Living with Emunah (Part 341 - Walking Through the Yam Suf)

Good morning, Boker. Welcome back to Living with Amuna. Living with Amuna and the month of Amuna, the month of miracles, the month of Amuna Amuna, the Y of Amuna. So, all of our Amuna learning all year round is getting us geared up and ready for this month and for this Yantiff. And please God, it should bring miracles, miracles in our time, should welcome the hostages home and the soldiers safe and peace and healing for all who need it. Amuna service is jointly sponsored by Dr. Zav and Bella Morgan in memory of Rabbi Dr. Ryan Gavin in memory of Bella's mother Dr. Ellen Shanzer. We remain incredibly grateful to the Morgans. This morning is sponsored by Rebecca and Evan Goldenberg in honor of Stephanie and Perry Friedman. anonymously for the refu of Nina Abbas Casio who's in the hospital should have a complete and speedy refu anonymously wow sponsored anonymously in memory of our forefather and Jeff Walowitz in honor of the Amunir and the continued ofina should have a continued foole and we should hear and celebrate good things and get tremendous tremendous Okay, as we always do, we got some amuna emails to begin and then we'll dive back into the safer that we are learning at Dear Rabbi Goldberg, I feel tremendously blessed and fortunate to have discovered the shum a few years ago. I feel that listening to added to much of my weekly learning. I finished with you and which I have personally said once a week for years and now there's a new level of understanding. That was the series we did in 10 minutes of meeting before Tanya. We started Tanya part three we did this morning. If you want to listen and uh generously we're grateful to the FedEx for sponsoring, you could listen to Tanya. But before that, we did the letter of the Ramban, a letter he wrote to his son, but a letter he wrote to each and every one of us, of which it's said one should read it at least once a week in order to live it. And this author says she did. And now I'm so excited to be finally learning Tanya. Tanya is one of the things been in my bucket list for a while. When you announced it would be the next series we were learning, it was so natural to me. Of course, this is what Rabbi Goldberg would choose. Now, if anyone could just put a good word into Spotify and Apple Podcasts, we're having trouble getting the podcast up. Please God will be soon. For now, you can listen on Yu Torah or on YouTube. This letter along with many thanks to many hours of learning blah blah blah yada yada yada. My son Aka Aka Ben Shulamit Yehudit will be headed into Miluim for two months in the beginning of Nissan, which is now. Aka is a D9 driver operator. A D9. Maybe you have the luxury of not knowing what a D9 is. That just shows how blessed we are. But a D9 is a bulletproof as much as anything can be bulldozer. He spent many months over the course of this war in Aza and in fact was part of the team that took down Sinmoir Yak Shimo. He removed the front of the house with his D9 so the drone could get in and so they could determine in the if the home was booby trapped to help protect the troops that needed to enter. By the way, Aka happens to learn Tanya 2. Here's the part of the email. Ready for this? My request is for some decals that my son can give out to his fellow troops to put in their bulldozers. So she's asking for decals, which of course we'll send. Embrace your place. And she says they'll put in their bulldozers, personal carriers, and tanks, reminding them they are exactly where they're meant to be. Without them, there would not be safe here in Israel or anywhere else in the world, in my opinion. And so that idea, what a privilege. Wow. What a blessing that those decals embrace your place is. We are where we're meant to be. We'll be sitting in bulldozers and tanks and personnel carriers in Gaza and fighting and doing their bidding. Unbelievable. I just got back yesterday morning to be in Israel two weeks in a row and I was with my nephew who' finished his service and I asked him, you know, how do you feel? What's going on in Gaza? And he says, I wishes I wish I was back with them. He says they're going into Rafa. They're going back into Rafa. I'm jealous. I want to be there fighting. I want to be there protecting the Jewish people. These are our soldiers and troops. And this aka Benit and he and all are safe and successful in all that they are doing. And please God, they should sit in these personnel carriers and tanks collecting dust somewhere and not needed and not used. But of course, we're going to send Shiens. Obviously, it's only Hashem who provides our safety and security. But what we are fighting now is a mis mitzvah. And as much as we need the learning as the mother of soldiers, I take that responsibility seriously, especially now. We need our troops on the front line doing their has learned and continues to learn in yeshiva and for close to six years now. My next son is starting basic training after three years of learning in this coming week. Moshe benit. So if you can keep him as well as Aka in mind foros