Did We Really Leave Egypt (Ohel Rachel Los Angeles)

[Music] first of all thank you for having me um it's a uh it's been an interesting trip here to California some familiar faces some new faces so the uh topic was just some random name that I came up with uh in reality I always tell people that you could interrupt the lecture and ask whatever question you want because in reality has nothing to do with me whatever hasem wants to say I'm going to say anyway things that come out of the Le out of the heart reach the heart so how do we get here now we just completed the of P another wonderful H we celebrated we celebrated yam we left Egypt we left slavery we got all the Miracles we celebrated that we got all the Miracles and somehow we're still in Egypt somehow in reality we're still all in Egypt all back to work and some people are working so hard they forgot that slavery stopped about 3,000 years ago for is this was me for most of my life so for anyone who doesn't know my story I'm not going to go into all of the details I usually go into simply because it's very long and it'll take up the entire lecture but I brought you some free CDs with my personal story and many many other lectures there's maybe about 80 hours worth of Torah on there including my personal story uh in both of those CDs they're free uh there's also AAR cards that are organization bem uh made uh in English Hebrew and transliteration you could put it next to your back bathrooms at the office at work in the house they're nice plastic and durable anyone that wants to see any any of our lectures can go to our website bash.org and there many many lectures that I've done in in English maybe close to a thousand hours my raim also is on there uh also somewhere in a neighborhood of maybe about 1500 hours or so and uh of course we work with and uh which got knows how many hours he's done but uh the reality is is that what motivates somebody to leave Egypt even though everyone around them wants to stay in the Tora it says that is left Egypt after we got all the Miracles we had an horrendous Adventure over there they turned us from from being millionaires to being slaves after y sadik put Egypt on the map made them very wealthy eventually par got sick of him after he died he didn't have to deal with him anymore and he said let's fool them fool them into what fool them into thinking they're actually making any money and in reality they're just going to become our slaves fool them to think they actually have any freedom but in reality they're just fulfilling purpose and not theirs and he fooled at that time were called into becoming slaves now you ask yourself how do you fool somebody into becoming a slave first thing is you show them patriotism you make them believe that what they're doing is for the better cause for the better cause of the country for the better cause of the people for the better cause for them and for everyone around them and you convince them that what they're doing actually has a purpose because a human being cannot survive mentally emotionally and even physically without having a purpose a human being must have a purpose there's no such thing as a creation without a purpose no one ever made anything without having a purpose the guy that made the tables he may not have known who's going to use the table but he knew that someone at some point is going to buy the table and put stuff on it maybe maybe it's going to be maybe it's going to be potato chips maybe it's going to be dinner maybe it's going to be uh something else the point is the table has a purpose the chair has a purpose the chandelier has a purpose the building has a purpose everything must have a purpose knew this and he says let's give them a purpose what's the purpose let's tell them we're building Egypt we're building America we're building Germany we're building whoever and he actually started digging first everyone oh wow look par is digging with us let's dig let's leave our businesses start digging with him and little by little is became slaves eventually they were so connected to the slavery that it became part of them and after mosenu was the Messiah of his generation on all generations they didn't really want to leave the reality is they didn't really want to leave why didn't they want to leave said listen it was really hard for the last 86 years but now after all the Mak all the plagues everything that happened it's not hard anymore we're not really slaves anymore this guy opened a business the other guy extended his house he just started a partnership he just bought a car he just bought a hotel everybody's everybody's doing good we're not slaves anymore so what are we going to leave for M said listen the whole reason why hasem put all the Mak is for you to leave Egypt to go get the Tor no we're not interested and that's why after we left Egypt the very next par starts with the word word v means like o oh no am was very sad because every single one of them knew somebody that died how is that possible the sages explained to us that unfortunately our sleepiness our spiritual sleepiness caused us to not want to leave Egypt and not want to do chuv so hasem killed us in the best case scenario he killed 80% of is the worst case scenario was 99% some say Alva was one out of five that survived Egypt but everybody knows not even one out of 500,000 survived mid noise meaning that only two people out of every million of actually left Egypt so now this was a problem for is and it's still a problem that we have today and the reason why is because as I said in the sh last week most people like to sing the song mashia mashia mashia Let's have the mashiach come now we say it as part of our 13 principles of faith we say once in a while something happens oh mashia is going to come this year gimat of mashia is Donald Trump gatria of this gimat of that mashia here mashia there everybody says mashia but anybody ever really asked themselves M like bit between us don't tell anybody bit though anybody really ask themselves mhia comes tomorrow Al you have says oh Mash here three days let's go pack your bags don't even pack your bags not enough time the airlines don't have room anybody has everybody has to fit you going mashia comes are you going you leave your house they you just extended that you just built that you just the new car the new job you just got a raise you really leaving you're leaving Egypt the reality is most people know most people going to say can he come next year can he come uh after I take the vacation I'm busy now I signed a contract with uh such and such company most people don't really want mhia to come theoretically it's nice because we think that mashia is going to solve all of our problems so most people that have problems which is pretty much everyone think the mashia is going to solve our problems but the reality is quite quite different mhia is not here to solve our problems he's not a psychiatrist he's not a therapist he's also not a lotto he's quite different the Masia is here to save those that have done CH now for the most part most of us don't think that we need to do chv how do I know you see in the sh you travel in different places and everybody that comes gets motivated gets excited but for the most part it's like I knew all this I knew a lot of the things you said it's good I'm good not everybody wants to change you have a room of 100 people maybe five six 10 want to changed the other 90 good good thank you very much but nothing changed the next day we go back to normal so the same thing I ask is with Egypt why did isra want to do chuva you saw the Miracles you saw that Hashem just destroyed the biggest civilization in the world every single country in the world was paying Egypt taxes you you saw nature change the water became blood there's a frog the size of a dinosaur Little Frogs coming out of it there's lava inside ice it's defying nature animals from the Arctic are showing up in Egypt just killing Egyptians leaving all the Jews alone I mean you saw things happen it's not enough to motivate you to do Chu I mean you saw polar bear show up to the lecture say Okay I want to hear too you wouldn't do cha because of that PA bear no how want to do Chua why did they want to do Chua so one time I said this and I think it's true everyone thought they were okay why do they think they were okay because they use the same exact excuse we're still using to this day we suffered so much my grandfather was a rabbi abuu yobu everybody's grandfather was a rabbi everybody's grandfather wrote a book everybody's grandfather was a big sadik and because of him we figured we're okay don't you know my grand I'm related to such and such I'm related to such and such and I know this one and I know that one my father's a sadik and my mom's sadik okay great but you're still going to clubs they what about you am was convinced that because they went through the of they went to the nightmare of nightmares pretty much in Egypt seeing their children die seeing a holocaust times a 100 happened in front of their eyes they figure we suffered enough we don't need to do Chua we've already gone through enough that we don't need to do Chua we went through what we did they killed our kids they killed our this they killed our that we don't have to do chuva we're gay we suffered enough we don't have to do chuva this epidemic is a reality that I lived for most of my life how so when I was 10 years old we came to the United States in Israel we went to a what you call a m school half religious half not religious Every You Know M Mas means a saw Shalom you say is like every day you cut off a Mitzvah every day use the S to cut a Mitzvah every day it's one less mitvah one less Mitzvah one less Mitzvah in America we call modern modern Orthodox modern schox all types of modern stuff we modern everything what what does it mean modern modern meaning we apply to our life if it applies good if it doesn't we leave it with you know from the generation behind us M same thing in Israel they have MTI here we have modern orthodox different things so in Israel we were M we went to school we had the keeper in school we at in school at home we took off everything now we thought that this is going to hold us up we came to the United States not realizing that unless you are 100% with hasem you're bound to become a go even without even realizing it and the reason is if you don't know what it means to be a Jew you can't be one if you don't know what it means to be one with Hashem to do what he wants to do what he says how you going to do it most people today think that they love Hashem I love hem I don't want to worship hem and serve hem through fear I want to serve him through love that's what a lot of speakers will tell you love you should love him it says supposed to love hem in reality it's one of the 613 MIT you're obligated to love hem and most speakers are going to tell you that you are supposed to serve hem through love now there's one little thing they don't tell you it's one little thing that you probably haven't heard at least not today maybe yesterday you heard it you cannot love hasem without fearing him first according to our sages fearing hasem comes before love why is that because you cannot love something if you don't know what it is you cannot love your wife without getting to know her first you may like the way she looks but that's lust that's not love unless you start listening to what she said is you can never fall in love with her you cannot love your husband if you just like his car you could just marry the car if you want but in reality if you want to love your husband you have to get to know him listen to what he says even though a lot of the stuff is nonsense in reality at the end you have to listen to what he says if you want to fall in love with him you have to get to know the person in order to love them with you have to get to know hem in order to love him now as soon as you get to just understand the smallest concept of what Hashem is which is that every single leaf outside you have trees bem every one of those trees has who knows how many leaves thousands tens of thousands of leaves every single one of those leaves if it decides you know what today I want to fall I want to fall on the ground and die before it falls and has to ask Hashem Hashem can I fall no that's the stay the next day asking hm today can can I fall no stay meaning that every single leaf cannot fall off the tree without getting the signature from hasem once somebody really gets their head around this that Hashem is really responsible for everything and anything that you see and don't see moves and doesn't move breathes or doesn't breathe everything and anything immediately you're scared naturally if you're a normal person you have to be scared why because that also means if he's respons responsible for everything he's also responsible for you he's responsible for the cells inside your body whether they work or don't work where they move or don't move as soon as a person understands the smallest concept the smallest level of understanding of hem immediately they're scared and that's why schl said the beginning of wisdom is fear of so now the sages explain to us that fear of hem by itself as a connection to Hashem is incomplete meaning if you're only serving hasem out of pure fear fear of gandom fear of punishment in this world and so on and so forth it's an incomplete connection it's not enough it's not good enough you have to do more ideally you should be fear and love love but love of hem without fear is no connection at all why no connection at all they say it's impossible to love AEM without fearing him now the lowest level of fear is fear of punishment the highest level of fear is meaning fear of his majesty it's like the fear of a relationship being ruined a husband is not going to stop himself from yelling at his wife because he's afraid she's going to slap her maybe she will but still not afraid really he's not going to do it simply because you doesn't want to hurt the relationship same thing with Hashem you're not going to make a sin because you don't want to hurt the relationship that's the highest level of fear and the sages explained to us that once you got to that highest level of fear like now I know you fear me when now I know you fear me that's the beginning of loving hasem meaning the high level of fear is the beginning of loving hem which means that most of us unless we work on it really really hard I'm never even going to get close to loving hasem because we still don't know what it means but yet I like most of you Sayang I love AEM whoever believes is never scared and all the wonderful songs that I believed I loved hem I just didn't want to listen to him I thought I did though in my own way my own unique way so we went to public school as teenagers I was a very good student in school I played Sports I had three jobs already got used to making money when I was young when I was uh 18 years old I got into the stock market business initially working for other people and uh realized this is a good business to be in because the guys that make it make it big and I already when I was 17 years old I was working in the electronics business and having a few other gigs on the side I was already making $100,000 when I was 17 so for me I wasn't interested in just making a good living I was interested in becoming a millionaire very competitive and it made a lot of sense to be in the stock market business I saw everybody in the office the ones that made it had very fancy cars fancy suits fancy lives I wanted to be part of it after jumping around in the beginning through a couple firms I settled at a place called Raymond James which is still a big firm public company and uh decided this is going to be the place that I'm going to start my career initially I worked for I supposed to be working with this one guy named Steve he ended up lying