Shiur Torah #96 What Religious Jews Dont Know About Secular Jews (New Jersey)

H yes and also to Daniel Ben Debi David Ben and all of great to be in New Jersey it's our first time here doing a lecture been to New Jersey many many times but we have a good reason now to do some spread some KES so today you know I've talked about my personal story several times over the last week each time that I talk about my personal story uh the Chua story you know I always try to make the uh the rest of the lecture not necessarily the same because you know anyone that's watching the lectures will get bored after a while um but the main thing about I think the one of the main struggles in today's world both that's common for both the from world as well as the non-religious world is belief is ASM people have a hard time giving AEM the benefit of the doubt that he's got everything under control whether you're religious or not in order to be in order to really live a fulfilling life you have to have some level of because if you really believe that everything has is in your hands slowly but surely hasm shows us that we're helpless now there is a sages say that the signature of Hashem is emit truth that's a signature this is why anytime people ask well how come we can't change the Torah and make it adapt it to our times you know Moes didn't have a car that's why he didn't drive on Shabbat maybe if if he lived today he would drive on Shabbat all types of things that people try to rationalize uh but once something becomes as it did you know a couple of thousand years ago and all way from 3,300 years ago with Moses that's it it was a stamp it's emit whether it's relevant or not is irrelevant once it becomes it cannot change you could obviously use the Foundation of to adapt to the times because obviously we didn't have electricity a you know 100 years ago but you're still using the same basic Foundation you cannot change something you can't say no this one doesn't count anymore we're going to change it to something else you know back then they had camels today we have cars so we should change can't do that but this word of a also is has the of the three three things that someone needs to live in order for someone to live a fulfilling life they they have to have the the basic foundation and maybe if I could show it to you in the words themselves think it's kind of small but we'll try sometimes it's easier to do visual than it does than it is to um oh no it's too small you're not going to see it um yeah this my small handwriting is not going to work so what's is is for you have to havea you want to have a fulfilling life you want to survive the week with all the difficulties with all the stress with all the problems with all the issues you have to have somea that hem has got it under control you came to this world to be tested you came to this world to pass these tests and grow and obviously whatever testm has giving you he knows you can pass whether you pass it or not it's up to you but he knows you can pass it the second the second part is mitv Hashem didn't give us the Torah just for you know historical purposes he didn't give us the Torah just to study oh very nice M very nice stories very entertaining great thank you very much no he said listen the Torah is something that you have to fulfill and the way you fulfill is with MIT the third part T is to Tor you can't know what the mitv are and you can't even know how to get to without T but now once someone removes amuna from that equation from those three letters what do you have left me and T met dead so yes you could do the mitv and yes you can learn to day and night but if you don't work on your on a regular basis you're the same thing as a robot which is dead nothing it's lifeless destroy the go is like robot yeah the Golem exactly exactly and that's and that's that's that is a problem that we have in the religious world that a lot of people learn a lot of Torah they are giving hem more and more reasons to keep the uh Globe spinning keep the atom spinning keep the world running but no it's okay have a seat have a seat keep the globe spinning keep the atom spinning keep the world running but and but what happens is they get too stuck into the Pim of the and the and this one said this and this one said that and and and it's very good you have this is generally the reason why Hashem allowed us to have a m it allowed us to have a difference of opinion is because he wants us to argue he wants us the debate because with debate you arrive at the truth and with debate is how you create zealousness and fire inside someone that's a t that's dedicating 12 hours a day to learn tah or more listen if you read a book you read a science book 12 hours a day okay after a while you get bored you want to go to the park and you know play with your dog but you learn to for 12 hours you want to go for another 50 hours if you have enough if if you if you can because there's fire in a t but sometimes we get so stuck into the differences and the m and all of these different things that are mentally stimulating that we forget why we're even doing it and when you're seeing people in AET that sometimes you see you know you have a prayer and sometimes it's in the middle of amid sometimes it's the middle of kades sometimes it's the middle of kadosh kados you see them taking out their phone looking at the phone scrolling and it's not they're scrolling the prayer they're scrolling the baseball game or the stock market or whatever emails they want to look at it's a you're in the house of H you're looking at your phone this is giving us a sign we're not connected we don't really believe 100% what we just said we we don't believe we have a saf we have a little bit of a doubt that Hashem is really here because it says when we pray in theet especially have a minan Hashem comes also so if you really believe that Hashem is dead you're going to play with your phone to you know think about if your wife text you or not if your boss is upset at you or if the stock market went up or down you're going to really text hem is over here so it shows we have a little bit of a doubt why do we have a little bit of a doubt because we're not working our muscle in the secular world is a different problem a lot of people believe that they believe but they don't want to do they believe that they have a belief in God that everything is from hasem except everything is from hasem he created the Heaven and the Earth but I still have to work on Shabbat why but he created heaven and the Earth he has money too he has a b he has money don't worry no no no I need to work on Shabbat cuz he didn't give me enough money on the six days yes but he said that if you work six days or in America five days I'll give you panasa for not work because you didn't work on the seventh he's going to give you panasa on on on the sixth days not because you worked six days so there's a very very wide gap between the FR world and the secular world where it's gotten to the point where in a religious world some believe and I think most believe that the non-religious people are not religious because they don't want to be because they don't like God and they don't feel like doing it a reality listen he wants to work seven days a week that's why he works seven days a week he wants to go out with a non-jew that's why he's going out with a non-jew he wants to eat T that's why he's eating T he wants to it's pure desire and I'm here to tell you that coming from that world for most of my life it's 100% false for 99% of the cases there's always a somebody that's crazy that just doesn't want to do it even though he knows but the reality of it is that the problem with the secular world is that they don't know they know some parts of the Torah some don't know anything but they know some parts of the Torah they know somebody named Moses G you know got the Torah they know there was an Abraham there was no they know there was David there's no they know there characters but they don't really know what it says they don't know that God is serious so I went to and St ra is a very holy Rabbi he's mamash amazing we did a lecture there last Sunday somebody I I spoke about him in one of my lectures he's M born in the wrong generation I think one of these very very special people knows the whole Torah it's sitting in his palm of his hand but if you look at him and talk to him he's like you wouldn't even think anything you could mention anything you want by heart anyone by heart to tell you the verse tell you the page number tell you everything in a nicest way in the world unbelievable knowledge like this I think I have to be reborn five times maybe I can get there unbelievable but many of the people that go to most Jews you know that are not 100% from communities are not religious they come to sh couple times a year and secular people tend to like sh it's party time you know you study all night you eat food everybody talks about the Bas that you're going to make there's always one guy or two guys that are preparing the food for everyone it's fun you study all night with the guys not a bad thing but sometimes we forget what we got there you know why we're even there you know when got to mount sa and we're about to receive the tah Hashem told us make sure that the animals don't eat from the mountain and don't touch the mountain like she said don't touch the mountain why don't touch the mountain cuz they want to eat why would they touch why would they care about the mountain because it was food hasm put an enormous amount of flowers and beautiful things that that he covered Mount saai so the animals would eat it so I'm thinking to myself this is all they think about food we're getting the Torah the purpose of the world the only reason why this world exists it's not the Jews it's the Torah why because the Torah was created 974 Generations before the world and if the Jews didn't accept the Torah or the Israelites didn't accept the Torah they wouldn't become Jews if somebody else would have come along and accepted the Torah Shalom they would become the Jews so we know that the purpose of the world is the Torah and all these animals think about is food they don't notice that there's like angels in the sky there's words being printed in the heavens there's Thunder there's lightning there's the angels are coming down and putting a crown on each one of am is amazing things and all they can think about is food this is what distinguishes us from animals but it's our choice and sometimes when you don't know it's not your fault that you don't know up to now it's your fault if you continue your life not knowing the animal is Instinct that's that's what they are that's their they work off of instinct but a human being is not living off of instinct if he's clear-minded and he's healthy does yes of course he has instincts but he has to work with his own logic so sometimes when you come to Bessa two three times a year and you're only thinking about the food it's good way to get you in but to keep you in for the rest of the year we have to tell you the truth and a lot of the people that I spoke to over there m they have no idea whatsoever what hasem said so for example I started telling them about Shabbat how someone violates Shabbat according to is not considered Jewish this is very harsh to people's ears in our generation but it's it's what hasem said I didn't write it I actually saw today something very scary if anyone has if you have the alut in English or in Hebrew in the preface in the beginning of the book they have different a uh excerpts of from different sages I say what is the consequence of violating Shabbat and I forget who the sage was that wrote it and where the source was but he says someone who violate Shabbat is considered a beast that in those days according to the S they would give him a death penalty and they would be doing him a favor it's better that he died and not keep Shabbat you go into the secular world tell tell people this like what do you mean you're advocating murder this is what the kazal said this is what the sages said where did they get it from they got it from God they got it from Mount sa I didn't say it it's not it's not my words so I tell these people like listen you know you have to keep Shabbat you have to keep koser you know different things it's like no I don't know why why it's uh I don't think it says that so you show them sources you open a book you show him sources like no I don't know I've been going to besset for 20 years one of the guys tells me I've been going to besset for 20 years I never heard this stuff so I tell him okay you were here last week he says yes says last week in America we read you remember yes I remember because you read more than once he goes yes I read at least 20 times so do you remember in they had five levels of punishment says yes I remember there was punishments I don't know