that would mean a lot. So this mother has two sons. One going back a third I think a third stint she said of Milim and now her son enlisting for the first time which that we certainly have them both in mind. As a mom and a mother-in-law of soldiers working on my amuna has been a real source of strength and comfort for me. In fact I recently started a family kabura once a week with the women of my family in Israel, the US and Canada. so we can meet on Zoom once a week and support each other while learning together. We're using and I occasionally slip in some of the amazing things I learned as in let go and let God. So again, thank you for the moment. Give all my appreciation and when I hear you run your campaigns and request for donations, I do make a note to myself when Hashem feels the time is right and I have the resources to contribute as well. All the best from Israel and wow, these are also the unsung heroes of Israel. mothers who have two sons who are fighting and they are living with Amuna in extraordinary ways and how amazing and fantastic. This next letter is from someone sitting. Yeah. The names have them in mind. Maybe I'll post in the WhatsApp group. You'll remind me and have them both in mind among all of our soldiers. This next letter is written by one of our amuna members. Your transformed blah blah blah. Hug from Hashem. Messenger to make a kid is Hashem. This past Shabas, I woke up at 1:00 a.m. and experienced several hours of violent vomiting. I suffer from an autoimmune condition which required me to live on steroids. When my body experiences the physical or emotional stress I need to increase as I was quite ill, I knew that I need a stress dose for steroids. My husband called to take us to the hospital. As a result, I was admitted. I was in a room with a woman who was quite difficult and the next day I was told they were changing my room. The reason for the change was unknown to me at that time. My physician ordered several tests to assess the cause of my problems. She also was concerned about something in my blood work which she needed to pursue. I hoped to be released on Sunday, but due to unusual blur on a CAT scan, it was decided to do another kind of scan on Monday, so I had no choice but to stay there as there was a possibility of a serious medical issue. Thank you. Thank you. A serious medical issue. My new roommate was a non-Jewish woman, but from her conversations on the telephone, I ascertained that she was a religious woman, very active in her church. She was in the hospital to have a cardiac procedure to help her condition. Her procedure was scheduled for Monday, Sunday evening. Again, the author of this email says could have and should have been released earlier, was switched rooms and doesn't know why, and finds herself with this roommate in a room she shouldn't have been in and shouldn't have been in any longer. Sunday evening, my new neighbor started having breathing issues and I asked if she was okay. She said no. I asked if I should call a nurse. She shook her head and I called and two nurses worked with her for over an hour until they got her breathing under control. The next morning, she told me I saved her life. She had been in such state that she was unable to pick up the phone to call the nurse. Had I not done it, she would no longer be alive. She also acknowledged that someone else in my bed might have just ignored her. I now know why Hashem orchestrated I should stay an extra night in the hospital. He made me the object of Hashem to a non-Jewish woman. As you always say, you are where you're supposed to be. Hashem also gave me a big hug when the additional CAT scan was negative. Thanks for giving us the tools to get to appreciate all of Hashem's gifts. And we are certainly very grateful that that person is healthy, well, and back in sheir here this morning. Okay, next one. This is a special PES email. Amuna, dear Goldberg, we've been going to Orlando for Pesak several years. The family flying from lists several cities. What started as a modest operation has become a huge endeavor with 14 people including eight children under the age of eight. We need so much equipment, food, a grill, you name it, that this year we decided to load up our van and drive more hours to listen to Living with Amuna, which secretly and now not so secretly my husband loves. This club of men who won't admit that they love it's like asking for directions. They can't admit that they love listening to living with. We rented a six-bedroom house with a pool and we were really looking forward. My plan man plans, God plans better. After driving for a total of 16 hours, we pull up to the house in the popular gated community 48 hours before Pesak. Something's not right. I hear the strains of hard rock music emanating from the house. And it's not Rabbi Brody on the drums. Why are there people in our house? Hubby rings the bell and a lovely non-Jewish family answers the door. Did we have the right address? Indeed, we did. But the lovely family tell us that they have rented the house for the next two weeks. Hubby, usually