Rabbi Moshe Hauer, Tisha B'Av 5780, #2- Building with Tears

it's important for us to explore the role of crime of crying over the role of mourning we've mentioned before in other years how the raman writes in raman writes in the in the laws of the end of the twelfth chapter that part of the process of a novel is he should be afraid and he should worry be a fascination and he should explore his actions and he should do children the telugu a person has to be in anguish and worried over the forbade he says as being anguish and anguish is about the past and the egg to worry is to worry about the future to worry about the future it doesn't just mean to fret to worry about the future means to try to make a better future you know that tish above is preceded by three weeks where we read halftolus of puranas a warning of pain of anguish of crying and then it's followed by seven weeks seven weeks where we have told us the comfort of coming back to hashem which doesn't just mean comfort in muhammad doesn't just mean don't worry everything's gonna be okay it means that we have to come back to hashem so that everything will be okay and the last of those seven weeks as you know is the shabbos before rosh hashanah tish above starts the process of chuva it takes us to rosh hashanah till he has the crying is supposed to lead to something but let's focus for now on the crying today's thursday what's the significance of that when was paris said this year what day of the week it's also thursday it's a part it's a feature of the of the jewish calendar right the first day of pesach is always the same day of the week the feature of the calendar of the fixed calendar of the jewish people we note this feature we commemorate this feature by having an egg like the hard-boiled egg that's on the seder plate the egg that we eat at the beginning of the meal to remember the corba reminds us that these karbanas that we remember on the seder plate we don't have a base and the link between pesach and tish above is thus made more sharp and it's a significant belief because you understand that when we left mitsray and we left we left we're trying to go to the heritage of us to the land flowing with milk and honey to the land which hashem had promised to our forefathers that's what we left for we left to go there you know we have four cups of wine at the seder for the hour of china is for the four terms of gold and you all know there are five terms not just votes i'll i'll i'll save already i'll take care too so but also they basically so but we don't drink that fourth cup it sits in the middle of the table because the whole seder is around the story of mikuri and people bringing their first fruit spanking hashem we came here to israel the story of tisha was the story of the interruption of that journey this above is the break from pesach now we know about a story of the sages who gathered around together to celebrate at a very difficult time there was a story with ravalaza they were they were there in the neighborhood and they were telling the story of all that i know that many of you have heard there's a classic lord that many say so why were they in the neighborhood why were they with rabbi akiva was the junior member of the group a person is supposed to go to their reviews here they went to the students they went to the talmud and many say beautifully that the story took place after khurban beta after the damage the destruction of beta which was seven years after the destruction of the english when hopes had sprung up again for the jewish people for rebirth and they were dashed and destroyed the gomorrah's descriptions of the of the catastrophe of beta the pictures which in draws stacks of corpses are reminiscent of the video images which we see the gravy video images and pictures which we see of the liberators of the concentration camps of what they found there they were devastated people so what will they do how do you celebrate in that context and the answer is because there's another story another famous story about rabbi akima with many of those sages and they were traveling and they came to hara sofia excuse me i'm sorry first story and they hear the roar of the stadiums of rome from 120 mil from 120 miles away maybe they were the stadiums of rome maybe they were the stadiums that the romans had built in the land they still viking and they started to cry they were hearing the celebration right the roar of the crowd the romans were celebrating and they were devastated was laughing they said what are you doing what are you laughing today why he said why are you crying they said look at these people they're idol worshipers they're secure they're happy they're gathered in their stadiums they're celebrating [Music] it's burning the fire we shouldn't weep he said that's why i'm laughing if hashem gives such joy to those who go against this will imagine what he has in store for us from where you have the most beautiful view of the harabayas right but it's a horrible view it's a view of the wrong thing on our eyes and then before they had a different structure on their lives what they saw was a shul-shiyatsu biscuit saw a wild animal fox walking out of the holy of holes and they started crying except for where people was laughing why are you laughing why are you crying the base of english the cayenne gobble could only go into the holy of holies once a year none of us could ever go into that part of the building and