to me and cheating me out of money but after that was exposed I convinced the uh manager the office manager to let me be on my own meaning be my own independent contractor within his office like everybody else and not be forced to be partners with anybody who work for anybody he said oh think about it he asked me what uh why should I give it to you and you're not you know you're 21 years old you don't really have much experience I mean you've already been in it for a couple years but you don't have any experience dealing with like clients why should I let you do it so I'm the first one here I'm the last one here I work harder than everybody else here I'm very committed and um what do you have to lose and he said well listen you know you have to pay me about $4,000 a month in expenses every month regardless of whether you make money or not I said Jo no problem what is it for it's for the phone $1,000 for the computer x amount of money for the secretary that you're not using x amount of money for this every bunch of different fees okay fine because you have the money I said absolutely not he says how you going to how you going to pay it I said I don't know but I'm not going to go to another firm and start the whole thing again I just wasted a year over here I'm already wasting three years of my life working in different places let me just get going he says why should I let you do it what's your intentions here what are your intentions here I said to buy you out so I'm 21 years old with a long ponytail and a lot of Courage he found it amusing he said I'll get back to me he got back to me and he said okay no problem go ahead start a few days later September 11th started so it was a very interesting time to start a business but after about six months of suffering and not making a penny or at least whatever Penny I made went to him I actually started making some money the first six months were difficult how difficult every day I had to borrow a dollar from this guy named Demetri so I could buy 50 Cent coffee and 50 Cent donut that was my food for the day i' sneak on a bus every day to get to work and leave I start my day at about 5 get to the office at about 600 6:30 read The Wall Street Journal and whatever else I can get for free make some phone calls starting at 8:00 in the morning and not stop calling until midnight why did I stop at midnight it wasn't because I was tired it was because it wasn't allowed anymore California time 9:00 when tells you that he gives he gives the tired he gives him strength this is one p I didn't have any strength I didn't have any energy but I had a lot of drive that's what you do you fast forward six months I start making some money I made my first $1,000 to me it's like a million meaning it was the first time I actually kept $1,000 until this time I'm making some money but all of it's going to this guy but the $4,000 fees finally I got to keep $1,000 to me it was a million dollars even though already made a lot of money beforehand all that money is gone the next month I made five the next month I made five next month I made 10 next month they made 17 November of 2002 a little over a year after to September 11th and made $117,000 in one month to me I was a millionaire to the rest of the office too I broke an office record all of a sudden I became somebody after that everything changed after that A bad month became 50 $660,000 fast forward another year in August of 2003 I became the number three largest producing broker in the entire country for the entire company of Raymond James they had about 5,000 Brokers the top 25 list average career was about 20 years I was already in it for a couple years with them for only a year and I was number three in the country I made my first million dollars at least take-home whatever it was before that I have no idea and I'm 23 years old I bought my parents a house finally after 20 something years of being in America they finally owned the house bem and decided that it's time for me to strike out on my own and start my own firm started ring Enterprises started hiring some Brokers start hiring some trainees started training people to be like me and I was convinced that they're going to be just like me why who wouldn't want to be that was my con that was my idea who wouldn't want to make a lot of money you're in a business already you're already going to work every day who doesn't want to work from 5:00 in the morning till midnight I didn't realize that other people actually had lives so I hired people thinking they're all going to be just like me but in reality they didn't want to be just like me they wanted the after effect they wanted the money part of it but they didn't want the work part of it so that was a big shell shock for me my father always told me look at your fingers see all your fingers they're all different that's people they're all different don't ever think someone's going to be like you but that was already a few years into it I already wasted a ton of money into each guy but anyway my business continued to grow over the next couple of years it got to a point where a bad month became $200,000 but the bills were also $200,000 $185,000 a month in bills run the business big office big house lot of employees research whatever whatever else comes with it but for the you know my entire life I never really cared for expensive things as far as to go fancy cars and fancy houses and fancy jewelry but for the first time in my life I could buy whatever I want so this was my life now when it came to Judaism I was just like Mo most of am today 90% of American Jews today do not observe Shabbat 90% we have about six million Jews in the United States a PW research said that only 600,000 of them actually keep Shabbat 5.4 million do not keep Shabbat and I think they're being conservative now what does it mean to keep Shabbat in Judaism does it mean that if you don't keep Shabbat you're not considered Jewish does it make you any less of a Jew if you ask the average Jew if keeping Shabbat is a make or break of Judaism most people tell you no he just doesn't keep Shabbat his mom is Jewish he's still a Jew his dad is a Jew he's still a Jew he still goes to be once or twice a year for Yip or sh he's still a Jew he donates a few dollars here and there when the rabbi calls he's still a Jew he has a good heart he's nice to people he's very generous at Lea looks like it he has a nice car big house he's a Jew no he lives in a Jewish Community his girlfriend's not Jewish but he's a Jew though his kids are not Jewish but he's a Jew and little by little we start adding these other things and we start realizing maybe really isn't a Jew so the definition of a Jew is not only based on who your mom is this is one of the most Politically Incorrect statements you ever hear you'll ever hear but the reality is that your mom being a Jew qualifies you to be a Jew qualifies you to be a Jew but it doesn't make you a Jew why before mat T before we got the Torah in Mount sa we're called B only after mat did the word Jew appear in a Tora first time being with only after we were called only after Judaism was born but if it's all based on everyone's mom none of their moms were Jews why they all Noah Heights technically before mat everybody was a noahide everyone is Noah so what made everybody a Jew the Torah the Torah following the Tor is what made everybody a Jew ifom decide not to keep the T and somebody else came along and said to hashm Hashem we'll take the Torah they don't want it we'll take it guess what they would be the Jews not us that obviously would never happen because would have destroyed the world but that's a different story meaning that the only thing that actually makes a person a Jew is whether they follow the Torah or not and that's why the ramb shab Chapter 30 last says that a Jew that violates Shabbat on purpose he drives on Shabbat smokes cigarettes on Shabbat plays with his phone on Shabbat on purpose decides that Shabbat is for the religious people but not for him is considered 100% an idol worshipper he's not considered a Jew he's excluding himself from Judaism all together to such an extent that if you wanted to let money to him and make money out of it which is strictly forbidden to do between one Jew and another you would actually be allowed it's still not recommended but you're actually allowed to lend a Jew that violat Shabbat money in charge of Interest now what does this mean if you lend money to another Jew that actually keep Shabbat and charge of interest you could lose just simply for that just for Lending another Jew money and charging him interest no you keep shab you keeper this that you kept everything you're sadik you learn money with with interest lose it's so simple to lose but if that Jew doesn't keep Shabbat he's not considered a Jew you allowed to charge him interest but still ROM says it's still not recommended it's allowed but it's not recommended why what if he does Chua you have to return the money you have to return the interest the point being R is that not keeping Shabbat it's not a m it's not a debate whether it puts somebody's Judaism on suspension or not it's a reality but it's a reality that most of us didn't know I didn't know even though I had rabbis coming to my office three times a week three times a week they' come and they tell us something usually had to do with give us we're building this give us we need for this we have a camp we have a party we have a this we have a that give us we were very good at we had money they needed it once in a while they convince a few guys to do late good but the system didn't work and the reason reason why it didn't work is because not a single person in my office myself included ever kept Shabbat except the one guy that was actually religious before he came no one ever knew no one ever knew was such a deal breaker with AEM we knew Shabbat existed obviously we weren't donkeys we knew that there's a seventh day in the week we knew that Hashem rested on the seventh we knew that some people don't drive on it we knew but we didn't know the magnitude what is it like you go to a restaurant and you know that they serve steak but you get the menu the guy gives you the menu he's like oh steak all types of steak you have five six seven different types of steak none of them have prices next to it you're like you know what give me all of them why they're free there's no price give me all of them and guy said no no no sir turn the menu around turn the menu around for a second you turn the menu around you you almost became blind from the prices each steak minimum price 100 bucks oh hold on a second don't give me all of them before you give me all of them hold on a second let me call my mortgage broker let me see if I can afford one of these Stakes why what happened sir you wanted the all five six Stakes no I already called no no no hold on a second now I know the price now I know the price of what it means to order a steak let can I have half can I have a bite guys have a bite of this guy he didn't eat the whole steak I can't afford $100 steak everybody knows Shabbat exists even the reforms know Shabbat exists when they're cheering for us to uh to uh go send our Israeli soldiers to jail because we're killing terrorists even they know Shabbat exists but very few know the magnitude so tells us certain things in our Sid through our sages that we just skim through every day and while you guys were praying I actually took the liberty of borrowing one of your and it gave me an Insight which everybody does and if you don't you should you say a few BL blessings one of the blessings that you say is he opens the eyes of the blind what was the last time you saw blind person start seeing again there's nice stories about it in thear and different places but in reality you think that because 1 2 3 4 5 a thousand people went from being blind to now seeing again you think that's what we do for them it's past it's Mount sa there's a bunch of people that were blind because the evil Egyptians plucked their eyes out ruined their eyes did a bunch of things so hasm gave him the vision again the guy was missing an arm he gave him an arm the guy was missing a leg he gave him a leg he fixed everyone you think that's what we do this B the B is for them no it's for us so what does it have to do with us what's have to do with us is telling us before you start your day just start with a nice what's the you're a you're blind why you're struggling to do you're struggling to do what hem is obligating you to do anyway you think you have a choice you have a choice but it's not free choice we think we have free choice free choice means I do whatever I want and everything is good that's free choice that's not the choice we have choice we have is we do what we want and then there's a consequence for it there's good and there's bad that's one of our 13 principles of Faith Hashem says he rewards the righteous and he punishes the wicked is that he wakes us up from this Slumber that we're in we think that we could do whatever we want and nothing is going to happen Hashem says I'm going to wake you up how we're going to wake you up it all depends on you the r Shalom says before the mashia comes is going to be 15 days of darkness and during those 15 days is going to punish all of the wicked that did not do chuv just like there was three days of darkness in Egypt 15 days of darkness in goog 15 days of darkness before mhia comes why hem is closing all of the accounts all of the all of the blind that chose to stay blind okay he's going to have to take care of him at that point you chose to be blind no problem I told you every day wake up I'm gonna wake you up you don't want to wake up so the ra Shalom says to do CH before the mashia comes requires requires Merit requires M to have Merit to do chv you have to have Merit to stop being blind to realize that we're in Egypt some people are going to realize this through nice lectures you hear some strange guy talk maybe one of the two words that he says actually hit something and we start doing chuva some people see it on the internet some people see it at sh some people see it through their friends some people a CD some people a seminar some people a phone call some people something happens in their life for me was a little different on November of 2006 November 18th of 2006 I was perfectly healthy I just had an annoying little problem it was called hemorrhoids now don't worry 66% of the population has it it wasn't a rare disease it wasn't even a disease it's just something that people have pregnant women have it sometimes even children have it the point is it depends on your diet depends on the food it depends on H it depends on many many things cause it I went to a doctor and he said to me it's not really such a big problem you come to me you have a surgery on Wednesday you're back to work on Monday I said okay so I'm only missing out a couple of days out of work that's not so bad to me that was the only thing that mattered why because every hour I'm making $3,200 you make $3,200 an hour work becomes important said okay so I'm only missing a couple of days okay I could afford that no problem Hashem says I sent you test in different way you didn't pay attention you want to stay evil you want to stay okay so I have to remind you I have to remind you that you can't stay any evil you can't stay any evil so so did anybody ever have a toothache you guys ever have a toothache or I'm the only guy in the world that had a toothache you can raise your hand if you had a toothache you had a toothache before it's terrible right what's the greatest thing about a toothache when it's over it's over right now imagine having a toothache and it's not over and there's no hope there's no doctors all the doctors went on vacation there's no chance for the toothache to end there's no pliers to pull the tooth out nothing you're just by yourself