside but then it goes wears away bit quicker because it's not really internalized however you want to create a real deep connection there's no better and deep away then connecting to God through studying Torah because by studying Torah you're connecting to God's will God's wisdom and you're actually bringing that within you so when you're studying Torrell see for example is he from six to seven years certain studies over so that our from six to seven you're creating a mistress territory it surrounds you when you're studying Torah and you're saying the words of Torah so you're actually profiling the mitzvot but then when you're thinking about this Torah study and you're meditating on it now you're actually bringing it within you in a real internalized way and even a throaty seven o'clock when the class is over when you finish studying with your friend or if you listen online to a class whatever maybe when you ever fit whenever you finish the ring Torah and the Taurus I the toe is sitting it's always sitting within you towards within your within your brain you actually have a deep relationship of God it's totally internalized with you in the most powerful way and obviously if you have God within you think about all the benefits all right you're happy you feel secure if you'll say she ate you feel connected and that's a connection can't go away so easy why because internalized one of the reasons why this chapter of tanya is extremely important and that is as follows the reality is that God God made us in a way that he gave us which we scuffling last week the act of mustafa de Bourgh and my saw in other words we have our thoughts our thoughts we have a speech and we have our action now what is what is closer to who we really are our thoughts speech or action huh action thoughts is what counts yeah okay anyone want to say speech we have a full like gang up here okay right okay what is really what is closer to us what is really who we are the answer is thoughts why very simple because action we can either do or not do another is we can we're a garment who doesn't really express who we really are cuz the Karma you put it on you take it off biggest prude porn people get dressed up right and even during the year people get dressed of who they're not so it doesn't really it doesn't really tell you who you who the person is person behaves on a certain way could you say the person is X no he's behaving that way today whatever reason he decided to behave that way he doesn't doesn't necessarily resemble who you are speech again you can say things you do believe in it you don't believe in it you see you know even like people professionally lawyers will say things which are contract the way they believe because that's their job it's and it's not right or wrong it's just the fact that it's because speech is not who you are another in other words you can say things you don't believe in it's not a contradiction because if speech is not really who you are however thought is who you are knows what are you thoughts that's who you are you know that's that's your essence you thinking of who you are yet when you're thinking for example you think out loud sometimes you think out loud right it's at least be very careful you know they they say how do you know how do you know that you have a good friend a real good friend when you can when you can think out loud we can think of swinging all out exactly cuz your thoughts and I get to be careful because neither one can handle your thoughts so you don't overload you know some people sometimes right but your thought was it but your thoughts are basically who you are you're actually doesn't necessarily resemble who you are and sending your speech me your thoughts resemble who you are so that's point number one point number two what's the proof that thoughts are who you really who you are very simple because action is not constant you don't have to always be busy doing something and matter of fact if you're always busy doing something it's not a good time not a good time right we are getting into the psychological aspect of it because a person's complacent there's always going to do something every second you can just be you know what to do you can just be sometimes being is very very good meditating is very good you don't have to be doing something always and people are always fidgety they always have to do something you know why can't it be they're not comfortable themselves on a psychological and a spiritual level someone always has to do something there's something that they're struggling with so knows you don't always have to do the fact that some people do it's not natural speak you don't have to talk right unless you you know you're like a Yenta by profession right but but most people don't know we have to talk talking however thinking could you ever stop your thoughts no it's on the electrical solve the batteries go off you're still thinking you're still fly even your fav you think you're thinking that dreams come from and so on and so forth so in other words the thought is really who you are a because that that is your essence be you can't shut it off so you still also who you are so God created us that's what God chose to create us that we can act and not act speak and not speak but he created us with a real quality of thoughts and that's who we are now the fact is because your thoughts are when are constant and now your thoughts are who you are because you may basically either become your thoughts or you are your thoughts what came