Part 71: Sit in the Passenger Seat and Let Hashem Drive

bov good morning morning continue our weekly support group in amuna do not we haven't had a sponsor the last few weeks which a hint hint is a way of uh encouraging an opportunity to sponsor and loving memory in honor of someone it's Mitzvah gueras Mitzvah you could sponsor the study of Torah and givea to a worthy cause so we'll dedicate today's learning today is yaron in memory of our beloved and precious soldiers 20 over 24,000 of whom gave their lives to found and to protect the state of Israel and Jews around the world and thousands other who died as victims of Terror who gave their liveses simply for being Jews and protecting our homeland theas should have an Aliyah and we also DAV for a member of our shs having a serious surgery this afternoon Bella her surgery should go well and she should have a speedy complete and painless recovery refu okay we're on of that's not because we read the first 20 chapters that we're up to chapter 21 we uh we skipped right to chapter 21 because this is not a but rather it's a class talking about we began this last week and we chose this section this peric in isolation because this peric really hits on a tremendously important nuda a very important Central aspect or theme of living a life of faith of amuno which is why we get together to to support one another in our attempted growth in that area so just to remind you and for those who weren't here last week the chapter is called the right way to acquire piety and we definedas here doesn't mean not that there's anything wrong with the modern definition ofus as a movement Hasa within Yus is not how to wear or orus is an inner py how to live a life where not only are you in control of urges and temptations but you've been able to transform yourself to purge those urges and temptations so that you're much more wholesome and pure a life ofus a life of piety and he explained the that the way to acquire that life of piety requires mindfulness conscientiousness you can't live a life of piety you can't be not only overcoming struggle triumphing over urge but actually eliminating it you can't eliminate it if you don't have a high degree of self-awareness if you're not living life with a high degree of mindfulness you have to know what's happening in your surroundings you have to know what the Temptations are you have to know what the obstacles are you have to know what the opportunities are you have to know and feel hashem's everever presence in our lives his guiding hand on our shoulder his Embrace his support his criticism you have to feel hashem's presence when he's talking to us says in this week's para that the T and which are all about s they're about getting not a we spoke in the parure class yesterday not a physical leprosy it's not a Dermatological disease it can't be solved with cortisone cream but rather it is a it is a disease which reveals that there's a virus going on on the inside it's a virus on the inside if you have a problem with your phone or your computer it's not just what you see on the screen that's the problem the screen tells you that there's a virus going on on the inside that's why the PK says it's am it's deeper than the skin the blemish appears the Nega appear appears deeper than the skin it's a mooch it's deeper it's not a skin deep disease it's something which is which is much deeper so the says you go to the co you don't go to the doctor you go to the Coen and he says the modern day application of Tas is that when we stub our toe or your knee or your hip hurts you or you're stuck in traffic or the ache or the pain or the CP so the that's your Nega that's our Nega and the same way the Nega was calling out to the recipient the victim the patient who had that ailment and saying you know this is a this is a invitation to make a change in your life this is an opportunity Hashem afflicts us with it not because he doesn't like us but because he loves us and he wants us to realize we've got to shift something something needs to be repaired there's something which is off here something is imbalanced And So It Begins Hashem calls to mosha the Nega calls to us and in life if one lives life with their antenna extended and looks around their lives they feel Hashem is calling to me all day long everything that's happening to me there are no coincidences nothing is Chance whatever it is that's happening there is a reason I meant to learn to grow not necessarily a punishment I'm not suggesting that for every ache and pain which is minimal and certainly not for any major Health crisis or challenge or any other crisis which is Major that one needs to automatically assume it's a punishment we don't believe that we don't live in a world of that we leave that to God we are not in a position to determine what's a punishment but all we know is it's an invitation it may not be a punishment but it's a reminder it's a it's an alarm it's telling us make a change use it as a springboard to grow as an opportunity and R here says so you need to be mindful you need to be conscious conscientious you need to be awake you need to be self-aware or you're never going to achieve a life of you're never going to achieve a life of of piety if you listen to all the productivity gurus and you talk about successful people and you talk about people who are the best version of themselves who are high achieving who Aspire for greatness they're self-aware they're not just being brought by the momentum of Life they not just go with the flow they have a they have a vision they have goals they're self-aware they have a chart of they know what they want to accomplish what will help them get there what's an impediment to getting there how they need to navigate those impediments and what they need to do in order to be successful and that's true in the physical sense with our health with our finances but it's also true most importantly with our nishas with our souls with our spiritual ambition and the three