Part 15

okay BTO good morning we continue our fantastic study of amuna and I want to learn this week a peace with you from the Kalan we've seen him before we've been rotating what we've been learning if you recall thean Cohen is this um extraordinary man in y kodesh the Milkman Works in a cheese factory humble clean shaven looks ordinary and was discovered to actually be a not only a great scholar a great cabalist and now they're very um very much publishing and promoting his uh his wonderful di T this comes from on the par and it's the beginning of and I share with you because and we spoke about this in the para class a little bit yesterday that saer VRA in particular people feel really um is irrelevant to them saer VRA was known by the name t because it deals primarily with the laws of the priests it's the detailed Manu tedious laws of sacrifices animal sacrifices and it just seems so um archaic maybe even barbaric but certainly it seems very inaccessible or irrelevant to our lives we don't have the B of mdash tragically we don't have a mishun we don't really identify with the idea of you know you turned the light on by accident chabas and now you have to go to the B of mdash and you have to buy an animal and you have to offer it as a and all the different sacrifices that have to be brought based on different circumstances we don't really relate to it and so it's hard to read these paros and feel inspired by them and yet they are part they're 1/5th of our sacred Torah sa VRA is a full book of our Torah clearly it has relevance and it has uh resonance and messages that are Timeless so our challenge is to extract those lessons from it to see what we can learn so in the par class yesterday we spoke about the idea of always having salt on the table whenever you have bread you dip it in salt or you use salt with your bread and that comes from this week's Para cuz carbonos had bris you always had to have a sacrifice on the altar was always with was always with salt and the Beautiful um symbolism of what salt represents salt is a great preserver but salt can also Decay and how salt is different than honey and bread carbon can never be offered with honey couldn't be offered with leavon but had to be offered with salt we talked about the symbolism of these things and there's an example where it appears in and it seems totally outdated and yet it is the of the custom the Rama writes that we continue this custom to always have salt with bread and it's not a custom which is reserved for chabas even though most people mistakenly think that it's only only for chabas it's every time you have bread all week long you should have the bread with salt and the symbolism and the Covenant the bris with the uh with the salt anyway that's all the par you could listen actually listen online to the par if you want but today I want to focus on a different aspect of the par that relates to our topic of amuna and uh and how we can grow from the paraa even when it seems to be somewhat inaccessible to us so here the writes the following writes the following as is known the beginning of the book and particularly the first word the name of the book the first word of the book certainly the title of the book has hidden within it the essence of the entire book bra is all about brous to know what Beginnings is all about names what is it about the story of our birth as a a family into a nation in the book of Exodus that is expressed through the word shos names why is names the theme of that book well VRA the opening word and the title of the book has hidden within it the entire Essence the theme of the book says the so therefore in the first versus and certainly in the word hidden in that word in that word excuse me is all of the Inner Essence of the theme of this book we will try with the grace of God try to understand this we pointed out yesterday also in the par class though we didn't have time to get into it in depth that in that word if you open a saer Torah or you open a stone an art Stone Kish you will see they preserve it correctly that the AL of the word VRA is small it's what's known as an Al a small Al and of course everybody immediately jumps on it to wonder why when the font is different you wonder why what is its message and we mentioned yesterday the kakar r lunit writes that the reason the ALF is small is it corresponds with the Jewish custom that children begin learning with VRA and we talked about yesterday why would you possibly start teaching children with VRA it is so boring and tedious and difficult and unrelatable it's the last book we don't it it was a custom certainly through Europe and theer movement and maybe certain parts I don't think in our contemporary day schools but only that's never even tou correct in our contemporary day schools I don't know that we do that although maybe I don't know maybe when they give the you learn like one from just to symbolically hold on to that tradition but certainly in Eastern Europe and still today there are many who preserve that custom to begin from we talked about yesterday why why that would be why would you possibly what's the message to start teaching children from so you have the small so says the we can learn what this book is really all about from its opening word its name and we can learn even more from the fact that there's this small we're in the second paragraph to begin with these are the opening verses of the book of God summoned he called to Moshe and God spoke to him saying speak to the Jewish people and communicate to them a person who seeks to offer from themselves a sacrifice to God the way you offer it is from your cattle is from your animals here the very beginning of the par the very beginning of this third book of the Torah we see the Awakening within a person the desire the craving the longing to get close to hem when a person wants to he doesn't say it here but rers points out the root of the word carbon is you want to draw close to so you know so many people who dismiss carbonos as being Antiquated outdated irrelevant um there was