on an island two thick not going away can you imagine such a thing that's the that's that's if anyone has a difficulty in understanding punishment in sham just imagine that permanently for the smallest sin toothache that doesn't end ever that's punish now this is hard for us to imagine so sent me to tell you how it feels like so on November 18th 2006 I went to a surgery great surgeon great Hospital everything wonderful the guy had experience of almost two decades he says he performs two to three surgeries a day he's he's he's something amazing he's out of this world I could have all the money in the world that I could afford a good doctor everything's good now I wake up out of surgery but I'm not smiling instead I'm screaming now I can't scream because of it's not nice but imagine the loudest possible scream imagine and it doesn't end it doesn't end not for a minute not for an hour not for two hours not for three hours not for five hours not for a day or a week for 62 days 62 days of screaming with very very rare breaks in between no longer than 15 minutes and the only reason why 15 minutes is because I pass out from the pain and 50 or 60 painkillers they have no idea what happened they have no idea what's wrong but all they know is something happened during a surgery it changed the makeup of my body some nerve was cut something happened but no one has a clue no one has a diagnosis but all they know is I'm dying from a hemorrhoid surgery that has nothing to do with anything all of a sudden my eyes start bleeding my ears start bleeding I'm bleeding Bing from both sides of the body that are coming out even the holes that are not there I'm screaming and yelling the only thing that somewhat comes it down is the less pain of putting my body into boiling water different level of Fun by the way you ever get burned by by tea imagine something a little hotter than that and you have to put your whole body in there that somewhat calmed me down down for like 2 minutes not because it was felt good it was because it was different pain the pain just changed 62 days 62 days of seeing G in this world I thought it was over after two months I didn't die I asked people to kill me but no one wanted to listen and uh after those two months I thought you know pain started subsiding I only had to take about 20 or 25 pain killers a day meaning I still had a lot of pain but nowhere near what I had before but still it was something I was able to start walking again talk different body parts stopped bleeding I thought I had a second chance at life life I woke up I thought so but I woke up in a different way I just started appreciating things appreciating life appreciating Freedom appreciating money I had appreciating that God gave me a chance but I still never really got to know I still never really asked what's the dean if I don't keep Shabbat I still never asked what's the dean if I'm not married to a Jew still never asked a lot of questions I figured that if it was really important one of the rabbis coming to my office would tell me they're coming three times a week still each time they're collecting some kind of money sometimes a hundred sometimes a thousand I figured at some point I'm paying them enough to tell me the truth no nine months later I feel a pain in the back of my leg by the next morning I can't walk within a couple of hours I'm in an emergency room and the doctors tell me that if I would have waited another couple of hours the absis that I have inside my body would have blown up it would have g into my blood system and I would have died so lucky I was there lucky emergency surgery worse than the first this time I'm an intensive care unit with the people that are dying for the next 3 weeks weeks next three weeks I'm pressing the morphine button non-stop as long as it works why the pain was unbearable and the most interesting part of those surgeries by the way if anybody ever wants to try is they cut you but they don't sew you back up they leave it open and they actually open it several times again every day to make sure that all the infection comes out of the body now I'm giving you this graphic nature simply because this was my life and this is not even for one small punishment this is not the equivalent of one small punishment for not going against for going against the anyone that wants to know real details should watch my sh that I did a few months ago about G now why do I tell you all this stuff do I really want anyone to have nightmares tonight no the reason why is because without knowing the cost of going against theem it's very easy to go against him if we don't know the price we're going to order the entire menu if we don't know there's a consequence we're just going to do whatever you want but says what does it mean why you need a reminder you're not a yes where my mom is a Jew my father's a Jew I go to beet every day I have a keep I have I do I even learn once a week what's the problem no you could be learning every day and still be a you could be learning every day and still be a why your mentality your mentality is you don't want to be like mosenu you want to be like LeBron James I see kids in shoes all the time wearing their basketball uh their their their uh keepa with a basketball symbol on it little kids they have keepon parents like oh my kids are religious my kids are Rel look they have a keep on they have on but they have the NBA symbol on on the on the keep you ask the kid what do you want to be when you grow up go no they who you want to be I want to be LeBron James you might as well want to be Papo I want to be ham I want to be Donald Trump means that the best of them the best of them is still not like you we're reminded every single day you have no right no right to be a no right to want to be a no right to even think like it why you are the reason why hasm created the world you sitting here are the reason why hasem created the world now if you don't realize it that's a problem soem says I'll remind you every day go for you remember for you Hashem created the world for you little you that no one knows no one heard of no one read those books no one nothing you Jew hasem created the world if you think anything else you're still thinking that maybe the is better if you're jealous of any in the world whether it's Donald Trump or Carl icon or any of these billionaires millionaires trillionaires whatever they are if you're jealous of any one of them for a second you haven't fulfilled the why you think that what they have means something that's why David says don't be so upset don't be so worried about the money of a person why it doesn't go with him anyway after 120 stays here it's kids fight over it being in the investment business I got to deal with a lot of millionaires and billionaires and so on trust me when I tell you from experience being one of them and dealing with them it doesn't make a single person happy not one person in the history of mankind was ever happy because of money not one not one you can chase money you could have money you could be handed all the money in the world that you wanted it's not going to change your state of happiness for a second you may be able to buy stuff but stuff doesn't make you happy makes you excited you have a phone you have a car you have a house you have a this but the excitement goes away after a week a month two months maximum three months it goes away and the more stuff you have the less less excited you get that's why sometimes you go to the Millionaire's houses and they have closets full of brand new stuff they never opened they bought but they never opened it why they got so used to buying stuff they forgot to use it but what are they going to do with the money other than buy stuff means that each and every single one of us should be jumping for joy that hasem chose us to be a Jew should be excited to be do mitv excited to dress like a Jew look like a Jew name like a Jew but none of us know this I didn't so hasem woke me up he woke me up with a lot of pain nine months later I have a surgery and the surgery puts me back into square one after that heals I figure it's over now six months later another pain the different leg I'm back in the hospital I'm back in the icy unit more recovery more pain more painkillers okay three surgeries is enough right three months later I'm back in the emergency room another surgery the doctors are asking how are they all related how are they all connected what's the diagnosis why is it happening how is it connected to an original surgery has nothing to do with it then the rest of the body starts failing I start getting different pains all over my body a month later I'm back in the hospital another surgery it gets to a point where every single month I'm in a hospital every single month I have to have a surgery body starts failing in every way shape or form except dying one day I wake up and I start feeling pain in my legs later on that afternoon the legs start becoming very puffy by the next day they've doubled in size I go to Cornell University Hospital in New York which was considered a top Hospital in my opinion they're full of morons and I'll tell you why I went to the best guy there and imagine I'm 20 something years old I'm in a lot of pain obviously and my legs just happened to double in size so you figured the guy's going to give you some type of explanation or just say I don't know it's okay you don't know you don't know it's actually say I don't know it's you don't know it's good he says sir I think maybe it's from the Sun I think your legs doubled in size because of the Sun from the heat I said I think the sun hit your head a little too much what do I look like I sat in the Sun for a year so obviously the guy didn't know anything I'm sure they have other good uh doctors in that hospital I just happened to fall on the uh genius one of them so anyway this obviously wasn't the right diagnosis I went to different doctors they laughed at the original doctor saying it's from the Sun said it has nothing to do with the Sun but we definitely don't know what it has to do with pain continued I wasn't able to walk for a little while I had to start using a cane and I got used to living in pain 24 hours a day seven days a week no break no Shabbat Hashem says no Shabbat for me no Shabbat for you how long seven years seven years of surgery seven years of doctors seven years of suffering with no end but I don't mean seven years like oh it's nice no seven years seven years of gay during that time the remember the millions that I made they start disappearing just like the good times did remember those friends that I made that used to work for me they also start disappearing like the good times did it's amazing when you have money you have a lot of friends you don't have any money the friends go away for some reason so I realized that this wakeup call is not from something from this world because over 50 doctors that I went to from all types are trying to figure it out regular medicine holistic medicine steroids I became an experiment in a science study really I did they would inject me with uh ozone which is purified air to purify my blood as an experiment two three times a week it kind of feel like death like you know they put they give it to you and you feel like you're dying for like the next hour and a half two hours very interesting very interesting treatment they never actually did anything for me I'm sure it helps other people just not me I hope it helps other people or else the experiment was a complete waste so I tried that I tried steroids I tried vitamins I tried all types of wonderful things especially when you have money you could do whatever you want eventually the money started going now in the beginning everything I that I touched went from Sand to gold now everything that was gold was turning back to sand if it was a miracle to make the money it was a bigger Miracle losing all of it very very quickly the market crashed my business crashed everything in between crashed I couldn't really work to supplement the the losses the the expenses continued being high and obviously the income continued deteriorating everything collapsed now at some point I realized that this is not really a good life and decided maybe I should end it I wanted to kill myself now all everybody's saying oh maybe you shouldn't no it's not okay if you lived my life trust me you want to kill yourself too but it wasn't a good idea and Hashem knew it the one good thing I had going for me is that promised us that he would never give us a test that we can't stand meaning that every single person that has ever committed suicide really had another Choice really had another choice and made a mistake and that's why they get judg in shamim as a murderer a murderer of themselves now I started thinking planning hasem had a different plan my mom God bless her she started calling different rabbis from all over the world try to get a blessing tell them the story but it happened to be that that day no one answered the phone until she called the number in Israel about two hours into our dialing Rampage she found a number in Israel she called it some woman answered she asked for a certain Rabbi and the woman said I'm sorry in Hebrew it's not uh it's the wrong number my mom starts hysterical crying to a strange woman she doesn't know this woman and made a miracle happen and the woman happened to be my cousin my name is Pina now Pina and my mom have never actually talked on the phone before they didn't have each other's phone numbers meaning that my mom called a wrong phone number in a different country and got to one person that knows her and not only knows her but could actually recognize her voice and not only recognize her voice but it's actually all the only person that could help how can she help she asked my mom what why are you crying she tells her the whole story my son is dying da D all these different wonderful things about me compliments and she says well if you're looking for a rabbi why don't you call my brother rabim he's he's call happens to also live two buildings away from RAB vadya call him if you can help you connect you to so you would talk to me of course youor is from America you're theor from from America of course got to talk to you call him she calls him he's in a call of course but he calls her back she tells him the whole story and I have never met I didn't know he actually existed when I left Israel he was still a baby younger than I am by eight or nine years and eim klon RAB k now he God bless him as a genius but again for me I didn't know what a Torah genius even was so when he spoke to my mom the first question that uh you know she started telling them things the first question he asked is do I speak Hebrew because he doesn't speak English and uh she said uh yeah he speaks Hebrew like all so can I call him you can call him but he's probably not going to talk to you he's not really talking to anyone barely talks to family and just at that moment when she said he's not going to call you he's not going to talk to you I decided to call my mom now the reason why I decided to call my mom was because again I had suicidal thoughts and I thought maybe it's nice for me to call my mom and be nice to her before I kill myself so I call my mom and she's hysterical crying talking to FR on the other line and she she I'm already in the middle of the conversation here she says talk to to him talk to him and I have no idea what she's talking about said to who said to who's a and why are you crying why is this a FR making you cry she goes no no he's not making me cry just talk to him he's he's he's your cousin he can help you I said okay listen if it's going to make him stop crying just have him call me I'll talk to him it's horrible to hear your mom cry soim calls me and immediately you know we we hit it off he starts uh asking if I know the story of yudah and Tamar the story