things that he said number one is he said you need hisus you remember we talked about this last week you need space you need margin in life you have to be able to have time to think if there's always noise if it space is always filled with activity then you can't think and if you can't think you can't have breakthrough if you want spiritual breakthrough relationship breakthrough any breakthrough you need to disconnect in order to connect you need to make time for his bodus it could be 30 seconds it could be while brushing your teeth it could be in the car it can be whatever it is but talk I've been working on this the last several years talking to Hashem out loud it's amazing how you grow in it when you first start out you feel like a you feel stupid you're like it just feels weird you're talking who you talking to what are you saying and what they know already why you talking out loud but the more you do it the more you look forward to it because it's cathartic you are confiding in a best friend you're talking to the source of all who can help solve whatever challenge that you have so whether you do it within daving which is what it was designated to be or whether you do it in anticipation of daving we're talking about how to acquire so the tells us the early Pious people would designate an hour before they DED which today is our which is about 8 minutes long not an hour but they would designate an hour before they stood up for the amida amida comes in the words to be when you stand before hem the rest of d is not ding to Hashem it's ding about Hashem coronos all that sitter stuff till you get to the is not pen used to hear me say this for years back when I ran the explanatory service but it's not talking to God all that is talking about God why so that when you talk to God you're ready to talk to himra zra from the word Z is to prune you're cutting away all the dead weight so that you can blossom and grow and flourish so that you can have that kind that are zra zra is made up of two themes going back to my explanatory days is made up of two themes it's the god of creation and the god of History if you read the M that are chosen from the the all the themes are seeing God's hand in nature in creation and feeling hashem's hand in history why so we take that we say okay this is now who Hashem is he is categorically different than me I'm pathetic finite nothing wow he is everything nature history unbelievable I want to make a commitment to him I want a relationship with him that's is all about my relationship my obligation to hasem is all about what my responsibility what my obligation that's shma then from shma now I'm ready to have a conversation I always used to say it's like like the dating first PUK is getting to know the other person that's the dating period tell me where' you go to Seminary where' you go to high school tell me about your siblings what are your biggest fears what are your biggest dreams where do you want to travel what do you kind of shoing table do you want to have what do you where do you want to live it's getting to know then you're ready for a commitment you get engaged is the period of engagement right that's that's shma is all about not love translates for Judaism into action it's commitment is about action and then the am is when you go stand for a private conversation with hem that's the room that's the that's being a private rev and intimacy experience with hem and then you're not with hem anymore now you're after you exercised intensely and you had a heart rate of 160 beats a minute you can't go from that to sitting on the couch you'll die you need to slow your heart rate down you need to come off of that experience you need to come out of the room and re-enter life with the new status the new relationship that you have so the only part of daving where you're actually daving is the amida the rest of daving you're talking about Hashem so that when you talk to Hashem you can feel you're in his presence we take three steps forward and we are in a new wherever you are in life you're in your kitchen you're in the Sho you're on the side of a highway you're in an airport wherever you are in life you could take three steps forward and the only place you are now is with Hashem you're alone with him there's nothing else that matters you don't really care we take those three steps back three steps for forward we keep our feet together we're like an angel who doesn't walk we have nowhere else to go there is nowhere else to go this is all we have we're in the presence of Hashem this is a conversation we're going to have that's what the am is it's a private rendevu it's private intimacy it is private moment to confide in to talk to to Express gratitude to protest to it's unbelievable absolutely unbelievable and what I try to do I'm just sharing with you because not because I'm perfect or I don't have a long way to go but maybe it can be helpful is in my ding is my agenda for the day not as a distraction from my ding but it actually enhances my daving okay Ron Shalom I've got a l at 11:00 a.m. this morning give me the right words that will Comfort the family help me write a hpid in record time because I didn't really leave enough time to do it help me okay after that I've got to what I got to go visit someone having surgery in Miami bonom help me out of traffic and make this a miserable all day experience help me find them you know help it all go well and help me find the ability to comfort them and what Hashem my child has a difficult test today child whatever is going on in your life you have an agenda in itinerary for your ding if you're a human being if you're alive you have an agenda for you're dominant I don't care how well your life is going I bless us all it should be go so well that we have nothing to talk about you have something to talk about and if you don't then you don't not not a Jew who cares because if you care that it's yikon and there are families in pain today as they recall their loved