a controversial blogger who who wrote an article a couple years ago about how he prays that you know there won't be a third temple with carbonos because they're so uh you know he's an animal rights person and it's so whatever and um and and they missed the point you know bonus was not about randomly um for no reason taking an an animal in some barbaric way and slaughtering it the idea of the carbon is that every one of us is made up of two parts we have an animal inside us I'm sure we've spoken about this before there's the animal impulse the animal Instinct the animal desire and then we have a Godly Soul we have a Godly Spirit the animal inside us says eats the chocolate cake who cares sleep in it doesn't matter say what you want to say the animal an animal follows its impulse an animal has no self-awareness an animal an has no discipline an animal has no mindfulness an animal does what it wants and craves to do at that moment and we on the one hand are animals we have the anatomy of animals we have biologically so much in common with animals and even within our spirit we have an animal Soul which is that same animal Consciousness that has an impulse and just follows what it wants to do at that moment with whom it wants to do it where it wants to do it with disregard for who owns whatever they're about to eat or whether that other animal is in a relationship with someone else or anything else uh the animal just follows this temptation but at the same time we have aim we are a Godly Soul we are a soul that has a body we are him and God is the epitome of discipline God is the epitome of self-control God doesn't have Temptation God doesn't struggle with desire God is the just is what's right to be and we have that capacity because we have a Godly Soul we have that capacity inside us as well every single day almost every moment of every single day of Our Lives is a battle is a war waging between those two components of who we are every time you see the food that you shouldn't eat and you're tempted to eat it you have that great gossip that you really want to share but you shouldn't share and you have the opportunities the choices every moment of every day are you going to give into the temptation of the animal or are you going to be disciplined and transcend and be The Godly Soul so if H says you know what a carbon is you come into the Bas of mesh with the animal you stand before God you Slaughter the animal and you say to God I am hereby slaughtering the animal inside me I have an animal in impulse a desire a Temptation I'm killing this animal is a symbol of killing the animal in me that led me to make the mistake for which I am here to atone I came here to atone and ask forgiveness for something I've done wrong what led me to that mistake to that shortcoming to that indiscretion was that I followed the animal voice inside me instead of promoting The Godly soul and so I symbolically come here and Slaughter this animal to say I'm killing the animal in me and refer takes this metaphor further and refer says you know you sprinkle the blood because blood represents the passion and you burn the fats because fats represent indulgences and you have the wine Libations you have the water every component of the sacrifices has to do with aspects of Our Lives that you're symbolically making these gestures which are transformational to us as a result and what's the result of this entire exercise this coron is that you're karov you walk away feeling closer to God God I've made a pledge I've made a tribute to you I've killed the animal in me I'm going to do more to emulate you I want to repair and restore the relationship I have with you I want to be close to you so carbonos are not something that are archaic Arcane barbaric we should pray not to revisit you know if you wear leather shoes you're sitting on a leather chair right now or leather seats in your car or certainly if you eat steak for dinner then then offering the car bun and transforming yourself through it is no less meaningful than the fur coat or the leather shoes or leather belt that you where so so says the the opening right he bolded those words doesn't say is it says you want to fulfill your purpose in being creative you want to go back to you want to be an have the capacity to draw close crave to be close to hem want to feel hashem's presence we see here the the arousal of the desire in man get close to the Jewish people are supposed to be thirsty supposed to be hungry and long you know towards the end of the fast when your pallet is dry and your mouth feels sticky and like all you want is a drink you just want a cold drink or a hot cup of coffee my kids know at the end of every single fast I say to them they actually say it to me at the end of The Fast we know all you need is a cup of coffee and you can fast another day right so you just you feel that grow you just need to you're thirsty you're just thirsty you're just you just need you need to satisfy that that itch that thirst so that's what we're supposed to feel in terms of a desire to be close to hasem I'm just I'm thirsty I have an itch I need to scratch it I need to get close to a is the sacrifice it's the gesture it's the action that will yield a sense of closeness so here with this word the Torah has opened up for us the whole window into how we can feel close to Hashem how can you scratch that itch how can you satisfy that thirst how can we can we achieve that goal of feeling close our begins with the word that describes God summoning Moshe how does God call out to mosha that word means a desire to be close right that's not achieved through a text message it's not achieved through instant messenger it's not achieved through uh uh email it's not achieved through uh it's not even achieved through a phone call AA is I want to feel close to you when can we be when can we get together when can we be in person when can we have human contact when can we feel close to call out is to say is when can we get together right if I'm somewhere and I call out you know please come here