first the chicken or the egg right so your thoughts are extremely powerful now so what happens like this what happens if you do nothing now am I talking about physically because especially you do nothing you sit into nothing speech wise you not to say anything when I talk about the physical action we're not talking about speech which only thoughts if I tell you don't think about anything that's not realistic I'm realistic no honey it's impossible it's it if I save some what are you thinking about nothing we know the person is what lying because you think I don't want to say the arms answers I don't want to share that's fine it's okay you don't have to see your thoughts it maybe it's better you don't see your thoughts I don't want to hear your thoughts so I god I want to hear okay exactly not gonna work okay good exactly exactly okay so your thoughts always working you can't stop using us therefore therefore once you know that what happens now very simple because your thoughts are always thinking every person in the world that's in marketing every radio station TV station knows that about you and therefore what are they trying to do grab your attention grab your attention they want to get control control of your thoughts and feeding your thoughts their thoughts buy my product right come to this place at this time now the reality is if you're not proactively thinking about something and think in the TV or the radio or magazine or the internet comes on and says hey do this you thought about anybody and now they grab your thoughts and now they're going to leave you like you know you lead a dog somewhere with the chain because they got you with your thoughts why because your thought is always thinking knowing that could you know it's like this let me ask you a question is if you had up something extremely valuable an expensive ring expensive whatever may be at your house worth a lot of money would you leave the front door opened why not why not because it's valuable and you don't want someone walking in and taking it out correct now what's the most valuable thing that you have your thoughts so what do you do you leave the front door opened okay let me watch anything that comes on TV hello how do you know what they're going to try to sell you and once you're sold you sold and now you're lost you're following the wall it's not the blind leading the blind it's actually the blind leading some salesman at taking you somewhere to get you to buy something you don't need well the mute day people still watching it the point is that you have if you have a mind you have a mind it's working you can't leave the front door opened so therefore God came along and God said guess what I am going to give you I gave you a thought that's working constantly but guess what I gave you something to fill your mind twenty-four seven what is that Torah study so if you proactively keep your thoughts on unifying with God via Torah study so now the rule is could you have two things in one spot no could you have two thoughts at once no you can switch from one to the other but you cannot have ten parts are two thoughts at once so at this moment you're studying Torah could somebody distract you could somebody sell you something could somebody schlep you somewhere you don't want to go or convince you to be negative or pessimistic or sad about something no I'm busy studying Torah another word so if you realize that the most powerful internal tool that God gave is your thoughts your thoughts are constantly working and it's buying real estate this is the most expensive piece of reels that you have within you is your thoughts and you don't want anyone stealing it you know God gave you something to fill each it is a god he made him do what he want I mean I'm honest i'm bored right what are you bored did you finish the whole Torah study you know the whole time already backwards and forwards you know the whole Mishnah right back wasn't forwards calm exciting to me you know all the prophets you know the whole Torah you know all the mysticism oh so you can't meet Evan excuse i have nothing to do you have plenty with do i can guarantee you you can live your whole life and not even touch tip a tanker because it's very simple because the comforter and God is infinite so the infinite wisdom it's impossible for you to live a finite life and grasp the whole infinite wisdom impossible so therefore you can live your whole life fill your whole life with what thorough study now if you're currently studying Torah could someone tell you something you don't want can someone distract you could someone get you to stuffing negative thoughts or inappropriate thoughts absolutely not yeah true so one's gonna say what wants this to work hey you're right if you have a proper exemption and you need to go to work good what times work nine to five 955 you back here progress study right you gotta go take care of the kids don't problem what time six or seven grade six or seven take care of them seven o'clock back to class you going to sleep at night right you want to sleep at night so let's see gonna sleep us a nine o'clock at night right now you decide nine o'clock you gonna sleep 901 you're sleeping already no no thinking you're thinking very good you're very good I like that nine o'clock you're thinking you set nine o'clock i'm going to sleep but what am i doing at nine o'clock now i'm starting to think what are you thinking about about what you read either what someone's trying to sell you it is always so installing you something or