Living With Emunah (Part 320) - Skydiving Through Life

good morning B welcome back to living with amuna I see some of you are enjoying our great setup you come to DAV and learn at BRS have a slushie any time of day or night have a coffee have a pastry have a cold bottle of water we are incentivizing young and old it's amazing how many those who are not young enjoy slushies I've learned some have suggested that after 8 o'clock at night we should maybe pour a little vodka in the slushy machine you never know we'll see we'll see but anyway come DAV and learn at BRS and be rewarded gastrointestinally as well once the weather cools we're gonna have a Crock-Pot of soup available as well okay amuna series the amuna series is generously sponsored by Dr zavi and Bam Morgan in memory of RAB Dr Ran galet in memory of Bella's mother Dr Ellen shanzer we remain deeply indebted to the Morgans for their friendship their generosity and their support this morning's also a is also sponsored by Fay and Dr Jeff wtz in honor of the birth of Romy amuna and in 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certainly we remember her what a a bright beautiful light that was put out way too soon her should have an alyah so thank you thank you to all of our generous sponsors we deeply appreciate it we don't take any of for granted okay a couple of amuna stories and then we'll dive back into our learning together continue to help us get in the mindset help us get ready this L take advantage if you're listening in L great if it's not L we also need to wake up and get on fire no matter when during the year to take our lives listen to this I got this email yesterday wow this was a wild email you know I like the stories that don't necessarily have the ending we don't know how it'll turn out you have amuna anyway this is one of those that has an amazing ending it's wild it's wild but it's a wink and a nod and a hug from Hashem and it's amazing Shalom ra two days ago my Kusa and his wife and daughter drove from Wales to London on a shopping trip about a month ago a Chinese friend of hers called Zoe had moved in with them on a temporary basis to prevent any issues Moshe had given me a key to his house about 4:30 in the afternoon back in Wales Zoe stepped briefly outside to take some rubbish I'll translate garbage pulling the door behind the door closed behind her but she had inadvertently locked herself out at the time she happened to be on the phone with her boyfriend via her airpods but had left the phone inside not having physical access to her phone she asked her boy friend to contact her brother Zoe didn't remember lia's number but did remember her Instagram handle and her brother was given the information simultaneously 150 miles away liba was with mosha and their daughter in a pizzeria called pizaza liba had previously removed Instagram from her phone and she rarely used it however a sign in the pizza store said that if she took a picture of the food there and put it on Instagram she might win a prize so right then and there at that moment she reinstalled Instagram immediately she noticed a message from an unknown person she opened the message which was Zoe's brother explaining how he was able to contact her only via Instagram on being informed of Zoe's predicament Leo remembered a conversation with Moshi had given me a spare key she promptly called me to ask if I could help 10 minutes later I was able to let her in the house otherwise she would have been waiting another seven hours for them to return feel free to use our names if you decide to use this which is why I did PS just to clarify I'm still looking for a so should find should definitely find a isn't that a wild story because happen to be in The Pizza Store at the exact right moment to happen to put Instagram back on to happen to get the message that only could have come that way to happen to have the key to happen to let the person in who otherwise would have been stuck out there just with airpods but no phone for seven hours that would have been a long phone call for seven hours so sometimes Hashem smiles and Hashem nods and Hashem winks and we feel Hashem thank you that was amazing you put everything in the right place yesterday had an appointment somewhere and we went to the wrong floor because they moved offices and by the time we got to the right floor we were running a couple minutes late and we felt bad but just then the person we're meeting with was anyway coming down the hall because they must have stepped out to the bathroom so Hashem orchestrated that we went to the wrong place so that we'd meet him exactly at the right time otherwise we would have been knocking and there would have been no answer anyone have been there and again everything instead of getting frustrated why'd I go to the wrong place I'm running we're never stuck we're all where we are meant to be a Jew is never stuck we are always exactly where we're meant to be someone in our wonderful she that just yesterday traveling in an airport because now I get messages almost daily from people who are in airports with misery because traveling is miserable who say but you know what someone else from rer texted me the other morning we're supposed to go we