Rabbi Yitzchak Feldheim: Understanding Olam Haba - Project Inspire Convention 2016

so I want to take a little bit of the mysticism the magic away and replace it with a little bit Clarity the talk is abouta in order to get to have to spend a few minutes talking abouta you can't know what the world to come is I think until you properly understand a short version of this world and a short version of the understanding of the of God so that we can understand so we have three things that need to be explained God this world and next World the goal is the next World if we do a proper introduction of God in this world and the next World thing will will become clear with minimal amount of talk I won't spend 30 minutes talking about Alaba Alaba at the end of the talk it'll just click into place I think and and uh I've lay the proper groundwork let me just start with a quick overview of the way I think this the shortest way to say this and normally I do this in four Shum and is the fourth sh and do the first three shum very quick in a synopsis most important phrase in the way we translate is most people look at sh is as as the lesson of Isel is monotheism that there is one God here o Israel the Lord Our God the Lord is one I think that that's a big mistake there two different sentences they're very similar but they mean very different things if I say that there is one God there is there is one God what does that mean that there's one God not two there's not multiple gods but doesn't say that there is one God says that God is one now most people just go on autopilot they assume it's the same thing God is one there is one God it's the same words in different order but it's not they have radically different meanings when you say that there is one God you mean there's one God not more than one not many what does it mean when you say that God is one what translate that what does it mean how do you is one not there is one of him he is one in our thought this is the foundation of Y something that we call the unity of God the unity of God doesn't mean that there is one God it means much larger that God is one what does itan mean to is one unique is part of it but unique is not one it's it's many and this one's different he's Oneness itself he is one what is one so here's my short Marshall this is not meant to be whole class this is a teaser okay one my my mus is I Ed the puzzle as a metaphor a puzzle has three stages the three stages of a puzzle are there's the cover of the puzzle box it's a beautiful picture I don't know a duck on a p pond with Ripples and mountains that's stage one then you take that beautiful picture you put it through a machine and you cut it up into 500 pieces that's called stage two fragmented and then we come in stage three we buy the puzzle we put all the pieces back together again we make it the way it's supposed to be that's stage three this simple idea of a puzzle is I think the best way really the simplest way to understand unbelievably deep understanding of Hashem and the nature of the universe when we say that hasem is mean he's Oneness Hashem to the world is the cover of the puzzle box Hashem is means he's not that there's one God but he's one he's where everything fits what's the world then we call the world Hester P of the hiddenness of Hashem it's perod hiddenness you see if Hashem is Oneness if you're intelligent so what is the hiddenness of intelligence is to act foolish if you're strong WR what's the hiddenness of strength is weakness if you're Oneness what is the hiddenness of Oneness multi multiplicity diversity disunity so Hashem is he's the cover of the Box the world is the hiddenness of Hashem what is the hiddenness of Oneness disunity fragmentation this world is Hashem with the Unity hidden we call it perod muur everything's divided so you have hasem is the the cover of the box and we're the pieces of the puzzle so then what is our job we say before every mitv to make everything one again to put it all back together again our job in life is to assemble the pieces when we put things back together again what are we experiencing Hashem when you put the pieces in the puzzle again you sing the our job is to make Oneness in the in the Bri what I wanted to show you here in stage one is how easily easy it is to taste this to see it literally if Hashem is the cover of the box and this world is the pieces so we're all fragments every single thing you see is a piece of the puzzle when we put it back together again we're experiencing Hashem now it doesn't mean that we see the whole Hashem but when you have a man and a woman who are thing they go on and they become one they get married and they they become so they a little more of hm was it's an it's closer to Hashem it's taking two pieces of the puzzle two little yellow pieces now he made a duck you there's still lot to do but you're closer you're seeing more of Hashem there's such a thing is getting a better a wider and wider picture of the more and more there are people who are good at certain types ofas not other types ofas this I'll show you that now the way you can test this this is very powerful is that Hashem is everything and the world is divided it's not Hashem we don't see Hashem when we put the pieces together explain hasem I want to show you that every single experience of sim is the experience of Oneness Sim pleasure is the experience of putting pieces back together again I'm going to show you we're going do it fast this is this is really its own class but I always try and bite off more than I could show I hope we get everything in over here it's the there are seven ways that human beings experience the universe it's my number well what are the seven ways we know five we see things we taste them we smell them we touch them we hear them five senses are those the only ways that we receive