of Judah and Tamar famous story in SE of how yud had two son he's one of the 12im 12 sons of yov and uh in the middle of the whole story of yadik you have the story of you Tam now the reason why this is all in the middle kazal tells us is because this just like the story itself is unusual the whole lineage of mashia is unusual and this is the beginning of the story of mashia mashia comes from yud it came from that marriage between yud and Tamar but before yud and Tamar became yud and Tamar y actually tried marrying Tamar the sadika to one of his sons but his son decided that he didn't want to make his wife have children he want to keep her pretty just like she was when she was young so he continued wasting seed instead of making her pregnant he would waste the seed and we learned from already Noah that we're not allowed to waste seed whether we Jews or non-jews were not allowed to waste seed to such an extent that hasem says it's considered 100% murder a man that waste seed is considered a murderer in the eyes of hem now if he does it on purpose meaning he knows that he's not allowed and he still does it according to the it's the biggest sin in Judaism so now did not want to have children and he wasted seed so what does the Torah say Hashem killed them so then y wanted to fulfill the mitvah have his second son marry Tamar because they didn't have a son yet and if they have a son then name the son after the first son so Onan married Tamar but Onan was also R he also wanted to waste seed he also didn't want to have a kid he also wanted to keep her pretty he wanted to have a second wife what one wife for pregnancy one wife to for good looks arm candy they called in today's world said arm candy no problem arm candy in the K in the grave he killed them too from here we learn that even before we weren't allowed to weigh SE to such an extent that hm says if you want to do it you want to kill seed I'll kill you instead to that extent is how horrible the sin is today unfortunately most people don't even know it's not allowed such as the ignorance of the generation so now the story continues and eventually through different strange events Tamar and yud get together become intimate and have children this was the first story that told me there's more details to the story but for lack of time I'll just summarize it that way now I asked why did Hashem do all this for what what's the point if you want you D Tamar to be together just have you D Tamar just meet each other and that's it what's the for what's the whole story for makes it interesting though doesn't it the Satan knows that every single time a Jew makes a mitvah he's creating angels angels that are going to help him make more the reward for one Mitzvah is another Mitzvah the rambam says that anyone that thinks that any of their reward is going to be in this world that if their new car their new house new business or new building or money anything that they got material in this world is actually a reward for their has no idea what it means to have from has no idea what it means to have reward from hasem the only reason why hasem will give you more material is simply in order to help you make more mitv not because he want you to have more material it's in order to help you make more mitv because no amount of material in the world could ever be enough of a reward for a single Mitzvah so this very same yet knows that every time you make a sin on the other hand you make a demon you make a bad Angel and that angel helps you make sins the reward for the uh punishment for a sin is another sin and that's why every single time you see somebody falling off a little bit they make one small thing the guy goes to Yeshiva he's good whatever everything is good he's a good student but all of a sudden he smokes a cigarette on Shabbat hey peer pressure something happened he smoked a cigarette on Shabbat or ate a burger from B you know from Burger King or McDonald's or whatever these drift places are reality is he eats something he does something not good six months later there's no TT there's no Tali there's no B there's no the guy's a go how he grew up from everything was good six months later he's oh what happened what happened every single time you sin you give more power to the every time you sin it creates more power more inclination to sin again and sin again and sin again and sin again this is why in the Tora it says that when somebody made an accidental sin let's say for example they accidentally violated Shabbat accident during the times of bet mikdash they accidentally violated Shabbat not on purpose on purpose they kill them but if it's accidentally what do they say you do you bring Corban bring Coran what does the cow have anything to do with your sins what did she do M she tells you sin you should be killed not me you sined why are they killing me because you're sined I'm the cow I'm good I'm Mo all day moo all night what do you want for my life why are they killing me for you you sinned you violated Shabbat not me so the reality is the reason why the Corban is is as such is because it was created for to benefit from but the reason why you're supposed to watch thean being killed is because hm is telling you in reality it's supposed to be you you violated Shabbat accidentally you're still supposed to get a death penalty but because it was accidentally I'm having mercy on you so now the question is why the Corban what hasm eats the cows he doesn't have enough cows in sham what does he need the Corban for what does he the dove for what does he need all this stuff for what does he need all these coote the real secret is or at least one of them is that he doesn't need any of it but the reason why we have the whole issue ofan is because as soon as you make an accidental sin according to the Torah you're supposed to be punished with what with the inclination to sin again so hasem says go make a Mitzvah really quickly go bring a Corban really quickly and break the chain whyb is a mitvah break the sin chain with a Mitzvah once you break the sin chain with a mitvah you make a mitvah then a reward for Mitzvah is what another Mitzvah get out stop sinning how do you stop sinning by making a mitvah you don't stop sinning by just sitting there like a uh donkey doing nothing no you have to do something doing Chua is not just sitting there sleeping all day on Shabbat doing Chua requires something now R started explaining to me all the different things in the T and he started telling me that all the questions that I ever had in my life are actually in the tah now the amazing part about it is that every time I asked him a question he went to him oh wow what a great question such and such Rabbi asked the same question 850 years ago in this book on this page and I thought to myself how do you remember this how do you remember it was 800 years ago how do you remember the rabbi's name how do you remember the P who remembers page numbers I didn't think I didn't this is not even I was considered in the secular world I was considered in the Torah World knew nothing this guy remembers page numbers B A this that the year number the rabbi's name I'm like wow it's unbelievable it's a different level of wisdom he started giving me answers and every question I had somebody asked it before there was no question that no one asked and I didn't really I didn't really realize how many questions I had until I realize it's nine months straight we're talking every week for an average of seven hours per conversation not per week one conversation seven hours straight every Thursday 4 o'clock we talk for seven hours in the beginning the first conversation was an hour and 40 minutes second conversation was 3 hours third conversation was 5 hours after that 7 hours every week and I'm learning non-stop everything I'm learning I'm writing down then I'm teaching my wife which by the way was not Jewish but I didn't know that was such a big problem yet all I knew it wasn't allowed but I thought Hey listen she's a good woman and I'm a nice guy I donate a lot of money so the reality is that I wake up and I realize that I'm swimming naked I have no MIT everything that I thought was a mitvah really in reality is probably not now the Shalom says something very scary in page 67 B 67a it says the story of nagon benon nagon benon also says in a couple of other places in the tor it says thaton benon was a very very big donator he's one of the three financiers of am Isel during the times of War where the three of them literally gave enough money for all of am is to survive but one Dayan Zak sees his daughter looking through the waist of the donkeys of the Arabs look looking for food inside the waste of the of the of the animals he say who are you oh I'm such and such he goes wait a minute isn't your father the richest man of the land because he used to be he used to be we're not talking Millions here we're talking billions trillions whatever it is in those days something unbelievable the amount of wealth they had and now you see his daughter looking through the waist of donkeys it's what happened to your father's wealth says he lost all of it every single penny of it so the debate what's the reason what's the reason that he lost the money and they say something very scary the 400 years ago says that when a person gives meaning meaning he's giving something to the to a of organization to a rabbi to whatever but he's not giving it really he's not giving it because he cares about theet he's not giving it really because he cares about or he cares about AEM or he cares about Tor he's giving it because he wants everyone to know hey I got money he's giving it for his cavod says this was nimon Ben even though he was a righteous person is came from the wrong place it came more for his own honor than it did for and for that that type of not only doesn't offer protection of the wealth or of the health but according to the is actually considered a sin and he says there's no way to make a mitvah by way of sin him giving that way where he's only looking for it's really a sin there's no mitvah for it he says there's other that are more lenient about it the point being is that a lot of the money that I gave away I thought was doing good for me in reality maybe got me gave me enough time to do Chua but as far as being enough wasn't even the beginning had to wake me up in a different way and I started realizing that a lot of the things that I were doing I was doing was not good enough I spent almost 20 years on Wall Street becoming an expert in it but I still didn't know the purpose of life I spent 20 years on Wall Street learning the different intricate details of how to analyze a company how to analyze an economy how to analyze an industry a business you give me a business I can tell you in five minutes how much it's worth you give me a balance sheet I'll tell you every single hole in it the least that I can see see within a few minutes one of the fun things that I did was look for red flags I'd look for companies and I'd find out all the problems they have who's stealing money who's getting paid under the books who has illegal deals stuff like that red flags who's being overvalued who's undervalued all types of interesting things I found the pro that was my my intricate uh expertise was finding something that other people missed sometimes it's because it's undervalued so perhaps a company that's really worth a lot more no one has really giv them the right value for a certain asset let's say they have I don't know a lot of real estate that's off balance sheet that's owned by a different entity that they own and the balance sheet says oh they just own this entity and it's valuing it at I don't know a million dollars but in reality that entity really has a billion dollars worth of real estate in it so that shows there's a billion dollars hidden within the company so that's something I would find on the other hand it would be something else like oh by the way this company is cheating on their balance sheet they're cheating on their books it's called cooking the books they're reporting x amount of earnings but in reality it's all lie they're reporting that they're making money but in reality they're losing money so this is what I did now I knew a lot about this but the red flags of my life I never even looked into the red flags of my life I never really thought existed and thear tells us that the average person is never going to look for it in fact the average person even if you tell him that he has red flags will disagree with you the first thing that a person does when you tell them that they have to change is n no you're wrong their natural inclination not me if you tell somebody they need to do chva immediately they look behind them who's he talking to to ask do chva everyone's looking at the guy next to him the woman next to him yeah he's talking yeah yeah she's probably not keeping something everything I mean sadik I need sadik I'm good I don't have to do Chua but the reality is after doing this for the last four or five years I'm realizing that there's no such thing as someone that's from anymore it's either you're a b cha or you're not everyone has to do chuva everyone if you go to col from day from morning to night or you're somebody just starting to keep Shabbat over the last couple days or you haven't even started yet everyone has to do Chua for something some people for Shabbat some people for some people for some people for their everyone has to do chuva for something and if you think that you don't have to do chuva we have a different sh for you but hasem is saying listen you have these mitv in the morning first thing you have to say is Hashem wakes up the sleeping the ones that are blind he makes them see he's not talking about blind people he's talking about us he's telling us we're not supposed to be go he's telling us that we're not supposed to be sleeping he's telling us we're not supposed to be wasting our time trying to be like the people around us little by little I started realizing this and I started doing chuva now obviously chuva is not easy and the reason why is because I had a lot of excuses first of all even though I didn't work on Shabbat it was my day off it was the day that I went to casino play some cards I relaxed watched movies did whatever I wanted to do now he's telling me that I can't do that I have to do something else I have to go to synagogue I have to pray I have to learn this is a very big change for me but I said you know what let's try it once I lived on the 35th floor so I can't really go to synagogue because I'm not going up and down 35th stories 35 stories so I'll just sit at home with my wife and we'll learn we did it we love it we've been keeping Shabbat ever since but now you have to start doing more stuff okay so you have to start learning how much can I learn is the seven hours that I'm learning with you enough he goes no so how much do you have to learn he goes you have to learn every day so how much every day seven hours every day he goes yeah ideally but no if you're not going to do seven hours a day do something every day all right can I do 15 minutes a day said if you're gonna do it every day then yes so yeah but can I just do eight hours with you instead of the 15 minutes a day technically it's almost the same he says no actually it's the opposite even if you have to replace the seven hours with me with 15 minutes a day do that no why 15 minutes a day is much less than seven hours he goes yes but just like your body needs to eat every day your soul needs to eat every day so if we have to make a choice i' rather you study 15 minutes a day than seven hours once a week I made the right choice and I did both the 15 minutes and the seven hours 15 minutes a day eventually became a half hour a day a half hour day became an hour a day an hour day became an obsession to a lot more and I tried studying as much as I could