Part 146: If You Have Faith, You Cannot Hate

good morning and welcome back to living with amuna the truth is it's sort of redundant because if you don't have amuna you're not really living person who's going through life selfishly egotistically thinks they're in control thinks they're in charge takes credit for everything worries about everything is not really alive they're dead even while they're alive the only way to truly be alive is to live with am the name like the righteous live with amuna amuna is what animates our lives and what gives us life it's the air that we breathe it's the oxygen that lets us very much be alive I want to thank our generous sponsors for the year doors Ai and Bella Morgan thank you so much for your generosity who've dedicated our living with amuna seriously Dr Brian galet who lived the life of amuna and was an amazing example to all of us also want to thank the sponsors for today's particular class the shrier family our good friends and loving memory of great uncle Lester Friedman Ben whose year site is this coming shab and lastly I want to take the liberty and the license to dedicate our learning today today is my bubby my grandmother my mother's mother's urite Yu my bubby my grandmother for whom my oldest daughter Rael is named my grandmother's Y raal and my daughter's raeli Rael my grandmother was a very special woman who really also exemplified living with amuna her favorite P even as she lay in the hospital was t hasm taste and you'll see that Hashem is good she felt hashem's presence she loved Hashem she talked to Hashem she was and continues to be an inspiration to us and her should also have an Aliyah today on her y site and each and every day we continue our learning of R Schwarz his beautiful piece his essayes know your where he defined very focused for us B is not my wish list I want all these things and therefore I believe I have faith I trust that Hashem will do them for me that's not faith and that's not belief and that's not trust that's in fact arrogance that's looking at the world deciding how you want things to happen and then asking the almighty omnipotent Divine providential being to conform to your will and your wish that's not Faith that's not trust at all so therefore he's defined it for us what does it mean it means not only that whatever happens to me I understand and I integrate and I accept as being in my best interest interest certainly I have my interpretation of what would be best and I go after it I pursue it I pursue that person in marriage I pursue that effort to have children I pursue that job that I think will provide me a livelihood I Pro I pursue that lifestyle that I think will be healthy and well I take my initiative and I pursue but once I've done that whatever happens and however it happens whatever life in the world throw my way I know are not coincidental they're not random or chance they're by Design they're choreographed and curated from above that it's all the will of hem that's but he's defined it even more directly even more succinctly you know what is is when I have confidence and comfort and calm because I know that once I express my effort and take my initiative once I fight like anything in order to do what I think is best I then concede and submit I then recognize that it's all from Hashem so we've been talking for many many weeks right now the theme of his essay is we have external selves and internal selves we have the external sense of the world in which we live that is characterized by battling by fighting from when we wake up in the morning we were just talking about a few minutes ago in our today's we were just talking about how from the moment we wake up we're battling we're battling exhaustion and who wants to wake up we're battling breakfast and wanting to eat the wrong things we're battling getting ourselves going and just wanting to take a nap on the couch we're battling sharing gossip or forwarding that inappropriate get meme or GIF or email we're battling battling battling and all that's by 7:00 in the morning and that lasts until we go to sleep at night the external sense of self has to overcome so much inertia so much friction we have to overcome so much momentum that sometimes feels like it is in our way and flowing against us just to get through the day but the internal sense of self The Godly sense of self is not battling it sees a Harmony of the universe it understands that everything is God's Will and God's design and therefore those are just things I need to do but there are no opposing forces there is nothing that stands in my way I simply am the person I'm meant to be and I live the life I'm meant to live and I make the choices that are correct and right for me to choose and once I've done that I have a calm and a confidence I can live with a peace and a Tranquility it doesn't mean I don't live with pain people have sustained great loss through this horrific pandemic and the grief is real people who can't celebrate the way they deserve to celebrate milestones and Simas people can't grieve and mourn the way they deserve to honor the memory of loved ones who are gone people who can't go out and have experiences or take the vacations people don't have access to the jobs they worked hard to achieve There's real grief There's real pain There's real sadness and R Schwarz is not suggesting that we deny or deprive ourselves of experiencing any of those emotions but all he is suggesting is do we experience them from a position of calm and a position of peace that yes this is painful and yes it hurts but I have trust and I have confidence that it's for a reason I'm not battling I accept that this is the Divine will for a reason I can't have access to now some people really struggle with that some people really struggle how do I understand why do bad things happen to good people it's an amazing program this coming Sunday V which has diverse uh Torah leadership men and women