about five he says I remember how there was punishments said you remember the fifth level of punishments he goes I I remember those punishments you remember that the fifth level of punishments if we don't do what Hashem said what he would do he goes no I don't remember exactly said okay so maybe I could I could refresh your memory do you remember that Hashem said that if we still don't do chuva after the first four punishments and if we still treat him with casualness meaning we pick and choose whatever mitat we want to do Shabbat sometimes kosher sometimes this sometimes pick and choose do you remember that the last part of the punishment he said that you'll have to get you'll get to a hunger that's so bad you'll have to eat your children goes what what do you mean where did it say that goes this happen I said yes happened a bet mikdash the enemy surrounded us for 3 years no food came in no food came out we got the starvation that's what happened hashem's not kidding he says he did he really says that I said yeah here's a pH he goes I don't remember I said I said you know why you don't remember because you don't understand KES you don't understand the holy language most Jews do not understand the holy language you're reading it and you're making sounds you're saying the A and the O and the why and all of these things but you have no idea what it says so yes you can make the sounds but actually understanding what the word say you have no idea this is why I always recommend everyone to read it also in the language they understand if English is your first language it's not a shame it's not embarrassing to read it in English because it's more important for you to understand what it says than to just make sounds if wanted sounds he'd make you into a donkey you need to understand what it says once you understand what the Torah says you don't even have to worry about the sages you don't have to worry about the and and everything else right just by basic understanding of the tanak or even just the five books of Moses basic level understanding with Rashi so you understand even what the basic meaning is you'll know that hm is not kidding and this is the major disparity between the secular world and the religious world is that the religious think that they're doing it because they want to and the secular have no idea what's going on and this is where I found myself so I was born in Israel came to the United States when I was 10 years old had some basic uh biblical studies until the age of 10 but then as soon as we landed in America we joined Public Schools we admired the go we wanted to become like them had earrings ripped jeans played Sports went to besset maybe twice a year because my dad forced me to what city was it uh stat in New York same besset actually same besset we were there originally when it was still just a side apartment they have a very nice beautiful winess today uh initially the RV wasn't there then later on the RV joined about maybe 15 years ago um and uh you know youd go to besset here and there Yip it's about it P they tell us we can't eat bread anymore Pizza fine okay so we'll eat this mat stuff mat with chocolate's very delicious for young kids so that's the way we lived once a while you hear here and there but in general very very limited and little by little this Foundation that your parents worked really hard on giving you slowly but surely disappears little by little you have no interest whatsoever need kosher and as we know from what hasem told us about if you don't eat kosher meaning you became imp purified but the word is missing an Al which means meaning that when someone eats non kosher they become spiritually stupid meaning that they could be the most brilliant mind in architecture and science and math and everything else but when it comes to it's unbearable to them you could tell them something 500 times they won't understand it at least not a normal not like a a normal person that's eating kosher and sometimes even to listen to a is almost unbearable to them like it was for me when I when I first started doing chuva I would go to the sh I would prepare the whole day I was psyched to go to the Shure 5 minutes into it fell asleep next week I got so upset said no this week I'm going to stay up 5 minutes into it sleep again after a few weeks of doing this and struggling I said all the only way I could do it is if I write everything he says that I'm forcing myself to to stay up and that's what I did and little by little you peel off the Kip you peel off this peel that you have on your soul from all the sins you've gathered for so many years so I got into public school Learned was a uh good student at AG 17 I went to Binghamton University uh after the first semester I had a good GPA I had uh I think uh 4.0 GPA or 3.9 GPA and after the first semester I came home and it was a you know I think it was like a month or two Monon break and some Rabbi came to my uh parents' house which they tell me today was actually ra mrai um and uh anyway they convinced my dad to send me to M for the break so I go to m I think it was a few days a week I don't remember how long it was and it was very uh shook me up a little bit decided I'm going to start doing cha I'm going to start keeping Shabbat so when I go back to Bingington University which is comprised of many many Jews but not necessarily everybody's religious I'm going to wear my titit and I'm going to keep Shabbat and I'm going to start eating kosher I went to B University second semester I kept everyone went out on Friday nights I stayed home miserable um and I would listen to shim here and there this lasted I I dropped out of school after that semester because for me college wasn't appropriate even though I was a good student I already knew what I wanted to do and it wasn't being a doctor lawyer or anything that required a decree a degree I dropped out of school I got into a different field initially I went to um Electronics which is what I was doing before College made some money and I was keeping I was keeping some mitv this lasted for about a year a year and a half or so after a year year and a half I stopped learning it wasn't too uh too long before I dropped everything without Tor it's impossible to stay religious at least real religious religious like a robot is many of them hasm does not want robots like we were talking about before if you have which is the T there it a three pieces you need to have in order to connect to hem but if there's just mitv and Tora where it say you know you know what you need to do in Tora so you're doing the mitv but you have no actual real then there's no Al then then you're just met then you're just dead just a robot it's okay for you to play with your phone in the middle of or in the middle of learning you stop your learning or play with the phone anything distracts you from learning you don't really believe anything you say but you're doing it because you're part of a Jewish community and it's just just like the Africans that walk around with underwear in Africa to them it's normal if we showed up over there with our suits they look at us look at these crazy people walking around with this extra clothes and we're looking at them look at these crazy people have no clothes on shame we should give them some of our clothes they look at us as crazy we look at them as crazy same thing with someone that has NOA he goes to besset but really is's crazy why because he doesn't really believe anything he says so work on your belief stop being a robot so without learning you can't have this IM without really really getting digging into things and it's not just the but it's also proofs proofs scientific proofs of hem proofs that you know rational proofs of hem M why did Hashem write this verse why did hasem write this par over here why is this parha connected to the last parha get into it just like you treat your job like a is the number one thing in the world treat Hashem because he is the number one thing in the world so I stopped learning T fell off everything I eventually left that job and I got into Wall Street somebody told me that uh they make a lot of money over there I already knew a little bit about the stock market I started investing some extra money that I had and I made money which of course was beginner's luck uh and actually one of the one of the customers for the they bought a computer for me was a stock broker he gave me a four-letter symbol he says this is how I'm going to make a million dollars this year so I started researching this company and uh I started looking at this company was like a regional bank and I decided I'm going to buy this stock and I made money on it so I got into the stock market in those days 1998 everyone was into the stock market so I start investing some money then somebody tells me to become a stock broker I become a stock broker I work for first place uh for maybe like a month or a month and a half I get fired because I wanted to actually learn about the business instead of just be a robot that wasn't allowed uh and uh so they fired me after about a month then I left I went to work for another place I worked for him for another couple of years made him Millions made me nothing um and then I went to this big firm and after getting screwed around for a few months my so-called partner in this other firm left the firm because of September 11th September 11th happened a lot of Brokers left the business so I told the owner of the office listen I want I don't want any Partners I know I'm new here but I'm very ambitious you see I work harder than everybody else let me uh let me go on my own meaning let me start getting my own clients he's like all right well you have to come up with $4,000 a month to pay the bills said okay I'll come up with the money says you have any money I said absolutely not I have maybe a, two you know $1500 in the bank I don't uh I don't have $4,000 he goes how are you going to pay me I said I have no idea but I'll pay you I work hard so now everyone else in the office was working B you know they were already in the business 15 20 years so everyone was working normal hours 9 to5 so I figured I can't catch up to their experience anytime soon so what could I do I'll work double what they work day work 9 to5 I worked from 8:00 to 12:00 so I started the day I got up at you know 4:30 5:00 in the morning got dressed noine at this point got on the bus 45 minutes later I'm at the office read the newspaper knew what was going on in the market 8:00 in the morning sharp started calling everyone I can to start start getting investors at the worst possible Market environment everything was going down on a daily basis the market was crashing you know it was already crashing in 2000 but after September 11th it really took a dive and I'm trying to get investors now the good thing about being new is that you have no clue so you don't even know you're in trouble you're just hopeful you're just excited that you have an opportunity to work so I'm working and I'm getting investors here and now I'm getting a few guys to invest I'm investing in a down Market which is by the way the only time to invest anyone that wants to invest and make real money they have to invest in a down Market not an up market up Market means the money already went up people already made the real money there's no more real money to be made there's more risk than uh than there is reward in a down Market when everyone's running away that's the time where you take the cash and that's when you invest not that I'm giving anyone investment advice but if you're ever going to be in the market anyway you should do that whether it's real estate market or stock market or any other Market you have to buy when everyone's selling and sell when everyone else is buying if everyone's buying means things are too expensive if everyone's selling it means things are getting cheap and you don't necessarily need to be a hero and spot the bottom yeah something seems cheap enough and you have patience to wait a few years you'll be fine no one catches the bottom the only way to know the bottom is after you missed it [Music] so now I'm getting investors first 6 months are very very difficult because I'm making no money whatsoever and the only money I'm making is going to this boss to this owner of this Branch but after about six you know so during these six months I'm struggling financially every little penny that I have is gone I start getting a second job on the weekends to make the extra money to pay the rent cuz I'm already living on my own I didn't you know after college I didn't go back to my parents house I got my own apartment uh and um but I got to a point where I had to borrow a dollar from this guy Dimitri every day so I could buy a donut and coffee that was my food for the day and every day I would sneak on the bus pretend that my metro card is in my bag you know