A prayer for self honesty

protect my lips from speaking deceitfully sometimes what you say and what you feel are not aligned and when that's the case how do we feel we feel like fakers we feel like we're living a life of deception and we're recognizing we right now at this point in prayer have the humility to recognize that perhaps I didn't dove in the amida as best I could perhaps I was more familiar with the words than the message perhaps it was more of a behavior a lip service than it was an experience right now we're having the humility to say to God protect our lips from speaking deceitfully and there's two ways to protect our lips from protecting the seedfully either just don't Dive In right I'm not feeling it how could I say I love you to God I'm not feeling it right so either don't say I love you either don't Daven then I'm being honest or somehow Inspire us God to experience you so our words are genuine but to get ourselves to the point where we're ready to admit that perhaps were less than perfect perhaps there's parts of us that may behave disingenuously but we have the desire to be genuine that's humble