information how else the human beings experience the world besides the five senses we think not a sense we also feel so we have thoughts emotions and actions the actions are five smell taste touch so I make it neat I call it seven ways that we experience the world every one of these stimuli these seven ways experiences positive and negative experiences I have pleasurable thoughts and painful thoughts pleasurable tastes and painful tastes pleasurable feelings and painful let's go through them each quickly and let's see if we could find the pattern of what makes something pleasurable so what is eye pleasure what do my eyes enjoy my eyes like when things match my eyes like when things blend my eyes like when things are we like patterns anyone ever studi the philosophy of art you know what the Phil you know what is considered universal Beauty what's the philosophy of beauty what is even a child attracted to what does a child consider beautiful he has no training what what is instinctually considered beautiful anyone study this symmetry per beautiful symmetry is with two eyes are lined up and they're the same size as a nostrils everything's lined up it's balanced a window here and a window here a door in the middle and a column and nothing symm what is the common denominator if I were to ask you I give you a list of words blending matching pattern symmetry what do they all have in common they're all experiences of Oneness blending is that things fit matching as they match patterns are where it's not disconnected points it flows symmetry all eye pleasure is the experience of Oneness if you see something and makes you happy it's because it's one what do we not like when the pattern's broken when things Clash when they don't match when things don't fit let's go through the ears what are your ears like our ears like Harmony our ears like Rhythm right what is rhythm what is harmony they're they're audible experiences of Oneness we don't like when the sounds are off we don't like when the rhythm is broken rhythm is something that ties together all the pieces the same thing with taste and the same things with smells a chef is trying to accomplish in in the kitchen with his different ingredients the same thing the painter is trying to do with his colors he's taking the I'll skip really and just show you that every single person in the world is doing the exact same thing with their lives it's an unbelievable thing the painter is sitting in front of a Candice with his paint in his pallet and his gold will take the colors in his palet and create a unified Masterpiece a harmonized entity the musician is doing the exact same thing with his life he sits with it during his days and the only that that varies is instead of having colors on his palet his pet are notes and his goal is to combine these notes into one harmonized Masterpiece and the chef does the same thing the difference is the chef is using ingredients not notes or colors and the perfume maker is doing the same thing with scents there are colleges I'm sure in France where they learned that lilac goes with lavender but doesn't work with lies and and things work there's things that synthesize and things that harmonize and things that Clash everyone's trying to do the same these are the senses but then the other parts are even more obvious what are what are pleasurable emotions friendship love Brotherhood compassion empathy acceptance caring shearing what are negative emotions division fighting loneliness separation division fighting rejection every single pleasure in the world is the experience of Oneness and every pain is the experience of disunity it's a mind-blowing thing the brain what is brain pleasure logic order truth justice fairness what is brain pain when things don't fit when things are in Balan when it's injust when there are gaps in reasoning when things are in fear look at what we've discovered here that every single time in your life that you ever smiled or felt warm or good it's because you just experienced Oneness and every single time you felt pain physical emotional intellectual any pain you felt it's because you just experienced a taste of division and isolation and separation basically the existence of Pleasure and Pain is a reflection of to the experience of Hashem the experience of pleasure is based on the idea that there's an E when you say pleasure what you're really meaning is I am experiencing EOD all pleasure is EOD and all pain is period it's a crazy I talk I use this as a talking when I talk to atheists I tell people you're not an atheist you think you're an atheist you're a religious fanatic from the moment you're born to the moment you die you've never done anything but Chase pleasure and what did we just demonstrate that what is pleasure Oneness and what is Oneness the Jewish Hashem is oness so you spend your entire life every moment chasing pleasure chasing wonders and you say you're an a IST you're a fanatic you you've never taken a break for a second from God if you didn't believe in God what what would a Jewish version of an atheist be an atheist meaning if you don't believe in God so what are you not believing in and if you don't believe in Oneness and you no pleasure how do you have pleasure pleasure the premise of pleasure is that there's Oneness there's no Oneness there's no pleasure someone who doesn't believe in Oneness you cannot believe in Oneness I can believe the world's random but never then go to a restaurant cuz I'm not going to spend money assuming that someone com nothing combines the idea that he that someone knows how to put together means it goes together I'm spending money on it it means that I believe he going to do it yeah so how do you understand understand the okay so good so so good good good are atheist so listen so if I that's why I do it four classes people then