cool, calm, collected, starts to sway in the doorway and cannot speak. The color drains from his face. I remain calm but instantly understand we are an inch away from disaster material and spiritual pesak starts in two days. I have enough food to feed a very hungry football team. Salmon and brisket that's now slowly defrosting. Some of the kids from out of town already in route and there are more supplies. Appliances, strollers, cribs remain let us wine don't ask. Being delivered to the now occupied house in just a few hours. Hubby can't talk. He's frantically gesturing but no words coming out of his mouth. The lovely family see his distress and invite us in. We decline when my husband finally finds his words and explains that we're also booked this house and the family actually invites us to use their spare guest room for our holiday and they feel terrible. They don't know anything about Pesak, but they feel that something catastrophic has happened. Now, the contrast of the mother of two soldiers and tanks and personnel carriers and Pesak in Orlando shouldn't be lost on any of us. But in the moment, each person's crisis is their crisis and relative to others. And it's a very healthy reminder. Hubby comes back to the car and is in a panic dialing the rental agent. When he finally reaches her, she says, "Oo, I made a mistake. How about you guys just go to a hotel instead?" Completely unaware of what Pesah entails. And then I realize it's the Yamsu. This year, Pesak is starting early. We're aren't going just we're not just going to read about it this year. We're going to experience it. Time to start walking in. No time to waste. I tell my husband to get in the car, sit down. Let's see what happens. He's beyond himself and at this point just follows my instructions. Like a good Jewish husband, that's my editorial comment. It's sunny here in Orlando and I remember the the one thing that now looking back saved our PES. I put my Amuna glasses on. I then pulled over onto a nearby street and calmly took out my phone and write a text to the three largest WhatsApp groups of Jews that are in Orlando for Yantiffra. type. Our family of 14 has lost its lost its accommodations for PES. I know it's a huge ask and Yv is 48 hours away. We aren't picky. Please help us in any way you can. I lean back. I'm humming a niggan waiting for the seat to part. My husband is looking at me wondering if I've truly lost it. And then, this is in bold in the email. Am Israel, the greatest nation that has ever lived, replied immediately. My texts were blowing up. with offers to stay with total strangers, 14 unexpected guests for saters, and with the ideas how to help us find a house. My husband's on the phone with the kids who are at JFK wondering if they should just stay put. No, I say just walk through the Yamsu, get on a plane, dinner to the kids who are 10 hours into their drive. Just keep going. Just like Mitzim, there's no alternative to turn back. It's too late. Then my phone rings. It's a lovely young kabad couple from Miami who rent houses in Orlando for their parnasa. Where are you? the rabbiton asks. When I tell her, she says, "Perfect. You're two blocks from a house we have that's available. The issue is it's 13 bedrooms and 13 times the price of our original house." I tell her, "Thank you." Anyway, she asked me what was the price of the original rental and then puts me on hold. She returns and says, "Please just go to the house. It's yours. the same price as your original rental. My husband protests, but they insist and she says, "Get in the house and start making antiff. You'll pay us later." We're total strangers and without a second of hesitation, she gives us the house code. I thank Hashemba for raising such people. It's very dusty in here this morning. I thank andba for raising such people these kabadnik the gba for teaching us to channel the fear mostly though I thank living with amuna for teaching us about amuna it's a revelation and a revolution I love that living with amuna is both a revelation and a revolution I smile at my husband see yamsuf came early he's still kind of shell shocked we drive two blocks and walk into the house more like a palace. There's a dining room table set with 14 seats. Hashem is winking. I cannot believe it, but I can. As if it wasn't enough, the kabad couple had it turned out also rented homes to Isaibbo and he provided her with free tickets which she gave to our family for kamoid concert. Here's what I learned from my years of listening to living with Amuna. You never know when the yams will open before you. It's too late to prepare in that moment. So, you have to prepare every day in advance. You have to make sure you've topped off your Amuna bank account so when the moment comes, you can make a withdrawal so you can embrace your place and move through the challenge. To this day, my husband says, "Watching me in the car and make my Amuna withdrawal was the highlight of his Yantiff, mine, too." P.S., we're staying home for PES this year. It's beautiful, calmer, more affordable, much easier to organize. But here's a little