now wild animals are roaming around there and we shouldn't cry so that's why i'm like a field the building will be destroyed foxes will roam i see it and you know what else i see is boys and girls playing so they said beautiful that's where they went for pesach to celebrate gula freedom when there was darkness to celebrate miracles when they didn't see it they had to go through who reminded them that all of the tourists all the difficulties that came that were expected in a sense to come should also give us expectations about the good things about the buildings so they went in for basics because of akiba left and i have a question where they go from bishop i think what are they keeping the montage of he always laughed he didn't just laugh here the gomorrah says in sanhedrin that ruby aquivo once went to visit with the same group chocola nicholas his students came in to visit him i was a canadian former yeshua they all came in to visit it same group they were all crying yeah suffering is a wonderful thing suffering is precious sat up he said prop me up in bed i want to hear what obama has to say you think it's only somebody else's source or bleezer's problem do you think it's only call israel's problems you know in in ghazal it says that when was reading shaman in in one of the versions of ghazal it says he was laughing he was smiling he was saying ah i get to be my surname it wasn't just somebody else's difficulties that he left so what do we keep into one tissue and we need to understand it you know because if there was a keep in our generation not in our generation so much but there were in in our century it was the fun of israel who ironically was the builder of the nebraska foreign so whether they cry what are we give a crap there's one story about a human crying crazy not just crying pulling his hair out in distress i think it's sort of it wasn't dish but it's around this story his story interestingly is similar to the story of rabia his own life but both of them were both of them started to learn torah very late in their lives both of them became great in the jewish people was earlier he was a student who has noticed right at the time of the destruction early as a reporter assistant student one of the students of early azeroth students really of the students probably has been hopeless but a student of this as well they both learned to started to learn late in life there are many things about him but one of the things wasn't you know that he was the one in that famous story where he had an argument he said if i'm right so the tree should prove it the tree lifted up from the grave right the river should prove it the river changed course if i'm writing the walls the heavenly voice came out and said and as a result of that's where elizabeth was considered by his contemporaries to be too aggressive in pursuing the being like him not using proper methods and they put him in fear they distanced themselves from and for many years lesbian workers israelite workers he was distant and people didn't learn from him and i just read to you two stories parts of two stories about when they came to see him but he was dying why did you come the different warrants where have you been why till now didn't you come on if they'll die their own death if they'll die naturally i saw a ruby mouse predicted by everybody unbelievable he said how about me oh hookers took his two arms and he put them on his heart and he said my two arms are like two separate irish like two rolled up sephora tyrosine we imagine this like arsene wenter the two sides of the safety [Music] take from my teachers as much as a dog lapse up from the sea when it goes to take a drink from the sea habitat i taught a lot of thoroughly sunni from media like a medical affairs my students took from me all the time the vastness is there that he didn't ever convey to that because they didn't show up they never learned it from them because they didn't show up they engaged him in learning and he thought after the burial our father our father the is to kali israel and its rider remember that's what alicia said about it i have a lot of coins and i have no banker to take it to to change it to make me able to do something it tells this story with other embellishments there would be akiva cry and he said rebbe i live for iraq rabbi teach me akiva maya you couldn't take it he raised his voice he wept bye remy bye rabbit he started oh my gosh lord whoa i teach the world is left orphaned from you that's when we keep a cry when he realized the last opportunities that he wasn't going to get back he didn't cry about the future people cried they thought it was over kyla didn't cry it was never over you're alive you could do more but when something slipped through his fingers the mood the missing which can't be fixed which can't be replaced you know what the gemara says what happens if a person misses kriyashma one evening mrs krishna one morning can never make it up you never make it up because they create 400 times the next day you still miss saying creation of that time there are some things that we can never make up and we could cry over those things we must cry over those things we must cry over those empty spaces does that mean that you're just sitting there weeping no you don't sit there with me the weeping drives you to not miss another minute not miss another krishna not neglect to take advantage of the rebbe that's still there move move forward or