Answering A Call From 3000 Years Ago - Ruth's Conversion Story

[Music] my background my name is Ruth and I grew up in a traditional catholic home in South America my family was not very religious but they baptized their kids when we were older they sent us to Sunday school and everybody got married in a church I lived with my mother my father my brother my uncle and my grandmother she used to go to church every Sunday and as I was rais in that environment I went with her as I grew up I said I realized something was wrong with Catholicism it was like there was something fish in it I started to go to the youth group Gatherings on trips I was searching for the truth but I could not find it I have always been a very sensitive person who questioned everything around me as a child I used to go to sleep thinking what if there was know me what if I did not exist how would that be what if God does not exist and I used to question everything but I did not get the answers time passed and in my te years I became sick with anorexia and bulimia I cannot say I did things right I used to go to parties drink a lot but the Strat never went into drugs but I could have as I wanted to I felt empty there was an emptiness inside of me me that I could not fill with anything if I wanted to buy something and I got that I felt empty anyways if I wanted to study something and I for example passed the test that would not feel the emptiness I felt miserable but continue with my life as good as I could there were ups and downs but when I I had Rock Bottom I was living alone in a small town and in charge of the branch of my family's business in that City I felt alone and desperate I tried so many times to get out of the addicted bulit circle with the food and I realized I could not get out by myself I needed help as I have always been a spiritual person and I had a Bible and started to read it but backwards meaning reading the Old Testament that the Catholics said it was old and it did not have any use I read it and read it not understanding [Music] it but inside of me I had the necessity to go to the beginning of the story because the end the New Testament did not make any sense I remember I cried so much I got tired of crying and asking a Shem to help me get out of that Circle of sickness I was in I also asked AEM to give me a Holier life as I was sick of living in that environment I felt powerless sick sad but still had auna that Hashem would help me days of praying reading crying went by until one day my family came and took me to a daily clinic in the capital of the country where I was raised up I spent six years there during the day I went to the clinic I did a lot of therapy I ate there and then I went to my house in the afternoon butu Hashem after all those years of intense treatment I was cured I felt so thankful so thankful to hasem that I thought how can I thank him as changed my life completely From Misery to happiness I must do something so I started to search for him first I looked into the Oriental kind of cultures and rituals but I felt it was not it meanwhile I started to study a career and had a normal life one day I found Judaism and started to research it more and more it fascinated me I did not know how to enter the Jewish World so I kept studying by internet I knew some Jewish people but I often asked them about Judaism but they did not know any Torah [Music] whatever they told me was not enough and many times not the same as the Judaism that I was reading the web pages they did not observe Shabad they did not dress modestly and I wonder where could I find that kind of Judaism I read I knew I had to meet the right Jewish person after a while I started dating a Jewish man and I told him to make me to to take me to a synagogue but he took me to a reformed synagogue immediately after entering the place I already knew that was not the place I wanted to be in I had been studying and what I studied was not practiced in that place it was like to be in the church again I told him no this is not what I was looking for the next week I presented myself in the hab at house and asked asked to speak to the main Rabbi there I told him I want to study to convert to Judaism and he gave me the ksur Shan AR I took the book to my home I open it and starting to read it I found out of a conversion course in another Orthodox synagogue and I join from there on my process of conversion began after several years of studying the main Rabbi of my country called me there was a very important important Rabbi coming to our country that could do my conversion he asked me if I wanted to do the conversion like in two days or that day I said yes and traveled to the main city immediately I converted after some months I got married and I contined studying going to sharim to the synagogue but I realized something was not okay with many of the Jewish leaders in my country if I wanted to study Shabbat law for example I would present myself in the class but nobody was there just myself where's the people I asked oh the class was cancelled because there was not enough people but but then after that when I went to see the cabala class the class was full of people how can that [Music] be um I have always been the kind of person that wants to know and understand things it was around that time when I started to search for a real Rabbi how did I get to know Bim organization things in my life were not great and each time I asked my Rabbi a question he would not answer he was living in Israel at that time but these days with the technology the email the WhatsApp I figured out he could answer but he did not therefore I decided to look for a real Rabbi one that cares about people after praying a lot for months I found the story of rabie alone anava's life and sometimes I listen to his lectures as well as rabie mra's lectures therefore one day I found out RAB Raba and rabi yaron Ruben were doing a lecture together I watched it and started to watch rabie Ruben's lectures I loved them because they were simple and directed The point he did not go around saying this or that he said things straight like they are whether you like it or not I kind of got addicted to them and from then on I have not stopped listening to his lectures it has been years but I need them like hair each lecture gives me strength and the Moa to continue even though bem I have many challenges in my life many times I find the answer to a question inside the lecture like like if it was made for me what advice would I give someone the first thing I would tell someone is do not give up if you're searching for the right Rabbi do not give up thinking everybody is the same do not give up and say if everybody believes in this person then it should be okay do not stay with your questions with no answer do not settle with the minimum its vote because if everybody is like that then it should be fine do not fear the politically correctness of the leaders search for the truth if you feel something is fish in your community do not give up searching for the truth until you are sure it is the truth and believe me when I tell tell you that you will realize when you find it there is nothing more rewarding for a person than knowing here or she's in the right path doing the right thing improving himself or herself serving aadesh who the right way I want to tell you that miracles happen but sometimes we are too blind to see them we cannot see them I am grateful to Hashem for all that he has given me grateful for the suffering I had and the suffering I have I'm so grateful for the opportunity to help others I do not have words that can describe how thankful I am to rabie ruin and the organization I would not be here if it wasn't for his dedication for his daora for his willingness to help others he's such a great person he cares about people so what do I do with my gratefulness I do care of I try to help with whatever I can sharing shirim giving Maser giving to Daka Distributing the organization's cards translating videos talking to friends about batem whatever I can I do so here's my advice if you know something is fishing you not give up searching for the real Torah and after you find it do K help others do to sh there is no better thank you offering for hasem that help his kids get closer to him and you will never lose like the Rabbi says you will never lose Rabbi Ruben says always that doing C of is just the best you can do for others and for yourself your life will be blessed like my life is what is so special about this Ram organization I do not know any other organization that does what B Ras there are many organizations that help poor people there are many organizations that raise money to give to soldiers to the eill etc etc but theam does much more than that the rabbis entire lives are focused on helping others not only Jewish people but also no hides with time money Torah shim should do him conversion advice answering questions with everything they take care of the spiritual and also the physical needs of T Scholars that are so in need right now in Israel because of the rashim that govern this land everything is speci special about this tradition and at the end of the year they show you what they did with your master with youra with your contribution they do videos they show you that they indeed do help that they do send the money to buy groceries that they do but they say they will too thank you for listening to my story May a sh bless you and help you find the right way the way of t [Music] all right amen