Rabbi Heshy Kahan speaking at Mishmar Parshas Vayigash at Scheiner's (Audio only)

concept of of exactly what we're going to be saying this week. We're going to have say in the middle of the there were three makas that we're dealing with. dealing with number one deal with the fact that Tommy Melik right the the the Greek king he translated the Greek you know it's migillah took 70 together put them in 70 different houses there's a nv involved that they they left out certain things and they all they all translated exactly the same that was a nace that was obviously a terrible thing another thing is Ezra cipher was nif right was nif and you know obviously is right what what uh you know what's what's the worst of all but the idea is that what is that the they they started the siege started laid siege on so if everything is together okay cuz I'll say people can't handle fasting three days in a row and all that but the question is that there must be some connection there must be some connection between all three this is all together in the month of Tavis there must be something about tavis must be something involved you know that in regards towards tates in general a month yeah a month has a certain character a month has a certain letter month has a certain trait has a certain uh certain thread that you can sew throughout that month. So we know mentions that sik mentions this is also the question is what is tavis is anger anger and others say that what the mida is laughter interesting right how do you miss the two want to say a little anger seriousness a little I understand one is that laughter one is anger so what's the the ideal here is to understand is that in general in general historically Right. There's been two ways the Gim have been trying to get us. Yeah. Porim destroy, plunder, annihilate, completely just eradicate us from this world. Murder, exterminate. Yeah. >> Come on. >> Exactly. Or there's a kanuka. Khan. No, no, no. We're not want to destroy it all. Yeah. We're not that into your views. You want to learn, learn. Yeah. Learn. Sit down. Learn. Whatever it is. Certain things we don't understand. Doesn't really make sense to us. You know, right? read they wanted to totally obliterate any concept of I don't really get that I touch this it becomes impure what is impurity what does it even mean I can't really I you know doesn't really understand that so that's the concept but other than that but I want you to study I want you to study philosophy come to me come to my classes come to my schools yeah sit down right next to me two totally different ways the game in general throughout our history have tried to place us in exile so to speak so how do we counter how do we counter there's two ways to counter yeah there's two ways to There's two there's two ways in general how we counter that. How do we counter that? You're in gulus. >> So what do I do? [snorts] >> So either I become totally self-encclosed. I completely close myself in. I lock myself in a room. I don't know what to do with anybody. Right. I don't think I'm going to look different. I'm going to talk different. I'm going to speak different. Yeah. And see them are are good with this. They're good with this. They they've mastered the ability to do this. Yeah. Cuz going to go into he's going to business office in in in Manhattan. Right. This is what I want to dress. I'm not going to I'm pushed. I'm Yeah. Which is you know I Why do I have to stealth sue to that? Right. Right. So they they they've come to an understanding the other hand on the other hand if I'm come too closed. No I'm not going I'm not talking to you. Right. I'm not doing. So then what we miss out on a concept of the the idea that we have to be a light onto the nations. The idea is is it's very interesting because you see from the beginning right the first ever is what do you want to do? What do you want to do? He wanted to be at Saddic too. Yeah. And we we have such we have such a hard time with and as we don't understand what was trying to do is wanted as to be atic also. He wanted Sidkis everywhere. You know the goal is the goal was measure tells us what did they do? They had thousands and thousands of people that were conval to go outward. >> The go but right right but it's true. You see the still has the Bible still has because one of the concepts go outwards. But what there's there's there's a problem with both of them because if I close myself up too much and I keep myself completely isolated then I'm insulent and then I have zero effect and zero on the world around me. But if I put myself out too much, yeah, soon what happens? I become one with you. And I don't realize what's unique and what's special about me and we become inshed. And you look historically historically either one of these situations, we always end up in trouble. When we cut ourselves up too much, we become the scapegoats. We become the problem of everything. We're just kicked around and we're thrown around and we become too much assimilated, right? We have the Inquisition, we have the Crusades, we have the Holocaust. So neither of these two sides, neither of these two behaviors, [clears throat] neither of the these two dynamics served us well. >> So what do we do? So what do we do? So we want want to try to create a balance between the two. So what was the tragedy? What was a tragedy that happened? What did Tommy Malik do? He said, "You know something? Yeah. We're all equal. Here's your Tyra. Here's our language. Make it one. [snorts] Bring it together. >> There's no different." Exactly. Bring it together. In other words, we're completely you're there's that concern that we had with putting ourselves out. That's exactly what did he broke down all you're not unique. You're not unique. You have your laws. We have our language. Let's bring it together. Let's make