so it's could be I need a cup of water but it could be it's I want to feel close I want to tell you something I want to be you know I want to be close when you call to someone you're asking that person to come to you so when God calls mosha and says God calls Moshe now notice it could have just said love God spoke to Moshe in theid why is it that he began that's what the that's what is is noticing it doesn't just say God called God spoke to Moshe in the all mo it says God summoned Moshe God wanted to be close to Moshe he called Moshe come be close I want to connect I want to be together I want to spend time I want to communicate I want to bond it's different from the God spoke to or means I want to tell you something means here's the content of what I'm telling you VRA is not about what I'm saying it's about the desire to connect through communication right so and means I got to tell you something here's what I'm telling you but means having nothing to do with the content of what I'm going to say I want to be close by communicating I want to be close but not communicating you know you go to a restaurant today so young people you see think they think they're spending time together but they're both on their phones opposite one another right it's what psychologists call absent presence they think they're together they're not together at all so don't look at the young people in the restaurant but turn your attention to an older couple at the restaurant who sit there quietly barely exchanging a word for the whole meal right and younger people would be totally uncomfortable with the uncomfortable silence but the other couple have been together so long that they're just happy being in each other's presence they don't need to force a conversation they don't need to fill the void with uh with words just being together is is satisfying and is comfortable for them so that's VRA VRA is come close I want to be with you forget what I want to tell you forget exactly the content of the communication but I want to be close to you how so speaks to the the goal to be close between the two soash on the opening word of our of this third book of the Torah says that the word VRA is a language of affection because within my calling you is hidden a great love a great desire to be close if I call you and I say when can we do coffee when can we get together what did you and then you say what did you have to talk about nothing I just haven't seen you in a long time right that's so if I say to you if I text you and say did you hear that such and such or are you going to the thing or I text you whatever so the goal was to communicate information but if I say to you when can we get together and you say what do you want to talk about nothing I have no agenda I just haven't seen you in a while and I miss you I just want to get together so that is the most beautiful expression of affection of connection sometimes you communicate because there's an agenda and sometimes communication is just the means to feel connected to feel connected so what you see is even before God um expressed this desire to feel close so God says you know how you can feel close to me bring a Adam you want to fulfill your purpose in creation you want to feel like a benadam you want to beish you want to be a true person so when you're willing to sacrifice compromise give be a giver not a taker a carbon that's how you feel close but even before God gave us that formula even before God delivered the mechanism through which to feel close he already expressed that he reciprocates the desire to feel close just saying the word VRA come when are we getting together I miss you I want to spend time with you where have you been before telling us then how to come close just the call just the summoning is an expression of love there's great depth hidden in this word this is the root this word VRA which we gloss over which we fly right by to get into but this opening word and therefore the title of the entire book says it all which you already have a hint if this third book of the Torah is all about the laws and the details of kbos and how to achieve a closeness with God it all is hidden in the word VRA in God's affectionate call let's be close I miss you when are we getting together is that like yakar that yakar is is yeah well we'll see in a moment that maybe that's why the AL is small where you going what happen Rabbi just want to share from all of us when you created with your wife this class was a call to all of us I want to get closer I want to be more involved I want to share with you in a much more intimate way and we are all thank you so much I appreciate that I appreciate that from one y to another thank you I appreciate thank you okay we're on top of page two now Theos are our request it's our gesture to hem I really want to feel close to you I want to feel you in my life however within the desire to feel close there's an even deeper yearning so in other words we talk about the idea that we want to get close to I need God in my life having God in my life relieves the stress and the anxiety having God in my life um um helps me overcome anger having got in my life all the benefits that we've talked about in fact he writes you know we have a principle when the month of enters we increase our sense of Joy there's a whole discussion when you have two adars does it apply to both or only the other that P Falls in fine and you'll note that it doesn't say in you have S and in where you have TI you don't have S it doesn't say that M says that in in the month of you limit the joy and in you promote the joy that means that Sim Joy has to always be present I once saw Joy is like a pilot light sometimes you turn up the knob and it the flame is going strong and other times it's more appropriate to lowerer the flame and it's it's diminished in the month of a where we mourn the tragic loss of the two temples and the Crusades and the Inquisition and the Holocaust and all of the Jewish tragedies Through the Ages so we turn down the knob because it would be inappropriate