Part 87: With a Foundation of Bitachon, There is Nothing to Fear

B I want to thank dorland for sponsoring again in memory of their special daughter Miriam Esther who should have an Aliyah through our learning okay we're on page T we're still in Al of the great Mas of second volume of his magnum opus of his Al Shore and we've been going through his and so far to remind you uh just to bring us back up to speed we talked about the idea that he quoted the gamar that says that a person who if you connect if you connect that if you connect G if you connect hashem's Exodus that he took us out of Egypt with the prayer that we're about to offer then a person has go to we talked about why should that be what's the connection between the two again we talked about this at length I don't want to review the whole thing but the major thesis that he's offered so far is that is the of that prayer is the gym for that's where we work out the muscles that when we take those three steps forward and we stand before Hashem and we say whatever it is that we need we want we're protesting we're objecting to we're grateful for whatever form of Prayer of which there's no one form depending on the day depending on the moment of the day you might be thanking Hashem for something you might be Pro protesting against hem for something or you might be asking Hashem for help with something or you might be just crying to Hashem for something each each moment is radically different from the next but what they have in common is that we're connecting with Hashem and last week we talked about not just going through the motions you don't put a check as if really I'm in charge I'm in control I do everything and among the many things I do to take initiative check I went through the sitter I said the words check then really we're ding to ourselves we think we're in charge but really ding is an exercise in humility and it's an exercise in that I'm putting my faith and trust in Hashem that is entirely up to it's entirely up to him so I have us on P page t o giml you may not have us there but that's where I'm starting anyway so that's what I have I'm sorry I have up to you're all you're all so passive and obedient nobody corrected me okay do I see I could say anything I want here okay almost so why is it going back to the G in why is it that somebody who finishes and they have no interruption and they immediately in succession go right into right into their then they are guaranteed they have a portion of the world to come because trust in is the core of of awe and of of Faith now he's using a lot of terms there and seemingly interchangeably we've tried to over the last several years in this class Define these terms a little bit what's the difference between it's a lot of terms we use interchangeably but often inaccurately amuna is the knowledge that there is a creator of the universe amuna is that the world didn't come into existence by chance by accidents by Randomness there is a designer there is a Creator but amuna just means that there is an infinite omnipotent being who created the entire universe it doesn't speak to the fact that he has a relationship with me I can admire a magnificent painting or sculpture or building and I can know that there is a architect designer artist author that doesn't mean that I have a relationship with them maybe lived she lived 500 years ago may they hear she lives 5,000 miles from where I am just because I can admire the intricacy the detail The Wonder of a creation doesn't mean I have a relationship with the Creator samuna is the acknowledgement that there is a creator of the universe there's an artist a designer a sculptor who put it all together and put it into motion Y is being filled with a sense of awe of him Y is not fear again we've talked about there and is if I do the wrong thing lightning is going to strike I have to do do the right thing because if I do the wrong thing I'm going to be punished is a higher level it's awe I'm so in awe I would never want to disappoint think about it with our children with our children they could have I better go to sleep because if I'm caught then I'm still awake they're going to take away my iPad for a week so you're I don't want to be punished by losing my device so I'm obedient I do what you ask because otherwise I fear I'll be punished there's also a child could say I have such awe of my parents I would never want to disappoint them and they asked me to go to sleep by this time so iPad no iPad losing it not losing it I'm not worried about losing it it's not the punishment I'm worried about it's that I have such awe and admiration who they are and their values I have such love and awe I would never want to disappoint them so we know as parents what we want from our children we'd much rather I think there's a stage of Life maturity to that right when they're younger there's a lot of years ones when they're older you have a lot less Onish I as long as they're on your payroll you still have the Onish component but once they're off your payroll and they're a mature adult and they're somewhat independent then they no longer have the Onish they're not living in fear that you're going to punish them but you hope that by that St of stage of their life they have enough maturity to look at you and your life with awe and admiration and do things because they don't want to disappoint you so year of Hashem is not just fear lightning is going to strike if I don't make this BR then my stocks aren't going to go up and if I don't this then that it's not this fear correlation it's an a I'm in awe that's real is a so the SOA says at the combination at the at the cross-section of amuna and Y the knowledge that there's a Creator and omnipotent being who put the whole world together and Y I have all admiration of him is I put my trust and faith in him so here refers to he has a whole saer it's incorporated into Al but he also has an independent safer called and I highly recommend it if you're a