ones who are gone if you care that on the Israel's northern border Syria and Iran filling the vacuum and the potential conflict that's going on over there if you care about if you're just Awake and Alive and you follow the news half-heartedly you have something on your agenda to talk to Theon Shalom about and do you know how good it feels to weave into your own doing asking Hashem to solve the Syrian problem the less something has to do with you and yet you do for it the better it makes you feel you're part of something bigger than yourself you care you understand his mission to repair the whole world not just your world you're not just part of an egocentric world that's all about you you're part of his world you're feeling the pulse living the rhythm of his world and caring about it so doming each of those bras give me the right words for a I don't know I have my own personal CH that part I'm not going to share with you I've got to do and help me do my own there's no shortage of people who need serious please give them people I know my own is what there's no it's an agenda Kaz built us a beautiful template of agenda and said fill in that's that could be our hisus if you feel comfortable talking to hashm in the context of talk to him then if you're not in the car in the kitchen on a walk talk out loud to hasm fill them in same way I was just describing I need your help let's go that worked out thank you so much that was amazing my child came I'm so happy I'm so happy there the you give me I can't believe this whatever is going on I just found out this terrible thing happened to that person I want to tell you I'm protesting I object to your doing that Hashem you invited me to do that like a did for sto and like moshu did you've invited me to protest and I'm using my voice to protest I don't like it it's not right if it hurts them it hurts me please don't hurt us there's an opportunity to talk to Hashem all day long and it'll leave you feeling transformed you're nourishing a piece of yourself that is so hungry and thirsty and dehydrated by doing that okay we haven't even started today so number one was his number two was tap he said using using and number three was biographies told you I'm reading the biography of the that you could read biographies of Great Men great women and you will be moved by their Story by their mysterious nefes by their heroism by their ordinary ISM ordinary ISM by their in other words don't just read stories of heroism where you go that's incredible I can never live up to that end of book move on read stories of people who in an ordinary way LED or extraordinary lives okay that's what we're up to on page 150 the second paragraph So what is the what takes us away what are the obstacles what are the impediments if we're trying to live this life of mindfulness and meaning of connection to Hashem what are the impediments that knock us off course says the says you know what it is worry nervousness anxiety when a person's mind is preoccupied when you cause yourself to go crazy by anxiety of all the things in your life how can you have a mindfulness a Consciousness how can you have a selfawareness how can you have goals if your head is clouded by all kinds of things I was listening to a podcast last week by um a Navy SEAL leader named jao willins he wrote a book called Extreme ownership he's he's like one of these just on fire people Tim Ferris who's a who's a great author and podcaster also interviewed him and introduced me to him and I was listening to his his podcast and he told a very interesting um story that when he was in radi in Iran in Iraq in in the worst city and having the most brutal battles anyway his kids once said to him um can you send us a picture of where you sleep so he went to the area of where he sleeps and right this this guy's like a warrior he's like he's he's huge he can do 65 pull-ups straight and he weighs like 250 lbs he's just this this Warrior he gets up 4:45 every morning he kills the day you know like you listen to him and you're you're like pumped up it's like drinking a entire box of coffee just listening to two minutes of him anyway so his kid said show us where you sleep so he went to take a picture of where he sleeps and he he realized that he didn't have the pictures of his kids on the wall so so he went into his folder he took out the pictures he taped them into the wall he took that picture took the pictures down and and he sent his kids the picture why didn't he have the pictures of his kids on the wall not because he doesn't love his kids but he loves his kids so much that he wants to be alive to return to see them and he said I when I'm preparing for the battle for the mission the next day I can't be distracted looking at the punum of he didn't say punum looking at the looking at the sweet faces of my children and looking at my wife and thinking about what would happen if I didn't come home or what they need from me or what I'm missing what's going on over there to love them more is to not be distracted by them so that when I come home I can be healthy alive and be fully present with them I'm not you know judging that right wrong I thought it was fascinating perspective because you know before he said that you'd say like what kind of monster doesn't have a picture of his family on the wall of where he is in Iraq half a world away not even seeing them but once he explains his rationale so just it it it's me of it this notion that if you're F you want hodous you want you want contemplation you want mindfulness you got to remove distraction not not your kids and spouse among them they're part of the his bonness I'm not suggesting on a daily basis one does that but it means that we have to be focused because without contemplation you cannot achieve piety right completion wholesomeness piety whatever however you want to Define it and even if you've achieved it you've gotten there you're living the best version of yourself you jump out of bed in the morning you do