advice. If you decide to go to Orlando for Pesak, it's very sunny there. Trust me, don't forget your Amuna glasses. Bring the tinted pair. That's one of the great Amuna alltime emails. What a great email. What a great email. There's so many more, but we want to learn. So, I'll tell you one more insight before we uh begin learning. before we begin learning and that is the following. So two days ago I was on piran with my children and my grandchildren and I was pushing the stroller and my granddaughter the older sister. How old is Mary? We're supposed to know this. We're grandparents 19 20 months. She insists on pushing her sister stroller but she could barely reach the bar. So, she's pushing and every time I try to just help her like a very strong willed young woman, she gets it from her Bobby. So, she's pushing me away and I'm trying to push her because she's about to push her sister into the street and Pan and she's pushing me away. So, I just go to the front and I hold on to the awning and while she's pushing with a big smile and happy, she's doing it all by herself. I'm really holding on to the to the awning to the cover and I'm guiding it, making sure she's okay. And my beloved daughter turns to me and she says, "Aba, it's just like you're a munachir. It's just like Hashem. We think we're pushing in life. We think we're in control. We think that we're driving and really he's holding on and all along he's taking us in the direction we're meant to go." And oh, what a nah moment when your daughter gets it and she's helping provide you material for your amunes. That's my Leora. So what a beautiful moment. And I love that is that just like my little Graham that we're all 20 months old and we all think we're driving our car and we all think we're in charge through life and we all think we're pushing the stroller of life. But the truth is if we were pushing the stroller, we'd go right into the street. Thank God, Hashem is holding on the other end and he's guiding us and he's grabbing us and he's taking us and he's protecting us where and when we're supposed to and where we're meant to be. Okay, we are on page I believe. Does anyone want to agree or disagree? I'm pretty sure that's where we are. We're on the next barrack is dealing with the question again. This safer came out during the war who lives in the north of Israel, the very north of Israel was living with rockets, bombs and the threat of Hezbollah and gave the sham and the safer came out under that in that time and now this next parag deals with how much effort how much initiative do we need to make? This is really a seventh day of PES question because like the author of the Orlando Amuna email on that seventh day just a couple weeks from now we'll all be standing opposite that sea and Hashem says what are you doing why are you domining get moving get walking so we know we demonstrate and we communicate our amuna in our heart but also with our hands and our legs you got to take initiative you got to take action you got to solve your own problems And in fact to a large degree this is now the shameless plug for the shabas dra. This is the theme of the shabas dra the windy road of redemption from gullis to gula. Why do we have to go through gullis before we get to gula? How can we embrace our place in gulas that in fact gives us a sense of gula to break out? Why is it the last 2,000 years we take two steps forward and one step back? And the last 80 years from the Holocaust to the state of Israel, two steps forward and one step back. And for the last year and a half in the war of Israel, it's two steps forward and one step back. And in all of our efforts for finding a shik and having children and shambias and earning a parasa and taking care of our mental health and our physical health, it's two steps forward and one step back. Why did Hashem create a world such a way that we have to embrace our place? What can we get out of it? How much initiative do we take and how much amuna should we have? Do we let go and let God or do we solve the problem and bring the gula ourselves? All of that. The shabas almost as long as Cy Booker speech, but not quite. I said I'm not impressed with him because he said that in order to not need a bathroom break he fasted and he dehydrated himself. I give the shabas to go to Josha after three shabas meals shall off the record visiting a a couple of keshases that so he's not impressing me anyway. So that is our topic for the shabas. Join us and know it will not be recorded. That is the one last thing. Shabbash are the last things that are just our community. Our intimate community, our local community. As much as we stream and we share, we have to keep something to the family. We have to keep something for ourselves. So, we don't give it again after Shabas. We don't record it. We do provide the outline of the sources. If you want to go through it yourselves and if Hashem enables me to stretch more hours into the day, please God, somehow we will get that done. I'm not sure exactly how. So bottom of page and I posted the source sheets in the WhatsApp group. We