Parsha Perspectives for Today (Ki Sisa 5783/2023) - The Radiance From Privacy

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you're uplifted if you're inspired don't just send me nice emails don't just say nice things but actually give something nice in order to help us continue to teach and promote Torah parsha's key sisa page 484 in the art scroll Stone God spoke to Moshe kisi sauce when you take a census of the Jewish people how do you take a census we don't count by name why is that there's an entire big discussion a big sugie about that question we use different which we have the tradition but we don't identify or count by name president maybe was the exception how do we count with everybody through the contribution you see something powerful by the way you know what makes you count when you give when you give you're counted if you don't give talk is cheap giving speaks loudly so the words that complements they're lovely they're amazing they're nice they're gratifying they give tremendous but you see what makes you count what makes you count is when you give what makes it count is when you give it a palindrome works both ways because when you give you receive go for a nap show before somebody and how much do you give we mentioned this every year we do not give efficiently one shekel each would be a very efficient way to give into count if everyone gives one check out then you count what you have and you know the number of people there are instead we introduce math by giving a half shackle all of a sudden there's math an equation that you have to do so why not give a full circle we've shared many times the insight none of us are complete none of us are whole none of us are full on our own we each I have it's only when we combine and complement the other that we can become whole so when we contribute we need to know that we aren't all it we aren't everything we're not complete we're not whole we're not a finished product but rather we're only a half we are a work in progress and whatever invaluable role we play in the community whatever contribution we make to the community we're only making a partial contribution to the community and we require the complement supplement of the other members and leaders of the community why don't we make a bracha do we make a break on this Mitzvah today tomorrow on your way in or out you may have seen the Bulls for this very important to point out we know in the month of Adar we don't actually give him that Mitzvah is not in force without a base that make Dash we give what we call we commemorate it's a Minogue it commemorates the practice it's very important to distinguish between the two not to suggest or imply that what we're doing is the Mitzvah itself do you make a bracha today it's a minute certainly you don't make a Brach on the minute but when the mark of the sheka was given when everyone made their contribution it doesn't matter if you're very wealthy you can't give a lot the only appeal ever where they said everyone has to give the same only appeal in the history of the Jewish people where the wealthy were not encouraged or pushed to give more the poor couldn't get away with giving less everyone had to give the same amount because it wasn't about it wasn't about the amount raised it was about maximum participation it was about everybody doing their part it was about everybody being counted by everybody giving and those monies were used for the communal uh the communal sacrifices so was there a bracha that was recited quotes the truth of the rashes you do not make a bracha on the Smith so why not when it was in fact a full-fledged Mitzvah make a Brooklyn you put filling on gonna make a broccoli over here in the Magilla tonight why don't you make a broadcast when you do this says you think you're giving of your own when you give you're just passing off what really belonged to Hashem all along we're simply stewards on his money so you don't make a broadcast if you're giving of your own that would suggest this belongs to me this is mine and I'm giving I'm sharing it with another says the rash but it's not yours all that we have is from Hashem it's all known from Hashem we're simply stewards of it and therefore you don't make Abraham however the perishatives disagrees with and he writes yes all that we have is alone from Hashem but the bottom line is we are commanded to give it in this circumstance and we are fulfilling a Mitzvah and when we have a nice Financial admit so that we do we make a bracha so maybe should be recited on it but these are things to keep in mind not necessarily but the deeper significance of the shekel so on your way out tonight or tomorrow we fulfill the Minogue and again don't use the words I'm giving him I'm fulfilling the midterm points out the postcam are very clear person has to articulate it is it is commemorating it is not in fact the Mitzvah the Mitzvah itself but we're all doing our part a small contribution it's only when we combine with another that we can become whole isolated apart alone none of us are complete we are all a journey that's why actually in two weeks it goes partial into trumba the clyakra points out the dimensions of the Arun which represents Torah were fractions they were in whole why some Canon dimensions are whole numbers others are fractions because Torah you're never done you're never finished product you're always a work in progress so therefore it's a fraction it's a part of it's not complete similarly I don't completely make a contribution run the mishkan can take responsibility or get credit for a carbon of the sibor it's only in combination with others it's only when we complement and care to come together that we complete one another that we can become whole paraglamic your test moving right along we have the we're introduced to the Cure versus what was in the key or is made of copper base was copper was put between the oamoid and The Miz Bayard to pass it on the way to them is they had to see the key or what was the base of the key or was made out of copper who gave this copper who donated this copper so the contribution of the women what was the copper what did this formally serve as the copper that they donated they formally served as the mirrors we've spoken about before so I want to elaborate now I want to get to the end of the partial last we can cover a lot the first half the Power Shot we never get to the end so we'll work a little bit backwards today but we know that the mirror base is motion remaining objective is repulsify so they have no place these are instruments of vanity this is what women use to beautify themselves this is how they made themselves attractive to their husband this has no place in the Holy mesh gun and Hashem said this is the most beloved and sacred to me this reflects Jewish continuity this reflects Jewish optimism and positivity when the men were ready to give up a world that was not worth bringing children into the woman said uh-uh we have faith Hashem will turn things around