I would put a metro card in there with no money and tell the guy okay listen I have to uh get the other Metro cards in the back so let me not hold up the line let me just go in and sit down I'll come back with this metro card and I go to my seat and fall asleep and pray that he doesn't kick me off the bus and a few times he kicked me off yeah we deserve a little bit of embarrassment in life B so anyway so this was the first six months so poverty I know I know it pretty well living off of a donut and coffee every day not easy I think the homeless guy was giving me some food at some point it's tough but then after 6 months I finally got some of these investors to start sending some more money and I made my first $5,000 so it's to me it was all the money in the world like wow I could eat real food now I went and bought myself a real suit it's great I think it was like $300 was like the greatest suit in the world green I don't know why I picked green but green suit so anyway but now I started getting these clients and now every month keeps going higher 5,000 become seven and then 10 and 11 and then this big investment that I was investing in this whole time in November of 2002 about a year after I started there it works out the stock goes up drastically and I sell it and I sell it for all of my investors I make $117,000 in a month to me I was a millionaire I break a uh you know the office record no one's ever made that kind of money in one month and it's Friday and after I finished all of my commissions and all of the clients and made all the sales I go back on the phone and start getting go back to get some more clients so one of the guys this guy Michael in the office asked me was what are you doing why don't you go and party like for what he said you just made a lot of money all of us are envying you that you made all this money I said yeah but Monday because what Monday goes Monday starts a new month have to work like to me celebrating the money was not even part of the equation to me this was supposed to happen this is why it worked I worked to make money it it worked great so I have to continue working for the next project this mentality that people have that you know you're supposed to have this you know celebration every time you win I don't know it just wasn't part of my mentality maybe I should have maybe I shouldn't have but the point is is that to me I was doing what I was supposed to I was making phone calls but then the next month was another big month made another $60,000 then the next month made $180,000 and the money kept flowing in by the time I was 23 I made my first million dollars and then I decided to leave the firm and start my own company which is a natural thing for a Jewish person to do we don't like to work for anybody especially if we have some money so so anyway start my own company started hiring a bunch of people some guys to make calls for me to do analysis for me secretaries this that and the money kept flowing in uh you know bad month would be $150 $200,000 good months would be much higher um and all this time I'm justifying my life as far as with Hashem because I believed in God by donating money and helping anyone who needed money somebody needed money they'd come to me generally I wouldn't really ask him what the problem is I just you know I wouldn't go into the whole details sometimes yes sometimes no I usually get to a point where just asking how much does it cost they tell me you know how much it cost I just write in the check and it'd go away and I'd go back to making money because for me to listen to a 2hour story was not exactly the uh ideal way to spend my time so they tell them okay I need $5,000 I give you $5,000 go let me go back my was very very generous with my money gave a lot of money to family to friends employees and anyone anybody and anyone that wanted it or needed it and some of the people that were very common receivers of the money were religious people every week there was at least two or three religious people some cases rabbis that would come to my office and ask for donations and also sometimes give us T there some you know two minute T sometimes they'd convince some of the guys to doine and I had an open door policy anytime you want to come come and they came for years I had the office for about 15 years they came throughout all of that time at least two or three times a week and as much as I'm upset at those very same people today they're actually part of the reason why I give lectures why am I upset at them because let's just do the simple math if let's say they came for 10 years not 15 years just use a round number of 10 instead of coming three times a week they came once a week so that means that minimum 52 times a year over 10 years times so someone had 520 tries 520 opportunities to tell me to keep Shabbat to tell me to stop being a to tell me anything that would change my life anything other than give me or do anything anything lifechanging hey by the way you're married to a non- Jud this is a problem maybe some point I understand you don't know me in the beginning I got it first 10 times let's just give it 50 times took you a year to get to know me two years to get to know me 100 tries you can't tell me that into marriage is bad you can't tell me that the fact that I go to casinos on the weekends is not a good thing I understand two years we get to get to know each when is the strategy supposed to work 520 times it still didn't work when is it supposed to work and this is again one of the major issues between religious and non-religious when the religious think that the non-religious world is not keeping because they don't want to they'll continue being politically correct and not tell you they're not going to tell you listen by the way according to uh everything that God said you have a serious problem well what kind of problem oh when you finish this world you're going to a really bad place for how long forever what do you mean I can't fix it yeah here you can fix it what about when I get there can't fix it over there cuz why I can't negotiate cuz try to negotiate with the IRS if you could if you could convince them you convince him too can't convince anybody can't work out a deal with hem here is your time can't do cha once you go up there can't do chuva after the mashia shows up tomorrow no more chuva no more conversions that's it this is your chance so if it really was more than 520 times a lot more than 520 times but even if it was just 520 times and you still don't tell me and this is all because of this poison we have in our our society today called political correctness we don't want to hurt people's feelings so we tell people listen don't have a surgery because it's going to hurt okay but if I don't have the surgery I'm going to die yes but at least you're not going to be in pain as ludicrous as it sounds that's what political correctness is we don't want to hurt people's feelings it's nonsense you have to tell people the truth once you tell me the truth I'll decide for myself like an adult maybe I still want to be aat even though I know maybe I still want to eat pig even though I know maybe I still want to do everything that I'm doing even though but at least it's an educated decision once you don't tell me then you've made the decision for me and you make the decision for me it's not fair because maybe your decision for me it's not the same decision I would make it's at least a 50/50 shot that I'm going to make the right decision can't tell me it's guaranteed I'm not going to listen like a lot of people say no K says that if if you know that someone is not going to listen then it's better not to tell them because then it turns their shog into maid turns their accidental sin into intentional sin this is a complete misunderstanding of they're not talking about the very basics of of Judaism when they said if you don't tell somebody and you know they're not going to listen they didn't tell them don't tell somebody it's a Shabbat it's you know nothing or it's okay no they said listen if you if the guy has a bad attitude and he's in the middle of his anger you don't have to tell him at that moment listen it's not good to be angry Hashem is not going to accept your prayers he's not going to be in the same room as you if you're angry it's the worst uh um character trait to have you can't tell him at that point because he's not going to listen to you that's what they meant that's a mid it's notat that is eternal G for itat is not like a oh listen AEM slaps you a couple times and everything's okay he's not kidding wasting seed people don't have idea of how bad it is not a clue not a clue how do I know they don't have a clue because the only reason I came to New York was this couple of sikim asked me to come to New York because they saw a lecture that I did about wasting seed now how come they saw my lecture why do they get to my lecture because if you look really really really hard you spend the next 3 days looking that's all you do for 24 hours a day that's all you do look cuz this is what I did for a lecture in English about wasting seed which is one of the worst possible sins a Jew can make and a a is also not allowed to waste seed look for a lecture non-stop you'll only find three in English in Hebrew you'll find plenty Rabbi Daniel AER makes plenty of them I think he talks about it more than anybody else but it's in Hebrew in English there's only three total before last week's Shure total time of all three lectures approximately an hour and 25 minutes 55 minutes is my lecture 18 minutes a uh Raba and then the rest is RAB mrai he actually made a very very extensive lecture about it but it's not in uh public hands meaning you can get access to it but not in YouTube bottom line is no one wants to talk about other than the three people I just mentioned in English why it's not politically correct it's a very intimate issue it's not exactly uh coffee table language okay but yeah but you realize that this generation this is one of their disasters you realize this Hashem destroyed the entire world because of the sin Noah's flood know anyone's heard of Noah that was the reason that was the reason wasting seed no one wants to talk about it no one cares so they asked me to come here specifically to do a about that so on Thursday night we did a three hour lecture about it even more sources and more information than the first 5 minutes we did in uh Florida both physical uh both scientific and spiritual sources and there was a lot of disruptions from Satan the Satan did not want this Shor to come online I had to use three different cameras to make this year that's why it's not posted yet this camera that you're seeing behind you the sound after five minutes stopped working so this mic you see the blue light shut off after 5 minutes I didn't notice it until an hour into it but at the same time because I knew this this camera always gives me problems with you know this just Satan likes my shes apparently and he likes to interfere with my cameras so I always have a secondary camera what do I have my iPad I usually have my iPad in front of me that records me also but I know I'm not I didn't know what I was going to talk about tonight so I didn't put the iPad I'm like ah maybe he's going to leave me alone after last week's year so I had the iPad on the iPad died after two hours died battery died the camera died after about 2 and 1 half hours so the sound didn't work for the first hour so at least we have the sound from the iPad but we have to change we have to connect it the camera died even though it had 6 hours worth of battery 6 hours worth of battery died after 2 and a half hours and then the last half hour I recorded for my iPhone so now when I got home I have videos six different videos that we have to put together to somehow make this three- hour sh today we worked on it I think later tonight we're going to publish it everyone needs to watch it obviously Satan doesn't want this lecture out there's a reason why no one talks about this topic but at the same token we have to we have to talk about the things that are affecting us if I keep telling you listen let's talk about okay schom you have 50,000 Lex about you don't need once in a while we talk about once in a while you want to learn the of I don't know Hanukah and sukot and yum kipur Hashem didn't bring me to the world to tell you about this stuff there's plenty of much much smarter people that can teach you about it I have never been politically correct this is why put me to the rest of the tun that I'm about to tell you so now I'm on Wall Street I start making money a lot of it I donate some money to bnet I get a I buy a seph t we have a whole seph T written from scratch in Jerusalem my mom told me when I was 16 years old that it's the biggest Mitzvah in Judaism apparently so I said okay when I have money I'll write the seph T so