were delayed we were re outed what's going to be and you know what I would have lost my cool I would have been bent out of shape I would have been anxious and worried and instead I just took a deep breath and I said Hashem we're on your adventure we're on your ride let's see how this ends let's go on the next stop this is so fun so exciting let's see where we go let's see what happens next absolutely amazing next email few weeks ago I was visiting Israel with my family we spent a few days in Tel Aviv and one evening as we were resting before bedtime we decided to listen to AER and we chose exactly where we are meant to be from remember Goldberg's or August 14th living with themir I enjoyed the meaningful insights and took to heart the message of finding purpose even in difficult moment first all I'm blown away that people go on vacation and in the hotel room when relaxing and chilling out before bed they listen to living with am that blow blows me away that blows me away that's amazing the following night was my birthday and we were looking for a kosher restaurant in Tel Aviv to make a reservation but all the ones near our Airbnb were booked so we decided how hard can it be to walk into a kosher restaurant in Israel so we set out walking and soon learned it is very hard every single kosher restaurant was not just booked but overflowing with lines of people waiting we noted that many of the non- koser restaurants had plenty of open tables needless to say my kids were starving and whining I was also hungry and exhaust Ed and my husband was upset that my birthday dinner outing was turning out to be a frustrating night of wandering the streets of Tel Aviv we finally passed the kosher pizza takeout spot and resolved this was our only option and where we're meant to eat even the takeout pizza was a zoo however as we were waiting for our turn to order I looked up and spotted a sign illuminated in bright neon lights above the pizza it read excuse the picture but it read you are exactly where you need to be the neon light in The Pizza Store above the oven with a picture says you are exactly where you need to be I was stunned and thought where did I just hear this it was the title of last night's living with Amun here I was floored and immediately showed my family who also could not believe the coincidence quote wow truly our frustration immediately dissipated and as we finally settled at a picnic table to eat the actually delicious pizza we ended up having a perfectly lovely birthday dinner exactly where we were meant to be with the sign where we meant to be so that was a great email as well sometimes when we're pushing back at AEM not where I'm meant to be I don't want to be here this isn't where I'm meant to be he flashes a neon sign you are where you're meant to be eat the pizza relax enjoy you are where you are meant to be as all emails begin with yadada yada y y and so on here's a you are in the place you need to be email our sister-in-law in the US left a career of more than 30 years to try something different the last five years she has lost our mother-in-law with whom she was very close her only sibling her husband and her father she has had much to contend with we are very excited for on this new journey and proud of her to leave her comfort zone we pray she's on the road to New Found happiness we made Alias well during this time we wanted to send her flowers for chabas to celebrate her new job and asked a cousin in the same town if she would buy the flowers and Dro them off she was very happy to do so the cousins a Trader Joe's and remember she has a friend C celebrating a special birthday the next day and would like to get some flowers as well but she decided she'll do it the next day and go to a different store as she's checking out the same friend walks into Trader Joe's and without missing a beat our cousin runs over to her with a bouquet of flowers surprising her friend with happy birthday wishes after picking up another bunch she drops them off at her sister-in-law and makes her day Mitzvah gorer Mitzvah Hashem helped it make it easier for her she happened to be holding the flowers when the friend walked in so she could hand the flowers that were for her even though she wasn't going to buy them for her until the next day listening every week from zikon yob we love zikon yakob it's a good place on the way there if you ever want to go skydiving on the way to that's another great amuna story letting go and letting God right you know my you know my skydiving letting go like God's story okay I'll just repeat it very quickly and then we'll dive in this is I just I will praise my wife for one moment I'm not even in trouble with her but I'm gonna praise her LMA I don't think I am but I'm going to praise her lishma for no reason I always wanted to go skydiving in Israel and several times on trips when I was by myself I tried to arrange it but the weather wasn't right I couldn't do it it didn't happen one summer several years ago we're in Israel with our kids they were very little at the time how long ago is this more than 10 years ago this goes back maybe 15 years ago this goes back a long time and I found a place called konim north of K it's on the coast skydiving