the exercise you're meant to do you read the tum you're meant to read you DAV with full you volunteer you you're an amazing friend to the people around you you're the ultimate parent you're the most disciplined you're learning it you're like you're the killer you're killing it you're killing it killing it killing it you've arrived you can never feel you've arrived you're never there you're never there it is a constant battle constant battle you know in the world of addiction and in the world of recovery one of the keys to success is to never feel that you're done you're never done so I was talking to somebody who's in recovery and he was sharing how he begins at every meeting he says I am so and so and I am an alcoholic one of his family members says you still say I am you don't say I was you don't say I was you've been clean 30 whatever years you still say I am he said yeah he said the day I say I was is the most vulnerable day that I go back to whatever I was doing true the day I say I was I'm at the greatest risk I'm most vulnerable to be going back to what I was doing I am and that's true for us whatever it is we're overcoming we're conquering right these weeks par Lara gossip that urge let's say you're in a great place because some friend got very sick so you signed up for an hour and not the 2 to 3:00 a.m. slot of I'm not going to speak lashar you signed up for a real hour and you were good for that hour and being good for that hour felt so good that you expanded it to two hours and 3 hours and 5 hours and now you're like I was a gossiper no I still am a gossiper I am just every day battling to have self-control not to gossip every day the moment you think you've arrived the moment you think I was is the moment you will become once again and that's exactly what the ra is saying that don't think you've arrived you got to that level you attained that status you were hoping for you got to that self-control that discipline the moment you let your guard down is the moment that the distractions the anxiety the worry the nervousness creeps back in the to-do list everything you have to do you you feel like you're suffocating you feel like the world's caving in then all that you've achieved disappears The am the the serenity the Tranquility the a theem disappears I love this it's unbelievable G should be on posters around our homes you want divine presence in your home what a statement of the Jewish people the divine presence is not in a place of seriousness and sobriety and sadness and nervousness and and anxiousness all of those attitudes all of that drives the away if you think that the holiest home is the place where they know walk around like this and they they don't talk at meals they're very serious because there's and we're being judged for everything we do and how could we do and life is so short and it doesn't Hashem says would you want to hang out in that house Hashem says I don't want to hang out in that house what are the qualities sadness who wants to be around sadness we have friends and family members who are constantly fabis and down and sad and complaining and woe is me and you know what we do we we who wants to be around that you tolerate it you put up with it you check in on it you go to the family event with it but you don't crave to be close to it also says you're you're sad sadness now I'm not talking about somebody who's clinically sad somebody who has good reason to be sad not trying to make anyone feel guilty for being sad there are reasons to be s sad there's nothing wrong with sadness but sadness has moments and has times sadness is not an overarching demeanor my whole life oh my demeanor sad doesn't connect with laziness right you want to be around the people who like no don't do anything just sit here sit on the couch do nothing accomplish nothing let's just gossip what you hear about someone I'll tell you what I've heard about people you don't want to be around that either maybe once in a while you get sucked into it I don't I don't know about you if I've ever been to a shabas meal hopefully not at this house cuz we try to prevent that but you ever had a shabas meal where you're not in control and so the conversation was yucky it was about people it was about the it was yucky like when you walk away from that you feel tired depleted yucky you need a shower you need a Mikvah you need a it just feels yucky it feels yucky so K also says I don't want to be around that F joking sarcasm so what does want to be around to what home does hasem fill his countenance does he bring his presence he wants joy happiness enthusiasm high energy positiveness right I'm like I'm addicted to jao right now I want to listen to his podcast and read his books why cuz three minutes with him and you're like that's it I'm on fire I'm going to conquer my day right you want to be around that also wants to be around a home that says what's our next mitz and such enthusiasm and such joy and it's so exciting even greater to the pursuit of pleasure and enjoyment they are the opposite they are the obstacle to they lure the heart towards them they are distraction they take us away from everything we know to be important to be true to matter what saves a person from these things oh this is the punch line This is why we're learning this in this year finally we're here so you say great I buy in I'm ready I want to transform who I am my demeanor my disposition my home my interactions I want to transform it from sadness to Joy from laziness to activity to alacrity I'm ready to do it I'm ready to transform it what do I need what do I need to achieve that Serenity Tranquility that peace that calm that mindfulness that contemplativeness that has bed us what do I need says you know what you need it's one word but how do you get the what you need is so how do you feel that Joy feel that Joy I just told you my attend for one day I got to do a funeral so sad I read the hband I got to check in the F there's so much said this crisis the other