from across the Orthodox Spectrum speaking so and I were interviewed for it streaming it'll be shown on on Sunday as part of this program and one of the topics that came up is how do we teach our children about why bad things happen to good people why are there righteous people around us for some family members for other just uh religious leaders and righteous people and neighbors both public publicly uh uh understood and appreciative for their righteousness and people who very modestly and privately LED righteous lives and were losing them and how do you explain so I asked I told the person interviewing who asked that question I said what do you mean how do you explain that to Children how do you explain that to adults can someone explain it to me I'm the rabbi I'm meant to explain it to others who's going to explain it to me there is no answer and we have to concede and submit and realize that if I knew why bad things happen to good people then I wouldn't be having faith in God I'd be God because only God from his Divine perch only God from his infinite porch only God from his omnipotent perspective can look at this world and know and see the bigger picture can look ahead can understand we what I emphasized to him and and I don't want to spoil the uh entire thing if you want to watch it but what I emphasize that we do for children is first of all validate their feeling that it's understandable you know too many children have been turned off to religion because they had a teacher a rebi a parent who said we don't ask that that don't challenge don't ask quiet we just trust that's also not accurate that's not our tradition a ainu didn't protest God and say how could you kill people in stone maybe there's someone righteous there we don't have a tradition of protest mosu didn't say show me your face Hashem show me why bad things happen to good people to which Hashem replied you could see the back of my head you can understand some things in retrospect but you won't understand things as they happen we have a illustrious tradition of our most prominent and esteemed leaders who also had this question why do bad things happen to good people and they objected they protested the almighty to Hashem so the answer is not to become paralyzed or debilitated by the question is to use the question to become closer to him and to realize there's nothing wrong with the question and in fact even just having that question means I believe in Hashem because I didn't have trust I didn't belief in Hashem I wouldn't ask where is he and how he could he do this I would say he didn't do it it's random it's statistic it's chance it's happen stance it's natural order it's a disease it's a virus it's an illness the very fact that we're we're bothered by this question is in itself an expression of the faith that we have in him that we expect more that we expect and we want and we seek to understand so B doesn't mean that world goes our way that life's going to go our way and B doesn't mean that we don't honor and feel the very real feelings of grief of loss loss real loss of people and of life or even the loss of experiences or hopes or dreams or opportunities which the last two months has has hurt all of us with taking away things the way we'd want it to be real B simply means that instead of viewing the world as a opposing me as obstacles in front of me I accept that it's all Divine it's all from Hashem and so every day I wake up and I say what do I need to do I need to fight the illness and I need to fight the Injustice and I need to do what I need to do to provide for my family every day I wake up I do what I need to do but however it results whatever its consequence whatever will happen in the end I accept as being from Hashem there's a Harmony in the universe I'm not battling and I'm not fighting but I see the world as an expression of hashem's will and therefore I'm able to accept I'm able to have a sense of calm no matter what's going on in our way and I'll tell you this this notion notion this in a sense a positivity bias we have precedent we have extraordinary people who live that way and I'll give you one example I I recently gave a sheer and shom bias and someone so generously sent me this beautiful book positivity bias written by rendal cinon and it's all about practical wisdom from laab about living with a positivity bias and I can't summarize an entire book right now in a few minutes but the lababa lived that way everything for him was interpreted in a positive sense he didn't see what was missing he saw what was there he didn't see the crisis he saw the opportunity he didn't see the pain he saw the potential for Joy so you know you might think wellb he had an easy life so it's easy to have a positivity bias it's easy to live with a calm and a confidence it's easy to see the world is operating in harmony it's easy to focus on what we're meant to do and how we're meant to contribute and repair the world rather than what the world owes us and what it's denying us and depriving us of because I'm sure for the Reb it was smooth sailing and everything came easy not exactly let me just read to you he writes it's important to note that the Redemptive perspectives presented in this book are not those of a man who lived a life of peace and privilege they are the insights of a man The rebba Who live through waves of pgrs The Killing Fields of World War I a typhus epidemic a refugee crisis the persecution and forced Exile of his father whom he never saw again the bulvik revolution the rise of Communism World War II the brutal murder of his brother mother and numerous other relatives at the hands of the Nazis and a life of childlessness and his Reb never had a child they lived a life of childlessness this is not a man who had smooth sailing everything came easy so he had a positivity bias did you listen to the list of what I've just read is anyone who's listening right now can they honestly say