I always if I want skydiving I only want to go in Israel I don't want to jump out of a plane with a stranger I want to jump out of a plane with an Israeli tanhan who normally jumps out of planes and I want to jump out of a plane that if anything goes wrong I'll go right into the ground in Israel that's where I'm meant to be that's it that's fine so it was only ever in Israel so I find this place beautiful day weather's good we're able to go I don't say anything but I said you know what we're looking every day for something to do with the kids let's go to zakov it's beautiful if you've never been Z we'll go to zakov we'll find fun things to do it'll be great get in the car we're driving to zakov and make a little detour to get off says what are we doing where are you going said I just have to make a quick stop she said what's the quick stop and just then we're passing the entrance and there's a big billboard and skydivers I said I've always wanted to go skydiving it won't take long indulge me just let me do it please I've really always wanted to do it and this is what makes so cool she didn't say you're crazy it's dangerous how dare you or it's wrong was a family trip we're supposed to be G she said that's not fair why do you get to do it I want to do it too so we left our little kids on the ground to fend for themselves I think literally and the two of us went up in a rickety old plane that if you weren't crazy to jump out of it you were crazy to get in it and it climbed up to 15,000 feet or however High it goes and you're it's it's um tandem jump so you're strapped to some Israeli tanhan who jumps 10 times a day and uh you know as it's climbing climbing climbing and they open the door to the side and as your legs are dangling off the edge and you look down and you see how far and everything is a speck and just then when you're thinking about turning around and getting back in the plane it push you out and now you're flying a 100 miles an hour towards Mother Earth towards Mother Earth you were you okay you went first cuz you were sitting closer to the door we've been arguing about this for 15 years you were sitting close to the door that's the only reason ladies first ladies first fine okay we'll agree to that that's fine okay good ladies first anyway why am I telling you this story because when you first go out you can't breathe you're hyperventilating you're chewing on your own spleen you're going 100 miles an hour towards Earth regretting that you ever made this decision I can't believe how much money you paid for this pain and you're going and it's miserable and then something clicks and you realize you know if I'm flying through the air and I feel exposed and vulnerable and mortal and danger and worry and anxious and what will be and then you realize I've got a s foot Israeli sanhan War hero behind me strapped to me and he's in charge and he's in control and he's going to pull the parachute when it's time and the moment that you let go and you realize I'm in his hands I'm attached to him he's got my back he's in charge now you let go and enjoy the ride I actually went another time without I went a couple times it's amazing and each time each time at first you can't breathe and at first you're panicked and the moment that you let go you enjoy the ride and that's exactly what happens he pulls the parachute and now you're coasting and you're enjoying and you're looking out at all of Israel and you see the width and the breadth of our beautiful land and it is incredible incredible I highly recommend it it's wonderful and I remember we landed and we're reunited with our children but I remember feeling and thinking wow what a metaphor for Life what a metaphor for life we are riding through this world and we're going 100 miles an hour and we're afraid what if I crash what if the parachute doesn't open what if something goes wrong what if the wind takes me oversea and I'm lost forever what if what if what if and we're anxious anxious anxious and we feel powerless and we feel and then we realize hashem's got my back I'm strapped to Hashem I'm in tand I'm coasting I'm floating through this life this world with Hashem he's got my back and the moment we let go un let God you can enjoy the ride can enjoy the ride called life so it was amazing all because that person emailed from from uh Z Yakov so anyway okay back in our text we have more emails we'll save them for another time I got a great email that really challenged me it took me a week to answer it I finally answered it this morning but it really challenged me and it was a great question about our but we'll save it for a future week because it was a really um thought ful and challenging question about our whole amuna and the whole attitude and approach that we have towards amuna is Hashem really winking is he really hugging is that the only way to live is that the only way to see it does everybody agree and uh would certain people agree it was a very interesting challenging we'll share it in the future we're on page L we're learning Morgan on and he has been reminding us that El is not about yes it's about the mechanics regret confession commitment not to repeat for the future yes it's about the details and the