When Pain Meets Purpose

When your friends become enemies, when what you thought was valuable becomes literally gone, whether it be money or possessions, positions, whatever it is, you get to a point where you feel like, "I'm alone. I have nothing." Other people may look at you like, "Yeah, but you still have this and you still have that." And you say, "Yeah, this and that is all worthless now." Why? Because the perspective has changed. Now, when a person deals with the pain of being alone, it's much much worse than the pain itself. Whatever the pain may be, whether it be money or be health or be whatever it is, when you feel like your problem is never going to go away, when you feel like there is no salvation, there is no hope, when you get to that abyss called hopelessness, and you now have to decide whether to live with this hopelessness or to give up altogether. There's nothing more painful than that abyss. So you see once I understood that the hand that hit me is also holding is also protecting is also with me I started thanking Hashem for all of yes on one end you're in agonizing pain and sometime to the point where screams come out of your mouth without your control but the second you gain control you say thank you yes something bad happens and you lost this and that and for a moment you're upset you're even want to be angry and sometimes you are angry but the second you collect yourself and you wait hold on a second to that thank you so you see before that transition happened. The ultimate gay wasn't the pain. It was the loneliness. It was the hopelessness. And that's why even though the pain continued and is now still going for 18 years, we don't let that stop us for a second because blesses us every single [Music] second. Don't think for a moment that a kadosh does not hear you crying. Don't think for a moment that a kadoshu is not in the pain with you. Don't think for a moment that those cries, those tears, that blood that was shed was for nothing. All of that is part of the perfect calculations of a cadust. Whether I'm hearing the cry, whether I'm hearing the pain, I'm holding you with. The next question everyone will naturally ask is, "If he hears me cry, then why doesn't seem like he's answering?