come ask I just did a pretty good job of showing this but there are things that sound like exceptions so he gave one example I'll answer your example but but I have five answers his question is modern art here you have a pleasure that's not Unity it's not symmetry it's not balance right it's not a pleasure okay so I have five answers all right good that's answer number one so I have five I have five answers to the modern art question you heard the question like there are a lot of questions I I normally do a whole segment of the class I ask people what are the exceptions in your mind to what because if I just if I could prove what I just told you that there's no eth is you're everyone's a religious fanatic not only that let me just before I answer you let me just wrap up this part of the book and then I'll answer you and then go fter but the way I wrap it up is I like to like this people think that there's a a disconnect between science and religion that's not based on understanding Hashem in this way what is the premise of science what is what are scientists dedicating their life to what are they searching for explanation the understanding the ultimate understanding how everything fits they're looking for the unified field Theory the global understandings the scientist is looking for what one he's looking for the unity he's looking for God everyone's the same the musician is looking for Oneness in notes the painter in colors the chef in tastes the sh people looking for relationships doing them personalities how to connect looking for friendships and and love and marriage and and mathematicians and scientists and and E economists they're doing it using the facts and the phenomenon of the universe want to make everything fit the scientist is taking all the data and trying to look for the unified these are the rabbis they're the priests a scientist is the dedicate his life to searching for hem the the prerequisite to science is that there's an ech and I'm going to find him they just don't know they just call it something different an atheist believes in Randomness the belief that there's an that's the word God is not a Hebrew word the t word for God is what your mitah is to believe in the if you believe in there's an and anyone who experiences pleasure or pain believes in we all worship I'll give one other example because people ask me then like so what's why do people fight with other people why do people take revenge there's a joy in taking Revenge where's the right so where's the unity so the anwers are simple answer in that the answer is is that Unity we just showed you there are a lot of different versions of unity there's not one thing called unity in America today I say the word Unity people think group hug you know group that's Unity that's one type of unity CH is a science to it right too much barley or too many beans you have to have the right amounts everything Pizza is is a symphony it's all there's different types of unity there's taste unity and there's emotional Unity there are many different versions of so what is the what is the why is there pleasure in taking revenge on somebody somebody cuts me off in traffic and I get out and I crowbar his window okay it's a New York thing you ever did it nope you've thought about it you've mellowed you used to think about it okay whatever it is I thought about it okay and I smile when I think about it why why I'm fragmenting the glass there's no Unity right so what's the answer the answer is that revenge is the experience of Justice a minute ago he did something he got away with it now I broke his window now we're even Justice is the intellectual experience is unity of the brain what love is to your heart Justice is to your brain the pleasure you get in punish it might be wrong to take revenge because that's hashem's job if you trust in Hashem who's more creative you or God so you want to get even let hem do it right so it's not my job it's hashem's job to make things even but the pleasure of justice is Unity it's not this emotional feel-good Unity but it's also Unity so the acceptions the things that don't fit every pleasure is even things that sound mean you're doing you took Revenge because it felt good and it felt good cuz he created Justice a minute ago the world was out of a whack and now everything's back everything fits everything's back to way it should be it's nice and neat and therefore it felt good because you experienc oners now modern art how does Modern Art fit in what's Modern Art why is modern art pleasurable so I have five answers they're all very very different they're meant for different people the right-wing uh Rush limbo fans here will like answer number one answer number one is the answer his question is is that if I'm saying all pleasure is Oneness so then how could Modern Art cause pleasure it's not about symmetry it's random lines so answer number one is modern art is not pleasurable it's a lie and everyone's too insecure to admit that they don't get it so everyone looks at it and they go oh it's so beautiful yeah and really you go like I have no idea like so that's answer number one answer number one is the entire thing is a sham and if you were more insecure it's the emperor's new clothes and no one has the gut to be the one to say I don't get it cuz then they look at you with that like condescending look like you shallow simpleton you know and nobody wants that look you know I live in Academia so I'm used to that look and I I I I look I know I learn how to look right back and say yeah so explain it to me genius yeah and and then they start to look like a little mixu and I don't back down until they go well I'm sure someone understands it you bring them here I'll wait okay anyways okay so that's what's answer two answer number two is that there is an experience of pleasure in modern