parent grandparent you love children you're an educator or you just want to read something fascinating it's called zinan it's called planting and building they published it in Hebrew and in English planting and building and rba's thesis there about parenting and about educating is that there's a component of both planting and building planting and building are very different exercises each one has an upside and each one has a downside when you build is a very strong foundation problem is whatever you build and you follow the architectural plans is very rigid it is what it is you have plans you follow them to the tea and you are left with a very rigid structure a very rigid building that has no creativity it just is what it is it's fixed when you plant there's not a strong Foundation the thing can grow wild it can grow everywhere but there's a creativity there's continuous growth there's development there's Innovation there's creativity it's building our children he says are really ourselves if you want to view it that way we have to view we have to educate ourselves we have to raise ourselves nurture ourselves and nurture those around us with both of these components in some ways we have to treat them like a building to build a strong foundation and to have rigid structure but in other ways we have to plant them like a seed where they will continue to grow they'll continue to have a life forc to them there'll be some creativity and Innovation sometimes the the asset sometimes the greater character trait is Aion sometimes with our children we need structure we need boundaries we need borders we need rigidity and other times you need Z you have to plant an idea within them plant values within them and then say go grow go run go grow go explore go go develop so he says the core of year of a is b a has to have a foundation all has to have structure and the core of one grows one evolves one flourishes in their one blossoms in their so the the Apex and the cross-section of the building and of the planting together where do they meet is with is with is with trust in Hashem faith in Hashem and again I know I repeat this every week and some of you come even though you know what I'm going to say just to hear it every week and I say it every week because I need to hear it every week that's exactly what this p is that when we are losing perspective we need to recalibrate our compass compass and we start to think that the insignificant things are important or we start to forget what matters we start to be filled with anxiety worry fear doubt when we start to have jealousy Envy anger when we start to have all these negative attributes which just eat and corrode our core and cause us to sabotage our own success we have to be brought back to that the core of a healthy life and living is B is to realize what am I anxious for it'll be what it meant way it's meant to be I should work hard to control the things I can control and once I've done what I can the best I can do it's up to Hashem what's going to be the weather this Sunday they're going to be thunderstorms people drive the traffic was going to I don't know I I can't I know one thing I can't control the weather I can't nobody history has been able to and thear tells us that nobody will be able to there's three keys that kept for himself tell gave a massive keychain like a hatala type of keychain to the to the Jewish to the world he said here's my world here the keys go conquer it you can study space study biology chemistry physics go conquer my world manipulate it study it control it do it but there's three keys Hashem says I'm holding on to number one The Key Of Rain the weather isn't it amazing I always find it fascinating particularly when a hurricane is forming and the weather people look foolish as they're trying to create a cone and predict a path and they're doing the best they can and we we have we have satellites in outer space gazillion miles away that on my phone can tell me if there's traffic around the corner if there a policeman down the street but they can't tell me whether this massive hurricane is going to hit here or go out to sea or hit New York because we can't control the weather we can't you know explode a bomb and space and redirect the Hur we can't control the weather Hashem says one of the keys I held on to and the second key is sadly some know this is fertility and conception and we know that we have amazing advancement we have doctors and Laboratories where we mix ingredients and we've made incredible progress to help people realize their dream of Parenthood but in the end of the day Hashem holds the key my neighbor our own member Dr matilsky Who runs a fertility laboratory in the in the waiting room of their office they have picture book albums filled with babies who were conceived in the back in the laboratory in the in the Petri dishes and but if you talk to Dr MOS he'll say yeah every day we make progress on how to mix the ingredients but he says whether they turn into a healthy viable beautiful child there's no do there's no no nobody can predict that nobody can control that he says sometimes we have five healthy amazing embryos pre-embryos zygotes and we implant them in a woman and we expect there's going to be triplets and unbelievable and none of them take and other times a couple goes through tens of thousands of dollars of the treatments the medicines and the shots and they produce one terrible looking embryo that's barely holding on that looks like it has no shot but what are you going to do you spent all the money you spent all the time you went through all the pain so you implant it nine months later a beautiful healthy baby is born and he said the difference between the first and the case second case it's not up to me not he's an incredible person so he has the humility and the Faith to see Hashem in his lab others think it's all them they don't see the failure as I'm not in control they just see the ones that are born and look at me I