we keep a laugh he laughed on pesach he laughed as they stood by the arabias he saw there's going to be a wonderful future nothing about what we're missing says that there can't be the greatest future in the world wake up will be akiva famously awakened his talmudian a beautiful madrish that says that akiva was teaching and his students were sleeping right so what does that mean he was starting the great rabbinic tradition his students were sleeping his students said you know look what we're living in what kind of a world this is it's irrelevant it's irrelevant we're irrelevant nothing matters they were asleep and he woke them up he woke them up and he said right the medrish we're not gonna that'll speak just very very quickly about the matter she woke them up and he said that esther who's the granddaughter of sora who lived 127 years came and she ruled over 127 nadines 127 countries and they woke up wow right i don't know and in my rabbinical school they taught us that if everybody's falling asleep you tell a joke you know like why don't you tell a funny story what's this he told them this thing 120 727 so we always explain that sarah and esther had very similar lives and very different lives saru was beautiful the king wanted her the king took her against her will esther was beautiful the king wanted her the king took her against her will same right except there was a different ending to the story sarah that night hashem brought miracles and sarah got sent away with taro sending them off with great wealth she wasn't touched esther lived in the house of ahaz till the end of her life she was married to that minovan she had a child with that minou kashira vanity of oddity on purim we invoke tishabha when we say those three words when esther says we switch from the mcgillis ester to the bouncy mcgill to the dirge same story said rabbi akiva it's the same story you know that esther built the second base you know that that child that esther had with that maneuverable hashem he built the second base on niklas you know that esther there in the palace she saved the jewish people hashem was with esther like he was with sarah sometimes it's with fireworks and makos and great things and sometimes it's a tragic story but hashem is still there and so is talmudim woke up it's tommy to woke up famously one of his most famous lines everybody knows he said it to raphael i think he said it to many others it was the rava rashi that were chief rabbi verts israel the first chief rabbi of when their soul became a state and in the part of israel's time and uh he the one of israel talked to him worked with him and talked to him about his plans to do to build torah and i've heard such said you're dreaming you're dreaming and the thought of video it's true i'm dreaming it says but the difference between me and others is that when i dream i'm awake i don't dream in my sleep but i dream i'm awake funny his people around him knew he would wake up in the morning and he would say quick quick he would give them the ideas the new plans which ran through his head during the night reals of ideas you cry and tish above because if you don't stop to realize what you lost you're never driven to go forward for the future ruby akiva he cried he pulled out his hair over ebola and one thing is for sure he washed off those tear-stained sheets and he was he was on fire he was now ready to go he was never going to lose an opportunity again if he could help it and so you have to cry reveal because when you cry and you realize what titus did in the bay when you cry you realize that hashem is home in this world that we haven't made a home for him in this world when you cry and you realize how many jews were destroyed killed and tortured how much torah was ripped out of the world and you stop for a minute and you cry and you realize the loss the whole polls that will never be able to be made up you have a chance to then be motivated and driven to build i read an interview that somebody did with the punisher of he asked him about his marvelous success in the yeshiva and what he had built and the town of jerome looked at him like with upset he says we're going to take pride in our successes every success makes me afraid because it shows me what could be accomplished if i succeeded then you can accomplish them and they have to do more responsibility is very heavy we can bring cloggy soul back to the torah successes we have so much to do give out we act lazy and the punishment of told him about the wonderful guests that he had at his home from the yeshua from shabbos and he said it wasn't one of the star tall medium of ponovich was of birmingham became a russia shiva in pontification accomplished accomplished learning it wasn't there were two american boys in ponovich one had been there for a year and a half and one had been there for six months the one who had been there for six months you know had come upon puna vision some trip he had taken near to israel it's happened even then was intoxicated by the sound of tyler and his parents his mother agreed that he could come to learn in the yeshiva six months he'd been in the yeshiva he says and he's already he knows how he learns with me tonight he learned to gemara arashi of texas the one who's here a year and a half whoa what he's accomplishing and learning these are the nashamas of the jewish people the souls of the jewish people the power of torah is hidden in the heart of every jew