Part 97: The Beracha Nourishes You, Not the Food

okay we continue we are still in this piece by in in case that wasn't confusing enough Shin 3155 V how many people did their homework from last week how many people remember what their homework was from last week I can proudly tell you I will proudly tell you that I did my homework from last week the homework was remember don't take on too much begin with a commitment we're learning about we're learning about how bras transform us 100 a day 100 times a day Hashem says text me check in let me know that you know I'm here I want to I want to confirm that you're living with a presence a mindfulness of my existence so we do it 100 times a day and Raa said I'm not assigning you 100 times a day to do do it with kavana that'd be lovely be nice it's ultimate goal but start with a little bit and if you remember how he defined what the little bit was nobody remember we could just learn the same thing every single week and we'd be good to go I'll just repost this in fact I'll just put the recording I won't even come we'll drop off the coffee and press play and everyone will say wow what a great class I never heard that before okay so if you remember Rola said the first of benching benching is D according to Summit the only BR we say which is biblical in Arin according to others benching and are both but the first of benching is most significant and in it we say the words and that was the mission if you remember that was the homework for these words alone four words to concentrate for four words make a commitment to concentrate for four words so particularly when I was in Israel just now over shabas you wash at least three times you're supposed to wash at least three times so you bench and say these words at least three times and I can tell you by thinking about those words and what we talked about last week I was incredibly moved I don't know if I ever cross during benching before my life but I did this week because reminded us just the opening words of benching God you sustain the entire world the whole world with your goodness with your with your with your and rol's insight from last week was that when we say those words it's not just about that particular morsel of food you're not just benching over the kazas of bread it's not that you ate the minimum requisite of bread what are you benching over the bread breaking bread with others experiencing a meal it's not just about the food you ate it's about the Ambiance it's about every component of it so just to give you an insight into what I thought about was wow Hashem invented planes and I was able to get halfway across the world and attend my nephew's Bar Mitzvah here I am with a few of my children here I am with my family here I am with a that our family for that people are healthy grandparents are here it's not not just the kala which happened to have been delicious my sister's neighbor makes it she makes the best kala but it wasn't just other than my wife after my wife it wasn't just the Kal that you're saying the benching on every time you bench wow I have a dining room table wow I have China and Crystal and silver wow I have a 17 course meal and people to eat it with wow I'm at a Sim I have people at my T I go to their table there one but V it's the Ambiance it's not just the immediate it's zooming out the lens and the Gratitude we have for everything so you all get a big F on your homework a big fat F but you can't get kicked out of this school so too bad your punishment is you have to come more often that's the punishment but um but it's your homework for next week is before you get to the point of concentrating on all of benching just the first BR and not even just the whole first BR the first words of the first the difference between saying them without thinking and saying them with thinking is milliseconds it's fractions of a second it's not even seconds certainly not minutes or hours but the difference just transforms your experience you know what it is to pause and benching you say you just you look around you try to identify the things you're grateful for the if that doesn't change your day I don't know what will benching is amazing you're going to want to run first of all as Jews we always find the excuses so today's rashes I should have some bread I should bench it's it's a good excuse to break my gluten free carb free dietes it's not my fault it can't gain weight it's rashes so today's rashes make a point of eating bread today wash make a braa beforehand but do the eat the bread not just because you want the bread eat the bread because you can't wait to say this braa because you want to be able to bench and say wow so all this we spoke last week we're up to V the third V by the way my flights were smooth there and back I have no good stories to tell you it all it all worked out I'm grateful to have no good stories to tell you it's a hard work it's difficult to live with ourselves to minimally concentrate for at least some that's why hasem said give me 100 bras a day CU maybe five of them will actually be focused on maybe maybe 5% 10% 20% and if you do at least that's something we throw them from our mouths right we've talked about you're already walking on after you came out of the bathroom benching people are already clearing the table you're making hand signals to other people about where they need to go what they need to be doing right now as you clear the table as you're benching as you're that's not a benching that's not an ASAT shahak you swallowed the shahak faster than you swallowed the cup of water that's not a shahak