I'm so good at mixing the ingredients so the second key hasem says is fertility and the third key is the resurrection of the Dead we miss people we so badly wish we could bring them back to life and we don't have that capacity Hashem has held on to that key and please God soon will Merit to see him turn the lock we mer to see him use the key so Hashem gave us the keys to his universe but he held on to three Keys why did I get on to this cuz the weather oh one of the keys one of the keys that he holds on to is the weather so let's say for example just theoretically you have a major event coming up and you're worried about the weather you're worried about theather so you can either like be up all night and be nervous all day and make your husband I mean someone around you crazy about about the weather that's what she gets for not coming today and make you crazy about the weather or you could realize like I can't what do you want me to do we could stay up all night every night until the big of there's there's nothing we can do nothing we can do about the weather just reassure her can you can say will it be a spot for umbrellas okay there'll be a spot for umbrellas sh good so what SIM that's I that was exactly what I said Sim the point is the point is it's it's an example and we all of these examples in our lives we all these examples in our lives that we have anxiety what's going to be with the weather what's going to be with the traffic what's going to be with the flight what's going to be with that person what's going to be with my health what's going to be with the return report what's what's going to be what's going to be what's going to be so there's two types of anxiety there's the healthy anxiety that you channel into being more productive more efficient more driven having greater ambition and aspiration that's a productive anxiety and there is destructive anxiety which is the Jewish kind which is just where you worry for no reason about things you can't control and the worry has no impact on the outcome other than destroying your health so you're so worried about your health and what's going to be at the doctor now I don't mean to minimize because this is not easy a person's waiting to get a report I don't mean to minimize that is that is torture it's hell on Earth I don't mean to minimize but that's our mission is to take a few deep breaths and to return to our to flex those muscles that we've been working out in the gym right so again that it comes back to what is saying you go to you have the longest in the sh you Shuckle so fervently it's like a major workout it shitz into through your clothing but then all of a sudden you know the weather predicts a thunderstorm what happened to all the do where to go so the answer is that you got to work out the muscle so that in between the daving experiences when you confront the things that make you anxious or filled with doubt or worry or uncertainty or anger or Envy or jealousy or impatience or whatever the quality you can take that deep breath and say oh yeah you know I remember during shakas when I was telling Hashem how I trust him entirely now I've got to trust him entirely I've got to come back to that so we see in that is that core and that's exactly what we have to keep coming back to constantly to remind ourselves with no matter what's going on in our lives from major and significant to inconsequential and silly is what matters and what doesn't matter a person who is built with Y so if you've created a foundation of your life of Y hasem and we did a shabash we're turning over to page but we did a shabash several years ago about and um I wrote it up in the in the second volume of Yad our our b t Journal that came out the green volume Yad volume two I wrote up that about but the foundation we need to work on we're good emphasizing AA love and and pus and those are all beautiful things I'm very very drawn to them I'm very attracted to them but at the core of yes Hashem loves us and Hashem wants us and Hashem sees even the small things we do and it means the world to him and we give him loves loves us loves us that's good it's true and our generation needs a lot of that we also could use a really healthy dose of the that says yeah I want to do that but that's that's P that's not what hasm wants for me I'm living with a sense of I have such awe such admiration that I'd never want to disappoint Hashem and there is a shtick of fear shle fear wouldn't be a bad thing this is a Fearless generation everyone just does what they want how they want when they want this how I Define myself this is how I dress this is how I Orient this how I behave this is who I am everything the way I want it and everyone has to make room for me and my happiness and the way I want it and I am afraid of nothing I'm entitled to everything and so our generation needs a healthy dose of she have a lot of fear and you're not entitled to anything and you don't deserve anything and you shouldn't do anything other than what what the master of the universe wants from us to do we need a do do of so says if we have that healthy Foundation that there are things that are pished there are things that they're wrong it's just wrong it's not how we behave it's not who we are it's not what we do it's going to disappoint Hashem don't you care don't you love don't you appreciate don't you have gratitude for what he's done for you there has to be a foundation a strong Foundation you s of and the combination of a healthy dose of fear and or an admiration and when one has that Y and the amuna is sprouting his blossoming is growing then you Merit to get to be so he says and where is that expressed it's in the combination or the continuation from G to if G gives you a healthy dose of Y and amuna why do we have amuna we left and why didem do everything he did in we say ining every morning why did Hashem create such Pomp and Circumstance 10 plague splitting of the sea I mean incredible incredible interference with