possibly consume little by little I started realizing the world around me is changing the pain didn't go away the money did but if I had some money left we decided that we wanted to move but again we have to we have this dilemma what's the Dilemma dilemma is that I'm still married to a non-jewish woman now I'm not leaving and neither is she and the reason why is because she's the only one that's been there to thick and thin when I was asking it to kill me she said no so that at least gives us some credit no one else in their right mind would have stuck out with me over the last 15 years and I said okay well listen obviously somebody has to be right here she was born Christian and she liked Judaism so I said why don't you just convert she goes yeah but Christianity doesn't allow it said who cares about Christianity goes but I kind of believe so I went on a New Journey what's the new Journey find out what's true if it's Christianity I'm becoming Christian if it's Judaism she's becoming a Jew so I started learning about Christianity obsessively just like the Torah part and every night I wouldn't necessarily sleep very much she'd wake up I'd wake her up at 6:00 in the morning with new look look it's a lie here look she's like I just woke up let me get some coffee leave me alone look it says here it says this and I find all the different mistakes in Christianity she realized after a little while this is not going away she said okay I'll start looking into it also she started looking into it she started realizing there something wrong but still not enough you can't just tell somebody stop believing if you really believe you can't just stop believing you can't just unbelieve the only way to make somebody either start believing or Stop Believing is by replacing the belief the first replacement is that what they believe currently is fake you can't just say listen Judaism is true yes I agree Christianity is not true oh not so much I don't agree so much okay so replace that one of you know for sure true with the one that we're not sure can't do it why I'm still not sure with this one and I'm sure with this one okay so maybe I'll just do both like the Messianic Jews do which are really all Christians they mix and match they mix and match okay we like Judaism it's good Torah is true so we'll keep that and Christianity we're not so sure about so we'll keep a few things here Hashem says I'm a jealous God there's no mean somebody else you can't have me and JC peny too you can't have me and somebody that believes that I'm three you can't have me and even your own ego if you have an ego you don't have me someone that's has ego someone that has arrogance hm says I can't be in the same room as him why his ego is leading him to believe he's God if he's God and I know I'm God we can't be in the same room because there's only one God somebody's own e ego can remove them from God so we started learning we started learning we started learning and started finding a lot of mistakes in the New Testament in fact there's more mistakes in the New Testament than we can count there's a mistake in every single page so we realized there's a problem there but how do you make somebody unbelieve one day I found a video by RAB I never KN before this was called the debate he had a debate with a uh some uh Christian Professor I found the debate to be amazing my wife not so much initially she thought that he's arrogant and the Christian guy's an idiot the Jewish guy is arrogant she didn't like either one she didn't want to listen to very much of it so okay fine this didn't really work as planned at least so I found something else by Rabbi tovia singer genius knows literally the Torah the Quran and the New Testament all by heart it's unbelievable how much he knows by heart it's a computer I give it to her I after I hear I don't know maybe 20 30 of his lectures I give her the information says oh he talks too fast for me okay this didn't work out it's planned and I keep finding different things all the way now I've got to the point where I've realized that that Christianity is not only that it's not true it's 100% idol worship idol worship mamash it's no different than praying to Buddha it's no no different than praying to I don't know to the wall it's complete nonsense and now I'm no longer worried about how become Jew becoming Jewish I'm not worried about how saving our own life because even she doesn't want to worship an idol but she doesn't realize it is yet so now it became a matter of P She save my life I have to save hers and then I go on and I continue learning and one day Hashem has a lot of mercy on me and he shows me a video called Torah and Science by the same Rabbi mrai I tell her listen we like science we like Torah let's watch this thing it's three parts it's only four hours Let's watch it together it's three parts says oh the Arrogant guy again say it's science it's science okay let's watch science good illusion most people think that science and Torah are not intermingled in reality it science is finally catching up to the Torah we watch part one we're amazed we think it's the greatest thing since slice bread we want to watch part two but part two didn't work I skipped part two which was very difficult for for me because I'm a very like precise person I have to go in order on things I'm a little bit of uh obsessive about it I'm the guy that reachs the preface in the book they wrote it for me I'm the one that reads like the guy says you know thank my wife and my cousins for helping me write the book I'm the guy that reads it so I have to read a book from beginning to the end so here I had to skip part two which for me was like but I skipped part two we start you know watching part three part three is amazing she tells me listen I know this Christianity is nonsense I believe it but I need some sign I need something you can't really ask Hashem for signs though we're not allowed not allowed to say hasem if you give me this car then I'll go to sh if you give me this job then I'll donate you can't do that we're not allowed but she did anyway she prayed to such an extent that she said hhm if you don't give me a sign then at least kill me because now I know for sure I can't stay married to him if I stay not Jewish and he's Jewish I can't stay married to him now since I know I'm not going to leave and he's not going to leave it's better off that I just simply die because at least he could live a Jewish life or if you want you can just show me a sign I'll be a Jew the next day I find part she W wakes up in a bad mood for the first time I've ever seen first and last time I've ever seen in a bad mood and we don't really feel like working that day the business is not really doing that great there's not very much left in it but I tell you listen you know let's learn at least let's learn more of this stuff that we learned yesterday and I find part two working of that tour and science video we start watching it and one part in it talks about Torah codes in the Torah codes in the book of Deuteronomy it says that Hashem will punish us after we worship idols by sending us to the four corners of the world where we will worship more Idols but still then he will allow us to do his CH do chuva if we look for him with all of our hearts and all of our soul now in that very verse there's a code that says that the there's these two Gods two fake gods that mentioned he says there's the god of wood and the god of stone and ra mrai says this is obvious that for anyone that understands religion the god of wood represents Christianity representing the cross and the god of stone represents mecca for Islam the two leading at least by number religions other than Judaism now this could simply be a coincidence now Torah codes found in there found that the name JC peny and also Mecca meaning the two most important names for both religions can be found inside that very verse it's the only verse in the entire to that has it I thought this was amazing but I've seen other Torah codes that in my opinion were more amazing to her that was the sign for her that was what she needed that was the one thing different people get different signs some people get a contract some people get an email some people get a meeting some people get Aid different people have different signs hem comes to you in different ways to her that was it on the spot she says okay how fast can I become a Jew we went through the whole conversion process Orthodox conversion went to the bed studied this we were already in it for a couple years before and anyway all we really need to do is make it official first day she accepted everything modesty everything and anything I mean that we weren't already doing she accepted and became the most righteous person I know now if you fast forward at that point we realize that doing kiru be is very very critical and the reason why is because we realize that we're not the only ones that have no clue we were considered very smart in the business World in a secular world but in a Jewish World in a real purpose world we were clueless and we realize that most people are just like us clueless they don't understand the consequence of not keeping Shabbat they don't understand the consequence of eating non kosher pizza they don't understand the consequence of walking around not modest they don't understand the concept of anything and one of the biggest reasons is because sometimes they look at religious people and they get become disappointed because many so-called religious people don't really want to be religious how many religious people do you know that want to be religious how do you know the answer ask yourself the question or ask them the question if you were born not Jewish would you convert if you were born not Jewish and you know Judaism was true but you also had an option to be a nohide would you convert to Judaism still the real answer is no for most normal people most normal people will answer no but that's because most people don't know the value of being a Jew and that's the religious population the non-religious population is even worse 94% according to PW research of American Jews believe that it's okay to work on Shabbat it's okay to work on Shabbat now if 90% are already working on Shabbat and 94% believe that it's okay to work on Shabbat that means that 4% out of the religious actually believe that you should be able to work on Shabbat anyway 4% which is 40% of the religious people in America don't really want to be religious according to that statistic these are horrible numbers but that's the reality I didn't make the statistic you have complaint go to PW research go to am somebody has to do something so we decided we have to do something what do we do we got to start informing people so we bought a bunch of CDs from RAB mrai and we started giving them out we said okay this is good it's not enough though so we had another book by RAB Rabbi zamir Cohen we started giving that one out and then we created something called the key roof package had the CDs from Rabbi mrai had the book from Rabbi zamir Cohen we had a few other intricate blessings and so on in it and we started sending it to different people different Jews all over the world we didn't have much money but we had enough money to do this every day I would be more excited about actually sending people packages than any business or anything else even though the money kept losing and everything started continued going to garbage it became meaningless to me cuz for the first time in my life actually had a purpose so we started doing KY problems continued I just stopped caring pain continued I just stopped caring for the first time in my life I became really happy and because life had a purpose we decided that we want to move out of New York we moved to Florida and my Rabbi told me okay it's time for you to start doing your own sh I said excuse me he said you you start speaking tell people what you know I said I don't know anything anything he says you know stuff I said I don't know anything he said no no you know stuff you know I I've been teaching you for a couple years you know something I said I don't know anything I don't know I know how to speak I don't know Torah you want to talk business I'll talk you about business from here till next year Torah I don't know anything goes okay just whatever you learn teach that said what goes yes said one mitvah yes anything yes just whatever you teach do it he says I do so I asked how am I going to start no one knows me I just moved here so one guy was from the moving company was fixing my bed and he liked that we had some Jewish music on he goes oh wow Jewish music I said oh you're Jewish goes yeah yeah I'm Jewish name was Nissan said listen I'm GNA start a sh you want to come goes yeah sure he goes when said Tuesday night course I'll be here said okay I have a student Tuesday night was me Nissan I told Nissan listen I'm going to tell you what God Said you do whatever you want but at least now you know so you're not dealing with the same problems I had I didn't know at least you're going to know rabbis came to my office for 15 years they never told me so I'm really upset at them why because at some point somebody should have told me I should keep Shabbat at some point somebody should have told me that is not the only mitv in T at some some point somebody should have told me by the way you're intermarried that's a serious problem at some point somebody should have told me something other than GI now of course the logic is listen he should have realized on his own or eventually going to do chuva it's all nonsense no one eventually does chuva nothing eventually happens hasem put you in a world to do something you have is in your business you have is in your life and your personal life with your marriage with your kids with everything else you also have to get to come back to you can't just keep showing up to offices or to expect everyone's going to do Chua by themselves just because they showed up unless you tell them they're doing wrong they're never going to do anything about it now if you look at the math here I'm the best subject in any experiment that shows that this study doesn't work how if they came to my office three times a week 15 years that's a lot of times but let's just do simple math once a week for 10 years once a week for one year is 52 times times 10 it's 520 that means they had 520 tries to get me to keep one Shabbat to just try it once 50/50 chance of I'm going to continue if I'm not going to try it after 520 visits when am I going to try it and obviously it was a lot more and I never kept Shabbat why because no one ever told me now I can't tell you I would have definitely kept Shabbat maybe it would have said no but it's still 50/50 the point is that no one is ever going to try anything unless you let him know so we realized that we have to go on a mission to let people know so I told this to Nissan and within the first 20 minutes of the Sho he says what do you mean I can't drive on Shabbat I've been driving to besset on Shabbat for the last 20 years and no one ever told me anything said what do you mean you drive to besset goes yeah I go to besset Every Shabbat like every Jew is supposed to go said okay so why can't you walk go oh it's far said so go to close to Bess he goes no but I like that one I like the one that I go to said yeah but you can't drive on Shabbat he goes by why didn't anybody tell me I said I don't know maybe you have the same rabis I did they just live in Florida too and I started realizing this is an epidemic this is an epidemic everywhere people that know simply feel like you should know too or maybe you know and you don't feel like doing it or they don't feel right telling you or whatever the excuse the puts in our head to convin Vin us not to say anything now here's the thing some of the things that I told you maybe was hard to hear G punishment