HaShem Took Back His Millions Part 5

[Music] I started praying didn't work somebody recommended the to go to all these religious people that would come to my office had no recommendations whatsoever they just hop that I continue to give them money still didn't tell me there's anything wrong with my life so I went to sh every Tuesday and it beginning maximum I would survive 5 minutes 5 minutes fall asleep couldn't take it it was very interesting but there was so many sins on my soul there something called a kipa peel shell that's around your soul every time you you make a sin which makes it very very difficult for you to learn Tor you have a lot of sins and a lot of impurity especially if it's wasting seed especially if it's Shabbat major sin develop a shell around your soul so you can't learn to like you want to I was a and everything else you give me a company I could tell you exactly how much it's worth you give me a business I'll tell you exactly how how to fix it how to grow it how to market for it in that world I was better than anybody else I knew I'm sure somebody else better exist I just didn't know that to World 5 minutes next week 5 and 1/2 minutes next week capped out at 600 so I started forcing myself to stay up I said you know what I'm going to write down every single thing he says if you keep moving you have to stay up so I started writing everything he says this was R Pinto in the city it's very interesting but I still didn't do cha here and there I started doing giving some whatever I had money was running out the door faster than I can count but anybody needed help and I had some money I'd give it to them never really meant much to me as far as money just liked making it eventually the health again started deteriorating again to the point where I wanted to commit suicide I got to my limit obviously Hashem knew and that's when the first miracle happened my mom saw me in a really really bad condition and your moms know exactly who you are without you saying a word she knew that I don't have much time left at least not psychologically so she decides to take one of these books that she has his phone books J has she collected the rabbis names from all over the world with phone numbers and she starts calling every single Rabbi in the book for almost 2 hours she's calling rabbis but nobody's answering the phone today then she reaches a number in Israel a woman answers the phone she asks for a certain Rabbi and the woman says I'm sorry it's the wrong phone number there's no such Rabbi in Hebrew my mom breaks down and starts crying to the strange lady over the phone and then shows us himself and the woman says which is my mother's name she who is this how do you know my name she dialed the wrong phone number in a different country and she got to not only a person that knows who she is recognizes her voice which is not very easy by the way especially she she never talk to each other on the phone in their life but is also the only person that can help and she says who is this she goes this is Pina your niece how I get you I don't even have your phone number we've never talked on the phone she says I don't know but if you got to me then obviously a has a reason why are you crying she tells her the story my son is dying I need some help I need to speak to a rabbi she says why don't you uh talk to my brother ra he a big although very young he's extremely accomplished he's written six books by the time he was in his early 20s he's one of the of he finished the sh four times before he was 20 this is somebody special this is one of these people that's not from this world it's not he's the wrong generation she say will he talk to me she goes yeah of course you're uh doador is from America you're uh the aunt dor from America of course you're gonna talk to you so she calls Rim is in col of course like a that he is and she starts crying to raim now I did not know that Rim exists because when I left Israel he was still a child he was born maybe a couple years before he's younger than I am I didn't know he existed I didn't know anything about him and he didn't really know much about me so he asked my mom does he speak Hebrew and she says yes he speaks a little he speaks Hebrew okay so can I call him no he won't talk to you Bailey talks to us Bailey talks to his own family and at that very moment I call my mom for the first time in years the real reason of why I called my mom is because I figured that if I'm going to commit suicide I should be nice to my mom for a little while I got to my Peak called my mom my mom is hysterical crying and she says talk to him I said to who she's hysterical talk to a who's who do you want me to talk about why are you crying with it what do this a do that you're crying because of him no if he could talk to him he can help you he can help you I said okay anyone you want can just call me just stop crying so FR calls me I start asking him questions questions I had my whole life and for the first time in my life I get answers but not just answers I get answers with sources and not only that when I would ask a question he'd make me feel good about it I thought I was smart this guy's was an alien so then I ask another question go oh what a great question makes you feel so good like I'm like yeah of course I ask the same question what do you mean I'm from Wall Street of course I ask the same question as the r little do I know that I'm closer to being a monkey than the ROM oh yeah this Rabbi asked the same question 412 years ago on this page this paragraph this pic and I ask everything so our first conversation was very nice an hour and 40 minutes the following week he calls me Thursday 4:00 we have a conversation for 3 hours same thing questions answers sources following week Thursday 4:00 5H hour conversation following week Thursday 4:00 7h hour conversation straight whole time to but questions about everything business money dinosaurs science anything you can think of I couldn't believe it I was getting answers it was like a high something like unbelievable the pain all of a sudden was not relevant I didn't care I was in pain not pain it's getting answers finally you finally finding the reason for even being in this world finally getting answers getting answers for anyone that hasn't gotten answers in their life you have to try as hm says to us in 4 if you look for me you'll find me but only if you look for me with all of your heart and all of your soul you can't look for hasem like a cat you look behind the guard oh he's not here we're going to buy another one it's not fish you look in the aquarium ah he's not there I think maybe he died no Hashem is the purpose of life Shem is everything you have no hasem you have nothing kill yourself to find hem you have no hasm you nothing I had Millions I had nothing with the millions in the bank and still having nothing still being depressed still being miserable every day reason why I worked so much is to escape the misery I actually 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