so instead of throwing it dismissing it from our mouths to concentrate so says the key is getting started if you can concentrate and focus on one or part of one it can't help but overflow to other areas I think this is a general Cloud it's a general rule of discipline when you're disciplined in one area of your life it tends to overflow and overlap into other areas of your life if you're good with your eating you're going to likely start exercising you go to the exercise you're going to eat if you go with your eating your exercise it's easier to be careful about lashara or about daving or concentrating when a person is in a zone of discipline that zone encompasses different areas and components of life and when you're not in a Zone when you're totally out of the zone and you're undisciplined in eating undisciplined in speaking undisciplined in watching undisciplined in time and punctuality then you're undisciplined so it says Rola the key is not to say I'm going to be disciplined in everything the key is get disciplined in something and by being disciplined in something it will impact and overflow to other areas as well when you take on too much T fast below to FASA so become disciplined you try to become disciplined in absolutely every area of your life I'm never going to look at anything I'm never going to say I'm always going to D I'm GNA concentrate every word I'm gonna it's never going to happen because the first time you fail which inevitably invariably is going to happen it's going to happen quickly then you're going to give up on that whole goal of being perfect at everything so the mission the goal is not to set the end zone at being perfect the goal line is not to be perfect at everything the goal is to choose one thing one thing I'm not going to concentrate all benching first paragraph and if you concentrate on the first paragraph if we take that one thing it can't help but overflow to other areas there is a hierarchy there is an order which do you say first you have a cup of water even a delicious cup of coffee even a mocha caramel grande latte triple cappuccino whatever you have one of those in front of you and you have an apple which BR do you make first so you might be more excited about the coffee the is there's a hierarchy comes before why because it's specific Shak is generic it's the C is specific to fruit that which grows on a tree by being more specific and being more limited it's more special and therefore it is higher priority so the principle the rule is the more specific a br the more limited the more narrow the more significant the more the is that's the rule the most significant are because y you only say on one thing bread you only say on one drink wine or grape juice which is a form of wine so the most on the on the um Spectrum thank you the most specific and therefore the most high are H and the least specific and therefore the least priority is the of sh says you know it's kind of paradoxical that as it turns out the least significant BR is the easiest for us to concentrate on and the more specific Thea the harder it is to connect to so for example the God your have you ever seen a miracle where God extracts bread from the ground bread doesn't go from the ground wheat grows from the ground barley oats rice spelt grain grows from the ground and the human being has to plow and plant and harvest and thresh and winow and grind and knead and bake so you don't really see Hashem as bringing bread out of the ground you see Publix and wendixi as providing bread on the Shelf and that company reversed its plan and we'll still have kosher bread going forward where would the Jews be without timens was a great Act of averted a great Act of persecution and anti-Semitism we still have our our intimate so it's hard to connect you you create the that's hard God you created everything the whole world with your word the ultimate speech recognition you spoke and the world came to be that you God created specifically the prag you created the the great so even though it's kind of paradoxical and backwards to the way we think the truth is the more specific the more narrow the more detailed the more we can tap into God's greatness and the more the can transform us made so there's a reason here to learn to take for a few weeks let's start with SH and the first three times to say it to concentrate to take upon ourselves we're going to think about what it means specific the grape was a specific Choice it grows on a vine as opposed to that which grows from a tree as opposed to those things which grow from the ground and each one we spoke last week K gave it a shell he gave it protection he he created it with its own wrapper so that it's not impacted by the elements or by insects wow it's unbelievable he invented he created things with their own rapper and on the inside of them he created our ability to continue to have it again imagine you had money but inside the money was the ability to grow future money so you could spend the money but You' also have the ability to never never use up the principle because you can continue to spend future money that's what Hashem did when he gave us the fact that these things grow from the ground and they have seeds inside them that can grow more of it from the ground and sustain us and nourish it more he gave us he gives money with inside the money is the capacity to continue to grow more money so we never run out of money assuming we don't blow it we don't ruin it we don't destroy it is that incredible so when we contemplate and think about the eights the the Apple that we're about to eat