crisis the third crisis you know that there's just this crisis and crisis I'm talking about my own children and my own life and my own how do I feel my how do you have happiness when you have all that how do you have joy this children has this challenge that children do that challenge you're worried about this family member for that reason you're worried about your porosa will that thing work out you have this friend you have that thing not to mention your to-do list with its deadlines with its how you going to get all done how you supposed to feel that's going to welcome the how can you live a life of Joy enthusiasm happiness where will want to dwell when you have all that you know what the answer is says the solution to it all because the moment you buy into the moment that you have the mindfulness to say you know what there's Aon there's an Almighty he created the world he put me in it I have a mission and it's all going to work out there's a reason for everything that's happening happening I'm going to do my best I'm going to put in my best effort and it's all going to work out it's going to work out and whatever it is it is because whatever it is is what's meant to be so now you can take that deep breath and realize it is what it is actually in one of these podcasts I think it's when Tim Ferris is interviewing ja I'm Tim Ferris ja kick so he talks about he doesn't say it in the form of right because he's not giving a religious podcast I don't know if he is I don't know if they are religious not religious doesn't come up but he talks about when you are running late to the airport and you realize you're going to miss your flight he says you need to embrace that and say you can either lose your cool start crying and and flipping out and everything is ruined and what's going to be and the anxiety so now you start to fight with the person next to you and your blood pressure went through the ru and you're breathing shallow so your health was compromised and it's just the end of the world which will not make the plane wait for you or you could say you know what I can't change this it is what it is this is an opportunity for growth for me wow I don't have to pay money to go to a Tony Robin seminar right now in my car right now I can transform myself I don't have to wait for shab sh to hear a great jha right now I have a great moment to to work on myself this is it this is an opportunity he's not talking about in the context of but the same is true for B those moments that normally would have made us stress out get anxious lose our cool fight ruin relationships ruin our health are each an invitation and an opportunity they're a Nega they're they're saying hey buddy relax it's going to work out you weren't meant to be on that flight the woman who died on that Southwest flight what she would have given to be late for that airplane we weren't meant to be on that flight right not every time did you miss a flight were you meant to die in the flight but I'm just saying if we have if you live life the higher order RAB Sal writes it's it's really magnificent I'm happy to share with you at another time because the way he writes it is very beautiful he says there's only one fear that can solve all the other fears if you have a phobia of public situation you have a phobia of height you have a phobia or fear of of warry of finances you have a fear of Health you have a fear of this you have a fear of of Terror you have a fear of whatever there's only one fear it's very paradoxical because you'd say how could fear replace fear if it's fear you need to overcome fear the r it appears inua because there was a psychologist who gave r a very hard time in he said we and we say give us some good healthy of you fear right normally I translate as a is a dose of fear real fear so the psychologist would say I spend my whole day trying to heal people from Fear trying to relieve them of fear fear is debilitating fear is paralyzing fear is unhealthy I'm trying to get rid of fear and you're D hasem give me fear so the R's answer was the two different types of fear the fear that we're dominaing for is in fact the greatest therapy the only solution to every other type of fear why because says the r all the other fears are because we have no control over those things and what will they do to us and what will happen and what will be and and how will it impact and and how will we but when you live with a fear and awareness and awe of Hashem of the Reon then all those other fears can fall away because you realize he's in control whatever will be will be what's meant to be will be you have what you need you do your best and the rest is in his hands it's the most it's the feeling of the greatest relief let go they say in in treatment in AA or in the 12 Steps let God let let go let God let go let God somebody in treatment told me yesterday after my parir I was talking about at the root lashar is only one of seven things that tell us caused SAS and I said the common theme of all of them is ego so he said in in uh in the 12 step they say ego stands for edging God out when you have ego it's edging God out there's not room for both of you so either you make room for him and you know what the result the consequence of making room for him is you could relax you could relax you know sometimes you drive right so when we're when we have family trips or we're together I always drive almost always I always drive and I enjoy it I like it I'm a control freak it works for both of us I like to drive but recently I was with Ras we had to drive from New York to where' we go to Washington and he drove I got to be in the passenger seat I'm almost never in the passenger seat you know what happened my seat back a little bit next thing you know poor moscot was talking to me and I was fast asleep and I was in and out that whole 4-Hour ride and being a passenger was really Pleasant you know I wasn't looking at is the car in front of me breaking do I have to break on time do I have to