it as one. And that's what happened. What the first what you had the first tragedy that happened on the 8th of was exactly that. Exactly. That is what is creating the fact is that taking away our uniqueness, taking away our ability to be separatistic, taking away our ability to be insular and say, "No, we're just we're all out there. We're all out there. Complete assimilation." The second tragedy, tragedy number two is what is Ezra died? Who's Ezra? Ezra was the one who what? Brought us back to right back. What did Ezra do? What was the first thing that he did? Yeah. Ah, let's make boundaries. No, no, no, no, no, no. We're not one with him, right? Remember your name, right? Remember who you are. When we left, right, we left, but we resented to why you didn't change your name. You didn't change your clothing. Yeah, you didn't change your language. Creating the concept of what? Of of remaining separatistic from the outside. That's Ezra. And if you look in the Gumar where it says when Ezra Ezra says Gmorra says that he was on the same level as me what >> same level as me had Ezra Cipher been alive by target which she wasn't had he been he could have given the >> on the same level but what says that there was something different what was it what that until now we used to what we used to learn like was we used to learn it was it was a certain it wasn't the ales like we have it yeah was was very mystical and and that was only that was maybe that was Mishul but not for the individual. Ezra says, "You know what? Everyone's going to read from that except everyone's going to read from everyone's going to understand the mystery." So he opened it up to everybody. So he created this understanding and this balance of being what? Of being separatistic, of being insular, but as well as what is spreading out as well having an effect on the outside. Yeah. So that was what that was the second tragedy. And what what was what's the third tragedy? What's the third tragedy? Third tragedy is what? We laid siege. Yeah. We laid siege. What happens? You laid siege now what on you. So what a part of you, right? A part of you. Part of our what? Which is our what? Which is our the spiritual heartbeat of the Jewish people is now enclosed. Because before they laid siege, what do you have? What do we go to? We went out to the old city. Go this entrance that entrance. You can go in. There's a door. You can go in and out. Yeah. No, no, no. >> No more do I have the ability my which is can now go outside and have an effect. Right. And which we need also in the reverse, we need also to be able to let them in. I need to be able to let them in. If I want to be a something, if I want an ASAP to be a something, I have to let them in. But I can't. So I can't. So now this gets completely enclosed. So we take that away. And it's interesting because it's always at the same time of what? Of kadaka. What's kadaka? Kadaka is very much a little light. Take a little light. Yeah. Take a little light. You want to ignite. You want to illuminate. Yeah. >> But wait, wait, wait, wait a second. Where? At the doorway. >> That's where you are. You're at the door. Yeah. At the door. You're right there. You're letting someone come in. You're you're going out. But wait, I'm not going further. Why light the light on the white light on the cars on the street? Right on the street. Right over the middle of the road. Make a little, you know, wait, right? It's a Jewish cut. So just in the middle of the road. No, no, no, no. Right by the door. It's right by the door. It's because I'm not letting my insular I'm not letting this the concept of being separatistic of my inside of my home. I'm not taking that totally out. But nonetheless, I'm still going out a little bit. >> So it's that blend, right? It's right by that balance. >> Has to be medium. >> Correct. Exactly. And that's the idea is the idea is that that happy medium that balance yeah that balance was completely destroyed and that's what Nvi comes and he says what what was who was Ezra Cipher was the what was the last N'vi yeah migill says right Mal was right I know same person yeah what does it say they have the last the famous right comes he's going to come and say right the what is that the the the gulus of of our what's the gul of what do we have what do we have hundreds of years ago right the ghettos yeah the ghettos complete separatistic completely separatistic is going to come back to what to the special to us. What do we have? What's saying totally out right for Jewish Americans? It's great, right? Few weeks ago, we had we had a party in the White House. >> Yeah. The most powerful person in the world, president of the United States, what right? Same thing. Right. So that gulus will turn to that gullis. And that's why it was such a sad tragedy because why? Because that was all taken away. So that's what that's on a very strong on a uh uh a national level is this idea, this understanding what to create this balance. How this balance between these two worlds that was taken away. The Ezra cipher was taken away. We laid siege. We can't go in and out. That was taken away. And the fact is that what is the was translated to Greek. That was all. We're all the same. It's all it's all the same. We're on equal playing fields. That was that was that was the the the the Balatana um he felt that his uh um that every Yid has a go opposite him and he he held that his his was Napoleon was his opposite him and uh and he was very aunt very anti that's when Napoleon wanted he was he was very much wanted very much he has a big Russian he had a big following he was very much wanted there and and mag was was heel that it was his you know the zar was his he was he was very against the zar and they're both two opposite ways two opposite m right Napoleon was very much against was was was very