From Wall Street To The Western Wall 2 (w/ NEVER BEFORE SEEN FOOTAGE OF PAST LIFE)

[Music] n great to be here thank you for having me it's uh been an extraordinary Journey over the last few years of giving sh in different places around the world here in Florida where we live but also in Jerusalem in NATA in New York in Arizona also an amazing bharian Ka over there we did a shabbaton over there uh also in um in New York and uh and BM continuing to do things all over the world BM so the question is why why would somebody in their right mind leave Wall Street where on a bad month we'd make $200,000 was we worked half the month and leave everything and go work for free after you lose everything already so it's not like you're still a living off of millions so I've said the story of my my chuva story a few times but today with I want to do something a little different for some of the uh fans that have been watching the story a few times already um a lot of people tell me that uh you know since usually the story is a little long and uh there's not enough time for questions and answers so usually the way I tell the story is I tell the story and I usually have some idea to combine the story with the good news is I have no idea what the what the other than the story I have no idea what else I'm going to say so I'm going to ask you for help to ask me a few questions now but I'm only going to answer them during the story so I'm sure that all of us have had some type of questions whether it's about God or it's about Judaism or it's about the rules about something so if anybody has any specific questions you could ask if not then we'll continue we'll figure it out from there but if anybody has specific questions about why we're even in the world why be a Jew why be a religious Jew what is a Jew all these purpose of life questions that at some point or another we all have to ask ourselves if it's not when we're still young then at some point when we get old so does anybody have any questions at all we all know the entire tah usually the first time ask if anybody has any questions nobody has any questions when I turn off the camera everyone has questions so if you want I can turn off the camera so okay so I'm going to start with the story if anybody has any questions you can ask along the way you don't worry about interrupting it's fine it's not a speech I didn't write anything down this is just books and I'm hoping they're going to tell me what to say so where do we begin in the year 1990 my father decided that it's time for us to join him in the United States he already came to the United States I believe it was 1989 and he decided that it's time for us to move to the United States from Israel and start a new life now as a 10-year-old boy not much of this really mattered to me all I knew is that I was changing friends now the only problem is that I didn't know that these new friends are not going to speak the same language because the only thing that I knew when I came to the United States was ABC literally just ABC because it was in a Serial box other than that I did not know a word of English but needless to say when you're 10 years old you could learn the language pretty quickly but the American education system need needs a little of Education the reason is because after about a year I was already fluent in English and I passed the ESL test but for whatever reason or another at the time it's assuming the public school system is still the same they thought that if you don't speak the language that means you're means you have a mental deficiency little do they know that the education system in most schools outside of the United States are usually Superior so for example my math when I was 10 years old was the equivalent of math of someone that was already in high school not because I was a genius simply because that was the education system in Israel so I came to the United States and I didn't understand why they were doing math for what I did when I just got into first grade it didn't make any sense to me so they sent me after I passed the ESL test instead of sending me to a normal class with normal people They sent me to a class where there was um special education so one of the guys in the class looked like he was 30 years old even though we were all 11 he had a beard another guy I think he was a father another guy I don't know if he spoke at all he looked like a murderer though each one of them was one better than the other this was in New York this was in New York and uh again this is one of the downsides when you go to the traditional Public School System even though we were born into a relatively uh religious family little by little each generation that doesn't hold strong to the torat gets further and further from the truth so by the time we came to the United States all bets were off meaning you come to America you be American you start going to McDonald's you start going to public school you become a but you still think of yourself as a Jew because you sometimes when you don't know enough Tor you don't think that Torah and Judaism necessarily have to go together you think it's an elective it's like something nice it's like something religious people do but the question we have to ask ourselves is what makes you Jewish what makes you Jewish is it the fact that your mom was Jewish if that's your answer then I could tell you you're wrong because R AKA one of the greatest sages that ever lived his mom wasn't born Jewish she was born a but she converted to Judaism so that the parents of which every spartic woman loves to say his name and puts at least or six candles a week for him so did some of the greatest sages that ever lived throughout Jewish history they weren't born Jewish it's a matter a fact each one of you that reads par CH at some point you're going to read a name called onos onos himself was not born Jewish he was a convert and from him in we actually learn about the of kissing the you ever wonder why do we kiss the mizza we learn it from a g we learn it from a convert so the fact that your mom was Jewish doesn't make you Jewish because sometimes your mom is not Jewish but you're Jewish what's the other thing that can make you Jewish I speak Hebrew there's plenty of Palestinian terrorists that speak Hebrew doesn't make you Jewish what makes you Jewish the question is when did we become Jewish before Mount sa we were called is we were called the Sons of isra Sons of yob but we're all considered noahides because there was no Torah yet that we had to comply with we had a Tor but we didn't have to comply with it the same thing like we had to do after Mount Si what happened in Mount Si we received the laws received the Tor at the moment mosu received the Tor and he came down to Mount Si he says here these are the laws we became Jewish meaning that the only thing that changed and mount saai was not the personalities was not the mothers was not the cousins was not the Traditions it was the laws hasem says you're officially Jewish so what makes us Jewish is whether or not we follow the Torah and this is the reason why for anyone who doesn't know R in shabat says that a Jew that does not keep Shabbat doesn't keep Shabbat he wants to drive on Shabbat even though his grandfather was a sadik and a rabbi his father amazing amazing sadik but him Hees doesn't feel connected to it he wants to drive on Shabbat so the rambam says if you drive on Shabbat you're lighting fire if you light fire on Shabbat it's is considered an idol worshiper that's a problem that puts his Judaism on suspension put his Judaism on suspension he can't be used as a witness in a religious ceremony he can't be used as someone as a witness for it's a problem aani cannot be counted cannot be counted why because his Judaism is on suspension why because he wanted to drive to the mall on Shabbat so for a silly drive to shabbat drive to the mall he decided to put his entire ancestors history and his own history on suspension for 3,300 years we're fighting for survival the Egyptians wanted to kill us the Spanish Inquisition the all the pgs the Nazis the Greeks the Romans the Turks everyone and anyone that ever existed that had weapons wanted to kill us we all survived why because we had Unity but not Unity because we liked each other Unity because we had T so now this Torah Trav 3,300 years for us to be Jewish and someone that drive on Shabbat to the mall to go get a drink for $3.50 from Starbucks just put his Judaism on suspension that they've been fighting for for 3,000 years kind of silly now I didn't know this so most of my life my Judaism was on suspense suspension so when they sent me to Special Ed I didn't think think I belong there little did I know that in regards to my Judaism I did in regards to overall intellect I didn't so little by little I grew up in the latter by the time I was in eth grade I started taking High School classes by the time I was in ninth grade I started taking college classes and became what you call but in the secular World went to a top state school had a nearly a perfect GPA everything was wonderful all while I had three jobs in high school and was making $100,000 a year as a 17year old kid had two newspaper routes but newspaper routes were making only $250 a week so I decide to pay somebody else $20 so he could actually do all the jobs so I could still collect 230 so that gave me more time to play some sports I played football in high school not the uh Israeli football the European football the American Football where there every person is 6'5 and much bigger and faster than me but for some reason I was attracted to the sport so imagine a small short Jewish guy playing with these Giants I thought it was a good idea um and I had jobs I sold shoes I sold clothes I sold computers I sold anything that I POS possibly could I worked in flea markets and stores and try to do whatever I can to help the family but eventually at the age of 18 I realized that I didn't want to be a doctor I didn't want to be a lawyer and I didn't want to be in school for the next eight years to go start doing the same thing that I already know what I want to do now what do I want to do I want to make money that's all I wanted to do I had no interest whatsoever in any specific profession originally I came into college thinking maybe I'll be a psychiatrist psychologist but then after taking a few biology and chemistry classes it bored me and I said this is not for me and I don't want to be I don't think it's worth it for me to wait eight years to become a lawyer because I'm already making as much as him so let me go find a way to make more money so I was introduced to Wall Street now in Wall Street on TV it looks great on TV everyone wears a suit everyone looks civilized everyone looks like they're honest genuine people once you actually get on it it's a little bit different a little different a little so for the first three years of being on Wall Street I did what they call paid the dues I worked for other people made the millionaires while they at most paid me $1,000 a month they would make 40 50 $100,000 a month off of my work and at best they pay me $1,000 a month and maybe give give me a tie as a bonus that was the first three years eventually I worked at a firm called Raymond James which was a big firm they had about uh maybe five 6,000 Brokers I was just about 21 the uh partner that I had decided to quit after September 11th and it was my opportunity to shine it's my opportunity to finally go on my own not have any bosses not have any Partners so I told the owner of the branch listen the guy that I was working with wasn't exactly a honest person I want to be on my own I don't want to have a boss I don't want to have a partner I don't want to have anything he says no problem you have $5,000 a month in bills just to walk in for the computer for the secretary and for a bunch of other fees that he'll have to make up somehow so he said do you have the