sickness all that stuff some of the things may be funny but the reality is it's all true now if somebody has a disease and he doesn't know now he feels pain inside he says listen let me go to my best friend he's a doctor now his best friend grew up with him they were friends they were boys since they were little kids his best friend knows that they have vacation planned he has a family has kids he's excited about life and he knows that if he tells him that he's sick he's gonna cancel the vacation become really depressed maybe lose his mind a lot of bad things may happen so he decides not to tell him that he's sick is he still considered a friend because he didn't tell him according to logic he's considered a murderer and according to the law also because if he would have told him that he's sick maybe he would have gotten depressed maybe he would have gotten upset maybe would have canceled the vacation but he definitely definitely would have tried to fix the problem because no one wants to stay sick no one wants to stay sick so just not telling people is not the Cure and that's why theab page 54a all the way to 56 says that when he decided to destroy the bet mikdash the says how come you're only punishing the wicked and not these people he says these people are because they're not sikim say why they the rabis they fulfill the entire Torah from A to Z he says but they're not sikim why they're not sikim he says says because they knew the truth but they didn't tell the people hasem says you're right punish them first a person that knows the truth but doesn't tell his friend according to our Torah inherits the sin itself both people get punished for it if you have a daughter a son a husband a wife a friend a neighbor a colleague a somebody that you know that's living a lie you're obligated to tell them if you can't speak get somebody else to speak if you don't have somebody else to speak I brought you CDs give them the CDs I'll speak for you if you don't have a CD go to the website bash.org take one of the links give it to them we have WhatsApp groups we have uh you know the website we have YouTube channels we're on tour anytime we're on we're on Soundcloud we're coming out with an app very soon there's a million different ways you can deliver the truth trth if you can't do it yourself the point is stop staying quiet because people are losing because of it after we realized that the truth is this we started telling people the truth eventually people started listening Nissan started keeping Shabbat many more Nissans came to our door many more Nissan started doing chuva I realized that this is what Hashem wants me to do so I figured maybe I'll just do this and work on Wall Street a little bit work out of my house hasem said I don't want you to work out of your house at least not for W Street you could work out of your house for kiru but not for Wall Street so the little bit of money that I had left about a half a million dollars he took that too that's what job told his wife when she said oh why you keep worshiping this God that keeps taking everything from you he says he gave he took May be blessed it's all his anyway we contined doing K we continued getting other people to do CH over the last four years we actually started an organization we have all over the world people are doing CH every single day and we actually have a purpose money I don't have much of it but I never worry about it either I don't know where it comes from all I know is that the bills get paid the kids eat better than ever the wife is happy I'm happy we have a lot of T we have a lot of people that were helping and little by little is doing CH but I can't do it alone I need people like you I need people like you to be motivated enough to deliver the message some people have money some people have buttons use whatever you have you have a button on your phone press share you have money and no button use the money you have no money no button use your mouth take your hand take your V SE give it to somebody that's how the word gets from one hand to another that's how Danny got me to come over here I told people I'm coming to California he says oh come over here I'm here and we'll do more sh him here the key is that we can't continue this statistic of 90% of American Jews not keeping Shabbat and almost 90% of Cl is not keeping Shabbat it's a horrible statistic because that means that is is not considered Jewish right now our Judaism is on suspension our Judaism is on suspension it's tough to hear but it's the true no one can say oh no no he's wrong why it's Al it's not my law I didn't create it hm didn't ask me for permission before he wrote the Torah this is what it says in the Torah so when it says that he opens the eyes of the of the blind he opened my eyes this way the good news is not everybody has to suffer in order to have their eyes open they could just listen to the sh or many sh like it we've done the good news is that we no longer need to be jealous of theim we're supposed to be all we're supposed to be light to the Nations So when you say sh be proud of it think of the best go you know and say ah thank God I'm not him thank God I'm not her why I'm a Jew the world was created for me be a light to the Nations show them how to be better people not better than them because you're smarter or you have more money none of that stuff meaning you're fulfilling the will of hasem try to help them to do it also there's the righteous among the Nations and for anyone that has the excuse oh I don't have time I don't have strength I don't have this I don't have that says he gives strength to somebody that doesn't have strength if you want to do it Hashem will give you the K Hashem will give you the strength if you can't if you still can't do it it's because you never really wanted to do it you want to do km can help you you want to get hasem can help you you want to do chuva Hashem can help you just try do something any questions I'm sure go Ahad first time spoke to the story of okay it took me a few years to realize different parts of it says that student just like took him 40 years to understand the secrets of mosu their Rabbi someone that's close to their Rabbi will take them a long time to really understand the real reasons behind everything they did now one of the biggest reasons of why he chose that is because of the whole issue of the inter marriage into marriage aspect of it connects to the ud also the issue of wasting seed it's part of it uh and also the magnitude of sin meaning that hem is not our friend he's our God he doesn't joke around so when you tell people nice stories it's nice but when you tell people nice stories that also have significant consequence in them it's moving it causes people to change so that's why a lot of the uh that people hear many of them you'll hear like they're they're full of of the Tora full of things that are very extreme and the reason why is because those types of stories those types of events really move people to do something the whole point of every story is to move you to do something AA even you know people like to talk about without that doesn't lead you to action is not reala it's fake anything that you do has to lead to action or else it's superficial it's nothing it's nonsense so if you're learning Tor for the sake of just you just want to know stuff but you don't feel like doing it it's not even a Mitzvah notah you're actually making a sin why because you're using the Tor like it's a philosophy book that's why the page 17b says that someone that learns tor without an intention to teach it is like someone who doesn't have a God why is someone doesn't have a God if you're learning T that means you're learning it because God gave it if you're learning it because God gave it that means because you know that God has good traits and you're trying to emulate him trying to be like him his character traits are good you're trying to be like him but if you're learning his Torah but you're not emulating the number one character trait that he has which is give then obviously it's like you're learning a philosophy book it's like somebody that's learning tah but not without God because he only gives now you're learning tah what are you supposed to do give give what's the best thing in the world to give give knowledge give knowledge to somebody give him a purpose give him a Torah if you're learning without an intention to teach what's the point so now some people are going to teach the public 50 100 a thousand people whatever it is some people are going to teach their class 10 people some people are going to teach their family their wife their kids some people going to teach themselves but but the point you're supposed to teach somebody supposed to be used for something at some point not necessarily from day one but at some point you're supposed to share that knowledge if your Leed was only full of uh you know stories about business and stories about the stock market and stories about Donald Trump and politics the entire T you learned the entire year was wasted why supposed to learn enough to have le said that to learn and teach until you fall asleep so some tables had a lot of to some out lot of politics so the Torah is for us to use and that's one of the main things that a person needs to understand but today we're so interested in a secular world that we forget that the Torah is much better and that's where we're obligated to learn every day to get new every day to go over it every week and so on someone that's really serious about learning knows that the Torah has no end next question yeah cely do so somebody came to the shalom and asked them for money for a uh wedding for his daughter and sat rebbi said here he took out I don't know 50 bucks and he gave it to him he need the guy needs 50,000 G $50 thank you very much I appreciate it he went the next day same guy comes back says I need $5,000 for what for my daughter unfortunately I need a a dress he goes why you didn't have success for for the wedding goes no after you gave me the $50 had so much blessing every single person I went to gave me money I raised the entire $50,000 but then I got home after I paid all the things I need to pay for the wedding and my daughter God bless her I don't know what yet got into her says I'm not getting married unless I buy this $5,000 dress the Reby goes into the CIT into the safe takes out $5,000 and gives it to him take you for love I appreciate it I love you goes now a student is listening to this he's watching this he's he's ripping his hair out like you guys want to do right now wedding $50 kpan comes back ask for more you give him 5,000 she give him 5,000 slaps no him and his daughter with the $5,000 dress so the guy had better mid than me he says teach me what's going on here yesterday he came for wedding G $50 today his daughter that's spoiled wants a $5,000 dress she's lucky she even has a wedding you give him the whole thing you know what you could have done with all that money $55,000 could have gone to the K $5,000 could have done toim to the to the to the every so many people could have benefited for made give it to this guy the rebi says you're right all of those people I thought about them too everybody I thought about all of them and all of them could have benefited from the $5,000 but then I said to myself how come I didn't think about this before this guy came to me and gave me an opportunity to fulfill the of making a bride happy if I didn't have this thought before this that means that now that I'm having it it's not a Mitzvah it's a Mitzvah Satan Mitzvah right now that I have is to make the bride happy that's the Mitzvah I'm going to fulfill all the other opportunities if I really want to do them I would have thought about it before he came since I only think about it now that means that the other mitv Satan wants me to do them not a same concept here we want to think for hasem we want to think as if we're running the world no if I tell him then he's not going to come how do you know you're Prophet we don't know if somebody would have told me would I've done true or not I don't know 5050 chance that's first of all second thing is the mitvah we have 613 63 one of them is the Torah tells us you must rebuke not you should you must rebuke your brother but don't get to the way of sin what does it mean means if you see your friend is violating Shabbat or you just know that he violates Shabbat not you don't have to see him driving you know he violates Shabbat you know that he goes home he smokes cigarettes he watches TV whatever he is you know he violates Shabbat you must rebuke him not that you should you must why if you don't you take on the sin too like you came and you violated Shabbat so now it's not a matter of just helping him it's helping us because we could keep Shabbat for 70 80 100 years we go up to sh say oh here's theab here he is he came here we have a nice Villa in G home for you come come come come come I came to I watch IAB everything was good oh no everything is good all your friends they didn't keep Shabbat you never said a word goes yeah it's their problem he goes no it's your problem everyone is obligated to each other there's no such thing as an excuse oh if I say this they're not going to do no such we're not allowed to use such an excuse but there the second part of theah it says don't get to a point of sin what does it mean don't get to a point of sin don't get to a point where the way you're rebuking him is causing you to sin so one way that you could explain it is that you can't embarrassing him in public say you you're terrible you're going to go to Gom you're the worst person in the world you can't do that you have to do it in a certain way to get him to do something good without necessarily embarrassing him in public there are certain times that you're actually allowed to embarrass a person in public in order to rebuke them but this is not one of them you're supposed to tell people to keep Shabbat you're supposed to help them keep Shabbat and doing the accounting for hem as far as if I tell him he's not going to listen if I do this he's not going to do this we're not allowed to do such accounting we're just allowed to do what we're supposed to do now the follow-up question should be up to what point I told him he don't wasn't to listen he doesn't want to listen I told him stop driving a Shabbat he doesn't want to listen the r says you're supposed to rebuke a person until the point where he hits you meaning just telling them one time it's not enough until he says oh I'm gonna hit you if you don't some say he actually has to hit you some say he just has to raise his hand to threaten that he's going to hit you at that point point you you're you fulfilled your Mitzvah of rebuking him now again sometimes we're rebuking the wrong people meaning you can't just rebuke anyone you have to rebuke specific people you have to Target it like you target clients I don't know what you do for a living but people that have clients if they're in sales for example they can't just sell to anyone so for example I only sold to rich people if I don't care what you did as long as it's legal and you're Rich you had those two qualifications didn't make a difference to me how you made your money if you're an oil salesman or you're a manufacturer or you sold cars or a doctor or a lawyer that stuff didn't make a difference to me you have to have two qualities you have to be rich and had to be legal so I have to Target that person if you weren't rich or if your business wasn't legal you are officially no longer a target of mine same concept when it comes to rebuke you have to rebuke is not a bad word it sounds but it's not a b bad word it's rebuke is just helping somebody tell showing them the truth showing showing them something they don't see on their own so and it comes from a good place it's not you're not telling them hey I told