nature unprecedented unparalleled interference with nature a revelation that's never been repeated why he could have taken his Adam MIT with the blink of an eye was he showing off was he trying to impress the world the answer is yeah he wasn't showing off but he was trying to leave an impression on the world and he tells us that in the Torah tells us that Hashem says whenever you will doubt whether I know what's going on in the world and whether I'm involved in the world and whether my hand is guiding the world ask your great great great great grandparents what happened in Egypt because I am revealing myself in this enormous way for this one time so that in perpetuity you can always look back go back to it and remember that just as I did for them I'm doing for you I may be behind the curtain for you you may not see me like they did but I'm just as there for you as I was for them and that's being I remember and by the way the r writes why do I believe in the Miracles of mimim the 10 plagues the splitting of the sea and so on I don't believe cuz I read it in a book it's not because I read it in the Torah in the why do I believe it I heard it from my parents who heard it from their parents who heard it from their parents who heard it from their parents who were there who saw it who lived it incontrovertible they were there the truth is that's how we know any piece of history today in a world of fake news and fake media and fake Internet you can make a website there's no regulation you can make a website and you could publish on that website any truth that you want or untruth that you want you can make up and and say I want to share a historical event in 1746 this happened in small City and whatever and there were five people name whatever and this is exactly what happened you know what's going to happen some school kids going to for a project Google and come across your website and they're going to do a report based on the piece of history that you made up so just because something's written in a book or published in a book or published on the internet doesn't make it true how do we preserve truth how do we know it's true we know it's true through the transmission of people going all the way back to the those who were there and witnessed it and by the way the more people that were there and witnessed it so if I have a transmission of truth that was only witnessed by one person then it doesn't have a lot of veracity I don't know if it's true but if I have two million people who all reported seeing the same thing and all told their children who told their children who told their children to their children who now have children across the world who all have this tradition of what their great great grandparents saw together then I can be pretty sure it's true and that's Matan Torah that's the splitting of the sea that's the 10 plagues so hasm said I'm doing all this CU I want to put it in your family narrative I want to implant this in your family journey in your family Consciousness I want to create this as a true piece of Jewish history that you will forever be able to look back so in those two words G in those two words is embedded the 10 plagues the splitting of the seed the giving of the Torah all of that Revelation so when I say the two words G is I'm tapping into the amuna of wow Hashem didn't just create Universe he's not just the designer and the programmer he's intimately involved in the universe he's guiding the universe and now that I know that and acknowledge that and feel that in my bones and my kishkas now now that I said I can be wow you are the address hasem you're the one to talk to because just like you did it for them I trust you're going to do it for me so in being in making adjacent in the succession of Gul into is tuna is hidden is built is buried the Merit for if I live with the of what happened in history and I channel that and I and I transition that into the belief of what's going to happen in my destiny then in fact I mareda because I'm living with and that's the core of all of life the core of all of life and all of Mitzvah are a platform for that and for that to feel and to see Hashem in every aspect of my life we don't have 613 Mitzvah I said on Sunday morning in the in the she I gave about the it's online also that the SL this week's para and the piece that we did quotes I think from the bem that the bashem said we don't have 613 Mitzvah of course we have 613 Mitzvah this the end of makos that derives we have a tradition that there's 613 mitzvos and then all the different rabbis throughout all the generations try to categorize the thousands of mitzvas and how you could arrive at 613 what driving principles do we use in order to create those categories that we can reduce or consolidate the many more than 613 into 613 but the bah says yes we have 613 categories of Mitzvah but they all have one theme there's really one Mitzvah and the Mitzvah is to have a relationship with Hashem and the Mitzvah is expressed in 613 different ways so I have 613 opportunities to be in love with my wife they can include taking out the garbage buying her a gift having conversation giving time experiencing dinner having intimacy this 613 different ways to be in love to express love to show loyalty to experience emotional physical spiritual intimacy but at the core of all that journey is feeling the connection feeling the bond feeling that that that love and the same is true Hashem says the BM 613 different means but one ends and the one ends is being connected and feeling connected with Hashem that's what it's all about that's the BR I'll just tell you quickly this was in the end of this week's Pas yov steals the BR from from as but ends up giving a both yov and as and they look awfully similar may God give you my son from the Dew of Heaven and the fat of the land and what's May the fat of the land be your your your where you live be your residence be your lifestyle he gave the same BR to both there's one fundamental