money I said no absolutely not I've been making $1,000 a month so how are you going to pay me I said I have no idea but if I leave and I go to another firm I have to start all over again said okay so what are your intentions here this is a question that I want never forget in my life the owner of the branch he was in the business for about almost 20 years at the time much older than I was I was a 20-year-old little nothing with a ponytail and a lot of bravery and he asked me what are your intentions here so the first thing that came to my mind was to buy you out he found it interesting and he said okay no problem just make sure the money is here on time and I had my chance right after September 11th which anyone that knows a little bit about the stock market wasn't exactly the best time for the stock market but that was the time that Hashem decided I was going to start in the business now when you don't have any clients and now you don't have a salary not even $1,000 a month you still have EXP expenses now somehow you have to pay for those expenses so to pay rent I sold my car for food I borrowed a dollar every day from this guy Dimitri so I bought a donnut for 50 cents and coffee for 50 cents and that was my food for the day the bus cost a $150 each way at that time now I didn't have the $150 so at 5:30 in the morning when I would get on the bus I'd pretend I had the $150 by telling the bus driver that the metro card it's going to go in it's going to have $150 in it now when the machine said it doesn't have a $150 in it oh it's the wrong metro card it's the wrong card let me get you a new one and I'll be right back but I don't want to hold anybody up there's other people behind me so let me go to the back of the bus I'll put my stuff down I'll come back with the $150 now may Hashem forgive me for my sins but I never came back I went back to the back of the bus I fell asleep and right before I fell asleep I did praying for him not to call me and kick me out of the bus when he realizes that I'm not coming back cuz I don't have the1 50 and the same thing would happen at 12:00 at night when I finished work so you start the day at 5:30 by the time you get home it's 1:30 you find time to sleep for a couple of hours and in between you eat a dut and you have coffee that's Wall Street welcome so six months later living off of a dollar a day and sneaking on the bus and getting thrown out a few times which was a good Kar for the embarrassment I made my first $55,000 out of the $5,000 I had to pay something to the bus so by the time everything was paid I had $1,000 left for me it was all the money in the world $1,000 the first ,000 I made right in the beginning of 2002 somewhere around maybe March or April of 2002 was like I made a million dollars little did I know that only a year later it would be the next month it was $5,000 the next month it was another $5,000 the next month it was 10 after that I was 17 in November of 2002 barely a year after I started work working in this office I broke I broke a office record and I made $117,000 in one month now I became the top guy in the office the guy that didn't have food just a few months earlier six months later I became the number three biggest producer in the entire country for all 6,000 people that work for the company A bad month would be $150 to $200,000 it was time to move on I had to decide do I stay at this firm or do I start my own now my motto was always I rather die living my own dream than be comfortable living somebody else's you compared the cost of Oprah and Howard Stern and uh you did it a little differently than most people but what did you find explain it to us well the thing is though is that Wall Street has made every analyst have their own proprietary way of analyzing things which is very complicated for the individual investor to understand these cash flow analysis the PE ratios everything that the average investor out there whether they have money or not can't understand we did it the simple way you know howt Stern has approximately a 4-Hour show just on one of his stations not including the second one per day 5 days a week which is about 1,040 hours a year right he's getting paid $100 million a year for him and his crew which is about $93,000 an hour right granted it's a lot of money okay it's obviously a lot of money but because of his track Rec in the past because he's already brought in at least a million subscribers that pays for it now Opa on the other hand is getting paid $55 million for 3 years which is about $18.3 million a year okay now she's only going to do a 30 minute show per week that's it I don't really think that anybody is going to subscribe to just you know a little bit extra if they're a big fanatic of Oprah just for that extra 30 minutes and when you do the math 30 minutes a week is 26 hours a year which is about $75,000 an hour if it was a if she was spending just as much time on XM is how it turn is then uh har contract will be worth about $3.7 billion okay now this is not so I decided to go and decided to start my own company little by little I started hiring people little by little the money started getting big made the first million made the second million but if the first couple of years we were making a million dollars by the time 2004 2005 and 2006 came we already get to the point where we're printing money everything was wonderful now one trait that Hashem created me with it's a absolutely no credit to me whatsoever is that I never actually cared for money I never bought toys we made plenty of money but I was never one of those people that bought fancy cars or bought a Jet the fanciest thing I had was my house and the only reason I bought it was because it was 5 minutes from my office on Wall Street that's it other than that it was a regular car it was a sports car but it was I don't know $100,000 car if you're making $200,000 $300,000 a month $100,000 car is not exactly a big deal most kids that are 18 and don't even have credit somehow get their parents to buy them $100,000 car today my money went to two things one in back into the business to make it bigger to build the next Goldman Sachs to build the next Marland to build the next big Empire second thing was to invest it into the stock market because I I was my own biggest investor but the last part was to help people anybody that came to my door if they needed something they got it why because for me money for whatever reason or another hasem told me money is the same thing as a hammer now did any one of you ever pray for a hammer anybody ever get excited when they found the hammer anybody ever have a hard time giving somebody else a hammer when they asked you if you have a hammer and you have a hammer no because it's a hammer money is the same thing Hammer is a tool money is a tool I used to always tell people money will never make you happy it'll just arrive to your problem problems with a limo you'll have problems regardless different problems money problems but you'll arrive to the problems with a limo that's it that's all it will do it's the same thing as any other tool Unfortunately today most people don't know this most people chase money as if it's God and Hashem already warned us about this many many years ago in the tah and he says don't worship the god of money the god of gold God of silver God of gold is also money is also silver don't go to those gods don't worship money many of us are going to fast but it's very hard to connect to something that happened 2,000 years ago because we all say listen that problem back then the was idolatry there was murder there was there was all these different things like I'm not an idol worshipper I didn't murder anyone I don't hate my neighbor unless he's ashkanazi unless he's yemenite unless he's from a different tradition but I don't hate him that much but the reality of it is that most of us are still Idol worshiping we still have the same problem from the first bet now anyone that has a dollar dollar bill in there take it out and you see on the dollar it says In God We Trust all of you read this one time right in God we trust this is a misnomer what's the what's the confusion here the problem is that most people that read this they think that the God they're talking about is the dollar this is why people spend most of their lives chasing it someone that worships money will do everything they can to hold on to it and to get it they'll even sell their family for it how many times did you hear horror stories about families breaking up because they all got an inheritance ABA and IMA were Rich they died and the family broke up because of it why because he got 5 million the other one got six million and the other one got 10 million and they all hate him or even worse Brothers start a business everyone is Friends they're both 18 years old they start a business they both have $5 to their name a few years later they make it good they start making money they both get married they have kids but the wives don't like each other why because she's from here and he's from here she has this hair she has that hair she has this dress she has that dress his house is bigger why is our house smaller why does he get to go on vacation we don't event eventually the partnership breaks up and the brothers don't want to talk to each other for the next 20 years why because he got 51% and I got 49 and I hate him for it so for 1% you lose your brother 1% when you started the business you'd give him 90% 1% you lose your brother why we love money we're connected to it that's the problem that's the beginning of the problem so continuing with my story is that I liked making money but as far as money itself didn't care about it so whenever someone came to me I valued my time so I said at that point in 206 by May of 2006 I broke my own personal record and I made $1.6 million for the month and I said okay so at this point in this rate I'm making approximately $3,000 an hour so $3,000 an hour I don't really want to waste an hour listening to anyone's story so if anyone comes and needs something the easier thing to do is instead of listening to an hour and then giving them $5,000 let me just say how much does the problem cost 5 seconds into it and because that's really all they want little that I know that it's really insensitive but point is that's what they want they want money so they start talking and sometimes they're upset and they say okay fine fine fine how much does it cost oh oh it's $5,000 like okay fine raise a check Sal Shalom good luck and everyone was happy everyone got their problem solved whether it was a brother a parent a kabik religious not religious didn't make a difference I had money they needed it give it to them if I got all those loans back I'd be millionaire again but now a couple years before that my uh my memory served me right and even though I wasn't keeping really many mitzvot kept kosher to the extent that I understood just eat meat at home and vegetables outside and pasta outside little did I know that the vegetables and the pasta outside have meat in them sometimes it's worm meat sometimes it's pork meat anyone that eats Pizza in a non- koser place just so you know it's not the problem with the milk it's the problem that you're eating milk in meat it's not the milk the milk is not the problem it's no problem eat whatever any milk you buy in a store in America has kosher sign on it so the milk they use in the cheese is not a problem it's not a problem it's the problem that in order to make the cheese they use meat order to make the sauce in the Pizza and Pizza Hut dominoes all non koser pieces piz has meat in it that's the difference you have five pizzeria in New York on one block why do they all have different taste different meat so if you're eating non kosher pizza the the problem is not the milk it's the meat that's the problem I didn't know this I didn't know that when I'm eating pizza with just cheese on it I'm really eating