we opened the second WhatsApp group because the first one ran out of space. So if you're watching or listening but you're not yet part of it, go to rabbi.org / WhatsApp and join all the WhatsApp groups to get up toate on the schedule and bonus material tells us that originally Adam was created and sat in the garden of Eden and the angels were busy barbecuing for him. Today we have barbecuing for soldiers, heroes who barbecue for soldiers. Many days I wake up to pictures from Jeff Sidell of the barbecue he made the night before for soldiers. One of the great heroes. So today we have organizations barbecuing for soldiers in Ghana. The angels were busy barbecuing for who? He was the only occupant, the only citizen, the only resident. And then later joined by but that's all that was happening. A big barbecue. Notice it doesn't say the Malak aaris were mixing the kale salad. That's ganam, not ganeden. They were busy. They were busy making a barbecue. They were busy roasting the meat and they were straining the wine, delicious wine. But what happened? He blew it. Could have been that way forever. Could have sat under palm trees enjoying the barbecue. It sounds like a pes program, the midnight barbecue, the open bar, the quinoa sushi, the rolling cigars. That was Ganeden. But what he he blew it. He made a mistake. Pes came to an end. He was kicked out and now you want a barbecue, get to work. You want bread, work the field. You want a barbecue, hunt the animals. You want wine, run a vineyard. So it went from being handed everything in a silver spoon. The original intent, the original design of the Almighty was that we'd live in a world where we were given everything. And what were we meant to do? Why create us? All that was left was to bask in the glory of God, to immerse ourselves in his sacred Torah, to teach, to learn, to connect to him, and to bring light into this world. That was all that we were meant to do. But then we made a mistake of fateful error, and we were expelled from Ganaden. We're cast into a world in which we need to work and take initiative and make effort. Nothing is handed to us. We have to work hard for it. And that's the world and the life that we now have. By the way, Messiah, what we long for and for peace Yeshua will be judged. Did you long? Did you desire? Were you driven for a time of Messiah when Messiah comes, it's not going to be a supernatural world. It's going to be a similar world the way we live now. But instead of having to work, it'll be back to Ganeden where everything's handed to us. There'll be no wars. We'll live in safety and security. And what will we do with our time? Sit and learn and teach and transform and redeem and repair the world. Someone recently shared with me, someone who's a big proponent and student of AI, artificial intelligence. Artificial intelligence is an incredible danger and threat. A lot can go wrong with it. It is creating a world an olure who was here recently shares that AI he's very afraid is turning the world into an oler. Why? because you can recreate and manufacture fake videos, fake speeches, fake images. It's a world of fake. You don't know truth from falsehood. That's a very dangerous world. But this person I was speaking to sees in AI the opposite. Today, you could talk into AI and it could do almost anything you need done. And we're just at the very beginning of it. And AI will be able to accomplish so many tasks that take us so much time and hopefully one day index our amunaim and so much more that we want to do. And he said AI could be what ushers in Yamosa Mashiach. If there is a feeling that we are in theat this is the era and the days that please God of msiach. AI could be taking care of all those things that all that'll be left for us to do is sit and learn Torah and fill the world with light. And AI will automatic driving cars, automatic laundry machines, automatic cooking, automatic all those things that we have to do. AI. AI will order and replenish and restock that will get delivered and that will put it right into AI one day. That's his image of AI. So the world we were in is the world that we're so busy trying to get back to. You understand that? That's what this world is all about. Hashem created a world of Gan Aen. And we had a certain life and lifestyle. We blew it. We messed up. We were expelled from it. Cast into this other world where we have to take initiative and work. And all we're trying to do is get back. All we're trying to do is repair a world and repair ourselves and get back to that place. And certainly in the world of mysticism, in the teachings of the Arizal and the teachings of of Cabala, so many of the mitzvah we do are a tikun. They're a repair foras, theadas, eating the matzah. Almost every y'll find somebody who describes that what we're doing is trying to undo and repair with a mindfulness and a presence and elevating our actions to get back to gunen. How do we get back there? through Mashiach, please God. But alas, we are now in this world where we have to work. You got to go to work. You got to take initiative. If you're