to be joyful and celebrating but on the other hand we don't extinguish it cuz you can't be alive if you don't have joy you're not alive so there must always be a pilot light of Joy there's a silver lining even to the darkest moments there's joy a little pilot light of Joy but an you fan that flame it's roaring it's light it's Illuminating we're supposed to feel Joy so what does it mean you tell a lot more jokes you laugh a lot you watch comedies instead of Dramas what does it me so there's an element of right you know our kids in school every day now it's funny hat day it's funny this day it's costume day it's that day it's it's just a notion of you're happier it's joyful it's and isn't a great thing that we have this in our calendar right if you did it all year wrong it would be meaningless cuz then it's it's not special so but the idea that we have a month that we say you know what make a particular effort to be happy to be happy and uh there's a lot we could talk about about this but um but it's for another time but I just tell you says when comes in we have more joy does not mean that we tell more jokes or we laugh more he says what it means is that we make a greater effort we make a greater effort to not feel stress or anxiety and to realize that Hashem is involved in our life it means the other months of the year you get stressed out of course you're working on this all year round but but in Adar in Adar you say whatever happen is meant to be what isim whenever the Torah uses the term Sim it's always in association with the words pointed this out where do you feel is when you know you're in the presence of God when you're in touch with something so much greater than yourself when you understand that there meaning purpose and order to the universe that God has a plan for every one of us that all that happens is good then you just whatever happens good okay you ruptured your Achilles they'll tie it back together big deal big deal it's good it's meant to be I'm serious you know our classes of amuna have helped me when it happened you know you're bummed out okay you know it's a long uh healing process but okay big deal it's a nuisance there's people with real problems so it's a nuisance big deal and it's what's meant to be for you it's what's meant to be for you I don't want to embarrass him but you know um he just blows my mind his his is unbelievable he's an incredibly special person he's um he's in treatment for uh for cancer but he's doing well he has a he has a great prognosis and he's doing well and everyone should continue ding for him he's an amazing person so you know each time I talk to him and when I visited with him he tells me hasem is amazing I'm so grateful he sent me this this says awaken the amuna in me and this is what he said it's good cuz this is what if I have this means this is what I needed isn't Hashem amazing he gave me what I needed absolutely right so some people say that cuz you know they want you to repeat that they said that or they want you to give them honor them at the dinner was such a humble person he just meant that he meant that it was the most sincere thing in the world so that attitude that if you realize that there's a Hashem in the world and that he's got a master plan then you're your whole life is filled with much more joy cuz whatever he throws at you whatever comes your way you may be happy about it may not be easy may be painful but it's good bad things don't happen to good people painful things happen to good people God decides what's good or bad bad things don't happen to good people painful things happen to good people we all got an incredible musm about this last night from an unlikely place but whatever your politics and I'm not making a comment about any particular candidate but when Marco Rubio right whose whole life for the last year was dedicated to this run for presidency and this whole ego reputation right and he's out of the Senate and who knows what will be next for him and it's it's frankly it's humiliating to be shellacked in your home state it's absolutely humiliating and he could have stood up there and he could have blamed this one he could have blamed that one he could have been filled with anger he could have been filled with hate could have been filled with blame could have been filled with resentment instead he said quote quote god is perfect God makes no mistakes and he has things planned for all of us I remain grateful to God really right was unbelievable and then he went on to close his speech by saying and now I want to pray to God and he quoted from this morning he quoted the same words that you said he said I want a quote from King David and he quoted from V David god is perfect he doesn't make mistakes he's got a plan for every one of us and therefore I am still grateful to God can you imagine what a feeling of disappointment what a feeling of failure of humiliation of embarrassment and with all that instead of anger and resentment and blame he stood up there and he said god is perfect with a big smile God doesn't make mistakes if this is what he determined this is what's right and he's got a plan for every one of us I I thought it was the most powerful it was unbelievable and that's what was saying does not mean that you tell more jokes you laugh more you tickle each other means that you work harder on being that God is perfect he doesn't make mistakes and whatever came your way whatever challenge difficulty painful thing happens what's best it's what's meant it's for a reason it's a relief to know it's for a reason I always say that I don't know I don't know how you get through life if you're an atheist to think that everything is just random and chance and nature and now you got to deal with the hardship in your life to think that you're just a statistic or a piece of data of nature I don't know how you get through that day but to know that whatever happened was meant to be everything is by Design it's meant to be there's a reason you'll be better you'll be stronger it's what's meant to be as painful as