that they too have gone through a life of each one of those challenges World War I World War II pgrs typhus bosovik revolution in a life of childlessness and despite all of that and even maybe with all of that the rebbit chose he made the choice he was the pilot not the passenger of his life and he made the choice to have a positivity bias and how did he make that choice where did he draw that strength to live life and look at it in that way because he had real B because he had the calm and the Serenity and the confidence that comes that knows that nothing that's happening none of those episodes not even the childlessness which was undoubtedly unbearably painful for him and his wife was all by Design does that mean they didn't try to have children does that mean that they didn't do everything they could to have children of course they did but nevertheless when they couldn't when they didn't they didn't live a life of of pain and protest in the end they ultimately lived a life that this was hashem's Will and therefore they were able to have a sense of of calm okay let's continue this is so important in the period we find ourselves we're still in and why did lose 24,000 students people mistreat one another gossip slander hate hypercriticism judgment dismissiveness marginalization we know that these are the characters the qualities that're the reason we still don't have a base on mikash they the reason for a plague so many years ago there a reason for a plague right now it's so painful to see I was on hours and hours of of Zoom meetings yesterday you know when we were in the height of this when things were terrible it was easy to have Unity among the leadership because there was one message hide under your bed nobody go out practice the safest and most extreme and Draconian distancing and that was the unified message and we proudly all spoke with one voice and it was easy but now that in some places and communities we're turning a corner and now there's some debate if when how at what speed and what increments you should open it's very uh potentially divis and we're running the risk of of the very same qualities that bring every plague Upon Us of of revisiting those same things again of a baseless hatred and criticism and judgment we have to be very careful to try to speak with unity even if we're not entirely uniform in how we're doing this so he writes R Schwarz so beautifully he says if you're really living this life if you're really living this life of that means that you look at your life and you say I have no obstacles I'm not opposing anything I'm not battling from when I wake up in the morning I simply have my list of things I have to do but in the end I accept that the world operates with the harmony and the harmony of the universe is determined from above from Hashem a person who lives that way who achieves that lifestyle who wears those glasses or as we've spoken previously who has that lasc surgery a person like that it's impossible to conceive a reality a person who lives with and he can hate other people if you truly have you know what the measure or metric of we saw one one came from in that one measure of B is are you calm if you're chaotic if you're anxious then you don't really have B that's the gut check on but another gut check another measure or metric on bah is do you have enemies are there people you hate Are you filled with hatred of others because it's impossible it's impossible to live and to have hate now you could understand this superficially and externally what does that mean that you can't have and hate so the simple way of understanding this is I won't ever hate anyone why because when the doctor none of you even asked how my root can now went I'm just joking you all asked me and I appreciate that it went incredibly smoothly remember last Wednesday I spoke about how frustrating it was I went to the appointment and I paid money and there was a miscommunication I thought I was having the root canal that day and it turned out it was just a consult which I didn't even need and um and how frustrating that was so I ended up having the root canal last week and it went beautifully perfectly fantastic doctor didn't feel a thing literally from beginning to end in ble andara have healed wonderfully so I might have said look I'm furious at the at the scheduler of this of this doctor I'm furious at the doctor himself I'm furious at the nurse the secretary I'm furious at someone in my office how could this miscommunication or mishap have happened it wasted my time and it wasted my nervousness and energy how could it have happened but says the ran no person has to say I have a so therefore it wasn't meant to be to have the root canal that day it was meant to be to be a different day I don't know why maybe the dentist didn't get a good night's sleep the night before that day and he would have slipped and hurt me maybe I would have ruined my shabas maybe who knows what who knows what and we'll never know what maybe never know what but amuna means I don't never get angry at anybody why because I have to believe and I have to know that because that secretary that nurse that doctor they didn't harm me they were simply the agent of the almighty who needed me to be rescheduled so how could I lash out how could I be angry certainly how would I ever God forbid seek to take revenge against anyone even those who seemingly harm me hurt me or wrong me are just Agents from above they're not the ones who've done it and though though we hold them accountable somebody smashes into your car and owes your money you can take them to court you can collect your money but you can't hate them can't even dislike them and you certainly can't take revenge against them because it's all from hasem how could you get angry and how can you hate somebody who's simply an agent from above however he says that's true that that is a proper definition live your life and even when others