change lanes check ways when is the next exit is there traffic am I going over the speed limit is there a policeman near me all of those things that cloud your head and that cause even subconsciously a little bit of angst am I going to get a ticket will I have traffic where do I have to turn I don't want to miss the turn even if you're a calm person but all those things are ever presentent taking up space in your head when you're a passenger you don't have to think about any of that relax you can open a gamarra you can read a book you could have a conversation without that background noise you could close your eyes and fall asleep so says the says to that psychologist puts you as a passenger in life now you're both a driver and passenger at the same time because we don't believe in being a passenger as a spectator passive we believe in human initiative we believe in we believe that you have to take initiative to to take control of your whole life you're a driver you're a driver passenger at the same time you're a driver passenger but you have the benefit of being a passenger B says you know what go in the passenger seat relax I got it says I got it put your trust in entirely you know while I'm a passenger I can still worry what if misses the exit what if he gets a speeding ticket what if he gets us in an accident but when you're in a passenger in hashem's car it's the ultimate driver nothing can go wrong by definition because Hashem is the driver and when you realize hasem is the driver dri and you let go and you're willing to be the passenger by definition nothing can go wrong all of youra was was established already on R whether you put a key in the kala you didn't put a key in the kala already R it was determined whether you going to put a key in the Kal it's a big schoola for the dentist by the way the key in the a person can't touch even a hair's breath of what is set aside for his fellow man we talked about this in the para class yesterday as well because I shared I'll just repeat it here for those who don't go to the paraa class the benishai has an incredible V the MS the individual whose ego whose arrogance got in the way who gossiped who ruthlessly competitive part of the healing process of the MS is to shave his head his eyebrows his body to sh first you let hair grow can't trim it at all and then the healing process part of the process of bringing carbonos and the like is he has to shave what happens when he shaves his head so the gamar there's an amazing gamar Bas the gamar says that if a person looks for some of us it's easier to see than others but if you see where your hair used to grow or grows you see the pores you'll see that there's a pore for every hair and the gamar says that should two hairs try to grow from the same pore a person would go blind I don't know medically it means you literally go blind or it just means that it's bad for your health or it's just meant metaphorically but on our scalp in our body every hair grows from its own pore one pore doesn't produce or nourish two hairs so the benai suggests maybe the reason the MSA has to shave is to see those pores and realize just like every hair has its own pore every human being gets what what they need from Hashem and don't try to encroach on someone else's parnasa don't be ruthless some business don't gossip about somebody else because you're jealous you're envious you want what they have you're competing with them realize every hair has its own poor and every one of us have what we need from hem he'll take care of us that's this in nobody could touch what was meant for you you have ex business I don't care if across the street 10 competitors open they can't touch what you have I quoted yesterday the that we studied together in who said the person who claims to have all day long the competitor moves across the street they badmouth them they threaten them they go to the distributor about them they undercut them what happened to them that everything you have is from hem if you have a you know what you do you go across the street you knock on the competitor's door and you say welcome to the neighborhood how can I help you let me introduce you to my contacts let me tell you what I did to set up shop because you know what I trust the rebon has enough to make me wealthy and you wealthy that if you succeed it doesn't have to come from me if I meant to be wealthy I'll be wealthy no matter how well you do and if I meant to fail I'm going to fail no matter how poorly you do or even if you never came so that is the the attitude that we're supposed to have so the answer the antidote to worry anxiety nervousness fear scattered fragmented divided mindlessness the answer is be a passenger just be a passenger just be a passenger so you're missing the plane you're in the car you're stuck in traffic your heart rate's going up your breathing's getting shallow you're starting just realized you know what I'm a passenger on the ride of Life Hashem you're driving this you're driving my life I'm sure you're taking me wherever I meant to go wasn't meant to be on this plane I'll be on the next plane wasn't meant to have this I'll have that everything is for a reason whatever is meant to be I trust you I'm a passenger on your ride and I look forward to seeing where we're going to go CU who knows how it's going to work out some people thought they were on a trajectory towards something being perfect and it turns out it was the worst thing in the world for them and other people said what I thought what I wanted is perfect and Hashem you took me to this worst thing and it turned out the worst thing was the greatest thing that ever happened to them so be a passenger and say Hashem looking forward to seeing where this ride takes us who knows I can't control it I do the best I can and beyond that I let go and I let God next week I'm away at we've been a conference so we're off next week unless you want to meet with Y Goldberg and chill no okay so we will we'll resume in spe