art but when you hear people talk about it it is experience of unity it's not the the visual experience of unity in the artwork what is it it's the emotional connection to the artist I feel so understood he gets me you know kind of thing I feel like we're we're on the same page so that could you could have a Unity connection to the artist there is a Oneness where we understand each other it's the lines aren't one it's not a visual it's an emotional answer number three is a very deep answer now there all these answers are true for different pieces of heart answer number three is I like it sounds deep I don't know if it's true but it sounds deep and that's that that makes it worth something um answer number three is that there are things in the world that are asymmetrical there is suffering and loneliness and pain there are things in the world that are broken so what is a painting of asymmetry the perfect captured painting of the Brokenness of the world is going to be asymmetrical the symmetrical representation of asymmetry is going to be asymmetrical if you're going to perfectly capture Brokenness that's going to be a picture that's out of whack so a lot of Modern Art is the attempt to capture the randomness the the Brokenness the the the the the disruption in the world and that these pictures are symmetrical representations of asymmetry okay okay okay like you're starting to get on okay very okay the last I'll give you one more answer this is you see this want all the answers this is so much more to the class this is this is just got go we have we have 6,000 years to cover we only did the first six days it's not a not moving that a good clip okay you got got the UN think is it's really cool afterwards you can think of all your exceptions what's the pleasure of kicking over a sand castle what's the qu what's the thrill of jumping out of an a plane there are many Pleasures where it's hard to see the unity the answers are all more beautiful than the questions the the truth of the world is is that all pleasures Unity is my mus is the puzzle the have a much better puzzle much better mush it's a little B more involved but I'll tell you the musle in passing but it's a it's not my musle mush the same as the puzzle Hashem is white light white light is light it's white you don't see colors it's considered oness you take the white light and you put it through a prism and it divides into all the colors of rainbow so that would be the mus hasem is he's the white light The Act of Creation is hiding the Oneness fragmenting light so the Bria would be the r this is the rainbow all these different colors what's our job our job is to combine all the colors into a masterpiece to create a symphony Harmony so you have three stages you have Hashem is Unity then you have perod and then you have Harmony our job is to harmonize the world pleasure is the experience of assembling the pieces combining the colors this is the again that that would be sheer number two I would give I was doing an order to first talk is Unity the second talk is the distinction between unity and Harmony I just said enough to see there's a difference in the words they're very different they're both Oneness Unity is white and Harmony is a symphony it's a lot of colors they're opposite approaches to everyone understands how white is and everyone also understands how all the colors in a masterpiece are also that are so different one is 400 colors and one is one color but they're both one is unity and one's Harmony Ina we call this hasim hasem is the white and elim is the plural name is the of theim this Bri is the experience of elim of a world where Hashem reveals himself there is in this world but an e of and that's the that we experience we experience hasem that they're both but that's my world so now here's the second part of the talk what makes Unity pleasurable why should Unity be pleasurable it's an a magical thing that Oneness is pleasurable so let me show you why Oneness is pleasurable what is happening when you combine things can you figure out what I don't just I don't know how to ask this question in a way that's going to lead you into this answer I'm going to try it anyway but sometimes it's sometimes the secret is find the right question the fact that I combine things makes me feel good why is that there's no Discord so that would get rid of pain what would make it pleasurable what am I creating I'm combining things so really it's something that's so much more simple the fact that Unity causes pleasure means the following the simple thing that what really causes pleasure you know what really causes pleasure just exper being existence is good the problem is that every single thing is a piece of existence this is blue blue is nice and green is nice when I combine blue and green now I have nice and nice when I add red I have nice nice nice oranges taste good apples taste good if I figured a away to have an orange Apple now I have double if the world is fragmented so every single thing is a of of existence it's a it's a the more Pro the more the pleasure is the more I the more parts that I could assemble if you have a symphony the more instruments the better the more things I bring in the more variation the more voices in the choir the more more Harmony it's because the real experience of pleasure is existence Hashem is totality and it's fragmented my goal is to experience as much of Hashem as possible so now let me switch over to talk here's how I do it now I'm going to talk about hasem in the deepest way using the simplest terms I want you to follow me in the fact that I'm using childish terms shouldn't make me lose anyone it's just you'll see sometimes the clearest Things Are the secret is trying to make things simple that people can get it like that but I'm going to say something I think it's a big until you