much against pluralism very against everything banakas right we're all equal right was very stark against that and the zar was very let's knock him out annihilate destroy >> south pole north pole >> yeah very much so and he was very much against that right so these are two again these two opposite ways in which we have been destroyed right and we tr and these are the two fighting forces over here so what do we do if I'm very insular no I'm not the same as you I lock myself up that's how I fight against that I fight against assimilation But wait a second. But then you're not alien to anybody else. You're not you're not being affected to anybody else. You're not there's not a anybody else. And that's why what we said when Elon comes right also to yourself is what is God's splendor to everyone? Is that what is it that has to be the same? Has to be in sync. And which is interesting because the sh back is what is also a duck. It's a fish. What is a fish? Exactly the same thing. Enclosed in scales right but yet what makes it kosher has to have the fins to move. So we have this constant ability is what to always move out to always go out and yet still to be enclosed. This is on what's on a national level. Now if you notice what it said okay but we could compare the two as well because what do we have over here? We have two forces coming together. What happens right comes close to who is Yehuda? Yehuda is what? >> Is what? Yes. But right name What's he is very much is very much I don't deserve you. I don't deserve you. I'm just over I'm overwhelmed with thanks. >> What did Raul say the second she what she had her right her first born? >> No. >> It's not what Ra said. What named him? >> Yseph. >> What? >> Yseph. What? Give me more. Very interesting. [clears throat] Very interesting. Right. The mahus of one of is more the mahus of Yehud was thanks right I'm okay where I am right which is also a microcosm of a very similar concept was very inward very sing inward is let me go out let me go out and on a in a a communal level you see these two forces as well you will see this in individuals as well there are yehuda people and there are ya people yeah and these two forces don't work together someone really ticks me off I really want to get angry yeah so what is do I activate my YF. Not good. Let me go out. No, no, wait. You It's okay. Things are good. Things are fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. Yeah, you're right. Maybe you're right. You have a good point. I should have said I should have done I should have done. Right. You have to get up in the morning. The alarm clock's ringing. You got to go to the do. Yeah. Don't be huda. You can't activate yehuda. In that case, I got to activate. I got to go out. I got to move. Yeah. I got to put what? Know you have the scales and you have the fins. It's these two opposing forces that you have that is within sometimes within the same people. But it's also you notice in professions as well. You'll notice people, right? People are there. You will never find I shouldn't say this. I'm curious to do a study of this. I'd like to know if there's anybody in who's a therapist. Why? It's two totally completely conflicting properties. >> Because what's it what's it the therapist is? You're okay. Don't worry. You're good. You're fine. You'll be okay. You'll be you're good enough. Don't worry. You're good enough. Yeah. I'm okay right I don't deserve the you're fine. What's the Isis? Let me go out. Let me go just exploding. Right. Let me go to get more. So I'm going to I'm going to take the call over here. I'm going at 3 in the morning. I got to get up at that's totally isive. Yeah. Therapist. I can still use a little more sleep. It's maybe better for me. Right. More soft, right? More inward. So these are two completely. >> What? >> Oh. Oh. Very good. Say good. Morai and Esther had both opposite attributes. One was from Ex. >> Exactly. So that's what he sees is the goal here is bringing these two together. The goal here is what is bridging that gap. That's the goal. The goal is bring these two together. It's creating that balance. And that was a tragedy of that's why it's so interesting because we all know the vaam says what we all know that if it would fall out on chab we would keep it anyway. It doesn't but if it wouldn't we could what's we don't say that about I think is pretty intense. Is pretty intense. We do not say that about falls out of shabas. It's we have this all the time right? Everybody's a little happier right? Oh, it's you do not see this by what's because the same concept is because why? Because what is Shabas? Shabas the first mission in Shabas. What do you see? The first thing in Shabas is you see is this idea is that what boundaries the first don't put into his hand. You don't put it in front you're this is your do not purchase right which is one little line right don't go to your boundary inside >> stay inside. Okay but stay inside. Yeah that's what stay inside. Yeah. But what you keep shabas you have what you have right beyond there's no boundaries. So Shabas is just that. Shabas is just that duality. The ability to stay inside to within the confines of Allah not to move out of my but yet to be entirely open an explosion to be Yehud and to be at the same time. And that's what Shab says and that's why the very tragedy of what of is it took away that balance took that away. It took that away. Greek, right? Same thing. Terror, same thing. Same thing. There's no the wall is cut off. You're not going economic. You're not you're not affecting anybody else. No, one second. So, one second. So, one second. So, therefore, what now? I have this on a national level. I have this at a communal level. I have this on a personal level as well. Because within ourselves, there's a constant fight. There's a constant fight. You