not only milk and meat but usually the meat is pork because the cheapest meat so now I thought I was keeping kosher I would go to sh once or twice a year y of course well sh maybe PES never but I eat matah traditional I didn't know that Shabbat was bigger than yum Kip I didn't know that Shabbat is bigger than all the holidays I didn't know that Shabbat is to such an extent that kazal says that we have 613 mitv from Hashem and seven mitv from the rabbis most people think it's 613 mitv from rabis and seven from hasem it's really 613 from Hashem and seven from rabbis RAB no sometimes so now those seven what are those seven your favorite MIT which are those mitv who likes Hanah like Hanukah that's a rabal mitv puim every secular person on Earth likes puim rabal blessing before you eat something it's rabinal most of the mitv people like are rabinal but they always complain against the rabbis what's God's Mitzvah Shabbat K says that if you keep somehow you find a way it's not possible but somehow you find find a way to to keep 619 out of the 620 mitv the 620 613 plus 7 you kept 619 out of the 620 now you can't because some of them are for some of them are only for women some of them are only for men in today's age maybe you could be a man and a woman but in Tora you can't some of them only for the BET mikdash you can't keep all of them but let's say you found a way you found a trick you found a loophole you want to be extra tadik extra tadik you kept 619 out of 620 the one Mitzvah you're not keeping is Shabbat Oneal says the other 619 are worth zero and the reason why is because you're keeping them for the wrong reason what's the wrong reason wrong reason is you're keeping it because you like it not because God gave it because you don't believe in God why because God said according to thebat page 119 he says you want to be my partner you could be my partner by being my witness witness that I created the world in six days and I stopped creating I rested on the seventh day obviously hasm doesn't rest he doesn't sleep but he stopped creating on the seventh day now I need someone to testify this is what I did by you not creating on the seventh day you not driving on Shabbat you not playing with your phone on Shabbat you not watching TV on Shabbat you not smoking a cigarette on Shabbat you are acting as a witness that you believe that I created the world in six days and I stopped creating on the seventh by doing that you're a partner your partner we're Partners but you not doing it you're saying it didn't happen but you not keeping Shabbat you're saying I didn't create the world in six days maybe it took me longer maybe it's like the scientist said it was 13 billion years maybe I needed to hire construction companies I had a delay maybe I need to borrow some money so I need to apply for mortgage so took me a few million years I didn't create it in six days maybe like the go say sometimes and sometimes Jews maybe I didn't create it you're not a partner anymore you're not a witness I need a witness so if a Jew decided to keep 619 out of 620 mitv and the one mitvah is missing is Shabbat the 619 don't work what is it like if someone told you today I have a deal for you all you have to do is call me tomorrow at 8:00 in the morning at 8:00 in the morning right after you email me your name phone number and address so email me your name phone number and address and then the number my number will automatically work but if you don't email me the number doesn't work simple if you do this you get a million dollars simple enough simple what's the email he gives you the email what do you do first thing you do you go home take a rest have a barbecue no first thing you do is you go email go to the phone start emailing all of a sudden you see Return to Sender why it's an error email doesn't go through you send it again email doesn't go through you send it again email doesn't go through you call them the phone phone doesn't work because the key to the safe is the email you send it it doesn't work you're running out of time it's 2 o'clock in the morning you only have six hours or you lose a million dollars you work on it you work on it you call the text support you call Dell you call whoever you can call no one knows how to help you at 8:01 in the morning he calls you says what happened the email didn't work cuz what you mean the email didn't work I gave you the email go yeah it didn't work what do you have what's the email that you send it to I sent it to ABC at yon goes yeah you missed it you missed the dot in goes why you making a big deal out of the dot I made the whole thing ABC Aton come one dot he goes yeah the one Dot's the whole thing without the dot the email's worthless without Shabbat the worthless that's the dot and do you understand I didn't know this now all of these rabbis that came to my office to collect for the Yeshiva for the camp for the k for the Hanukkah party and the pizza party and in this party and that party which none of them I had a time to actually attend but I'd funded all of them didn't tell me this at some point during the career I decided to invest some money into a t and the reason why is because I had money and I heard that theph is a big Mitzvah easy mitzvah for me I have the money get the seph T so we got the seph T the problem is when the seph T came it's online you can see the movie they made a whole film of it of SE coming it was in a newspaper and uh they wrote a nice story about it beautiful amazing thing it's the most beautiful thing I ever seen [Music] seph took a year to write in Jerusalem the S The Scribe of the seph was a very very holy man but he didn't know me all he knew was that I wanted to get the best possible seph the price was irrelevant good customer it took a year to write it once I got once the seph Tora arrived they told me he we're gonna have a party I said for what he said for the I said yeah but it's already here said yeah said okay so enjoy like no no you have to come I'm like I'm working no but you have to come I'm like do you know how much money I'm going to lose if I come to this party I have time for parties it's $3,000 an hour said yeah but I didn't get it I said okay fine I'll come to this party I came to the party I saw SE was the most amazing thing in the world they celebrated they danced they jumped with the SE T it's beautiful there was only one problem one problem I paid for the seph the seph arrived the Scribe amazing the rabbi of the K even more amazing everything was great one small problem with the I didn't read it so I kissed it but I didn't know what it said I heard that there was some guy named mosenu when I was a kid I heard there was abah and yob I heard there's a day in the week called Shabbat I heard that there's some concept called kosher but the details I didn't know so I said I have a seph I thought it was aad donated a bunch of money everyone's happy apparently they're calling me a very very righteous person for some reason because I gave some money so I thought oh to get out of jail free card so I thought I was a sadik so for the next few years when people were coming to my office no one told me that I need to read the and actually do what it says I thought just giving money was that's all I needed to do I knew that there's more I can do I wasn't an idiot but I thought it's for like elective you know you go to school and there like what you have to take and then what you like can take if you want like if you want to be like extra you want to be better you know you is the hours you have to work but then if you want to work overtime because you want to take a vacation once a year I thought it's like that and all of these rabbis that came never told me it's not an elective they never told me that Shabbat is the do and. com they never told me that when it says will save you from death it doesn't mean it'll save you for eternity it just means it's going to buy you more time to do cha so if you gave it's just buying you more time no one gets geden purely for if they're not keeping the rest of the MIT it's not a get out of jail free card so for anyone that donates a bunch of money once a year because once a year they come to B like I used to they donate $155,000 for some Aliah they don't even know what it means they think oh this is great I'm a sadik they put my name on theet the name stays in a bitet but nothing else happens that's any good and Sh it's not enough so now none of these rabbis told me this all they told me is they needed money I had it I'd give them now there's also another problem they didn't tell me about this either that the fact that I was married to a non-jew wasn't exactly good wasn't exactly good in hashem's eyes the reason why is because even before we got the Torah Hashem told abah ainu you see your helper elzer was one of the most righteous men that ever lived and he got to ganeden he got to heaven alive he never died he's one of 10 people that get to ganeden Alive we only hope to get there dead he got there alive hopefully we get there dead he's there alive but hasem said to abah ainu elzar you can't have your son marry his daughters even though he's holy of holies even though he's KES kesim even though he's going to get to geden Alive you can't have his daughters marry your son why he's from Canaan he's from a different Nation not allowed it's a big deal so I said listen I'm not really following Judaism I can't make somebody else follow it was it my fault that the woman that I love happens to not been born to a mother that's Jewish it's not our fault if she wants to be Jewish she'll be Jewish I can't tell her to be Jewish I didn't believe being a hypocrite can't tell you to do something I'm not doing I'm only Jewish because my mom was born a certain way not because I decided to be Jewish so we got married we started a company we were making money everything was wonderful my hobby was playing high stakes poker with the best players in the world all the people you see on TV were sitting on the same table as me I was was the guy that when we showed up to the casino there's 5 600 people in the room they stop what they're doing they start a table for me why I'm the guy with the money the good news is they were all excited to play with me because they thought I was the fish the bad news is I was also a shark too so I want some money I knew a little bit of math and I also didn't care about money so it's very difficult to beat me it's like the terrorists it's very difficult to be terrorists cuz they don't care about dying so I played in the World Series of Poker and all these different tournaments and I lived the high life and everything seemed wonderful November 18 2006 just came back from a month-long vacation to Las Vegas made plenty of money was great in the business was great in everything I thought it was a sadik because they told me I was okay as long as I keep giving money so I decided I was going to have an elective surgery for a little bit of pain that I had the pain was called hemorrhoids don't worry two out of three people have it this annoyed me once maybe twice a year and it was annoying enough for for me to go to the doctor and say no is this going to go away or like by itself or is it going to stay around said well listen if you want you can have a surgery it's very simple surgery you go into the surgery it's called an elective surgery elective meaning you don't have to have it you come in the morning we do the surgery while you're asleep you don't feel anything you wake up it's a little uncomfortable which by the way in doctor words that means a lot of pain uncomfortable means pain pressure means pain pressure means pain uncomfortable means pain the difference is pressure is a lot of pain uncomfortable is like it's painful but if you they say pain you're not going to come back they said listen you have this surgery couple of hours you wake up you go home you relax you're a little uncomfortable for a couple of days no big deal you