hear it then you go out simple I'm going to use the most childish words I can don't think too deep if you think I'm saying something deep you're not understanding me I'm saying very very childish simple things I don't know how to talk about Hashem the safest way to talk about Hashem is unlimited we say cuz he can't limit hmem is everything so let's use a very safe word everything means there's nothing he's not he's so let's call Hashem everything if Hashem is everything what am I let's define me let's go in order am I everything can we prove that I'm not everything how can you prove not everything cuz there's room for other people how is everything nobody else could fit in the room right it's very simple I'm not everything is that clear to you is it proven that I'm not everything okay question number two am I nothing can you prove that I'm not nothing is it clear to you I'm not nothing I'm talking you hearing me I'm not nothing you could be dreaming but I'm something I'm dream whatever it is so I'm not everything I'm not nothing here's the facts we have right now Hashem is everything I am not everything but I'm not nothing so if I'm not everything and I'm not nothing what am I something very deep you got me okay good of so something okay good so Hashem is everything and I am okay everything I said now is totally clear there's no way to argue I'm not everything I'm not nothing I'm something Shem is not something he's everything Next Step what is the relationship of something to everything part of part something is part of everything with me so far right everything includes all the somethings all the something fit into the everything right clear now here's where it gets a little deeper still very simple if I wanted to say that EV that something me I say the S I want to experience Hashem I want a relationship to hasm all these kind of phrases I want to connect to H so let's trans that words something wants to experience everything how much of everything is available able to the something how much of everything can something experience can something experience everything can exper can I get a taste of everything how much of everything is available to something something something right I'll give you a mush you have a pie of pizza okay we divide into eight slices so the pie is the everything the slice is the something how much of everything can each slice experience 1/8 1/8 something so when I say that I something want to experience everything how what is the everything that's available to me I want everyone to have that one click in one moment there a click what is my experience of everything what is the everything if I say I want to experience Hashem totality what is the part of Hashem that's to me your part me so when I say I want to experience Hashem what am I saying experience do you hear that my experience of Hashem my slice of everything what of everything can I have my slice so my experience of the is the experience of what of my life any part of my life that I miss is a that was to me that I lost my job is to be everything in my power not to leave any of me on the table when I sit and I sit by a table and I'm spaced out and I don't want to pay attention I sit on my iPad or I'm sitting texting or I'm sitting playing a game and I'm missing out every moment I'm missing out on the of existence hashem's huge has is everything I can't experience everything I get a small slice of everything 120 years of everything with my skills and my li I have a slice in a pine but I don't automatically get it I have to experience it the the purpose of of this life is for me to experience my life and not to leave any of my life on the table any moment of my life that I miss is a that if I want if you need it to be mystical you'll call it you being who would erase hashem's name we spend our lives erasing hashem's name Hashem keeps on doing out to me every day a new of him and I sitting there erasing it as quickly as I can we have thousands of tools to erase things so Hashem is totality is every one of us is a slice of the pie and it's my job my goal my job I can do I don't have to do it the best thing I can have is to experience as most as possible I get a little slice it makes sense I want to experience pleasure how much of the pleasure could I have how much of Hashem can I have so what does it mean it means means to use your arms your legs and your mind and your heart and it means your sisters and your brothers and your parents and your neighbors and your kusas and your friends every guy you person you saw you never talk to again there a like that's lost to you every meal that you had that you didn't even notice you were eating it's lost this is why you make bras in every single moment and there's a mitzah for everything it's to sit there and to gather your thoughts every moment in time we make kiddish you know what Kish is Kish is don't miss this moment stop before every event you man ifem is everything so what doeses mean what makes something Godly Hashem is existence total existence so kadha is to exist when I'm being I'm being is to be curled up and a little ball and hiding someone who's people who are being you're total being a is someone who's being the person who's V alive and his eyes are on fire and he wakes up early in the morning he's said kades if we believe that hasem is reality so what is Kish we think artificial things I say these words they people say something what is the proclamation that Hashem is real Hashem is the world is Godly you know what says the world's Godly the person who wakes up early in the morning with fire is screaming to the world that Hashem is here the person who's curled up into little bll and hiding is saying there's no hasem it's not beautiful it's not words that we say it's a mindset Shay means to who's mades the guy who's up first is the