it is as difficult as it is to swallow as bitter as it may be but to have the relief to know that there's an omnipotent perfect infinite being who's ordained that this is what was meant to be that brings a sense of relief it doesn't take away the pain or the suffering or the anguish or the challenge but it brings a relief and that's that's the Sim that we're capable of feeling Hashem is perfect Hashem doesn't make mistakes Hashem has a plan for every one of us even when we fail even when we're disappointed we nevertheless always have to be grateful to us RBI so [Laughter] the continues so right so within this we're at the Bold line the third line on the second page God calling out to when we read these words in sh when you're you're reading the par you're getting ready for shabas and you read these words the opening words of our that God called Moshe says don't read it God called Moshe read it V that God just called you and said when can we have coffee I miss you I miss you so in other words it's an amazing thing before you get to the part of the par that talks about my craving to connect to hasem is already God craving to connect to me you ever call or text your friend your spouse and you say we haven't spent time can can we do lunch say it's so funny I was about to call you and say the same thing so that's it before before we call Hashem and say hey Hashem I want to bring a carbine I want to feel close even before that God's already calling us and says when can we do coffee I miss you I don't have an agenda there's nothing I want to talk about I just want to feel connected I just miss you God summoning calling us saying when can we have coffee is his affection his love for us his Jewish people every Jewish Soul a spark an extension of himself right long before what we're learning believe it or not sers did not make up those words they're from so in the fifth chapter of says the voice of my beloved is knocking open up for me all of these different descriptions the God is knocking on our door and say for VRA the theme of the book ofra is God knocking on moshe's door V God's knocking I miss you I want to spend time where are you and he has been knocking through each and every generation in said God is knocking thousands of years after schom wrote his book fake in 1956 we're just learning that an unbelievable s so 1956 said five knocks of hem fake that after the Holocaust with the state of Israel God knocked on our door so throughout the generations throughout our history collectively and individually God is knocking on our door the voice of God that called out to mosha and said when can we do coffee I miss you is still ringing reverberating in The Souls of every Jew that expression of affection and love says you know when you look into water you see a reflection of yourself so to a person's heart when you look into someone else's heart you see the reflection of your heart so first God says I miss you when can we do CFE and then we reciprocate I miss you too how can I get close to you God I really want you in my life I want to see you as perfect and all knowing and that everything is from you and that you don't make mistakes and that whatever is happening in my life it's not only because not only are you not absent you are ever present so God called mosha so it's amazing that opening word the name of the safer that we gloss over we dismiss we get up to the we rush to talk about how we can get close to we skip over God's gesture his knock his call his desire to feel close to us heav let's go two more minutes I never get anywhere I want to get in this class okay it's wonderful we did a paragraph okay so what he's saying here is at the root at the core how can you stimulate your desire to get close to Hashem the way to stimulate your desire to get close to Hashem is to reflect on the fact that Hashem has a desire to be close to you how do you motivate yourself to want to be close to Hashem to be mindful and cognizant that Hashem is waiting to get close to you that he wants to get close to you who he loves us you know it's such a tragedy that Christianity stole from us I can't blame them actually cuz we just abandon it to them but the idea you know they have bumper stickers Jesus loves you but God loves us we Jews don't talk the way we're supposed to talk we should be part of our vocabulary talk about God loves us I just with the men or after the 745 minion Wednesday mornings we do sh so I spoke about this morning sh just a few minutes ago the idea says I am a walking prayer because his whole day was animated with prayer he was D every moment of every day and I said you know isn't it sad when I speak to Evangelical pastors and work together on the pro Israel stuff you know how often Christians will use the language to you of you know I wasn't sure what to do so I prayed on it or we're not sure what to let's pray let's pray together for a moment maybe God will give us Clarity what we should do I'm always like taking a little bit of back and I say that's unbelievable we would never talk like that as Jews would be so shy or so embarrassed so reluctant to ever talk like that as from as we are as total Jews as we are as much as we wear yamaka in public would we ever talk to somebody imagine you're in a business setting and you say to your partner you're making a difficult decision what to do and you say let's pray on it let's ask God for some clarity about what to do the other person would probably be inspired but we would never do it yet they do it all the time we've lost the language of the Jewish people the language of prayer the language of God so that's also true here that we've lost this uh this language that God loves us God loves us very very much he wants to be close to us he calls out to us he speaks to us in the depths of our own Hearts to get close to him to cling to him to rely with him to stick to him like Marco Rubio to know that he is perfect and that he has a plan for every one of us that he doesn't make mistakes and whatever is happening is meant to be and that there is a greater