significant I got pulled over I do have a story I got pulled over and Customs on the way randomly random selection on the way through Miami airport and they said do you have any uh you know there were fruits and vegetables and animal parts and all that kind of stuff I once got pulled over for an animal part cuz I had a big chauffeur I bought Ino it's hard to explain why I had a Ram's Horn coming through the airport but I remembered I had in my bag an apple I had taken an apple from Israel if I was if I got hungry to eat it on the plane and they took away my Apple cuz you can't bring an apple in so I understand they take away El ronics drugs a briefcase full of money but a little apple what's the matter with my Apple it looked good it was a pretty Apple it was no soft spots not blemished what were they worried was coming in with that Apple but you see the significance of an apple got to declare it at Customs I didn't declare it but to declare I hereby declare I have an apple so it's enough to declare Customs it's enough to declare to the world Hashem B PR the braa you're making on that apple is a declaration I hearby declare I'm going through customs of this world and I declare I declare this apple is incredible it's got a peel and it's got seeds and it's delicious and if you dip it in peanut butter oh gmack unbelievable sh made peanut butter too peanuts it's on you never had apple and peanut butter oh somebody bring Essie some apples and peanut butter it's the greatest snack so so when we concentrate whether the shahak bra and we spoke about last week the shahak includes within it also the Ambiance we talked about the markup when you go to a restaurant in Manhattan you pay for 10 times more but there very very same food that you could have bought on the other side of the bridge why you paying 10 times markup o the Ambiance of Manhattan pay for that Ambiance of sitting on top of the person next to you who EAS drops on your conversation and the Ambiance and the they CLA they're paying 10 times more rent why they paying 10 times the ambiance the the real estate the location location location the point is I'm not just making a on a simple cup of water making a Shak wow the Ambiance of this world it's a clear sky and the sun is out and it's beautiful and Shak I'm in a room and there's air conditioning there's light sitting in a comfortable chair I'm about to drink this cup of water the BR is not just on the cup of water the BR is it's on absolutely everything so whether it's the Ambiance and the generic of shahak or the specific it's about the grape it's about the Apple it's about the orange so is laying out for us how he's going to take us now through this through this journey we're up to the fourth ready and here says there's another very very powerful idea within and it gives us a new idea and a new notion into the very idea of what what are these bras called what's the called it's what's pleasure Joy enjoyment it's you can't benefit from this world without making a whether you're em bibing food or a pleasant Aroma you can't get the pleasures of this world without paying for it and the currency we pay for it with is a so let's better Define and understand what does it mean what are we making this so we say it shab morning this was my Bubby's favorite favorite was laughing at me I become so predictable this was my grandmother my Bubby's favorite favorite P when she was healthy but the end of her life even when she was in a hospital bed taste and you will see taste and you'll see sometimes you believe in something so much you say just taste it just taste it it wasn't it was her favorite practice also kind just taste it you like it you'll eat it enjoy it I don't eat that I don't like that I don't eat that food just taste it I promise you you'll like it just taste it says if you try a life of amuna just try it just taste it and you'll see hasm is good several summers ago we would took our kids to the Coke Factory in Atlanta took a tour of the Coke factory which ends I would suggest going to Coke factory in the morning not the evening because it ends where every kid gets a Coke cup and Unlimited Supply at these machines of 4,000 flavors of Coke they could drink as much as they want and they'll stay awake for the next three weeks so the Coke factory so at the beginning of the tour of the Coke factory they talk about the history of coke and when Coca-Cola was invented and the marketing and the advertising and the bottling and the plants and and wear and worldwide it's a fascinating fascinating tour but you know how cook began it was not a bottled drink it was a syrup and it was sold in pharmacies and at the counter of the pharmacy there was like the vat of the syrup and you would take some syrup and you dilute it with water and mix it and you would drink This Magnificent beverage called cocacola so they struggled at first because who was going to buy this funny syrup and mix it and buy it so you know what they did I still remember they they showed this at the beginning of the cooked m the Coke factory and what did they do they said taste just take on your own don't pay just taste it and that built the dynasty of cab multi-billion dollar company why they said if you taste it we're convinced that if you taste it you like it like if you go through Costco and the little nibble of the thing right so some people look forward to retiring to be able to hand out little doilies some stickle whatever they're given out over there crackers Kus so taste it they do that why are they giv that out in Costco because if you like the millimeter of cracker that