had the SE was very expensive but at that time wasn't written most beautiful thing I've ever seen actually saw it today again still beautiful still amazing even when I looked at it today I said you know what it's probably the only reason hasem actually gave me a second chance this mitah that for seph yeah giving donations to you know beess is good giving donation to somebody that's poor is good to it's different world different way you compare there's you know there two you know when you give you have to look at it like an investment we just talked about the stock market moments ago right so when you invest in a stock market if you have some money to invest in a stock market or in real estate or in a business what are you going to invest in somebody something that you think has the most amount of potential same thing you have to look at with the real money you're going to invest in now when you invest in Tora meaning in someone that's fulfilling the Torah someone that's learning Tor all day you need to know that according to our sages each letter that you read in the Torah each letter one letter not a whole word not a whole sentence each letter is considered a Mitzvah why because according to our sages AEM put himself in a Torah meaning that each one of the Holy letters the 22 letters of the Hebrew alphabet is actually his name each letter is his name Alf is his name bet is his name each one of the letters is one of his names so when you read it not you read in the newspaper read in the Tor you're reading aem's name it's aah someone is learning to each time each second they read a letter another letter another letter another letter they make aah so the did a analysis he said the average can read 60,000 letters every hour 60,000 letters if he studies for 10 hours that's 600,000 MIT someone that's helping this someone that's helping this person that's dedicating his life to tah is not just sharing in those mitv doesn't go 300,000 300,000 because mitv like fire just like if I took if I wanted to transfer fire like we did in the from candle to Candle when I move the fire from one candle to the candle that doesn't have any fire after I lit the second fire the first candle stayed the same the fire didn't go down same thing with a Mitzvah so that means he got 600,000 mitv and I got 600,000 mitv now go try to get 600,000 mitv in another way okay you did one Mitzvah you did on food another mitzvah you left the bathroom another Mitzvah prayer another few mitzvot let's say you got 150 a day let just say you know what you're a bigad 2,000 for the day you're still missing th000 why because you go into the business world you can't study so you're still missing 5 198,000 mitv meaning that your entire year maybe you'll catch up to one of his days so it's worth it to invest now there's only one that according to the sages is even more Pro uh profitable could be more profitable not guaranteed but could be more profitable depending on the success of it which is kiru when you invest into kiru you inherit in essence the mitzvot of every single person that does a Mitzvah as a result of it so for example you have a disc I brought you some discs for anybody that wants to take them for themselves or to give them out each disc cost $1 do I don't charge you everything is free here but anyone that wants that sponsor the CDs that we have here these precious Souls sponsored the CDs I think about it they give you a CD each CD has 30 hours of Torah on it Torah lectures some short 15minute clips and some two-hour lectures you give it to somebody they do cha every single mitvah they ever do goes to the person that paid for that CD forever now that person is going to get married one day he's going to convince his wife to do they're going to have kids kids are going to become each one of them is going to do 600,000 mitv a day all of that goes for $1 all that goes into the account so if the Kyu personality is successful has things that are I and get people to wake up it's a big investment for very little that's why when I told one of my students in Australia that were coming out with our first CDs he was so excited that he made me excited about it like I can't miss this opportunity he sends me $1,000 right away he's like get CDs out there right now and I'll get you some more there's someone that knows what it means most people don't know so I thought that I was buying my way into g with my few donations the problem is that it says says donations youra is going to save you from death didn't say it's going to get you to ganeden so what does it mean save you from death meaning that all the sins that we're making Hashem is going to give us some more time to do Chua the M That was supposed to get for violating Shabbat because according to hm in says m i Shabbat M you gave okay I'm going to give you another Shabbat you give M I'm going to give you another Shabbat eventually you're going to run out eventually you're going to run out of time but that is buying you more time to do chv it's not buying you g you show up over there with no Shabbat all that's the in the world is not going to help you you could be Bill Gates gave all of his money to is still not going to help you you still have to make you still have to collect your own your own obligation you can't just give the obligation to others so yes you can buy and and help and do good things but if you're not fulfilling your own purpose you have yourself a problem so this was the reason why I got very upset once I learned that this the is not helping me it's buying me me more time but eventually I have to pay the bill so when rabbis didn't want to tell me and the people that knew didn't want to tell me I even had one of my employees was a rabbi he was a rabbi he was a certified Rabbi and he never told me the only excuse I can give all of them only CU I can give all of them is they figured that I don't want to do it not that I don't know but I'm telling I didn't know I knew what it was I didn't know the significance like most Jews know that there is something called Shabbat but they don't know that the punishment for not keeping it or for kosher or for all these other things so when no one wanted to tell me eventually hasem had to now when Hashem tells you it's a little different when Hashem tells you it hurts so in the beginning after 10 years in a row or almost 10 years of being in the business and things working things stopped working started having some issues company business this that but I was still making a fortune in May of 2006 even though what two of my deals didn't work out we still had to get out of them and by getting out of them we made some money for clients still okay my fee 1.6 million ion in one month printing money we're making money a few years ago and now we're printing it pretty much so more than enough money to go around we no longer look at Price tags convenience is the only thing we look for I go on vacation play some poker tournaments with some of the best players in the world and thinking that I'm living life all this time I'm pretty miserable inside but I'm trying to fulfill this time e either with work or with things that are supposed to be fun real happiness I don't have then and as AEM starts giving me some of these issues I realized that um I have to make certain changes I fig you know what let me start taking care of my health so in November of 2006 just a few months after I made my the most amount of money I ever made in uh you know in a short period of time it's the best year I had in my career I decide to have an elective surgery to fix something that was bothering me once a year once twice a year went to the doctor he said listen it's a common problem two out of three people have it the surgery is an elective surgery you come in in the morning a couple of hours you leave you're a little bit uncomfortable for a couple of days that's it no big deal I said okay no problem I'll schedule the surgery for next week I go in the next week I go into this simple surgery and I wake up a different person the person that went in was very rich decent as far as intellect very very proud giving and fairly healthy person that came out can't stop screaming in pain ever the entire body changed from my neck all the way to the bottom of my feet was hurting the type of pain if you could imagine which hopefully you can't like if you take a knife and you start cutting somebody open over and over again that pain every everywh eventually the amount of morphine they gave me was the most amount of morphine legally allowed to give a human being they said that most people would die with half of it eventually calmed me down and they sent me home I went home ate a sandwich went to sleep woke up 45 minutes later only this time I was screaming worse than I did the first time but this time the screaming didn't stop for 62 days and for 62 days the most amount of consecutive sleep that I can get is about 15 minutes I wake up with pain the pain of someone stabbing me and I'm getting electrocuted from the knife at the same time my body starts failing my organs start failing I start bleeding from different parts of my body that have nothing to do with the surgery I urinate blood blood comes you know comes out of my eyes infections out of my ears all types of Z is what we call it in Hebrew all types of disasters practically coming out of all all parts of my body and it gets to a point where everyone thinks that I'm probably going to die just a very hor horrible horrific strange death Hashem has mercy on me after those two months and pain starts subsiding where instead of taking 50 to 60 pain killers per day just to live now I'm only taking about 20 which is still completely out of this world but to me it was almost like guned in I get a second chance I start going back to the office even though I can't really do much cuz I'm in pain all the time and I walk very very slow CU to move was very difficult so for example to walk from here to the end of the room would take me somewhere in an neighbor of 25 minutes or so where for a normal person will take about five to six seconds and every single step I say ow and little by little I start going back to my life but still no Chua I think I have a second chance at life maybe I'll donate some money maybe I'll do a few more times but real chuva it's not in the cards anytime that I feel good I'm going to go have fun go on vacation go play some poker that was my life so Hashem said oh you didn't get it the first time okay so let me send you a second message 9 months later I get a pain in my the back of my leg I thought I pulled the muscle by the next day I can't move I go to the Intensive Care Unit they cut me open they say that if you wouldn't have come within the next couple of hours it probably the infection you have inside your body would have blown up got into your blood system and you would have died see you got here right in time not that it had anything to do with me I just didn't want to miss any work but my leg was hurting too much and uh now I go into this horrific surgery and I'm in the Intensive Care Unit next to the people that got shot and are pretty much dying for the next two weeks and I have to have an IV of morphine 24 hours a day because the one wonderful nurses and doctors have to follow procedure and they have to keep reopening this thing every few hours fun leave this leave the hospital eventually go back home no chba go back to my life write some articles get some press on the business 3 months later another infection different area and Intensive Care Unit surgery Intensive Care Unit same balagan few weeks surgeries painkillers no CH when hasem wrote stubber Nation he thought about me but it's not that I'm not doing chuva because I don't think it's good I'm not doing CH CU I don't think it's relevant I'm not thinking this is from Hashem I'm thinking this is just Misfortune bad luck this too shall pass I was a very very optimistic person never thought that this is going to continue for the next seven years all the way to the point that I went up went to over 50 different doctors in all types of Medicine all types of practices holistic medicine traditional medicine countless surgeries got to a point where I became a subject in an experiment where they uh there was this something called ozone therapy where they inject into your IV ozone and thinking that they're going to purify your body it's actually feels like chemotherapy you feel like you're dying after the the uh the injection it's horrific horrific feeling and it didn't do anything for me maybe it works for other people for me it didn't work it actually made me feel worse but I became part of a a study started taking steroids like the a athletes do which insurance didn't cover and my money as soon as it came in was running out even faster oh and also those friends that I had all those friends that you inherit when you have money