all it needs is a small push a readiness a sign of awakening and the pure jewish soul is revealed for all to see if that's the case what are we doing about it what are we involved with how are we fulfilling our obligations there are winds of chuba coursing through the jewish world and we're silent this is early 60s this interview before 67 before people started talking about the winds of children coursing through the world those were the tears of the punisher of the tears of what could be accomplished he cried over his community built a world it was a rav in a town called the vidch in lithuania he came there his instruction from the am his rebbe who saw his immense potential he said wherever you're around you have to make the issue and he made the issue and then the first world war came along and destroyed the city and destroyed his issue and after the first world war shortly after the first world war he was invited to become the raven pony vision which was one of the three big cities in little lithuania and i think the second biggest city after kavanaugh in luther jewish and in pune he took what was the famous small keyboards of the of the puna vision of the previous orbital puna fisher had a small group of geniuses that he cultivated and learned he maybe a sheep of hundreds he built a high school what we would call deishi he built a day school he built a basiaco he built an orphanage he built a hospital he built in ponyvish in lithuania he ran to raise money to build and to build and to build in punjabish and then the second world war was coming and in 1940 lithuania was between germany and russia famous moment we've talked about it many times you all know about it it's the time when the muir yeshiva and other yeshivas came to vilna who was a magnificent person he was a leader extraordinaire he also occupied one of the jewish seats in the same in the parliament and he was sent together with the covenant of ramadan the rav of kavanaugh the two of them were sent by the lithuanian government to find a solution for the jews they knew it was a matter of time they sent them to america they had diplomatic passports to go to america to try to gain entry permits for 5 000 jews to come to america and they travel together the governor of and uh and the part of israel the the dvara brother was from they traveled together through germany through austria down south to italy where they were going to go from trieste to go to travel and uh um the the governor of became ill and he couldn't make the trip and he went back to covenant he died in covenant and uh the punisher of was there and he had to make a decision he felt that he knew what was happening in america he knew that america had slammed the door he felt it was a futile mission and he felt he had a better chance in eretz israel had a better chance against israel it was two weeks before pesach a couple weeks before pesach and he traveled here at israel happens that he had a brother who lived in america his mother was the nearest mother lived in tel aviv at that time and he uh and he traveled here it's he's true because he had a son in earth history and the other as we'll discuss later he also had a mandate from that the future would be an answer and he called his wife from italy spoke to her disgusted with her she told him that he should go there to israel and he left there at israel and then the nazi noose tightened around lithuania he was never able to go back and his city was destroyed his thousand students were destroyed his wife and three children three sons two sons and a daughter that were left there in lithu were destroyed the uh everything was destroyed and the pan of azeroth lived with the fact that he said i'm like i saved myself but i didn't save my generation right there's a famous madrish which speaks about versus when hashem was upset with the jewish people maisha abbaynum said if you don't save them don't save me and he managed to save not only himself but the entire jewish people naya holy saved himself only saved himself and that's why they're called the waters of nyach he was haunted by this he was haunted by what he didn't do he was hunted by what he had left but he was driven to rebuild it so the story one of the famous stories of the fun of israel and is worthy of being such a story it's the story with which we entitled tonight's today's discussion rebuilding a destroyed world hazard those who plant with tears harvest with joy tonight was there near to israel working still papers he thought everybody was alive some degrees they were and he met a man who was a big businessman in here it's israel at that time who owned real estate in benebrach which was nothing but but was a hamlet his name was helper if you're near to israel you see a lot of stores that sell eyeglasses help her that's part of his part of his uh his uh empire and bianco help her he came to her background for help he had to get to go to beirut to get some papers to try to get certificates for his family whatever long story and he comes out of jakob halperin's house and he looks out at the hill which is the hill atop which the pawn of his yeshiva sits today and it was an empty hill and the plan of israel said this would be a perfect place to build the issue then and halpern owned a real estate and he said if you'll build the yeshiva there i'll give it to you for a song and he sold it to him for a very small amount of money the pan of jared committed then and