you were allowed to taste then you're going to buy in bulk enough to eat the cracker comes so just taste it and then we got you so Theon says the same thing if you live a life without you can be an outsider but I don't like that food and I don't like that taste and that's not my taste and I don't want to eat that you could be on the outside of it or you could say and deprive yourself of something you could enjoy your entire life life that if you would just taste it and you'd Acquire The Taste for it and you'd realize it's delicious you could enjoy that the rest of your life that delicacy but stubbornly our children or we don't want to try new things so we say no it's not my taste and I'm not interested and I don't like that and I never eat that car see what it's not my stuff I don't eat that I Don't Go Near that I don't taste that TAMU just taste it and next thing you know you're going to acquire a taste to enjoy a delicacy the rest of your life and there's no delicacy more delicious and greater than the ronom fulfill all the mitz I gave you in the Torah if you're going to eat from the fruit of the ground called a vegetable or from a tree because if you eaten you don't make a you're a thief you've stolen you're not trustworthy but if you eat and you make a you've coronated God as the king in other words if you take something and you pay for it what are you implicitly acknowledging by paying for it implicitly what you're stating is it belonged to somebody else until I acquired it there's a proprietor there's an owner this is someone else's space these are someone else's things and when I pay for it I am implicitly acknowledging and stating I'm confirming this did belong to that person I validate Your Existence you're the proprietor you're the owner you're the storekeeper you own this real estate and now I've acquired it so when you make a br and you pay for the thing from Hashem we are implicitly saying there a there's a creator of the world hasem is the he's the king of kings he owns everything in it hasem owns the world and everything in it like the person owns the store and everything in it and I have to pay for it before I take it and when I pay for it as I stand at the cash register and pay the cashier I'm acknowledging Costco Pathmark when Dixie you exist you own everything it's not random it's not chaos I can't come and just take what I want I'm acknowledging that there's an owner it's not mine until I pay for it and then I acquire it and the same is true when we make a says the medon when we make a we're not just discharging some obligation check made a braa if one concentrates on his mindfulness when making the BR what we're saying is this world has an owner the world has a proprietor the world is owned by someone and everything in it is owned by that someone and until I make a br I can't take it until I pay for it it's not mine so the med is connecting the notion of making a and paying for that which we enjoy to tasting and you'll see that there is Hashem who's the mug writes in his commentary if you make a on each item it's as if you fulfilled all the mitz so points out why are we equating with making a with doing all the so you see again for the that making BR every day is the means it's the way that we acquire how do you show God we know he exists we have awe and love and fear and admiration for him by making these wow says by making a on what you eat when you taste the Apple you don't just taste the sweetness the sugar the glucose of the Apple by making a now now in the Apple you're tasting also you see if you eat the apple and you don't make a all you got was some vitamin all you got was some sugar all you got was the Apple stuck between your teeth but if you make a br on the Apple you didn't just extract the vitamin you didn't just extract the sweetness you didn't just eat a food you didn't just taste the taste in the Apple but when you make the braa you also that's what the med is saying because what's the connection between tasting is good and making what does one thing have to do with the other that's the of the that's what is saying is that when you taste the Apple but first make a braa then you're not just tasting the Apple you're also extracting the braa you're tasting hem what does that mean when you make a not only on the foods that we're obligated to make the but it reminds us that everything I benefit from everything I enjoy in this world I just got into my car and it's a frigid Boke a day 55 Dees and I have a tushy warmer in my car I could press a button and now I'm warm in places I want to be warm so wow it's Han you're getting Han from this world I could move my seat backwards and forwards and tune into radio and listen to podcast and I have andone remember when you had to wind down a window to get the window down now you don't have to wind down a window now you you say car open left window I was with uh someone the other day Mya when there was a car outside that was honking so he said let me check if that's my car I said you going to go outside he goes no I'm going to go on my app of my car and see if my car is honking I said you can control your car from the app he said yeah I could make the car come and pick me up if the car were at my house and I was here he has a Tesla that fancy guy so he says I can tell the car to come pick me up that's unbelievable such a Hana did we ever dream such a Hanah would exist in our lives you tell the car tune into to this radio station lower the left window close the trunk make my kids stop fighting in the back that they haven't invented that yet that piece that that