seem to harm you or hurt you recognize and realize that they're simply agents of above it's not you but says Schwarz Schwarz I want to address the notion that there's a contradiction an inherent contradiction between hatred hating others and living with that's different from what we just described so it's not just about I deny God's role in my life if I um I deny God's role in my life if I um if I hate someone and and I fail to recognize they're just an agent from above it's much deeper than that and what does he mean so stick with me as we've been saying living a life of means a life where there's no opposition a life where I'm not battling I'm calm I'm peaceful I'm Serene there's Harmony by the way there are people who do this in SLO Kettering Hospital there are people who are doing this in covid Wards there are people who are doing this on unemployment lines there are people who are calm there are those who are frazzled and anxious and worried and fearful and angry and there are those who are able to live with this B even as they're going through hard times to nevertheless say that it's from above I'm going to do all that I can it's not a contradiction to take initiative and to trust and to have calmness at the same time so it's much deeper at first might have said what does one thing have to do with the other is about me and God leave the people who hurt me out of it if I compete ruthlessly or if I take revenge or if I hate that person I can't stand them I don't want to be around them I try to isolate and marginalize them God what does that have to do with my relationship with you when it comes to you oh I love you and I trust you and I say I DAV and I Shuckle and I God my relationship with you is flourishing it's thriving it's beautiful what is my hatred and animosity towards another person what is my inability to get along with a family member or friend or coworker what does that have to do with you god at first I might have said they're two separate spheres they're two separate Arenas there's no connection between the two God stay in your lane stay in your domain in my relationship with you I'm golden I'm good I'm well behaved my relationship with people is another side altoe stay away it's nothing to do with it however says R Schwarz when a person understands the depth a person understands the profundity of that it's an inner world is not a choice of a moment is not just a muscle you work out B is a lifestyle it's it's the glasses we're wearing it's the lasc surgery we undergo it's that I live my life there's no opposition I don't confront anything other people nature schedules I don't it's all Harmony it's all the way it's meant to be I do what I have to do I do what I'm meant to do and then it's all Harmon a person who lives that way a person who lives that that lifestyle so the real definition of is I don't there's nothing that opposes me there are things I meant to try to overcome and if I can't then they're meant to be there they're not opposing me they're actually my friend so then how could you ever hate anybody you would never be filled with hate you'd never seek revenge you might withdraw if people are are are mean if people are cruel they're unkind if someone's hurt you you might withdraw from them you're not obligated to have a close relationship with them but even then you'd never hate them you'd say for whatever reason they were meant to be in my life I was meant to encounter them and I don't have to battle with them and they're not an opponent to me it's simply part of the life I meant to live because the world operates with Harmony the universe is by Design Torah tells us you're not allowed to take revenge and furthermore not only may you not take revenge but you have to love your neighbor as yourself and how does that that string of don't take revenge don't exact retribution in fact love your neighbor be filled with love love and peace love your neighbor as yourself why ends somewhat cryptically Anem I am hasem I am the Lord your God what does one thing have to do with the other there's people there's my relationship with hem what do the two domains have to do with one another the depth of understanding from where do I draw the strength to only love my fellow Jew how can I love everybody how do I love everybody only the good in everyone only see the good in everything how do you live the life the shear is dedicated to Brian gal but everything is amazing Brian there's nobody he disliked forget that no one disliked him that's easy to understand but there's no one he disliked now were there people who had different Lifestyles and values even people who hurt him yes it was a choice he made because he looked at the world as operating in harmony as being the will of Hashem he saw the good in others and therefore there was nobody he disliked an Hashem because when you realize that everything is from Hashem there's a Harmony to the universe then you can't hate anybody so where do you draw the strength from where do you draw the confidence and the calm from where do you draw the resolve and the tenacity and the perseverance and the resilience to never hate to never want to take revenge to look at this world and say that's the way that was meant to be you know you draw that from the end of the hasem because when you look at this world you say you know what I'm not in charge and I'm not in control and I can't micromanage and I can't manipulate but it's really all up to him ANM this is his world I'm a guest I'm a guest in his world then again I may make the person who hurt me pay not pay like Revenge but pay as Inc compensate so person damaged my car if a person hurt me in business cheated or lied I'm allowed to go collect what I'm right rightfully do I'm allowed to go collected but I'll never hate I'll never lower myself or contaminate or compromise my Myself by being filled with with hate it's a contradiction it's a addiction to have to be able to hate