says's is introduced is preceded with and he says don't read it as may God give you from the de of heaven and from the fat of the earth read it here's my you know what you should Merit elim may you feel Hashem in your life and when you do then when the market goes up you'll see it's from Hashem when your income comes in you'll feel it from hasem fields from Hashem and you'll use all the gash all the physical that you have will be directed and channeled towards Hashem as lives that the gmas the physical world is the ends is the sum total as is defined as an is s he's a man of the field the field is the symbol of the material world he's a man of the field as of chases women as of hunts animals asov wants wealth wants Fame wants notoriety what you see is what you get asov is au what you see is what you get superficial the physical world that's all ASV is that's all ASV cares about that's all ASV believes in Yakov what happens he's in he's in he's in he's not he's not a man of the field he's in is he's a man of the spiritual World he's a man of the Soul he's a man of but what happens at the end of the points out Rifka tells yov he she sends him where to the field why does he have to go make a barbecue for his father before he could steal the braa it's like can't give a br without a barbecue without a good piece of fles what what's going on there there's a lot of answers but's interpretation is that Rifka is showing there's nothing wrong with the S the field has a purpose but the field is the is we should be we our definition our core character should be like Yakov should be spiritual people who use the physical Universe to advance our spiritual agenda soov go to the S prepare from the S disguise yourself from the S before you appear before but you're using the S you're using the gmas as a platform for the R so the G say the sum total is the ends she was teaching yov use the GM use the physical material world as a means towards the spiritual so again that's our mission in this world is to see Hashem in everything to feel Hashem in everything and when we do when we when we keep remembering you remember I was so nervous remember I was so worried and it worked out the thing worked out everything always works out it works out and even when it doesn't that's also what's meant to be and it worked out and it worked out people have gone through horrific unimaginable painful things and they find the capacity that doesn't mean that worked out it is forever a hole in their heart it's not worked out but yet with one foot in front of the other there's yet a life to live so even if one fears there's actually an entire philosophy about this I listen to a podcast I meant to speak about it or write about it or look into it but there's a whole philosophy about living life where the way that you encount the way that you counter your anxiety is to always articulate the worst case scenario and when you realize that you could live even with the worst case scenario then there's nothing to be anxious about so instead of being anxious put out worst case scenario and confront the worst case scenario and figure out could you you survive the worst casee scenario and if you can then that's a way what are they the stoics is that what it's called I forgot what the philosophy is there there is a way to encounter this so we add a little caveat we add a little Nuance to that philosophy which is picture the worst case scenario and realize it's not the worst case scenario whatever you think is the worst case scenario was the design of Hashem somehow that's hashem's best best case scenario because hasm doesn't give you worst case scenarios Hashem gives each of us our best case scenario for who are what we deserve and what we need in that moment and at that time so we have a ability to build and to acquire this character trait of trusting in Hashem stop getting anxious and angry and envious trust in Hashem so every day right we're supposed to DAV every morning and every morning we finish we start right and this is a new cavana to have at this place in the sitter probably the most neglected place in the sitter you finish getting all geared up and ready to say you're taking three steps forward figuring out you know do you have your own personal space you tun your that person that person too loud sneezing this one's that and then you're in my sitter I'm in the right place most of us neglect it's just like I gotta say that to get to the is the main thing and what is expressing based on expanding on the is no is the main thing but it only works if the introduction your effectively if you take that pause take that moment and say I need to feel Hashem for a moment I need to feel his love I want to feel his Embrace I want to remember some time when I felt his presence in my life and now I'm ready to have a conversation with him now I'm ready to talk to him once again and if I don't feel close to him and I can't remember time that he was in my life right now then Gula let me think about the 10 plagues and the splitting of the Sea and the Jewish journey and how we've arrived and where we are and what's going on and without that introduction that prerequisite that license that window to walk through the entry into is being so that is where our entire existence comes to a head right my whole day my whole life is trying to work on feeling Hashem in my life and where do I draw the energy for for that from being that's why it's so Central that's why it's so core when I'm when I think about I think about my own personal Redemption I think think about our national and Collective Redemption think about where we're from and where we're going that gives me the strength it gives me the support it gives me the energy it gives me the faith to now be able to say shim because why bother what am I daving for is he really listening does he really care will it really work out does it really matter does that sound familiar a lot of people feel that maybe if not every day some days