you so you're trying to tell them something that they may not be aware of just like you would do with anything else in life if let's say for example there was a doctor and he was using the wrong medicine you he hey don't do it don't use it you're not trying to make fun of him you're trying to help him so he doesn't kill the patient same concept here so the guy doesn't kill himself so now you can't just rebuke anyone there's certain people that are simply never going to listen to you not because what you're saying is wrong but simply because it's you you specifically you specifically me specifically why they're related to you so if let's say for example you have an older brother rebuking him for the most part 90% of the time is a complete waste of time why you're always going to be his little brother he's never going to listen to you it's just not going to happen in most cases some cases it works in most cases it doesn't work same thing with parents parents tend to not want to listen to their kids once in a while they'll take something you have a whole you know tank full of fruits they'll take one apple but overall you're not going to be the RAB M of their life you're not going to be the the uh you know the r of their life it's just not going to happen you can try until you turn blue in your face it's just not g to happen you're always going to be the little baby with diaper onto them even if you're 30 years old so sometimes you have to Target someone else who's someone else strangers complete strangers because with them they don't have the bias they don't have the bi they don't look at you as a little kid they don't look at you as what you did before they look at you as you right now to them you are mosenu you're telling them Tor oh M said Tor you're mosu they're strangers so how do you help the other people how do you help the people you care about your family your friends the people that are not going to listen to you you have a few ways number one get somebody else to do it give him a CD give him a link bring him to a lecture uh you know share a website things like that get somebody else that's speaking to share the information with them not you you could just send them the link you could just be the mailman don't be the actual the spok person they'll watch it and once they watch enough they'll think it's their idea anyway and they'll forget that you ever gave them but don't worry about them forgetting all you need is for hasem to know you did it so that's number one second thing is do kiru with other people and the reason why is because in the book of Jeremiah Hashem Hashem tells the prophet if you bring someone precious from someone that was not precious that was a uh a lugard someone that's if you in essence make somebody do chuva you will be like my mouth so the S just say what does it mean you'll be excuse me you'll be like my mouth Hashem says I said and it was created he said words and the words and the world came came true same thing with your prayers you pray I make it happen why bring people to do chuba once you get people to do CH your prayer have a VIP VIP treatment above any other prayer in all of is to such an extent that says that even if a person has and like is's in the level of the prophets he's still not going to be in the level of someone that gets people do Chua even if he's in the level ofu he's still not in the level of somebody get people do cha why different deal because that person brings hashem's little babies back home you start bringing hashem's babies back home in one way or another directly indirectly whatever it is your prayers become aem's problem hasem fills it hasem fixes his problems so that's the biggest thing that people need to know about rebuke who are you rebuking who's your target audience next question yeah have we start from the teenag 17 18 19 years old tell them something they say I have time if I ever decide make money when they to5 8 it's too late for us K how do you how it man from your who says you're going to live 100 years that's the that's the real answer I have a cousin I have a an uncle he's worth probably $150 million made a lot of money the 1990s early 2000s gas stations and all types of things they have more money than they can count two years ago they don't keep anything to such an extent they didn't have m in their house which is like one of the mitv that even the go fulfill sometimes very far on the second day of they were vacationing in Israel and their 23 or 26 year old son my cousin uh cute kid whole life ahead of him instead of being a besset he decided to go on his scooter on his electric scooter and he slipped off the scooter no one no one touched him no one hated he just slipped off the scooter fell on his head and hurt his head went to the hospital hospital said don't worry son everything's okay you hit your head you have a little concussion go home you'll be fine what did he do he listened to the experts he went home thinking everything is fine he was only 23 26 years old had at least another 90 years to go no he never woke up you went to sleep and you never woke up now do you think that he thought that he was going to die at 23 years old do you think that his parents that were vacationing thought that he was going to die 23 years old with $100 million you start thinking you're God not that there is a God you start thinking you're God you could fix God you could uh rebuke him already at that point people think you could fix life you could bring life you can make life with that kind of money there was also another person he had a little bit of a little bit of a liver problem it's called cancer had cancer in his liver now he had a little more money he had six and a half billion dollars his name was Steve Jobs and Steve Jobs was atheist he believed in nothing in reality atheism just means that you don't want anyone telling you what to do that's what atheism really is it doesn't mean that you you believe in nothing cuz even the monkey believes in something everybody believes in something you just believe that you don't want anyone to tell you what to do that's what you believe in so Steve Jobs believed in his iPhone and his smartphone and his iPad and tablet and everything else but one day he believed that he needed a new liver and he couldn't afford it with six6 and half billion dollars he couldn't afford a new liver why it's Priceless so hasm says oh you didn't believe in me come we have a person personal meeting there is personal meeting it's a little hot place over there there was another place that the nighted god another person I name of stepen Hawkings for 6070 years he publicly changed his mind maybe a dozen times of whether he believes in God or not one book he says he believes another book he believes he doesn't believe either way right now he knows for sure right now he's getting to know God really really good so the reality is is that most people have said no no I'm still young I was young too when the story started I was 26 years old do you think that when I went to sleep to have an elective surgery I thought even in my remotest dream my biggest nightmare do you think that I thought there's even a 1% chance that I was going to wake up screaming and I'm not going to stop for seven years imagine you go to sleep you go to sleep everybody goes to sleep at some Point everyone here is going to go to sleep when I stop talking you're all going to go to sleep okay you're going to go home you're going to go to sleep everybody goes to sleep at some point okay so imagine imagine this nightmare you go to sleep and you wake up not oh wow this hurts a little bit oh no no no not that you wake up and immediately ah like at the top of your lungs and 50 times the deciel of what I just what I just did and you don't stop forever in imagine that can you imagine such a thing that's what I had to live with so do you think that I had even a 1% chance in my statistical mind that that's what I did for a living I did statistics probabilities that's what I did I looked at economies companies earnings and so on the chances of anything happening chances of anything not happening there was not even a 1% chance of such a thing happening not in my life and no one thinks anything is going to go wrong in their life until it goes wrong so for all of those superheroes that think that nothing is going to go wrong there's two there's two answers one they're full of it they're lying they don't really believe it they just don't want to be told what to do so they have to decide if they want to take the chance and wait and possibly have the same experience as me or worse or they could just delve into it and see what it's all about what's the worst that could happen you keep Shabbat what's the worst that could happen you start keeping kosher you stop stop eating what's so bad about it the reason why most people don't want to do chuba is because they simply don't think it's an obligation they don't think it's an obligation they sometimes they don't believe it's true but to prove that it's true just takes a little time if to show him some proof scientific proofs rational proofs there's many videos we've done ra mrai has done and many other uh experts have done that can prove the Torah is real scientifically logically rationally whatever way you want to prove it there's many videos out there that you can prove the Torah is real it's not difficult to to prove that it's real all you need is a little bit of time and attention as far as the obligation of it they just need to know that there's a consequence and for that once you show them that it's real you show them that this very same T also tells you there's a consequence for not doing it and that's the part that's missing many people have done videos about proving that the Torah is real or Torah is divine and Torah is beautiful but very few have discussed the consequence of not doing it so that's the one thing that most teenagers and actually I think most young adults in general need to hear more of because we don't work based off of Desire anymore when it comes to Torah we work off of Desire based on other things desire for food women money things like that but when it comes to Torah unless you obligate a person they're simply not going to start unless you tell a person listen if you do if you don't do this you're going to get in trouble they're not even going to look into it that's the generation we're in it's just not it doesn't work any other way and it's not just my opinion you could ask anyone you could ask anyone that actually made people do Chua not just gave lectures plenty of people give lectures so in this generation if you're looking at the masses you have okay of course you're always going to have an exception you have a thousand people two or three people going to do chuva just because but if you're looking at Large Scale numbers to get a room full of people to do chva it's only when you remind people there's an obligation there's a consequence for not doing it so that's that's what you have to remind people and again you have to you know know already beforehand if you're the right vessel or not yeah you have to do like sure like for example for me for example if I do I just basic expain what specific or what specific scent are you supposed to do something don't have sure so the I mean there the writes that there's a certain amount of fasts for specific types of sin so for example for wasting seed every time a person has wasted seed he has to do 84 fasts according to the AR now obviously this would mean that pretty much every single male in his generation has to fast for the rest of their life so the other solution is to give the value of a meal in replacement for those fasts so if let's say a meal I don't know it's $5 or whatever it is then you would have to give $420 for each time we've wasted seed which would mean that we would have to give a lot of staka now this doesn't have to happen all in one day just has to happen over time you do once a month once a quarter once a year whatever it is the key is to start doing chuba for things like that according to oural as far as that's one aspect of it second thing is obviously actually should be the first thing is stop sinning stop repeating the sin third thing is learn about it learn about the specific topic if it's Shabbat if it's yomtov if it's whatever it is learn the specific things about it that are going to help you not sin so if it's wasting seed learn about wasting seed if it's about Shabbat learn about Shabbat if it's about yum learn about y learn specifically about that mitvah and make it yours make it your own so it helps you beat that the next time that you have the opportunity but still this all of these different things and there's a few more but these specific three things help a lot but they still don't make up for it completely and the reason why is because okay so let's say for example somebody violated Shabbat for 20 years of their life and then they did chuva now they start keeping keep Shabbat that's good so they stop sinning they learn about Shabbat they know allat perfectly good that helps it too they gave that helps it too but when they come to sh there's still 20 years worth of missing Shabbat so they said okay sh good you did you did chva everything is good but there's still your account was let's say 120 years 20 years is missing Shabbat there's still a deficit of 20 years worth of Shabbat what do you do with that deficit somebody has to pay for it so that's where Kyu comes in that's where helping other people do Chua according to the Book of Ezekiel the prophet Ezekiel says that doing kiru is literally part of chuva it's not something you should do it's we're obligated to do and the reason why is because that's the only way the sins we've made in the past are not going to get in the way of our chuva so if let's say for example we get one person do to do chuva he's going to keep Shabbat now so now every Shabbat you keep Shabbat he keep Shabbat so now you have two shabbats after 120 you kept all your shabbats but now he also kept Shabbat for 50 years now so now instead of having 20e deficit a 20-year shortage of Shabbat now you have a surplus of 30 plus he had kids each one of his kids did kept Shabbat so that's another 100 200 300 years worth of Shabbat his wife and so on and so so forth everybody that he's touched in his life goes into your accounts instead of showing up with a shortage of 20 years worth of Shabbat you now have a surplus that's why doing kiru and getting other people to do chuva is not necessarily just something nice to do it's a good mitvah it's literally what's going to save us as individuals and also as a nation it's the biggest most important thing for when it comes to Chua because again learning is good stopping is good all of those things are good but the only thing that's going to close all Corners is by making sure that we've completed the mitvah holy which means that we got other people to fulfill the part we didn't do ourselves yeah no I mean let a uh this is this is somebody's Choice everything is from hem except the fear of hem so you could tell people whatever you want to tell them it's their choice to listen to it or not just like you could tell somebody listen buy this house you could choose to buy it or not buy it if he doesn't buy it and somebody else buys it it's not your problem you know so same thing here you actually done the Mitzvah of telling him the truth if he chose not to do it that's his problem but you still get rewarded for number one fulfilling the Mitzvah and for two if he never does chv you actually get his share of the world to come because it says page 90 all 9098 all the way to 98 all of Israel have a share of the world to come but then at the next eight pages talk about who does doesn't have a share of the world to come all the different sins that cause a person not to have a share of the world to come is