others right one of the one of the R's principles of faith is that hem did does and will do that hem is the source of everything there is no existence there's an illusion of this world but everything really is an extension of him if you lived your life as we spoke about many many times a couple years ago we spent many sessions on I have a beautiful artwork hanging in my house that says and we have a beautiful little sign that sits on our on our table when at our meals there is nothing but him it's all hasem we have to remind us a those three words it should be on our computer screen and our bathroom mirror and our kitchen refrigerator and it should be everywhere there is nothing there's a Harmony to the universe Hashem is choreographing and curating it all and therefore I have what I'm meant to do and I have the life I'm meant to live and the initiative I'm meant to take and I have to battle externally in the ways I'm meant to externally battle for wellness and health and well-being and in parnasa but yet when it's all said and done internally I can feel a sense of calm and confidence of Harmony and of Peace anything that looks outside like it's opposing me we absorb it we integrate it we accept it as being coming from externally we see it as an opposing force that red light that delayed flight that that um customer who's giving me a hard time that supposed friend in the community who spoke negatively about me externally it feels like battling but internally I pause internally I reflect internally I think and I have the capacity to accept that it's all from above we have the ability to climb out of that dark place of that pit to be able to not live life where we are opposing forces and I give you a very real example of this I'm sure I've shared it with you before somebody asked what about a mik are we allowed to hate sure Torah tells a certain specific evil you're allowed to hate but not hate the emotion hate the action it means to to pursue social justice means to oppose those who seek to to our ends the whole heroic IDF the Israeli Army that protects the Jewish people in Israel and around the world we're allowed to hate Kamas andah we're allowed to hate those who seek our demise but not a a hate which is debilitating a hate which is which is productive and which is facilitating so there are circumstances it's not that we say well Hashem wants there to be heah and andas in the world so I love Hezbollah and I love Hamas no part of hashem's plan is that externally we recognize that there are those forces that we're meant to confront but even so internally yes Hashem orchestrated a world in a history for the Jewish people which has been riddled by adversaries and enemies and that is his design and there's a Harmony to his universe and we have to accept it even when we don't understand it so I'll give you a real example as I said I've probably given you before but many many years ago somebody decided that they were going to send a letter out to the community about me it wasn't really about me it was about my salary there was a financial recession and they suggested that maybe I and the other rabbis need to take a pay cut they signed it anonymously boldly and courageously they did not sign their name and they sent it around they put it in mailboxes around the entire community and it was a painful few days and a painful experience for me I was a young Rabbi at the time and I took it understandably very personally and it was very painful it just happened to be as if anything ever just happens to be of course it was from Hashem but right around then I was learning the and I was learning these the prohibition of being able to take revenge and the in this prohibition why does the Torah forbid us from taking Revenge maybe we should be allowed to we should be gibor I should be strong and heroic Nobody messes with me I don't I don't uh get angry I get even who said that Clint Eastwood maybe we should show the world whose boss why does the Torah go out way to say you can't take revenge why can't I sometimes Revenge seems like it's it's right or it's justice so gives exactly this reason the says you know you need to differentiate between what you experienced and where it came from you see if someone hurt you or injured you and you have the ability to hold them accountable you should as I said someone cheated you in business you're allowed to take them to court somebody damaged their property you're allowed to hold them accountable to compensate that's externally the external action you're allowed to and meant to take but internally you're feeling towards them and towards what happened you need to pause and sit back and say to yourself right the say if Hashem didn't want my car to be damaged if he didn't want me to suffer this financial loss or have to go through the effort to recover it and be compensated it couldn't have and it wouldn't have happened nothing can happen without the consent or the will of Hashem and so if you take revenge and you exclusively hold the other accountable for what happened to you you have erased God from the equation you've knocked them out of the entire picture you simply are acting as if human beings alone have the ability to determine everything that happens so the says taking revenge is in fact an act of heresy you've erased God from your life instead the proper response is to say I'm going to hold the person accountable I'm going to collect or be compensated for the damage they've done but I'm not going to lose my cool I'm not going to get angry I'm not going to be filled with ha and I'm never going to seek revenge instead what I'm going to do is say Hashem what am I meant to learn from this and I learned that I learned that exactly when this happened and I'm not telling you that I'm perfect or or dealt with it perfectly but I'm giving you an example because it gave me tremendous strength and I hope it gives you strength if you've ever felt hurt by