mechanics and the formula yes it's about getting into the into into the therapy room and working out our differences and our fights and our struggles yes it's about all that but first and foremost primarily it's about wanting to return to restore to reconnect to have an intimate rendevu with our creator it's about I miss you I long for you I want to feel close to you I want to be connected to you now how do I do it what are the mechanics of it that's where Chua comes in the of chu but Chua and that's our para do Chu return until you get to God to feel connected to feel in love to hear him talking to you to be talking to him to feel his loving Embrace to feel his hand on your shoulder to feel that you're jumping you're connected he's got your back he's watching over you so therefore the work of this month of is so clear and it's so easy us and everybody can do it entirely and completely according to the level that we're on each of us are able to enter to that place we have to be motivated and inspired we have to wake up we have to take the plunge we spoke about last week we have to be able to wake up and say I'm sick and tired of living like this I don't want to be in this place alienated distant in a fight resentful bitter I don't want to be alone and lonely I want to feel connected I want to feel connected I gave you this metaphor last week but I'll repeat it some tragically in marriage and it can be in friendship it can be in parenting it can be in Business Partnership but sometimes people are just coexisting and they're getting by coexisting just coexisting coexist I cook you take out the garbage you pay the bill we're coexisting nobody's yelling nobody's screaming there's no anger there's no rage just coexisting and are we satisfied with coexisting or do we wake up and say I miss I long I want to connect I want to feel an intimate connection I don't want to just coexist I want to rekindle a spark in a flame I want to be in fire I want something more I want something special I want to reunite I want to long to be together I want to confide I want you here to trust and confide in me I want to be able to expose to be vulnerable to you in ways I can't to anyone else I want something more than just coexisting than coexisting it could be in marriage it happens with friendships there are friendships that fall apart and grow apart and when one has the courage they'll say to the other I miss you I miss you I miss our friendship I want to go out I want to connect I want to talk more often I want to trust each other I miss our friendship and now there's mechanics afterwards there's well why did we grow apart what happened what went wrong was there a betrayal was there distrust was there disloyalty how do we fix it how do we take responsibility how are we accountable how do we make it better in the future there's all the details that come later but it begins the launch is I don't want to just coexist I want something more how many of us are going through our lives and we're just coexisting with God God it's your world and I got to coexist so I Davin I'll come to shul rashash I'll do my long daving and I you know what I do it I keep my kosher I keep my shabas I do my thing but I'm really just coexisting we're not yelling we're not screaming we're not angry I didn't drop out of the relationship I didn't leave the house but we're just coexisting so chuva Cesar chuva is waking up and saying I want more I don't want to just coexist I want to feel connected I want to look forward to spending time I want to confide I want to talk I want to hear you speaking to me I want to feel that connection the top of page to return to Hashem with all your heart and to make a decision with a strong strong commitment conviction for now on I am living with God it's how I'm interpreting everything I'm no longer going to panic and freak out at a red light or at an airport I'm no longer gonna Panic or be anxious because the right or something happened or I'm waiting for the doctor's appointment the lab result so I recognize it's his kingdom this is his world he's the king I work for him he doesn't work for me I am clinging to him I'm gluing myself to him I'm sticking to him I am jumping out of an airplane through life and I'm flying through the air at 100 miles an hour and none of us know what the next day will bring we wake up in the morning and we have no idea what will happen what will the news be in Israel what new front will there be a war on or please God how we be eliminating almost everybody I saw a great meme yesterday that wonder whether nasala is the mole because if you look at the or chart and he couple others are the only ones left maybe he actually is a mad plant you know cynically wondering that's how few people who knows please God weos let's finish them off let's finish all our enemies off let's bring our hostages home let this war end we don't know we don't know whether we'll be waking up to outrageously good news last week at the end of the parier I went on the new I'm checking Israeli news all day I saw the pager story if I would have told you the pager story before you'd say as I wrote my article this week if you tried to sell it as a script to Hollywood they'd send you