you're proactively okay so it's actually interesting story interesting story this is very very important talking about going to going to sleep at night there was once the student that came to the Shiva in New York the rebbe toshiba new student so the rebbe asked one of the teachers to keep an eye on this boy and you know see how he's doing cetera and he was doing great but one day he said that he had um doubts and belief of God so the teacher that the rebbe asked to check up and were like perplexed new student great student great home sitting in studying Torah all day and he's diligent doubts and believe in God he knows dude so he came back to the Rebbe and he told her every hansen has make sense he studies the morning to the night serious boy he praised you know he's as it helps because he has dance and god something's off nobody said like this probably before he goes to sleep he probably looked in a magazine or something you'll remember in their bad magazine door whatever maybe you know and they checked and he didn't do it intentionally whose look he's gonna sleep right all the time he opened the magazine he read something that was you know had some crazy thoughts in there and also he stopped the question about God what's the point you wanna sleep at nine o'clock when the whole sleeve it could be 901 but chances are spy eight nine five nine ten nine twenty nine thirty maybe ten o'clock and it could be 10 whatever may be right now the way it could be 11 I agree so you have a cell whether it's a minute or two hour gap so if you're going to proactively embed reach them Torah you fall asleep on the book meanwhile your mind was protected if you're not going to be sitting and reading or studying or listening to something a Torah lecture or something or meditation meditation you know what's gonna happen your wife your mind is going to wander and it's like leaving front door p house open we're expensive jewelry on the table it's a goal you have the most expensive prized possession you have is what your mind you will either proactively choose to fill it with Torah study and then get well look what happens you are actually putting God within you and when you're doing that you Cleveland to God it's funny I had couple years or someone came to me they couldn't go to sleep at night anyway doctor you taking pills and more pills and so on is over that she doesn't let's try an experiment stop all the pills instead of taking all these pills we obviously dr. this commission because that you know if it would medically needed medically needed why don't we try on the bed meditate trained person I to meditate not Torah but the firm its firm and you know suddenly actually would study something for 20 minutes and then meditate on it you know what ever since then is really a couple years no problem going to sleep at night no medicine no nothing think about it why at work very simple because by studying Torah they fill the brain with God and then they thought about God you don't need you don't need medicine of you thinking that God I mean obviously unless it's a medical issue but generally speaking most of the issues people have is because they are bored and when they're bored all sudden crazy things comes in your mind and now it's like getting a virus and get the virus out the virus is not leaving so quickly but on the other hand it's very simple rather than fighting the virus feed it with God by Torah study like it does in chapter 5 and this way you constantly your mind is full with God you're focused in God I guess what happens it peace you're at peace exactly so in other words you have to realize that the thought is really who you are and the thought is working constantly you either feeding it with Torah and then you have God within you and if you're not feeding with Horace someone else will be selling you something guaranteed there's a salesman at every corner trying to sell you something whether it consciously or subconsciously so if you proactively fill it you'll proactively have a great life and here you see that it's not just that you let you say you know I'm studying Torah but I don't like the subject but you see the reality is first this there's always a subject you like that's first of all but more importantly it's not so much about the subject is when you're studying Torah if you think about the fact I mean you're studying tour right now you're bringing God into your brain it becomes a whole different reality you're not looking just for the data yeah actually you want understand what you're learning you want to comprehend it don't wanna make sense to you and will make sense to but if you really realize I'm creating this relationship with god it's like a love relationship it's much more powerful it's watch more enjoyable a study tour that way because if it's about data so then it's to any other subject how much can you study ready but if it's about creating a relationship with God and filling your mind which has to be filled proactively constantly it's a whole different hold it hold of an outlook towards Torah study and that's why I think chapter 5 of tanya is literally probably the most one of the most powerful chapters in Tanya and for the reason is because it's dealing with your most powerful prize gift that God gave your mind it's constantly working and giving you the right tool to fill it and when you fill it with this right tool of Torah you will have true peace true happiness and more importantly no negativity and no outside forces will come in without your permission