go back to work said okay how long am I out of work he's like listen you come you have the surgery on a Wednesday you're back to work on Monday no later said listen $3,000 an hour I said okay no problem I'll have a vacation for a few days I could afford it let's have the surgery my clock ran out everything changed you know when you were a kid you go to the beach you go to a beach sometimes you see little kids playing in the sand one time there was this little kid it's playing the sand for his brothers and sisters they were all playing in the sand he thought it was foolish why because they build the sand they build the castle they build the castle the wind comes Castle Falls Water comes Castle Falls so he said what am I going to do it's a waste of time so what did he start doing he started waving to the boat started waving to the big boat so an adult saw him goes stop no what are you waving to the boat you think he can see you it's a huge boat he can't see he goes no he can see me he goes stop waving to the boat little kid go play with sand he go I'm not playing with the sand I'm waving to the boat waving to the boat I'm waving to the boat he's waving to the boat he's excited about this boat he goes stop waving to the boat you look ridiculous goes I'm waiting to the boat he's going to say hi back to me he goes he's not going to say hi back to you he says he's gonna say hi back to me he goes why do you think he's goingon to say hi back to you because he's my father he goes if he's your father he's probably looking for you if he's your father he's probably looking for you my father was looking for me father as heaven was looking for me the problem was I was playing with the sand I wasn't waving I was playing with the material that kept building and destroying and didn't really mean much the boat was passing and I was running out of time when Abba was looking I wasn't waving when was looking I wasn't waving I was busy with the sand so November 18 2006 I woke up out of the surgery screaming and yelling my lungs out because the pain medicine was not working and something went wrong with the surgery the surgeons didn't understand what happened everything started failing I'm asking them to kill me my wife and my mom won't listen and neither will the doctors but all we can do is continue enduring the pain and scream and yell as if they took a huge blade like Commando and they're cutting my body up over and over again while connecting the knife to electricity that's what it felt like now they started giving me morphine now since I liked my brain I never took drugs so I never tried weed I never tried kashish never tried cocaine never did anything I my brain so I figured let's keep it intact they showed me on TV this is your brain on drugs your brain drugs this is your brain after drug I said Okay let's listen to the commercial they sold me so I never tried drugs what I didn't know is that my body doesn't accept most drugs so they kept giving me morphine but my body was rejecting it it just didn't work and they asked my wife if I'm a drug addict she said no he doesn't do drugs he's actually against them he sent a few of his friends to rehab he's very much against drugs he goes okay well why doesn't he accept the drugs you're the doctor they kept giving me drugs they kept giving me morphine and eventually they had to stop they said ma'am we gave him the most amount of morphine legally allowed which is enough to kill a large horse and a few of his Riders no human should be able to handle that much but that's the most we're allowed to give him pray that it works it worked at least I thought I calmed down I thought oh that's what gon looks like and they told no sir everything is fine there was just a little bit of a glitch but you can go home I have all it's only elective surgery I said okay thank you very much it was fun to be here I'm going home on the way home we picked up shma had the shouma sandwich I told everyone that thank you for coming I'm going to sleep and I thought that the show would end I woke up approximately 45 minutes later and realized that the show just began because the same pain that I had in the hospital came back only this time it didn't stop for 62 days so for the next 62 days there was never more than 15 minutes of no pain I had to take the all types of painkillers more than they would be able to even subscribe me had some of my assistants go by from their friends had some doctors give me extra anything and everything that could work the problem is that it wasn't working all that was happening is the my body started failing so I started peeing blood started bleeding from my eyes getting infections from in my ears and little by little the doctor said I'm sorry ma'am he's dying but we don't know why so imagine screaming and yelling for days you can't sleep for more than 15 minutes and eventually after a while when you don't sleep for a long time since you're I'm not David what ends up happening you start hallucinating you start dying your body starts failing and that's what happened after a couple of months Hashem had mercy on me it was enough of getting known for a little while and I started the pain started subsiding so instead of taking 60 or 70 pain killas a day I was down to maybe 20 was manageable for me it was almost like G for most people it was G when I asked my rabi in the beginning can you teach me about Gom I want to know about Gom I'm one of those people I like to know the real story got anything sounds good but I'm interested in G what happened happens there is it real says yeah it's real say like really bad it's horrible like can you teach me Gom goes no I said why not say because you think you went through Gom and I don't want to disappoint you he say it's much worse so now after two months I'm starting to get back to myself and eventually I start going back to work my body is not the same anymore so for example for me to walk from here to the door for an average person would take it maybe two to three seconds for me it would take me about 40 minutes so imagine 20-some year old kid with all the money in the world living on the 35th floor in Wall Street with a 400t balcony is walking slower than the 93y old man and every step is ow ow ow ow ow ow all day every day now I thought this is eventually going to go away you know like a headache nine months later I feel a pain in my leg I thought maybe I pull the muscle slept on the wrong side said on the WR I never actually understood what the right side or the wrong side of the bed is but somehow I thought I slept on the wrong side I woke up with a pain in my leg later that afternoon I wasn't able to walk by the next morning I was an emergency room they said sir you have an infection between the muscle of your leg to the muscle of the uh I guess the rectal area has absolutely nothing to do with the surgery because again the surgery is exterior but the infection is big enough that if you would have waited probably another hour and a half to two hours it would have blown up went into your bloodstream and you would have died in stantly so we have to have an emergency surgery good night I go to sleep I wake up from the surgery connected to all types of morphine and I stay in the Intensive Care Unit next to the dying people for the next 10 days after that eventually they release me the second surgery is worse than the first now I thought this is going to be over 6 months later I get another infection it's called an absess another surgery another hospital visit they're starting to know me by first name three months later another surgery another hospital visit eventually he gets to the point where it's every month and for the next seven years I'm fighting for my life now on that seven years years remember there was many many people in my life when times were good I had a lot of friends something happens when you have money everyone wants to be your friend for some reason so I had a lot of friends some of them were religious people some of them were not religious people some people continued showing up some people didn't really show up to say hello usually showed up to like take something so and what ended up happening is that at the very same time that I had the surgery in November of 2006 is also the same time that I started losing money but if making $20 million was a miracle to go from nothing to go from a dollar a day that's borrowed to millions of dollars if that was a miracle losing it was a bigger miracle I lost it much faster and I didn't lose it the same I didn't lose in some unusual way I didn't lose it because I bet it all on I don't know oranges and they all went bad everything and anything I touched used to turn to Gold remember about your company uh my personal uh expertise is in the investment world and uh we've done extremely well uh over these last 12 years and uh I generally do better in bad times than I do in Good Times uh and the reason why is because uh I'm able to uh evaluate companies uh very well as far as understand what their true value is in comparison to what their stock value is and bad times present good opportunities you know so I don't buy things based on a trend I don't buy things based on uh what the TV is saying I buy things based on a value if times are bad then that creates opportunities because people make mistakes uh and sometimes they make irrational decisions which will make something that may be worth one you know only equal 20 cents right you know or one something that's worth hundred only worth $20 right because they're panicking right uh and now all the gold that I had turned to dust it didn't matter what it was if it was a company if it was a deal if it was a loan if it was anything hem says to the prophet mine is the money mine is the gold says AEM master of Legions it's all mine I just lent it to you so you could do something good with it you didn't do it you didn't do it you thought that giving some here and there to some people that need it is going to be a get out of jail free card it's not it's not a get out of jail free card now since you didn't listen with the few tests that I gave you I have to wake you up in a different way and the reason why is because we are now at the end of days according to the sages in our we are now at a time where it's the end of times page 49 it talks about there's going to be different signs that are going to happen before the Messiah arrives now we've been hearing about this Messiah for 2,000 years he's late but he's Jewish so he has to be late but now they said you're going to have signs you're gonna have something happen it's going to indicate that he's here in the end of the gar it gives you the signs we did a sh about a year ago in New York talking about all the signs the interesting part is today when you read all those signs like reading the newspaper everything and anything that they said was going to happen 2,000 years ago happened over the last few decades so all the signs we've been waiting for we have even the red cow we've been waiting for a couple of thousand years for we have two of them 2,000 years there was no red cows now we have two just in case the first one doesn't want to do it the only sign we're missing is the mashia himself that's it now the sages also read from the prophet Prophet Zaria chapter 14 and also Ezekiel they say it's going to be a little bit of an interesting time before the end of days everyone's going to want to fight it's going to be some War called goog now you don't have to follow the news on a daily basis to know that it's happening a little over a year ago Russia decided that they want to fight Isis so they sent a submarine carrying the most amount of nuclear weapons in the world we don't even know how many now Isis is a bunch of gangsters that decide that beheading people is fun in the name of their God the reality of it is you don't need an atomic bomb for Isis one plane could really destroy all of them if he's just persistent