obviously one of them so now where does that share go all of is come to this world with a share everyone has a there's a share in the world to come for everyone but if someone loses their what happens to that asks it goes to the person that tried to help him do Chua so now either way the person that helps them gets rewarded sure sure sure a it all depends on the person itself I mean in a it's very different than the world today the world today you know uh missionizing in Judaism is almost like a bad word uh you know it's a tah today is very different than what it's actually written in the sense that today we're very we're very politically correct we live in a politically correct world so we're very afraid of what people think and what people see and what people say and so on and so forth we're very very afraid of the world around us we're very afraid of our own Shadows really but according to the sages I mean you see how they did kiru and what they did it's a very very different world so first and foremost it says to certain extent in M shabat that rarar was uh almost judged to lose his entire because he didn't rebuke his neighbor cuz his neighbor had a cow or was a woman that had a cow that carried on Shabbat which is not allowed on Shabbat you're not allowed to use your animals to work on Shabbat and he didn't rebuke his neighbor and they said that when he realized it he almost lost hisa because of it and he fasted for the rest of his life because of this the point is that he almost lost his Al because of a cow and they're judging him harshly because of that because that's the truth even though he was so holy to the extent that he can revive the dead so there's no big there's no small when it comes to helping people do chuu holy of holy reality is HEM says you missed an opportunity to sanctify my name you have to get punished for it point is that none of us have to think we're too good or too little for anything that's first second thing is you see also in thear that anytime somebody came with an interest to uh convert to Judaism even interest in Judaism the sages were very excited to teach him if he was interested we didn't go out door too and ask people listen you want to be Jewish you want to be Jewish also was a very different world back then they were killing us in the middle of the street so to get people to convert to Judaism was like pretty much a person is want to commit suicide so it wasn't very common to convert anyone in those days but page 3A four 3B and 4 a says that before mashia comes there's going to be a lot of converts point being is that if somebody comes to you and has interest in the Torah you're actually obligated to help them direct them in some way you don't necessarily need to be their teacher but you have to direct them okay okay you want to learn to okay here go to this website be.org Divine information.com whatever you know ask noah.com whatever it is to direct them wherever it is it's a good thing to do there's no reason for you not to do it especially since it takes only two seconds today so as far as if somebody shows interest if they don't show interest you're not obligated to do it at all but there is a big but if you only have one choice to do meaning you have a Jew to help or you have a Noah to help you're obligated to help the Jew first you're obligated to help the Jew first so if let's say for example you only have one minute to spare and you have to choose either the Noah to the Jew you have to help the Jew first and the reason why is because the Jew is has a higher level of obligation than the Noah hide in reality we all have more than one minute so most people don't have to make that choice but either way we should uh try to do as much as we can to be a light to the Nations to be a light to ourselves to light to our families and try to become pretty much a walking light all day where people see oh listen this guy he's a normal person he works he lives he has a wife he has kids he has this but he's also different than everyone else at the same time how he lives with accordance to the biblical law you could see it based on his behavior you could see it based on his action you can see it based on how he looks and so on and so forth so it's not necessarily just the black and white it's what's inside that counts so that's the most important thing and I think that when it comes to uh the uh the Nations around us if you have an opportunity to help it's definitely a good idea to help but if not everybody gets the opportunity also remember that some of the most important people of all time were converts onos all of the commentary in the is based on onos came from converts R AKA was a son of converts Shon were converts I mean some of the greatest of all time were from converts was from converts Ruth was from converts the mashia is coming from converts I mean it's uh you know to help people convert the Judaism is is fulfilling a prophecy again not everybody necessarily looks at it that way but that's what the tah look said it yeah that's what I said in the beginning in the beginning of the year I said that most people like to sing the songs mashia mashia mashiach but in reality they don't want him to come right if mashia came if you look at the what the prophets say mashiah is no joke mashiach will kill people simply by smelling their sins he smells their they don't have they made sins he kills them with words no weapons no trial no Hey listen yeah you know give me your case so people don't either don't know this or don't care or don't believe I don't really know what it is all I know is that people live a fantasy world today where they think the mashia is there to like fix their problems he's the lotto he's so Security office he's the uh you know the uh the I don't know something else he's he's going to fix fix their health issues he's going to fix their diet their marriage their kids it's not mashia it says specifically in our the is coming to help the people that used to be criminals used to be spiritual criminals against theem he's coming to them to help them he's helping he's coming to save the B anyone did chuva will be saved anyone didn't do chuva be punished yeah right days is supposed to come yeah that's one of the prophecies only matters to live Matters To Live survive the Messiah that's enough permit nobody should be nobody should be worried about what's going to happen after the mashiah because that's assuming that we're going to survive is like let's say somebody why he's buying a house in Israel where are you going according to the ra according to the ramb I'm worrying about anything that will happen after the mhia is is is is not helpful because we don't really know everything is a guess of what's going to happen after the mhia comes realistically all we should worri about is survive all we should worry about is being righteous with hem one it's because if the Mah shows up none of the things we're worried about will really matter anymore and two our personal Mash could be any day meaning we could all go up to sh anyway before mashia comes and we have to the same anyway so all the details of what would happen you know if is the mashiach gonna be really nice to me is he going to give me a nice area in Jerusalem am I going to have a three-bedroom or a four-bedroom all that stuff is meaningless people that are buying houses and preparation for mashia literally don't know anything about mashia none of that stuff is going to matter the land is going to be different the housing is going to be different the world's going to be different people that are doing this that they're preparing physical things like material things in mashiah simply don't know what it means because it's a different world they're preparing to bring this world to the new world the Two Worlds have nothing to do with each other the two world it's not it's not going to be exactly this world it's not going to be the same nature Israel is going to be bigger I mean it's it's just it's just not a uh put it this way all we should worry about is surviving somebody should be righteous enough where they know okay listen I have a chance to survive yeah as soon as possible mashia can come any day mashia can come any day he come tomorrow he can come next week he come in 10 years he can come in 20 years there's no specific time there's a limit of uh the latest day of when he can come that's before the year 6,000 but according to theim it's it's well before that it's uh because he has to come before Shabbat the year Shabbat will uh will start in probably the next 25 or 30 years meaning that it would have to be according to the it would have to be within our lifetime not in 200 years before mashia comes there's going to be a lot of NE there going to be prophets and there going to be false prophets fet okay because the mashiah mashia is not going to have to tell you he's mashiah yesim yeah is he's gonna have he's gonna have a the spirit of God within him example example he could change nature like the we everything okay everything change nature comes and it changes the weather no no not I'm not talking about Miracle Worker I'm not talking about miracle mirica workers you have a lot of people that could change things you have people that can walk on water today you have people that can go put their hand through metal there's many people that use spiritual powers to do it it's called demons I'm not talking about Miracle work I'm talking about someone that can change nature change nature means before mashia comes there's going to be a war called go Magog who say that that's an a prophets Prophet zcharia chapter 14 okay so then if you're asking for you're asking for a word no I'm not asking for anything this is what God Said God said it I'm just reading it uh I'm not asking for anyone I'm asking to go to ganeden Al but as far as as far as what's going to happen before mashia comes it's going to be goog but as far as that's concerned the world will change meaning that go Magog will kill two-thirds of the world within the first few minutes so it's not going to be the nice you know world that you see today where you can just go to the store and pick up some cookies before you go home and go to sh and it's not going to be the same type of world it's going to be a very very uh different world you could say a lot of turmoil a lot of craziness before it happens but anyway when the mhia comes AEM says in the Prophet Jeremiah that the Miracles that will happen will be bigger than the ones we saw in Egypt so all the Miracles that you read about in P 10 plagues split of yam for 12 pieces hasem showing am the seven Heavens oh sorry seven heavens and so on all the different things that were like extraordinary the Prophet Jeremiah says Messiah is going be bigger change nature I mean you could uh no not just not change the weather change nature like for example uh they could throw an atomic bomb okay atomic bomb M could just take the atomic bomb in the middle of the air and just put in his pocket eat it I don't know just destroy it like something like I it kind of sounds like a superhero but it's it's not superhero is nothing point is it's like it's nothing can touch him the whole world will fight him together everyone billions of people will want to fight him by himself no war no tanks he has no tanks he has no weapons no he's not like a samurai fighting with a sword just with words the whole world will try to fight him and they will all lose so it's not it's not like a uh they could all throw all of the world is going to throw atomic bombs all of it will be stopped no the one thing that the says that everyone has to agree that he's the mashia and one of the ways is that it has to be there certain certain things have to happen there certain signs that will have to happen first of all thei has to come three days before he comes there's certain things he has to say there's certain things that he has to do it's not just like a superhero with a cape coming and uh and say he guys I'm mashia but by the way as far as people saying they mashiah I have at least one a week sending me an email telling me he's mashiah at least once a week I have somebody telling me he's mhia I actually have a guy coming to my class in the last couple of months told me he's mashia but now he's not sure what do they say like no he says he's mashiah what do they to all crazy people don't have a don't have a uh say something yeah yeah crazy people have plenty of things to say some people say God spoke to them some people say they see things some people say they feel things some people think that they uh uh they know things all types of crazy know because if they are mashia then please save us somebody's mashiach save us then there's certain prophecies you have to fulfill you have to make World Peace you have to make the uh the the animals uh no longer have can't don't eat meat anymore there is a there's no War I mean the world changes if somebody's a messiah come save us yes has to know the entire tah well first of all how about this first of all you has to know the entire T find me one person world knows the entire Tor how about this find me one person who knows the entire T by heart that's not already known by heart anybody says Masia knows the entire T by heart in Hebrew not in English no tanak no no tanak is says no no this is not a this is not a requisite this is what I'm just telling you I'm telling you that people that think that they're mashia they're so far away from being anything they don't even know the Torah they don't know anything to that's that's not even that's not even a a a requirement it's an a that they would know the entire Tor by heart they would know the entire the entire M the entire SW things that we know things that we don't know the point is that in order to be the mashiah it's not it's not going to be a question if if he's the mashiah or not once the mashiah comes it's just like mosenu there was no no question of whether mosenu spoke to God or not everyone knew how do they know hasem made it so msia will be almost as great as M almost yeah mhia doesn't know he's mashia until he's mashia he's not necessarily a random Jew I mean he has to be obviously a certain righteous level Jew can't be just some guy that's walking the street selling hot dogs but uh you know it's a right it has to has to be somebody that's holy has to be somebody that's uh you know that's very very close to Hashem already and it has to be also from the lineage of King David as certain requirements that they have to have I have several sh about mashiah if you're interested about the topic is we should just do Chua where you where where you live is irrelevant as long as it helps you do chuva if living in Israel is going to help you make you be Holier be there if you're going to become secular be here because somebody that's secular lives on top of the C is not going to help him where you live is not as important as where your heart is if your heart is with hem you're good you know if being in Israel is going to help you do that then be in Israel but if it's going to create schite problems it's going to create financial problems it's going to create religious problems all of a sudden you want to go to the beach every weekend then going to Israel is a sin it's not a Mitzvah you know so everybody has to use their logic we have another sh tomorrow night I uh look at my Facebook page uh where it is I I forget the address uh and then we also have another one on uh Thursday another place which I also forgot but uh look at my Facebook page it's bem on Facebook or my name and also on our website m.org like I said there's the CDs in the back take some for yourself there extras give them to people there's a Shar cards for your houses offices and so on use them and anyone that wants to take on theah I brought some for you and you can take them for free as well amen amen [Music] [Applause] [Music] he a [Music]