once again there is a bright future for our people and it's worth reuniting and it's worth bringing children into this world I've said it many times the greatest Jewish population explosion took place when and where right after the war in the DP camps an explosion of a birth of Jewish children after all they had gone through they had every right to give up not want to bring children into such a heinous world and yet that's Jewish faith that's Jewish optimism some of us are only here because of that optimism they showed to yet have a child have another child create a continuity says these copper mirrors they're not instruments of vanity they're instruments of optimism positivity faith and of Jewish continuity itself salvation has a different interpretation he says about these about the mirror on the base of the key or and he says before you can go to his back and bring a sacrifice you gotta look in the mirror the mirror is not just an instrument of vanity that mint mirror is an instrument of honesty too many people fool themselves and kid themselves we lie to ourselves and we rationalize to ourselves you can't look in a funny mirror and you can't look at a mirror that makes you look 20 pounds lighter and 20 years younger and you're going to pay extra for the mirror that makes you look the way you want to look the mirror shows you the way you look you ever post a picture in your family WhatsApp somebody looks at it and says oh take that picture down I hate the way I look in that picture so I hate to break it to you that's the way you look it's not the way you look in the picture that's the way you look the mirror doesn't lie the picture doesn't lie that's the way you look so on the way to this back to bring the carbon it's got to be sincere it's got to be genuine it's got to be authentic it can't be based on the version of yourself you wish you looked like it has to be based on the version that reflects reality who we really are introspection self-reflection honesty and Hesh bananafish they're all part of the process on the way to bringing that carbon we have to be real we have to be honest with ourselves what happens Aaron and his sons wash in that Basin in that lover what do they wash their hands and their feet when they come in they wash their hands so that they do not die and the question is today we imitate today we imitate this practice excuse me when do we imitate this practice every morning when we wake up negovaser today a minor fasta even today tyness Esther a lot to say about tiny disaster but by the time most people listen to the pasture class it'll be ice Purim so I won't take the time but today is not a sad fast day you have to know what the avoda of today is so for 30 seconds the rush writes you can't have a fast day before a holiday normally the day before a holiday we don't say talking we don't say has paid them and here you have time which was instituted to be the day dafka before the holiday it seems incongruous but we won't say because it's Arab ayanta for Purim Sakura of Purim makes no sense in the Russia has several other questions but his answer to it all is unlike other fast days which are sad and somber which reflect destruction and Devastation which are meant to motivate chuva this Festa is part of the holiday Purim how do you celebrate Purim so tonight and tomorrow we know how we'll celebrate but what precipitated for him go gather everyone and fast if you want to be able to sit at a suda you can't just observe part of puram you don't just get to have the part where you drink and you eat and you give and you get gifts you have to the complete package includes not just the celebration but what enabled or empowered a drove the celebration was the Jewish unity and the fact that we fasted we came together today is a day of great Jewish Unity it's not a sad fast it's a happy Fest the rush writes it's a happy fast that we're displaying it once again we're coming together to care about our people to Daven for our people and to hope for our people so we wash our hands every morning even on a minor fast that we watch nagobasa second Rush writes the reason for natives our hands are very active and busy while we sleep so maybe we scratched our head maybe we scratched our back maybe we touched our feet maybe our hands went someplace which would require us to wash our hands before we dive in is that why we wash our hands in the morning and if that's the reason what if you sleep with gloves you sleep with gloves and then take the gloves off in the morning you don't have to worry about your day mosconias into your stuff to watch nagamaster can you learn even before you washed your hands so the rashford gives a different reasons however every morning we wake up we're like a coin we are Mama the same way that the priests are the religious leaders and teachers of a particular people we the Jewish people we are the priests and the teachers and the religious leaders of the world that we wake up in the morning whether you're a rabbi whether you're a mechanic whether you're a rabbit doesn't matter who you are and what you do what your profession what your career whether you're tired our mission and our mandate our charge in this world is to be the kohanim of the world so just like the Michigan would wash their hands before they begin the avodha we wash our hands every morning nego Vassar in order to condition ourselves to realize I'm a coin you're not getting the first Aliyah don't get too excited you can't duck and don't get too excited you're not a coin but you're a coin you're part of them you're part of the nation of priests that when you go to work and when you go to the supermarket when you go to the gym and when you encounter and engage the world we are the priests of the world and how do we remind them prepare ourselves just like they're coming with makadish's hands by washing them before the avoda our life is an avoda and the world is our mission and our vote has to make a kitten our avode is to bring everyone closer to Hashem and to reveal his name to give him a place of dear Abita and before our avodha like the coin with wash our hands a great name for this week's Parsha and for today's Minogue right so we watched in the morning why don't you have to limber up stretch and not only wash your hands in the sink why don't you have to lift your feet and put them in the sink too we'd all be in so much better shape our hamstrings would be nice and loose imagine if you had to lift your foot put it on the vanity hang it over the sink take the cup the Nega Blaster cup and wash over your foot not only of your hands three times I guess you do your feet one by one it'd be pretty impressive if you could do both at once your feet you do one by one but imagine imagine the calisthenics the stretching that would be needed every morning so why don't we why aren't we Makai dish rag love if we're imitating what this plastic says why don't we make love because you know why because you're not a coin we are like kohanim we're