have what? You have this constantly these this duality. Yeah. This duality of what of fighting forces within us of what? Of >> what's everything's okay. Everything's fine. Is what is things stay status quo. Very simple. is cool. Stay stay inside. Stay inside. Don't move. What's guru? I got to move. I got to conquer. I got to go do every one of your cells in your body is screaming both of these. Is screaming what is screaming go out and effect and screaming stay inside. Yeah. Don't be influenced. It's completely opposite what? Complete opposite forces that are constant [laughter] within all of us. And it's a constant struggle. Am I supposed to be going in commerce? Am I supposed to go out of business? Am I supposed to go? Am I supposed to make a decision? It's the same sign. Don't listen. Don't have an effect. Don't watch. Don't see. a constant struggle and within all of us we have this constant struggle as well is where am I what am I doing where am I supposed to be and that's what with every single one of ourselves you have this conflict over here of what so what's happening with what's we say we start out we said is what is anger because what happens if I go out and I want to explode and I want to be a and I want to add on what happens though if I don't realize who I am I don't realize within me. I just want more. I just want more. What is that? That's intense frustration and anger. You go and you see and that's why these these these these you know they have these biographies. They're great, right? They're amazing. What happens is if I come and I take it, I read it and I see ah I'm just like the whole thing. Okay. This is okay. So back this my sh you know me to see him and I when he finished that I think it was Shas I think it was 600th time like you know I'm still there. I just found out my nephew my nephew's he's he turned 16. His goal was by next year by 17 hopes. He hopes to possibly maybe 17 maybe 18 to finish shots. Heard this. I'm like I'm like struggling. I'm like like maybe I'm going to be done with Makas. Like maybe you know what I'm saying? Like maybe we'll get to like the nine days but like aim for that like I can hopefully get it. You know if if we use the art scroll and I'm up at the same time like maybe I'll get there. And what you're you're you're discarding and you're misunderstanding who you are and that will put you and your within you. And you can't just be y to go on and further and further on a personal level. On a personal level, that's what tavis is cuz that's anger and that's frustration. But what's simp is when I realize who I am, I realize where I was put here. I wasn't born in I wasn't born to shami family. I wasn't born knowing shas by the time I'm seven. I wasn't. I'm still struggling. I'm still trying to figure out is here is there. Wait, remember that remember that, right? It's a struggle. It's hard to translate to understand to ding. I'm in the middle of a and somehow or other my brain ends up on some sidefold episode I saw four years ago. How'd that happen? I'm being recorded. I hope I'm not being posted on how that happened. >> Yeah. >> Okay. Who is that? But how that happened and it's the understanding is to realize is that what is that? What I have to understand who I am. I have to understand my within me on a personal level, a very personal level. And when I can understand that, then I can move forward. And then I can create that balance. And then I can also be the one. I can be the Yehuda appreciating where I am. Then I'm not deserving that who am I? But yet still be afraid if I'm just the Yehuda. What happens if I just keep your I keep myself enclosed. I keep the siege around me. I'm content. I don't move anywhere. >> Not out of balance. >> I just content. Okay, I'm okay. I tell myself I'm okay. I'm I'm good. And there's no movement. And you go your entire life and you don't move a key. Who is that? Because where am I? I'm just stuck over here and I'm okay and there's been laid siege over here and I'm going to stay here. No, I need to move outwards. I need to go. I need to go. But always go with the understanding and the idea of who I am. And that's why the letter for what? The letter for T says ayen. What's 70 is what? It's expansive. 70 languages, 70 nations. It's going out. It's going out. But wait, but going out not forgetting what's inside. Not forgetting the uniqueness what made you who you are. The insular you which was surrounded now with you shall lion within you that a keshbu gave you and your parents and your upbringing your soio economic level with your job with your family that's for you that's what a keshbuer wants to move forward with not with someone else not to see someone else wants you to move forward with you and that's so we can understand on what on a national level what it means to be able to balance these two forces to go out into the world to make a kid but yet to realize I'm unique I don't change my name I don't change my clothing I don't change my language to to counteract these two culases to understand this idea when they want to destroy us. They want to be just like us. We're not going to we're not going to translate and tell into Greek. We're not we're going to keep it. We're going to keep this wall around us. But also we're going to be a light we're going to light the by that door. I'm going to be a racial I'm going to affect but still staying inside. And on a personal level just as well to understand there's a within me. There's a Yehuda within me. And how do I taper them? I understand and appreciate who I am. I understand with a sense of self a strong self-esteem understanding who I am that is a there's a within me and that allows me to propel forward we should understand and appreciate these two forces on what on a national level on a personal level and we should be agree with amen