somebody and instead I said to myself what am I meant to learn by the experience of feeling that this went around the community now did I try to figure out who it was and would there have been consequences if I found out yes but I didn't try to take revenge and I tried to instead of remain focused on them instead to focus on me why did Hashem allow enable consent why did Hashem orchestrate this to happen what was I meant to experience if Hashem wanted all those letters to get lost in the mail they would have been lost in the mail if he wanted that person's printer to run out of ink it would have run out of ink if he wanted that person to have a fleeting thought to do it and nevertheless give up on it the person would have given up on it if they could do it it's only because it was part of hashem's master plan and that's something for me to learn from from so that's the message of of R Schwarz for today is that a person who live really lives with a life of B the way we've defined it that the world is harmony that maybe externally I have to battle maybe externally I have to overcome and confront opposing forces his nagus but internally everything is the way it's meant to be internally there's calm and confidence internally there's Harmony to the universe that if a person lives such a way they'll never hate another because yeah you'll do what you have to do take someone to court if you have to make them compensate if you have to but internally you'll never hate you'll be incapable of hate like our dear role model Brian you'll simply say everything is amazing and everyone is amazing and you'll choose to see the good in them so we have this capacity it's inside us we'll just end with one more sentence for today he describes very beautifully when the Torah talks about marriage the Torah says a person should look for an aero when God divided Adam this androgynous figure into two split into two man and woman God said why did I do that because man needs an AER KGO the word AER means a helpmate KGO means opposite so which is it isn't that an intrinsic contradiction are you a helpmate or you standing opposite rabis understood it to mean if you Merit and you have a beautiful harmonious wonderful marriage and right now for the last two months everybody's finding out exactly what kind of marriage they have when they could run away from the house when they could be distracted with their Hobbies when they can go and hide behind going to work when they were able to live two parallel lives ah everything seemed well and good but now that we've been put in this intense incubator living under this pressure cooker everyone's learning about their marriage so Z if you married then it's AER helpmate what a beautiful harmonious loving marriage Lo connect but if you don't Merit if you didn't achieve that kind of marriage then all it feels is like cono the nagging and the fighting and the opposition and the friction and it never ends but Schwarz has an alternative suggestion interpretation he says such a beautiful interpretation he says what it really means is when God say I'm going to make you an AER cono it means that the kdo is part of the AER you know when you have a yes person if you're married to somebody who simply thinks you're the cats meow you're perfect you could do no wrong who laughs at every joke and who supports and everything you do that's not really a good a good partner in life that's not really a great spouse because really they need to tell you no you've pushed the boundary too far you've crossed the line you're not being your best self you really need to work on that the true AER has a willingness sometimes to go Kino and that's not only true for marriage that a true partner in marriage knows how to the right way you got to read Dr gutman's books you have to know how to communicate it the right way the effective way but knows how to not only be an AER a good marriage a healthy marriage has to include the ability to be cono to say I love you and you're amazing you know how great I think you are but I think you made the wrong choice or you think you said the wrong thing or I think you're pushing the boundary too far or I humbly disagree with you I I would ask you to reconsider um your opinion or position on that thing when you have someone who's cono that is an expression of their ability to be an AER sometimes when we confront something that seems like it's blocking us or opposing us it in fact is helping us it's redirecting us and if we didn't have it to help us and it simply acted as if it was enabling us it would actually lead us to a very bad place to a bad place there is no difference between the time that they are in and the time they're a cono while they're in AER they're working for me in my best interest and when they stand sometimes KGO opposite me opposing me they're also cono in other words I live my whole life with a confidence and a calm that our interactions are always AER they're always there to help me sometimes they'll help me explicitly and sometimes they'll help me implicitly by opposing me but that has to be the attitude of marriage and it has to be the attitude in life that to live life and see the good choose to see the good choose to see the good as I began with my bubby my amazing grandmother she said taste this world and you'll see Hashem is good see the good and feel the good and love the good and taste the good choose to see and feel Hashem in your life and you will see good today and every day so thank you for joining us if you're watching on YouTube please subscribe to our Channel even if you're not please subscribe tonight's behind the Bea special edition not only do we have the great comedian Modi we're going behind the Bea with Modi 900 p.m. on H Facebook or on Zoom but big surprise announcement tonight big big announcement you're not going to want to miss 9:00 p.m. tonight hope you join us wishing everyone a happy healthy and a very holy day