similar to kohanim we have a mission and a mandate to follow the avodha of our lives but to not confuse to not get too high on ourselves no you're not a coin so we imitate but not completely imitation we wash our hands to get ready for the avoda called life but not our feet why not go all the way not just wash our hands wash our feet so he says represent much more engagement with this world our feet are will give us independence our feet are how we walk around the world experience the world absorb the world our feet are responsible for our busyness remember avram won't allow the Angels into his tent before they wash their what their feet their feet was their busyness their activity their feeling or false sense of Independence so in the mikdash the kohanim had the energy the power the spiritual power to be able to wash that impurity that contamination from their feet so it says so we don't have that ability the best we can do is cleanse and prepare and Elevate our hands our feet we don't have that ability when do we have the ability says when do we have the ability an air of Shabbos we're going to transition from this world we're going to enter the sanctity not in space but in time called Shabbos we'll get to in a moment so the Allah is we say we have an obligation we wash our hands on our feet my face our hands and our feet it doesn't just mean we wash it means we purify our face we're part of our Shabbos in the Kabbalah our hands we Elevate our hands an air of Shabbos as we're extracting ourselves from the busyness and the materialism and the conquest of this week and we're entering a passive place of faith and of intimate rendezvous with Hashem now we can wash not only our hands but also our feet and that's why Shabbos when it says to wash them it doesn't just mean wash them physically it doesn't just mean take a shower a bath on there of Shabbos wash them physically we spoke about this and turned Friday into Arab Shabbos but it means spiritually the person should have mindfulness mindfulness in the shower mindfulness when you're getting dressed for Shabbos mindfulness when you're cutting your nails for Shabbos we went through it each of these acts of getting ready for Shabbos are further acts of elevating out of this world and going to another place then havedal is coming back out of that place transitioning back into this world re-entry shambers can't just happen on its own parasha says if they make Shabbos if to create Shabbos lassos when the Sun goes down on Friday ask the frisco kid it's Shabbos that's it it's over that happens automatically happens on its own but the feeling the panemius the energy of Shabbos that that depends on our mindfulness our Consciousness our effort so you don't just take a shower yell and scream if you take a shower it's your turn did you leave any hot water for me every shop is not just the time that you're going through the physical motions did you shop did you cook did you set the table did you set the lecture each of these acts as a holy holy mindful invitation opportunity we can Elevate get out of the VOC get out of the weekday the weekday that's filled with to-do lists and tasks and Trauma and anxiety and worry and fear and disappointment and failure we have the ability to climb step by step out of that weekday and to go into a place called Shabbos to immerse ourselves in a place there aren't to do there are no tasks there is no technology all there is is to be with ourselves the best version of ourselves a peaceful tranquil Serene version of ourselves to be with our family to be with everybody so how do you get there it doesn't happen like that you have to make the effort and the effort is part of the other person has to wash so we imitate every day we wake up we wash nagavas at our hands we Engage The World As the kohanim but come Friday afternoon we leave the weekday and we enter a place called Chavis kadish and we do that by being rohits not just a shower not just a good shower but it means a good spiritual shower we're trying to purge whatever contaminants we looked at the wrong things we heard the wrong things we said the wrong things we pursued the wrong things how do I cleanse myself of that that's why many of them many men I got in trouble last week in the partial class I said when a year puts on villains I got a whole email a year doesn't put on fill in men put on fill in half the year and don't work till him so when a man goes to the mixer how do I get in trouble okay it's time to zester I'm just gonna keep going so I went up when a man goes to the next Shabbos it's also being roasted is to to be able to grow it doesn't happen on its own it takes it takes effort it takes effort okay let's keep going I said I was gonna do the end of the partial so we're going to work a little bit backwards I don't want to run a time like I usually do so we'll work a little bit backwards skip to the end of the pressure it's okay if you read the Magilla my friend liatza you're not fulfilled if you read the Magilla out of order but if you learn the pasture out of order it doesn't say in that you would say still a pasture class so we're going to go out of order stick with me keep you on your toes go to the end of the park test 34-29 page 514 the last page of our pasture failure of the Jewish people unfaithfulness and infidelity in that moment of great Union with Hashem and moshead is invited back up 40 days 40 nights he doesn't need he doesn't drink he gets the second set of Lucas and he comes down and this time when he comes down what happens he doesn't even realize it that the skin of his face became radiant when Hashem spoke to him what does that mean the skin of his face became radiant when Hashem spoke to him Karen Orr so we know Rashi tells us where did this Radiance come from the measure says he had a quill with ink that he wrote and transcribed the Torah that Hashem dictated to him but there was some ink left over with the ink that left over it became the Rays of light you know middle age Renaissance art that depict Jews with rays of light that got misinterpreted the Jews have horns the Rays of light that came out of his head misinterpreted the Jews have horns where those rays of light come from the current ore that came from the extra ink now the question is extra ink where'd the quill come from with the ink is precise he's perfect he doesn't miscalculate there's no extra ink there's no extra ink on the cartridge left over there's never extra ink in the cartridge left over there's always not enough ink on the cartridge but the reborn gets it exactly right yeah didn't know exactly how much ink that he ran out so the Roma's answers where was the extra ink from because miscalculated but he pivoted he made a change what change the book of aykro opens with a wrestling match between Hashem and Moshe Moshe says don't write sounds like you called me special it's gonna it's gonna inflate my ego it's going to give me honor I don't deserve mush is the most humble of all people right by a car