we feel that does it matter does he care will he really do anything what difference will it make will it really change can get any better it's very easy to feel that so how do we override that feeling to make our doming charged despite those feelings how do we purge those feelings by being by concentrating on G and by saying you know how I can overcome that because G hashem's in charge I deferring to him I submitting to him he has a master plan he's in charge I also said yesterday at the par here that yob grabs on to of seal he's called yov because he grabs ASA seal could it help it was impossible to help ASA was already on his way out there was NE no way that yob could get around him he couldn't pass so why grab his heel because he had to show his initiative he had to show his faith he had to show hasm I'm going to try and did he know that fast forward 13 years that which he wanted desperately to be the Bor he got fast forward 13 years Hashem orchestrated things AB dies and yob is baking lentils forting Shiva and ASV would come in dehydrated and Mal nished from the field and he PCH he sells the birthright Yakov gets that Birthright that he wanted all those 13 years so when he grabbed asf's heel was it a waste was it for not was it was it fruitless no he was showing his initiative he was saying Hashem I'm going to do my part and I have faith in you and if it is meant to be and it's what's right to be then you'll make it happen and fast forward 13 years Theon makes it happen and I wasn't wasn't equating it and I'm not making a political statement but I said yesterday those who were entirely um distraught with the Iran deal when it passed fast forward a couple years we thought this is the end of Israel is the end of the world do we know it this week us reimposed all the sanctions against Iran the ideal is gone the deal is gone and so we can never become demoralized we should never give up hope we should never feel that our effort was was worthless and wasn't worth trying when we have am we put our faith and trust inm we realize I took my initiative yob reached for as seal and those who thought it was a bad deal and F it we took the initiative and took all that initiative and all that faith and he put it in a bank it was a major deposit and he is the banker who determines when the withdrawal gets to be made in yakov's case it was 13 years later and for those who cared about this deal it was a couple years later and who knows what else in our life we're doing for our children our grandchildren our health ourselves that we're doing the initiative and we're expressing the faith and we don't feel it right now but it's being collected and gathered and it's being deposited and is going to make a with withdrawal but we have to make those deposits if the bank account S sits empty or if it goes into the red then there's nothing to withdraw so we have to make the deposits for him to be able to make the withdrawal so when we DAV whether it's in sh whether it's at home we open that sitter and we finish G and we and we transition immediately there's no break there's no barrier there's no hesitation yeah g yeah he did it in the past but I don't see him now and I don't know if he's there now so that hesitation that hesitation ruins oura cuz the hesitation means that we don't really have that Faith there can't be a hesitation there can't be a pause it's got to be go he's in history he's about to be in my destiny he's everpresent Hashem he was in the past he's in my present I have trust and faith in him about my future so therefore my recommendation my homework to myself and you can try to is that when we take the three steps back or we're positioned three steps back back before you take the three steps forward can't say it after G it's got to be right before before you say the one or two or three deep breaths and to get all the distractions has an image in your hand you're shutting everything out all the to-do list and all the worry and all the fear and all the people you have to call and place you have to go and things you have to do just shut it all out and a few deep breaths and a intentional concentration on a positive thought of Hashem in your life when was Hashem in my life do I have a story for my grandparents of how they survived do I have a story from my parents do I have my own story of when I felt him in my life when I was so worried or nervous or didn't think it would work out and he was there and if none of those I think of the puram story or the khaka story or you see MIM story or the modern state of Israel the miracle of the modern state of Israel and the story that we heard on shabas morning the story on shabas morning of the pilot who flew the mission to bomb Thea Iraqi nuclear reactor and he talked about how by the way he's not observant I don't believe I don't want to disparage him but I don't believe he's the way we would Define but what did he say in his speech he listed several ways where Hashem revealed himself in the success of that mission from King Hussein on his yacht seeing six Air Force planes going overhead and radioing ahead from Jordan to Iraq but the radio frequency not working and the message not getting across two low they flew to the weather to all the hands of hem he said he saw in that mission think about that before you say the think about the Miracles in our own lives the miracle in our Collective National lives take the three de bre de deep breaths and only then three steps forward right into that I'm not worried and these aren't just words and it's not just a checklist what I'm saying to you hasem I believe you're going to come through not come through for what I want but come through for what I need even if it's not what I want hopefully what I need and what I want are the same thing but even if they're not Hashem I put my trust and I put my faith in in you we should all be that we should have the of to feel's presence in our lives each day and every day M AEM will pick up next week amen