there to build the yeshiva for punivish that was still alive he was building yeshua was in a rush to build it because he needed a place to bring everybody he got a postcard in the middle of this time from his brother-in-law of usher kalman baron who was a partner of his yeshiva and he sent him a postcard with code the factory is functioning at full capacity which he understood the yeshiva they were with all thesaurus they were going strong heartened him so much and so he went and he said we're going to pour the foundation of the yeshiva he had no nothing he had no money he had a piece of land and one afternoon was his his own birthday thomas tafsin alif he got together khazanesh sorry 28th of eur his 55th birthday he got together to start his life again all that day he was fast all that day he was crying and he asked a few people to come with him descendants are still a vulnerable neighbor they had a couple of boards he had some some seltzer and cookies nobody had it puna vijarov the story is told cried so copiously that they didn't need to mix water into the sand just his tears they said till him poured the first cup of cement through the cornerstone of pundit near to israel all shaking people who plant with tears will harvest with joy there's a famous messiah famous tradition one of the great good islam i think asked of how is it that he built the yeshiva yeshiva flourished he became the mother of all yeshivas and when he built the yeshiva the base of frying with the frames almond butter it didn't go anywhere and kai velozener said so what did you do when you founded the issue well tell me how you how you celebrated it he said on that day we didn't say pachmann there was a day of festivity a day of celebration there was music there was a parade prime legend said on the day that i founded belojin we fasted and we said sliches you can't just laugh if rebecca just left he wouldn't have been rebirth it was because there will be a keeper cried and left that's why we keep rebbe cried and said a person can gain though in one minute right remember we're about to read the story of the asar arugu malchus bench was burning right now the king had placed caesar that placed cotton on his heart to postpone his passing so it would take a long time for him to dies he'd be tortured so if i take over away well what will be you'll go to alameda yes in one minute fantastic get rich quick somebody tells you you can make a million dollars in a minute you cry or you laugh you rejoice you dance he cried and he said a person can be kind of loving he says yeah because you realize we could do every minute not just get in oh i could do something great and i'm gonna tell them every minute i could do something which is mamish every moment i could do something which is how can you give up a minute that's why raviyakima was crying his eyes out about the death of emily ezra i've been working us what i missed why what i could have had one of the great russian yeshiva the first great rashishi were here sorry just such a rich life it's an amazing life so the part of israel did this in 1941 the building didn't go anywhere quickly then he was diagnosed in 42 or 43 with throat cancer he lost his voice he was diagnosed with throat cancer and he was told that he had less than a year to live he said i can't wait so he called rashmul razovsky who was a young was for 50 years i believe maybe 40 50 years he was a restricted i studied to this day and when i was in yeshua i still have it somewhere in my house the handwritten notes from shmuel shear were were photocopied somebody had very good handwriting and wrote the very photocopied and bound together we had them i have it on before now that published this beautiful slaughter he told rashford gather together we have to start the yeshiva you're you're you're the maggot you're the rosh yeshiva and he got together seven tell me them in the basement and the punishment he said he was dying he had to make sure that it happened sort of the eulogy on the phone of israel spoke about it's a beautiful beautiful husband but he said something on aposic and tell him when the foundations are crumbling righteous one what did he do and some read this as a question on the reminders of rabinosha what are you doing the world is crumbling said rap shmuel no when the world is crumbling that sadiq says what can i do what can i do to stop it from crumbling what can i do to make it right he says that was our rabbit that was the publisher of the world was crumbling and he just asked himself what he could do who was a magnificent personality rather than his brother muhammad today he said the part of his rub and he had to climb the hill you know what he saw he always have to climb was he had to climb the hill for the match sometimes he was older and was winded he would go to the base mattress to give a shear he would pause and he would reach into his pocket pull out his wallet and pull out a picture he would look at the picture put back the wallet into his pocket and keep walking it was a picture of his children who were killed in the holocaust his wife and his children were killed in the holocaust carried around with him and whenever he felt a little weak he looked at the picture some people look at the picture and collapse in a heap he looked at the picture and he said gotta do what was destroyed i have to do that was the fun of israel uh there's tons more to say we'll say more on other things i wanna