enough but Russia said they're bringing a couple of hundred atomic bombs to fight Isis if anyone believes they're really fighting Isis you need to go back to school again not to fight Isis as we all know the world has changed if you ask your parents your grandparents and you ask them how was the world when you were a kid when you were my age you'll never hear no it's the same thing doesn't exist why because we find ourselves according to the tah in the time that we call the End of Time anyone that watches the news for 5 minutes can realize the third world war already started it's just quiet before Russia sent all of their planes and helicopters and jeeps and tanks they sent a ship with 200 atomic bombs to Syria accordingly they're saying that it's to fight Isis I don't know why you need even one atomic bomb for Isis so whoever buys that story is a fool if that wasn't enough since that was September of last year if the 200 atomic bombs were already used up we need some more so about 2 months ago they sent a submarine that's the biggest submarine in the world with more atomic bombs than the original ship we just don't know how many this is also for Isis so we realized is that this is not for Isis you don't need to be Einstein you see that the United States is heating up every day everyone wants the fight Israel is becoming the most hated country in the world on a regular basis it's actually becoming popular to be anti-semitic a recent study of just a couple of years ago said that over 40% of Americans consider themselves anti-semitic this is our allies missiles are being shot at us in Israel on a regular basis Jews are being beat up all over the world some of them being killed I think there was a few incidents in Brooklyn as well recently the world is not the same the world's heating up according to the according to the prophecies you can find all over the all over the Book of Ezekiel Zaria and also even the we have every single sign we need for the end of times except one the mhia himself foreign for [Music] if you go to the last page of thear page 49 it says these these are the things that are going to happen at the end of times before the mashiah comes you listen to it and it's like reading the newspaper the Daily News everything they said is going to happen which was unheard of in those times is happening as we speak [Music] a couple of days ago we got news that the United States sent either the largest or one of the largest aircraft carriers to the coast of Israel in hia to fight Isis the biggest ship with the most amount of weapon and atomic bombs arrived in Israel to fight Isis this Isis is really getting the best of everyone North Korea would press the button if they had the atomic bomb right now without even Target they just press it you know you press the vending machine when it doesn't work go go ready go ready go go go for where is it going just go Iran is pressing the button they just don't have anything but they have the button the world wants to fight and the sages say that in the end of times initially they're all going to fight each other but then they're going to say you know what it's really all the fault of the Jews it's really all their fault what is it all about we wanted to make Jerusalem just a separate entity not part of Israel even though it's in their history books for over 3,000 years let's just make it a separate land they refuse to do it it's all their fault so Ishmael and asav the Arabs and the Christians and Catholics decide it's all the Jews fault let's all attack them seven and a half billion people attack a country with less than 20 million if you got gather all the Jews from all over the world not just Israel now if you think about it they don't need weapons if you have seven and a half billion people better yet if you have one billion people not seven 1 billion half the Muslim population one billion people spit and Israel drowns do you think the Iron Dome everyone so heavily invested and relying in is going to help us do you think the Zionist mentality is going to help us do you think the secular government that hates Hashem is going to help us or maybe it's the terrorist members in Congress of Israel maybe they're going to help us in the end of the it says at the end of times we will have nothing to rely on other than a Our Father in Heaven you don't need to turn the news on anymore it's happening how much time we have I don't know could be a week could be a month could be a year five years I have no idea all I know it's there it's happening question is whether we're going to be saved when this mashiah arrives Everyone is always excited they sing mashia mashia mashia but if you read the prayer it says who is he coming for who is he going to save the ones who used to be the ones who used to be the ones who used to be violators of the Tor the ones that did chuva I'm going to save them those that did chuva coming for them they I'm going to save they have nothing to worry about you did Chua you have nothing to worry about no Isis no no nothing doesn't matter where you are even in the world it doesn't matter did CH you have nothing to worry about you didn't do chuv you should pray you should do that he doesn't come you know people read come come if you didn't do Chua should pray he doesn't come because after he comes there's no more Chua after mashiah comes there's no more conversion clock's over like I thought mine was in November 18th of 2006 now this mashia is a little different than me the way he's different is that when he talks it's a little different outcome it's not funny so the prophet Isaiah says there's a few things we need to know about this Masia first he's telling us he's going to be able to smell our fear of Heaven why does he want to smell you're not going to sin you're afraid of God you're not going to sin why God said so when God gave us the Ten Commandments first he spoke himself the first two Commandments after the first commandment everyone died the entire nation millions and millions of people died why they couldn't handle the of his voice the magnitude of his voice they died Hashem revived the dead he said the second commandment they died again he revived the Dead the third the second time they said Moshe you go talk to him we'll do and then we'll hear what he actually said because if he continues to talk we're all going to die how do we know we're going to die we died twice we can't handle his voice it's too much so mosenu says don't worry he's only scaring you so you don't sin because the only way you don't sin is if you're scared of God so the first thing the mashia is going to look for is if you're scared of God you have do you ask yourself what does God think about what I'm about to do before you do it if you do you have the beginning of your so the first thing this mashia is going to look for is if you have this do I wear the short dress or the long one do I wear the long sleeve or the t-shirt and this week's we learned something interesting at the end of the Paras at the end of the Paras we hear that hasm got so upset that he decided to destroy the nation without warning why did he decide to destroy the entire nation without warning we got a warning about idolatry we got a warning about all our complaints we got a warning before the destruction of the bet mikdash we got a warning countless times throughout history before Hashem punished us accept this par in this parm says enough's enough I'm going to destroy all of them and P Ben elazar in next week's Paras you'll hear more about it save the day why did Hashem get so upset that he said enough's enough it's worse than idolatry it's worse than we built you had a idol in Mount saai we just got the Torah we have an idol you think it can't get worse than this he goes no this sh got worse why you went with IM modist women that's not Jewish not only the IM modest but also not Jewish it's not worth to have you today unfortunately it's acceptable behavior so hasem says time's up so when this mashia comes he's not going to say oh I smell you don't the very next verse says with the words that come out of his mouth he will destroy the rash who's the rash the one that doesn't have the one that still doesn't want to be modest the one that still doesn't want to keep Shabbat the one that still doesn't want to do Chua not ready I want to make money first then I'll do ch I want to get married first then I'll do cha I want to get really really old and then I'll do cha when I don't have any friends that want me to go to the clubs anymore I want to be a millionaire then I'll do Chua all the different excuses in the world that we have before we do Chua I had more of those excuses than anybody else in the world why hey you have money you have a lot of stuff to do so now I thought that this story was going to end but over the the next seven years I became an experiment for doctors I went over 50 different doctors all types of medicine traditional medicine non-traditional medicine even got to a point where I legitimately became an experiment in a science project or a science experiment they started injecting ozone into my veins to see maybe they could clean my blood it feels somewhat like chemotherapy never had chemotherapy but the way that people that I know that had chemotherapy tell me they felt I felt so and for the next seven years the money kept disappearing some of these friends I told you about became enemies they started stealing they started taking everything they possibly could because there's no one to defend the castle and little by little everything was disappearing eventually I got to a point where I wanted to commit suicide you get to that point after you have really pay 24 hours a day the money doesn't mean much anymore and even the money you used to have you don't have anymore was a nightmare so I got to my kits I got to my end my wits end and I started planning and one day I said you know what let me be nice to my mom because I'm probably gonna leave this world soon let me be nice to my wife because she's the greatest person on Earth Jew or non-jew didn't make a difference to me she was the only one that stuck around she's the only one that was loyal she's the only one that dedicated her life to make me happy I asked her every day why she didn't leave said where will I go I said no to continue with your life you're young you're beautiful we give you all the money in the world she goes I don't want the money what am going to do with the money I don't buy stuff she goes I don't want stuff I want you said why I'm sick she goes no you're not you're you it didn't matter to her I thought she just went crazy so I felt bad but I said I can't I can't continue if she's not going to leave I'm GNA leave so I started planning what am I going to do hanging is kind of not for me jumping I'm kind of scared of heights I lived on a 35th Flo but I never look down he started thinking I got to the end you know before you do something stupid you have to be stupid I got to that point but Hashem is not going to give you a test you can't handle and the reason why is because he loves you a mom will never tell her daughter honey can you pick up the car for me just pick it up with one hand why is she not going to tell her pick up the car one hand cuz she knows she can't so why is she going to give her a test that she knows she's going to fail if you love somebody you don't do it so if the mother here a flesh and blood knows that the father up there knows too so I started being nicer to everyone for the next few hours thinking that what am I going to do I'm sitting in my office starting to plan my mom on the other hand is crying her eyes out dialing this little black book full of different rabbis phone numbers that apparently every Jewish mother has I don't know how they get all these phone numbers but they have these phone numbers of every Rabbi that lives and she starts calling the phone numbers in Israel in America in every country that's