like with billum right that you happened upon me it was chance it was random that you made me the leader because says are you crazy I'm not sure I'm the creator of the world I recorded you I chose you vayakra I called to you each of us has a calling Musha people will think Life Is Random and chance they need to know that just like I called you each of them has a calling they went back and forth and back and forth they wrestled until they compromised and what was the Compromise and all of the era all of the era measure says this is the reason we have a Minogue children begin learning Toro where from safer vayekra why because the all of the erasera means small the olive says fine he gives in you can write the Allah make it small so they can read vaikar so from that expression that demonstration of humility that the aleph was the era that's that's maybe where the extra deal the extra ink came from maybe that's where the extra ink came from just tell you zeera connected to Purim it's a great program for it the Weinberger shlita is here who's here for the breast with the sandic this morning so I heard from him the following say s it's a big topic for another time but the Gemar then tells a story camera above Zera rubber got up and he drank too much of the poemsuda and he shaked that he killed obsera the next day he died in for him and Sarah came back to life fast forward a year later Abba says remember the purpose looks at him he says it's not every year this it's not every year that a miracle is going to happen let me know let me know was I'm not having sudo with you this year not every year a miracle happens and then we're showing them all of a debate why did Gamora bring the story after Rover came to teach the din rava says teaches you have to drink on Purim you have to lose yourself on Parental you can no longer tell the difference then we have a story [Music] then Robert Dobbins former obsera comes back to life and he says next year you're on your own we're not having suda together somebody showing them say why did you mark tell the story in order to tell you that the din doesn't apply you see what happens if you drink too much rava it was a nice idea a nice thought don't do it don't drink too much look what happens oh they say no you see he wanted to throw the suits of the next year he was going to drink again you see the din still applies and the Rama quotes on the rambam that the proper practice is to drink enough that you get sleepy you take a nap while you're sleeping you know the difference I said it's a big topic for another time however what does it means you know every one of us has azira in front of us we see the small part of who we are I'm a small fan of Cornish I'm a nothing I'm a nobody and then there's the rabba there's the greatness in us there's the possibility of greatness in us there's the potential there's who we could be this is who we're meant to be when Purim comes era the rabba in us has the shack this is the era in us the big part of who we are the part that we're capable of the bigness in us the greatness in us the possibility in us the potential in us has to check the zeerah the zaira in us the smallness in us the part that thinks that we're inadequate and consequential invisible incapable in in not of any value the kamraba we have to destroy this so the olives the era maybe that's where the extra ink came from says don't write by a car the compromise they made the olive small The Passion of Kraken is a different answer where did the do come from last week's partial should have included moshe's name but it didn't why because in our pasture it says erase me from your book forgive the people forgive them for the greater Eagle if not erase me from your book um it says Moshe was humble there's no yud so a lot of suggestions where did this where this extra income from they say for harsinai quotes from another source tells us Moshe wrote the whole Torah except for the last Apes the last time which Moshe wrote with his tears not with ink so therefore because Moshe wrote the last name which tell what happens after he dies he wrote them with tears not Inc therefore there was ink left over maybe that is the extra ink maybe that's the extra ink but salivchik has a different interpretation listen to what the Rob says why did Moshe develop this Radiance only after bestowal of the second luchos how come when it came down the first time from the mountain he didn't have horns he didn't have light shining out why was it only the second time it came down again for a long time you learned the parashim Karan or what does that even mean how do you project rays of light what does that look like but now you drive down 95 is it 95 the turnpike and you see the Hard Rock the guitar at night projects the light up in the sky the havdal elf alphe of Dallas and even more but we can imagine we have the ability to project light it's mushroom comes down from the mountain that people see him but they don't see a human being they don't see a simple face they see somebody whose face is radiating radiating this light why didn't that happen the first time the first time you came down with the first luchos where was the light show then the answer said the rub lies the difference between the torsav and tors the written tour in the orator in receiving the written laws represented in the first luchos Moshe acted as a messenger in delivering them to the people the radiance on moshe's face however suggests that after he received the second luchos and the oral law Moshe absorbed the Torah into the essence of his personality he now personified the Torah and an effect had been transformed into a living safer Torah this happened the only on Yom Kippur when he ascended with the second set of Lucas and received the Torah shaba pet true identification with the Torah which leads to kaduceus cannot be reached to the torsav but only through the tors the radiance that emanated from Moshe was due to the caduceus somebody who engages with Torah shibapere is is transforms themselves the opening positive the opening paragraph tell them no what does it say Whose desire whose longing is for the Taurus Hashem then what happens once they engage it they learn it once they find their place person makes and finds their halak in the tourism their interpretation their analysis their khazara their memory they're making it part of who they are they're absorbing it they're living it they're being transformed not somebody who learns Torah it's about becoming what a Ben or a bastara you could be a person who learns Torah is different than being a Ben or bastara to learn it in such a way to engage it in such a way that it becomes part of who you are it's the filter through which you see and experience the world decision every priority every value every part of our life so to become one with Torah is altogether different than to be learning Torah to be learning Torah so the first represents is something separate that we learn it's a book it's a part it's separate