home nobody will believe it forget about it we don't know whether we're going to wake up to the miracle of the pager story or we're going to wake up to a tragedy God forbid God forbid God forbid we don't know so we're going a 100 miles an hour through this world and through this life our children ourselves our lives our health what will happen small inconsequential little things like will I wake up to a flat tire as I did last week and then like there goes your day you had plans to be somewhere a certain time and to get there with your car and now Hashem just rerouted your whole day in a small inconsequential meaningless way doesn't matter but he rerouted your whole day your whole day so how do you go in 100 100 miles an hour you're flying through the air how do you do it I don't know about you if I jumped out of a plane on my own I'm not ready for that 100 miles an hour I would Panic I'd pass out but the moment you let go and you realize I'm connected I'm in tandem I'm tied to the almighty he's got my back he knows when to pull charge he knows how to land he tells you lift your feet I'm going to land softly and I'm going to deposit you comfortably on this Earth I want to glue and attach myself to you I want to return to living life with you I want to see this world I want to go to sleep like a baby comfortable easily because I'm confident you're in charge you're in control I want to wake up with confidence and Clarity that whatever I face today Hashem you're in charge you're in control I want to see I want to interpret I want to experience this whole world who wrote to me many and I'm going to do what you want I'm here on a mission I here for a purpose I'm here for a purpose I have a mission what's my job what's my mission what can I contribute today according to my level and this every person can do every person can do it's hard it's hard to be aad orad it's hard to live on that level that I'm sleeping I don't live to sleep I sleep to live I don't live to eat I eat to live it's hard to get to the level that every time we're eating we're drink everything I do this God it's connect it it's hard it's hard to live with that level of mindfulness and intention all the time it's hard but we can do better than where we're at we can do more in our bids for connection with hem and responding to his bids to connection with us I want to be present I want to be mindful I want to check in and I want to be connected so yeah before I eat before I drink I'm not just going to eat or drink I'm going to make a br and I'm not just going to mumble some braa going to stop going to pause because it takes a millisecond it takes a millisecond I'm going to make a br I'm gonna make a braa I spoke to a friend last night who Dr was at his house the great R mayor du we've learned so much of his Torah as well may may in he's been to our community many times and he told this person a story about a wedding which wasn't likely to happen and there were all kinds of challenges and conflicts in the family and and uh the the mother said I'd like to make a speech at the wedding and in her circles in her community where she was coming from women don't ordinarily speak in public places in front of men it's very unusual it's very uncomfortable and but he couldn't say no so she got up at the wedding and she took a cup of water and her whole speech she said end of speech and she said that was her speech she said want to make a speech everything that took to get to this day that there was a marriage that yielded a child the child was healthy the child found a a that there's a hall that there's a meal that there are friends and family that fill it everything it took to get to this moment that was her speech everything the history the past the environment the atmosphere the it all that was her speech that was her speech that was her speech can you imagine I never gave such a short speech in my entire life that was her speech so imagine that's the wow sh a you make a sh on the slush make a sh on the coffee make a shahak on the the bottles of water you make a shahak it's like it's annoying I got to make the I gotta pay before I leave public I gotta pay before I it's annoying it's annoying they got to bring the check and I got gotta calculate and tips don't get me started with TP it's annoying it's annoying right so my Shak is annoying like it's my payment for my word it's annoying it's not annoying it's amazing it's not forem you think he needs your shahak he's infinite omnipotent he's perfect it's for us he needs us to do it but he needs us to do it for us not for him he needs us he needs us but he needs us to do it for us not for him and why because when you make that Shah now you've realigned now you've recalibrated now you've recal whoa Shak oh you're right it's not just the cup of water bottle of water it's this moment in time who am I sitting with at Starbucks having this water or this coffee with this friendship this health this Wellness the ability to afford a Starbucks coffee Shak that's a lot that goes into that ability to afford that that Co the shako so do we live that life with Wow wake up every wow I'm ready to grab the day kill the day to be on fire this day no matter what challenges no matter