they haven't invented but they should make like one of those limo things where the kids are fighting raise the barrier to the back seat so at least I don't have to see them or hear him or eject them out of the back seat maybe they can invent that eject the passenger in the back left seat so that they haven't invented but think about the speech recognition and what you could tell the car to make it do it's absolutely unbelievable the Han that we have in this world so what is saying what theim is saying is if we train ourselves to be sensitive that when we derive pleasure we should connect the pleasure we're getting to the one who's providing it by saying thank you then we'll be more attuned to all the pleasures that we get in life would seem minimal would seem that we take for granted that seem that we don't even notice and will be much more appreciative and grateful and it will all contribute to connecting back to the if you are present and mindful when we say the and you don't just throw it out of your mouth then it will translate and it will overflow not just to the Apple but to When You Say Car come pick me up everything that you eat has ays physical component and a spiritual component everything we engage every air that we breathe every object that we eat every place we go everything we look at everything we say everything we do all of our Lives has a physical material component and there's a spiritual energy and a spiritual component to it right there are people who believe and I'm not offering my own comment on it now but you know the energy in the body can be moved certain therapies certain healing certain pain that we have chronic illness is the result of a blockage of the movement of energy what does that mean it means that there's the physical body and physiological symptoms and physiological treatments and then there is that which would can't be seen there's an energy that exists I think even Western medicine acknowledges and recognizes you know there's a debate on the Spectrum to what degree can you move energy control energy heal through energy but everybody agrees so just like there's the physical body which is which is visible and there's the invisible energy of the body and of the world and that we put out to one another there's also this spiritual energy that is intrinsic and implicit and inent in everything that we do and everything that we eat and everything we eat so if 100 times a day you make a and 100 times a day you stop and you say this is not stom an apple Theon is found in this apple Hashem is in my apple and when I eat my Apple I've connected with Hashem I feel his love its juiciness its taste its sweetness the fact that it's a available for me I didn't have to grow a tree and climb it and pluck the Apple I went to a store and I paid and it wasn't uh it wasn't prohibitively expensive and I have an apple I didn't buy the organic one so I have an apple I have an apple so and you say hasem is in the apple and Hashem is in the chalant and hashm is in the cougle and Hashem is in the kala and hashm is in my cup of water and hashm is in my cup of coffee and Hashem is in everything a 100 times a day I see Hashem in the physical world a 100 times a day I transform the physical from just physical and I elevate it to also being spiritual how much Holiness how much Faith how much recognition would you add to yourself and how much would you add to a feeling of the presence of hm in our lives it's like you fulfill all of the mitas by by doing this all of the Mitzvah by doing this so I'll tell you I cut out because um it was fantastic but in the recent mrai magazine I think we gave it out in the lobby there was an article by RI and she spoke about exactly this and she references this Al and she talks about this notion this exact notion she said they're called and blessings of enjoyment everyone benefits from your BR writes what does she say if you make a br you will then not only be eating an apple but consuming is that how you pronounce it whatever Health charm and success and not just for your body but for your children too for the BR expands all of your surroundings when you make a br in the when you eat that Apple if you say that BR out loud and your children see you say hold on one second I have to make a br and then you close your eyes and you make a br and they see that mommy or ABA are not just eating food but they're connecting with Hashem then you have brought Health charm success not just for your body you haven't just added nutrients to your body you've added spiritual nutrients to the entire environment around you it's and she says in the plural because it impacts not just you when you make a br and you do it aloud you've impacted the entire environment the entire atmosphere you've changed everything around you the entire environment is raised in other words she writes when you make a bro at home suddenly your son in school remembers the correct answer in his test your husband suddenly feels A Rush of energy at work a car breaks to avoid a child on the street the bra you make perpetuates the good in the world elevates and adds to it as writes is not an expression of request as we're accustomed to think an it's an expression of increase and multiplicity we receive the main novelty inherent in the month of shat this was written inat we're up to ad but I'll tell you something about ad in a moment how does one make the bra you hold the fruit in your right hand if you're a righty you look at it when you make the braa and you put your intention into the braa I hereby intend to increase light and happiness in