and we learn it that becomes who we are becomes part of our very life to engage to study to learn Toshiba becomes part of who we are kadusha sagofit transforms us makes us into a bentura or a bastora our relationship with tarshiba with the rabbinic Torah Community with the with the ongoing but the ongoing development of Torah learning and the ongoing development of Total Living I reserve the right to use this another time but last week I was listening to a podcast a brilliant brilliant person not Jew and he talked about the distinction between he used the word reading I'm going to replace it with the word learning you can learn for information and you can learn for transformation there are two ways that you can read or two ways that you can learn you could read or learn for information or you could read or learn for transformation we'll develop this more another time I think tragically in our schools too much we're teaching to read for information memorize spit back and we're not transforming so we have Generations now of young people who can spit back incredible amounts of information who don't sleep at night because they're yeshivas and girls schools and seminaries are are unbelievably rigorous and testing and they have to memorize incredible amounts of information but are we teaching to learn for information or are we teaching to learn for transformation when do you get Radiance and Rays of light when you learn for transformation when you read for information you look the same as you did before because you just it's information cerebral stays above the neck you got to read for transformation that it transforms who you are review them and said that Moshe was writing the Torah little ink was left on his pen when she pressed over his face leftover ink was the source of his Radiance as much as the Torah writes and presents his ideas publicly most of his Torah remains unspoken he's unable to pass all that he knows on to others this is in accordance with as I said to his students he says but the Torah I learned from my teachers is akin to a dog lapping at the sea the tour of the motion was unable to pass on to others the greatness that remained with him is what moshe's face is what gave moshe's face its Radiance the halacha states that every letter in Torah scroll must be completely surrounded by blank parchment to symbolize that as much as written in the scroll is far more Torah that's not given to in writing however teacher you know for one hour of teaching is four hours of preparation for one hour of what they communicated their endless hours of more that remains inside them a real God of the Torah a real time not an imposter that you come to the class of but a real time a real teacher there's so much more depth and there's so much more knowledge and there's so much more they have to share what we see is the tip of the quilt what we see is the little bit of ink there's a lot of ink that's left over and that's their Radiance the radiance is how much is still inside them that they've not given over that is still part of who they are that they haven't shared with the world that is how the Rob understood that Karen or that emanated from Moshe dafka the second local is not the first luchos and where'd that ink come from we saw maybe it came from the little aleph maybe it came from and his name was erased in last week Parsha maybe it came from the missing year in the word anov maybe it came from the last Torah and the rough suggests it came from the fact that so much more was inside Moshe even though he's rabenu even though motion transmitted the Torah as we know it there was still so much more inside him that he never gave over and now though moves over to a fascinating other subject the measure says why did Moshe Merit this Radiance this light from his face what was the shot what would happen in Mountain Torah Mata Torah was the mountain was held over their head like a like a we received the Torah who stood under it who were the Hassan and Kala Kinesis Israel and Hashem the Jewish people in Hashem Who was the shahren every time there's a good couple who was the Shah so you had Sinai adaptation while you connect which service who gets the credit every every shot who wants to credit sometimes you're Big Mac Locus who gets the credit multiple people get the credits like nobody got the credit you gotta get the credit alone who gets who was the this is also connected to puram because the megilla says the Jewish people received kimama the first time we received it out of coercion the man was held over our head the second time we received it voluntarily passionately enthusiastically we spoke about it at Charlotte this past week so who was the Shahrukh Khan it's like the Madrid um and this is the source that the Shah gets sharkhanas foreign that's good an investment in the Shalom bias of this couple is to make sure the is taken care of there's many many chuvas is about how much do you have to give what if you didn't give how long can you still give who gets if there were multiple people who claimed that they were the literature on the subject but this is the makka the source Moshe was rewarded with this Radiance these rays of light because he was the shahren who introduced the Hassan at the end of our Parsha the maharia writes he says this is the source because we know there was a matron after the world took him only six days we're nearing at six thousand years of creation what's he been doing he's retired under a palm tree and Boca Raton sipping pina coladas what's he been doing playing shuffleboard early bird special what's he doing so the measure says what has he been doing he's sitting in his music was making matches he's a champion so you see if that's worth his spending his time on that's worth our spending our time on foreign as basically as occupied preoccupied as they were as much as was on their plate as much as they were carrying claw Israel they never absolved themselves of getting involved in trying to make him now also not for now we've introduced layers and layers and layers and layers and layers of unnecessary obstacles and difficulty and impediments that hurts the Hassan and Kawa and makes many of them drop out who wants to be so involved at such a level that it's such a pain that it makes it difficult people don't get whatever I'm not going to get into it now but you want to imitate a Kurdish barcel persevere and break through and follow up because the reward is great because this is what this is what he writes person has to be careful not to exaggerate you have to be precise and accurate you have to you have to follow through where does the term come from we all know that term we all know the term where does where does come from that that show Rush where does it come from does it mean together where does it come from we all use that word have we ever thought of where it comes from so listen what he writes one possibility is it comes from foreign quiet and peace something no sharpen has as the possible and the targum