what obstacles no matter what hardships no matter what's wrong and what's missing in my life no matter what Cs and what pains and what hurts what needs to be fixed what needs to be addressed and What needs a therapy no matter with with all that with all that and there's plenty of that the question isn't is there any of that question is just how much of that you have yet to meet anybody who says I have none of that everybody has something has something a child we all know that you're only as happy as your least happy child everyone has something everyone has something you count you're something and you all know the famous if we'd all walk in a room and put down our PCO and you saw everybody else's PCO you'd pick up your PCO gladly and you'd leave youd take your challenges when you saw that of others it doesn't mean we don't have challenges and it doesn't mean we're not entitled to at moments be feel the hardship and the sadness and the grief and the pain of those challenges absolutely we're entitled to but it means on the whole on the whole we live life sh on the we live life when we say I'm ready to slay the day and here is the amazing thing are you ready for this this is not me saying it who am I what am I to say it this is Ray saying it he's a sadic if you've ever seen him or spend time with him he's not from this world he happens to be living in the same world as us but he's he's a get he's he's not from this world he's not there's certain people like that you ever me people like that you happen to be occupying the same Globe you happen to be on the same Planet but they're living up here you're living down here like you're just living different existences conversations places people it's just a different it's a different way of being I love those people because they remind us there's another world there's another way of being there's another existence there's another existence I don't remember if I I'm gonna come back to this one second I don't remember if I told you this before but the great R shita he stayed at our house last year he came for a few days please God he'll be well enough come this year again for a few days he's one of those people he's living in another world another Planet so he has chronic pain he has challenges NE you'll never hear him complain about it so when I saw him early in the morning when he stayed at our house I said how is the r feeling today he stopped he looked at me and he said exactly how Hashem wants me to feel he didn't say I may have told you this I apologize if I did he didn't say you know like like some sh Al kid would have said I feel great because even though I'm in horrible pain but it's from hasem so I feel terrible terrible but is like he didn't have some calculation he just said I feel how Hashem wants me to feel he was honest he's in pain I'm in pain but that's how has wants me to feel right now trying to treat it trying to relieve it trying to solve it trying to fix it but until then this is how has wants me to feel right it's just another way to experience pain everybody would C and miserable and I'm pain I'm tired and give me a narcotic and give me a thing and feel bad and give me sympathy and give me he just was like I don't have time for this I feel how hashm wants me to feel what's next what's next V what's next it's there are people they're just living another existence interpreting we can we can stop and say you know what that's how it feels I'm doing everything I can I'm taking all my initiative to solve it seeing everybody I'm not lazy I'm not waiting for a miracle I'm doing everything I can to solve it but until then this is how I meant to feel so that's it what's next what's next what else am I meant to be doing in the moment a person begins to live this way you know what happens that friend who feels distanced and alienated from you that friend who you betrayed or hurt or maybe made a decision not enormous but made them feel you know what I guess I'm checking out when you come over and you say I miss you and I want to restore our friendship and if I have to make amends tell me what I did I'm so sorry but I just want you to know I miss you and I long for our relationship and I want to reconnect 9.9 times out of 10 the other part is going to say thank you that means the world to me when can you do coffee they you've restored the relationship just because there is that first step that desire that yearning that first step to restore okay now we got to go for coffee and now we might yell and scream and cry and tears because we're going to unpack some stuff yeah when you did this it made me feel bad and you really hurt me so sorry I would never do that again it wasn't my there's going to be some work that has to get done in friendship in marriage parent child in any relationship and the same is true with Hashem but just like in all those other relationships when you take that first step when the child comes home the parents welcomes with open arms even though the things we got to work out now things we got to talk about now but the fact that you came home Open Arms here's you ready what El ishem miss you I want to live with you I want to talk to you I want to hear you talking to me I want to reconnect I want