the world when I make this braa I'm not just I hereby intend to put this apple in my belly it's I hereby intend through making a br on this apple to increase light and happiness in the world I want to change the environment I want to make it clean green better energy I'm going to make it a better environment around me and whether there's anyone there to literally listen so that you're impacting your children through the model that you're serving or like she writes however this works that you make the BR at home but your kid in school does well on the test or your husband or your whatever however that works but we are impacting the entire world and the entire environment our bras have Cosmic implications they're not just a het the BR is not just a mat to eat the apple it's not that I want an apple but I can't steal I can't just take the Apple out of Publix without paying and I can't just eat the apple so I pay to be able to have access to the Apple it's not just I make the BR as a form of payment as a mat to have access to the thing it's that I eat the apple so I can make a br I eat the apple so I can make a broa because I want to change the environment I want my children my family to have success I want to bring more light into the world and dispel the darkness all the darkness in the world comes from the lack of So when you say the word you causes God to be present where you are as you acknowledge Him and then instead of Darkness you feel the light in his face and his blessing upon you if the world has Darkness we fill it with light by bringing Hashem down to this world and then you eat Shir rights and win the lottery I'm not going to do my imitation as it says although I'm really tempted as it says in God sustains you and with many nutrients and vitamins and this is classic vitamin A AA love vitamin B Security in hem vitamin C celebration vitamin D debour speaking about blessing abundance Redemption renewal when do we receive joy and happiness in the everything came to be with his word because this is the BR that contains everything we all know people maybe ourselves sometimes who have everything yet are not happy many people are married but not happy have children not happy have a good living not happy Shak is really everything when making the you think yourself creat of the Universe I want to be happy with what I have and with what I don't have that whatever I have whatever I don't have it's because it's what you wi one final word about BR she writes from the PES one should be fearful of putting something in one's mouth without a br if one steals from a king the punishment is death how much more so if one steals from the King of Kings by not saying a Braha food and drink are food for the body bras are food for the soul which spreads abundance on your eating and drinking because man cannot live on bread alone only from everything that emanates from the mouth of hem does Man live in other words it is the BR the blessing not the eating that gives us health and life itself so we make the mistake of thinking I need to eat to live I need to eat if I don't eat I'll malnourish and I'll die I need to eat to live and the bra is the means by which I make it permissible to eat and she right saying is that you have it all backwards it's not true in order to live you need to make bras what obligates the BR is eating so you eat so that you're obligated in because making the is what gives us life it brings light into the world in nourishes us it sustains Us in the ways that really count and in the manner that helps us achieve the immortality so I'll tell you this is the entire mission of what we're trying to accomplish right now in the Hela month of Adar we'll end with this today ises I saw a quoted I heard a quoted from two people so far that of blessed memory said when you have two adars so then you have 60 days and when you have 60 you know that something that is against the that is different than what it's coming into is it's nullified in 60 so even if you have a bad day or a sad moment because this year we have 60 days of AD 60 days so if there's a moment of sadness or a sad day it's it's nullified in the 60 in the okay so today is today is today is the first day of and we're supposed to feel and the question is I just said this in the 10 minutes of meeting also the question is I don't understand so I open my calendar that I got from the Jewish funeral home or open the Calendar app that I have on my phone that tells the Jewish calendar and it says first of Adar and it says on the to-do list for today what changed in my life from yesterday yesterday I was sad so today my calendar told me to be happy so I'm happy nothing on the calendar changed nothing is different nothing in my life is different so how do I find happiness just because the calendar said so does that make sense is that reasonable is that rational how exactly does that work so the the chern of Chernobyl he writes the following he says Adar the month of Adar stands for Al Dar Al the one and only is Hashem as we say in there is one singular God Al how do we achieve Sim how do we arrive at the when when when when we achieve you want to live a life of Happiness then bring Hashem down here into this world bring hasem down into your life you know what the source of sadness is anxiety fear anger jealousy Envy it all comes from not feeling Hashem in life why am I envious because I think I deserve I want I'm jealous of what they have instead of realizing that whatever I have and don't have it's for a reason it was by Design This is what was meant to be why do I get angry because my