there says we wanted to find each other to have peace and quiet to build a home soham is peace and quiet and serenity and happiness says it means to tie together to intertwine to tie the knot marriage is tying the knot so to tie the knot is literally to tie the knot that's how the balamur understands Malco brings from brings from a posse you have to break through metal doors because in order to make a shiruch my wife says the joy that you used to feel when a shitta closed when a couple got engaged today is the joy that you have when one couple agrees to go out one time the effort it takes to persuade the questions you have to answer the reference checks the FBI interrogations the follow-ups how many times you have to text and call them before anyone has the courtesy to get back to you and both sides finally agree and you have to decide they can't talk to each other God forbid where they're going to meet or what they're going to do that night or if they're running late you have to what it takes to get them to the first date used to be what it was to get into the huppa because she did so is it a shock and people don't want to engage in it that we have a crisis this is a crisis of our own making I read a book about it and that's where the word comes from you got to break through a middle door to get them to go out once it's also brought down Hotel is an acronym it stands for shekere Dover speaks falsehood cast of notel and then gets paid well speaks lies gets paid well Tanya well the times okay maybe giving it a positive spin the safer sort of brought to the uh says when a person shows that positive light the Holy Light of trying to make a shirach this works in the opposite direction foreign there's all kinds of mixed energies involved it takes a lot of breakthrough to be able to get there to be able to get there so anyway fascinating where's the word come from moshrabin is the first Israel and Hashem he gets this is where does the word itself come from so the ran says it comes from Marco says from the Posse continent it's an acronym you gotta break through a metal door and the uh between them is there value I know a couple of the opposite I know a couple is the babysitter for their children they were set up from two Asian people who were friends and worked in separate companies and they each knew these two Orthodox Jews and they said I know one Orthodox Jew I know an orthodox Jew and they set up this this two non-jews set up the two Orthodox Jews they knew but what about the opposite should you set up non-jews so the the rights sir um who used his powers to help a non-jew who's struggling with infertility have a child thought that was a good use of his time then it's a good use of our time to also make sure am among non-jews however he quotes from holy sources that maybe it's not the best way to use your time is coming up this week can you be a shahren for two non-religious non-observant what's the question the Jews why wouldn't you want to what's the question they're not going to observe so maybe Nida is an issacaris a very severe prohibition you can introduce them and they're going to have a union and they're not going to observe the laws of family Purity maybe it's a disservice it's not author but maybe it's not a good idea not awesome still Jewish people you want to introduce them introduce them and encourage them to keep if you didn't listen to last week's behind the Beamer you have to but I've already Tigger was a grew up as a secular Jew in Tel Aviv go into the public pool on Shabbos watching TV he told us addicted to television on Shabbos and then he became he was the editor of the last of this farmer behind for the last 20 years how did he go from the the kid being Michael Shabbos in Tel Aviv listen to behind the beam it's an amazing amazing story honor of crime on Azure type by listening to uh to his story it's really really fascinating so moshabbin was the was the shotgun the first shotgun okay we're moving backwards in the partial paraglama dialed posix Zion so after the ego moshebeno Hashem and he introduces what we use ourselves we said them this morning we said them this morning sister so that's the formula and we know what this formula is the winning formula Hashem says if you say this formula I can't help but forgive and in the formula we have venake low you're not what does that mean we describe Hashem preserver of kindness thousands of generations forgiver of sins of iniquity willful sin an error and who cleanses but does not cleanse completely you heard those words you've said those words a million times what do they mean sort of voba is he says the last of the yidginal midos just said him this morning we said them every Manifesto we say them throughout the days all the way through ni Ila Yom Kippur so we might as well there's a little bonus sitter snippet what does that mean the little translation is he cleanses but not completely it's obscure what does that mean the targum adds a few words to elucidate targum says he cleanses those who return to the Torah and does not cleanse those who do not return to the torah's says he cleanses those who return there's not those who don't it's the target introduces the says revolver to a new way of understanding the concept of chuva the prevalent the usual custom the usual way to understand shuva is that what that you return to the Torah you return to Hashem rather what's chuva the root of the word is to return to whom are you returning to Hashem what's the target I'm saying what are you returning to Rah because how did you get so far away from Hashem because you became distanced to his Torah if you skip his day and you don't want Torah can't go three days without drinking water can't go three days without learning totally can't go a day without learning Torah Torah is our life so it gives us that Radiance that light it's what makes us a banner a boss Torah will be sorry again becomes ours it's our nourishment it's our nutrition so you see what is the source of chuva it's not la shuva la Shem it's not returning to Hashem but it's returning to his instruction manual it's returning to his formula it's returning to his prescription for life and then we'll find him where else do we see this you said it also this morning where else do we see it you'll say it again this afternoon and again tonight is not bring us close to you what's it bring us close to utorah you see that where do alvaros come from the mistakes the miscalculations the poor judgment the indiscretions the errors where does it all come from comes of course from not feeling the presence of Hashem person only sins because foolishly they forget that there's a God but where does it come from from a failure a laxity in learning Torah if Torah were informing and inspiring our life if we were connected in makusha to Torah that we would feel connected to Hashem but when a person doesn't have Torah in their life however I can't tell you how much I've seen this I can't tell you how much I've seen this people