possible but today no one picks up everyone's busy for almost two hours she's calling different rabbis and no one picks up eventually a woman picks up and she asks for a certain rabbi's name she says is Rabbi so and so there he says I'm sorry ma'am in Hebrew because it was in Israel but you called the wrong phone number so imagine you're dialing crying your eyes out for two hours no one picks up eventually a woman picks up and it's the wrong phone number in a different country so my mom what does she do nothing EV what does a Jewish woman do she starts crying to this to this strange woman that's when hasem comes in and the woman on the other side of the phone says dois she says my mom's name and my mom says who are you she's shocked how this strange woman in a different country just knows her name and not only knows her name but knows her voice what are the chances sometimes we have kids called calling us or cousins or aunts or uncles and even parents we don't know their voice strange woman in a different country knows my mom's voice who are you how do you know my name she goes well I'm your niece and that's why I know your name panina she go Pina how did I get to you I don't even have your phone number we've never spoken on the phone ever she says I don't know how you got to me but if you got to me then Hashem has a reason and Pina happens to be in in the most religious family out of all of our fames and she says why are you crying she says well my son is dying says and I'm trying to get to a big Rabbi but nobody is picking up she goes why don't you talk to rabya she go well I don't have access to ra she yeah but you could call my brother ra he lives next door to him he's T of his he's young but he's wrote A Few books already very young age lives close to him call him she goes he will talk to me goes of course you r d from America so she calls rim and raim is not there because he's in colge he's studying but his wife answers and she says I'll call you back and she calls it back and Brother Talks to my mom and she's crying her eyes out and he's now frim and I have never met I actually didn't know he existed and he didn't know I existed or at least that's what I thought now we've never spoken but R is very smart so he said few minutes into her crying he says does he speak Hebrew he says yeah he speaks a little Hebrew so can I talk to him directly he says no he's not going to talk to you doesn't talk to anybody barely talks to the family and at that very moment that she said he's not going to talk to you I decid to be nice to my mother and call her for the first time in maybe a year and my mom answers the phone and she's hysterical crying and she says talk to him talk to him and I have obviously no idea what she's talking about said to who and why is he making you cry she go to FR I said who's this a [Music] for [Music] for for for [Music] m [Music] for [Music] for so this is RAB call him he's your cousin he's your this he's your that just I'm like listen if you stop crying I'll talk to anybody just stop crying the worst thing in the world to hear somebody crying especially if it's your mom so she gets on the other line she calls she tells r f to call me r f calls me how are you how are you we start talking I tell him a problem he says oh yeah that's the same problem that he mentions a character in the Torah had and he gives me a verse and a page number of where it happened off the top of his head this is very interesting this guy knows page numbers he have the book in front of him how does he know so ask another question he said oh what a great question this is the same question that Rabbi so and so asked 823 years ago in this book on this page and it says so he not only knows the name of the book and who wrote the book but the year that it was written and exactly what it says I said no it says no he has both books in front of him so I just keep asking questions and he tells me my favorite story is still to this day from a T the story of yudah and Tamar it took me a few years to understand why he told me the story and he answers my questions and we have a conversation for an hour and 40 minutes and for the next hour and 40 minutes I feel like I don't have any problems anymore I run to my wife and I say he knows and she says what does he know and who is he I said it's R FR says what does he know say he knows the secret I said what are you talking about I said he knows the secret to the world he knows how everything works she goes keep talking to him I said I can't wait till he calls me again so the next week at exactly the same time Thursday at 4:00 he calls me and this time we talk for three hours three hours I ask him questions and he gives me a rabbi's name a book name the year was written the verse the page on the spot and it just continues so I just keep asking him questions I didn't even know I had that many questions I ask him about dinosaurs I ask him about scientific proofs I asked him about business I asked him about everything if you had a question I probably asked it sometimes because I was interesting to know what the answer is sometimes I just wanted to know if he knows it the next week he calls me a Thursday at 4:00 and this time time we talk for 5 hours the next Thursday he calls me at 4:00 and we talk for 7 hours and from that day on every single Thursday we talk for an average of six to seven hours straight I ask questions he gives me answers and now the whole week doesn't matter anymore all I wait for is Thursday 4:00 because the Thursday 4:00 I don't accept business calls I don't accept doctors I don't accept anything all I accept is Rober F's phone call and we continue this every single Thursday and little by little I start understanding I have a problem I have a lot of problems money is the least of my problems and so is the health I have to start fixing myself so now everything I I learn I start teaching my wife she is more excited about R frim than I am and the reason why is because for whatever strange reason or another at least I didn't know at the time she's always wanted me to be a religious Jew she grew up as a religious Christian and she wanted me to be a religious Jew doesn't make sense to you guys but it made sense to us so now I'm learning stuff and after this year with him I'm teaching her everything I learned we're both enlightened eventually he tells me listen I think it's time for you to keep Shabbat it's big deal it's this it's that Shabbat that's usually when I go to the casino says yeah can't do that like yeah but that's usually and have uh business meetings I can't have them during the week so I do it on the weekend he does an answer said yeah but you know Shabbat is you know it's usually a time I rest it's usually a time I go here and I start listening to myself talk and I remember this day I was talking in a balcony and I was starting to make up every single excuse in the book of why shabbat is not for me and after about two to three minutes of talking of why shabbat is so difficult I say wow I never knew how much BS I'm full of I'll keep Shabbat it's all nonsense I could do it all on Sunday whatever it is that I want to do so we decided that we're going to keep the first Shabbat he didn't say you have to keep Shabbat forever he just said keep the first Shabbat keep Shabbat so we kept Shabbat how do you keep Shabbat on the 35th floor in New York you make food and you don't leave the house and that's what we did we got a couple of we read rabi zamir Cohen's book Torah and science or it's called the coming the um M the coming Revolution it's called or science comes to age it's all the same name it's all the same book just has a few titles we read some other books anatomy of a surge we read the Shabbat book which is a book that was written in 1950s read a bunch of books together we would do is we would one of us would read out loud and the other one would listen was a great way to learn to together and this was GED we had some good food we learned some toat together and we had peace no phone no TV nothing was geden we liked it so much we extended it by almost two hours we didn't want it to end it was so upsetting we couldn't wait for the next Shabbat that's how Shabbat started as we continue talking one day ra who's a genius by the way he's accomplished more before the age of 20 than most people do in a lifetime will be one of the and tells me you know the way he talks to me is you know when you're when you don't know anything and someone wants to help you doesn't talk to you in his level he talks to you in your level level so he talked to me like an infant so he would tell me even though I thought he talk to me in my level in reality I realized later on that he talked to me like an infant and how did he do he goeson you have to hear this I have this from the Z anytime some Jew hears the Z they get excited I have this from the wow you read the zor I don't really read the Z but I have this I have this new insight from the zor you have to listen to it okay no problem tell me I can't wait for this k listen says a Jew that marries a loses all of his money his health and hisa what do you think my reaction was who is this he doesn't know me what does he know this RAB I didn't know who RAB was I just know his Rabbi may I thought some other Rabbi from kabad or something may Rabbi it's fine same thing he doesn't know me he doesn't know this he doesn't know that what does he think he is I had a conniption I couldn't accept it little did I know you don't need to go to the Zar to find this K it's in the five books of Moses in seph it's in the beginning of the Torah but if he told me it's in the beginning of the Tor it's not as interesting so now I realize okay I don't like it but I kind of have a problem here so I said okay listen I can't make her do something I have to find out what it is now until this moment I thought that Judaism is true and like Christianity was like second best it's like the remix that's what we would call make fun of it you know back in you know a long time ago back in the day they would take old old music combine it with rap songs and it would make it a new hit so we they called it a remix I said okay so Christianity is a remix so we'd make fun of it she'd laugh about it but was entertaining for us so I just thought okay there's some truth in it they just make the whole thing up I mean come on you make up a whole book 100,000 words 100,000 letters you going to make up by the way they do that every day there a whole series called Harry Potter so I said you know what I need to find out about this the whole thing never really made sense to me that some guy died Jewish and somehow Christianity was born and no one has to do any MIT none of that ever made sense to me I said okay they believe it good luck for them what do I care so I said I need to learn about this so I RAB says listen there's this Rabbi called Rabbi toia singer he's a an expert start watching isim online I start watching isim online I try to introduce this to my wife my wife says he speaks too fast I can't hear it I can't he mentions verses he talks like a computer I can't do it okay fine I continue learning I continue learning eventually I start realizing wa this Christianity thing is not really second best it's actually there's a lot of contradictions here there's a lot of problems here it doesn't really make sense then eventually one day I land on a video called Torah and science um sorry a video called the debate by Rabbi mrai I watch the debate by myself and my heart drops because now for the first time in my life I realized that Christianity is not a contradiction Christianity is not a problem Christianity is fake it's outright fake it's man-made the zero truth to it the only true part of the New Testament is the Old Testament that's it they say that the Old Testament AKA Torah which has 34,800 letters is the first part New Testament of 100,000 approximately is a continuation of it so 400,000 letters