Rabbi Nosson Tzvi Finkel's Suffering for Torah

Why? Why are you suffering so much? Why decide this for you? You are dedicating your entire life to publicize. After several moments response says, you ask a good question. He says for many years I asked the same question and after deep thought I came to a conclusion that my love for learning Torah is so extraordinary that I think that I love learning Torah a 100 times more than any other person loves to do whatever is their highest desire whether there's desires to make money to eat to to women, men, whatever it is. He says, "The way I love Torah is a hundred times more than the greatest desire somebody else has. So much so that I cannot look at a book without opening it and reading it. I have to I have to open and read it." And therefore saw that since I'm enjoying learning Torah so much, perhaps my has a deficiency in learning Torah for the sake of heaven because I'm enjoying it so much. So he wanted for my benefit for me to suffer. So when I learn Torah, it's for the sake of heaven. The average person that suffers even a ingrown toenail already makes every excuse in the world of why they don't need to learn of why they are pat from the mitzvot said all the suffering it's the kindness of hashem because I enjoy this so