who've acted out in ways that are at times irreparable that are devastating to themselves and to people around them it's because they're not connected to Torah you could check off a lot of boxes get diving daily with a minion you could get stuck up you could go through a lot of motions on the outside but if you're not engaged in Total Learning and I'll go further you can't just be engaged in Total Learning coming back to what we said before but we didn't really say it because we want to use it sometime in the future you can't just be connected to Torah learning for information you have to be connected to Total Learning for transformation you know how many people who learn the dafyami for information they learn the Daffy put a check next to daf I did the daf today's daf now I can go on to the fun things of life I did the duff I'm good to go if you learn the dot for information you could go from the daf to looking at things on the internet you shouldn't look at you can go from adapt to doing things in business you shouldn't be doing you can go from the daf because if you're learning for information not for transformation you can go from there to terrible mistakes we're connected to learning every day that what it does what it nourishes on the shama what it does to bring us alive that's what will calibrate our Compass to make the right choices and to send us in the right direction you have to remember always when you said that the target means for those who learn Torah he forgives those who don't learn Torah you haven't really come back the litmus test the metric the measure have you returned have you done chuva is are you learning Torah if the period of Yaman Narayan passes and you're not learning more Torah you haven't really done shuva tinuses or any other minor fasta where we're supposed to return the past and we haven't expanded our total learning take out another Shear take on one more page take on five more minutes take on if you haven't taken something else on is not to return to Hashem it's to return to his Torah because the path to return to him is specifically how through his through his Torah okay still going backwards hope you're not busy yet we're going backwards this week at the partial perspectives here next so paragla model Hashem says I want you to engrave for yourself fundamental difference in the first locals and second Lucas first glucose were fashioned and made by whom Hashem they were miraculous the men which are engraved all the way around and what's in the middle should fall right out it was suspended in place it read the same from every side every direction kind of a miracle is that who needs that miracle I saw a very interesting Insight who needs that Miracle but it reads the same from every direction why is that a miracle so who said this is if we would write something you can't read the same on both sides it would be backwards on the other side the miracle of the first that read the same from every side that's an ace that's worth Hashem doing a miracle it's impressive it's cool you could sell it on eBay what's so special that's worth a miracle so he says a great shot he says you know maybe you'll say I can only read the Torah when you're in front of toraham and the righteous to read the Torah from the front who have a good seat who have direct access they can get its message me I'm behind the Torah I'm out of I can't see I'm in the nosebleed sections the way I live my life no the Torah is accessible from every direction it doesn't matter where you are how far you think you've Fallen where your place is in this world wherever you are you have access you could read the Torah from every side from every perspective from every direction it's a very important message to remember so the first locals were miraculous the second Lucas were who engraved them Hashem which one lasted and which one didn't the second one's lasted why because you see the ones that have our toil the ones that have our effort those are the miracle those are the ones that last the ones that are gifted to us they disappeared Torah the best writes that you see the second Lucas were Holier because they take out mail us they take effort that's why the briskers don't serve our best briskers don't serve chickpeasar where Dominic come from their chickpeasar they're round it's a sign of Avalos baby is mourning that they learn the whole Torah in the womb of the malach and then they were tapped on the lip they were caused to forget the whole Torah and in the sense of loss mourning to the loss of all the Torah they learned we serve Arbus the sign of mourning like a lentil like an egg the roundness of the chickpeasahar it's got to be the round chickpea once it's hummus maybe it tastes better but it's not around chickpea anymore so briskers don't the rubs they said the minute was not to why because you're not mourning we're not sad they were caused to forget because that's our mission our job is to be um our job is to be me miss atsmo our job is to study to learn to toil Torah to kill ourselves on Torah it was spoon fed in the womb that's not lasting it's what we work hard on so we make an effort in that's what's lefting last thing and that's not what we mourn over I'll tell you an amazing a few months ago itself doesn't say this a few months ago art scroll had an extraordinary scene they completed the Schottenstein translation of tamadushami was a very very long process and at the Doral that I'm we had a hurricane it happened during a hurricane but it didn't miss a beat everybody somehow flew in they were there it was fantastic remember a few months ago we had a quasi hurricane it was an amazing event super beautiful event in fact Mrs schottenstein's mother who who was alive and well it the event was on kristallnacht that's when they had it at the Doral they told the story she lived in Germany and from her window across the street she saw shul and she watched Farm be burned on crystal Nach and now on the anniversary of kristallnach her family had sponsored the translation and making accessible the tamadir xiaomi that had been closed for so many generations amazing amazing event an extraordinary accomplishment and achievement what article has done for Total Learning but they've done for Total Learning seanstein family and all those who give absolutely unbelievable so we're sitting there and they're extolling the virtues of the Irish Army and they're showing these moving videos and we're crying and uh and um singing it was an amazing event she says no so watch that you're starting yish Army I don't know basily I'm not starting they're talking all about your charm you have to start your shami this is your xiaomiyomi now it's translated articles no excuse they completely your xiaomi so she looked at me like no you're nothing going this nobody you're gonna you're gonna start the Irish Army so for a little time I felt a little guilty maybe we should do your shami it's a new cycle here xiaomi yomi and your xiaomi art scroll maybe we should learn the