they also left and they usually took some something with them and this continued for seven years and when Hashem wants to bring you down to get you to wake up he has his ways says that the pride of man will be his downfall the fact that I thought it was happen stance it was coincidence it was just bad luck was actually another reason for Hashem to give me even more of a difficult delivery a difficult chuv because he said in last week's if you didn't do chuva and you still treated me with casualness meaning this is two separate parts if you didn't do chuva after all the punishment that I gave you that's one level but you still treated me with casualness and you think that things are happen stance and their coincidence and luck it's a different level of punishment it's two separate parts and each one of the five levels starts with that verse if you still didn't do chuva and you treated me by you went with me which means you treated me with casualness which also connects to wasting seed but that's a different she because kry also means uh being T from uh from wasting seed so continuing this battle the money is being lost and the funny thing is is that even the things that are supposed to work stop working so for example because I was wealthy and you know had all this money all these different people would sell me stuff so I had this disability insurance company come to my office one day before all this happened they said listen you're making all this money what if something happens I'm like something happens I'm in my 20s what could possibly happen happened I'm laughing at the guy go listen what if something happens listen what's uh you know what's a few th000 a month for you it's not really a big deal said no it's not what do you want for me and it says okay you buy this policy and this insurance company if something happens we'll pay you $35,000 a month for life for this and then I think another $100,000 a month for your business said okay whatever it's a few thousand no problem okay fine sign it so now something happened big insurance company Big Bill for a few years the two are supposed to match so after finally things started coming down I was able to like you know comprehend life I called the insurance company filed a claim they investigated the matter for six months 6 months worth of paperwork tax returns proofs medical documents Witnesses my own doctor talked to them a after 6 months worth of Investigation They concluded to deny me under what cause what happened to you is impossible it does not fit any classification of something that could happen to somebody and we don't believe it like yeah but you have proof you have medical proof I have countless hospital stays I have this I have that like yeah we don't know what what that is if you want you can sue us actually said if you want you can sue us now good luck suing an insurance company just so you know I was actually in an insurance business a little bit don't waste your time insur uh suing an insurance companies unless it's the death benefit because that's the only one you guaranteed to win everything else you're guaranteed to lose and the reason why is because they'll outspend you part of an insurance company is doing insurance but a bigger part of it is lawyers which look for every single reason in the world to deny claims insurance company's job is not to pay claims it's to collect claims it's to collect premiums and reject claims but they have to reject it legally so there's lawyers and lawyers and lawyers and lawyers that work for them that look for reasons to reject claims whether it's health benefits or other types of car benefit anything that you need so for example most people that have a flood in their house if they tell the insurance company that a flood if they even use that word and they don't have some that word in their insurance policy they're not going to cover it oh you said you had a flood yeah but it wasn't a flood the guy actually said it was something else like yeah but you used flood that's it we're denying it yeah but half my house is ruined it's like okay was a flood it's not in the policy flood they'll use anything they can to reject you a horrendous business it's heartless so now I didn't really care that much that they denied me because I already had plenty of money I didn't necessarily need money I didn't think that later on I would lose everything I just figured okay whatever okay so I thought this stupid insurance policy is going to give me uh you know a little over $100,000 a month no it's not giving me anything fine whatever I'll make my money back I didn't think that the next 7year Journey was ahead of me so little by little I'm losing more and more money little by little my health is deteriorating more and more more things are happening eventually my legs swell up to the point where I can't walk I have to use a cane um in different hospitals and I get to a point where I realize that there's no cure for what I have and God bless my mom that cried over me all the time her and my wife uh were really the two reasons of why I stayed around cuz you know you start getting to a point where you don't really want to stay in this world when you're in so much pain and um my mom would every time I would talk to her she would bless me so I got so frustrated one time I told her IMA please stop giving me blessings God hates me and that's that's really what I believed how could something so bad happen to someone that did so many what I thought were good things I gave money to this one I gave money to that one money money money money I figured that's my job in this world give people money I have no I never cared for money I like making it but as far as having a value for money I think it's completely worthless so for me giving money was very easy you need money I have it g take it it's not it's not this was not my tun in this life people have hard time with money it's hard for me to understand it because I don't understand that that desire I like making cuz I was very competitive but as far as how people like worship it I don't get it it's hard for me to understand that but just like I can't understand other things or they can understand why I'm even doing this the point is that for me giving it away is no you need it I have it fine like usually that I had this thing that I would do and I still do it now that anytime somebody would come up to me and they would need money like for example like a homeless person I would just take whatever money I had in my pocket and the first bill that would come out I would give it to them whether it was a dollar bill a $100 bill a $20 bill it didn't matter if it was the only Bill that's what they would get why because if that's what came out that's what hasm wants to give them giving was never a problem so I fig but I figured that was my obligation in this world and I'm here to tell you that's the only reason I got more time if my time ended I would be in trouble just brought me more time so then after being very very anty everything I became very very desperate and somebody told me about this Tora that I should go to and I said okay fine no problem uh let me go to this sh and that's the one I told you about that I would go there and fall asleep after 5 minutes so I tried learning a little bit here and there I didn't do chuva yet I just started learning maybe you know use my mind for something else other than business maybe something spiritual started doingin here and there but nothing nothing changed really and the health deteriorated again cuz I would have breaks of a few months where I would like feel like almost like a human being for a few months and then things would deteriorate really really bad so during one of those breaks I started going to the isum and then things deteriorated really bad and it got to a point the last time I got to it it got to a point where I said okay that's it this is it I can't take it anymore I look at my wife and I say this poor woman she's St stuck with me I got to get you know this young girl she's stuck with this mein I feel bad for her already and I got to my point of just I couldn't take it anymore and Hashem tells you you know he's going to give you a test but each test it's the one that you can pass I got to the point where I couldn't pass this test anymore and that's when my first miracle big miracle happened my mom one day calls you know she sees me this way and uh my health deteriorated my spirit is down very you know I'm really really depressed it's very difficult to be around me because I'm in a lot of pain you know imagine someone sitting in front of you you're had trying to have dinner and all of a sudden the person just starts screaming at the top of their lungs for the next two minutes because he feels like someone's electrocuting him it's very very disturbing so I couldn't deal with it anymore and my mom has this little phone book that she has these rabbis that she has their phone number she starts calling everyone all over the world wherever she can find all these phone number she keeps calling these rabbis looking for a blessing for her dying son almost two hours worth of calls no one answers the phone eventually she calls a uh number in Israel and a woman answers the phone and she asks my mom asks for a certain Rabbi and says I'm sorry it's the wrong phone number in Hebrew after you tried for two hours desperately to reach a rabbi and someone says you finally reach the soul that actually answered the phone and you know and it's the wrong phone number what do you do start crying she she praks down to this strange lady on the other side of the phone andem makes the miracle and the voice on the other side of the phone says dois which is my mother's name who are you my mom's shocked how do you know my name she goes I'm Pina your niece mom says well how did I how did I reach you I don't even have your phone number we've never spoken on the phone my mom dialed the wrong phone number in a different country and not only reached the a relative even though they've never spoken on the phone before but she also we happen to find out later on she also reached the only person that can help her so Pina was her name or is her name and uh she says why are you crying she tells them the whole sa story my son is dying suffering yes everyone already heard but we didn't know he this bad say yes I need to find a rabbi it's going to bless him and she say okay so why don't you talk to my brother ifim frim she goes you talk to me goes yeah he said big and he's also close to RAB lives a couple of buildings away from him if anything connected to the r because he would talk to me of course you would talk to you're the ant from America you know you're the ant from America everyone of course everyone knows you so she calls ra ra is an a like a sadik that he is but he calls her back now I didn't know that a frme existed when I left America he was still a baby he's younger than I am and we never talked I never know he existed apparently he knew I existed but still we didn't talk and uh so she tells him my story and uh FR with his wisdom asks does he speak Hebrew and she says yeah yeah he speaks a little Hebrew all so can I call him can I can I talk to him myself he says no he he won't talk to you he won't talk to us even barely talks to the family and at that very moment that she says he won't talk to you I or whatever rational reason you can come up with but it's really not rational I decided to call my mom for the first time in a very very long time I saw her every month or two even though they were only a half hour away from my house I just stopped visiting but I would never call but that day I decided to call my mom at the very moment she's on the other line telling FR he won't talk to you and I hear my mom I hear my mom crying on the other line and uh I hear my mom crying on the other line and I asked her IMA why are you crying what's wrong what's what's what's what's happened she say please talk to him talk to him like who F like who's a f why why is he making you cry this a f he goes no no he can help you he can help you just please thank you D he could uh he could help you he can help you and I said okay just stop crying he can call me whoever want you want to call me just tell him to call me I'll answer the phone just stop crying it's unbearable for a child to hear his mom cry so if FR calls me and um he say a couple of words and he says you want a story you like stories I said yeah he goes you ever hear of the story of Judah and Tamar and I said no never heard of the story of Judah and Tamar he tells me the story of Judah and Tamar with some Secrets part of the Torah now later on years I mean not even just later on like a few months or even uh years later when I started learning I finally realized how smart he really is he could have picked any number of stories a knows a lot of stories knows a lot of he's