approximately so the only part that's true is the Torah part everything else 100% man-made there's contradictions in it errors in it that anyone that ever read the Torah would know it's l literally not it's not like a fake like it's hard to find out it's fake it's fake like if you've ever read the tah you would know it's fake there's mistakes that a six-year-old Yeshiva kid would not make such as for example the example of is mentioned in the Tora that he came down to with 70 people 70 God wrote this in the Tor a few times in the New Testament it mentions that yov came down to MIT with 75 this is a simple numerical error God doesn't make numerical errors people do therefore God didn't write the New Testament it also has the the cave of in the wrong address wrong City what they changed location first place went out of business you could still find out where it is it still exists and so on and so forth there's many many contradictions that don't make sense so now for the first time I realized this is not a problem about trying to convince my wife to convert has nothing to do with it anymore this has now turned into P this is now turned into I'm trying to save her I don't care if she stays with me she just needs to stop believing this garbage now how do you make somebody unbelieve you can't just tell them hey stop it's bad for you any one of you ever say to your kids hey stop and they stopped right away or you have to say like six times so that's what I had to do I had to continue learning and I became obsessed with the topic learned as much as possible about T and also about the falsehood of Christianity and every single day I would bring new facts to her it didn't take take long for her to realize there's something wrong one day I told her listen you have to watch this video by RAB mrai she said okay put it on part one goes on she says Ah he's so arrogant I can't take it I don't want to hear it anymore and the Christian guy is an idiot I said okay but he's still right right right whatever but I don't want to hear anymore I had to convince over the next few days to listen to part two this three parts Part Two goes on she's even more upset than the first one she knows it's right but she hates the guy part three to this day she never watched but after the second part she says okay I'll start doing my own research so she starts doing research now every day I'm I don't care about work anymore I don't care about pain that I'm in 24 hours a day nothing matters anymore I become obsessed with learning T obsessed with proving everything right because it's either I'm eating pork onip or I'm keeping everything can't be 5050 if God's real is real all the time not sometimes not when I feel like it if it's real we keep everything no 50% see you go for the whole bank I don't do anything go so I decid that I have to learn all of it everything as much as I could possibly absorb and every day at six o'clock in the morning I'm still learning I can't wait for her to wake up so I can give her my Kim she just wants to wake up and have coffee and I'm like here honey look what I found she wasn't exactly happy about it but this became something she had to get used to this mad scientist at 6 o' in the morning trying to show her why Christianity is fake so little by little she started L looking into things and she said listen I know there's a lot wrong with it I always knew there's something wrong with it but I don't know if I'm allowed to convert I don't know if hem wants me to do it what if this what if that I need a sign I need something now at this point we still didn't know enough to know that we're not allowed to ask God for signs we're not allowed hem told Abu the Stars you could actually learn a lot from them but you are not allowed the go are allowed you could learn the future from the stars but you're not allowed to do it the go are allowed why you're beyond luck I decided so we didn't know we're not allowed to look for signs so what do you do you start praying for signs and I've been praying for months already crying to Hashem every single day begging him to show her the truth I know it's true it's as clear as date to me but she just can't see it she finds a few articles she starts believing she starts seeing she starts finding things on her own but still she doesn't have the sign there's still one missing piece now we've already had a huge Miracle would rather fry him he's teaching us as much as possible but still she needs something extra So eventually I keep learning from different rabbis different excuse me different books and one day I run into the same Rabbi again Rabbi mrai and he has this film called Torah and science said honey we like science we like Torah let's look's watch this thing it's only four hours she go oh okay fine no this guy again today she's his biggest fan but at that moment she wasn't this arrogant guy so we watched part one after an hour and a half of finishing part one we're both shocked everything changed whatever we knew just took to the next level we're like amazed we're just wow now what do you do at two o'clock in the morning when you finish part one you press on part two doesn't matter that it's 2:00 in the morning the part two doesn't work part two doesn't work and I'm the kind of person that I need to do things in order like you know in books where they tell you there things that you know written in the beginning of the book like the preface and the credits and the guy thanks his parents and all the people that donated for the book I'm the guy that reads it they wrote it for me like I have to do things in order I don't know it's a thing it's a tun I have in my brain I have to do things in order so not having part two skipping to part three was just unacceptable to me but I was desperate what am I going to do she's into it we pressing part three honey she goes you gonna do it we have to do it so we pressed part three we're amazed we're shocked it's about four o'clock in the morning we're going to sleep the next morning we wake up she's in a move mood she woke up on the wrong side of the bed for the first time in all these years that we've been together first time I see her in a bad mood why why are you in a bad mood I don't know I know there's something wrong but maybe it's just better off that God God just kills me because I know that we're not allowed to be together that's not that's not a doubt but I'm not leaving and you're not leaving but I don't want to destroy your life so I just prayed all night after the movie forgot to either give me the sign and show me the truth or just kill me this is what you pray for I was so upset what kind of prayer is that to die so apparently God answered our prayer in a different way I was very upset I went back to my desk back to Rabbi YouTube and I find part two and part two works for the first time part two works I say honey I know you're in a bad mood but you want to watch part two you're obsessed anyway let's just watch part two we watch part two and in part two of Torah and science RAB mrai introduces us to something that I heard about but didn't know much about but he introduces us to something called Torah codes and Torah codes are secret messages that you can find beyond the literal part of the to now there's theat which is the basic literal translation of what it says there's the things that the rabbis give commentary on explain to us what it means there's secret parts of the to that are come from different places one of those Secrets it's also mentioned that the sages already knew about over 2,000 years ago in and also is that Torah codes only difference is they were really really smart they were able to do it with without computers we are not that smart we need computers so these Torah codes find us different messages by calculating a equal mathematical skip between different letters in order to make complete words so in in essence if you want to find the word Hitler there's obviously no character in The Tora named Hitler but you can find the word Hitler if you let's say for argument sake you find the H and then as let's say 10 letters and there's the I and another 10 letters and there's the T and another 10 letters and L and so on and so forth but it has to be an equal mathematical skip it can't be 10 27 312 because then it's just random it has to be an equal mathematical script to show that it's there by Design but even more so with Torah codes that you won't find in let's say a Harry Potter book or Fiddler on a roof is that the codes have to be in a paragraph that has to do with the word meaning the word Hitler makim has to be in a paragraph where God talks about something like that so for example all of the things that have to do with the Holocaust whether it be Hitler or it be the gas Chambers or the different names of the other that murdered our brothers and sisters 70 years ago all types of names and all types of details and words that are asso with the Holocaust all of them appear approximately on the same paragraph that has to do with the punishments of what happens when we don't listen to hasem and the details of the punishments are exactly what happened it's in also it even mentions the eagle and if anyone knows a little bit of History they know that the logo for the Nazis was the eagle same thing as the Romans so anyway these are Torah codes there obviously there's a lot more I'm trying to cut it short because time's running out but we have something called Torah codes and ra mrai wants to show us a few examples and one of them he says that AEM after we betray him time and time again he says at the end of times you're going to betray him and he's going to punish you how he's is going to send you and spread you amongst the four corners of the world but since he loves you and since he promised abob that he's never going to officially abandon you eventually he's going to bring you back but not before you make the sin even worse you sinned already to get kicked out you're going to sin even more when you leave the land and go to the four corners of the world what are you going to do in those four corners of the world and he says literally in chapter 4 verse 27 he says hem will scatter you amongst the people and you will be left few in number among the Nations where hasem will lead you there you will serve the god serve Gods the handiwork of men the gods of wood and stone which do not see and do not hear and do not eat and do not smell so here he's telling us not only do we get in enough trouble to get kicked out but we're going to actually go to the four corners of the world and become Idol worshippers but he gives the these Idols names there's two names there's two major names says one God is God of stone and another God is God of wood now you don't need to know too much to know this sounds familiar wood represents the cross the Christian cross stone represents Mecca where all the Muslims pray now this could just be pure coincidence so that's where Torah quotes comes in in Torah codes it gives us a little more precise detail and RI shows in the video and he says where are the only place in the entire Torah an entire 34,848 scatter starts with the uh the second letter is hey if you count 49 letters you get the to the word at if you count 49 letters you get to me that's that spells Mecca same exact words yon also has a VAV you go backwards to shama has the sheen that goes back to AIT has the ud spells yesu Jesus in Hebrew so you have not only similar gods of wood and stone but you actually have their names and the only place in the tah that you can find them is this verse this is by Design now I thought this was pretty cool I've seen some other Torah codes before this and this one was very good but to me it wasn't exactly as big as reading it wasn't as big as discovering how great Shabbat was was good but for her it was a sign that's what it was you can't expect the world to see what you see they have their own eyes so now for her on that moment