to live in that special place with you Hashem says done Welcome Home New Start let's do it we got okay now there's some work to do rasher now we got to do some chuva now we have to have regret and V confession said we've got to make a commitment for the future but just that gesture just that movement just that approach and this is right this is the proper preparation so you want to know what I have to do for rashash maybe or maybe not it includes a brisket you have to know what you need to do for rash maybe maybe not it includes shopping for apples making sure you have some honey you want to know what you have to do for rashash yes it includes what's your menu who are your guests do you have a moer for everybody in the family is it the art scroll the burn bound what are you updating this yes there are preparations you got to do for rash but the biggest preparation the most Central essential preparation saysay preparation is have you had that conversation with Hashem I miss you I long for you I want to go back to what we had I want it to be better than it's ever been I don't want to just coexist with you I don't want to just overlap with you I don't want to go through the motions with you I don't want to be a zombie and an autopilot with you I want to be present I want to be connected I need and I want to feel your hug I miss it I miss it there are people who coexist and when they come back together what a hug means you ever need a hug you ever give a hug every once walking there's a person holding a sign hugs anybody need a hug happy to give a hug today it's creepy you get arrested I don't know what you opt in you have to sign a consent form before I don't know how it works today again appropriate but some people there's some people who haven't been hugged in Forever you know what you can do if you just give them a hug you know what it would be the stories of the great sadin going to prison the amazing Al Institute people in prison haven't had a hug in a long time do you know you sometimes give a person a hug and they melt in your arms that human contact that exchange of energy that warmth that hug what that does to a person Hashem I need your hug it's been so long I haven't felt that hug I haven't felt the hug of we looked all over and then we went to the pizza takeout and then there was a sign you went and hasem O that was delicious I needed that hug there are people who so you know what the H for Yad is the preparation the anticipation the getting ready for Yad is Hashem I want and I need your hug I'm trying to give you a hug and I need to feel your hug I want a wink from you I want a hug from you I want a handshake from you I want a need to feel connected to you I want to confide in you I want to talk to you I want to hear you talking to me that's what we have to do make the brisket is brisket a Russ thing okay why not what every Jewish holiday okay brisket make the brisket and set the table and get the apples and buy the honey and get it all set but that's not the preparation we spend so much time that of course is the preparation also I'm not saying don't do that but just like P we put so much effort into the physical parts of it but what about the spiritual emotional parts it so that when we get to rash and we open that so we don't say wait where am I what day of the year is it what's happening what am I supposed to be doing here what am I me you can't do that you can't do that you can't do that you've got to build up ramp up you got to get ready you got to get ready and this is the way this is the prep this is how we get ready I miss you I long for you I'm taking that first step I want to come home to you I want to feel connected I miss you I long for you he keeps coming back just like we kept coming back that there's hard work to do after that this is not we're not trying to paint a picture of some Kumbaya Judaism we're like just feel good and sing and hug hug it out hug it out with hem you're all good that's not it there's hard work to do has expectations of us you know when your kid comes home and you've been fighted and alien they're not talking to the slamming doors they're and they s you know mommy ABA whatever I want to work it out I miss you say good now we got to talk about the fact that you took the car without permission you stayed up past curfew you're not making the great now we got there still stuff we got to talk about I'm glad you missed me I miss you I long for you I love you I don't want to coexist with you I want to fix this good great first step 99% of the way there now that last percent is a lot of the hard work now we got to figure out what went wrong but there also a realignment of the vision of this because it's not some punitive God who's trying to catch us we're not coming before hasem and he's like you did this bad and that wrong and lightning is gon to strike and I'm taking this away and I'm giving you a miserable year he's a parent He Loves Us ainu Malu he's ainu before Malu he's our father before he's our King he's our father before he's our King and this is what he wants you know we say leid all of this whole month we say chapter 27 of tum in the morning and at night God you are my light and my salvation chapter 27 for the