just a couple of things that we have to say before we go on to say two kinase one it says even trying and the other one has a helpful night so we cry over last opportunity i want to show you how real this is for tishrov because the origin of tisha buff is in the sin of the marauder right the sin of the spies he said we didn't want to go there it's israel it was attractive it was there it was ready for us he said we don't want to go we were crying that we didn't want to go and so said this will be the time for generations when you're going to cry because you can't go then you could go you cried over going you're going to cry for generations of the theologists that you wish you could go so what happened on tisha brown sasha made a decree made of xavier what was the zero that the jewish people would be in the desert for 40 years and the next generation would go and what were those 40 years what happened during those 40 years okay 38 years what happened during those 38 years you know what happened nothing nothing how do i know nothing happened because in the torah it doesn't say anything well what happened tyra ends right you have slach right all the first year and then it jumps ahead and parshas right away to the death of miriam to the other time we have no stories told to us after the story of kara which happened as most understand that him but right after the miragra because there was some disillusionment with maisha they know because the ramban says amazing thing says his opinion poll numbers went down his approval numbers went down and cordov was able to attack it but then skips because nothing happened of impact you know what those years were they were what is it called in football playing down the clock you know just waiting for the last minutes to go hold the ball don't do anything it wasn't by choice hashem said you guys aren't going anyplace we're just going to wait could you imagine i mean in a sense it was unbelievable they were in the mid border they were eating the presence of hashem but hashem was saying to them nothing is going to come of you just waiting for your children next generation nothing that's what you cry over tish above we cry over wasted time lost opportunities wasted generations and that motivates us to move hanover was old coming with days what does it mean coming with days said the panama's around and there are many interpretations of it but his interpretation is priceless he says you know when people are young they think about what they're going to do the next year and the next year and the next year and you know there's also an expression of like wait till next year if they make plans this is when when a person's old they know you know what's the expression right they don't buy green bananas right you know when they're old he thought about every single day what i'm going to do i don't want to miss i don't want to miss an opportunity opportunity for that we cry and plenty to make up all these years of hashem's migration moons all of that homelessness of the urbanism so you have a lot to think about when you say that was from this story but where it came from from those people azerbaijan probably hasn't been working who said you won't die now you'll be the mouths last opportunity or be a kiva worst of them all and they burned to safer torah and they said what do you see and said i see i see is purchased i see the letters flying the glee limar just the parchment is being burnt he said i'm okay because if it was just me that they were burning okay but they're burning the torah i know that the terror will be back and if i'm being burnt along with the torah that means i'll be back too the one who's one who makes sure that the tire will return we'll make sure i'll be back as well upon of israel used to say in his inimitable fashion says so those letters the romans were destroying they were burning and those letters floated off of the veal they floated off of the parchment and they fly through the air and what's our job we have to get another parchment we have to put it down in a safe place so that the letters can come back down and fill that parchment and he said that's my job that's our job the tire was burned the letters are flying we have to find a place to put it down when the part of israel traveled by train on his last journey from punishment so he said they traveled to germany they traveled through austria when they crossed over occupied austria into italy people on the train started screaming fried fried free free we're free twins before pesa and the puna bishorov said i it says he means it's trying to say similarly when i left egypt when i left yeshua he was going but he didn't know what to feel he was leaving the train he was leaving hitler he was leaving the nazis he was leaving europe which was going up in flames but he was leaving the place of torah what was then the home of torah now the gemara says bravo had a little bit of allah of here to israel because of the places of torah he was leaving to a place where it was just the beginning now eric israel has both claims it hurts israel and it's the land of thyroid to a large part to the credit of the one of them is called it's a refrain we speak about the magnificence of what happened when we left the triangle and the horror of what happened when we left back and forth and then right afterwards we'll say the kinah of the assarah is on page 5859 it's it's akina number 31 lamin alef in your books you