Irish Army we started in our show the reichenberg's in memory of their son Corey very special young man tragically passed away last year they dedicated every night Stuart Silberman it wasn't enough that he voluntarily teaches the daf bavly every night now he also teaches the dafu or xiaomi every night Stuart Silverman unbelievable we have three babbling dots today we only have one year of xiaomi daf a day so far a PRS who knows maybe we'll get there I don't go I don't learn it why not foreign says that your xiaomi written in you shall I Merit Israel your xiaomi is like the first is like the second Lucas the second Lucas had the staying power the Babbling is what's authoritative the balmy is what's binding the Bible is what we have to learn then I have several Israel do they learn badly I won't use their names because I don't have their permission do they learn your xiaomi happens to be a Russia wise told me he finishes Shas every year he alternates years babli rashami I said Robbie when do you finish US every year does she urim to learn he said I don't have time to learn during the week during the week I give shiram and I write I learn 50 bladeshavis so he learns 50 bladeshavas and then finish yourself shots every year alternate years babli and irishami but other major Israel I asked feeling guilty should I be learning should it be an aspiration you xiaomi too and many said arm Sora is badly many great robotum you know what your shamis they know whatever tasteless quotes from The Irish Army those are the yushamis they know other than that it's not necessarily nothing wrong with it those who've taken it on it's beautiful it's incredible but I was very relieved to see this native don't feel bad or guilty don't feel better guilty if you've not yet taken on the yushami you don't have to beat yourself up and it says it has but as usual we didn't get to 90 of what to share but I'll end with this what was another difference between about the first second Lucas what happened to the first smashed Smithereens broken into shards and pieces they were kept in the orange by the way lucro's Vision it's a big lesson they're about we hold on to the broken pieces of life we don't discard them we learn a lot we grew a lot from The Broken Pieces we hold on to the Brokenness we don't discard it it's a big lesson there but it was broken it was smashed what endured is still extant even if it's buried underneath the harabayas but what still exists why so Rashi quotes and tells us how were the first locals given in public and Circumstance and fair and Fanfare it was streamed live around the world all eyes were on it millions and billions and trillions of views and when something has that you know what it has an ayanhara and therefore I got smashed but the second Lucas were given privately and that which is done only things that are hidden from the eye that's what endures and that's what lasts I'll get in trouble but I'll say it anyway because I already said one story about it I'll tell you A second we went out and we were going to get engaged and then we broke up for a little bit we broke up for a little bit we leave the circumstances out we got back together and she deserves the credit when we got back together she said let's not tell anybody let's not go out in public places let's get back together because it was her genius and wisdom she deserves all the credit and the shafranas for bringing us back together and that's what we did my sister was living in the states at the time so we babysat her kid you go out we left the door open there was no you could don't worry but let's babysit we figured out ways to get back together but some women are in if the whole world knows about something and our whole world has an opinion about something and the whole world is weighing in on something the eye and horror show late it's very hard for it to exist so that's from this parisha Russia and our passion the magician our passion is because they were given in public they had an Ironhorse they were smashed second Lucas were in private be careful what you publicize what you celebrate what you draw enormous attention to So based on this we'll end with this says how should you have Torah should you make it oh huge all attention incredible Delicacies bands Symphonies choirs sounds and Light Show streaming how should you do it is said you saw what happened to the Lucas when they were done in public we're gonna have a very quiet a very modest a very private and he brought this down as the reason s however this is what said a testimony that's what's written about him that that's how he gave it however however some some suffer himself in his dresses he writes that a person who doesn't buy the cheap inexpensive he hires the best offer and invested that they say for Torah and makes the most extravagant beautiful Torah that's a sign the person is so which is it for endorsing doing it publicly or did he do it privately and modestly between what's reported about him and what he endorsed in his writings in his rushes for others now the minak Israel is we do it big with a lot of music and a lot of fun in a big way and he quotes many sources that endorse that so person shouldn't feel guilty if he ever had and you did it publicly as long as you make it about the Torah not about you is it about you or is it about the Torah you know they have lavda elephant again is it about is it about the logo on the front of the Jersey or your name on the back of the Jersey do you play for the name on the back in your jersey do you play for the logo on the front so some people you know on the month of Torah what are the big letters your name does the name go in the back of the month or on the bottom you know it was donated by someone so and so and so whereas the name and light that every time the r1's opened in huge font who donated to Toro so if the Torah of darkness is all about you your name and light that may be better to give it but sinner but if you're doing it to celebrate a new Torah so then you can do a papombi then you can then come publicly left a lot out I'll just tell you he quotes incredible things in here when it says he quotes in here it was a different Aaron do you know the original must say was not Aaron a coin it was a different iron never heard that in my life unbelievable I guess we'll save it all for next year he quotes in here that Moshe tried to Moshe wanted to kill Arun for what he did if you assume it was the real Aaron what she wanted to kill Aaron unbelievable every little in the partial there's new things in it have a meaningful fast and easy fast a happy fast and you'll be happy and it's fast go all the Jewish people join the BRS Global Community with actus the United and one if you've not done your part please BRS online.org Global I don't know how you enjoy the sheer and benefit from it and from all the total sources we've quoted and not do your part so please do your part brsonline.org should be a fantastic poem we should all have personal and Collective