sick, you've got to go to the doctor. You got to take medicine. You got to undergo therapy. If you want bread on your table, you've got to work. And the sources in the God will bless you. It says God will bless you. Now, you might think, "Good. I'm sitting back in my recliner. I'm putting my legs up. I got a massage chair, and God will bless me. Bring on the blessings. I'm going to open the app. I'm going to watch my bank account just go up." After all, it says, "God's going to bless me. I'm going to see my children just be married. I don't have to answer any calls. I don't have to network for my children. I don't have to deal with any references. They're just going to be I'm just going to live in a world. I'm just going to lean back in my recliner and every ailment, every ache, every illness will just be healed. After all, the Torah promises Hashem is going to bless you. So bring it on. Hashem, I'm ready. Kick back. Sit back in that recliner and have Pes just be ready. But what does the Pa continue with? Says the Hashem is going to bless you. How? With what? With all that you do. So what's the prerequisite to the blessing? What's the foundation of the clay? What's the vessel to receive the blessing? Do all that you do all your effort all your initiative all your effort all your initiative all your so that's a given and that we know and now I hope we all know that you have to do we have to take initiative we have to create the vessel to receive the blessing but now the danger comes in once we're living in a world and once we're taking initiative once we're making effort what can happen. Now we mistakenly think it's all about only my initiative. I have to go to work and I have to work harder and I can't earn all that money and when I do it was all me. I get the credit. It's my honor, my glory, my pride. I am responsible for my success. It's all about me. You see this in what area more than any other? This is pointed out by the neon has something on it in the area of the area more than any other of life where Hashem says in finding that balance between and amuna between initiative and belief we have to find the balance and there's one area where Hashem says lower the and lean into the amun and what's that getting married why because after all the gumar tells us that since Mishmeracious God created the world in six days then he rested he's retired he must be bored how much majang can he play how much shuffle board can he shuffle what's he doing with his time kazal wonder and our rabbi say you know what he's doing since he retired from creating he's been busy with making he is connecting pairs and I got to tell you you see it in life there are people who are so interesting So fascinating have such idiosyncrasies and they're married and you see in their spouse, Hashem made them the perfect spouse. They compliment, they share some of these unusual attributes, traits, behaviors and you say, Hashem, you are the greatest ever. That's amazing how you brought and put those two together. That's what he's busy doing. That's what he's busy doing. And indeed, he declares it. He proclaims it. Ignore the beginning of tells us that 40 days after conception, Hashem says that this person bases a heavenly voice goes out and says so and so for so and so. So the von writes based on this that Hashem himself is doing it. It doesn't say Hashem is busy with your doesn't say Hashem is busy healing the sick. It doesn't say Hashem is busy ending wars. He's of course doing all those things too. But if our rabbis emphasized and highlighted what is he busy doing since he retired he's making shiduk what they meant to tell us is get out of his way in all the other areas he invites you be his partner when it comes to shidukim take your initiative because you can't rely on miracles but after you take your initiative get out of his way a lot of people get in his way we create problems I'm not going to get into this now because it's not for living with amunir but I have a lot of thoughts on this subject how many layers of problems we've added to the area of shukim. We've gotten in his way in so many ways. I won't list them now, but we have created so many barriers and so many obstacles and we have gotten in his way. And he says, "I got this. I got this. This is what I do. This is what I'm busy with now and I'm in charge." So, yes, I need you a little bit. You got to do something. You can't sit back and just wait for it to happen. But once you've done the little bit, get out of my way. Stop adding and interfering and creating problems and adding layers. Get out of my way. Zaman writes he bemons the fact that in the area we're supposed to lessen lower the knob of increase the amuna. Hashem, I'm doing my initiative. I'm doing my part and now I'm getting out of your way. We do the opposite. This is an area where people do excessive 17 reference calls. We need to see some bank statements. I'll need some um laboratory. I'm going to have to have some blood samples. We add layers and layers and layers of problems. We find every reason to say no and not give a yes. We find every reason