one of these people that's could be one of very very special Soul big he was a genius since he was a kid finished you know the shot four times before he was 20 already published six books before he was 25 working on 40 different books special special type of wisdom not not something normal and his unreal lives 100% on amuna Miracles every day is normal for him if to see split for him I wouldn't be surprised but it's a special person but if you look at him you talk to him as normal as can be you wouldn't think he's anything special so he tells me Judah and Tamal and I'm in love with this story ever since then I've always loved the story of Judah and Tamar and the Tora why did theem made the Messiah come from there it's to fool the yet that's knows that once the mashia comes hasem promised to slaughter the Satan so the Satan is always trying to interfere with the mashiah coming so that's why hasem made it happen in a such a weird way where Judah would be would sleep with what he thought was a harlot which later on we find out is aad but that wasn't the real reason of why he told me the story why did he tell me the story because in the tractate a it's one of the places they use the story of Judah and Tamar as one of the sources and one of the places of how we know that intermarriage has been forbidden since the creation it was already taught in the Yeshiva of Shem one of the sons of Noah how do we know how do they use the story of Judah and Tamar and thear they say Judah was a sadik it's not a rash but how did he justify burning his daughter-in-law why burn her says because if his two sons already died and if she got pregnant the only way for her to get pregnant not thinking that it's him is if she was with one of the go and if she was one of the go and that time death penalty on the spot this is one of the sources I have no idea this whole thing I only find this out later on many many years later that's his wisdom so he tells me the story of Judah and Tamar I like the story I start asking him questions questions I've always had show me dinosaurs in in Torah I know there's dinosaur bones I've asked three different rabbis each Rabbi gave me a different answer one guy said there's no there's no dinosaurs another guy says it's called another guy said it's Le I said no one knows what they're talking about cuz they all gave me three different answers how could it be so I ask him questions and he now only gives me answers but he gives me answers with a source and a page number and a place on the spot so like God this is pretty cool okay maybe he already knew this question so I ask him another question he gives me another answer Place source and now each time I ask him a question he makes me feel good about the question so I ask him a question he says oh yeah what a great question you know so and so this sadik so and so asked the same question 8 50 years ago on this page at this time sh of course you asked the same question as me so I ask another question goes oh what a great question goes you know the same question was asked by this Sage at that time 32 12 years ago and he gives me the page number and this one and I'm like how does he know this so I start asking him business questions I'm like God he's not going to know business this is a good question SCH answered this question on this verse at that place at this time like this unbelievable so I ask him all types of questions we talk for about an hour and 40 minutes amazing I thought I was smart but this guy's in a different world the next uh week he calls me Thursday 4:00 we speak for three hours same type of conversation I ask questions he gives me answers and he gives me some stories in between the next week we talk for 5 hours Thursday 4:00 5 hours worth of Torah questions and answers the next week 4:00 7h hour conversations questions and answers and this continues every Thursday at 4:00 an average call of about 7 hours for until today but for the next n months it was pure questions and answers every question that I could ever come up with I would ask him and I would actually get ready with questions and I'd finally get answers and anyone that never had questions and you actually finally get answers like real answers not like an opinion answer but a real answer like this is what God Said and he showed it to you that it was written before you even thought that there was a question you already provided you an answer it's like having a cure before you knew you had a disease it's a high it's it's invigorating and even though my world around me is completely disintegrating the money is disappearing the friends are turning into enemies health is deteriorating it stops mattering it doesn't matter anymore it just okay it's annoying at times it's really bad but when the Call Comes when Thursday 4:00 comes the world stops everyone knows don't bother me don't knock on my office don't call me don't do anything I will not answer Thursday 4:00 it's me and RAB fr the whole world stops on Thursday and that became like my Shabbat so after all answering all these questions and you know little by little he started you know said listen you have to start studying on your own too so I said yeah I'm studying a little bit uh you know uh here and there he goes no no you have to start studying every day I said every day really every day he goes yeah yeah every day he said how much every day like study 15 minutes a day said but I'm already studying with you 7 hours so what if we just study for 8 hours instead of seven and that's it I he goes no no no I rather you study 15 minutes a day every day even if you have to replace the entire seven hours I said why he said it's the same thing like eating if I told you listen don't eat for six days a week but one day eat for 24 hours how long you going to survive I said not even a week said exactly your soul has to eat every day starve it the whole week yes it's fun to learn together for seven hours but you're not going to get you're not going to progress this way so now I started studying and I get into it so 15 minutes all of a sudden became an hour and two hours and 3 hours and so on then I find out as I start learning one day you know he uh calls me he's like listen I have to tell you this K I said well what's K he goes I read it in the zor you know he always wanted to give me like bad news in a interesting way cuz he has everyone has their way of being a being a you know giving you a rebuke giving you advice that's not exactly uh solicited but something that you need to hear his way was with his wisdom like listen I read in aor that R May says that someone that's married to non-jew will lose all of his money his health and so on and so forth and a few other things and I said what no he doesn't know what he's talking about I don't even know who be about this all I know is that my mom kept mentioning his name every time she prayed you know there's a prayer that you say the god of answer me she always said RAB I'm like it's some guy that my mom mentions well I know so he tells me that it says says this and I'm like now he doesn't know what he's talking about this woman that I'm with she's the greatest thing I ever have yes he's not Jewish but I can't force her to be Jewish I'm not I'm barely Jewish you're going to force her to do something I'm I'm not doing and he probably wasn't thinking about me when he wrote that he doesn't know what he's talking about and I argue with him l do I know that this is not really just an AAR this is pretty much an entire tah but he wanted to give it to me in a interesting way so then I start learning about it and I start seeing okay yes this is uh this is obviously a problem now the problem with intermarriage is that if you have someone special you don't want to lose them but at the same token you can't keep things the same now every time I learned I would teach her everything I'm I'm learning and the funny thing is that even before came along for some reason of my wife is a sadika she was always a sadika she always wanted me to be a religious Jew she bought me a tanak maybe 10 years before that you know said why don't you learn and she uh would tell me to stay home on holidays I'm like why what am I going to do at home by myself she goes no I'll manage the office you stay home go learn some Torah like why what am I going to learn Torah for I learn it when you know when I'm old and retired she always wanted to be religious so every time I would learn something from everything I would learn I would go over with her and we both enjoy it but she would was born Christian and like many many Christians today by the way many of them don't actually believe in a new testament many of them end up creating their own religion why because anyone with a little bit of sense knows that it's allot it's all nonsense first they tell you that the guy is born out of some you know just appears because the father went away and never committed relations with the mother and somehow when the guy came back the woman is pregnant and she says that God made her pregnant now I don't know about you but that kind of seems a little suspicious to me number one there's no witnesses number two who else she going to say did it because if you tell him that somebody else did it he's going to kill you second thing is if God really wanted something like that to happen why you you weren't anything special before and two and three why didn't he do something like Mount siai he gave us the Torah the whole world knew about it and then as you keep moving on to the story and say wait a minute no no he's not God he's the Messiah what do you mean is Messiah is he God or is he the Messiah God is not the Messiah it's not the same thing and then they tell you that no he died wait God died how who killed him the whole thing is doesn't make any sense it was stupid from the be from the beginning so I would always actually throughout our relationship even before we became religious I would make fun of it I would call it the remix I'm like oh let she would say something and I would say oh W that's probably from the remix cuz I'm like yeah you're you guys use our Torah as number one and you guys have like a remix you started your own thing using our stuff so we'd make fun of it you know jab at each other it was it was funny but at the same token what happens with a lot of Christians is that they know the story itself doesn't make any sense whatsoever so what they do is they take whatever Parts they like and they create their own religion what is the common one that Everyone likes as long as you believe in this guy that died you don't have to do anything to get out of jail free card you to do anything nothing make sense just believe in the guy kill somebody believe in the guy steal don't worry about it he suffered for your sin too he knew you're going to commit that sin it's the dumbest thing in the world but that's that's that's the one thing that everyone takes grabs on now so she made her own religion pretty much and even though she knew a lot about the Old Testament she didn't know that converting was something possible she thought that you know the Jews were the chosen people and you could only be born that way you can't join a chosen people so she thought oh it's great I'm with a Jew but I can't join so now when someone believes something you can't make them stop believing it can't just tell listen stop do something else can't you have to so what do you do you have to prove to them that what they believe is a mistake and the only way you could prove to them that what they believe is a mistake is that you have to learn everything they know and more than what they know so then I started learning about Christianity I started watching debates I started watching you know reading some books I started becoming a little bit fanatic about it and you know i' learn until 5 6 7:00 in the morning and first thing I would you know as soon as she wakes up in the morning I would tell her look look look I found another mistake it says 70 in the in the Old Testament and the Torah says 70 you know Jacob came down to Egypt with 70 people new test says 75 what happened to the extra five he go I don't know let me drink coffee leave me alone at 7:00 in the morning you know we never had slum bite issues until this it was a battle and it got to a point where we both realized number one obviously there's an issue with Christianity but that's something else number two which is more critical is that we can't continue can't continue as is now to me I always told I'm going to if I have to wait for you 70 years I'll wait for you years why no one in their right mind would have done for me what you did for me no one would have no woman Jewish not Jewish would have stayed with me through all the suffering I went through cleaning my blood making me feel like a king despite the fact that I feel like a bug whole life dedicated to me make me