greatest mades he's saying look at this world it's Godly live it don't miss it now like this this is I want to spend two more seconds and I'll trans you to works like this and there's a problem El elasa works there's two types of people there the guy who gets up in the morning my job is to beep there's a guy who gets in the morning and what he does is like this they told me I have till line: everyone's coming in here okay it's a free class okay you didn't pay for it you're here you got it anyway there are people who wake up in the morning and they go to Sho because they got to run out of house they got to get a house they go to sh and then they go to work because they got to go away from sh they don't want to face hem and then there people and they run home from they run out of work to the because they got to get out of the office and then they run out they go to they run home from the because they don't want to have to learn they can't face it then there's the other guy he wakes up in the morning cuz he can't wait to talk to he goes to SCH and after SCH he can't wait to go to his office because he wants to accomplish things and deal with his clients and take care of his people and support his family then as soon as work is over he can't wait to go home to to to learn with his kids before they go to sleep and read him a story and say sh with them and tuck them in then he can't wait till the kids sleeping because he gets down talk to his wife and and go over day with her and relate to her and talk to her and then when that's over he can't wait to go to his to go sit and learn a little bit and have a little and then he can't wait to and after he can't wait to go home both people live the exact same schedule one person experienced 24 hours of being he experienced his entire that day 24 hours he experienced sh he experienced breakfast he experienced work he experiences children and his relationship with his spouse and his Kusa the other person went through the same thing but shul was hiding from the house and work was hiding from shul and going home was hiding from work and he experienced nothing the simple mush use a secular mush you have the image of the person who just W the girl who broke up with her boyfriend she's eating a tub of ice cream so you have two people with a tub of ice cream in a spoon one person loves ice cream they go like this and the other one just broke up and they're eating ice cream they're drowned in pain one person experiences a whole tub of ice cream the other one doesn't even know they ate ice cream the ice cream is hiding from SAR most people spend their lives as a tub of ice cream and the and a hiding everything is the tool to hide from something else if you're to be one of the people who experiences every moment then that is you experience your days but here's the problem with the problem let's say I really experienced let's say I'm a sh I'm that y the guy who wakes up in the morning can't wait to go to sh and then can't wait to go to work can't wait to go home I Live 24 hours how much Sim do you feel so you would think you feel a Sim of 120 years moments you don't see we live in a world which has the world is divided in space and time I don't want to down too philosophical just means that the world is this today and tomorrow and yesterday and this here and somewhere else what do I mean I mean that at any moment in time even if I'm being I'm only being this moment right now I'm eating a filter fish it's delicious then I have my kala now I'm having soup soup's delicious but the soup is not the fish and the fish is not the soup today I'm in Brooklyn tomorrow I go to the country the country has it its experience Brooklyn has it its experience and any moment in time even if I'm being I'm only experiencing that moment of being I use weird muscle you go to SCH after SCH you finish you shake his hand gabas and then you let go and I shake his hand gabas and the course and I shook 40 people's hands gavas the problem is no to shake the second guy hand I'd let go of the first guy because we have space and time I can only have one experience at a moment and even though I'm being I only experience this being and tomorrow I experience this being so I go through a life of 120 years of being I just shook 40 hands and sh but at any moment I was only connect to one person so I never really get to experience the the hasem the existence that I did I experienced a lot of existence I've been to almost every state in the United States I've seen many countries but in that moment I was there and then it goes away yeah memories but it's not there so even though we are not really experiencing the truth of Our Lives we maybe did experience we weren't hiding we weren't pushing the snooze button and pulling the cover of we were living we were being I said my bras I made kidish I was present I wasn't hiding from the world but still all my experiences go this world is because even the things that I felt are gone let me tell you what is and this is why I told you I'll be say it very short and the whole thing will be cleara is the experience of Total Justice is the experience of every single one of the experiences of lives if you took your life and you remove the illusion of space and time so what would be every single one of the things that you lived every experience you had stacked every single thing that you live through all of your moments you understand whatab isab is totally rational Hashem is totality your life is a slice of totality how much of your life you experience is how many moments you were present for and is that's why we call it Mish it's the it is totally honest whatever you felt you you will feel every smile you ever had stacked every piece of filter fish and soup and every and deeper things and every and every understanding and every and every hug all