to have a problem instead of a solution. In the area where we're supposed to have less initiative and more faith, we have excessive faith, excessive initiative rather, and less and less faith. But that's a danger. That's the danger of the fact that Hashem created the world now that we need initiative. That we need initiative. And it's lost on man. We didn't get a manual. There is no instruction book that says now that you need to take initiative. Here's how much. Go home from work at 5:00, 6:00, 7:00, 10:00, 11. What time should you go home from work? How much initiative do you have to take? Work 8 hours a day, 10 hours a day, 14 hours a day. How much initiative do we need to take? Health. How far do we need to go in preserving and protecting our health? How much initiative do we have to take? Exercise a little bit. Exercise a lot. Exercise too much. How much? How much? When do we say this that we love? We spoke about it a few months ago. Chapter 55 verse 23. Cast on Hashem all your problems. Throw on Hashem all your issues. Throw it all on him. He's got it. When do we say that? Yeshua. So where do we find this balance? When do we cast it all on Hashem and let me get back to my learning and my and when do we say no no no I got to solve this. It's on me. It's on my shoulders. It's on my back. I've got to take the initiative. I've got to show the leadership. Where do you draw that line? Where are those boundaries? How do you find that balance? That is the magic question that we are going to explore together. We're going to explore together. Look at footnote kufud. Footnote 112. This question is like the mushn the famous maggot of in his following. There was a poor person who was on the way. He was carrying his package, his baggage and it was incredibly heavy. There was somebody who was who was traveling. There was a merchant who was going climb in. So there was someone going in their wagon and they passed this poor person who's carrying this incredibly heavy baggage luggage and they said no climb in. Get in and he got in. And now the wagon driver, this merchant, this wealthy man who's got the transportation, turns around and he sees the poor man who's sitting in the back, he's still holding on to the baggage on his shoulder. He's still holding it in his arms. He's still carrying in his hands. He says, "Why are you still holding on to it? Put it down. Put it down and rest. Put it down and relax. Put it down and let go. So, what happened? Sorry. I'm not putting it down because it's so nice of you and kind of you and it's bad enough that you have to carry me in the wagon. You also have to carry my luggage. You got to put it down. So, what does the wagon driver say? Fool. Even when it's on your shoulder, who's carrying it? It's still adding weight to the wagon. Just because it's in your arms or on your shoulder, fool. This whole world is being driven and operated by Hashem, what do you think? When we hold on to our baggage, when we hold our fist tight, and we hold on to our problems, and we hold on to our baggage, and we hold on tight to it all, what do we think? We're making it better for Hashem. He's already carrying the whole world. Put down the baggage. Let it go. Lighten your load. Hashem can carry it. He's got it. He's got it. So therefore, whatever baggage you're carrying, whatever hardship or challenges, whatever struggles or suffering you're going through, put down your baggage. Hashem's got it. You lighten your load and he can carry it. It doesn't make it any heavier for him. That was the mush. That was the parable of the magged of dubno of the dubno magged. And this is the big question. How do we find that balance? In many ways, it's what pes is all about. On the one hand, Hashem says certainly stay home. Lock the door. There's nothing for you to do. I've got it. Fast forward a few days. Standing opposite the sea. And the people say, "Okay, God, you've got it. The Egyptians are running behind us. The sea is closed in front of us. We're panicking. This could be the end. But you taught us you've got it. So, what are they doing? They're ding. You've got it. And Hashem says, "What are you doing?" Start walking. What are you doing? What are you doing? Think you just sit back. Think you're just a spectator? You think you're just watching? Start walking. This is yours moment. Start walking. Start walking. Start. Get going. Get going. Get going. So in Pes itself, we have this tension. Are we supposed to stay home and lock the door and Hashem? got it everything on the outside or start walking. We're the ones who take the initiative. We're the ones who make the difference. We're the ones who solve the problem. Is it on him? Is it on us? How do we live in this world? How do we find that balance? And this is a very real. You'd say question. It's a question. How many hours should you work? When do you call it a day and go home? How much do you have to do to heal yourself? And when do you say, "I saw a doctor. Do I need to get a second opinion?" or it's in Hashem's hand anyway. So, can Hashem operate even through the local doctor, not the