she says Okay I want to convert and I'm taking on all of the MIT now one day we're not Jewish the next day we're taking on everything anything we knew we had a lot of we had the conversion go through relatively quickly because we've already learned a lot we already knew a lot we're already keeping a lot on the day of the conversion we wanted to make sure that everything is kosher so we had the on the same day because obviously we're already living together so we're not going to go separate she's going to live in a different house than me so but we can't live in the same house not married so the same day we had the conversion we also had the came on the same day modesty everything anything we knew we did all of a sudden I look like a rabbi she looks like a raban we both look like we're religious for a million years we look we just came back from Mount Si now to finalize it all at that point we were on a big high God made so many miracles for us it didn't make any sense but to make sure we knew that prayer when he says at the end of Shak if you keep my mitv I'm not going to give you the sickness and the diseases that I gave MIT why I am God your healer so on the same day of the conversion what no one knew except T and I was that I had an infection a really really big infection and I couldn't walk and I was in enough pain to really say is May debatable if gome is worse than this but it didn't matter because ganeden is about to begin we arrived at the bed me walking like a penguin because I can't move they ask her questions she answers the questions instead of five minutes it ends up being an hour and a half of questions because they were just fascinated at how much she knew as well as one of the DI was late so instead of five minutes it was an hour and a half of questions but she answers all the questions no problem I'm in a lot of pain but I'm as excited as can be to see her do as well as she's doing in the background you can't be you know you can't see each other you can't you know she can't see my face so no one thinks I'm helping her or anything like that they ask a lot of tough questions but I'm watching from the background and then eventually they tell me okay let's go to the mik and I wait outside and I'm in a lot of pain and we're planning that as soon as she finishes this mik I'm going to the hospital there's no there's no K there's no nothing I'm having a surgery and I may not come out for another couple of weeks but at least she converted but something strange happens all of a sudden I sit there and I'm an enormous amount of pain and then it just stops stops the pain just stops and I feel as normal as I feel right now maybe better she dipped in a mikve my pain stopped now after she comes out we're all excited we call of FR we have a Skype in the car when you see the Skype we still have the picture of it anyone that wants to see it after the she I show it to you it looks like I don't know it wasn't really that sunny but it looks like both of us have some type of like really really bright light on us it's very strange picture and we're as excited as can be and she says wait aren't you in pain are we supposed to go to the hospital I'm like no I'm perfect it's great it's amazing she okay and we get to where we need to be I said okay H I'm going into the bathroom one second to change and you know part of changing is taking off your clothes and I take off my clothes and I see that my clothes and my body is full of blood I am God your healer there just no surgery absis is gone infection is gone I just have to take a shower instead and from that moment on everything started getting better instead of getting infections every single month they started becoming more rare every three months every six months eventually it stopped coming oh maybe you get it once or twice a year but they're superficial and maybe annoying for a day no surgeries no pain no nothing now when you see this kind of stuff in real life it's close to home it's not a story that happened to somebody far away 300 years ago I was there say okay this is real so little by little we decide that we have no interest in the business world we want to just learn T maybe teach it and get other people to see what we see we decide to leave New York and we have a little bit of business still left I lost most of my money but I still had a few hundred, left in the market I was managing a small fund I said listen this fund is going to make me a few thousand a month so we could survive and I'll just learn some maybe I'll have a weekly Shure teach some people the little bit of knowledge that I have whatever I know I'll teach and I had a weekly Shure every Tuesday every Tuesday in my house a few people would come to my house and we would learn T gave me the ability to speak and whatever I learned I teach it interestingly enough most people didn't know what I knew so was exciting was helping people now after a few months of doing it I started seeing that these people that came to me completely secular actually are starting to do chuva one guy was driving to besset for 25 years and no one ever told him it's not allowed on Shabbat 25 years he's driving on Shabbat toet thinking he's a tadik just like I used to think I was a sadik a Jew is supposed to feel like a king on Shabbat and that's why made Shabbat but why doesm take it so offensively why is it so angry when we violate it it because he's saying to you I technically created the world in one second or less than a second in no time Hashem doesn't have time the past the present the future is all the same to him I created the world in an instant whatever an instant is he created in an instant right but I minimized myself I minimized myself to stretch it out for you for you to feel like me for you to feel like you are part of creation for you to feel like God felt on the 7even instead of saying thank you hasem for the Shabbat I can't wait for the Shabbat let me do great things for the Shabbat and preparing for the Shabbat what are you saying like that woman I don't want this diamond I minimize myself but you're not willing to minimize yourself to stop your life [Music] minimized and said oh for this Jew I minimize myself but he's not willing to minimize himself for Shabbat and stop his job or stop his television or stop anything else that he's doing that is very very [Music] offensive the rambam says whoever observes a Shabbat and honors it and indulges in pleasures and its Pleasures to the best of his ability will receive an abundant reward in this world in addition to the reward set aside for him in the world to come in the Merit of observing Shabbat just so you know how big it is for ju all of one's sins can be [Music] forgiven even if someone had worshiped an idol observing as the AL dictates he will be forgiven for it even for idol worship That's How Strong a Shabbat is another guy got married had a kid and then his wife got pregnant again but he had a visitor and the visitor wasn't exactly a good visitor the visitor was trying to convince him to divorce his wife and kill the baby it's not that good of a visitor so I had to pretend like I didn't know the story and I called him and I said listen I'm really really bored which by the way never ever happens when you learn toah so I said I'm really really bored learning I just want what do you do what do you oh I'm going do this this and can I hang out with you for a few hours oh yeah sure why not so I hang out with him for the next six hours and today is an not a murderer and little by little you start doing these things and you see that people change their lives if they only knew the truth the only reason they lived the way they lived and sined the way they sinned and went against God the way they did it's not because they hate God they just didn't know I didn't know so that's what I decided to do I'm going to start telling people but Hashem said you know what you have a few distractions this money thing is a really big distraction you want to teach people about emuna now the only way you're going to geta is if you go through a few tests so he said okay you know what this few hundred, that you have left I'm gonna take that too so on a Tuesday morning same day I have a Shure The Market opens at 9:30 in the morning and 9:30 in the morning I still have a few hundred th000 of my money and some money of a few clients money it's enough money to survive it's enough money to start a new life it's enough money to do a lot of things it's virtually very little money in the bank because when you're investor in the market you don't believe in Banks you believe in investing so there maybe enough money to get through a month or two most of the money is in the market which again is maybe 1% of what we used to have so we're investing we're trying to build at 9:30 in the morning we have this money at 9:35 we have zero the biggest investment we have just announced horrible news the market overreacted we were over leverag we made mistakes the market decided to take advantage of them long story short in five minutes everything went to nothing in my entire career that never happened the fact is that when I lost the money I knew maybe 50 to 100 times more than what I did when I made the money which is the reason why I tell you it was more of a miracle to lose the money than to make it usually you gain money when you gain knowledge in the investment business knowledge is money the more knowledge you have the more money you're going to end up making due to this knowledge that's why the best firms in the world hire Ivy leaks students they want people that are able to grasp a lot of knowledge they don't care that you got a 4.0 they just care that you have a good memory and you're able to work through the night without sleeping that's how you get a 4.0 you don't get a 4.0 you don't get a perfect GPA perfect score it's just because you're born smart there's plenty of losers that are born smart plenty I hired some of them became winners sometimes but the point is that hard work is what people look for and I had it but at 9:35 in the morning I had nothing the one thing I did discovered that I had that day is that hasem gave me this amuna so I said the prophet job who went through some serious serious difficulties that makes my difficulty seem like ganeden where thear says that it's better to live the miserable life that job lived for one year for 70 years then have one moment in G home job lost all of his sons 10 Sons he lost all of his money he was a billionaire he lost all of his health to the point where worms were coming out of his body instead of coming in he lost everything much much worse than I could ever imagine despite the difficulty I went through and the says his life for 70 years is still not one minute in G that scared me a lot so when I realized that this stuff really means something I read the book and job said after he had all this difficulty while he was having all this difficulty God gave God took may his name be blessed in we learn we have a series we do every Tuesday next door we learned a few months ago maybe about a month ago we learned one of the one of the one of the taught us something give him from yours because you and what's yours is his when a person is questioning whether they should give or not whether they should invest in religious school or not whether they should invest in a or not or they or not when you're investing in t in reality you're not investing all you're doing is you're returning it's all his so I said at 9:35 in the morning I said everything is his he took he gave it he took it may his name be blessed I shut off the computer I went to study for my I never turned it on again and since that day for the last almost three years now all I've been doing is teaching T learning T and trying to help am come back to hem any questions for [Music] sh [Music] the [Music] [Applause] call is [Applause] [Music] something Jo [Music] for [Music] [Applause] [Music] n [Music]