meaning and purpose and order to the universe but here's the amazing thing thing God can't do it only we can in this relationship because he's invisible because he feels like he's at a distance he can initiate only we can only we can and when we take that small step he more than meets us halfway he more than meets us halfway so we need to know that he's longing for that connection he's longing for that loving Embrace he's longing for that Rondevu but he can't send the text message only we can initiate and he responds to us but we have to know that he loves us and that he wants to be close to us the sound of God is hidden in the um orices of our heart there's a voice which is calling a beloved voice a sweet voice this voice pushes us I believe it's the P it's the Jewish spark in every one of us why do we have an intuition of right from wrong of good from bad why do we have this human intuition of a moral compass why do we all feel connected ultimately if we pull away the layers of baggage from our lives there is an inner um default knowledge that there's something greater than ourselves and a greater purpose to the universe that's that voice which is still reverberating in inside of us that's the that God called out that he summoned that he initiated and he's waiting for us to respond we have to know on page three we have to know that at the core of this Awakening at the core of this thirst [Music] so kind of the prerequisite the first stage of our drawing close to hasem is being aware and mindful that hem wants to be close to us it's not one way it's a two-way relationship and we should feel his love in our lives and feeling his love in our lives will motivate us to want to feel close and to take the steps necessary to feel close to him we're at of time but if we would have continued he goes on to explain why you have now the small the difference between V and V with bam it says V with no with Moshe it's V with an why is it vayar with no we read it V but it's V there's no when God speaks to Bam cuz what's the root of the word V mikra mikra car means What's mikra happen stance chance randomness billum it was happened since it was chance got happened across bill as opposed to which is an affectionate call when can we do coffee I want to see you I want to be connected to you you know you could be in Starbucks and you run into somebody and the nudnick chees off your ear that's you happened upon them in Starbucks when you were trying to get out of there and then there's the person that you texted I have no agenda I have nothing to talk to you about I just miss you can we meet at Starbucks with b v he happen to run into him with mosha it's V God calls out and says miss you when can we get together this by the way this this mikra tomorrow or this shabas we read the only part of the Torah that's biblically mandated to hear so I have to limp into sh going in a wheelchair or something but what's what's uh what does it say with aik when they attacked us what is rash quotes three opinions one is is cold water we were on fire we came away from har like a girl at a seminary in Israel we were on fire we were so spiritual so inspired we were like a b Chua who just walked out of the discovery seminar we were on fire and what did a Malik do a Malik Came Upon Us and they said you really buy these Bible codes it's all garbage it's all not true you really buying this religion let me tell you about that Rabbi he's a fake he's a fraud oh you really so inspired it's stupid it's all uh counterfeit he splashed cold water on us when we were on fire that's the first interpretation rash has but the second is the philosophy of amalik is there's no God there's no meaning or purpose there's no God as perfect who has a mission for all of us and he doesn't make mistakes it's Randomness you're just a piece of data you're just a statistic everything is just chance that's the philosophy of amalik and our mission Z the shabas when we read Z of amalik and the obligation to destroy the mission is to destroy that philosophy that we continue to struggle with there's a piece of us that says am I going through this because God or is this just chance did I tear my Achilles by chance or was it planned am I struggling with shom Bas am I struggling with parasa am I struggling with my children am I struggling with whatever is it just chance is it Randomness we have amalik inside us and we have to eradicate that philosophy that attitude of amalik that's lash ker it says in uh in the that God says if you walk with me with car God says you walk with me with carry I'll walk with you with Carrie in other words God says if you approach your life thinking everything's just chance you've erased me from your life no problem I'll pull back and you'll in fact be a function of chance you will in fact be a function of nature good luck to you with the natural world and the natural order says God you knock me out no problem I'll watch from a distance so our job as Jews as as faithful human beings not only Jews as humans of any faith is to say that we don't believe in happen St and chance we don't observe the philosophy of amalik we remember and then we erase amalik from our lives instead VRA God is calling out to us and we reciprocate that love and affection and we earn to feel close to him yes so why is it a small that person so the B says cuz mosha was a humble person and he didn't want it to look like well billum God chanted upon but mosha I'm so special called out to me so mosha wanted it to say V for him and God insisted no would have to say V so they compromised moshe's humility they wrote the small that's the bat's answer differentiate it it's differentiate the CLE gives a different answer if we would have continued here you'll see that the explains that more along the lines yeah along the lines of what we were just talking about VRA is to call so why is the AL small within the lotion of to call you'll see he he explains it a lot more beautifully take it with you you'll see he explains it more beautifully have a wonderful week everybody