happy run my business build the business do anything anything and everything with nothing in return all she saw was problems for meot the money she didn't enjoy any of it very simple woman never wanted anything all she wanted was for me to be be happy so I'm like how could hem give me something so good but at the same time it's so bad it can't be can't he doesn't make mistakes so I said I'm going to find a way to fix it because that's apparently my tun it's apparently heart I found out also from other he says that one of the reasons why hasem sent the Jews even though it was a punishment initially to the four corners of the world initially was a punishment but there's always a to there's always something good out of everything that hasem does one of the reasons that he sent us to the four corners of the world is to convert the people that he promised them they're going to convert before the end of times because when hasem gave us the Torah before he gave us the Torah he went to all the nations and he asked them who wants the Torah and everyone rejected it but there were few in each nation that wanted it but since their leaders didn't want it they couldn't accept it themselves so Hashem promised them that there's going to come a time that I will bring you back into a generation that I will put you in a situation where you can convert where you can receive the Torah completely and I'll put you in an unusual circumstance sometimes you meet people that weren't born Jewish but they love hem and know more about Torah than most Jews it's unbelievable and I've met many of them also the it says that before the end of times before the mashia comes is going to be an enormous amount of converts so gar asks wait there going to be converts when the mashia comes goes no no before the mhia comes because after the mashiah comes there's no more conversion there's no more Chua and there's no more conversion and you're seeing now an enormous amount of converts coming from all parts of the world I have people that want to convert in India in Bulgaria in Australia in Africa in my WhatsApp group I have one you know there's so many of them in my WhatsApp groups I have one group that has maybe a thousand people a KLA of people that want to convert I mean enormous amount of people in France all over the United States just today I got a new Funko from a guy that actually lives close to where I live that wants help with conversion people all of a sudden discovering the truth and they're willing to give up everything everything money job family anything and everything you want why just to do and be what we already have and unfortunately take for granted sometimes this is part of the reason why the gar says that the converts a righteous convert is also like a skin disease for the Jewish people why like a skin disease because when it convert is really really righteous they get to such a high level that they make the Jews look bad the Natural Born Jews look bad cuz we take it for granted but again to make a convert you can't make him you have they have to believe it they have to do it thems now at one end I said listen I'll learn this and I'll know everything there is to know about this new testament nonsense and prove it and do it and for seven years if I have to I'm not letting go and on the other hand she's thinking on the other side she's saying no listen according to your Torah which I believe and I read I can't stay with you because if I stay with you you go to G and I don't want you to go get no so she started praying for Hashem to kill her why says I can't leave you disaster my whole world I thought it was bad already this just got worse the health is irrelevant whether I half pain or not this nonsense the love of my life wants to kill herself but she's not going to kill herself she's praying for hem because she believes in the same ASM I do so what do I do what do you do when you have no choice pray to Hashem you you pray and you pray and you pray and you don't stop praying and you start learning you start fulfilling his TOA and eventually your prayers break the wall cuz hasem hears every single prayer you ever prayed the reason he doesn't answer is because maybe you didn't pray enough there's only two reasons why hasm doesn't answer a prayer either you didn't pray enough or the answer is no sometimes the answer is no but the no is good for you you just don't know yet CU hm knows the whole picture someone is praying for a million dollars but hhm knows that as soon as he gets this million doar he's going to blow it on nonsense and he's going to ruin his life so I'm not going to give a million dollars so the guy all this time thinks he's praying for nothing but in reality hasm is doing him a favor he's going to give him the million dollars at a different time when he's more of a human being and he can handle the million dollars but eventually the prayer gets answered this is why in the the wordan has a numerical value of 515 this is where we learned that Moses prayed to hem he begged AEM to let him come in to he prayed 515 times until hasem said enough no more prayers why no prayers because if you pray one more time I have to let you in Israel and I don't want you to go I don't want you to go into Islam now we think this is mean when we don't know tah we think this is very mean why just let him in let him hang out for a week he'll leave he'll die he do something let them in Moses even asked Hashem let me in as a bird let me in as a cow not even as a human being sh says no if you come in as a cow someone Slaughter you as kosher Slaughter and then it make a blessing no good if someone catches the bird Slaughters it puts it as a Corban no good can't why doesn't hem want Moses to go in is because hm knows the future and Hashem knows that he made a deal with Moses that everything that he does is going to be permanent the Torah Eternal it's permanent never changes Moses number one Prophet will always be number one Prophet mashia is not going to be as big as Moses the mishan that Moses built in the desert is more holy than both of the BET mikash and Shen was never destroyed and so on is that he saved from even though they had a lot of problems and punishments and so on eternal everything that Moses did was eternal now if Moses would have went into is first thing he would have done is what built a mikdash now if he built a bet mdash that means it has to be Eternal but hm already knows the future he knows that 1300 years later or a little less than a thousand years later is going to sin and Satan is going to come and he's going to say to Hashem listen according to your Torah according to your stamp of a of Truth you have to destroy the nation and when it actually happened Hashem said told the Satan says you're right but instead of destroying my nation I have something that can go against it the only thing that can go against it is my own house I'll destroy my own house so I don't have to destroy my nation and this happened twice now if Moses would have built the BET mikdash hasem wouldn't have been able to use this he wouldn't have been able to destroy his own house which means we wouldn't be here that's the reason whyem couldn't let Moshe into Israel so we think it's mean until we learn the mercy so then I start learning some Torah learning some proofs and Hashem eventually answers my prayers he shows me this debate by Rabbi mrai and I watched this debate and now I realized that unlike what I thought all this time I used to think that Christianity was just second best like I didn't necessarily think it was fake I thought it was foolish but I didn't think it was fake I didn't think it was idol worship after watching the debate I realized it's idol worship and it's fake it's man-made so now my whole situation turns into P my whole situation is like now it's not just about having her convert for me Irrelevant for me or not I have to save her from idol worship cuz she's a tadik she's a righteous person so I want to show her the debate and debate was three parts I show her the first part after the first part she says Ah the uh Christian guy is a and the rabbi is arrogant she didn't like RAB mizaki after about a week or so of uh debating I convinced her finally to watch part two similar conclusion a little bit more proofs though says yeah the Christian guy is still a and the rabbi is kind of arrogant still part three until this day she never watched so this didn't work for me it worked for her not so much but now we start looking for other sources we look for other proofs one day she finds something on the Internet which I think is in a website called ask Noah and she finds a rational um explanation a rational proof of the oral Tor now until this time the major issue that the Christians have and pretty much everyone has with Judaism with Orthodox Judaism is the oral toah the major difference between Orthodox and everything else is the oral toat whether it be conservative Jews or reformed Jews or Christians or Arabs or you know Muslims or anyone else everyone says yeah the written Tora the five books of Moses the tanak we believe all of it thear the zor all that oral T all those things nah that's just some rabbis little do they know that there's more proofs in the oral T than we even know of in in the tah but nonetheless she finds this thing and explains the oral Torah and then she realizes wait a minute there's something in the oral Torah that we never knew about that without it there is no Torah meaning that without it there's no religion at all what is it it's called K in Hebrew which in in English it's called codex what's the Codex the Codex is the scroll that has the Nik now you go to beet you see that the scroll that you read from doesn't have Nik doesn't have the dots right it doesn't have you're not allowed to have the dots the dots and the dashes and so on but but in SE that you read here you have now what are the dots the dots are actually the vowel system in Hebrew unlike English that has a vowel system that's based on letters AE i o u and sometimes y Hebrew the holy language doesn't have letters as a vowel system they have these dots this Nik which means that without it we wouldn't be able to read anything how so so for example if I wanted to say Moses now Moses in English is m o s e s now if I took out the vowels of out of Moses you take out the O and you take out the E so now all you have is MSS you have Miss it's a different word which means that without the vowel system we wouldn't not it's not only that we wouldn't know the mitv we wouldn't even understand one single sentence in the entire Torah not just us but everyone so anyone that says they don't believe in the oral Tor that means that they don't believe in the Codex either a critical part of the oral Tor you can't just say no I believe in the Codex but I don't believe in the rest of the oral to it's either yes or no you can't just pick and choose so now when you realize that this oral Torah is a must there is no Torah without oral Torah now you have something so she finds it this was our first break so then I continue praying and by the way prayer means that you're not just praying to hashm please hashm please Hashem prayer means you're crying your heart out you're crying your heart out and the more tears that come out the better usually the tears of a mother work so one day I see a lecture recommended me it's called Torah and science also by the same Rabbi called Rabbi mrai so I watched I tell her listen Torah and science looks pretty cool let's watch it says who is it same Rabbi okay fine let's just watch the Torah and science seems interesting this also has three parts his lectures were long four hours so watch part one unbelievable our world's changed it's like an hour hour and a half lecture or part proofs in the Torah scientific proofs the fish the fins and the scales and this and that I mean I could go over the whole lecture Now by heart but it's just it take tooo much time the point is that it changed our world it's 2:00 in the morning like all right let's watch part two you know we're like on a high right now we just found the truth we finding proofs and wow click on part two part two doesn't work okay we look for it somewhere else on YouTube part two doesn't work go to the website part two doesn't work anyway I look for an hour and a half for part two it's not working I have a little bit of a scratch that most people find funny is that I'm the kind of guy that has to read every single page of a book you know like the preface and the part where people say thanks to my wife and my in in the publishing house and I have to read that too I have to read the credits I have to read everything I have to do everything in order so like going from part one to part three for me was like neish it was a sacrifice for me I said you know but we're so excited let's watch part three she really you can do it yeah she already