month of all the way till the end of suus for 40 day for more than 40 Days for 55 days we say we say or 50 days we say theem the core of theem rberg pointed this out on last week's or two weeks ago behind the be we sayem I want to see your face are we Mish are we yearning are we thirsty are we hungry for p hasem as p it's also a great song remind me we put the song in the WhatsApp group because every time I read the every day the D has a lot of great Jewish songs in it takes a long time to say because each time in your mind you're singing each song So Dasa Boy song this song it's from Yesa Boy Choir song no who sings Who the we put in the what but this is the theme song of the theme song of is p Hashem I miss you I want to see your face I want to feel your hug I want to yeah we got work to do but that's what I want this is true all year long doesn't mean like in April I don't need to see your face you're on your own God bless you good luck to you no that sh is all year long that I want to see your face that hug it's all year long but right now he's waiting right now now is more than ever he's waiting he longing his arms are open these are days of love and closeness in this holy month the doors are open and every Jew easily this now we know that people are certain moments in time right when do you go over to the person when do you make the gesture where's your opening when are they in the mood when is the right time to bring it up right do we all have that with a spouse with a friend with a child with a coworker when is the right moment when is the right time when in the right mood when should I bring it up so maybe one feels that way with Hashem too where's my moment where's my opening when should I and his answer is right now right now right now is knocking on our door bring us back to full before you in these days of this inner point is Awakening there's a there's a there's a moment there's a moment know that we read on P is all this love story is the Love Story the these two lovers but they can't get in sync when one wants the other one's un available when the other one wants they're not available and sometimes it's hard sometimes there's a couple that one is ready and the other's not ready and the other's ready and the other's not ready and how do they get in sync sh it's not till the second or last chapter of sh they finally can we think that sh is his love story from the opening verse love story but it's not it's the story of two people who can't connect who can't figure out who can't get their timing right who can't get their timing right people in you know how hard it is this one's available to go out this one's not doing something this one's available but now this one's not doing something they finally go out this one feels it the other doesn't feel it they break up now this one feels it the other doesn't feel it how do you get it right how do you get it right how do you get it right how do you get to that place that it's right so El is a time it's right we're longing to connect to Hashem Hashem is longing to connect to us this is our month it's pregnant with possibility it's filled with potential I am to my beloved my beloved is to me we are wanting Chu and to return to him this is our mission this is our mission this is our mandate it's what this month is all about it's what all year is all about it's what life is all about it's chuva there are mechanics there's a formula there are details there's hard work but you got to get to the gym even before you touch one of the machines the machines are the hard work at the gym you know it's harder than even before you start lifting getting to the gym that's much harder the hard work is in the gym it's not hard work to get to the gym I go in my car it's air conditioned comfortable leather seats why is that hard work getting to the gym the answer is it's a lot harder to get to the gym than it is to even do the work in the gym that doesn't mean that when you get to the gym you could have a dut and sit and watch others once you get to the gym you got hard work to do once you get to the gym you got to do the hard work but getting to the gym is hard El is getting to the gym with Hashem hasm I miss you I love you I want to feel your hug I want you back we all be Z we should feel lots of hugs we need his hugs since October 7th we need a hug so badly so the pager the miracle of the pagers was a big hug from Hashem we need more and more hugs we need hostages home which are big hugs we need hugs from Hashem we need good news we need Simas we need we need good things Hashem give us hugs should be the end of a bad year year of curses end the and the year of blessings begin should be a year filled with only hugs and Only Love and only I'm not sure if we have Shar next week yet depends how I'm doing on the sh so I will post no we're not doing it Wednesday morning for sure you'll be making your brisket I'm not available we're not doing it Wednesday morning but maybe Monday morning we'll see if we do it Monday morning I'll let you know pay attention in the group after you listen toh pay attention in the group and we'll let you know and because you came to today reward yourself on the way out have a Slurpee and make a big sh