"There always a rope next to me that goes straight up to shamayim."

I fully fully believe that alosha finished his tkid and this was how Hashem decided he should go at this time for whatever the reason one of the imageries that I learned at the beginning of the war was that there's always a rope next to me that goes straight up to shamai and I hold on to that rope and when I'm feeling myself questioning or getting worried I just hold on to that rope and I say Hashem you're in Char help me through this because I can't do it by myself and the same thing now he's going to take care of me wherever I am and so even now in this very trying time hashem's still with me all the time and this is what he wanted for a wonderful present for 21 years and he wanted him back and I accept that