knows me you can do it okay fine watch part three part three is just as invigorating and as amazing as part one the whole world changed but now she knows for sure that there something seriously wrong with Christianity she knows for sure we can't stay together this way but she doesn't know for sure if Hashem wants her to do it she needs permission from the Torah now we've already discovered that there converts are very welcome in Judaism and so on and so forth throughout the last several months already for the last couple years even but she needs something from Hashem even though you're not allowed technically to ask for a sign from hem apparently our prayers go higher than mine because that night she again went back to one of our crazy prayers where she says hem either kill me or show me that you want me to do this because I can't continue to put him in Risk so she wakes up the next day horrendous mood first time in so many years that we've been together that she woke up in a bad mood because she still doesn't have her answer and I've been looking all night for part two instead of acknowledging her bad mood I'm as excited as ever I like I found part two I found it it works she said okay fine I'll watch it say watch it instead of going to work instead of doing anything let's watch part two watch part two and part two has the answer part two was where Rabbi mrai actually gave us the information about Torah codes the Torah has some very very interesting information that's beyond what uh is the what is normal meaning that if you use mathematical equations mathematical formulas you can find hidden messages within the Torah and without going into the details of Torah code just for to save some time and we almost finish he went to one of the proofs that he showed Torah codes is the proof that Hashem already wrote about false religions that will happen in the future that were already written in the Torah with specifics now anyone that just reads the plain verse would already know what it means but there's even more when you use Torah codes so in the book of Deuter 4: 27 sayem will scatter you amongst the people and you will be left few in number among the Nations where Hashem will lead you there you will serve Gods the handy work of man of wood and stone which do not see and do not hear and do not eat and do not smell so he's telling you that after all the sins you made I'm going to spread you amongst the four corners of the world and over there you're going to get even worse you're going to worship idols man-made Gods what kind of gods the gods of wood and the god of stone now anyone that thinks about the other leading religions in the world who's the god of wood it's the cross cross is wooden cross who is the god of stone Mecca Islam their main place of worship is in Mecca it's the big Square Stone now this seems nice but it could also mean other things it's subjective until you use Torah codes once you use Torah codes and you look for these false gods and you look for the word Mecca not only do you find it you find it inside this verse so then you want to look for the other false god you look for JC where do you find him also inside this exact verse both false gods literally described in this verse you find them exactly in this verse coincidence I don't think so for me this was amazing I mean I've seen other Torah codes before this but this was something special for her was a breakthrough for her it was the sign that she needed and she literally converted on the spot meaning that everything changed at that moment say I'm ready to convert whatever we need to learn whatever we need to do she took on everything and there's a lot of in the conversion happened very very quickly within a matter of a few months CU we already been studying for a couple of years so we already knew a lot to a matter of a few months converted we had the wedding the same day to make sure that everything is kosher converted in the morning at night couple of days later we're in Israel and that was that was the major turnaround but now again at that point obviously we know that Hashem has made some serious miracles for us but why leave Wall Street once I came back from Israel I still had a small fund that I was managing but I really got into the Torah and I started realizing that this dispar this this huge distinguishing gap between the religious world and the non-religious world is just growing bigger and bigger the religious people think that non-religious don't want to do it the non-religious just have don't have a clue so I decide you know what I'll continue working a little bit but I'll start giving some lectures I have hasm gave me the ability to speak whatever I learn I'll teach so I started teaching initially in New York I would do some things in sudet say a few words and people really took to it people really liked it they would ask me if I have something else for the next week and then we decided we wanted to move to Florida and I said you know what let me just start a Sher at my house and I started a sh on uh Tuesday nights first year with with one person just me and one guy and after a couple of shers more people showed up but I found that this one guy goes to besset he been going to B for 25 years but on the third Shure what does he tell me he goes I don't understand what do you mean you can't drive to beet on Shabbat I told what I don't understand what do you mean drive to be on Shabbat he goes I said you can't drive you can't drive on Shabbat anywhere he goes no no no but but it I said yes you cannot drive to besset you can't drive to anywhere unless it's the hospital P CU so why didn't anyone tell me like what do you mean why anyone tell he goes I've been driving to Bessa for 25 years no one ever said anything I said are you serious he goes yeah I mean don't get me wrong he's not a he didn't learn any Torah but he just an innocent soul that just his Torah his whole connection to hasem would be once a week he'd go to be for Shabbat the rest of the week here and there he'd read some te and during prick or somebody told him it was good but that's it so his entire Torah was what he would learn you know during prayer or whatever you know on Shabbat so when no one told him they not allowed to learn you know NE allow to drive on Shabbat how is he supposed to know and that's the thing so when someone thought they were doing him a favor by not insulting him by not putting things on him that are a little too difficult by not this and by not that in reality they're murdering the person and that's when I realized Hashem needs more Jews not businessmen and little by little I started getting out of the business world eventually I lost the rest of what I had as far as money but at that point I didn't really care much cuz I started seeing miracles on a regular basis where I realized that if Hashem said what he said in the Torah and I say that that's true then he also said that if I do his will he'll do my will so if I go recruit Jews don't worry about the problems if the Torah is real then it has to be real 100% it's either real 100% or it's fake 100% I have scientific rational and every proof you could possibly imagine that it's real things that I've seen things that I've read things that I've imagined I mean just a lot of proofs so if that's true then what it says is true and Hashem says in Exodus chapter 14:14 when is saw all the Miracles and still still had amuna problems they still had amuna problems when they got to yamu they got to the Sea of reeds they saw the ocean in front of them and the Egyptians behind them they started worrying so Moses says to them God will fight your Wars and you shall remain silent meaning if you fulfill what hashem's will is he F your Wars you just sit back and relax you just but you have to fulfill what he says but again can't just fulfill what he says like a robot because that's not really fulfilling because the third part of the equation is not just MIT Tora the third part of the equation Isa to havea you need practice the seven-year struggle for my life that was practice I don't recommend it it's an easier way it's a much easier way it's called learning T learning M learning about and exercising that muscle every day the most important part of amuna is to look for AEM in everything you wake up in the morning anything that you see find AEM in it when you pray think about why you're even praying why am I praying it says God wants you to pray yeah okay but does he care he cares enough or according to the law he shows up now you can't imagine an image but if you're praying with enough concentration that is deserved because there's a King next to you it's easier to pray when you go to your business on the way on the way to work and let's say there's a uh traffic jam or delay instead of thinking ah I'm going to miss this appointment I'm going to miss this doctor appointment miss this client appointment I'm going to lose this contract I can't believe I have a flat I can't believe this guy cut me off no you have to think about what favor is Hashem doing for me now how is he saving my life because if yes maybe according to my plans if I go 69 miles an hour I'm going to arrive at work at this specific time but according to hashem's knowledge if I go 69 mes an hour Shalom I can arrive at an accident at the right time so this traffic jam this entire traffic jam is just for me to delay me to save my life the guy that cut me off slowed me down just enough so I missed the exit because at the exit is where problems are and Hashem did all of that for me every Jew is obligated to think that the entire creation was good enough just for him you start looking for AEM on the way to work that means when you get to work you're not worried about panasa why because hm's with you so you don't think that oh listen maybe I should cheat this guy and not really show him the brand new product I should just show him the refurbished product or I shouldn't necessarily tell him all of the disclosures I just tell him just enough so he buys it it doesn't have second thoughts no if you believe the from sh you'll conduct your business honestly because it's irrelevant what the competition is doing it's irrelevant whatever everyone else is doing whatever you're entitled to hm's going to give you anyway it's much easier to be honest when you have a m cuz you you believe it's from him anyway what difference that make if I cont I don't have to contribute he has money I don't have to cheat to make money cuz he's going to give me anyway obviously having also helps no you can't get Thea when you go home and your wife's upset about something wife's upset about something how's that not going to help you this is what hasem sent me that she is helping me because she's upset she's helping me work on my midot there's not something wrong with her something wrong with me because if I get upset she probably had difficult day she has a right to be upset but Hashem knows that I don't have patience and immediately when she's not upset I get upset but the only reason why he sent me her like this with mood that she has is because he knows that if I pass the test I know that it's from him then instead of being attacking her back I'll just listen and she's actually helping me work on my midot develop some patience instead of being upset that my son failed a test maybe I have to work on myself and spend some more time with him and maybe I could teach him a few things every single test you have in your life is because Hashem is giving it to you to develop your character how do we know show me one place in the entire Torah entire Torah not just one part of it where it talks about somebody having a good time abam went on vacation to Tahiti no he didn't go mosenu took a break from is and you know went on a weekend to Bahamas Aron and her decided to go to the spot together doesn't say any of that stuff what does it say one tun after another one disaster after another but why are they mentioned everyone all of went to T you're going to tiim I'm going to T everyone why are we not mention in the Torah because they passed it which means that the entire reason of why we're here is to pass these tests all of these test are to develop our character I had enough Fortune to pass it eventually I think I kind of failed for about 6 and a half years and eventually passed the point of giving this lecture is you don't go through the same Journey you learn from the journey you realize the will of hem is for you to have and T and definitely not be a robot do what he says but believe in what you're doing and this gets us closer and closer to him on a daily basis from the beginning of the day till the end of the day to the point where living without him for even a second becomes impossible and if that's the life you're going to live that's a life full of Miracles it's worth writing about any questions amen amen close just one second