greatest expert on earth that all the Jews have to go find and track down and go to? I think I mentioned once we had a child from our community, Barashlihara is better and married and healthy and a mother, but who was sick in Slokering and I went several times to visit in New York and I saw there was a disproportionate number of religious Jews, Jewish children. And I asked someone there, what's the deal? Do Jewish children disproportionately get cancer? And the person said to me, "No, but Jewish families disproportionately insist on only going to Sloan Kettering because everyone else, the local hospital's good enough. They don't expect more. They don't have any more connections. They can't get in anywhere else. And that'll be good enough." But, you know, and it's one of the beautiful things about about Jews. We have entire organizations that are dedicated. It's a beautiful thing. The cynic can say, "Oh, those Jews, they need their connections." But it's a beautiful network of Jews who take care of total strangers. We have entire organizations that for free you make a phone call and say here's the condition, the malady, the illness. Who do you recommend and how can you get us in to places nobody can get in the line is so long Jackie Mason's whole routine all of a shalom. My doctor is so good you can't get in to see him for five years. You know he has a whole routine about how good the doctor is and how long it is to see him. And yet these organizations ROFUA you have all these organizations. It's a beautiful, beautiful thing. But do we need it? Why show that? Why not just say, "Hashem is the real doctor." So like, I don't know, flip through the phone book. Whoever you get, go see. And Hashem is going to operate through their hands. That's amuna. Or do you do the says get a second opinion, a third opinion, track down the mum, go to the expert, insist, break in, get an appointment today. Someone needs an MRI. Everybody else waits till you can get the MRI. Jews say, "Who do I know that I can get an MRI within the hour?" Why? Why do we need that? Maybe get the MRI whenever it is that you got the opening to get the appointment. If you're in Israel, it's three months. If you're just whenever you get the show that it's what's what's the answer? How much effort and how much faith? How do we figure that out? You're running a campaign to build a campus to transform a world. Do you work on it from morning to night? Or do you say, "Hashem, someone sent somebody to knock on the door and just drop off the money and to announce that they had a few extra million they weren't sure what to do with so they're giving it to you. That has not happened yet. By the way, this is how in all these areas and that's why next week we'll pick up with it. What do we do? How do we draw those boundaries? What's that winning formula?" But that's what Pes's all about. This is also this is I'll end with this. This is a conversation for the pes table. Maybe not the seder table. Maybe yes the sed table but if not the seder table you know you're also allowed to talk about holy things even during the other even during the other uh meals of pes as well. You're also allowed to talk about holy things. So these are the conversations that should happen. What's freedom? What's freedom? By the way when you are enslaved to initiative you're not free. When you're a slave to it all being up to me. When you're a slave to micromanaging, when you're a slave to power trip, when you're a slave to being in charge and in control, when you're enslaved to being a control freak, you're a slave. Some people have to liberate themselves from being a control freak. It's not a very nice name. We don't really call anyone else a freak. How come the person who likes to take control is called a freak? What? They don't call anyone else a freak on behalf of control freaks. I'm insulted. They don't call anyone else a freak. That's not nice. But anyway, trying to be less freakish, but but that's also to being enslaved. We're enslaved to the to the needing to be in control, needing to have power, needing to solve problems, needing to manage everything, micromanage everything. That's a conversation for PES. How do we liberate ourselves? But then you have other people who say fake and fraudulent amuna. They hide behind counterfeit amuna. Oh, you know why I sleep in? You know why I don't work hard? You know why I didn't study for the test? You know why I don't go to the doctor? You know why I don't work out? It's all in Hashem's hands. That's the freak. We call them a fake amuna freak. That's not So this is a conversation for PES. Where's the balance? How do we strike the balance? What does Hashem want from us? What do we learn from the first days of PES and the second days of PES? How do we find the balance between the first days and the second days and figure it all out together? Mash will pick up with it next week. Please remain for all of Safer Tum. Certainly on behalf of the two soldiers whose names we just mentioned, Mosha Ben Yeud Yudich and Yuda and all the soldiers please stay to finish safer to Helen.