ego gets in the way and I have different plans and the way Hashem is orchestrating things so it's a great Act of rebellion to God I'm worshiping an idol when I think that I'm in control I get angry whatever the quality the negative quality that's bringing me down and making me sad it is rooted in not feeling Hashem in your life when we feel Hashem in our lives then we're able to take a deep breath and relax everything's for a reason everything has a plan as uncomfortable as difficult as challenging as unfair as the world is not saying to be happy with the pain the suffering the challenges of the world there's real pain There's real loss There's real suffering There's real Injustice but it means that we have the strength and the courage and the resiliency to confront it and to to endure it because we know it's not random it's not by chance Adar of there's a God and he not only knows about our lives he's involved in our lives he's orchestrating and choreographing our lives he influences our lives he loves us and we love him and that everything that happens nothing is random and when we can feel alar Adar when we feel the sense of amuna and faith in Hashem then then we have nothing to worry about Al that's our entire Mission I say every year I've said it in this Mish year before that that's that's we're not having purum till next month till the second Adar but we read millas Esther our mission millas eser is to be Malala the to reveal that which was hidden hashem's name doesn't appear in the Milla you want to read the Milla with no Adar without alar you want to read the mill that was all chance and random and happen stance and coincidence you could read it that way you could read it as a string of events that there is no God but our mission as Jews is millas Esther migala the we're supposed to read the Milla and see Hashem in the story read between the L and realize there are no coincidences and nothing is random and see hashem's hand in the unfolding of the story of Pam and what's true for the Milla and Pam specifically is true for all of our Lives more globally to live our lives where we read Hashem into the story that whatever is happening or we ever hope to happen is all the result of it's all coming from Hashem to give hm a sense of Hashem is not just abstract and distant and conceptual Hashem is present and involved in our lives we relate him we love him we connect with him we feel him we feel him you remember when we learned the he wrote If you really live with then you're not going to be ruthless with your competitors you'd be willing to help them because you realize Hashem has enough to make both of you millionaires so you own a store and someone opens the same store across the street so if you have no Amun you're going to try to undercut and go to the Distributors and put them out of business and market and lower your prices and you're going to be ruthless in business because you fear he's going to challenge your parasa but if you have a and you know what you're going to do you're going to walk across the street and say how can I help you get started with your business because runs the world if he wants only one of us to succeed he'll choose which one if he wants both of us to be billionaires we'll both be billionaires so I saw a story this week I may write about it in the weekly in Brooklyn there was a store that burnt down there was a fire in it burnt down and that store I think it was a fish market that store's competitor said come open your store in my store you'll do your business in my store till you're back up and running in your store and when interviewed we talked about Hashem is the one who provides the parasa is enough for enough for both of us how rare to see it actually applied this am that individual aside from the enormous they made with that public story that's not just keeping hem in in the sitter or that's putting hem into practical real life when we're faced with challenges or when we have joy and success to feel hasem you want sadness leave God out of the picture push him away knock him out think about you're on your own be bitter angry resentful and think that you're independent everything's on your own you want to feel comfort you want to feel confidence you want to feel happiness then Adar Al see hasem welcome him lean on him trust in him be angry at him is also a form of Adar you're also bringing Hashem down to this world when you love him and care about him enough to be angry at him and disappointed in him that also shows Hashem that you believe he's here that's also Adar and what you'll feel better about it's not just because the calendar says it's it's because living lives where we welcome God in enables us to feel lives of I'll tell you one last thing to close the says don't have among you a strange God that's what the P literally means don't have among you a strange God so what does it mean a strange God the kutar is a great kater kutar said it doesn't mean don't have among you a foreign God as in some other deity a counterfeit deity it means the god the true authentic real God don't make him an alzar he shouldn't be a stranger in your life don't let him be a foreigner an outsider a stranger who you never talked to who you don't recognize who you never spend time with who you don't meet with don't have among you a god who's a god who's an outsider who's foreign who's a stranger who you don't recognize him instead our mission is Adar Olive bring him down connect with him feel him and the result of a life of doing so will be a life of to have a good and to feel only the greatest and the highest Joy