one stacked on the other it's just a total it's the MS of you this you understand why this is that's what we should feel I should be feeling right now all the joy of all my moments but I'm not cuz things go cuz I'm not there I can't be here and there but space in Hashem there's no space is the experience of the totality of my life it's a very scary notion you know why because there's no free rides this is what I said you have to be brave to get this class how do you have how do you have it you got to do it every single thing that you hide from you have a hard day and you turn everything off and you pull the cover over your head that day is gone and all those things you could have had are not going to be there and if you wasted 40 years but that doesn't mean tomorrow you can't start we have to start to live because forever is a long time and forever you are going to live of whatever you assembled here let me tell you one more deeper thing you know what gim is so is the experience of all that you lived gam is the exact same place you going to experience everything that you did and you're going to see everything that you could have had that you didn't do and you will live with the in the Eternal SAR of all those things that you could have experienced for everything if I would have been awake if I would have been there there is nothing more just than that this is total mbat it is so fear and so perfect it's not the magical I do Mitzvah andem gives me points and then I cash it in for goods and prizes it's you're building youra youra is the experience of your Hashem is everything and every and you're something and you will experience you're something only if you live it and therefore the purpose of life is to start to live and this is a class on what is and I just gave you part one I really have do I am I supposed to stop early or I have till: Who's The Boss No 102 is the next 10 two so I'm done okay so let me just say this I'll just I'll give you the hint of the next two this is stage one of after comes and then the whole world disappears and we have What's called the shabas the ultimate sh is 6,000 years stage one is what I describ ASA is the stacking of all of your moments the next stage after you stack all of your moments so you are experiencing what your life every single thing you did and the hakar of every single thing that you could have done and you didn't do that's what you have after that comes something called which is your entire Legacy your parents and grandparents cuz you are not a pro your life isn't just your life you are a result of if your parents created a safe house a safe home so you were brave and you lived a certain way and you had experiences you didn't hide and then your children will grow up even more safe because they grow up in a safer home and they're going to have more expansive lives and if you were cruel and mean and you made your kids feel not safe so your children will curl up into in a tighter ball and they going to have less experiences the first stage of happen is you you will experience your life the EM of your life is with your entire Legacy from to you all of the stages of your life the experience will be of all the moments of my legacy the truth of my line and that's that's the next stage of the stacking not just of my life but of the myself my father my grandfather great grandfather great and my children all those lines the whole thing what did we experience meaning all all the repercussions of my actions my actions weren't just what I felt what I felt contributed to how my children feel and they what they're going to feel so the True Justice is not just to stack my life but at stage two is is the experience of where all of my line will stack all of their lives and that's the total experience of if I hid and I ran away I didn't go to work and I didn't do any make a parosa my children grew up miserable and they were made fun of in school and they just they hate the whole world and they don't do anything so they lose everything so then the stacking of all that are and if I made I worked hard and I made a house that feel safe and my children embraced life and they went out and they lived and everything was full of excitement and joy so then that experience of stacking that family every door adds infinitely more joy and that stacking and then the final stage of after the the six after the 6,000 years where all of Isel the stacking of not just my line my grandparents which were all of clell with all the implications had in each other because one person one being where the whole world gets folded and all the divisions disappear the world gets destroyed metaphorically because it's no longer about the divisions it's one experience of the stacking of the entire Humanity experiencing all the symphony that we've all experienced together these are the Stag that's the shabas this is why when we think about shabas we call shabas because the whole week we work and shabas we don't create anything shabas we sit back and we stack all the experience of our weeks we eat what we created during the week we talk about what we learned during the week shabas is a taste where I get to experience all of my little experiences stacked into one little pile is the stacking of all of the experiences of all the 6,000 years it's the shabas shab to the strength to embrace the few moments that gave us and may we live those moments and then we create homes where we have children who will brace those moments even with greater depth and greater innocence and excitement than we did and may we have grandchildren may all of our dois expand in their ability to experience the world and in the experience of this true theim of the the revelation of the unity of hem may we finally live the words that CL is has died with all bask in the Splendor of the of the experience that